WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:03.419 All right, well, it's great to be here. 00:00:03.480 --> 00:00:05.060 Let's grab our Bibles at this point. 00:00:05.980 --> 00:00:09.060 Maybe you can share with the folks sitting to your left or to your right. 00:00:09.080 --> 00:00:12.839 I'm going to try and get a handle on looking at folks over here and over here. 00:00:12.880 --> 00:00:13.859 That's not going to be easy. 00:00:14.339 --> 00:00:18.719 But we want to all be moving in our Bibles to the 38th Psalm. 00:00:20.679 --> 00:00:26.300 And when you get there, you'll see it's a Psalm of David, the 38th Psalm. 00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:38.320 The Psalms are these great sections in our Bibles that I think all of us are really glad that God has left for us. 00:00:39.079 --> 00:00:42.880 I'd say most of us this morning are probably in love with the Psalms. 00:00:43.640 --> 00:00:51.820 The Puritans, if you've ever read those men, they used to call these Psalms God's great medicine chest for our hearts. 00:00:52.079 --> 00:00:57.200 In the sense that when we're opening them up, we find that there's things in there that soothe us. 00:00:57.200 --> 00:01:05.340 And much the same as myself this morning when I woke and there was this croak in my throat and I was rummaging around for Beecham's and so on. 00:01:05.480 --> 00:01:21.800 And often when we hit crisis point in our homes and lives, we turn to the Psalms and we find that there's things in there that soothe, I suppose, these answers to queries that we have that God knows that we need. 00:01:21.799 --> 00:01:28.359 And so maybe, for instance, I don't know, we've been watching the news, there's no doubt we've been doing over the course of the last number of weeks, 00:01:28.459 --> 00:01:33.439 and we're thinking of all of these bombs that are raining down from a great height on IS. 00:01:33.939 --> 00:01:39.599 And there's this sense, at least in my heart, that it's not making a button of difference at all. 00:01:39.700 --> 00:01:46.979 There's still all of these threats like last night on the London Tube or even over in the west coast of the States. 00:01:46.980 --> 00:01:53.380 And so suddenly, you see, we're maybe climbing the pole and we're getting worried for our kids. 00:01:53.540 --> 00:01:55.500 We're thinking of their lives. 00:01:55.659 --> 00:02:00.420 We're wondering if all of this is going to come to these streets. 00:02:00.420 --> 00:02:05.960 And yet, do not be fretting, Psalm 37, this is a great text, 00:02:06.379 --> 00:02:13.840 you're not to be fretting, Psalm 37, over men that are evil or be envious, as he adds, of all of those who do wrong, 00:02:14.240 --> 00:02:22.960 for they are like the grass, and they wither, and they're gone, and just like green plants, they will die, as he says. 00:02:22.960 --> 00:02:27.740 And so straight from the throne, you see, when we get into the Psalms, 00:02:27.780 --> 00:02:32.740 and even in this instance of fear, as we're saying, there's this wonderful, rich perspective 00:02:32.740 --> 00:02:38.240 that our Father knows that we need, as if we came for the medicine, you see. 00:02:38.640 --> 00:02:43.680 And the Father, as it were, he delved all the way into his cabinet of truth. 00:02:43.760 --> 00:02:45.939 That's the sense that this gives to us. 00:02:47.120 --> 00:02:51.000 And then maybe much the same thing when we're getting a little too big for our boots, 00:02:51.000 --> 00:02:55.039 some have lost a sense of, I don't know, a sense of perspective, 00:02:55.699 --> 00:02:59.159 or a sense of wonder over the interest of the Father. 00:02:59.659 --> 00:03:06.520 And for once, we were so staggered that one so great and out of this world could love me 00:03:06.520 --> 00:03:12.020 and shower over me his interest and his affection, and his mercies, and his time, 00:03:12.439 --> 00:03:15.719 and all of his interest even in our families and our homes. 00:03:15.719 --> 00:03:21.139 And we remember some Sundays when that thought on its own made us praise. 00:03:22.039 --> 00:03:23.560 We were sitting in our seats saying, 00:03:23.900 --> 00:03:27.199 this is amazing, I have a Father and he loves me. 00:03:28.740 --> 00:03:30.460 But maybe not now. 00:03:32.259 --> 00:03:36.719 And we've moved on from those times, and the years have been passing, 00:03:36.919 --> 00:03:40.060 and we've kind of been rolling in on Sundays and growing up in the church. 00:03:40.060 --> 00:03:45.120 And if we're being honest, the wonder is kind of a way, and it's gone. 00:03:45.219 --> 00:03:50.439 There's no more sense of amazement in his kindness and his care, 00:03:50.599 --> 00:03:55.360 mainly maybe due to the crises that have risen up and stolen our minds. 00:03:55.420 --> 00:03:56.740 I don't know what's going on in your lives, 00:03:56.840 --> 00:04:01.539 but we would concede, wouldn't we, that life's events end up stealing our minds. 00:04:01.599 --> 00:04:06.300 Or maybe we've been thinking about all of the things that are just transient and passing, 00:04:06.300 --> 00:04:12.680 like our houses and exams and our pensions and our mortgages and our interests and our sports teams 00:04:12.680 --> 00:04:13.680 and all of these things. 00:04:14.020 --> 00:04:17.819 And God, if we were being honest, is kind of shunted to the side. 00:04:19.160 --> 00:04:20.360 And this is the way that it is. 00:04:20.460 --> 00:04:22.439 We would know this. 00:04:23.300 --> 00:04:27.199 And then maybe one night, who's to say, over the course of the winter, 00:04:27.319 --> 00:04:31.300 when you're walking under the stars and there are all of these lights, 00:04:31.400 --> 00:04:33.300 even millions and billions of them, 00:04:33.300 --> 00:04:35.759 and the moon is just hanging there. 00:04:36.060 --> 00:04:38.180 Or maybe there's a sunset and it gets you. 00:04:38.759 --> 00:04:44.439 And suddenly you see the doors to the medicine cabinet have kind of swung back on their hinges, 00:04:44.439 --> 00:04:48.540 because when I consider your heavens, we will say, 00:04:49.780 --> 00:04:54.780 and the moon and the stars that you have set in their place, 00:04:55.100 --> 00:04:56.199 well, hold on. 00:04:56.360 --> 00:04:58.900 What is man that you are mindful of him? 00:04:58.899 --> 00:05:03.819 Or the son of man that you would be caring for me? 00:05:05.259 --> 00:05:06.500 That's the eighth psalm. 00:05:08.899 --> 00:05:14.939 And suddenly you're away and your spirit is lifted and the medicine from the psalmist just hits the spot. 00:05:15.000 --> 00:05:15.739 Do you see what we're saying? 00:05:15.939 --> 00:05:18.279 And on and on in that kind of sense, 00:05:18.359 --> 00:05:23.399 we could go exploring all sorts of different medicines that the psalmist has kindly left 00:05:23.399 --> 00:05:25.539 for our churches and our lives. 00:05:25.540 --> 00:05:27.340 And actually here it's the same this morning. 