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 Last week I talked about Exodus 34 where the Israelites mess up.

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!

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 What?

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 When you make a mistake, that's what God wants to tell you.

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 And then, of course, I'm thinking about Jesus and I'm thinking about how he acted.

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 He was gracious and compassionate.

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 I've been reflecting on just this unhurried Jesus as he walks around doing a million things,

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 being asked to do a million things, but yet he has this calm spirit.

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 But then there was one time that I can remember where he really lost it.

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 When was that time?

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 Where did Jesus really lose his will?

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 The temple.

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 This is Matthew 21.

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 This is one week before he goes and does the thing that saves mankind once and for all.

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 And he goes in the temple and then he gets so mad.

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 What does he see?

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 Bill, what does he see?

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 What happens in the temple that causes him to be like this?

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 The unbelievers weren't allowed to worship.

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 What did he see in the temple as well?

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 So that's one thing.

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 What else did he see in the temple that really?

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 They are doing business.

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 You see, it's actually hard to blame them because the thing about the temple at that time is people would travel from really far to worship.

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 And one of the ways to worship is to sacrifice and to bring an animal, a lamb.

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 So, of course, if you've traveled really far, okay, I actually, this is one of my things.

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 When I like to walk around and travel anywhere, this frustrates Christina, I like to travel with my hands in my pockets without a bag.

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 As few items as possible, I will do.

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 That's me.

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 So you can imagine if you've traveled from hundreds and hundreds of miles and there's no high-speed rail and there's no MTR and you hear, oh, actually, you don't need to bring your goat because right outside the temple, you can buy a goat.

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 And actually, you don't need to do currency exchange beforehand.

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 There's Alipay and WeChat at the temple door.

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 And so then you've got these entrepreneurs who are like, hey, we can make a business out of this.

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 And so that's how the business starts.

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 And then, of course, it becomes this whole thing.

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 And then people now go to the temple to do all these things.

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 And it becomes a different kind of place that is what it should be.

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 And so Jesus walks in.

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 This is one week before he ends up getting arrested and on the cross.

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 And he goes in and he sees us.

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 And what does he say?

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 Well, he just completely tears the place apart.

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 And then what does he say?

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 Who knows what he says?

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 Huh?

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 Well, he eventually will build it back up in three days.

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 But absolutely, that's something that he says.

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 What does he say, Johnny?

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 He says, guys, you've got it all wrong.

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 Well, this house was supposed to be a house of prayer.

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 And you've turned it into a den of thieves.

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 You're businessmen ripping people off.

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 And I realize the one thing that really gets to Jesus isn't us breaking rules necessarily.

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 It's when our relationship with God is threatened.

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 Because the whole point, everything, the end game is about us having a relationship with him.

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 In his final prayer in John 17, he says, pray that they would have eternal life, which is what?

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 Is to know you.

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 And now you're in this temple where people are supposed to know God.

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 But instead, our minds are completely distracted.

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 Why are we doing this?

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 Because I'm just, I want this.

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 My prayer is that this would be a house of prayer.

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 Paul prayed earlier in our pre-service meeting that we would be a people of prayer.

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 I don't know why you walked in here today.

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 But my hope it isn't to sing songs and to listen to someone speak.

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 It's that you would meet the living God.

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 And that you would speak to him.

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 And that you would hear from him.

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 That's why we're doing this.

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 If you're here for the first time, and this is all a little bit strange.

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 Apologies.

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 This is a little bit strange.

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 But this is why we're doing what we're doing.

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 And today, I hope, we'll have this chance where you can walk out of here going, man, I heard from God.

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 And I spoke to God.

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 This will be the last week.

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 And then we're going to take a pause and we're going to go into a more standard sermon series.

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 But I think we're going to keep revisiting this again.

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 Just constantly reminding ourselves of why we're here.

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 Because I need reminding.

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 Those mission statements are for me.

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 Every time I walk in, I'm like, what are we doing?

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 Just running through the motions?

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 No, this is us trying to connect with God.

