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 Good morning, Watermark. My name's Chris. For those of you who don't know me, I help

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 oversee the community groups here at Watermark Church. And today, I don't know how you feel

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 after reading that passage. It's pretty intense. I've struggled, I've wrestled a bit with this.

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 Some passages in the Bible are kind of, yeah, I really want to preach on that. Some passages

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 I just don't want to preach on. And this is kind of one of those passages. So I really

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 want to pray that God would take this and really speak to us and reveal something about what

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 the heart of this is about. Today, we're looking at the issue of failure. And failure is as

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 common to all of us as breathing. We live in a society which tells us that we should be a success

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 in every area of our lives. You should be a success in your exams. You should be a success in your career.

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 You should be a success in your family. You should be a success in every area of your life. And yet,

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 all of us know that deep down inside, we fail in one or many aspects of those. If we're a success in

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 our business, we may be a failure in our family. If we're a success in our exams or our college,

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 we may feel like a failure in our Christian life. Many people are driven by a fear of failure.

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 People try and cover up the fact that their companies are failing. They lie after lie just

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 to make sure that everybody sees that they are respectable and they look like they're a success,

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 even though deep down they all know that actually there is something wrong, something where we fail.

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 And personally speaking, I've had my fair share of failures in my life. A couple of failures. When

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 I was at university, I had to leave university for four years because I had a mental breakdown

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 and depression for four years. When I came back after four years, all of my peers had left. They

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 had got good jobs. They were married. They were having kids. And here was I, almost back at the

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 beginning, at square one. I felt like a failure. As a community group leader in a previous church,

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 I was at one point asked to step down from leading because I was so wrapped up in myself that I was

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 stopped stopping really caring for the people that I was supposed to be caring for. At that point,

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 I felt like a failure. And as a Christian, as a Jesus follower, I failed many, many times. There

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 are people I know I should have shared the gospel with and I didn't. There are times I should have

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 held my tongue and I didn't. There are times that I know I should have considered other people's

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 feelings and I didn't. And it seems that I do this again and again and I say, God, forgive me,

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 and then I seem to do it again and again and again. And this cycle kind of seems to continue

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 in my life. And I kind of sometimes feel like I'm just clinging on for heaven, maybe. We all fail.

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 But I have four friends who I'd like to talk to you about. My four friends deal with failure in

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 different ways. The first friend I'd like to introduce you to is Beat Yourself Up Bob.

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 Beat Yourself Up Bob. He has messed up his sales presentation yet again. And he comes to you and

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 he says, I'm hopeless. I've done it again. I'm just a waste of time. There's no point continuing. I

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 want to give up. What's the use? I'm not worth anything. I can never get it right. That's my friend

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 beat yourself up Bob. I have another friend called Defensive Diana. Defensive Diana, she forgot to

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 take her daughter to her piano exam. So she didn't pass her piano exam. But if you confronted her with

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 this problem, she would find at least 20 other culprits for why her daughter didn't get to the

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 piano exam. It was her husband's fault. He looked at her wrong. It was the piano teacher's fault. She

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 didn't remind her. It was anything. It was the war in Iraq. It could have been anything

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 except her. Because the moment it seems like she might have to take some responsibility,

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 the wars come up, the defenses come up, and you're not getting anywhere. Another nickname for her is

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 blame it on anyone but me, Brenda. And then you have my third friend. So beat yourself up Bob,

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 Defensive Diana. Then you have my third friend who is called Minimizing Martin. Now Minimizing Martin,

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 he forgot his wife's anniversary yet again. But so what? It's not a big deal. I mean, I remembered it

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 three years ago, and there's going to be another one next year. So chill out. Don't worry. It's not a big

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 deal, you know. And yes, I know I should have invited some of my friends to connect with people

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 from my community group. But you know, I've been busy. Jesus loves me. He's going to forgive me.

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 We can't all be perfect, can we? That's my friend Minimizing Martin. And then my final friend

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 is Tryhard Tracy. Now, Tryhard Tracy, she's a good Christian. She knows that she should share her faith

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 with her friends. But every time she comes to talk to them about the good news, she just bottles it.

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 She just loses courage. She can't do it. And she feels like a failure. But you know, last week,

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 she listened to an inspirational talk. Now she's determined. She's bought the book,

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 How to Convert the World in 24 Hours. She's enrolled on the course, Share Your Faith in Three Easy Steps.

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 She's listened to Oprah Winfrey, who's just told her, you know, when failure comes,

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 it's a chance just to dig deep, find the potential inside of you. You know, you can make it. You've

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 just got to try a bit harder. And so now she's armed and dangerous. She's determined this week,

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 anyone who comes across her path, they're going to get it. They're going to have the full Old Testament

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 to New Testament, Genesis to Revelation. It doesn't matter who it is. And be careful if you're one of

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 her friends, because you might be in for it. I don't know how you respond to failure, whether you

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 respond like my friends. But as we come to the book of Ezra, and we're coming to the last in our series

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 of looking at the prophets, it might be slightly surprising to you that actually Ezra is not a

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 prophet, but he's a priest. And the book of Ezra is basically, it covers about 80 years of history,

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 and it's almost in the Old Testament of the Bible. It's almost in time, one of the last books that

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 happens in the Bible. There's Ezra, Nehemiah, Malachi are the only ones which are right at the end

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 of the story of the Old Testament. So the next things that happened are the New Testament with

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 Jesus coming. And what's happened? So we're looking after thousands of years of Israel's history,

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 and we've got to this point. And what's the point they're at? They're at the point where

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 previously, in a previous episode, thousands of Israelis have been taken as forced expats,

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 invaded by another country, taken into modern-day Iraq for about 67 years, where they've settled

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 down into the local population. And they've had to settle in with some strange people who have

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 strange customs, with strange gods, with strange food. And some of you may feel like that in Hong Kong.

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 But the original group of people who are colonized them have changed. And so now, there is a new group

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 of people, and they have a different policy. Their policy is, send people back to where they've come

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 from. And basically, they can do what they like, as long as they give us tax money, and they don't

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 cause any trouble. We just want money, and no trouble. And so, one group of these Jews have come back,

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 and about 80 years later, Ezra comes back. Ezra, who's a man who loves God's word, who loves it,

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 who knows what God has promised in the past, and he gets back. He's excited about being back. He's

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 excited about restoring what Israel has forgotten they were, and was now going to become. And so,

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 he gets back. He settles in. And then, you come to chapter one. Sorry, verse one of chapter nine.

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 He sorted a few things out, and then it says,

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 after these things have been done, the leaders came to me and said,

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 the people of Israel, including the priests and the Levites, have kept themselves separate

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 from the neighboring peoples with their detestable, have not kept themselves separate from the

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 neighboring peoples with their detestable practices, like those of the Canaanites, Hittites,

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 Perizzites, Jebusites, Ammonites, Moabites, Egyptians, and Amorites. They have taken some of their

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 daughters as wives for themselves and their sons, and have mingled the holy race with the peoples

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 around them. Ezra is devastated. But if you think about it, the crime doesn't really seem that serious.

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 I mean, it actually seems a little bit racist. Because what is the problem? The problem is,

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 you've married someone from other countries. Now, I've just got married to Fiona.

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 I'm from the UK. She's from Hong Kong. Imagine if we had invited Ezra to the wedding ceremony.

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 There's Ezra in his tuxedo at the back, and the pastor might say, does anyone know any reason why

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 these people can't get married? And there is Ezra running down the aisle, tearing his beard,

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 tearing his hair out, tearing his tux, saying, Fiona, how could you be so unfaithful to marry a guaylo?

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 It sounds like something that a religious extremist, maybe someone from the Taliban might do.

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 Is this the God that we serve who doesn't like interracial marriage? Should we suddenly get a

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 divorce, all of those who have married interracially? And if you're a Christian and you read these

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 passages, it feels a little bit embarrassing. Because it doesn't seem very kind of modern.

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 It doesn't seem very politically correct. It seems just a little bit racist. We want to have an open

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 mind. We want to be tolerant. We want to accept everyone and everything in the 21st century. And

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 Ezra doesn't seem to fit the bill. And I often read people who are not believers. And when they come to

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 the Bible, and particularly come to the Old Testament, this is some of the things they pick

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 up and say, how can you believe in a God who just seems to be racist, seems to be so intolerant

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 in all these things? And I think it sounds like a very good question. But the problem is, many of us

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 who struggle with this don't understand. If you want to understand the Old Testament, you've got to

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 understand the big story of what's going on in the Old Testament, so that you see where this fits in

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 with the big story. Because this is one piece of the story of what God is working out in the Bible.

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 And so let's just look very quickly, a couple of questions just to get through this. So first of all,

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 let's look at the issue. Is the Bible, Bible story against interracial marriage? Okay.

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 Should we all get a divorce if you are married interracially? The Bible says actually no, because

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 the Bible actually contains some very celebrated interracial marriages. Moses marries a black

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 Ethiopian. And if you read in Numbers 12, actually some people oppose him for marrying someone from

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 another race. And what does God do? God actually judges those people. And strangely, he turns their skin

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 white, which is strange that white skin in that situation was a curse. Go figure.

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 Particularly if you're trying to use those 24-day whitening creams. I mean...

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 There's another famous book in the Bible called Ruth. Ruth is an amazing story. It's a story about a

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 Jordanian woman, a Moabite, who comes to marry an Israelite. She's a foreigner. She's outcast, but she

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 comes in to the Israelite community. She turns to their God. And this guy, Boaz, he shows her incredible

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 kindness. And he brings her into the family, marries her. And actually, as you look through the story,

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 you find in Jesus' family tree, Ruth and Boaz are right there in Jesus' family tree.

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 Because the issue here is actually

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 we need to understand what is God doing. We need to understand the story.

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 Because what's happening in that story of Ruth is actually a little sneak preview

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 of what God had always intended for Israel to be.

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 Back in Genesis, if any of you were here for the Genesis series, we looked at God giving a promise

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 to Abraham. And this is critical. If you want to understand the Old Testament, you've got to

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 understand this promise to Abraham. You will miss much of the Old Testament if you don't get it.

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 He promises three things. He promises Abraham and his children. You will have a land,

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 a place where you're going to live. You will have

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 a people, a people who are my own

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 special people, a people who are going to be

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 specially for God and God alone.

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 So he promises a land, he promises a people, and then he promises

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 blessing. He says, you will get

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 blessing beyond your wildest dreams

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 if you make me the center of your life.

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 And actually, that blessing is not just for you. That blessing is to go to

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 all the nations all around you. It's meant to touch all the other nations.

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 And the story of Ruth is just giving you a glimpse of what's going on there.

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 And what is meant to happen is, for Israel, people are meant to see

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 Israel, God is at the center of their community, and all the other nations are meant to look at them

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 and say, wow, there's something different about you. I don't know what it is.

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 How can you be so generous? How can you forgive people so unconditionally?

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 How can you love the poor? How can you not exploit your workers but give them fair wages?

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 How can you be a community where your families just work so well, where everything seems to flourish so well?

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 And the Israelites were meant to say, well, do you know what?

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 It's because we serve an amazing God.

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 And you need to come and serve him too.

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 And you want to know that blessing too.

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 That's what Israel were meant to be.

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 They're meant to be holy, different, set apart,

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 so that when people looked at them, they would go, I want some of that.

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 And they would come to know

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 the God of Israel

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 and come to know his blessing.

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 So the issue here is

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 not a question

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 in Ezra.

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 It's not a question of race.

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 It's actually a question

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 of religion and practice.

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 If you look in

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 verse 1, verse 11, verse 14,

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 you will see these three words.

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 The nations,

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 their detestable practices.

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 That's the problem.

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 Because each nation

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 had their own set of gods.

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 And if you read what these gods are like,

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 and you can go and research it online,

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 you read what these gods are like,

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 these gods are brutal.

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 They are sex addicted.

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 They are exploitative.

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 They use humans

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 as slaves.

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 In their stories

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 of these tribes,

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 that's what their gods were like.

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 And what your god is like

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 is always reflected

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 in the practice

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 of what the people are like.

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 And so it's not surprising

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 that these people

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 exploited the poor.

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 And you can read about this.

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 They had widespread

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 ritual prostitution

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 in the heart

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 of their religion.

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 They had abusive relationships.

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 They had even

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 child sacrifice.

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 And God says,

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 you are not to be like that.

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 You are to be

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 totally different

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 from that.

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 So his reason for saying

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 don't marry

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 these other nations

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 is

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 because I want you

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 to be different

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 and I want you to be

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 a blessing to these people.

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 I don't want you to just

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 go in and be

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 exactly like them.

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 Because the history of Israel

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 showed that whenever

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 they married

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 people from other nations,

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 what happened?

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 They became

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 just like them.

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 They followed

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 everything they did.

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 Their society

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 became corrupt.

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 They started

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 exploiting people,

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 abusing people.

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 That's terrible.

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 So,

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 you may have

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 another question here.

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 Well, okay,

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 if it's not about race

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 but it's about

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 religion of practice,

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 does that mean

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 Christians should divorce

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 their non-Christian spouses?

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 And,

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 the Bible is very clear.

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 1 Corinthians 7

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 says no.

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 Christians should be

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 a witness

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 to your partners

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 of how amazing God is.

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 This command

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 was for Israel

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 at a particular time

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 in a particular place.

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 And God has said

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 in the New Testament

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 he tells us

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 you're to be a witness

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 to your partners.

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 But he does say

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 don't enter into a marriage

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 if you're going to be

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 spiritually not on the same page

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 because you're always

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 going to be

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 pulling each other apart

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 and pulling away

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 and feeling the tension

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 of what it is

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 to not walk with God.

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 There's always going to be

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 a tension point.

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 But isn't God against

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 divorce?

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 Because what happens

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 is the people here

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 they end up

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 actually ends up

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 with divorcing

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 their wives.

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 And isn't God

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 against divorce?

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 Because that seems

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 pretty hard.

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 And the Bible says

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 very clearly

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 in the book of Malachi

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 chapter 2

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 it says yeah

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 God hates divorce.

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 He hates divorce.

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 But it seems

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 that here

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 divorcing

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 the women

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 was the lesser

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 of two evils.

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 And this is really

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 I find this really tough.

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 I just honestly

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 I find this very difficult.

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 But the choice was

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 either the whole nation

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 turns away from God

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 or a few families

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 will feel the pain

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 of separation.

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 Because actually

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 at the end of chapter 10

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 we didn't read it

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 there are actually

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 110 families

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 which are listed.

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 110 families

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 are listed.

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 And God says

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 don't allow sin

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 to remain.

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 You've got to be

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 ruthless with sin

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 and sometimes

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 that is painful.