00:05:27.439 --> 00:05:30.600 It's basically the same for us in the 38th psalm, 00:05:30.660 --> 00:05:33.879 because Lord, David is saying, 00:05:34.000 --> 00:05:41.680 don't rebuke me in your anger or discipline me, he says, in your wrath, 00:05:41.939 --> 00:05:48.860 which we could say is a shot of medicine for those who've kind of wandered away from God's ways 00:05:48.860 --> 00:05:51.639 and they've been up to their ears in all kinds of pursuits, 00:05:51.900 --> 00:05:55.180 which is maybe the case for some of us this morning, 00:05:55.319 --> 00:05:59.180 or maybe a psalmist that we're to tuck away for the future and keep in our minds 00:05:59.180 --> 00:06:02.480 when all of your closeness with the Father is gone. 00:06:02.560 --> 00:06:03.900 Don't rebuke me, he says, 00:06:04.439 --> 00:06:07.460 for your arrows have pierced me, he says, 00:06:07.500 --> 00:06:09.139 and your hand has come down on me, 00:06:09.160 --> 00:06:12.220 and because of your wrath there's no health in my body 00:06:12.220 --> 00:06:15.880 and even no soundness in my bones because of all of my sin. 00:06:17.020 --> 00:06:18.740 My guilt has overwhelmed me, he says, 00:06:18.780 --> 00:06:20.660 like a burden too heavy to bear. 00:06:20.980 --> 00:06:24.660 My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly. 00:06:24.840 --> 00:06:26.400 I'm bowed down and brought low, 00:06:26.560 --> 00:06:28.480 and all the day long I am mourning. 00:06:29.480 --> 00:06:31.720 My back is filled with a searing pain. 00:06:32.060 --> 00:06:33.300 There's no health in my body. 00:06:33.560 --> 00:06:36.060 I am feeble and utterly crushed. 00:06:36.220 --> 00:06:37.760 I groan in anguish of heart, 00:06:37.759 --> 00:06:40.920 and all of my longings lie open before you, Lord. 00:06:41.019 --> 00:06:42.899 My sighing isn't hidden from you. 00:06:43.639 --> 00:06:44.759 My heart pounds. 00:06:45.459 --> 00:06:46.680 My strength fails me. 00:06:46.980 --> 00:06:48.920 Even the light has gone out from my eyes. 00:06:49.000 --> 00:06:51.079 My friends avoid me because of my wounds. 00:06:51.579 --> 00:06:53.180 My neighbors stay far away, 00:06:53.539 --> 00:06:56.000 and then those who want to kill me set their traps. 00:06:56.120 --> 00:06:58.339 Those who would harm me talk of my ruin, 00:06:58.379 --> 00:07:01.699 and all the day long they scheme and they lie. 00:07:01.920 --> 00:07:05.379 Oh, I'm like the deaf, he says, who cannot hear, 00:07:05.379 --> 00:07:08.800 and like the mute who cannot speak, 00:07:08.879 --> 00:07:11.060 and I become like one who doesn't hear 00:07:11.060 --> 00:07:12.939 and whose mouth can offer no reply. 00:07:14.980 --> 00:07:19.240 But Lord, I wait for you, 00:07:20.459 --> 00:07:23.860 and you will answer, Lord my God. 00:07:24.699 --> 00:07:28.519 For I said, do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me 00:07:28.519 --> 00:07:31.219 when my feet slip, for I'm about to fall, 00:07:31.300 --> 00:07:33.219 and my pain is ever with me. 00:07:33.240 --> 00:07:34.540 I confess my sins. 00:07:34.540 --> 00:07:35.980 I'm troubled by them. 00:07:36.240 --> 00:07:38.700 And many have become my enemies without cause, 00:07:38.780 --> 00:07:40.960 and those who hate me without reason are numerous. 00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:43.700 Those who repay my good will, 00:07:44.360 --> 00:07:46.580 with evil, lodge accusations against me, 00:07:46.720 --> 00:07:49.360 even though I seek only to do what is good. 00:07:49.700 --> 00:07:51.080 Lord, do not forsake me. 00:07:51.300 --> 00:07:52.800 Do not be far from me, my God. 00:07:53.060 --> 00:07:54.480 Come quickly to help me, 00:07:54.920 --> 00:07:58.340 my Lord and my Savior. 00:07:58.339 --> 00:08:04.759 Psalm 38, one of seven penitential Psalms 00:08:04.759 --> 00:08:07.619 that are all over the Psalter. 00:08:07.719 --> 00:08:11.359 We've got Psalms 6 and 32. 00:08:11.779 --> 00:08:13.120 51 is another one. 00:08:13.179 --> 00:08:13.939 103. 00:08:15.779 --> 00:08:17.679 130 is the fifth one, 00:08:17.759 --> 00:08:19.139 which of the seven in the cluster 00:08:19.139 --> 00:08:21.679 is probably the most famous of all of them, 00:08:21.680 --> 00:08:25.439 because if you, Lord, kept a record of our sins, 00:08:25.540 --> 00:08:26.519 who could stand? 00:08:26.939 --> 00:08:28.240 And so out of the depths, 00:08:28.639 --> 00:08:30.939 I cried out to you, Lord, for mercy, 00:08:31.160 --> 00:08:32.500 and with you there's forgiveness, 00:08:32.840 --> 00:08:34.279 and so you're to be feared. 00:08:35.039 --> 00:08:35.860 Psalm 130. 00:08:36.700 --> 00:08:39.279 Psalm 143, then, is the seventh. 00:08:39.539 --> 00:08:41.159 And all seven, as we're saying, 00:08:41.220 --> 00:08:44.259 are often labeled as Psalms of penitence, 00:08:44.259 --> 00:08:48.000 where there's this sorrow in his heart, 00:08:48.100 --> 00:08:50.679 and there are even tears in his eyes, 00:08:50.740 --> 00:08:54.100 this sense of contrition and sadness, 00:08:54.580 --> 00:08:58.159 because of all of his failures and his sins. 00:08:59.279 --> 00:09:00.939 As if, as one writer puts it, 00:09:01.259 --> 00:09:04.259 the psalmist's whole life, he says, 00:09:04.620 --> 00:09:07.279 is like a bruise, a bruise, 00:09:08.960 --> 00:09:11.720 which is surely an analogy which helps us along 00:09:11.720 --> 00:09:12.980 in at least some of our minds, 00:09:12.980 --> 00:09:15.879 maybe some of us thinking back to football practice 00:09:15.879 --> 00:09:18.659 last Tuesday when someone kicked us in the shins, 00:09:18.840 --> 00:09:21.080 or they ran their studs over our thighs, 00:09:21.180 --> 00:09:22.620 or maybe they stamped on our toes, 00:09:22.720 --> 00:09:25.800 and now there's this throbbing pain in our toes, 00:09:26.060 --> 00:09:28.480 and yet here's a man bruised, Psalm 38, 00:09:28.740 --> 00:09:31.420 from his head to his toes. 00:09:31.500 --> 00:09:32.399 That's what he's saying. 00:09:33.399 --> 00:09:36.639 And every which way there's this soreness 00:09:36.639 --> 00:09:39.639 and this grief and all manner of discomforts 00:09:39.639 --> 00:09:41.539 that are all over his mind, 00:09:41.539 --> 00:09:43.559 and even his body, he says, 00:09:43.699 --> 00:09:45.079 and on into his soul, 00:09:45.279 --> 00:09:46.939 and the cause, as he says, 00:09:47.039 --> 00:09:48.279 is his sin. 00:09:49.819 --> 00:09:50.959 It's his sin. 00:09:52.879 --> 00:09:55.059 And hence this psalm that we're in 00:09:55.059 --> 00:09:57.519 gets a place in the cluster of seven, 00:09:57.659 --> 00:09:59.980 where we're shown in this text 00:09:59.980 --> 00:10:02.259 the true state of our hearts 00:10:02.259 --> 00:10:03.219 and how Christians, 00:10:03.399 --> 00:10:05.139 who are real Christians, 00:10:05.439 --> 00:10:08.319 are going to feel about that inside. 00:10:08.320 --> 00:10:11.780 Now, let me ask you, 00:10:12.260 --> 00:10:16.980 where do we go when God himself is offended? 00:10:18.840 --> 00:10:20.600 What do we do in those days? 00:10:21.420 --> 00:10:23.480 And the reason he's offended 00:10:23.480 --> 00:10:25.720 has got nothing to do with anyone else, 00:10:25.860 --> 00:10:27.340 but it's me. 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:31.180 We've come out here to church this morning, 00:10:31.280 --> 00:10:32.640 and no one around us can see it, 00:10:32.639 --> 00:10:34.460 and yet hidden away in your heart 00:10:34.460 --> 00:10:36.360 there's this pile, 00:10:36.460 --> 00:10:40.039 this whole pile of if-onlys. 00:10:40.159 --> 00:10:41.720 If only, Graham, 00:10:41.860 --> 00:10:45.360 if only I had kept myself pure, 00:10:45.840 --> 00:10:48.659 or if only I could change 00:10:48.659 --> 00:10:50.939 the whole story of my life 00:10:50.939 --> 00:10:51.759 till this point, 00:10:51.799 --> 00:10:54.000 if only I could get back 00:10:54.000 --> 00:10:55.899 all of the years that I've wasted. 00:10:56.500 --> 00:10:58.379 We look back in our teens, 00:10:58.379 --> 00:11:00.360 and maybe all of the times 00:11:00.360 --> 00:11:02.240 when there wasn't a closeness with Jesus, 00:11:02.419 --> 00:11:04.379 and your conscience is seared, 00:11:05.080 --> 00:11:06.919 and there's this sense of your guilt. 