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 May we be a house of prayer.

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 So we started a few weeks ago.

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 We did the Lectio Divina.

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 I hope some of the, has blessed some of you.

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 We did the Body Prayer.

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 And I had a friend tell me that they've been doing that every day.

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 And it's been really good just to kind of wake yourself up at least.

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 And then we did the ABC Prayer where we talked authentically.

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 And so we started saying, hey, just pray what you've got.

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 If you're angry, if you're frustrated, if you're confused, whatever it is, just pray what you've got.

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 You don't have to be worried.

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 Psalm 22, you have this psalm which is like, God, why have you forsaken me?

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 Why have you turned your back on me?

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 You can pray that kind of prayer.

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 You know you can pray that kind of prayer because Jesus quoted that prayer.

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 And so after that, it's just a simple, whatever you've got.

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 And then it's a prayer of surrender.

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 Whatever building projects you have.

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 You're like, God, I've been trying.

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 I've been straining, striving, stressing.

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 Ultimately, if you don't build the house, it'll be me building in vain.

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 Last week, we came and said, God, sorry.

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 Sorry, we've messed up.

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 The art of confession that the modern church is guilty of losing.

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 Of us saying, sorry, that we've drifted away, that we've made it about ourselves.

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 Now, finally, we get to the one where we get to talk about asking.

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 Now, if you are honest with yourself, if I'm honest with myself, most of our prayers are us asking for things.

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 As soon as I jump into it, God, thank you.

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 I'm praying for this.

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 Can you do this?

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 Can you do that?

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 Can you do this?

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 Can you do that?

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 And actually, it's okay to get there.

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 It's okay to be there.

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 And our prayer is that our asks, our requests won't be childish ones, but they will be childlike ones.

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 So God does want us to ask.

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 Of course, when you reflect on your own prayer life, and if all you do is ask and you have no surrender,

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 you have no sorry, you have no bigger picture,

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 then, of course, that's where the problem is.

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 But we are allowed to ask.

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 Paul Miller described, if you look at the Gospels and how Jesus teaches prayer,

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 if you were to summarize it all in one word, it is to ask.

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 Matthew 7, ask and it will be given to you.

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 Seek and you will find.

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 Knock and the door will be opened up to you.

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 Whatever you ask to the Father in my name, you will get.

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 Now, of course, when you ask in his name,

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 you're invoking your status as a co-heir with Christ,

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 you're not asking for selfish things,

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 things that you want.

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 If you're asking in his name, on his behalf,

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 you're asking for things that you know that Jesus would want.

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 That's where the psalmist in Psalm 37 says,

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 delight in the Lord and he will grant you the desires of your heart,

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 which sounds great if you take the second statement,

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 the second half, that he will grant you the desires of your heart.

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 That would be so good.

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 But the first half is delight in the Lord.

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 So prayer really is just this reorienting of our hearts.

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 It's formation prayer where you're saying,

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 actually, you're bending your will to his.

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 That's what you're doing.

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 You're not giving him requests and commands.

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 What you're actually doing is, God,

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 it's what Jesus prayed in the garden.

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 This is what I want.

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 I would quite fancy not being hung on a tree.

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 So if you can remove this suffering, please do.

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 But not my will, but yours be done.

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 But we can ask.

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 Charles Spurgeon said,

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 actually, if you were to summarize the whole rule of the kingdom,

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 it is to ask.

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 And so we reach this final prayer that we're going to go through today,

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 which is the prayer of supplication to ask.

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 But before we do that,

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 I'm actually going to invite my dear wife, Christina, up

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 because I'm going to ask her to share a little bit about what it is,

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 what her relationship is like with asking.

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 So can we give her a gentle round of applause as MJ is sleeping on that?

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 Don't wake him up.

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 Just in the spirit of confession,

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 I actually asked my wife to do this this morning.

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 So anyway,

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 she has a fascinating testimony

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 and a story of her relationship with God.

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 Because when I talk about asking,

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 I wonder how you relate to that.