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 Sometimes that is difficult.

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 And actually

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 this is not a rush decision.

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 They take three months.

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 And if you read

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 on chapter 10

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 they sit down

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 with every single couple

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 and they work

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 through the issues

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 with every single couple

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 and it takes three months.

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 But the principle

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 for us here is

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 and Jesus says it himself

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 be ruthless with sin.

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 If there's stuff

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 which is going to

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 draw you away

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 from God

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 don't hold on to it.

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 Don't say

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 it doesn't matter.

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 Don't say

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 oh but

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 you know

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 he says be ruthless

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 because Jesus says

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 if your eye

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 causes you to sin

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 what have you got to do?

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 He says cut it out.

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 That's really hard.

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 That's not

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 that's not very

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 kind of politically correct.

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 That's not

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 lovely and cuddly.

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 But actually

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 God says

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 if you want to know

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 what it really means

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 to live

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 to be with me

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 be ruthless

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 with sin.

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 So let's

00:20:56.720 --> 00:20:57.800
 just want to have

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 a quick look

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 as we go through

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 the rest of the chapter

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 because

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 I don't know about you

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 but I feel

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 that sense of

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 sometimes

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 I habitually

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 do the same things

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 again

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 and again

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 and again

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 and sometimes

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 I don't really want

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 to be particularly

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 ruthless

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 with the things

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 that I struggle with.

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 so let's just

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 have a quick look

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 at some of the things

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 that how Ezra

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 and the people

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 respond.

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 So let's look

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 at their response

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 let's look

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 so we've looked

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 at the problem here

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 let's look at their response

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 and then we'll look

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 at the hope

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 that there is.

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 Okay

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 so if you look

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 at Ezra's response

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 again

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 it seems really extreme.

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 When I heard this

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 verse 3

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 I tore my tunic

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 and cloak

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 pulled hair

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 from my head

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 and beard

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 and sat down

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 appalled

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 then everyone

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 who trembled

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 at the words

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 of the God of Israel

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 gathered round me

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 because of this

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 unfaithfulness

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 of the exiles

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 and I sat there

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 appalled

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 until the evening sacrifice

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 then at the evening sacrifice

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 I rose from my self-abasement

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 with my tunic

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 and cloak torn

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 fell on my knees

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 with my hands

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 spread out to my God

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 and prayed

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 I'm too ashamed

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 and disgraced

00:22:11.440 --> 00:22:11.780
 my God

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 to lift up my face

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 to you.

00:22:15.780 --> 00:22:16.860
 Ezra's pretty broken

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 at this point.

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 Ezra's pretty broken

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 and I don't know

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 if you've ever got

00:22:21.600 --> 00:22:22.180
 to that point

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 where you just feel

00:22:23.440 --> 00:22:24.760
 that sense of utter despair

00:22:24.760 --> 00:22:26.740
 but normally

00:22:26.740 --> 00:22:28.220
 normally I don't

00:22:28.220 --> 00:22:29.500
 when I've done something

00:22:29.500 --> 00:22:31.280
 that I know

00:22:31.280 --> 00:22:32.260
 has not pleased God

00:22:32.260 --> 00:22:33.200
 but

00:22:33.200 --> 00:22:35.460
 sometimes I do

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 and usually I do

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 because of two reasons

00:22:38.240 --> 00:22:39.259
 one because I feel

00:22:39.259 --> 00:22:40.420
 I've let myself down

00:22:40.420 --> 00:22:41.660
 you know

00:22:41.660 --> 00:22:43.059
 you kind of get that feeling

00:22:43.059 --> 00:22:43.900
 of oh no

00:22:43.900 --> 00:22:45.620
 what have I done

00:22:45.620 --> 00:22:46.839
 and it's

00:22:46.839 --> 00:22:47.700
 for me

00:22:47.700 --> 00:22:48.700
 it's often because

00:22:48.700 --> 00:22:50.220
 I've got this standard

00:22:50.220 --> 00:22:51.519
 and I feel

00:22:51.519 --> 00:22:52.259
 I haven't kind of

00:22:52.259 --> 00:22:53.339
 lived up to my standard

00:22:53.339 --> 00:22:53.700
 and I say

00:22:53.700 --> 00:22:55.019
 that's not normally me

00:22:55.019 --> 00:22:56.120
 that's not like me

00:22:56.120 --> 00:22:57.359
 I don't normally do that

00:22:57.359 --> 00:22:59.279
 and the problem is

00:22:59.279 --> 00:22:59.960
 my standards

00:22:59.960 --> 00:23:00.539
 are pretty low

00:23:00.539 --> 00:23:01.140
 to start with

00:23:01.140 --> 00:23:02.000
 so if I haven't even

00:23:02.000 --> 00:23:03.660
 reached my standards

00:23:03.660 --> 00:23:04.259
 then there's something

00:23:04.259 --> 00:23:05.259
 seriously wrong.