00:11:07.159 --> 00:11:08.600 I mean, when I was driving here this morning, 00:11:08.779 --> 00:11:11.179 I was thinking about the state of my prayers, 00:11:12.159 --> 00:11:16.159 the inconsistency of my prayers, 00:11:16.259 --> 00:11:17.960 the lack of endurance at times 00:11:17.960 --> 00:11:19.779 in my own prayers. 00:11:20.019 --> 00:11:21.179 And so what have you got, David, 00:11:21.279 --> 00:11:23.399 for me in this psalm? 00:11:24.000 --> 00:11:25.399 Well, in terms of your sin, 00:11:25.399 --> 00:11:26.159 he'd say, Graham, 00:11:26.240 --> 00:11:28.199 there's a need, firstly, 00:11:28.519 --> 00:11:31.159 to feel, he says. 00:11:32.699 --> 00:11:33.500 Now, if you're taking notes, 00:11:33.539 --> 00:11:34.720 you can just scribble these down. 00:11:35.220 --> 00:11:36.740 A need to feel it, 00:11:36.819 --> 00:11:38.959 which is the sense that he leaves, 00:11:38.980 --> 00:11:40.679 you'll see this literally all over, 00:11:41.039 --> 00:11:42.639 the psalm as he writes, 00:11:42.740 --> 00:11:45.539 though the occasion itself isn't mentioned. 00:11:47.039 --> 00:11:48.819 And probably no bad thing in a sense, 00:11:48.919 --> 00:11:50.579 given if we knew it for sure 00:11:50.579 --> 00:11:52.279 that this came after Bathsheba, 00:11:52.480 --> 00:11:54.340 well, we would be saying to a man, 00:11:54.340 --> 00:11:55.360 wouldn't we, David, 00:11:55.560 --> 00:11:57.500 is it any wonder you were feeling it? 00:11:58.899 --> 00:12:00.280 I mean, that was a sin 00:12:00.280 --> 00:12:02.259 that ended in the loss of a life 00:12:02.259 --> 00:12:06.220 and the child and all the mess 00:12:06.220 --> 00:12:08.040 and your family and the shame 00:12:08.040 --> 00:12:09.940 that came down in the name of the Lord. 00:12:10.220 --> 00:12:11.840 And so surely we'd be looking 00:12:11.840 --> 00:12:14.040 from a great height down our noses 00:12:14.040 --> 00:12:15.660 and saying in our pride, 00:12:15.980 --> 00:12:17.940 listen, surely it's obvious 00:12:17.940 --> 00:12:19.160 we're not the same. 00:12:19.600 --> 00:12:20.639 We're not the same. 00:12:20.639 --> 00:12:26.120 This is a guy who is not in our league. 00:12:26.379 --> 00:12:28.460 He did things that disgust me. 00:12:28.919 --> 00:12:31.139 His sins are worse than our own. 00:12:31.539 --> 00:12:32.699 And so God in his providence, 00:12:32.799 --> 00:12:34.679 you see, he just sets the sin to the side. 00:12:37.379 --> 00:12:38.319 We don't know. 00:12:40.600 --> 00:12:42.179 And now it might well be, 00:12:42.240 --> 00:12:42.879 who's to say, 00:12:43.340 --> 00:12:45.100 a loss of temper in his marriage. 00:12:45.720 --> 00:12:46.439 It might be. 00:12:47.400 --> 00:12:48.340 He got up in the morning, 00:12:48.420 --> 00:12:50.240 he just blew a gasket with his wife 00:12:50.240 --> 00:12:52.740 or a failure to rear his kids 00:12:52.740 --> 00:12:54.400 as he ought to have been doing in his home. 00:12:54.660 --> 00:12:56.720 Some thoughts that were lustful 00:12:56.720 --> 00:12:58.500 or maybe like me, 00:12:58.920 --> 00:13:01.580 a loss of passion in his prayers. 00:13:01.880 --> 00:13:03.000 Maybe a love in his heart 00:13:03.000 --> 00:13:04.140 for all of his money. 00:13:04.400 --> 00:13:06.380 As in all of the things 00:13:06.380 --> 00:13:07.920 we're seeing all the time 00:13:07.920 --> 00:13:09.200 in our own lives. 00:13:09.440 --> 00:13:10.840 And because there's this silence, 00:13:11.000 --> 00:13:12.220 well, the psalm is now saying 00:13:12.220 --> 00:13:13.280 something like this. 00:13:13.800 --> 00:13:16.020 Graham, now listen to me. 00:13:16.019 --> 00:13:17.639 Is it the case 00:13:17.639 --> 00:13:20.399 that you are so close to the Lord 00:13:20.399 --> 00:13:23.579 and you're living your life 00:13:23.579 --> 00:13:25.759 all the time in his ways 00:13:25.759 --> 00:13:26.860 and living in submission 00:13:26.860 --> 00:13:28.039 to the work of the Spirit 00:13:28.039 --> 00:13:30.759 and you're passionate about big things 00:13:30.759 --> 00:13:32.439 like being holy for Jesus, 00:13:33.100 --> 00:13:34.600 that sin, 00:13:35.779 --> 00:13:37.399 your own sin, 00:13:37.860 --> 00:13:38.699 any sin, 00:13:39.039 --> 00:13:41.980 is so serious to you 00:13:41.980 --> 00:13:44.019 that it leads you 00:13:44.019 --> 00:13:45.659 to a brokenness? 00:13:48.000 --> 00:13:49.000 Do you feel? 00:13:52.600 --> 00:13:54.139 In verse 1, we might say, 00:13:54.200 --> 00:13:55.320 you'll see this sets the tone 00:13:55.320 --> 00:13:55.940 for the psalm 00:13:55.940 --> 00:13:58.039 where he's clear on his standing. 00:13:58.360 --> 00:13:59.460 He's worked it all out 00:13:59.460 --> 00:14:00.139 in his thoughts 00:14:00.139 --> 00:14:01.580 that intellectually 00:14:01.580 --> 00:14:03.100 and theologically speaking, 00:14:03.279 --> 00:14:05.480 he knows the Lord is offended. 00:14:06.200 --> 00:14:07.580 Verse 2 starts to come. 00:14:07.580 --> 00:14:09.480 Not only he knows it, 00:14:10.120 --> 00:14:11.240 but he feels it. 00:14:13.500 --> 00:14:15.320 There are symptoms of a conscience. 00:14:16.540 --> 00:14:18.000 I mean, could we say it this morning 00:14:18.000 --> 00:14:18.860 as a truism? 00:14:19.139 --> 00:14:19.879 I don't know you. 00:14:20.200 --> 00:14:21.800 As a truism of this church 00:14:21.800 --> 00:14:23.160 and all of our lives, 00:14:23.460 --> 00:14:25.080 that we've got more than theology 00:14:25.080 --> 00:14:26.100 and a bunch of thoughts 00:14:26.100 --> 00:14:26.740 in our minds 00:14:26.740 --> 00:14:28.120 because we're so tender 00:14:28.120 --> 00:14:29.340 to the Spirit 00:14:29.340 --> 00:14:30.379 that we've got a conscience 00:14:30.379 --> 00:14:31.320 that feels. 00:14:32.480 --> 00:14:33.700 Do you feel it? 00:14:33.700 --> 00:14:38.060 He thinks and he feels. 00:14:38.460 --> 00:14:39.640 It's in his mind, 00:14:40.080 --> 00:14:41.500 but it's also in his heart. 00:14:41.780 --> 00:14:43.040 He's been studying the Scriptures 00:14:43.040 --> 00:14:44.060 and those same Scriptures 00:14:44.060 --> 00:14:46.320 are now shaping his life. 00:14:46.620 --> 00:14:47.860 And so clearly he knows 00:14:47.860 --> 00:14:48.620 in verse 1, 00:14:48.780 --> 00:14:49.840 God is offended. 00:14:50.340 --> 00:14:52.340 And now here is an insight 00:14:52.340 --> 00:14:52.980 he's saying 00:14:52.980 --> 00:14:55.280 into how that truth 00:14:55.280 --> 00:14:56.740 made me feel. 00:14:57.920 --> 00:14:59.120 That's what he's saying. 00:14:59.440 --> 00:15:00.400 Or this is how 00:15:00.400 --> 00:15:01.920 the whole experience 00:15:01.919 --> 00:15:03.439 of this sinfulness 00:15:03.439 --> 00:15:05.299 made me feel. 00:15:05.360 --> 00:15:06.599 We could put it in those terms. 00:15:06.740 --> 00:15:08.039 Like when you're pursuing it 00:15:08.039 --> 00:15:08.819 and from a distance 00:15:08.819 --> 00:15:09.879 it looks to you 00:15:09.879 --> 00:15:10.879 like it's amazing. 00:15:11.120 --> 00:15:12.319 Much the same as the fruit 00:15:12.319 --> 00:15:13.339 in the Garden of Eden. 00:15:13.740 --> 00:15:14.839 And David is saying to us, 00:15:15.039 --> 00:15:15.579 no, no, no. 00:15:15.740 --> 00:15:17.039 No, listen to me. 00:15:17.659 --> 00:15:18.659 Because sin, 00:15:19.459 --> 00:15:20.759 in the first instance, 00:15:20.839 --> 00:15:21.360 he says, 00:15:21.959 --> 00:15:23.719 it was so draining for me. 00:15:26.399 --> 00:15:28.000 Now there are three things here. 00:15:28.120 --> 00:15:29.539 This is the first one 00:15:29.539 --> 00:15:30.559 we're going to see in our Bibles 00:15:30.559 --> 00:15:31.559 in Psalm 38. 