Good morning. Sorry, it's me not leaning in close enough.
Good morning. It's good to be here with you.
This Sunday is Transfiguration Sunday,
and this past week I realized I actually preached on Transfiguration Sunday last year,
and so for a hot second I thought,
I'm going to just bring out my old sermon and just recycle it,
but I didn't. I have something different on my mind for this Sunday.
Ash Wednesday is this coming week.
I made a joke earlier that it's on a Wednesday this year,
which we should all keep in mind, and it's the start of Lent.
Lent is one of my favorite seasons, which actually sounds a bit odd.
Advent is my other favorite season because I love the sense in Advent
that Jesus is coming into the world and it's all going to be okay.
But I love Lent because for me it's become a season of going deep with the Lord.
Lent for me is definitely about repentance and definitely about giving something up,
but more than that, it's about deeply meditating on Jesus' death on the cross
and what he accomplished on the cross.
And deeply meditating on the cross is profoundly linked for me with going deep with the Lord.
There are some really beautiful liturgies that were developed for the occasion of Lent.
So I'm going to talk about intimacy or going deep with Jesus.
And intimacy or being deep with Jesus is one of the most important things that we can experience as human beings.
Intimacy with Jesus is knowing Jesus as a real person and not just about him.
It's knowing what his presence is like, what it's like when he speaks to you,
or when you are hearing from him.
And so this morning, to prepare us for Lent, to prepare us maybe for a season of going deeper with Jesus,
of being more intimate with the Lord,
I want to lead us through a kind of walkthrough of two different keys
that are a little bit meditative in nature to help us with being closer and going deeper with Jesus.
So key number one, identity.
So it's so important to have a heart level knowing of who we are.
We all carry many identities all at the same time.
Maybe it's parent, daughter, son, sibling.
Maybe it's an identity related to our skin color.
Maybe it's a work-related identity.
Maybe it's about where we're from.
Maybe it's a work-in-law.
The identity that we need, though, that we need our hearts to be anchored in,
is a multifaceted identity that's revealed in Scripture.
So we'd all probably say that we know we're made in the image of God,
we're loved by God, that we're a child of God,
and these are all true and powerful and are not to be dismissed.
But I want to read through some Scriptures about your identity
that you may not be as familiar with,
but they're definitely there in Scripture.
So this is going to be a little bit of a participation moment.
I'm going to read these Scriptures,
and I'd like to ask you to, as I read them, to try and receive them.
I want to ask you to notice how you react inside when you hear these things.
What do you feel?
What comes to mind when you hear these things?
Does any of what I read feel true?
And what maybe doesn't feel true, and why?
So I'm going to read through these.
I'm not going to stop to say book and chapter and verse,
because that's going to get clunky,
but just know that everything I'm reading is all Scripture.
So settle in, and let me read these words from Scripture about who you are.
Before the creation of the world, God knew you and loved you.
God chose you in Christ from before the foundation of the world
to be holy and blameless before him in love.
In love, he predestined you to be adopted as his beloved son or daughter.
When God formed you and brought you into the world,
he made you in his image.
So you are of him, and you resemble him.
Jesus died for your sin because you're valuable and loved by him.
And yet more, you are crucified with Christ.
You are dead to sin, dead to the world,
and with Christ you've died to the elemental spirits of the universe.
That's Paul.
Your old self is crucified with Christ.
You are raised up with Christ, a new creation.
The old is gone.
The new has come.
You are God's workmanship,
created in Christ Jesus for good works,
prepared beforehand for you to walk in.
Before the creation of the world,
you are in God's presence,
and you are good and meant to do good.
You are seated in Christ in the heavenly places,
far above all rule and authority,
and power and dominion,
in this age and the one to come.
You have authority over the demonic.
You are in Christ,
and Christ is in you, the hope of glory.
You are united with Christ,
and one with him in spirit.
Nothing can separate you from the love of God,
which is in Christ Jesus the Lord.
That means you are loved by the Lord,
forgiven by the Lord,
accepted by him.