00:23:05.259 --> 00:23:08.400
 I never normally

00:23:08.400 --> 00:23:09.039
 do that

00:23:09.039 --> 00:23:11.900
 that's one way

00:23:11.900 --> 00:23:13.019
 how I normally respond

00:23:13.019 --> 00:23:14.000
 the second way

00:23:14.000 --> 00:23:15.440
 that I might feel despair

00:23:15.440 --> 00:23:16.559
 is at the consequences

00:23:16.559 --> 00:23:17.799
 oh no

00:23:17.799 --> 00:23:19.119
 my wife's going to

00:23:19.119 --> 00:23:19.660
 find out

00:23:19.660 --> 00:23:21.559
 what are other people

00:23:21.559 --> 00:23:22.539
 going to think about me

00:23:22.539 --> 00:23:23.279
 if they hear

00:23:23.279 --> 00:23:24.539
 that I'm struggling

00:23:24.539 --> 00:23:25.299
 with pornography

00:23:25.299 --> 00:23:26.460
 what are they going to

00:23:26.460 --> 00:23:26.940
 think about me

00:23:26.940 --> 00:23:27.359
 if they know

00:23:27.359 --> 00:23:28.000
 that my business

00:23:28.000 --> 00:23:28.619
 is failing

00:23:28.619 --> 00:23:29.920
 or that I

00:23:29.920 --> 00:23:30.779
 am struggling

00:23:30.779 --> 00:23:31.599
 in my marriage

00:23:31.599 --> 00:23:32.779
 what are they going to

00:23:32.779 --> 00:23:33.440
 think

00:23:33.440 --> 00:23:34.000
 oh no

00:23:34.000 --> 00:23:37.539
 and

00:23:37.539 --> 00:23:39.820
 Ezra's response

00:23:39.820 --> 00:23:40.160
 is not

00:23:40.160 --> 00:23:40.700
 oops

00:23:40.700 --> 00:23:41.860
 oh dear

00:23:41.860 --> 00:23:43.259
 oh dear

00:23:43.259 --> 00:23:44.200
 Ezra's response

00:23:44.200 --> 00:23:44.880
 is oh no

00:23:44.880 --> 00:23:46.680
 and

00:23:46.680 --> 00:23:47.960
 I don't know

00:23:47.960 --> 00:23:48.299
 if you remember

00:23:48.299 --> 00:23:48.759
 the story

00:23:48.759 --> 00:23:49.519
 that Alistair

00:23:49.519 --> 00:23:50.880
 shared last week

00:23:50.880 --> 00:23:51.299
 about

00:23:51.299 --> 00:23:52.740
 his friend

00:23:52.740 --> 00:23:53.299
 who had had

00:23:53.299 --> 00:23:53.799
 an affair

00:23:53.799 --> 00:23:55.779
 and he came back

00:23:55.779 --> 00:23:56.440
 to his wife

00:23:56.440 --> 00:23:57.240
 he felt remorse

00:23:57.240 --> 00:23:58.100
 and he came back

00:23:58.100 --> 00:23:59.380
 and he confessed

00:23:59.380 --> 00:24:00.019
 his sin

00:24:00.019 --> 00:24:00.920
 to his wife

00:24:00.920 --> 00:24:02.480
 imagine

00:24:02.480 --> 00:24:04.019
 if at that moment

00:24:04.019 --> 00:24:05.099
 when he confessed

00:24:05.099 --> 00:24:05.620
 that he'd

00:24:05.620 --> 00:24:06.299
 he cheated

00:24:06.299 --> 00:24:06.900
 on his wife

00:24:06.900 --> 00:24:07.380
 imagine

00:24:07.380 --> 00:24:08.620
 if he'd said

00:24:08.620 --> 00:24:10.759
 sorry love

00:24:10.759 --> 00:24:11.400
 you know

00:24:11.400 --> 00:24:13.920
 I've cheated

00:24:13.920 --> 00:24:14.400
 on you

00:24:14.400 --> 00:24:15.720
 and I feel

00:24:15.720 --> 00:24:16.519
 so terrible

00:24:16.519 --> 00:24:17.000
 about it

00:24:17.000 --> 00:24:17.519
 because I've

00:24:17.519 --> 00:24:18.079
 broken the

00:24:18.079 --> 00:24:19.079
 seventh commandment

00:24:19.079 --> 00:24:20.059
 and you know

00:24:20.059 --> 00:24:20.599
 I've been doing

00:24:20.599 --> 00:24:21.680
 so well up till then

00:24:21.680 --> 00:24:22.579
 I've done all the

00:24:22.579 --> 00:24:23.079
 other nine

00:24:23.079 --> 00:24:23.880
 really well

00:24:23.880 --> 00:24:24.480
 but you know

00:24:24.480 --> 00:24:25.460
 this seventh one

00:24:25.460 --> 00:24:26.339
 oh I just

00:24:26.339 --> 00:24:27.180
 messed it up

00:24:27.180 --> 00:24:28.200
 and maybe God's

00:24:28.200 --> 00:24:28.559
 not going to

00:24:28.559 --> 00:24:29.299
 bless my marriage

00:24:29.299 --> 00:24:29.700
 now

00:24:29.700 --> 00:24:32.380
 how's his wife

00:24:32.380 --> 00:24:32.840
 going to feel

00:24:32.840 --> 00:24:33.400
 about that

00:24:33.400 --> 00:24:37.400
 because

00:24:37.400 --> 00:24:39.440
 maybe he's not

00:24:39.440 --> 00:24:40.200
 met the standard

00:24:40.200 --> 00:24:40.740
 but actually

00:24:40.740 --> 00:24:41.960
 that's not the issue

00:24:41.960 --> 00:24:42.319
 there

00:24:42.319 --> 00:24:43.380
 the issue

00:24:43.380 --> 00:24:44.240
 is a relational

00:24:44.240 --> 00:24:44.840
 issue

00:24:44.840 --> 00:24:46.500
 that's what makes

00:24:46.500 --> 00:24:47.519
 it so painful

00:24:47.519 --> 00:24:48.519
 it's not because

00:24:48.519 --> 00:24:49.880
 you've broken

00:24:49.880 --> 00:24:50.480
 a rule

00:24:50.480 --> 00:24:52.000
 it's actually

00:24:52.000 --> 00:24:52.559
 because

00:24:52.559 --> 00:24:53.640
 there's something

00:24:53.640 --> 00:24:55.080
 relationally wrong

00:24:55.080 --> 00:24:56.380
 in that setting

00:24:56.380 --> 00:24:57.820
 that's why Ezra

00:24:57.820 --> 00:24:58.320
 is just

00:24:58.320 --> 00:24:59.060
 oh

00:24:59.060 --> 00:25:00.080
 because there's

00:25:00.080 --> 00:25:00.580
 a relational

00:25:00.580 --> 00:25:01.040
 problem

00:25:01.040 --> 00:25:01.680
 and

00:25:01.680 --> 00:25:03.300
 it's very

00:25:03.300 --> 00:25:03.500
 interesting

00:25:03.500 --> 00:25:03.840
 I'm not going

00:25:03.840 --> 00:25:04.320
 to spend time

00:25:04.320 --> 00:25:04.500
 on this

00:25:04.500 --> 00:25:04.940
 but if you

00:25:04.940 --> 00:25:05.280
 look

00:25:05.280 --> 00:25:06.180
 Ezra

00:25:06.180 --> 00:25:07.860
 Ezra's actually

00:25:07.860 --> 00:25:08.420
 not the one

00:25:08.420 --> 00:25:08.880
 who's done

00:25:08.880 --> 00:25:09.400
 something wrong

00:25:09.400 --> 00:25:09.660
 here

00:25:09.660 --> 00:25:10.800
 did you notice

00:25:10.800 --> 00:25:11.100
 that

00:25:11.100 --> 00:25:11.800
 but do you

00:25:11.800 --> 00:25:12.200
 notice what

00:25:12.200 --> 00:25:12.480
 he says

00:25:12.480 --> 00:25:12.840
 he says

00:25:12.840 --> 00:25:13.180
 we

00:25:13.180 --> 00:25:14.600
 have sinned

00:25:14.600 --> 00:25:15.000
 we

00:25:15.000 --> 00:25:15.820
 us

00:25:15.820 --> 00:25:16.460
 our

00:25:16.460 --> 00:25:17.220
 sin

00:25:17.220 --> 00:25:17.620
 our

00:25:17.620 --> 00:25:18.260
 failings

00:25:18.260 --> 00:25:18.940
 do you

00:25:18.940 --> 00:25:19.400
 notice that

00:25:19.400 --> 00:25:20.100
 very

00:25:20.100 --> 00:25:21.140
 interesting

00:25:21.140 --> 00:25:21.600
 because you

00:25:21.600 --> 00:25:21.860
 see

00:25:21.860 --> 00:25:23.140
 Ezra's got

00:25:23.140 --> 00:25:23.780
 this idea

00:25:23.780 --> 00:25:24.800
 that he's

00:25:24.800 --> 00:25:25.420
 part of

00:25:25.420 --> 00:25:26.039
 God's people

00:25:26.039 --> 00:25:26.519
 and God's

00:25:26.519 --> 00:25:26.800
 got this

00:25:26.800 --> 00:25:27.539
 amazing plan

00:25:27.539 --> 00:25:27.880
 for his

00:25:27.880 --> 00:25:28.200
 people

00:25:28.200 --> 00:25:28.539
 and if

00:25:28.539 --> 00:25:28.960
 one

00:25:28.960 --> 00:25:30.000
 person

00:25:30.000 --> 00:25:30.759
 if one

00:25:30.759 --> 00:25:31.000
 group

00:25:31.000 --> 00:25:31.640
 of people

00:25:31.640 --> 00:25:34.200
 are not

00:25:34.200 --> 00:25:34.600
 living the

00:25:34.600 --> 00:25:34.960
 way God

00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:35.380
 wants

00:25:35.380 --> 00:25:37.259
 that means

00:25:37.259 --> 00:25:37.700
 the whole

00:25:37.700 --> 00:25:37.940
 of the

00:25:37.940 --> 00:25:38.320
 people of

00:25:38.320 --> 00:25:38.480
 God

00:25:38.480 --> 00:25:38.880
 are not

00:25:38.880 --> 00:25:39.320
 living

00:25:39.320 --> 00:25:39.740
 as God

00:25:39.740 --> 00:25:40.200
 wants them

00:25:40.200 --> 00:25:40.539
 to be

00:25:40.539 --> 00:25:40.779
 and it

00:25:40.779 --> 00:25:41.180
 breaks

00:25:41.180 --> 00:25:41.860
 his heart

00:25:41.860 --> 00:25:43.460
 and so

00:25:43.460 --> 00:25:44.180
 he repents

00:25:44.180 --> 00:25:44.519
 and says

00:25:44.519 --> 00:25:45.000
 we

00:25:45.000 --> 00:25:45.759
 have not

00:25:45.759 --> 00:25:46.000
 done

00:25:46.000 --> 00:25:46.320
 what you

00:25:46.320 --> 00:25:46.720
 wanted

00:25:46.720 --> 00:25:47.860
 and I

00:25:47.860 --> 00:25:48.120
 wonder

00:25:48.120 --> 00:25:48.440
 when

00:25:48.440 --> 00:25:49.700
 how often

00:25:49.700 --> 00:25:49.960
 when you

00:25:49.960 --> 00:25:50.240
 see

00:25:50.240 --> 00:25:50.920
 other people

00:25:50.920 --> 00:25:51.300
 even in

00:25:51.300 --> 00:25:51.700
 Watermark

00:25:51.700 --> 00:25:51.940
 in your

00:25:51.940 --> 00:25:52.220
 community

00:25:52.220 --> 00:25:52.480
 group

00:25:52.480 --> 00:25:53.180
 doing things

00:25:53.180 --> 00:25:53.740
 which you

00:25:53.740 --> 00:25:54.019
 know

00:25:54.019 --> 00:25:54.320
 are not

00:25:54.320 --> 00:25:54.759
 right

00:25:54.759 --> 00:25:56.279
 healthy

00:25:56.279 --> 00:25:56.819
 do you

00:25:56.819 --> 00:25:57.259
 ever come

00:25:57.259 --> 00:25:57.539
 to the

00:25:57.539 --> 00:25:57.720
 point

00:25:57.720 --> 00:25:58.299
 of saying

00:25:58.299 --> 00:25:59.500
 not just

00:25:59.500 --> 00:26:00.640
 them

00:26:00.640 --> 00:26:01.619
 their

00:26:01.619 --> 00:26:02.019
 problem

00:26:02.019 --> 00:26:02.460
 but actually

00:26:02.460 --> 00:26:02.799
 say

00:26:02.799 --> 00:26:03.980
 we have

00:26:03.980 --> 00:26:04.480
 an issue

00:26:04.480 --> 00:26:05.500
 it's a

00:26:05.500 --> 00:26:05.920
 family

00:26:05.920 --> 00:26:06.519
 issue

00:26:06.519 --> 00:26:07.920
 because

00:26:07.920 --> 00:26:08.299
 actually

00:26:08.299 --> 00:26:08.759
 we are

00:26:08.759 --> 00:26:08.920
 not

00:26:08.920 --> 00:26:09.279
 living

00:26:09.279 --> 00:26:10.460
 we need

00:26:10.460 --> 00:26:10.920
 to repent

00:26:10.920 --> 00:26:11.319
 we need

00:26:11.319 --> 00:26:11.460
 to say

00:26:11.460 --> 00:26:11.680
 God

00:26:11.680 --> 00:26:12.119
 change

00:26:12.119 --> 00:26:12.660
 us

00:26:12.660 --> 00:26:13.319
 to be

00:26:13.319 --> 00:26:13.480
 the

00:26:13.480 --> 00:26:13.759
 people

00:26:13.759 --> 00:26:13.940
 you

00:26:13.940 --> 00:26:14.180
 want

00:26:14.180 --> 00:26:14.339
 us

00:26:14.339 --> 00:26:14.700
 to be

00:26:14.700 --> 00:26:15.700
 God

00:26:15.700 --> 00:26:16.700
 but

00:26:16.700 --> 00:26:18.259
 again

00:26:18.259 --> 00:26:18.420
 this

00:26:18.420 --> 00:26:18.620
 seems

00:26:18.620 --> 00:26:20.180
 very

00:26:20.180 --> 00:26:20.559
 heavy

00:26:20.559 --> 00:26:21.340
 in many

00:26:21.340 --> 00:26:21.720
 ways

00:26:21.720 --> 00:26:22.799
 but

00:26:22.799 --> 00:26:24.360
 if you

00:26:24.360 --> 00:26:24.660
 look

00:26:24.660 --> 00:26:25.240
 at

00:26:25.240 --> 00:26:25.440
 verse

00:26:25.440 --> 00:26:25.660
 8

00:26:25.660 --> 00:26:25.799
 to

00:26:25.799 --> 00:26:26.160
 10

00:26:26.160 --> 00:26:26.360
 you

00:26:26.360 --> 00:26:26.580
 see

00:26:26.580 --> 00:26:26.720
 that

00:26:26.720 --> 00:26:27.140
 actually

00:26:27.140 --> 00:26:28.120
 Ezra's

00:26:28.120 --> 00:26:28.400
 not

00:26:28.400 --> 00:26:28.740
 there

00:26:28.740 --> 00:26:29.160
 thinking

00:26:29.160 --> 00:26:29.880
 God

00:26:29.880 --> 00:26:30.059
 is

00:26:30.059 --> 00:26:30.299
 this

00:26:30.299 --> 00:26:31.160
 condemning

00:26:31.160 --> 00:26:31.779
 judge

00:26:31.779 --> 00:26:32.019
 who

00:26:32.019 --> 00:26:32.160
 is

00:26:32.160 --> 00:26:32.360
 there

00:26:32.360 --> 00:26:32.559
 just

00:26:32.559 --> 00:26:32.740
 to

00:26:32.740 --> 00:26:32.940
 beat

00:26:32.940 --> 00:26:33.100
 us

00:26:33.100 --> 00:26:33.299
 around

00:26:33.299 --> 00:26:33.460
 the

00:26:33.460 --> 00:26:33.640
 head

00:26:33.640 --> 00:26:33.799
 with

00:26:33.799 --> 00:26:33.960
 a

00:26:33.960 --> 00:26:34.180
 stick

00:26:34.180 --> 00:26:34.480
 because

00:26:34.480 --> 00:26:34.819
 actually

00:26:34.819 --> 00:26:35.039
 look

00:26:35.039 --> 00:26:35.160
 at

00:26:35.160 --> 00:26:35.380
 8