00:15:31.919 --> 00:15:33.199 And verse 4. 00:15:34.240 --> 00:15:35.240 Jesus' yoke, 00:15:35.319 --> 00:15:35.719 of course, 00:15:35.779 --> 00:15:36.599 being easy. 00:15:38.939 --> 00:15:40.439 His burden is light. 00:15:40.559 --> 00:15:41.959 And how we're thankful 00:15:41.959 --> 00:15:42.659 this morning, 00:15:42.740 --> 00:15:43.059 aren't we, 00:15:43.079 --> 00:15:44.179 if that's the experience 00:15:44.179 --> 00:15:45.599 of our lives. 00:15:45.699 --> 00:15:46.679 We're living with 00:15:46.679 --> 00:15:47.879 this sense of freedom 00:15:47.879 --> 00:15:48.899 and this peace 00:15:48.899 --> 00:15:50.059 in his ways. 00:15:50.139 --> 00:15:50.439 And sure, 00:15:50.500 --> 00:15:51.439 there are all of these rules, 00:15:51.559 --> 00:15:52.079 but God, 00:15:52.219 --> 00:15:52.719 we know, 00:15:52.799 --> 00:15:55.199 has given them to us 00:15:55.199 --> 00:15:56.019 for our good. 00:15:56.360 --> 00:15:57.539 But David says, 00:15:57.659 --> 00:15:57.819 now, 00:15:58.000 --> 00:16:00.679 life apart from all of that, 00:16:00.679 --> 00:16:03.339 it was draining for me. 00:16:05.239 --> 00:16:06.299 And in what sense? 00:16:06.359 --> 00:16:06.519 Well, 00:16:06.579 --> 00:16:07.159 in this sense, 00:16:07.239 --> 00:16:08.500 he rules it all out 00:16:08.500 --> 00:16:09.359 in verse 4 00:16:09.359 --> 00:16:10.179 for our minds 00:16:10.179 --> 00:16:11.099 that he did 00:16:11.099 --> 00:16:12.059 whatever it was 00:16:12.059 --> 00:16:12.579 that he did 00:16:12.579 --> 00:16:13.279 and then he gets up 00:16:13.279 --> 00:16:13.779 in the morning, 00:16:13.879 --> 00:16:14.419 he was probably 00:16:14.419 --> 00:16:15.739 sitting over his Cheerios, 00:16:16.079 --> 00:16:16.819 eating his breakfast, 00:16:16.959 --> 00:16:17.859 and he was mulling 00:16:17.859 --> 00:16:18.579 over the events 00:16:18.579 --> 00:16:19.679 or maybe some of the words 00:16:19.679 --> 00:16:20.799 that he exchanged. 00:16:21.179 --> 00:16:22.459 Maybe it was the day 00:16:22.459 --> 00:16:23.000 that he looked 00:16:23.000 --> 00:16:23.559 from the roof 00:16:23.559 --> 00:16:24.339 from Bathsheba 00:16:24.339 --> 00:16:26.259 and Nathan has been 00:16:26.259 --> 00:16:27.899 and clearly he knows 00:16:27.899 --> 00:16:28.519 it was me 00:16:28.519 --> 00:16:29.879 and so does the Lord. 00:16:30.079 --> 00:16:30.279 I mean, 00:16:30.299 --> 00:16:30.899 he saw it all 00:16:30.899 --> 00:16:31.659 from his throne. 00:16:33.359 --> 00:16:34.659 That experience, 00:16:34.819 --> 00:16:35.639 David is saying, 00:16:36.079 --> 00:16:37.239 it was like a burden 00:16:37.239 --> 00:16:38.539 too heavy for me. 00:16:41.199 --> 00:16:42.439 It's in the fourth verse. 00:16:42.819 --> 00:16:43.739 It's this image, 00:16:43.939 --> 00:16:44.439 we could say, 00:16:44.500 --> 00:16:45.579 if this makes sense to us, 00:16:45.959 --> 00:16:47.579 of what happens 00:16:47.579 --> 00:16:48.539 in gyms. 00:16:48.619 --> 00:16:49.159 Maybe some of you 00:16:49.159 --> 00:16:49.719 young lads 00:16:49.719 --> 00:16:50.899 are pumping iron 00:16:50.899 --> 00:16:51.899 in the evenings 00:16:51.899 --> 00:16:53.819 and there's this weakling 00:16:53.819 --> 00:16:54.439 in the corner, 00:16:54.579 --> 00:16:55.659 which was probably me, 00:16:55.899 --> 00:16:56.879 and he's over there 00:16:56.879 --> 00:16:58.019 lifting weights 00:16:58.019 --> 00:16:58.539 for what, 00:16:58.579 --> 00:16:59.220 the first time 00:16:59.220 --> 00:17:00.039 in five years 00:17:00.039 --> 00:17:01.500 and he's so conscious 00:17:01.500 --> 00:17:02.039 of others 00:17:02.039 --> 00:17:03.340 so he's piling the discs 00:17:03.340 --> 00:17:04.259 onto the bar 00:17:04.259 --> 00:17:05.220 and then he goes 00:17:05.220 --> 00:17:05.940 for the lift 00:17:05.940 --> 00:17:07.099 and he takes the bar 00:17:07.099 --> 00:17:07.819 in his hands 00:17:07.819 --> 00:17:08.619 and his knees 00:17:08.619 --> 00:17:09.960 are going sideways 00:17:09.960 --> 00:17:11.019 and both of his eyes 00:17:11.019 --> 00:17:11.839 have popped out 00:17:11.839 --> 00:17:13.059 and much the same 00:17:13.059 --> 00:17:14.139 as he says up the page 00:17:14.139 --> 00:17:15.220 in verse 2 00:17:15.220 --> 00:17:16.480 where the hand 00:17:16.480 --> 00:17:17.059 of the Lord, 00:17:17.160 --> 00:17:17.619 he says, 00:17:17.980 --> 00:17:19.220 it's come down 00:17:19.220 --> 00:17:20.119 upon me. 00:17:20.119 --> 00:17:21.159 You see what he's 00:17:21.159 --> 00:17:21.719 saying there? 00:17:24.559 --> 00:17:25.500 Which is different 00:17:25.500 --> 00:17:26.739 from the hand 00:17:26.739 --> 00:17:27.399 of a mother, 00:17:27.619 --> 00:17:27.799 say, 00:17:27.879 --> 00:17:28.659 who guides. 00:17:30.019 --> 00:17:30.500 Like, say, 00:17:30.539 --> 00:17:31.359 after the service 00:17:31.359 --> 00:17:32.099 and there's danger 00:17:32.099 --> 00:17:32.779 from cars 00:17:32.779 --> 00:17:34.139 and so out comes 00:17:34.139 --> 00:17:35.119 the mother's hand 00:17:35.119 --> 00:17:36.659 and she leads 00:17:36.659 --> 00:17:38.019 and she guides. 00:17:38.099 --> 00:17:39.459 That's a great experience. 00:17:40.699 --> 00:17:41.399 Or maybe 00:17:41.399 --> 00:17:42.799 an arm on the shoulder 00:17:42.799 --> 00:17:43.739 from your friend. 00:17:43.879 --> 00:17:44.699 You've been living 00:17:44.699 --> 00:17:45.659 your own nightmare 00:17:45.659 --> 00:17:47.319 and there's this arm. 00:17:47.659 --> 00:17:48.479 What is it saying? 00:17:48.739 --> 00:17:49.679 Well, probably it's saying, 00:17:49.680 --> 00:17:51.200 hey, I'm here for you. 00:17:51.660 --> 00:17:52.880 We can pray about this. 00:17:53.120 --> 00:17:53.700 And to a man 00:17:53.700 --> 00:17:54.680 we would all say, 00:17:54.860 --> 00:17:56.640 that's a great experience. 00:17:57.200 --> 00:17:58.299 Or even the hand 00:17:58.299 --> 00:17:58.920 that comes out 00:17:58.920 --> 00:17:59.980 on a Sunday 00:17:59.980 --> 00:18:00.680 because this is 00:18:00.680 --> 00:18:01.440 your first time 00:18:01.440 --> 00:18:02.700 in this church 00:18:02.700 --> 00:18:04.000 and there's a steward 00:18:04.000 --> 00:18:04.660 at the door 00:18:04.660 --> 00:18:05.580 and he greets you 00:18:05.580 --> 00:18:06.640 and he looks you 00:18:06.640 --> 00:18:07.140 in the eye 00:18:07.140 --> 00:18:08.340 and he welcomes you. 00:18:08.460 --> 00:18:09.440 It's great to see you. 00:18:10.060 --> 00:18:11.060 And again, 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:12.140 we would all be saying, 00:18:12.320 --> 00:18:13.960 that's an amazing experience. 00:18:13.960 --> 00:18:16.160 But right here 00:18:16.160 --> 00:18:16.960 in this text, 00:18:17.660 --> 00:18:20.220 God's disciplining hand 00:18:20.220 --> 00:18:21.500 is in view. 00:18:24.180 --> 00:18:26.079 And down it comes 00:18:26.079 --> 00:18:27.380 from his throne. 00:18:27.480 --> 00:18:28.420 Look at verse 8. 00:18:28.680 --> 00:18:30.100 I am crushed, 00:18:30.420 --> 00:18:30.880 he says. 00:18:31.019 --> 00:18:32.039 It's like a weight. 00:18:34.400 --> 00:18:35.779 My God is against me. 00:18:35.900 --> 00:18:37.720 My sin is exposed. 00:18:38.000 --> 00:18:39.279 I've offended the Lord. 00:18:39.559 --> 00:18:40.259 Oh, my guilt 00:18:40.259 --> 00:18:41.640 is so terribly heavy 00:18:41.640 --> 00:18:43.220 and wearisome to me. 00:18:44.980 --> 00:18:45.880 That's what he's saying. 00:18:47.580 --> 00:18:48.259 Number two, 00:18:48.320 --> 00:18:48.800 he says, 00:18:48.900 --> 00:18:49.880 it's gross. 