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 I think some of us have grown up with lots of blessings

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 and we're a little bit spoiled

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 and we're a little bit entitled.

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 So everything about God is,

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 God, I need this.

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 I need that.

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 But some of us,

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 maybe our relationships with our parents

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 is influential in this.

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 because we don't even dare ask him at all.

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 That actually God is just so far.

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 We are so sinful.

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 We don't deserve to ask him anything.

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 I don't know where you fall in this,

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 but Christina has a wonderful testimony to share with you

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 that really encourages me.

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 Hi.

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 Gosh.

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 I hope this doesn't wake him up.

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 Yeah.

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 So,

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 no,

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 I guess just to give you a bit of context,

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 I'm the eldest of three girls.

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 And at a very young age,

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 I was needed to help around in the house.

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 My parents were very, very busy.

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 And at one point,

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 my dad worked for three years straight

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 without one day off,

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 not even in the weekends,

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 working at multiple locations.

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 And so my relationship with my parents

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 was very much like,

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 I am almost a co-parent.

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 To look after my sisters,

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 my younger sisters,

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 was the thing that I was expected to do.

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 And so,

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 when it comes to asking,

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 I would,

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 I think initially when I was young,

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 I would ask my mom or dad,

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 it's like,

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 oh,

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 I want to go out to play.

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 This was in the summer holidays.

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 And then they would say,

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 why do you want to go out to play?

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 What's the point of that?

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 As if it was something

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 that was a terrible thing to do.

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 Because what was important

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 was for me to

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 do the chores

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 or make sure I do the homework

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 and academia

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 and things like that.

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 And so,

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 I then realized

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 that there was a really good thing

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 to get some things

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 that I wanted,

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 which was to ask my younger siblings

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 to ask my parents.

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 I was like,

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 oh,

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 my mommy,

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 just ask mom

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 if we can go out to play

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 for a little bit

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 or can we go and have a,

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 can we have a snack

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 or go to the ice cream van

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 to get an ice cream.

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 Now,

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 I think growing up,

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 what happened was

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 I grew a lot of fear

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 in asking for anything.

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 And eventually,

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 I stopped asking at all.

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 And,

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 you know,

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 as I grew to know God,

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 and who he was for me,

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 I had a reverence awe

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 towards him.

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 And that wasn't a problem.

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 I recognized his majesty,

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 his power.

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 But it wasn't until

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 later on,

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 I realized that in my prayers,

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 I would not ask him for anything.

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 Um,

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 which is really interesting

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 because

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 when I'm walking with people,

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 I was like,

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 oh,

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 just ask,

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 just ask.

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 Um,

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 until,

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 um,

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 yeah,

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 I didn't really realize

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 the extent

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 of my lack of asking

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 until I went on a journey

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 of going through,

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 um,

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 an adoption process

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 because I wanted,

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 I felt the Lord

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 place on my heart,

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 um,

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 when I was 15,

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 um,

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 that I should adopt.

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 And I was like,

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 oh,

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 I really want to adopt.

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 To my parents,

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 um,

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 disagreement and horror.

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 Like,

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 if you can have your own,

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 why would you adopt?

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 Anyway.

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 Um,

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 so,

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 I started the process

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 of adoption

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 just after Ruben

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 was born,

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 my first son.

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 And,

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 uh,

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 after that,

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 uh,

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 sadly,

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 that didn't,

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 um,

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 happen.

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 Um,

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 which I was frustrated about.

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 I was like,

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 oh,

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 why,

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 why,

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 you know,

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 why did that not work out?

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 Um,

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 and then I had Alicia,

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 um,

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 my second one,

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 which was great.

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 Came over here

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 and then we thought,

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 okay,

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 um,

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 I'll try again.

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 Let's,

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 uh,

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 try the adoption route.

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 Um,

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 and sadly,

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 that didn't happen

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 the second time around.

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 And so,

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 actually,

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 about two years ago,

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 um,

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 I felt the Lord

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 asking me to

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 spend time with him.