00:26:35.380 --> 00:26:35.500
 to

00:26:35.500 --> 00:26:35.840
 10

00:26:35.840 --> 00:26:36.640
 and

00:26:36.640 --> 00:26:36.840
 he

00:26:36.840 --> 00:26:37.200
 says

00:26:37.200 --> 00:26:37.840
 I'm

00:26:37.840 --> 00:26:38.440
 so

00:26:38.440 --> 00:26:38.980
 cut

00:26:38.980 --> 00:26:39.140
 to

00:26:39.140 --> 00:26:39.279
 the

00:26:39.279 --> 00:26:39.480
 heart

00:26:39.480 --> 00:26:39.819
 because

00:26:39.819 --> 00:26:40.380
 look

00:26:40.380 --> 00:26:40.480
 at

00:26:40.480 --> 00:26:40.640
 this

00:26:40.640 --> 00:26:40.940
 for a

00:26:40.940 --> 00:26:41.200
 brief

00:26:41.200 --> 00:26:41.600
 moment

00:26:41.599 --> 00:26:42.059
 the

00:26:42.059 --> 00:26:42.279
 Lord

00:26:42.279 --> 00:26:42.480
 our

00:26:42.480 --> 00:26:42.679
 God

00:26:42.679 --> 00:26:42.819
 has

00:26:42.819 --> 00:26:42.980
 been

00:26:42.980 --> 00:26:43.559
 gracious

00:26:43.559 --> 00:26:44.279
 in

00:26:44.279 --> 00:26:44.639
 leaving

00:26:44.639 --> 00:26:44.919
 us

00:26:44.919 --> 00:26:45.139
 a

00:26:45.139 --> 00:26:45.599
 remnant

00:26:45.599 --> 00:26:46.699
 he's

00:26:46.699 --> 00:26:46.879
 been

00:26:46.879 --> 00:26:47.359
 faithful

00:26:47.359 --> 00:26:47.799
 and

00:26:47.799 --> 00:26:48.079
 giving

00:26:48.079 --> 00:26:48.279
 us

00:26:48.279 --> 00:26:48.459
 a

00:26:48.459 --> 00:26:48.759
 firm

00:26:48.759 --> 00:26:49.099
 place

00:26:49.099 --> 00:26:49.219
 in

00:26:49.219 --> 00:26:49.359
 his

00:26:49.359 --> 00:26:49.799
 sanctuary

00:26:49.799 --> 00:26:50.319
 and

00:26:50.319 --> 00:26:50.480
 so

00:26:50.480 --> 00:26:50.659
 our

00:26:50.659 --> 00:26:50.959
 God

00:26:50.959 --> 00:26:51.240
 gives

00:26:51.240 --> 00:26:51.579
 light

00:26:51.579 --> 00:26:51.759
 to

00:26:51.759 --> 00:26:51.899
 our

00:26:51.899 --> 00:26:52.240
 eyes

00:26:52.240 --> 00:26:52.379
 and

00:26:52.379 --> 00:26:52.559
 a

00:26:52.559 --> 00:26:52.719
 little

00:26:52.719 --> 00:26:53.119
 relief

00:26:53.119 --> 00:26:53.259
 in

00:26:53.259 --> 00:26:53.399
 our

00:26:53.399 --> 00:26:53.779
 bondage

00:26:53.779 --> 00:26:53.959
 though

00:26:53.959 --> 00:26:54.139
 we're

00:26:54.139 --> 00:26:54.480
 slaves

00:26:54.480 --> 00:26:54.740
 our

00:26:54.740 --> 00:26:55.000
 God

00:26:55.000 --> 00:26:55.159
 has

00:26:55.159 --> 00:26:55.459
 not

00:26:55.459 --> 00:26:55.980
 forsaken

00:26:55.980 --> 00:26:56.419
 us

00:26:56.419 --> 00:26:57.299
 he's

00:26:57.299 --> 00:26:57.459
 shown

00:26:57.459 --> 00:26:57.599
 us

00:26:57.599 --> 00:26:58.119
 kindness

00:26:58.119 --> 00:26:58.959
 he's

00:26:58.959 --> 00:26:59.159
 granted

00:26:59.159 --> 00:26:59.359
 us

00:26:59.359 --> 00:26:59.539
 new

00:26:59.539 --> 00:27:00.099
 life

00:27:00.099 --> 00:27:00.619
 to

00:27:00.619 --> 00:27:01.219
 rebuild

00:27:01.220 --> 00:27:01.539
 the

00:27:01.539 --> 00:27:01.799
 house

00:27:01.799 --> 00:27:01.960
 of

00:27:01.960 --> 00:27:02.140
 God

00:27:02.140 --> 00:27:02.600
 repair

00:27:02.600 --> 00:27:02.900
 its

00:27:02.900 --> 00:27:03.240
 ruins

00:27:03.240 --> 00:27:03.960
 he's

00:27:03.960 --> 00:27:04.100
 been

00:27:04.100 --> 00:27:04.480
 giving

00:27:04.480 --> 00:27:04.819
 us

00:27:04.819 --> 00:27:05.180
 so

00:27:05.180 --> 00:27:05.440
 many

00:27:05.440 --> 00:27:05.740
 things

00:27:05.740 --> 00:27:06.079
 he's

00:27:06.079 --> 00:27:06.200
 been

00:27:06.200 --> 00:27:06.500
 so

00:27:06.500 --> 00:27:06.920
 gracious

00:27:06.920 --> 00:27:07.620
 we've

00:27:07.620 --> 00:27:07.860
 messed

00:27:07.860 --> 00:27:08.120
 up

00:27:08.120 --> 00:27:08.480
 again

00:27:08.480 --> 00:27:08.680
 and

00:27:08.680 --> 00:27:09.019
 again

00:27:09.019 --> 00:27:09.200
 and

00:27:09.200 --> 00:27:09.519
 again

00:27:09.519 --> 00:27:09.900
 and

00:27:09.900 --> 00:27:10.059
 yet

00:27:10.059 --> 00:27:10.420
 God

00:27:10.420 --> 00:27:10.920
 again

00:27:10.920 --> 00:27:11.160
 and

00:27:11.160 --> 00:27:11.519
 again

00:27:11.519 --> 00:27:11.759
 and

00:27:11.759 --> 00:27:12.019
 again

00:27:12.019 --> 00:27:12.420
 he

00:27:12.420 --> 00:27:12.720
 hasn't

00:27:12.720 --> 00:27:13.220
 discarded

00:27:13.220 --> 00:27:13.480
 us

00:27:13.480 --> 00:27:14.059
 he hasn't

00:27:14.059 --> 00:27:14.319
 thrown

00:27:14.319 --> 00:27:14.500
 us

00:27:14.500 --> 00:27:14.740
 on the

00:27:14.740 --> 00:27:15.019
 scrap

00:27:15.019 --> 00:27:15.259
 heave

00:27:15.259 --> 00:27:15.400
 of

00:27:15.400 --> 00:27:15.620
 life

00:27:15.620 --> 00:27:16.160
 he's

00:27:16.160 --> 00:27:16.440
 picked

00:27:16.440 --> 00:27:16.640
 us

00:27:16.640 --> 00:27:16.799
 up

00:27:16.799 --> 00:27:17.200
 again

00:27:17.200 --> 00:27:17.460
 and

00:27:17.460 --> 00:27:17.819
 again

00:27:17.819 --> 00:27:18.100
 and

00:27:18.100 --> 00:27:18.420
 again

00:27:18.420 --> 00:27:18.860
 and

00:27:18.860 --> 00:27:19.019
 his

00:27:19.019 --> 00:27:19.360
 goodness

00:27:19.360 --> 00:27:19.620
 is

00:27:19.620 --> 00:27:19.819
 just

00:27:19.819 --> 00:27:20.299
 amazing

00:27:20.299 --> 00:27:20.559
 and

00:27:20.559 --> 00:27:20.700
 he

00:27:20.700 --> 00:27:20.960
 keeps

00:27:20.960 --> 00:27:21.500
 providing

00:27:21.500 --> 00:27:21.960
 he

00:27:21.960 --> 00:27:22.360
 keeps

00:27:22.360 --> 00:27:22.700
 giving

00:27:22.700 --> 00:27:23.059
 us

00:27:23.059 --> 00:27:24.400
 more

00:27:24.400 --> 00:27:24.559
 than

00:27:31.220 --> 00:27:31.400
 good

00:27:31.400 --> 00:27:31.640
 to

00:27:31.640 --> 00:27:32.079
 us

00:27:32.079 --> 00:27:33.700
 look

00:27:33.700 --> 00:27:33.799
 at

00:27:33.799 --> 00:27:33.940
 what

00:27:33.940 --> 00:27:34.200
 we've

00:27:34.200 --> 00:27:34.559
 done

00:27:34.559 --> 00:27:36.640
 how

00:27:36.640 --> 00:27:37.160
 can

00:27:37.160 --> 00:27:37.259
 we

00:27:37.259 --> 00:27:37.480
 do

00:27:37.480 --> 00:27:37.640
 it

00:27:37.640 --> 00:27:37.960
 again

00:27:37.960 --> 00:27:38.279
 after

00:27:38.279 --> 00:27:38.480
 you're

00:27:38.480 --> 00:27:38.759
 so

00:27:38.759 --> 00:27:39.160
 faithful

00:27:39.160 --> 00:27:39.440
 to

00:27:39.440 --> 00:27:39.779
 us

00:27:39.779 --> 00:27:41.279
 and

00:27:41.279 --> 00:27:41.420
 the

00:27:41.420 --> 00:27:41.600
 story

00:27:41.600 --> 00:27:41.720
 of

00:27:41.720 --> 00:27:41.759
 the

00:27:41.759 --> 00:27:41.920
 old

00:27:41.920 --> 00:27:42.339
 testament

00:27:42.339 --> 00:27:43.019
 is

00:27:43.019 --> 00:27:43.259
 really

00:27:43.259 --> 00:27:43.480
 the

00:27:43.480 --> 00:27:43.880
 story

00:27:43.880 --> 00:27:44.839
 of

00:27:44.839 --> 00:27:45.360
 a

00:27:45.360 --> 00:27:45.720
 self

00:27:45.720 --> 00:27:46.140
 sin

00:27:46.140 --> 00:27:46.799
 addicted

00:27:46.799 --> 00:27:47.620
 adulterous

00:27:47.620 --> 00:27:48.019
 people

00:27:48.019 --> 00:27:49.019
 who

00:27:49.019 --> 00:27:49.380
 just

00:27:49.380 --> 00:27:49.640
 have

00:27:49.640 --> 00:27:49.900
 an

00:27:49.900 --> 00:27:50.620
 incredibly

00:27:50.620 --> 00:27:51.160
 faithful

00:27:51.160 --> 00:27:51.620
 husband

00:27:51.620 --> 00:27:52.640
 who

00:27:52.640 --> 00:27:52.920
 just

00:27:52.920 --> 00:27:53.440
 chases

00:27:53.440 --> 00:27:53.860
 after

00:27:53.860 --> 00:27:54.079
 them

00:27:54.079 --> 00:27:54.500
 again

00:27:54.500 --> 00:27:54.839
 and

00:27:54.839 --> 00:27:55.200
 again

00:27:55.200 --> 00:27:55.480
 and

00:27:55.480 --> 00:27:55.860
 again

00:27:55.860 --> 00:27:56.819
 and

00:27:56.819 --> 00:27:56.980
 yet

00:27:56.980 --> 00:27:57.180
 the

00:27:57.180 --> 00:27:57.600
 people

00:27:57.600 --> 00:27:58.259
 again

00:27:58.259 --> 00:27:58.539
 and

00:27:58.539 --> 00:27:58.819
 again

00:27:58.819 --> 00:27:59.000
 and

00:27:59.000 --> 00:27:59.259
 again

00:27:59.259 --> 00:27:59.519
 just

00:27:59.519 --> 00:27:59.799
 go

00:27:59.799 --> 00:28:00.059
 back

00:28:00.059 --> 00:28:00.200
 in

00:28:00.200 --> 00:28:00.360
 this

00:28:00.360 --> 00:28:00.759
 cycle

00:28:00.759 --> 00:28:01.019
 of

00:28:01.019 --> 00:28:01.379
 going

00:28:01.379 --> 00:28:01.660
 away

00:28:01.660 --> 00:28:01.900
 from

00:28:01.900 --> 00:28:02.119
 him

00:28:02.119 --> 00:28:02.839
 that

00:28:02.839 --> 00:28:02.980
 is

00:28:02.980 --> 00:28:03.119
 the

00:28:03.119 --> 00:28:03.359
 story

00:28:03.359 --> 00:28:03.480
 of

00:28:03.480 --> 00:28:03.559
 the

00:28:03.559 --> 00:28:03.720
 old

00:28:03.720 --> 00:28:04.140
 testament

00:28:04.140 --> 00:28:06.160
 and

00:28:06.160 --> 00:28:06.319
 it's

00:28:06.319 --> 00:28:06.460
 like

00:28:06.460 --> 00:28:06.640
 they've

00:28:06.640 --> 00:28:06.779
 got

00:28:06.779 --> 00:28:06.900
 an

00:28:06.900 --> 00:28:07.319
 addiction

00:28:07.319 --> 00:28:08.299
 an

00:28:08.299 --> 00:28:08.660
 addiction

00:28:08.660 --> 00:28:09.019
 they just

00:28:09.019 --> 00:28:09.299
 can't

00:28:09.299 --> 00:28:09.539
 break

00:28:09.539 --> 00:28:09.759
 out

00:28:09.759 --> 00:28:10.039
 of

00:28:10.039 --> 00:28:12.000
 and

00:28:12.000 --> 00:28:15.019
 I

00:28:15.019 --> 00:28:15.200
 have

00:28:15.200 --> 00:28:15.339
 a

00:28:15.339 --> 00:28:15.619
 friend

00:28:15.619 --> 00:28:16.259
 who

00:28:16.259 --> 00:28:16.480
 was

00:28:16.480 --> 00:28:16.779
 a

00:28:16.779 --> 00:28:17.079
 drug

00:28:17.079 --> 00:28:17.420
 addict

00:28:17.420 --> 00:28:18.859
 we'll

00:28:18.859 --> 00:28:19.019
 call

00:28:19.019 --> 00:28:19.140
 him

00:28:19.140 --> 00:28:19.359
 Jim

00:28:19.359 --> 00:28:21.440
 I

00:28:21.440 --> 00:28:21.660
 first

00:28:21.660 --> 00:28:21.859
 met

00:28:21.859 --> 00:28:22.000
 him

00:28:22.000 --> 00:28:22.119
 he

00:28:22.119 --> 00:28:22.279
 was

00:28:22.279 --> 00:28:22.740
 homeless

00:28:22.740 --> 00:28:23.920
 and

00:28:23.920 --> 00:28:24.940
 got

00:28:24.940 --> 00:28:25.119
 to

00:28:25.119 --> 00:28:25.299
 know

00:28:25.299 --> 00:28:25.420
 him

00:28:25.420 --> 00:28:25.660
 over

00:28:25.660 --> 00:28:25.940
 a

00:28:25.940 --> 00:28:26.079
 number

00:28:26.079 --> 00:28:26.240
 of

00:28:26.240 --> 00:28:26.599
 months

00:28:26.599 --> 00:28:27.000
 and

00:28:27.000 --> 00:28:28.119
 eventually

00:28:28.119 --> 00:28:28.619
 invited

00:28:28.619 --> 00:28:28.859
 him

00:28:28.859 --> 00:28:29.079
 just

00:28:29.079 --> 00:28:29.240
 to

00:28:29.240 --> 00:28:29.480
 stay

00:28:29.480 --> 00:28:29.900
 a

00:28:29.900 --> 00:28:30.440
 week

00:28:30.440 --> 00:28:30.780
 or so

00:28:30.780 --> 00:28:30.920
 in

00:28:30.920 --> 00:28:31.220
 our

00:28:31.220 --> 00:28:32.060
 house

00:28:32.060 --> 00:28:32.360
 while

00:28:32.360 --> 00:28:32.560
 we

00:28:32.560 --> 00:28:32.920
 found him

00:28:32.920 --> 00:28:33.100
 some

00:28:33.100 --> 00:28:33.519
 alternative

00:28:33.519 --> 00:28:34.200
 accommodation

00:28:34.200 --> 00:28:36.060
 he stayed

00:28:36.060 --> 00:28:36.360
 there

00:28:36.360 --> 00:28:37.040
 we found him

00:28:37.040 --> 00:28:37.640
 somewhere to live

00:28:37.640 --> 00:28:39.300
 he moved to

00:28:39.300 --> 00:28:40.860
 my friend's

00:28:40.860 --> 00:28:41.280
 place

00:28:41.280 --> 00:28:42.800
 and I thought

00:28:42.800 --> 00:28:43.120
 great

00:28:43.120 --> 00:28:43.880
 this is good

00:28:43.880 --> 00:28:45.060
 he's going to get back on his feet

00:28:45.060 --> 00:28:46.140
 everything's going to be great

00:28:46.140 --> 00:28:49.860
 next morning I get a phone call from my friend

00:28:49.860 --> 00:28:51.620
 slightly distressed

00:28:51.620 --> 00:28:52.100
 saying

00:28:52.100 --> 00:28:53.160
 you know your friend Jim

00:28:53.160 --> 00:28:55.160
 he's just taken

00:28:55.160 --> 00:28:59.060
 he's just taken the equivalent of 6,000 Hong Kong dollars from a new colleague who was staying with me