You belong to him,
and you are safe in him.
Now, I could go on.
The scriptures have so much to say.
The Lord has so much to say about who you are.
And it's easy to think that one of these other identities
that I mentioned earlier
is our truest and deepest identity,
but it's not.
What I read is who you truly and most deeply are.
Having this key in your hand
is the first key to intimacy with the Lord.
It is the Lord's words,
the Lord's truth about who you are,
and being grounded in that
is an important part of being grounded in him.
And as much as he has to say about who you are,
he also has a lot to say about how he feels about you,
and that's the second key.
So let me turn to that.
There's something about story
that speaks to our hearts
in a way that direct speech just doesn't.
And I think it's why Jesus
spoke in parables and analogies so much.
You can say to somebody,
God loves you, and that's true,
and those words can go deep into the heart,
but those words don't fully capture
the intensity of God's love for you.
There's a story that came to mind
as I was preparing this.
It's the story of the prodigal son.
We all know this story.
It's much loved, much preached about,
lots of books written about it.
But there's this one part in the story
where the younger son's coming up to the house,
coming up the road towards his father's estate.
He's uncertain of how he will be received
given how deeply he's rejected
and humiliated his dad,
how much he sinned with his dad's inheritance
and life's work that was gifted to him
before he left.
He has nothing left.
He hopes only to be a servant
because he thinks being a son is over
and will never be possible again.
The dad's response is everything.
He sees his son,
and when he does, he starts running to him.
When he gets to him, he hugs and kisses him,
overjoyed that his son is back safe with him again.
The intensity of the dad's love is visible.
The dad is compelled by this emotional love
and tenderness and grace.
He can't help his reaction,
and he doesn't even try and hide it,
and he probably couldn't if he tried.
He has an overwhelming emotional love for his son,
and that is exactly how the father feels about you,
who knew you and loved you from before the foundation of the world,
and he's wanted nothing more than to have you back with him again this whole time.
He's not mad at you.
He aches to have you with him.
Jesus, everywhere he went,
was compelled by his love to stop and heal and teach and forgive
and cast out demons and many, many other things.
One of my favorite stories is when Jesus was at a synagogue,
and he saw this woman bent over for 18 years,
and he knew that to heal her during the service
would make the leaders of the synagogue angry at him
and would energize opposition to him.
He could have said to her, you know,
come up quietly to her and said,
look, you've waited 18 long years
and another 45 minutes won't kill you.
Meet me behind the synagogue
and I'll take care of this.
But he didn't.
He couldn't hold himself back.
He was compelled by an overwhelming love
to reach out and set her free right then, right there,
even at cost.
And that is exactly how Jesus feels about you
when you come to him with your pain.
So these two keys, your identity,
knowing how Jesus feels about you,
what happens when they come together.
I'm going to be a little bit personal here.
I'm going to take a risk.
This is some of what I've experienced,
so I'm going to share it.
I'm a little nervous to do so.
But here, these two keys,
identity and knowing in your heart
how Jesus feels about you,
unlocks a place of intimacy with the Lord.
When I'm anchored in who I am
and in how the Lord feels about me,
I become incredibly sensitive
to the Lord's presence and his voice.
My heart opens to the Lord
and I invite him to come in more and more.
My prayers flow with the leading of the Spirit.
I find myself able to go to what has been described by others
as a secret place of worship.
It's a place where you're able to go with the Lord in worship,
a deep place in his presence.
It's a place of greater and greater surrender and yieldedness
as the Lord and his presence does something to my heart.
Tears come in this place.
Not sad tears, not happy tears.
That sometimes can happen.
But what people have described as spirit tears.
Praise and tears pour out at the feet of the one who loves me
and gave himself for me.
And I know myself in that place
in a way unlike any other way in those moments.
So, to be a little bit practical,
what do you do to know Jesus more intimately?
What do you do with all this stuff?
So, first, ask to know him.
This sounds ridiculously obvious,
but it's surprising how this one gets missed.
Ask Jesus to make you to know him.