00:18:51.540 --> 00:18:52.840 My experience 00:18:52.840 --> 00:18:54.080 that I thought 00:18:54.080 --> 00:18:54.940 would be the best 00:18:54.940 --> 00:18:56.140 of all thrills, 00:18:56.280 --> 00:18:57.180 it turned out 00:18:57.180 --> 00:18:57.820 in the end 00:18:57.820 --> 00:18:59.759 to be massively draining 00:18:59.759 --> 00:19:01.980 and really gross. 00:19:03.460 --> 00:19:04.360 Given the image 00:19:04.360 --> 00:19:05.520 he leaves in verse 5 00:19:05.520 --> 00:19:06.160 of a wound. 00:19:06.560 --> 00:19:07.160 It may be much 00:19:07.160 --> 00:19:07.840 the same thing 00:19:07.840 --> 00:19:08.300 as the one 00:19:08.300 --> 00:19:09.120 I've got this morning 00:19:09.120 --> 00:19:10.259 tingling away 00:19:10.259 --> 00:19:11.540 on the back of my leg. 00:19:11.539 --> 00:19:12.079 For I too 00:19:12.079 --> 00:19:12.920 was playing football 00:19:12.920 --> 00:19:13.680 last Tuesday 00:19:13.680 --> 00:19:15.099 and someone 00:19:15.099 --> 00:19:16.359 kicked me good and hard. 00:19:16.440 --> 00:19:16.920 You could call it 00:19:16.920 --> 00:19:17.759 a lack of respect 00:19:17.759 --> 00:19:18.460 for the pastor 00:19:18.460 --> 00:19:19.259 and he just came 00:19:19.259 --> 00:19:20.460 right through me 00:19:20.460 --> 00:19:21.039 and this wound 00:19:21.039 --> 00:19:22.019 has been weeping 00:19:22.019 --> 00:19:23.759 and it's been scabbing 00:19:23.759 --> 00:19:24.440 and so on. 00:19:24.500 --> 00:19:25.139 And so what David 00:19:25.139 --> 00:19:25.839 is saying, you see, 00:19:25.859 --> 00:19:26.759 is probably something 00:19:26.759 --> 00:19:27.319 like this. 00:19:27.379 --> 00:19:28.680 That this sin 00:19:28.680 --> 00:19:29.700 in my life 00:19:29.700 --> 00:19:31.139 and all of this guilt, 00:19:31.319 --> 00:19:32.460 this shame 00:19:32.460 --> 00:19:33.519 that I'm experiencing, 00:19:33.759 --> 00:19:34.659 when you compare it 00:19:34.659 --> 00:19:36.180 to God's sweet ways, 00:19:37.220 --> 00:19:37.519 oh, 00:19:37.920 --> 00:19:38.879 it was loathsome 00:19:38.879 --> 00:19:39.339 to me. 00:19:39.339 --> 00:19:42.619 That's what that means. 00:19:44.519 --> 00:19:45.179 Number three, 00:19:45.259 --> 00:19:45.619 he says, 00:19:45.659 --> 00:19:46.559 it was depressing 00:19:46.559 --> 00:19:47.459 and constant. 00:19:48.339 --> 00:19:49.379 This experience 00:19:49.379 --> 00:19:50.059 of guilt 00:19:50.059 --> 00:19:50.939 was draining. 00:19:51.599 --> 00:19:52.519 It was gross. 00:19:52.779 --> 00:19:54.039 Here in the sixth verse, 00:19:54.220 --> 00:19:55.500 it was depressing 00:19:55.500 --> 00:19:56.839 and it was constant. 00:19:58.019 --> 00:19:59.240 For I'm bowed down, 00:19:59.319 --> 00:19:59.699 he says, 00:19:59.759 --> 00:20:00.459 and brought low 00:20:00.459 --> 00:20:01.720 all the time, 00:20:01.720 --> 00:20:04.400 all of the time, 00:20:04.559 --> 00:20:05.180 morning, 00:20:05.920 --> 00:20:06.700 mealtimes, 00:20:07.200 --> 00:20:08.299 times with the Father, 00:20:08.640 --> 00:20:09.860 especially in the evening 00:20:09.860 --> 00:20:10.500 when he was away 00:20:10.500 --> 00:20:11.100 in his bed, 00:20:11.220 --> 00:20:12.539 times with friends, 00:20:12.640 --> 00:20:13.420 the journey to work, 00:20:13.480 --> 00:20:14.519 even here on a Sunday, 00:20:14.680 --> 00:20:15.620 and all the while, 00:20:15.819 --> 00:20:16.720 it's just in there. 00:20:16.900 --> 00:20:17.640 I'm not in step 00:20:17.640 --> 00:20:18.400 with the Father. 00:20:20.039 --> 00:20:21.299 I know this just 00:20:21.299 --> 00:20:22.960 is not his will 00:20:22.960 --> 00:20:24.200 for my life. 00:20:26.420 --> 00:20:27.539 And not by the way 00:20:27.539 --> 00:20:28.259 that this is the way 00:20:28.259 --> 00:20:29.339 that it always is 00:20:29.339 --> 00:20:29.960 in our lives. 00:20:29.960 --> 00:20:30.960 You know these Christians 00:20:30.960 --> 00:20:32.940 who are always dejected 00:20:32.940 --> 00:20:34.400 and they're miserable 00:20:34.400 --> 00:20:35.759 and they're glum 00:20:35.759 --> 00:20:36.640 and they're negative 00:20:36.640 --> 00:20:37.160 and I mean, 00:20:37.380 --> 00:20:38.079 you speak to them 00:20:38.079 --> 00:20:38.519 and it's like 00:20:38.519 --> 00:20:39.460 the Schumer gene 00:20:39.460 --> 00:20:40.500 has been taken out 00:20:40.500 --> 00:20:41.340 and so we never have 00:20:41.340 --> 00:20:41.940 Cayleys 00:20:41.940 --> 00:20:43.000 and we can never 00:20:43.000 --> 00:20:43.920 tell any jokes 00:20:43.920 --> 00:20:44.980 and we can never 00:20:44.980 --> 00:20:45.960 let our hair down 00:20:45.960 --> 00:20:46.860 and come to think of it, 00:20:46.900 --> 00:20:47.460 how could we? 00:20:47.579 --> 00:20:48.620 Because we're always 00:20:48.620 --> 00:20:49.880 crying into our coffees. 00:20:50.079 --> 00:20:51.400 That's not what this is, 00:20:51.519 --> 00:20:53.960 but do you ever 00:20:53.960 --> 00:20:55.960 mourn? 00:20:57.500 --> 00:20:58.700 Like, ever. 00:20:59.960 --> 00:21:01.259 Do you feel it? 00:21:03.160 --> 00:21:04.460 Have you a conscience 00:21:04.460 --> 00:21:06.299 that speaks to you? 00:21:07.940 --> 00:21:08.880 Are we finding 00:21:08.880 --> 00:21:09.539 that the longer 00:21:09.539 --> 00:21:10.660 we're walking with Jesus 00:21:10.660 --> 00:21:12.319 we're more tolerant 00:21:12.319 --> 00:21:14.960 or possibly less tolerant 00:21:14.960 --> 00:21:17.019 men of our wandering eyes? 00:21:18.559 --> 00:21:19.860 Or your words 00:21:19.860 --> 00:21:21.019 and your sentences 00:21:21.019 --> 00:21:22.539 that are harsh, 00:21:22.700 --> 00:21:23.880 your tones, 00:21:24.019 --> 00:21:24.940 and maybe the whole 00:21:24.940 --> 00:21:25.299 of the day 00:21:25.299 --> 00:21:25.720 you've just been 00:21:25.720 --> 00:21:27.120 letting fly at your wife. 00:21:27.299 --> 00:21:27.779 And to you, 00:21:27.779 --> 00:21:28.619 this is normal. 00:21:28.859 --> 00:21:29.879 There's no sense 00:21:29.879 --> 00:21:30.579 of conviction. 00:21:33.200 --> 00:21:34.399 David would say to you, 00:21:34.920 --> 00:21:35.720 you need to know 00:21:35.720 --> 00:21:36.539 that's not right. 00:21:39.279 --> 00:21:40.279 Something is wrong. 00:21:42.500 --> 00:21:43.319 This is Spurgeon. 00:21:44.039 --> 00:21:44.940 He says this to us. 00:21:44.960 --> 00:21:45.599 I wish I could write 00:21:45.599 --> 00:21:46.059 this stuff, 00:21:46.200 --> 00:21:46.720 but I can't. 00:21:46.740 --> 00:21:47.559 He says this to us. 00:21:47.980 --> 00:21:49.440 Beware of light thoughts 00:21:49.440 --> 00:21:49.920 of sin, 00:21:49.980 --> 00:21:50.440 he says. 00:21:50.500 --> 00:21:51.660 I think this is a paraphrase 00:21:51.660 --> 00:21:52.279 of what he said. 00:21:53.680 --> 00:21:55.160 For at the time we're saved, 00:21:55.240 --> 00:21:56.440 the conscience is usually 00:21:56.440 --> 00:21:57.279 so tender, 00:21:57.779 --> 00:21:58.920 and many of us 00:21:58.920 --> 00:21:59.759 are scared of, 00:21:59.759 --> 00:22:00.560 even the slightest 00:22:00.560 --> 00:22:01.560 of our sins, 00:22:01.620 --> 00:22:02.700 a holy timidity, 00:22:03.279 --> 00:22:04.720 lest we should ever offend 00:22:04.720 --> 00:22:05.480 the great God 00:22:05.480 --> 00:22:06.240 of our lives. 00:22:06.660 --> 00:22:07.380 But time, 00:22:07.460 --> 00:22:07.940 he says, 00:22:08.019 --> 00:22:09.300 brings change. 00:22:09.720 --> 00:22:10.600 And where once 00:22:10.600 --> 00:22:12.400 we were scared 00:22:12.400 --> 00:22:13.660 by the sin of our hearts, 00:22:13.680 --> 00:22:14.580 we can get to a point 00:22:14.580 --> 00:22:16.279 of being completely unmoved, 00:22:16.580 --> 00:22:17.480 like the ear, 00:22:17.580 --> 00:22:18.060 he says, 00:22:18.400 --> 00:22:19.340 of a soldier 00:22:19.339 --> 00:22:20.659 in which the cannon 00:22:20.659 --> 00:22:21.539 has been booming. 