00:28:59.060 --> 00:29:03.180
 we called the police

00:29:03.180 --> 00:29:05.120
 the police weren't that interested actually

00:29:05.120 --> 00:29:06.200
 and

00:29:06.200 --> 00:29:09.440
 so I went down to

00:29:09.440 --> 00:29:11.940
 to a place where I knew he would be

00:29:11.940 --> 00:29:13.259
 and I waited for him

00:29:13.259 --> 00:29:14.540
 and

00:29:14.540 --> 00:29:17.440
 as he came through the door he saw my face

00:29:17.440 --> 00:29:20.180
 and you should have seen the look on his face

00:29:20.180 --> 00:29:22.380
 he hung his head

00:29:22.380 --> 00:29:23.779
 he started trying to walk out of the door

00:29:23.779 --> 00:29:25.160
 I walked after him

00:29:25.160 --> 00:29:26.480
 I looked him in the eyes

00:29:26.480 --> 00:29:28.140
 I told him that we'd called the police

00:29:28.140 --> 00:29:29.100
 but then I said to him

00:29:29.100 --> 00:29:29.460
 you know

00:29:29.460 --> 00:29:31.519
 but we've forgiven you

00:29:31.519 --> 00:29:32.600
 for what you've done

00:29:32.600 --> 00:29:35.660
 because we have an amazing God

00:29:35.660 --> 00:29:36.539
 who forgives

00:29:36.539 --> 00:29:37.779
 and shows grace to you

00:29:37.779 --> 00:29:40.200
 he was blown away

00:29:40.200 --> 00:29:43.279
 because he'd never experienced anything like that

00:29:43.279 --> 00:29:45.060
 we prayed

00:29:45.060 --> 00:29:47.259
 I didn't see him again for a few weeks

00:29:47.259 --> 00:29:48.340
 I said to him actually

00:29:48.340 --> 00:29:49.560
 we will welcome you back

00:29:49.559 --> 00:29:51.519
 not because you deserve it

00:29:51.519 --> 00:29:52.679
 but because we have an amazing God

00:29:52.679 --> 00:29:53.759
 who wants to welcome you back

00:29:53.759 --> 00:29:54.720
 and wants you to know him

00:29:54.720 --> 00:29:57.480
 a few weeks later

00:29:57.480 --> 00:29:59.000
 I was cycling through

00:29:59.000 --> 00:29:59.980
 I didn't see him for a while

00:29:59.980 --> 00:30:02.019
 cycling through an area of town

00:30:02.019 --> 00:30:03.419
 which I never normally went into

00:30:03.419 --> 00:30:05.279
 cycling through this little kind of back alley

00:30:05.279 --> 00:30:07.500
 and who did I happen to see on a bench

00:30:07.500 --> 00:30:08.000
 but Jim

00:30:08.000 --> 00:30:10.859
 when he saw me

00:30:10.859 --> 00:30:15.099
 his face was the picture of just complete shock

00:30:15.099 --> 00:30:16.659
 and I went up to him

00:30:16.659 --> 00:30:17.240
 I talked to him

00:30:17.240 --> 00:30:18.039
 and he said to me

00:30:18.039 --> 00:30:18.900
 you know

00:30:18.900 --> 00:30:21.079
 I've been trying to avoid you

00:30:21.079 --> 00:30:22.400
 for the last

00:30:22.400 --> 00:30:24.200
 I don't know how long it was

00:30:24.200 --> 00:30:24.599
 month

00:30:24.599 --> 00:30:27.120
 I've been trying to avoid you

00:30:27.120 --> 00:30:28.420
 but

00:30:28.420 --> 00:30:30.599
 I came to the one place

00:30:30.599 --> 00:30:32.279
 in the city of half a million people

00:30:32.279 --> 00:30:33.900
 where I thought you would never find me

00:30:33.900 --> 00:30:35.700
 and

00:30:35.700 --> 00:30:39.240
 you found me

00:30:39.240 --> 00:30:40.440
 God must be

00:30:40.440 --> 00:30:41.759
 really on my case

00:30:41.759 --> 00:30:45.819
 we talked

00:30:45.819 --> 00:30:47.660
 he seemed to really

00:30:47.660 --> 00:30:49.180
 feel repentance

00:30:49.180 --> 00:30:50.200
 I invited him along

00:30:50.200 --> 00:30:51.319
 to come along to our church

00:30:51.319 --> 00:30:53.019
 he came along to one

00:30:53.019 --> 00:30:53.920
 gathering

00:30:53.920 --> 00:30:54.819
 of our church

00:30:54.819 --> 00:30:55.200
 and

00:30:55.200 --> 00:30:57.680
 I thought it was great

00:30:57.680 --> 00:30:58.960
 things seemed to go well

00:30:58.960 --> 00:30:59.440
 next

00:30:59.440 --> 00:31:00.460
 day

00:31:00.460 --> 00:31:01.799
 I had a phone call from a friend

00:31:01.799 --> 00:31:02.279
 saying

00:31:02.279 --> 00:31:03.579
 I've lost

00:31:03.579 --> 00:31:05.759
 $1500

00:31:05.759 --> 00:31:08.579
 we knew it was Jim

00:31:08.579 --> 00:31:12.740
 time went past

00:31:12.740 --> 00:31:14.140
 I didn't see him

00:31:14.140 --> 00:31:14.839
 for a while

00:31:14.839 --> 00:31:17.000
 again

00:31:17.000 --> 00:31:17.940
 we called the police

00:31:17.940 --> 00:31:19.200
 nothing seemed to happen

00:31:19.200 --> 00:31:20.359
 then one day

00:31:20.359 --> 00:31:22.359
 I saw Jim

00:31:22.359 --> 00:31:22.879
 again

00:31:22.879 --> 00:31:24.160
 and he came back

00:31:24.160 --> 00:31:25.579
 and he seemed to be really repentant

00:31:25.579 --> 00:31:26.400
 he seemed to have

00:31:26.400 --> 00:31:27.759
 be

00:31:27.759 --> 00:31:29.759
 totally

00:31:29.759 --> 00:31:32.039
 totally wanting to get on the right path

00:31:32.039 --> 00:31:32.319
 again

00:31:32.319 --> 00:31:33.939
 he said

00:31:33.939 --> 00:31:35.039
 you know

00:31:35.039 --> 00:31:35.919
 I want to get a job

00:31:35.919 --> 00:31:36.960
 I want to get accommodation

00:31:36.960 --> 00:31:37.460
 and stuff

00:31:37.460 --> 00:31:37.879
 and so

00:31:37.879 --> 00:31:39.119
 we

00:31:39.119 --> 00:31:40.539
 kind of reluctantly agreed

00:31:40.539 --> 00:31:41.480
 to let him stay in our

00:31:41.480 --> 00:31:42.539
 house for just

00:31:42.539 --> 00:31:43.039
 two days

00:31:43.039 --> 00:31:44.460
 while the process

00:31:44.460 --> 00:31:45.339
 of getting a new flat

00:31:45.339 --> 00:31:46.099
 was in place

00:31:46.099 --> 00:31:46.399
 and

00:31:46.399 --> 00:31:49.439
 I stupidly allowed him

00:31:49.439 --> 00:31:49.819
 to

00:31:49.819 --> 00:31:50.879
 have our key

00:31:50.879 --> 00:31:51.639
 just to get his stuff

00:31:51.639 --> 00:31:52.460
 just as he was moving

00:31:52.460 --> 00:31:53.019
 into the

00:31:53.019 --> 00:31:54.359
 his new place

00:31:54.359 --> 00:31:55.779
 that evening

00:31:55.779 --> 00:31:56.639
 I got a phone call

00:31:56.639 --> 00:31:57.220
 from my

00:31:57.220 --> 00:31:57.819
 housemate

00:31:57.819 --> 00:31:59.079
 to say that

00:31:59.079 --> 00:31:59.939
 his Xbox

00:31:59.939 --> 00:32:01.720
 all his guitar equipment

00:32:01.720 --> 00:32:02.299
 and money

00:32:02.299 --> 00:32:02.919
 had been taken

00:32:02.919 --> 00:32:08.819
 at that point

00:32:08.819 --> 00:32:09.799
 we called the police

00:32:09.799 --> 00:32:11.519
 Jim went to prison

00:32:11.519 --> 00:32:13.359
 I visited him

00:32:13.359 --> 00:32:13.919
 in prison

00:32:13.919 --> 00:32:15.579
 every day for a week

00:32:15.579 --> 00:32:16.240
 we talked about

00:32:16.240 --> 00:32:16.839
 God's grace

00:32:16.839 --> 00:32:17.539
 we talked about

00:32:17.539 --> 00:32:19.059
 how God pursues

00:32:19.059 --> 00:32:19.759
 even the people

00:32:19.759 --> 00:32:20.839
 who are the furthest away

00:32:20.839 --> 00:32:22.359
 and he seemed to really

00:32:22.359 --> 00:32:26.799
 be captivated

00:32:26.799 --> 00:32:27.539
 by the story

00:32:27.539 --> 00:32:29.700
 when he came out

00:32:29.700 --> 00:32:30.700
 he stayed with my parents

00:32:30.700 --> 00:32:31.259
 for two days

00:32:31.259 --> 00:32:31.920
 while we found him

00:32:31.920 --> 00:32:32.400
 in rehab

00:32:32.400 --> 00:32:35.279
 during those two days

00:32:35.279 --> 00:32:37.480
 he went and took

00:32:37.480 --> 00:32:39.779
 another thousand dollars

00:32:39.779 --> 00:32:40.079
 from

00:32:40.079 --> 00:32:41.619
 a neighbor

00:32:41.619 --> 00:32:44.440
 Jim went back

00:32:44.440 --> 00:32:44.920
 to prison

00:32:44.920 --> 00:32:46.900
 every month

00:32:46.900 --> 00:32:47.920
 I visited him

00:32:47.920 --> 00:32:48.619
 every month

00:32:48.619 --> 00:32:49.460
 he said to me

00:32:49.460 --> 00:32:50.740
 I'm going to go

00:32:50.740 --> 00:32:51.500
 and see the prison

00:32:51.500 --> 00:32:52.160
 chaplain

00:32:52.160 --> 00:32:53.240
 the person who

00:32:53.240 --> 00:32:54.920
 to kind of find out

00:32:54.920 --> 00:32:55.579
 more about God

00:32:55.579 --> 00:32:56.220
 every month

00:32:56.220 --> 00:32:56.879
 I went back

00:32:56.879 --> 00:32:57.660
 and he hadn't done it

00:32:57.660 --> 00:33:00.000
 18 months later

00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:02.460
 I was just about

00:33:02.460 --> 00:33:03.279
 giving up on him

00:33:03.279 --> 00:33:04.420
 we shared the gospel

00:33:04.420 --> 00:33:04.880
 with him

00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:06.200
 we told him all about

00:33:06.200 --> 00:33:07.340
 the way that God

00:33:07.340 --> 00:33:08.180
 chases after

00:33:08.180 --> 00:33:09.360
 even the most broken

00:33:09.360 --> 00:33:10.680
 people can restore them

00:33:10.680 --> 00:33:11.279
 he said

00:33:11.279 --> 00:33:12.180
 oh that's fantastic

00:33:12.180 --> 00:33:12.700
 I know

00:33:12.700 --> 00:33:13.840
 I'm a sinner

00:33:13.840 --> 00:33:14.779
 I know that I need

00:33:14.779 --> 00:33:15.400
 God's grace

00:33:15.400 --> 00:33:16.180
 and every month

00:33:16.180 --> 00:33:16.940
 nothing changed

00:33:16.940 --> 00:33:19.300
 after 18 months

00:33:19.300 --> 00:33:20.040
 I was giving up

00:33:20.040 --> 00:33:21.300
 I kind of

00:33:21.300 --> 00:33:22.140
 skipped a month

00:33:22.140 --> 00:33:22.580
 or two

00:33:22.580 --> 00:33:24.140
 didn't see him

00:33:24.140 --> 00:33:26.120
 for about three months

00:33:26.120 --> 00:33:26.840
 I hadn't seen him

00:33:26.840 --> 00:33:28.160
 and then

00:33:28.160 --> 00:33:29.700
 I got this letter

00:33:29.700 --> 00:33:30.520
 through the post

00:33:30.520 --> 00:33:34.060
 and in the letter

00:33:34.060 --> 00:33:34.820
 Jim said

00:33:34.820 --> 00:33:36.160
 do you know what

00:33:36.160 --> 00:33:37.640
 I was baptized

00:33:37.640 --> 00:33:38.620
 last week

00:33:38.620 --> 00:33:40.120
 I was like

00:33:40.120 --> 00:33:40.500
 wow

00:33:40.500 --> 00:33:42.640
 and he told me the story

00:33:42.640 --> 00:33:43.060
 he said

00:33:43.060 --> 00:33:43.500
 you know

00:33:43.500 --> 00:33:45.520
 I'd been in

00:33:45.520 --> 00:33:48.280
 I'd been put in isolation

00:33:48.280 --> 00:33:49.000
 because I'd been

00:33:49.000 --> 00:33:49.680
 brewing beer

00:33:49.680 --> 00:33:50.280
 inside

00:33:50.280 --> 00:33:53.500
 you get a picture

00:33:53.500 --> 00:33:53.980
 Jim

00:33:53.980 --> 00:33:57.400
 and when I was

00:33:57.400 --> 00:33:58.180
 in isolation

00:33:58.180 --> 00:33:59.099
 when everything else

00:33:59.099 --> 00:34:00.120
 was taken away from me

00:34:00.120 --> 00:34:00.740
 suddenly I

00:34:00.740 --> 00:34:01.940
 I got to thinking

00:34:01.940 --> 00:34:04.420
 and I got to realize

00:34:04.420 --> 00:34:06.259
 that all the grace

00:34:06.259 --> 00:34:07.180
 that I'd been shown

00:34:07.180 --> 00:34:08.300
 and all this God

00:34:08.300 --> 00:34:09.579
 that you told me about

00:34:09.579 --> 00:34:11.559
 he must be amazing

00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:12.880
 that he could even