Like, to really know him.
What he is like.
What he cares about.
What his heart is like.
Ask Jesus to make you to want to know him.
To long for his presence and his voice.
Ask him to make you familiar with his voice and his presence
so that you know that you know when he's speaking to you
and when you're hearing from him.
Ask Jesus to show you how he feels about you.
Take the risk.
Ask him, honestly, how do you really feel about me, Jesus?
I remember in seminary,
someone told me about how God sees us through the lenses of Jesus.
And I remember thinking, that's horrible.
Have I ever shared this?
I felt like God was wearing Jesus goggles.
And the thought was, God's wearing these Jesus goggles.
And if the goggles, and he sees me through Jesus,
and therefore I'm loved and I'm accepted.
He doesn't see me, the sinner.
And my thought was, if those goggles ever slip off, I'm done.
But that's false.
That's bad theology.
That's not how God feels about you.
Ask Jesus to tell you how does he actually feel about you.
No goggles involved.
You'll be amazed at how many times in Scripture the Lord answers his disciples' questions.
And think about this.
If you're a parent,
how do you feel when your daughter or your son come to you and says,
they want to know how you feel about them.
They want to know if you love them.
And how do you feel in that moment?
You love to tell them that you love them.
And if your mom or your dad didn't seem to delight in telling you how they felt about you,
it probably wounded you.
We're wired to hear the Lord tell us how he feels about us.
And we're wired to tell people, the ones we love, how we feel about them.
And it is your father's delight to do that for you.
So I want to ask you, this is another participation moment.
Try something with me.
It will take less than a minute.
I want you to pray quietly inside.
And I want you to say,
whether you address God as father or Lord,
you address God how you do,
father or Lord, say this,
I accept your love for me.
I choose to be the one you love.
I choose to be your precious beloved daughter or son.
So close your eyes and try that.
Notice again how you felt when you said those things.
Was it hard to say?
Did it feel true for you that maybe God could feel this way for you?
Did it stir up anything that you want to pray about?
The second action point,
feed your heart on the scriptural words of your identity.
Meditate on the verses like the ones I read this morning.
Ask the Lord to help your heart receive those truths.
We've all been wounded in life.
Our trust receptors get damaged.
Ask the Lord to heal those
so that you're able to hear and receive his words of love.
Practice what we did this morning.
Read those verses out loud.
Say things like, make it a conversation.
Thank you, Lord,
that I am united with you,
one with you in spirit.
Thank you that you are in me and I am in you.
Thank you, Father.
I'm a new creation in Christ.
Let those scriptures become the start
of a conversation you have with the Lord
and see where he takes it.
One other thing I've found helpful over the years
is to get with people who know Jesus' presence and voice.
I remember one time I would volunteer at these healing prayer conferences
and I always wanted to be the prayer minister.
I wanted to be the person that prayed with people
and I would see God do powerful things.
But I kept going to these
and I kept getting assigned to be the catcher.
So if you've ever gone to these kinds of conferences,
this is where, you know,
the prayer minister says,
anybody who wants prayer,
come forward and people line up.
And the prayer minister walks down the line
and briefly stops and prays for people.
And the catcher is behind the line
because when the spirit,
if when the spirit falls on that person,
the person goes down
and the catcher catches.
So I was like,
why do I got to be the catcher?
Like, I'm like in the back row.
I don't want to catch people.
And honestly,
I was a little conflicted at times, right?
Because, you know,
I would stand behind somebody
and I remember standing behind this really big dude
and I was so conflicted.
I was like,
Lord, I want him to experience your spirit,
but I don't want to die in the process.
Like, so it's like,
do you like just like,
like, like middle,
like give him like a middle dose or something?
Anyway, so I remember,
so I was kind of grumpy, right?
And afraid for my life at points.
But as I started to,
you know,
you have to kind of keep pace
with the prayer minister
and I started to notice something happening.