00:22:22.259 --> 00:22:23.059 But then gradually 00:22:23.059 --> 00:22:23.740 through time, 00:22:24.500 --> 00:22:25.419 he rarely picks up 00:22:25.419 --> 00:22:26.059 on that sound. 00:22:28.399 --> 00:22:29.419 That's a great statement. 00:22:32.299 --> 00:22:33.179 Now also, 00:22:33.319 --> 00:22:33.919 as David says, 00:22:34.000 --> 00:22:34.439 number two, 00:22:34.559 --> 00:22:35.899 it just might be, 00:22:35.980 --> 00:22:36.859 it might be 00:22:36.859 --> 00:22:37.740 that we suffer. 00:22:39.519 --> 00:22:40.480 It might well be, 00:22:40.539 --> 00:22:40.919 it's both, 00:22:40.980 --> 00:22:41.319 he's saying, 00:22:41.319 --> 00:22:42.099 that we feel it 00:22:42.099 --> 00:22:43.079 and we suffer. 00:22:43.519 --> 00:22:43.740 For, 00:22:44.359 --> 00:22:45.819 because of your wrath, 00:22:46.379 --> 00:22:48.000 there's no health. 00:22:48.000 --> 00:22:49.720 In verse three, 00:22:49.799 --> 00:22:50.859 now what is he saying to us? 00:22:51.640 --> 00:22:52.779 My bones are lacking 00:22:52.779 --> 00:22:53.619 a soundness 00:22:53.619 --> 00:22:55.539 because of all of my sin. 00:22:55.980 --> 00:22:57.059 My back is filled, 00:22:57.160 --> 00:22:57.779 in verse seven, 00:22:57.839 --> 00:22:58.500 with pains. 00:22:58.740 --> 00:22:59.839 My heart pounds, 00:22:59.960 --> 00:23:00.740 the tenth verse. 00:23:00.940 --> 00:23:01.859 The light has gone out 00:23:01.859 --> 00:23:02.720 from my eyes. 00:23:02.960 --> 00:23:03.640 My pain, 00:23:04.000 --> 00:23:04.779 in verse 17, 00:23:04.839 --> 00:23:05.220 he says, 00:23:05.319 --> 00:23:06.579 it's ever before me. 00:23:09.480 --> 00:23:10.740 Now we know, 00:23:11.359 --> 00:23:12.180 John's a good teacher, 00:23:12.319 --> 00:23:13.259 so he'll have told you this, 00:23:13.319 --> 00:23:14.720 we know in our Bibles 00:23:14.720 --> 00:23:16.079 that illness and disease 00:23:16.079 --> 00:23:18.059 are not always a result 00:23:18.059 --> 00:23:19.079 of our wanderings 00:23:19.079 --> 00:23:19.740 and our sins. 00:23:19.879 --> 00:23:21.259 We would know that. 00:23:22.659 --> 00:23:22.939 I mean, 00:23:23.000 --> 00:23:24.000 we're getting a sneeze 00:23:24.000 --> 00:23:25.039 or maybe something 00:23:25.039 --> 00:23:25.720 that's worse. 00:23:25.799 --> 00:23:26.379 What are we saying? 00:23:26.419 --> 00:23:27.220 That if we're sneezing 00:23:27.220 --> 00:23:28.079 in church this morning, 00:23:28.199 --> 00:23:28.339 oh, 00:23:28.480 --> 00:23:30.039 he's been guilty of something, 00:23:30.139 --> 00:23:30.819 he's done something 00:23:30.819 --> 00:23:31.399 in his home. 00:23:32.299 --> 00:23:33.639 A little cough in the corner, 00:23:33.740 --> 00:23:35.099 he seems to have a rash 00:23:35.099 --> 00:23:35.899 on his arm. 00:23:35.939 --> 00:23:36.980 He's been up to no good. 00:23:37.099 --> 00:23:38.439 He's been sinning. 00:23:38.980 --> 00:23:40.019 That's not what this is. 00:23:40.480 --> 00:23:41.819 No one was sinless 00:23:41.819 --> 00:23:42.559 like Jesus, 00:23:43.859 --> 00:23:44.699 but no one suffered 00:23:44.700 --> 00:23:45.220 like him. 00:23:47.960 --> 00:23:48.400 Job, 00:23:48.640 --> 00:23:48.980 another, 00:23:49.240 --> 00:23:50.279 a man who was righteous 00:23:50.279 --> 00:23:50.960 as it says, 00:23:51.180 --> 00:23:52.759 few men in our world 00:23:52.759 --> 00:23:54.200 ever suffered 00:23:54.200 --> 00:23:55.100 like him. 00:23:57.100 --> 00:23:58.240 And then even Jesus 00:23:58.240 --> 00:23:59.120 and the blind man 00:23:59.120 --> 00:23:59.900 and John 9, 00:24:00.000 --> 00:24:00.460 who sinned, 00:24:00.500 --> 00:24:01.519 was it him or his parents? 00:24:01.720 --> 00:24:02.840 It was neither of them. 00:24:03.200 --> 00:24:03.799 And so clearly, 00:24:03.920 --> 00:24:05.360 we just can't always say 00:24:05.360 --> 00:24:07.240 that a dose of sickness 00:24:07.240 --> 00:24:08.680 means sin. 00:24:10.819 --> 00:24:12.019 But here's the point. 00:24:14.700 --> 00:24:15.340 It might be. 00:24:19.299 --> 00:24:20.360 Which is probably 00:24:20.360 --> 00:24:21.480 one of those thoughts 00:24:21.480 --> 00:24:23.039 that doesn't easily sit, 00:24:23.120 --> 00:24:23.400 does it, 00:24:23.420 --> 00:24:24.259 with our minds. 00:24:24.440 --> 00:24:25.620 We don't like that. 00:24:27.080 --> 00:24:28.259 Paul's letter to Corinth, 00:24:28.360 --> 00:24:28.740 for instance, 00:24:28.900 --> 00:24:29.860 some of you have got sick, 00:24:29.920 --> 00:24:30.360 he says. 00:24:30.740 --> 00:24:31.340 Some of you, 00:24:31.400 --> 00:24:32.039 some of you, 00:24:32.080 --> 00:24:32.400 he said, 00:24:32.600 --> 00:24:33.840 even have died, 00:24:34.180 --> 00:24:34.980 and all because 00:24:34.980 --> 00:24:35.940 they were messing around 00:24:35.940 --> 00:24:36.420 with the bread 00:24:36.420 --> 00:24:37.000 and the wine. 00:24:38.640 --> 00:24:41.200 A lacking of a love 00:24:41.200 --> 00:24:41.880 for Jesus, 00:24:42.039 --> 00:24:42.580 a reverence, 00:24:42.579 --> 00:24:43.659 a sense of reverence 00:24:43.659 --> 00:24:44.220 and worship 00:24:44.220 --> 00:24:45.240 and an honor 00:24:45.240 --> 00:24:45.899 for the Lord. 00:24:45.960 --> 00:24:46.559 And so suddenly, 00:24:46.799 --> 00:24:48.039 there was this discipline 00:24:48.039 --> 00:24:49.799 in the form of sickness 00:24:49.799 --> 00:24:51.859 and even death, 00:24:51.960 --> 00:24:53.220 which is one of those texts 00:24:53.220 --> 00:24:54.559 we can hardly even believe 00:24:54.559 --> 00:24:55.359 it's in here. 00:24:57.319 --> 00:24:58.139 I picked this up 00:24:58.139 --> 00:24:58.899 a few months back 00:24:58.899 --> 00:24:59.799 from Kevin DeYoung, 00:24:59.859 --> 00:25:00.599 and he picked it up 00:25:00.599 --> 00:25:01.960 from James Montgomery Boyce. 00:25:02.000 --> 00:25:02.799 This is good for us. 00:25:03.179 --> 00:25:04.439 Four questions to ask 00:25:04.439 --> 00:25:05.000 his boys 00:25:05.000 --> 00:25:06.879 in a season 00:25:06.879 --> 00:25:07.960 when there's a sickness 00:25:07.960 --> 00:25:09.279 that's come. 00:25:09.359 --> 00:25:10.119 Now listen to this. 00:25:10.399 --> 00:25:10.939 Number one, 00:25:10.940 --> 00:25:12.539 have I sinned 00:25:12.539 --> 00:25:14.059 and wandered away 00:25:14.059 --> 00:25:14.840 from what I ought 00:25:14.840 --> 00:25:15.539 to be doing, 00:25:15.960 --> 00:25:17.500 and is this setback 00:25:17.500 --> 00:25:18.720 God's loving way 00:25:18.720 --> 00:25:19.880 of drawing me back 00:25:19.880 --> 00:25:20.559 to the fold? 00:25:20.640 --> 00:25:21.360 Now, again, 00:25:21.500 --> 00:25:22.460 that's a good question. 00:25:24.240 --> 00:25:24.580 Although, 00:25:25.720 --> 00:25:26.340 as we were saying 00:25:26.340 --> 00:25:26.880 at the start, 00:25:26.960 --> 00:25:27.660 not in the sense 00:25:27.660 --> 00:25:28.640 of tying ourselves 00:25:28.640 --> 00:25:29.380 up in knots 00:25:29.380 --> 00:25:30.440 and, you know, 00:25:30.580 --> 00:25:31.360 what on earth 00:25:31.360 --> 00:25:31.900 did I do? 00:25:31.980 --> 00:25:33.460 I've broken my arm. 00:25:33.559 --> 00:25:34.200 Graham was saying 00:25:34.200 --> 00:25:34.640 on Sunday, 00:25:34.680 --> 00:25:35.420 this is a punishment 00:25:35.420 --> 00:25:36.140 from the Father. 