00:34:12.880 --> 00:34:13.760
 chase after me

00:34:13.760 --> 00:34:15.639
 and I remembered

00:34:15.639 --> 00:34:16.219
 all the stuff

00:34:16.219 --> 00:34:16.740
 that I'd done

00:34:16.740 --> 00:34:17.380
 all the mess

00:34:17.380 --> 00:34:17.980
 that I'd done

00:34:17.980 --> 00:34:18.699
 and he said

00:34:18.699 --> 00:34:20.380
 at that point

00:34:20.380 --> 00:34:21.260
 I just prayed

00:34:21.260 --> 00:34:21.579
 and said

00:34:21.579 --> 00:34:22.340
 God please

00:34:22.340 --> 00:34:24.420
 save me

00:34:24.420 --> 00:34:26.579
 it happened

00:34:26.579 --> 00:34:27.160
 the next day

00:34:27.160 --> 00:34:27.519
 that actually

00:34:27.519 --> 00:34:28.280
 the prison chaplain

00:34:28.280 --> 00:34:29.100
 came around to him

00:34:29.100 --> 00:34:29.519
 and said

00:34:29.519 --> 00:34:31.100
 okay you're getting

00:34:31.100 --> 00:34:32.140
 baptized on Sunday

00:34:32.140 --> 00:34:32.920
 I hope you're ready

00:34:32.920 --> 00:34:35.100
 Jim was rather surprised

00:34:35.100 --> 00:34:35.519
 because he hadn't

00:34:35.519 --> 00:34:36.240
 talked to the chaplain

00:34:36.240 --> 00:34:37.039
 about this

00:34:37.039 --> 00:34:39.760
 and so I go

00:34:39.760 --> 00:34:40.320
 okay

00:34:40.320 --> 00:34:41.079
 great

00:34:41.079 --> 00:34:42.860
 Saturday came

00:34:42.860 --> 00:34:43.260
 the chaplain

00:34:43.260 --> 00:34:43.800
 came around

00:34:43.800 --> 00:34:44.280
 and actually said

00:34:44.280 --> 00:34:45.160
 you know

00:34:45.160 --> 00:34:45.720
 I'm sorry

00:34:45.720 --> 00:34:46.780
 I made a big mistake

00:34:46.780 --> 00:34:48.120
 it wasn't you

00:34:48.120 --> 00:34:48.460
 who was meant

00:34:48.460 --> 00:34:49.220
 to be getting baptized

00:34:49.219 --> 00:34:51.939
 it was another guy

00:34:51.939 --> 00:34:52.439
 but do you want

00:34:52.439 --> 00:34:53.439
 to get baptized anyway

00:34:53.439 --> 00:34:56.879
 and Jim said

00:34:56.879 --> 00:34:57.119
 yeah

00:34:57.119 --> 00:34:58.859
 and he stood

00:34:58.859 --> 00:34:59.379
 in front of all

00:34:59.379 --> 00:34:59.959
 his other inmates

00:34:59.959 --> 00:35:00.439
 and told him

00:35:00.439 --> 00:35:01.039
 the testimony

00:35:01.039 --> 00:35:02.459
 told them the testimony

00:35:02.459 --> 00:35:03.659
 of a God

00:35:03.659 --> 00:35:04.759
 of amazing grace

00:35:04.759 --> 00:35:07.659
 the thing with Jim

00:35:07.659 --> 00:35:07.939
 is

00:35:07.939 --> 00:35:08.719
 he's

00:35:08.719 --> 00:35:09.899
 still struggling

00:35:09.899 --> 00:35:11.539
 I invited him

00:35:11.539 --> 00:35:12.119
 to our wedding

00:35:12.119 --> 00:35:13.719
 he said he'd come

00:35:13.719 --> 00:35:15.379
 he didn't turn up

00:35:15.379 --> 00:35:17.139
 and that could be

00:35:17.139 --> 00:35:17.679
 heartbreaking

00:35:17.679 --> 00:35:19.480
 but I learnt

00:35:19.480 --> 00:35:19.980
 something

00:35:19.980 --> 00:35:20.619
 through Jim

00:35:20.619 --> 00:35:21.239
 I thought I was

00:35:21.239 --> 00:35:21.960
 pretty persistent

00:35:21.960 --> 00:35:23.940
 but I learnt

00:35:23.940 --> 00:35:24.739
 that God

00:35:24.739 --> 00:35:26.599
 doesn't give up

00:35:26.599 --> 00:35:27.579
 on people

00:35:27.579 --> 00:35:29.119
 that God

00:35:29.119 --> 00:35:30.619
 pursues

00:35:30.619 --> 00:35:31.400
 his people

00:35:31.400 --> 00:35:33.420
 even when they

00:35:33.420 --> 00:35:34.039
 again

00:35:34.039 --> 00:35:35.199
 and again

00:35:35.199 --> 00:35:36.239
 and again

00:35:36.239 --> 00:35:37.279
 and again

00:35:37.279 --> 00:35:38.279
 and again

00:35:38.279 --> 00:35:39.179
 mess up

00:35:39.179 --> 00:35:41.259
 that's the kind

00:35:41.259 --> 00:35:41.879
 of God

00:35:41.879 --> 00:35:43.579
 that I think

00:35:43.579 --> 00:35:44.500
 Ezra had a bit

00:35:44.500 --> 00:35:45.019
 of a glimpse

00:35:45.019 --> 00:35:45.440
 of

00:35:45.440 --> 00:35:48.220
 that he

00:35:48.220 --> 00:35:49.519
 pursues

00:35:49.519 --> 00:35:50.059
 us

00:35:50.059 --> 00:35:52.079
 with grace

00:35:52.079 --> 00:35:52.539
 and God

00:35:52.539 --> 00:35:53.059
 knows

00:35:53.059 --> 00:35:53.980
 God is not

00:35:53.980 --> 00:35:54.559
 kind of blind

00:35:54.559 --> 00:35:55.940
 to the depth

00:35:55.940 --> 00:35:57.059
 of their depravity

00:35:57.059 --> 00:35:57.940
 God's not blind

00:35:57.940 --> 00:35:58.220
 to that

00:35:58.220 --> 00:35:59.079
 he knows

00:35:59.079 --> 00:36:00.000
 everything

00:36:00.000 --> 00:36:00.619
 they've done

00:36:00.619 --> 00:36:03.400
 and the thing

00:36:03.400 --> 00:36:03.700
 is

00:36:03.700 --> 00:36:05.740
 I think

00:36:05.740 --> 00:36:06.380
 the story

00:36:06.380 --> 00:36:08.220
 of Jim

00:36:08.220 --> 00:36:09.639
 is the story

00:36:09.639 --> 00:36:10.200
 of Israel

00:36:10.200 --> 00:36:11.860
 and actually

00:36:11.860 --> 00:36:13.559
 naturally

00:36:13.559 --> 00:36:14.179
 it's the story

00:36:14.179 --> 00:36:14.940
 of all of us

00:36:14.940 --> 00:36:16.059
 we're all

00:36:16.059 --> 00:36:16.980
 addicts

00:36:16.980 --> 00:36:17.980
 to ourselves

00:36:17.980 --> 00:36:19.339
 naturally

00:36:19.339 --> 00:36:20.599
 we're addicted

00:36:20.599 --> 00:36:22.039
 to our own

00:36:22.039 --> 00:36:22.519
 ambitions

00:36:22.519 --> 00:36:24.199
 we struggle

00:36:24.199 --> 00:36:25.000
 time and time

00:36:25.000 --> 00:36:25.319
 again

00:36:25.319 --> 00:36:25.839
 with the same

00:36:25.839 --> 00:36:26.259
 things

00:36:26.259 --> 00:36:26.679
 it may be

00:36:26.679 --> 00:36:27.239
 your temper

00:36:27.239 --> 00:36:28.339
 it may be

00:36:28.339 --> 00:36:29.279
 impatience

00:36:29.279 --> 00:36:30.440
 with your kids

00:36:30.440 --> 00:36:31.460
 it may be

00:36:31.460 --> 00:36:32.960
 101 things

00:36:32.960 --> 00:36:33.440
 it may be

00:36:33.440 --> 00:36:33.879
 pornography

00:36:33.879 --> 00:36:34.859
 it may be

00:36:34.859 --> 00:36:36.159
 just angry

00:36:36.159 --> 00:36:37.000
 bitter thoughts

00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:37.919
 whatever it is

00:36:37.919 --> 00:36:38.940
 and maybe

00:36:38.940 --> 00:36:39.859
 you get to a point

00:36:39.859 --> 00:36:40.460
 where you think

00:36:40.460 --> 00:36:42.339
 I've done it again

00:36:42.340 --> 00:36:44.260
 there's no hope

00:36:44.260 --> 00:36:47.140
 maybe God

00:36:47.140 --> 00:36:47.740
 is like a

00:36:47.740 --> 00:36:48.640
 judge

00:36:48.640 --> 00:36:49.079
 kind of

00:36:49.079 --> 00:36:50.180
 looking at me

00:36:50.180 --> 00:36:51.039
 wanting to

00:36:51.039 --> 00:36:51.559
 beat me around

00:36:51.559 --> 00:36:51.880
 the head

00:36:51.880 --> 00:36:52.400
 to say

00:36:52.400 --> 00:36:54.380
 you did it again

00:36:54.380 --> 00:36:55.960
 that's another one

00:36:55.960 --> 00:36:56.860
 in my black book

00:36:56.860 --> 00:37:00.380
 and you see

00:37:00.380 --> 00:37:01.120
 Ezra gets to the

00:37:01.120 --> 00:37:01.700
 point of saying

00:37:01.700 --> 00:37:02.300
 we are guilty

00:37:02.300 --> 00:37:03.920
 we can't stand

00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:04.620
 before God

00:37:04.620 --> 00:37:06.460
 and that's the truth

00:37:06.460 --> 00:37:09.300
 but there's a hope

00:37:09.300 --> 00:37:11.320
 time's running

00:37:11.320 --> 00:37:12.080
 but I just want to

00:37:12.080 --> 00:37:13.120
 look at this

00:37:13.120 --> 00:37:13.620
 very quickly

00:37:13.620 --> 00:37:14.240
 if you look in

00:37:14.240 --> 00:37:16.600
 chapter 10

00:37:16.600 --> 00:37:17.080
 verse 2

00:37:17.080 --> 00:37:20.200
 there's this amazing

00:37:20.200 --> 00:37:21.200
 response from the

00:37:21.200 --> 00:37:21.880
 people here

00:37:21.880 --> 00:37:23.100
 it says

00:37:23.100 --> 00:37:23.640
 we have been

00:37:23.640 --> 00:37:24.820
 unfaithful to our

00:37:24.820 --> 00:37:24.960
 God

00:37:24.960 --> 00:37:25.880
 they don't deny it

00:37:25.880 --> 00:37:26.500
 they don't kind of

00:37:26.500 --> 00:37:27.200
 hide behind it

00:37:27.200 --> 00:37:28.000
 they're not doing

00:37:28.000 --> 00:37:28.900
 defensive Diana

00:37:28.900 --> 00:37:29.480
 they're not doing

00:37:29.480 --> 00:37:30.400
 beat yourself up Bob

00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:31.519
 they're not doing