I would stand behind somebody
and I would kind of like,
you know,
anchor myself
and then,
and the prayer minister would pause
and there's,
you know,
there's one prayer minister in particular
that I was the catcher for
a few times
and she would pause and listen
and,
and I would start to get these pictures
and I would start to get these thoughts
and about things that were going on
in the person's life.
And then the prayer minister
would start to pray
all those same things.
And I realized after a while
that being the catcher
was actually me being schooled
by the spirit
and how to hear from the Lord.
I didn't know,
I didn't recognize
what was coming to me
in pictures and words
until I heard
the seasoned prayer minister
who I knew
could hear from the Lord
saying some of the same things.
And I started to realize
that's how the Lord sounds.
This is what it,
this is what it's like
when you get a picture.
So get with people
that you know
can hear from the Lord
and they can help you learn
how to hear too.
My last practical point,
trim your spiritual sails
and expect the Lord to show up.
So what do I mean by that?
So an analogy I once came across
was from sailing.
We are all like,
in sailing you have ships
that are out on the ocean
and when they hit a dead calm
there's no wind,
there's no waves.
The ship just sits there,
can't move,
can't do anything.
And living by the spirit
is being like a sailing ship.
We have sails
and we want to catch wind.
But sometimes we're in a season
where there's just no wind at all.
So what do you do?
Sailors never quite knew
what to do either
so they would always keep
the sails up
ready to catch any wind.
They would keep the sails trimmed.
And you remember Jesus' analogy
about the Holy Spirit
from John 3
being like the wind.
You never see where the spirit
comes from or where it goes.
It just comes.
So keeping your sails trimmed
by the sailors
was an act of expectant faith.
So how do we keep
our sails trimmed?
When I'm in a dead calm,
some of the things I turn to
are some of the spiritual disciplines.
These come from Scripture
and the early church.
My go-to are prayer,
Scripture, Eucharist,
fasting, worship.
And these are the things you do
to keep your sails trimmed,
ready for the Holy Spirit,
the wind to blow.
So I use the morning office
from the Book of Common Prayer.
It gives me words
to pray in Scriptures.
I fast to cultivate a heart
that hungers for the Lord,
that's repentant and surrendered.
And I worship.
One of my favorite people
who writes on the spiritual life
is a guy named Graham Cook.
And he talks about seasons
of manifest and hiddenness.
Seasons of manifest
is when God shows up all the time.
He's active
and it's easy to feel his presence
and hear his voice.
And the hidden seasons
are the opposite.
Prayer is dry.
The Eucharist doesn't feel special.
The question's not
where is God,
but what's he doing?
And in those seasons of hiddenness,
the Spirit does a deep, deep work in us.
And the spiritual disciplines
are the ways
that I actively seek
to align myself
with what the Lord is doing
deep inside of me
even when I can't see it.
And it positions myself
in expectant faith
for when the wind's going to blow.
So I ask you to remember
these two keys of intimacy
and knowing how Jesus feels about you
and how they can unlock together
your closeness
and your ability
to go deep with the Lord.
Remember these practical steps
because they'll help you
when things feel dry
and help you position yourself
to have for the Lord
when he wants to
share his presence with you
and speak to you.
And if you want to talk
about any of this,
of course,
I'm always happy to do that.
And there's lots of us here
who would be happy
to pray with you
and talk with you about that.
So let me pray.
Lord Jesus,
Lord, as we go into Lent,
I ask that you visit us
powerfully by your Spirit
to speak to us,
to show us how
to best connect with you,
show us what tools,
Lord,
we can use
to position ourselves
before you,
to make our hearts
open before you,
Lord,
so we can have more of you
and your Spirit.
Lord,
so that we are more receptive
to you
and the deep work
of transformation
that you want to do in us.
Lord,
I ask that
this season of Lent
would be
an amazing season
for all of us
of quiet,
deep moments with you,
of hearing your voice
and knowing your presence
in fresh and new ways
that we'd never
experienced before.
Lord,
show us who we are
in deeper ways
and speak your love
to us,
to each of us
in the depths of our heart
so we really,
really know
how you feel about us.
I thank you, Lord.
Amen.