00:25:36.220 --> 00:25:36.860 It's not that, 00:25:36.940 --> 00:25:37.860 but rather more 00:25:37.860 --> 00:25:38.400 in the sense 00:25:38.400 --> 00:25:39.420 of keeping a check, 00:25:39.460 --> 00:25:40.500 a good check, 00:25:40.500 --> 00:25:41.619 on your soul. 00:25:41.880 --> 00:25:42.660 Is there anything? 00:25:42.960 --> 00:25:43.819 Maybe there's not. 00:25:44.079 --> 00:25:44.759 In which case, 00:25:44.960 --> 00:25:45.519 that's okay. 00:25:45.700 --> 00:25:46.220 Move on. 00:25:46.599 --> 00:25:47.200 Number two, 00:25:47.539 --> 00:25:48.339 is God using 00:25:48.339 --> 00:25:48.980 this illness 00:25:48.980 --> 00:25:49.720 to deal with 00:25:49.720 --> 00:25:51.220 rough edges in me 00:25:51.220 --> 00:25:52.859 in order that in time 00:25:52.859 --> 00:25:54.960 a Christ-like character 00:25:54.960 --> 00:25:55.740 might come? 00:25:55.920 --> 00:25:56.400 Again, 00:25:56.640 --> 00:25:57.759 a great question. 00:25:58.180 --> 00:25:58.519 Three, 00:25:58.819 --> 00:25:59.880 is God using 00:25:59.880 --> 00:26:00.700 my suffering 00:26:00.700 --> 00:26:02.220 as a kind of a stage 00:26:02.220 --> 00:26:02.559 in which 00:26:02.559 --> 00:26:03.579 his wisdom 00:26:03.579 --> 00:26:04.440 and his grace 00:26:04.440 --> 00:26:05.460 and his name 00:26:05.460 --> 00:26:06.480 might be praised? 00:26:06.960 --> 00:26:07.660 It might be. 00:26:08.180 --> 00:26:08.660 Four, 00:26:08.660 --> 00:26:10.100 is this season 00:26:10.100 --> 00:26:11.140 a time for me 00:26:11.140 --> 00:26:12.580 to finally prove 00:26:12.580 --> 00:26:14.600 that I love him 00:26:14.600 --> 00:26:16.480 for who he is 00:26:16.480 --> 00:26:17.700 and not the gifts 00:26:17.700 --> 00:26:18.460 that he gives 00:26:18.460 --> 00:26:20.000 and not even 00:26:20.000 --> 00:26:20.600 the wonderful, 00:26:20.820 --> 00:26:21.600 amazing gift 00:26:21.600 --> 00:26:23.640 of my health? 00:26:25.120 --> 00:26:26.140 That's a test. 00:26:28.720 --> 00:26:30.200 David says in this psalm, 00:26:30.240 --> 00:26:31.200 and aren't we grateful 00:26:31.200 --> 00:26:32.540 that he is so raw 00:26:32.540 --> 00:26:33.779 and honest with us here 00:26:33.779 --> 00:26:36.000 that our Father in Heaven 00:26:36.000 --> 00:26:37.180 brings discipline 00:26:37.180 --> 00:26:38.639 into our lives. 00:26:39.039 --> 00:26:40.180 And often when we're off, 00:26:40.240 --> 00:26:40.899 we're just off 00:26:40.899 --> 00:26:41.559 and we're away 00:26:41.559 --> 00:26:42.740 in the world 00:26:42.740 --> 00:26:43.539 and there's sin 00:26:43.539 --> 00:26:45.460 and he's Father 00:26:45.460 --> 00:26:46.440 and so he picks up 00:26:46.440 --> 00:26:47.220 on these dangers 00:26:47.220 --> 00:26:48.099 and so suddenly 00:26:48.099 --> 00:26:49.180 he comes 00:26:49.180 --> 00:26:49.759 and sometimes 00:26:49.759 --> 00:26:51.700 even into our bodies, 00:26:51.859 --> 00:26:53.079 even our bonds 00:26:53.079 --> 00:26:53.899 with other people 00:26:53.899 --> 00:26:54.440 as he says 00:26:54.440 --> 00:26:55.200 in verse 11, 00:26:55.299 --> 00:26:55.920 relationships. 00:26:56.480 --> 00:26:56.899 And so maybe, 00:26:57.000 --> 00:26:57.240 you know, 00:26:57.519 --> 00:26:58.220 there are some of us 00:26:58.220 --> 00:26:59.039 sitting here in church 00:26:59.039 --> 00:26:59.639 as we speak 00:26:59.640 --> 00:27:01.360 and a hardness 00:27:01.360 --> 00:27:02.920 in recent years 00:27:02.920 --> 00:27:04.080 has come all the way 00:27:04.080 --> 00:27:05.580 into our hearts 00:27:05.580 --> 00:27:06.620 and we're far 00:27:06.620 --> 00:27:07.680 from the Lord Jesus 00:27:07.680 --> 00:27:09.460 and we're wandering away. 00:27:10.740 --> 00:27:11.780 We've long since 00:27:11.780 --> 00:27:13.860 forsaken all of his teachings 00:27:13.860 --> 00:27:15.100 and his rules 00:27:15.100 --> 00:27:16.500 and yet here is this psalm 00:27:16.500 --> 00:27:18.220 that comes right out 00:27:18.220 --> 00:27:18.900 of the lips 00:27:18.900 --> 00:27:20.020 of David the sinner. 00:27:21.280 --> 00:27:22.180 God isn't mocked. 00:27:25.700 --> 00:27:26.800 And painful 00:27:26.800 --> 00:27:28.180 and serious suffering 00:27:28.180 --> 00:27:28.900 from the throne 00:27:28.900 --> 00:27:29.620 might be known 00:27:29.620 --> 00:27:30.840 and all in the shape 00:27:30.840 --> 00:27:31.620 of a discipline 00:27:31.620 --> 00:27:33.200 from the Father 00:27:33.200 --> 00:27:34.120 who loves you. 00:27:35.480 --> 00:27:36.240 He loves you 00:27:36.240 --> 00:27:38.800 because he really, 00:27:39.100 --> 00:27:39.860 really cares. 00:27:43.540 --> 00:27:44.680 And so this is a man 00:27:44.680 --> 00:27:45.540 who felt contrition 00:27:45.540 --> 00:27:46.460 over his sin. 00:27:46.680 --> 00:27:47.920 Surely he was also a man 00:27:47.920 --> 00:27:48.940 who ended up suffering 00:27:48.940 --> 00:27:50.000 due to his sin. 00:27:50.259 --> 00:27:50.620 Thirdly, 00:27:50.660 --> 00:27:51.360 and we see this, 00:27:51.440 --> 00:27:53.120 he clearly responded 00:27:53.120 --> 00:27:54.180 well to his sin 00:27:54.180 --> 00:27:55.080 which is obviously 00:27:55.080 --> 00:27:55.860 the climax 00:27:55.860 --> 00:27:57.259 that David is building to 00:27:57.259 --> 00:27:58.600 as he writes 00:27:58.599 --> 00:27:59.879 and probably the ending 00:27:59.879 --> 00:28:00.819 if we were being honest 00:28:00.819 --> 00:28:01.399 that we're glad 00:28:01.399 --> 00:28:02.059 is in this psalm. 00:28:02.179 --> 00:28:02.240 I mean, 00:28:02.480 --> 00:28:03.299 how would we feel 00:28:03.299 --> 00:28:04.379 if we just wandered off 00:28:04.379 --> 00:28:05.319 now with our tails 00:28:05.319 --> 00:28:06.139 between our legs 00:28:06.139 --> 00:28:06.819 to our homes? 00:28:06.819 --> 00:28:07.559 And so, 00:28:07.719 --> 00:28:09.119 if it is the case 00:28:09.119 --> 00:28:10.299 that there is sin 00:28:10.299 --> 00:28:12.419 or there will be 00:28:12.419 --> 00:28:14.199 maybe next week 00:28:14.199 --> 00:28:16.119 or into next month 00:28:16.119 --> 00:28:16.719 or next year, 00:28:16.819 --> 00:28:17.919 whenever it is, 00:28:19.119 --> 00:28:19.639 well then, 00:28:19.699 --> 00:28:21.000 here's three prayers 00:28:21.000 --> 00:28:22.019 that we can pray 00:28:22.019 --> 00:28:22.799 at that time 00:28:22.799 --> 00:28:23.619 as we finish. 00:28:23.759 --> 00:28:24.559 Prayer number one, 00:28:24.559 --> 00:28:26.440 this is the first one, 00:28:26.619 --> 00:28:27.299 it was me, 00:28:28.399 --> 00:28:31.299 which is the statement 00:28:31.299 --> 00:28:31.899 that he makes 00:28:31.899 --> 00:28:33.359 at the end of verse 3, 00:28:33.519 --> 00:28:33.980 isn't it? 00:28:34.240 --> 00:28:35.099 I have no soundness 00:28:35.099 --> 00:28:35.819 in my bones 00:28:35.819 --> 00:28:36.559 because of what? 00:28:36.700 --> 00:28:37.839 Because of my parents? 00:28:39.740 --> 00:28:40.139 No, 00:28:40.279 --> 00:28:41.220 not my parents. 00:28:41.279 --> 00:28:42.019 He doesn't say that. 00:28:42.119 --> 00:28:42.500 Okay then, 00:28:42.559 --> 00:28:43.899 I have no soundness 00:28:43.899 --> 00:28:44.599 in my bones, 00:28:44.759 --> 00:28:44.960 Lord, 00:28:45.019 --> 00:28:45.659 because of all 00:28:45.659 --> 00:28:46.599 of my genes. 00:28:47.519 --> 00:28:48.799 He doesn't say that. 00:28:48.940 --> 00:28:49.539 Or because 00:28:49.539 --> 00:28:50.700 there were pressures 00:28:50.700 --> 00:28:51.440 coming at me 00:28:51.440 --> 00:28:52.779 from every corner 00:28:52.779 --> 00:28:54.019 of my campus, 00:28:54.160 --> 00:28:54.740 my school, 00:28:54.860 --> 00:28:55.380 my office, 00:28:55.500 --> 00:28:56.340 wherever it is, 00:28:56.380 --> 00:28:57.220 it isn't in here. 00:28:57.519 --> 00:28:57.720 No, 00:28:57.980 --> 00:28:59.000 I have no soundness 00:28:59.000 --> 00:28:59.680 in my bones, 00:28:59.759 --> 00:29:00.080 he says, 00:29:00.140 --> 00:29:00.759 because of all 00:29:00.759 --> 00:29:03.299 of my sin. 00:29:06.039 --> 00:29:06.960 That's a good prayer. 