00:37:31.519 --> 00:37:32.740
 try hard Tracy

00:37:32.740 --> 00:37:33.700
 they're not doing

00:37:33.700 --> 00:37:34.740
 minimizing Martin

00:37:34.740 --> 00:37:35.480
 they're not doing

00:37:35.480 --> 00:37:36.019
 any of that

00:37:36.019 --> 00:37:36.780
 they admit it

00:37:36.780 --> 00:37:37.460
 they come clean

00:37:37.460 --> 00:37:39.039
 but then

00:37:39.039 --> 00:37:39.820
 so we've been

00:37:39.820 --> 00:37:40.340
 unfaithful

00:37:40.340 --> 00:37:40.840
 but there's this

00:37:40.840 --> 00:37:41.519
 amazing thing

00:37:41.519 --> 00:37:43.000
 but in spite

00:37:43.000 --> 00:37:44.220
 of this

00:37:44.220 --> 00:37:45.960
 in spite

00:37:45.960 --> 00:37:47.420
 of this

00:37:47.420 --> 00:37:49.340
 there is still

00:37:49.340 --> 00:37:50.199
 hope

00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:51.300
 for Israel

00:37:51.300 --> 00:37:53.260
 there is still

00:37:53.260 --> 00:37:54.099
 hope

00:37:54.099 --> 00:37:55.000
 for Israel

00:37:55.000 --> 00:37:57.059
 and the thing is

00:37:57.059 --> 00:37:58.639
 the hope

00:37:58.639 --> 00:38:00.039
 is not

00:38:00.039 --> 00:38:01.360
 on the performance

00:38:01.360 --> 00:38:01.980
 of Israel

00:38:01.980 --> 00:38:02.400
 it's not on

00:38:02.400 --> 00:38:02.860
 finding their

00:38:02.860 --> 00:38:03.360
 potential

00:38:03.360 --> 00:38:04.220
 for Israel

00:38:04.220 --> 00:38:04.740
 because they'd

00:38:04.740 --> 00:38:05.260
 had thousands

00:38:05.260 --> 00:38:06.199
 of years to try

00:38:06.199 --> 00:38:07.299
 and they'd

00:38:07.299 --> 00:38:07.779
 failed every

00:38:07.779 --> 00:38:08.219
 time

00:38:08.219 --> 00:38:11.079
 their hope

00:38:11.079 --> 00:38:11.699
 was in

00:38:11.699 --> 00:38:12.639
 the character

00:38:12.639 --> 00:38:14.239
 of a God

00:38:14.239 --> 00:38:15.299
 who is like

00:38:15.299 --> 00:38:16.119
 a faithful

00:38:16.119 --> 00:38:17.139
 husband

00:38:17.139 --> 00:38:17.879
 pursuing

00:38:17.879 --> 00:38:19.019
 an unfaithful

00:38:19.019 --> 00:38:19.699
 lover

00:38:19.699 --> 00:38:21.460
 who doesn't

00:38:21.460 --> 00:38:22.000
 give up

00:38:22.000 --> 00:38:23.279
 who is

00:38:23.279 --> 00:38:23.980
 unfailing

00:38:23.980 --> 00:38:25.619
 who doesn't

00:38:25.619 --> 00:38:26.399
 cover over

00:38:26.399 --> 00:38:26.859
 the sin

00:38:26.859 --> 00:38:27.199
 and say

00:38:27.199 --> 00:38:27.619
 oh it doesn't

00:38:27.619 --> 00:38:27.899
 matter

00:38:27.899 --> 00:38:29.919
 but a God

00:38:29.919 --> 00:38:30.339
 who

00:38:30.339 --> 00:38:31.879
 ultimately

00:38:31.879 --> 00:38:32.579
 the story

00:38:32.579 --> 00:38:33.119
 leads

00:38:33.119 --> 00:38:34.799
 to Christ

00:38:34.799 --> 00:38:36.339
 and the cross

00:38:36.339 --> 00:38:38.279
 because at the cross

00:38:38.279 --> 00:38:39.539
 Ezra didn't

00:38:39.539 --> 00:38:40.239
 know this

00:38:40.239 --> 00:38:41.259
 Ezra was looking

00:38:41.259 --> 00:38:41.920
 at the faithfulness

00:38:41.920 --> 00:38:42.239
 of God

00:38:42.239 --> 00:38:42.960
 over the thousands

00:38:42.960 --> 00:38:43.359
 of years

00:38:43.359 --> 00:38:43.920
 that he'd seen

00:38:43.920 --> 00:38:44.559
 up till then

00:38:44.559 --> 00:38:46.199
 but we can look

00:38:46.199 --> 00:38:46.960
 back at the

00:38:46.960 --> 00:38:47.960
 faithfulness of God

00:38:47.960 --> 00:38:48.900
 on the cross

00:38:48.900 --> 00:38:49.739
 where he takes

00:38:49.739 --> 00:38:50.579
 all your junk

00:38:50.579 --> 00:38:52.139
 he knows

00:38:52.139 --> 00:38:52.859
 everything

00:38:52.859 --> 00:38:53.559
 there's nothing

00:38:53.559 --> 00:38:54.559
 no little skeleton

00:38:54.559 --> 00:38:55.279
 in your closet

00:38:55.279 --> 00:38:55.859
 that he doesn't

00:38:55.859 --> 00:38:56.380
 know about

00:38:56.380 --> 00:38:57.940
 but he took

00:38:57.940 --> 00:38:59.440
 every one of them

00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:00.659
 on the cross

00:39:00.659 --> 00:39:01.480
 the judge

00:39:01.480 --> 00:39:01.960
 who should have

00:39:01.960 --> 00:39:02.480
 pronounced you

00:39:02.480 --> 00:39:02.860
 guilty

00:39:02.860 --> 00:39:03.840
 says

00:39:03.840 --> 00:39:04.579
 you're not

00:39:04.579 --> 00:39:04.980
 guilty

00:39:04.980 --> 00:39:06.740
 and you can say

00:39:06.740 --> 00:39:07.519
 yeah but

00:39:07.519 --> 00:39:09.380
 but don't you

00:39:09.380 --> 00:39:09.820
 know what I've

00:39:09.820 --> 00:39:10.179
 done

00:39:10.179 --> 00:39:11.059
 and he says

00:39:11.059 --> 00:39:11.280
 yeah

00:39:11.280 --> 00:39:13.019
 but you can't

00:39:13.019 --> 00:39:13.360
 forgive me

00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:13.880
 like that

00:39:13.880 --> 00:39:14.480
 and he says

00:39:14.480 --> 00:39:16.280
 I'm not

00:39:16.280 --> 00:39:16.800
 forgiving you

00:39:16.800 --> 00:39:17.280
 because of

00:39:17.280 --> 00:39:17.880
 how good you

00:39:17.880 --> 00:39:18.179
 are

00:39:18.179 --> 00:39:19.260
 or because

00:39:19.260 --> 00:39:19.800
 you've tried

00:39:19.800 --> 00:39:20.480
 really hard

00:39:20.480 --> 00:39:21.579
 I'm forgiving

00:39:21.579 --> 00:39:22.800
 you because

00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:24.460
 of my character

00:39:24.460 --> 00:39:25.240
 and because

00:39:25.240 --> 00:39:25.820
 of what Jesus

00:39:25.820 --> 00:39:26.340
 has done

00:39:26.340 --> 00:39:27.360
 he declares

00:39:27.360 --> 00:39:28.039
 you not guilty

00:39:28.039 --> 00:39:28.900
 he says

00:39:28.900 --> 00:39:29.480
 you're free

00:39:29.480 --> 00:39:31.119
 not just

00:39:31.119 --> 00:39:31.639
 free

00:39:31.639 --> 00:39:32.299
 to then

00:39:32.299 --> 00:39:32.639
 go and

00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:33.299
 re-offend

00:39:33.299 --> 00:39:34.559
 as an

00:39:34.559 --> 00:39:34.940
 addict

00:39:34.940 --> 00:39:35.420
 who's just

00:39:35.420 --> 00:39:35.799
 caught in

00:39:35.799 --> 00:39:36.400
 this cycle

00:39:36.400 --> 00:39:37.779
 but he says

00:39:37.779 --> 00:39:39.519
 I've not

00:39:39.519 --> 00:39:40.119
 just set you

00:39:40.119 --> 00:39:40.679
 free

00:39:40.679 --> 00:39:43.019
 to be a

00:39:43.019 --> 00:39:43.759
 repeat offender

00:39:43.759 --> 00:39:44.319
 but I've

00:39:44.319 --> 00:39:45.039
 set you

00:39:45.039 --> 00:39:45.440
 free

00:39:45.440 --> 00:39:45.859
 from your

00:39:45.859 --> 00:39:46.379
 addiction

00:39:46.379 --> 00:39:47.179
 to self

00:39:47.179 --> 00:39:48.239
 you are not

00:39:48.239 --> 00:39:48.779
 a self

00:39:48.779 --> 00:39:49.799
 sin addict

00:39:49.799 --> 00:39:50.599
 any longer

00:39:50.599 --> 00:39:51.599
 if you are

00:39:51.599 --> 00:39:51.900
 a follower

00:39:51.900 --> 00:39:52.480
 of Christ

00:39:52.480 --> 00:39:54.659
 it's been

00:39:54.659 --> 00:39:55.039
 broken

00:39:55.039 --> 00:39:55.839
 you may

00:39:55.839 --> 00:39:56.400
 have

00:39:56.400 --> 00:39:56.859
 some of

00:39:56.859 --> 00:39:57.019
 the

00:39:57.019 --> 00:39:57.859
 leftover

00:39:57.859 --> 00:39:58.619
 habits

00:39:58.619 --> 00:39:59.159
 from your

00:39:59.159 --> 00:39:59.659
 addiction

00:39:59.659 --> 00:40:00.799
 from your

00:40:00.799 --> 00:40:01.079
 self

00:40:01.079 --> 00:40:01.480
 addiction

00:40:01.480 --> 00:40:04.019
 but he

00:40:04.019 --> 00:40:04.379
 says

00:40:04.379 --> 00:40:04.719
 I've

00:40:04.719 --> 00:40:05.019
 broken

00:40:05.019 --> 00:40:05.319
 it

00:40:05.319 --> 00:40:06.759
 you're

00:40:06.759 --> 00:40:07.259
 free

00:40:07.259 --> 00:40:07.980
 Jesus

00:40:07.980 --> 00:40:08.239
 says

00:40:08.239 --> 00:40:08.579
 if the

00:40:08.579 --> 00:40:08.859
 son

00:40:08.859 --> 00:40:09.199
 sets

00:40:09.199 --> 00:40:09.359
 you

00:40:09.359 --> 00:40:09.719
 free

00:40:09.719 --> 00:40:10.079
 you'll

00:40:10.079 --> 00:40:10.219
 be

00:40:10.219 --> 00:40:10.659
 free

00:40:10.659 --> 00:40:11.039
 indeed

00:40:11.039 --> 00:40:11.420
 you don't

00:40:11.420 --> 00:40:11.679
 have to

00:40:11.679 --> 00:40:11.920
 be

00:40:11.920 --> 00:40:13.000
 living

00:40:13.000 --> 00:40:13.379
 in

00:40:13.379 --> 00:40:13.920
 slavery

00:40:13.920 --> 00:40:14.319
 to a

00:40:14.319 --> 00:40:14.539
 fear

00:40:14.539 --> 00:40:14.759
 of

00:40:14.759 --> 00:40:15.179
 failure

00:40:15.179 --> 00:40:15.839
 any

00:40:15.839 --> 00:40:16.139
 longer

00:40:16.139 --> 00:40:18.500
 you

00:40:18.500 --> 00:40:18.659
 don't

00:40:18.659 --> 00:40:18.960
 have to

00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:19.159
 live

00:40:19.159 --> 00:40:19.259
 in

00:40:19.259 --> 00:40:19.420
 that

00:40:19.420 --> 00:40:19.900
 cycle

00:40:19.900 --> 00:40:20.159
 of

00:40:20.159 --> 00:40:20.859
 I've

00:40:20.859 --> 00:40:20.980
 done

00:40:20.980 --> 00:40:21.099
 it

00:40:21.099 --> 00:40:21.440
 again

00:40:21.440 --> 00:40:21.839
 I've

00:40:21.839 --> 00:40:21.960
 done

00:40:21.960 --> 00:40:22.079
 it

00:40:22.079 --> 00:40:22.420
 again

00:40:22.420 --> 00:40:23.079
 you

00:40:23.079 --> 00:40:23.239
 don't

00:40:23.239 --> 00:40:23.379
 have

00:40:23.379 --> 00:40:23.500
 to

00:40:23.500 --> 00:40:23.699
 be

00:40:23.699 --> 00:40:23.940
 any

00:40:23.940 --> 00:40:24.059
 of

00:40:24.059 --> 00:40:24.179
 my

00:40:24.179 --> 00:40:24.460
 four

00:40:24.460 --> 00:40:25.079
 characters

00:40:25.079 --> 00:40:27.079
 so I

00:40:27.079 --> 00:40:27.420
 just want

00:40:27.420 --> 00:40:27.940
 to finish

00:40:27.940 --> 00:40:29.259
 those

00:40:29.259 --> 00:40:29.539
 four

00:40:29.539 --> 00:40:30.079
 friends

00:40:30.079 --> 00:40:30.920
 respond

00:40:30.920 --> 00:40:31.279
 the way

00:40:31.279 --> 00:40:31.759
 they do

00:40:31.759 --> 00:40:32.199
 because

00:40:32.199 --> 00:40:32.379
 they

00:40:32.379 --> 00:40:32.699
 don't

00:40:32.699 --> 00:40:33.079
 know

00:40:33.079 --> 00:40:33.599
 the

00:40:33.599 --> 00:40:34.059
 God

00:40:34.059 --> 00:40:34.539
 of

00:40:34.539 --> 00:40:34.659
 the

00:40:34.659 --> 00:40:35.000
 Bible

00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:35.920
 they

00:40:35.920 --> 00:40:36.239
 don't

00:40:36.239 --> 00:40:36.480
 know

00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:36.699
 the

00:40:36.699 --> 00:40:37.039
 God

00:40:37.039 --> 00:40:38.019
 who

00:40:38.019 --> 00:40:38.299
 is

00:40:38.299 --> 00:40:38.599
 so

00:40:38.599 --> 00:40:39.059
 holy

00:40:39.059 --> 00:40:39.440
 that

00:40:39.440 --> 00:40:39.639
 none

00:40:39.639 --> 00:40:39.879
 of us

00:40:39.879 --> 00:40:40.059
 could

00:40:40.059 --> 00:40:40.359
 stand

00:40:40.359 --> 00:40:40.639
 before

00:40:40.639 --> 00:40:40.940
 him

00:40:40.940 --> 00:40:41.859
 but

00:40:41.859 --> 00:40:42.019
 is

00:40:42.019 --> 00:40:42.219
 so

00:40:42.219 --> 00:40:42.679
 gracious

00:40:42.679 --> 00:40:43.259
 that

00:40:43.259 --> 00:40:43.739
 he invites

00:40:43.739 --> 00:40:43.980
 all

00:40:43.980 --> 00:40:44.259
 of us

00:40:44.260 --> 00:40:46.500
 to

00:40:46.500 --> 00:40:46.700
 stand

00:40:46.700 --> 00:40:47.900
 before

00:40:47.900 --> 00:40:48.520
 him

00:40:48.520 --> 00:40:49.000
 how do

00:40:49.000 --> 00:40:49.120
 we

00:40:49.120 --> 00:40:49.700
 change

00:40:49.700 --> 00:40:50.720
 change

00:40:50.720 --> 00:40:51.180
 happens

00:40:51.180 --> 00:40:51.820
 when you

00:40:51.820 --> 00:40:52.380
 see the

00:40:52.380 --> 00:40:52.960
 horror of

00:40:52.960 --> 00:40:53.360
 your own

00:40:53.360 --> 00:40:53.740
 sin

00:40:53.740 --> 00:40:54.680
 normally

00:40:54.680 --> 00:40:54.900
 I'm

00:40:54.900 --> 00:40:55.180
 kind of

00:40:55.180 --> 00:40:55.640
 God

00:40:55.640 --> 00:40:55.860
 forgive

00:40:55.860 --> 00:40:56.000
 me

00:40:56.000 --> 00:40:56.200
 and then

00:40:56.200 --> 00:40:56.300
 I

00:40:56.300 --> 00:40:56.520
 carry

00:40:56.520 --> 00:40:56.780
 on

00:40:56.780 --> 00:40:58.700
 but

00:40:58.700 --> 00:40:58.940
 actually

00:40:58.940 --> 00:40:59.080
 God

00:40:59.080 --> 00:40:59.340
 wants

00:40:59.340 --> 00:40:59.460
 you

00:40:59.460 --> 00:40:59.560
 to

00:40:59.560 --> 00:40:59.720
 get

00:40:59.720 --> 00:40:59.880
 to

00:40:59.880 --> 00:40:59.980
 a

00:40:59.980 --> 00:41:00.080
 point

00:41:00.080 --> 00:41:00.220
 if

00:41:00.220 --> 00:41:00.300
 you

00:41:00.300 --> 00:41:00.420
 want

00:41:00.420 --> 00:41:00.520
 to

00:41:00.520 --> 00:41:01.060
 change

00:41:01.060 --> 00:41:01.860
 see

00:41:01.860 --> 00:41:02.100
 that

00:41:02.100 --> 00:41:02.400
 actually

00:41:02.400 --> 00:41:02.640
 it's

00:41:02.640 --> 00:41:02.780
 a

00:41:02.780 --> 00:41:03.240
 relational

00:41:03.240 --> 00:41:03.740
 thing

00:41:03.740 --> 00:41:04.760
 see

00:41:04.760 --> 00:41:04.940
 that

00:41:04.940 --> 00:41:05.220
 it's

00:41:05.220 --> 00:41:06.340
 hurtful

00:41:06.340 --> 00:41:06.540
 it's

00:41:06.540 --> 00:41:06.900
 cheating

00:41:06.900 --> 00:41:08.380
 on

00:41:08.380 --> 00:41:08.560
 your

00:41:08.560 --> 00:41:09.280
 lover

00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:10.480
 but

00:41:10.480 --> 00:41:10.760
 see

00:41:10.760 --> 00:41:11.000
 that

00:41:11.000 --> 00:41:11.960
 that's

00:41:11.960 --> 00:41:12.080
 not

00:41:12.080 --> 00:41:12.260
 to

00:41:12.260 --> 00:41:12.600
 cuss

00:41:12.600 --> 00:41:12.840
 you

00:41:12.840 --> 00:41:13.060
 that

00:41:13.060 --> 00:41:13.320
 doesn't

00:41:13.320 --> 00:41:13.660
 condemn

00:41:13.660 --> 00:41:13.800
 you

00:41:13.800 --> 00:41:13.940
 because

00:41:13.940 --> 00:41:14.120
 your

00:41:14.120 --> 00:41:14.380
 lover

00:41:14.380 --> 00:41:14.600
 is

00:41:14.600 --> 00:41:14.720
 the

00:41:14.720 --> 00:41:14.940
 most

00:41:14.940 --> 00:41:15.640
 incredible

00:41:15.640 --> 00:41:16.600
 God

00:41:16.600 --> 00:41:17.940
 be

00:41:17.940 --> 00:41:18.260
 honest

00:41:18.260 --> 00:41:18.480
 with

00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:18.860
 God

00:41:18.860 --> 00:41:20.280
 tell

00:41:20.280 --> 00:41:20.420
 him

00:41:20.420 --> 00:41:20.580
 how

00:41:20.580 --> 00:41:20.820
 messed

00:41:20.820 --> 00:41:21.019
 up

00:41:21.019 --> 00:41:21.180
 you

00:41:21.180 --> 00:41:21.560
 are

00:41:21.560 --> 00:41:23.519
 thank

00:41:23.519 --> 00:41:24.100
 God

00:41:24.100 --> 00:41:24.760
 here's

00:41:24.760 --> 00:41:25.019
 the thing

00:41:25.019 --> 00:41:25.260
 if you

00:41:25.260 --> 00:41:25.440
 feel

00:41:25.440 --> 00:41:25.940
 guilty

00:41:25.940 --> 00:41:26.539
 and

00:41:26.539 --> 00:41:27.060
 condemned

00:41:27.060 --> 00:41:28.840
 God

00:41:28.840 --> 00:41:29.100
 doesn't

00:41:29.100 --> 00:41:29.300
 want to

00:41:29.300 --> 00:41:29.500
 leave

00:41:29.500 --> 00:41:29.600
 you

00:41:29.600 --> 00:41:29.840
 like

00:41:29.840 --> 00:41:30.060
 that

00:41:30.060 --> 00:41:30.300
 if

00:41:30.300 --> 00:41:30.460
 you've

00:41:30.460 --> 00:41:30.600
 said

00:41:30.600 --> 00:41:30.760
 God

00:41:30.760 --> 00:41:31.039
 forgive

00:41:31.039 --> 00:41:31.200
 me

00:41:31.200 --> 00:41:31.300
 and

00:41:31.300 --> 00:41:31.400
 then

00:41:31.400 --> 00:41:31.480
 you

00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:31.700
 still

00:41:31.700 --> 00:41:31.900
 feel

00:41:31.900 --> 00:41:32.300
 guilty

00:41:32.300 --> 00:41:33.620
 you

00:41:33.620 --> 00:41:33.820
 are

00:41:33.820 --> 00:41:34.220
 forgiven

00:41:34.220 --> 00:41:35.120
 so

00:41:35.120 --> 00:41:35.519
 don't

00:41:35.519 --> 00:41:35.840
 keep

00:41:35.840 --> 00:41:36.440
 repenting

00:41:36.440 --> 00:41:36.580
 for

00:41:36.580 --> 00:41:36.740
 the

00:41:36.740 --> 00:41:37.000
 same

00:41:37.000 --> 00:41:37.460
 thing

00:41:37.460 --> 00:41:38.600
 don't

00:41:38.600 --> 00:41:38.980
 if

00:41:38.980 --> 00:41:39.200
 you've

00:41:39.200 --> 00:41:39.660
 said

00:41:39.660 --> 00:41:39.960
 God

00:41:39.960 --> 00:41:40.260
 forgive

00:41:40.260 --> 00:41:40.440
 me

00:41:40.440 --> 00:41:40.620
 for

00:41:40.620 --> 00:41:41.019
 this

00:41:41.019 --> 00:41:41.580
 then

00:41:41.580 --> 00:41:42.039
 thank

00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:42.380
 him

00:41:42.380 --> 00:41:42.880
 that

00:41:42.880 --> 00:41:43.059
 he's

00:41:43.059 --> 00:41:43.360
 forgiven

00:41:43.360 --> 00:41:43.460
 you

00:41:43.460 --> 00:41:43.619
 no

00:41:43.619 --> 00:41:43.800
 matter

00:41:43.800 --> 00:41:43.960
 how

00:41:43.960 --> 00:41:44.099
 you

00:41:44.099 --> 00:41:44.460
 feel

00:41:44.460 --> 00:41:44.940
 just

00:41:44.940 --> 00:41:45.200
 thank

00:41:45.200 --> 00:41:45.340
 him

00:41:45.340 --> 00:41:45.500
 because

00:41:45.500 --> 00:41:45.680
 he's

00:41:45.680 --> 00:41:45.960
 forgiven

00:41:45.960 --> 00:41:46.200
 you

00:41:46.200 --> 00:41:47.000
 and

00:41:47.000 --> 00:41:47.160
 your

00:41:47.160 --> 00:41:47.480
 feelings

00:41:47.480 --> 00:41:47.660
 will

00:41:47.660 --> 00:41:47.940
 follow

00:41:47.940 --> 00:41:49.059
 and

00:41:49.059 --> 00:41:49.160
 the

00:41:49.160 --> 00:41:49.420
 last

00:41:49.420 --> 00:41:49.740
 thing

00:41:49.740 --> 00:41:50.780
 take

00:41:50.780 --> 00:41:51.380
 active

00:41:51.380 --> 00:41:51.840
 steps

00:41:51.840 --> 00:41:52.059
 to

00:41:52.059 --> 00:41:52.660
 change

00:41:52.660 --> 00:41:54.200
 because

00:41:54.200 --> 00:41:54.320
 you

00:41:54.320 --> 00:41:54.440
 don't

00:41:54.440 --> 00:41:54.559
 have

00:41:54.559 --> 00:41:54.680
 to

00:41:54.680 --> 00:41:54.940
 change

00:41:54.940 --> 00:41:55.220
 because

00:41:55.220 --> 00:41:55.420
 you've

00:41:55.420 --> 00:41:55.480
 got

00:41:55.480 --> 00:41:55.579
 to

00:41:55.579 --> 00:41:55.720
 meet

00:41:55.720 --> 00:41:55.880
 up

00:41:55.880 --> 00:41:56.019
 to

00:41:56.019 --> 00:41:56.180
 some

00:41:56.180 --> 00:41:56.740
 performance

00:41:56.739 --> 00:41:57.339
 but

00:41:57.339 --> 00:41:57.639
 because

00:41:57.639 --> 00:41:57.819
 you

00:41:57.819 --> 00:41:58.179
 see

00:41:58.179 --> 00:41:58.419
 the

00:41:58.419 --> 00:41:58.759
 God

00:41:58.759 --> 00:41:58.979
 who

00:41:58.979 --> 00:41:59.139
 is

00:41:59.139 --> 00:41:59.659
 incredibly

00:41:59.659 --> 00:42:00.119
 gracious

00:42:00.119 --> 00:42:01.559
 who

00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:01.939
 chases

00:42:01.939 --> 00:42:02.299
 after

00:42:02.299 --> 00:42:02.599
 you

00:42:02.599 --> 00:42:04.679
 make

00:42:04.679 --> 00:42:05.259
 active

00:42:05.259 --> 00:42:05.639
 steps

00:42:05.639 --> 00:42:05.839
 to

00:42:05.839 --> 00:42:06.299
 change

00:42:06.299 --> 00:42:06.679
 you

00:42:06.679 --> 00:42:07.039
 feed

00:42:07.039 --> 00:42:07.179
 an

00:42:07.179 --> 00:42:07.559
 addiction

00:42:07.559 --> 00:42:07.879
 to

00:42:07.879 --> 00:42:08.419
 Christ

00:42:08.419 --> 00:42:10.559
 by

00:42:10.559 --> 00:42:10.959
 feeding

00:42:10.959 --> 00:42:11.239
 it

00:42:11.239 --> 00:42:11.819
 learn

00:42:11.819 --> 00:42:12.299
 specific

00:42:12.299 --> 00:42:12.779
 passages

00:42:12.779 --> 00:42:13.099
 of the

00:42:13.099 --> 00:42:13.379
 Bible

00:42:13.379 --> 00:42:13.899
 if you

00:42:13.899 --> 00:42:14.199
 struggle

00:42:14.199 --> 00:42:14.359
 with

00:42:14.359 --> 00:42:14.759
 particular

00:42:14.759 --> 00:42:15.279
 things

00:42:15.279 --> 00:42:16.319
 ask

00:42:16.319 --> 00:42:16.500
 a

00:42:16.500 --> 00:42:16.819
 person

00:42:16.819 --> 00:42:17.019
 to

00:42:17.019 --> 00:42:17.139
 be

00:42:17.139 --> 00:42:17.299
 your

00:42:17.299 --> 00:42:17.839
 accountability

00:42:17.839 --> 00:42:18.519
 partner

00:42:18.519 --> 00:42:18.859
 not

00:42:18.859 --> 00:42:19.039
 just

00:42:19.039 --> 00:42:19.179
 on

00:42:19.179 --> 00:42:19.459
 anything

00:42:19.459 --> 00:42:19.659
 but

00:42:19.659 --> 00:42:19.779
 on

00:42:19.779 --> 00:42:19.919
 a

00:42:19.919 --> 00:42:20.479
 specific

00:42:20.479 --> 00:42:21.219
 issue

00:42:21.219 --> 00:42:23.519
 pray

00:42:23.519 --> 00:42:23.959
 regularly

00:42:23.959 --> 00:42:24.359
 God

00:42:24.359 --> 00:42:25.019
 help me

00:42:25.019 --> 00:42:25.319
 to see

00:42:25.319 --> 00:42:25.519
 your

00:42:25.519 --> 00:42:25.819
 beauty

00:42:25.819 --> 00:42:26.159
 more

00:42:26.159 --> 00:42:28.879
 what I'd

00:42:28.879 --> 00:42:29.119
 like you

00:42:29.119 --> 00:42:29.519
 to do

00:42:29.519 --> 00:42:30.379
 on your

00:42:30.379 --> 00:42:31.159
 sheet

00:42:31.159 --> 00:42:31.679
 on the

00:42:31.679 --> 00:42:31.940
 back

00:42:31.940 --> 00:42:32.239
 of where

00:42:32.239 --> 00:42:32.379
 the

00:42:32.379 --> 00:42:32.779
 Bible

00:42:32.779 --> 00:42:33.099
 reading

00:42:33.099 --> 00:42:33.480
 is

00:42:33.480 --> 00:42:36.460
 you

00:42:36.460 --> 00:42:36.659
 will

00:42:36.659 --> 00:42:36.940
 see

00:42:36.940 --> 00:42:38.199
 that

00:42:38.199 --> 00:42:38.420
 there

00:42:38.420 --> 00:42:38.759
 are

00:42:38.759 --> 00:42:39.159
 three

00:42:39.159 --> 00:42:39.899
 questions

00:42:39.899 --> 00:42:41.539
 one

00:42:41.539 --> 00:42:41.819
 of them

00:42:41.819 --> 00:42:42.159
 how do

00:42:42.159 --> 00:42:42.259
 you

00:42:42.259 --> 00:42:42.859
 respond

00:42:42.859 --> 00:42:43.259
 normally

00:42:43.259 --> 00:42:43.460
 when

00:42:43.460 --> 00:42:43.599
 you

00:42:43.599 --> 00:42:43.980
 fail

00:42:43.980 --> 00:42:45.859
 second

00:42:45.859 --> 00:42:46.099
 one

00:42:46.099 --> 00:42:46.359
 if I

00:42:46.359 --> 00:42:46.480
 can

00:42:46.480 --> 00:42:46.779
 find

00:42:46.779 --> 00:42:47.079
 it

00:42:47.079 --> 00:42:48.940
 I

00:42:48.940 --> 00:42:51.139
 can't

00:42:51.139 --> 00:42:51.339
 find

00:42:51.339 --> 00:42:51.440
 it

00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:51.599
 you

00:42:51.599 --> 00:42:51.739
 can

00:42:51.739 --> 00:42:52.199
 read

00:42:52.199 --> 00:42:52.420
 those

00:42:52.420 --> 00:42:52.599
 there

00:42:52.599 --> 00:42:53.199
 what

00:42:53.199 --> 00:42:53.500
 do

00:42:53.500 --> 00:42:53.539
 you

00:42:53.539 --> 00:42:53.659
 need

00:42:53.659 --> 00:42:53.799
 to

00:42:53.799 --> 00:42:54.039
 pray

00:42:54.039 --> 00:42:54.420
 for

00:42:54.420 --> 00:42:55.279
 here

00:42:55.279 --> 00:42:55.359
 we

00:42:55.359 --> 00:42:55.599
 go

00:42:55.599 --> 00:42:56.279
 what

00:42:56.279 --> 00:42:56.440
 should

00:42:56.440 --> 00:42:56.539
 you

00:42:56.539 --> 00:42:56.679
 be

00:42:56.679 --> 00:42:56.980
 praying

00:42:56.980 --> 00:42:57.139
 for

00:42:57.139 --> 00:42:57.619
 yourself

00:42:57.619 --> 00:42:58.259
 and

00:42:58.259 --> 00:42:58.619
 also

00:42:58.619 --> 00:42:58.839
 for

00:42:58.839 --> 00:42:59.279
 watermark

00:42:59.279 --> 00:42:59.839
 church

00:42:59.839 --> 00:43:00.519
 remember

00:43:00.519 --> 00:43:00.960
 we're

00:43:00.960 --> 00:43:01.099
 a

00:43:01.099 --> 00:43:01.440
 family

00:43:01.440 --> 00:43:03.880
 we

00:43:03.880 --> 00:43:04.319
 serve

00:43:04.319 --> 00:43:04.440
 a

00:43:04.440 --> 00:43:04.679
 gracious

00:43:04.679 --> 00:43:05.059
 God

00:43:05.059 --> 00:43:05.339
 and

00:43:05.339 --> 00:43:05.539
 are

00:43:05.539 --> 00:43:05.619
 there

00:43:05.619 --> 00:43:05.779
 any

00:43:05.779 --> 00:43:06.159
 concrete

00:43:06.159 --> 00:43:06.500
 steps

00:43:06.500 --> 00:43:06.639
 you

00:43:06.639 --> 00:43:06.759
 need

00:43:06.759 --> 00:43:06.860
 to

00:43:06.860 --> 00:43:07.119
 take

00:43:07.119 --> 00:43:07.219
 in

00:43:07.219 --> 00:43:07.319
 the

00:43:07.319 --> 00:43:07.460
 light

00:43:07.460 --> 00:43:07.579
 of

00:43:07.579 --> 00:43:07.839
 God's

00:43:07.839 --> 00:43:08.159
 grace

00:43:08.159 --> 00:43:08.639
 I'm

00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:08.819
 going to

00:43:08.819 --> 00:43:09.219
 give you

00:43:09.219 --> 00:43:09.759
 a couple

00:43:09.759 --> 00:43:09.900
 of

00:43:09.900 --> 00:43:10.139
 minutes

00:43:10.139 --> 00:43:10.500
 now

00:43:10.500 --> 00:43:11.920
 we

00:43:11.920 --> 00:43:12.079
 don't

00:43:12.079 --> 00:43:12.319
 normally

00:43:12.319 --> 00:43:12.519
 do

00:43:12.519 --> 00:43:12.860
 this

00:43:12.860 --> 00:43:13.559
 but I

00:43:13.559 --> 00:43:13.659
 don't

00:43:13.659 --> 00:43:13.860
 want you

00:43:13.860 --> 00:43:13.960
 to

00:43:13.960 --> 00:43:14.139
 just

00:43:14.139 --> 00:43:14.480
 listen

00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:14.659
 and

00:43:14.659 --> 00:43:15.440
 run

00:43:15.440 --> 00:43:15.739
 away

00:43:15.739 --> 00:43:15.880
 and

00:43:15.880 --> 00:43:16.000
 then

00:43:16.000 --> 00:43:16.119
 you

00:43:16.119 --> 00:43:16.279
 just

00:43:16.279 --> 00:43:16.579
 carry

00:43:16.579 --> 00:43:16.860
 on

00:43:16.860 --> 00:43:17.199
 doing

00:43:17.199 --> 00:43:17.980
 what

00:43:17.980 --> 00:43:18.099
 we

00:43:18.099 --> 00:43:18.360
 normally

00:43:18.360 --> 00:43:18.639
 do

00:43:18.639 --> 00:43:18.799
 I

00:43:18.800 --> 00:43:18.960
 want you

00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:19.060
 to

00:43:19.060 --> 00:43:19.260
 stop

00:43:19.260 --> 00:43:19.400
 and

00:43:19.400 --> 00:43:19.740
 think

00:43:19.740 --> 00:43:20.140
 now

00:43:20.140 --> 00:43:23.500
 think

00:43:23.500 --> 00:43:23.660
 through

00:43:23.660 --> 00:43:23.880
 those

00:43:23.880 --> 00:43:24.100
 three

00:43:24.100 --> 00:43:24.700
 questions

00:43:24.700 --> 00:43:25.640
 we're

00:43:25.640 --> 00:43:25.760
 just

00:43:25.760 --> 00:43:25.900
 going

00:43:25.900 --> 00:43:25.980
 to

00:43:25.980 --> 00:43:26.140
 give

00:43:26.140 --> 00:43:26.380
 you

00:43:26.380 --> 00:43:27.000
 a

00:43:27.000 --> 00:43:27.180
 minute

00:43:27.180 --> 00:43:27.400
 to

00:43:27.400 --> 00:43:27.560
 think

00:43:27.560 --> 00:43:27.720
 if

00:43:27.720 --> 00:43:27.800
 you

00:43:27.800 --> 00:43:27.920
 want

00:43:27.920 --> 00:43:28.000
 to

00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:28.200
 write

00:43:28.200 --> 00:43:28.519
 down

00:43:28.519 --> 00:43:28.700
 any

00:43:28.700 --> 00:43:29.019
 answers

00:43:29.019 --> 00:43:29.280
 just

00:43:29.280 --> 00:43:29.500
 write

00:43:29.500 --> 00:43:29.620
 them

00:43:29.620 --> 00:43:29.920
 down

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 know

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 know

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 know

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 of

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 grace

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 but

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 your

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 chance

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 to

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 respond

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 to

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 him

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 not

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 that

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 day

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 Thank you.

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 Thank you.

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 Thank you.

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 The doors later on and go into our weeks, we know that we're going to fail again.

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 Thank you.

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 But thank you that it's your gospel that when it's applied to our hearts, it frees us to

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 be brutally honest with ourselves and with you.

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 The assurance of your total forgiveness of all our faults, failings, sins through the

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 blood of Jesus means we don't have to play defensive games any longer.

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 We don't have to rationalize and excuse our sins.

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 We can say when we've told a lie instead of exaggerating it.

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 We can admit an unforgiving spirit instead of continue to blame our parents for our emotional

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 distress.

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 We can call sin exactly what it is, regardless of how ugly and shameful it may be, because

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 we know that Jesus bore that sin in his body on the cross.

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 Thank you for the assurance of your total forgiveness in Christ so that we have no reason to hide, no

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 reason to live in fear any longer.

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 Please help us to know you and for that to shape the way we respond to our failure.