00:29:07.700 --> 00:29:08.420 It was me, 00:29:09.080 --> 00:29:09.480 Lord. 00:29:09.700 --> 00:29:10.940 No verbal gymnastics. 00:29:11.120 --> 00:29:12.440 There's no fancy, 00:29:12.759 --> 00:29:14.200 vague-sounding formulas. 00:29:14.600 --> 00:29:15.279 My life, 00:29:15.880 --> 00:29:16.700 my sin, 00:29:17.240 --> 00:29:18.019 my rebellion, 00:29:18.640 --> 00:29:20.200 my shame. 00:29:20.500 --> 00:29:21.140 It was me. 00:29:21.440 --> 00:29:22.460 Prayer number two, 00:29:22.920 --> 00:29:23.620 I'm sorry, 00:29:24.080 --> 00:29:25.080 the 18th verse. 00:29:25.200 --> 00:29:25.799 It was me. 00:29:26.660 --> 00:29:27.360 I'm sorry. 00:29:27.660 --> 00:29:29.059 I confess to you. 00:29:30.100 --> 00:29:31.380 I'm sure in my mind, 00:29:31.460 --> 00:29:31.620 Lord, 00:29:31.720 --> 00:29:32.759 you must be offended. 00:29:33.480 --> 00:29:34.519 I'm coming to you. 00:29:35.660 --> 00:29:37.220 This word here for sin, 00:29:37.500 --> 00:29:38.460 just to quickly comment 00:29:38.460 --> 00:29:39.360 on it in the passing, 00:29:40.000 --> 00:29:41.080 this is a word 00:29:41.080 --> 00:29:41.860 that refers to 00:29:41.860 --> 00:29:42.460 our natures 00:29:42.460 --> 00:29:43.259 being bent 00:29:43.259 --> 00:29:44.340 out of shape, 00:29:45.279 --> 00:29:45.740 twisted, 00:29:46.320 --> 00:29:47.160 iniquitous, 00:29:48.440 --> 00:29:49.299 a perverseness. 00:29:49.420 --> 00:29:50.080 It's that sense, 00:29:50.160 --> 00:29:50.320 like, 00:29:50.319 --> 00:29:51.159 when you career 00:29:51.159 --> 00:29:52.099 into a lamppost 00:29:52.099 --> 00:29:53.099 on your bike 00:29:53.099 --> 00:29:53.960 in a dark night 00:29:53.960 --> 00:29:54.939 and so you walk 00:29:54.939 --> 00:29:55.480 to your house, 00:29:55.539 --> 00:29:56.460 you bring the sorry bike 00:29:56.460 --> 00:29:57.200 into the garage, 00:29:57.279 --> 00:29:58.200 you switch on the lights, 00:29:58.439 --> 00:29:59.700 you can see the whole thing 00:29:59.700 --> 00:30:00.419 is twisted. 00:30:01.419 --> 00:30:02.159 The frame, 00:30:02.279 --> 00:30:02.980 the spokes, 00:30:03.240 --> 00:30:03.839 all of it, 00:30:03.879 --> 00:30:04.839 it's iniquitous, 00:30:05.200 --> 00:30:05.899 it's twisted, 00:30:06.379 --> 00:30:08.159 and not quite in the shape 00:30:08.159 --> 00:30:09.559 it was intended to be. 00:30:11.240 --> 00:30:12.299 David's just saying here, 00:30:12.419 --> 00:30:13.500 that's me in this text, 00:30:13.579 --> 00:30:14.139 I'm sorry, 00:30:14.299 --> 00:30:14.519 Lord, 00:30:14.679 --> 00:30:15.939 I'm not what I ought to be. 00:30:15.940 --> 00:30:16.980 Thirdly, 00:30:19.200 --> 00:30:20.000 I need you, 00:30:21.299 --> 00:30:22.100 which is clearly 00:30:22.100 --> 00:30:22.799 the conclusion 00:30:22.799 --> 00:30:23.580 that he gets to 00:30:23.580 --> 00:30:24.140 at the end. 00:30:24.420 --> 00:30:25.100 It was me. 00:30:26.460 --> 00:30:27.279 I'm sorry, 00:30:27.420 --> 00:30:27.700 Lord, 00:30:27.920 --> 00:30:29.160 what I really need 00:30:29.160 --> 00:30:30.340 is you. 00:30:32.000 --> 00:30:33.180 Come close to me. 00:30:34.080 --> 00:30:35.059 Don't forsake me. 00:30:35.920 --> 00:30:36.140 Lord, 00:30:36.160 --> 00:30:37.180 I'm needing your help here. 00:30:37.220 --> 00:30:38.080 This is not good. 00:30:38.600 --> 00:30:39.200 I need you, 00:30:39.799 --> 00:30:40.519 not on Monday 00:30:40.519 --> 00:30:41.100 or Tuesday 00:30:41.100 --> 00:30:41.820 or next week, 00:30:41.900 --> 00:30:42.400 but quickly, 00:30:42.480 --> 00:30:42.920 as he says, 00:30:42.920 --> 00:30:44.480 even now in these, 00:30:44.580 --> 00:30:45.980 right now in these moments, 00:30:46.360 --> 00:30:46.600 come, 00:30:46.740 --> 00:30:46.960 Lord, 00:30:47.480 --> 00:30:48.120 forgive me. 00:30:48.220 --> 00:30:49.080 Give me the grace 00:30:49.080 --> 00:30:50.180 that I need. 00:30:50.500 --> 00:30:51.400 Wash me again 00:30:51.400 --> 00:30:53.420 so that I might be clean. 00:30:53.600 --> 00:30:54.560 I want to walk with you. 00:30:55.620 --> 00:30:56.560 I want to obey you. 00:30:57.140 --> 00:30:58.080 I want to honor you. 00:30:58.500 --> 00:30:59.340 Be close to you. 00:30:59.600 --> 00:31:00.500 I want to live my life 00:31:00.500 --> 00:31:00.860 always, 00:31:01.039 --> 00:31:01.200 Father, 00:31:01.259 --> 00:31:01.820 for the praise 00:31:01.820 --> 00:31:02.980 of your name alone. 00:31:05.640 --> 00:31:06.920 You can pray that prayer. 00:31:09.440 --> 00:31:11.400 If we confess our sins, 00:31:11.400 --> 00:31:12.120 says John, 00:31:12.920 --> 00:31:14.800 he is faithful. 00:31:15.360 --> 00:31:16.220 He's a good God 00:31:16.220 --> 00:31:18.460 and he is just 00:31:18.460 --> 00:31:19.960 and he will forgive us 00:31:19.960 --> 00:31:22.080 all our sins 00:31:22.080 --> 00:31:23.100 and cleanse us 00:31:23.100 --> 00:31:23.860 from literally 00:31:23.860 --> 00:31:26.440 every last remnant 00:31:26.440 --> 00:31:28.039 of unrighteousness 00:31:28.039 --> 00:31:29.440 so that, 00:31:30.539 --> 00:31:31.380 just like David, 00:31:32.420 --> 00:31:33.360 we can experience 00:31:33.360 --> 00:31:34.279 his grace 00:31:34.279 --> 00:31:36.500 and live our lives 00:31:36.500 --> 00:31:37.060 for him 00:31:37.060 --> 00:31:38.240 again. 00:31:40.240 --> 00:31:42.300 This is the 38th Psalm. 00:31:42.920 --> 00:31:43.140 Well, 00:31:43.140 --> 00:31:44.320 just pray briefly 00:31:44.320 --> 00:31:45.000 and then you can come, 00:31:45.120 --> 00:31:45.300 John. 00:31:46.080 --> 00:31:46.480 Father, 00:31:46.580 --> 00:31:47.220 we praise you 00:31:47.220 --> 00:31:48.100 for the Psalms. 00:31:48.860 --> 00:31:49.759 We thank you, 00:31:50.080 --> 00:31:50.740 more importantly, 00:31:50.920 --> 00:31:52.220 for your fatherly love. 00:31:53.100 --> 00:31:54.720 Thank you that you are for us, 00:31:55.279 --> 00:31:56.480 that you are with us. 00:31:57.180 --> 00:31:58.300 Thank you that your love 00:31:58.300 --> 00:32:00.019 remains even when we stray. 00:32:00.019 --> 00:32:02.200 We pray that you would be good 00:32:02.200 --> 00:32:02.900 to us today 00:32:02.900 --> 00:32:04.799 and you would draw us 00:32:04.799 --> 00:32:05.839 closer to you 00:32:05.839 --> 00:32:07.240 than we have ever been 00:32:07.240 --> 00:32:09.299 and may we give 00:32:09.299 --> 00:32:09.920 everything 00:32:09.920 --> 00:32:11.440 that we have 00:32:11.440 --> 00:32:13.079 back to the King of Kings 00:32:13.079 --> 00:32:14.759 and the Lord of Lords 00:32:14.759 --> 00:32:16.220 that from this point on 00:32:16.220 --> 00:32:18.019 you might have our best. 00:32:18.759 --> 00:32:19.359 And we pray this 00:32:19.359 --> 00:32:20.379 in Jesus' good name. 00:32:21.059 --> 00:32:21.359 Amen. 00:32:21.359 --> 00:32:21.539 Amen. 00:32:21.539 --> 00:32:21.579 Amen. 00:32:21.579 --> 00:32:21.639 Amen. 00:32:21.639 --> 00:32:21.680 Amen. 00:32:21.680 --> 00:32:21.700 Amen. 00:32:21.700 --> 00:32:21.720 Amen. 00:32:21.720 --> 00:32:23.639 Amen. 00:32:23.639 --> 00:32:23.680 Amen. 00:32:23.680 --> 00:32:25.639 Amen. 00:32:25.639 --> 00:32:25.700 Amen. 00:32:25.700 --> 00:32:25.720 Amen. 00:32:25.720 --> 00:32:26.700 Amen. 00:32:26.700 --> 00:32:26.720 Amen. 00:32:26.720 --> 00:32:27.680 Amen. 00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:27.720 Amen. 00:32:27.720 --> 00:32:28.720 Amen. 00:32:28.720 --> 00:32:30.000 Amen.