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 So,

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 at the beginning of the,

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 of each year,

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 I would always,

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 always ask God,

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 it's like,

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 oh,

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 is there anything

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 that you want me to do?

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 Is there anything

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 you want me to do?

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 Um,

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 now,

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 doing things

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 is not my problem.

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 In fact,

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 Paul,

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 um,

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 told me

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 to calm down,

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 to take a chill pill

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 earlier today.

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 As I came in

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 and saw the chairs

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 went,

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 um,

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 lay down,

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 I was like,

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 okay,

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 let's go,

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 go,

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 go,

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 go,

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 go.

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 I need to do this

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 before I feed.

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 Um,

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 and he was like,

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 Chris,

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 Chris,

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 take,

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 take a chill pill.

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 Okay,

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 okay,

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 just tell us what to do

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 and we'll do it.

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 Okay,

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 oh,

00:14:44.860 --> 00:14:44.980
 yeah,

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 okay.

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 Um,

00:14:47.139 --> 00:14:47.539
 anyway,

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 so doing is not my problem.

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 Sitting still is my problem.

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 Um,

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 and also asking.

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 Um,

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 now,

00:14:56.580 --> 00:14:58.680
 asking God,

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 what do you want me to do?

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 Became,

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 turned into God

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 impressing on my heart

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 a heavy burden

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 of him saying,

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 I just want you

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 to spend time with me.

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 And I was like,

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 but God,

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 I do.

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 I spend time with you

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 all the time.

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 So I would talk to him,

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 pray with him

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 in the most random places.

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 Um,

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 and,

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 he would give me visions

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 and signs

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 and I love that.

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 But at the beginning

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 of,

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 um,

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 that year,

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 he was like,

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 no,

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 just want you to spend time

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 with me.

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 And I told James that,

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 I'm like,

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 oh,

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 I don't know what

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 that means.

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 I mean,

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 that's,

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 that's hard.

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 I felt convicted

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 to share it

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 because I knew

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 what he was asking.

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 What he was asking

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 was,

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 don't do anything.

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 Don't do anything.

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 Just be with me.

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 And so,

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 I felt so convicted

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 that I took 40 days

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 out

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 of my

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 usual schedule

00:16:03.100 --> 00:16:04.180
 to spend time

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 with God

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 in prayer.

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 and I messaged

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 all the leaders

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 and said,

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 oh,

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 I feel like the Lord

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 is asking me to do this

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 and I think it's something

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 to do with adoption.

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 And this was in the middle

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 of our

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 second adoption process.

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 And,

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 um,

00:16:22.320 --> 00:16:23.659
 what happened was

00:16:23.659 --> 00:16:24.659
 I began

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 just spending time

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 with the Lord

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 as soon as the kids

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 went to school.

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 I would just pray

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 and it was,

00:16:31.059 --> 00:16:32.019
 I would read

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 and before I know it,

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 the day would

00:16:33.759 --> 00:16:35.100
 be gone.

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 um,

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 and it was about

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 seven days in.

00:16:38.920 --> 00:16:39.399
 Um,

00:16:40.060 --> 00:16:44.060
 God just

00:16:44.060 --> 00:16:46.720
 overwhelmed me

00:16:46.720 --> 00:16:48.120
 with this

00:16:48.120 --> 00:16:49.860
 conviction

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 that I

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 did not know

00:16:53.360 --> 00:16:54.259
 how to be

00:16:54.259 --> 00:16:55.360
 a child of God.

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 And I just,

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 I just remember

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 I just wept

00:17:01.820 --> 00:17:05.420
 because I was like,

00:17:05.460 --> 00:17:06.080
 what do you mean?

00:17:06.140 --> 00:17:06.779
 I do know,

00:17:06.860 --> 00:17:07.720
 I know that you are

00:17:07.720 --> 00:17:08.360
 my father.

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 I know that you are

00:17:09.740 --> 00:17:10.120
 my God.

00:17:10.200 --> 00:17:10.779
 I know

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 that I am your child,

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 your beloved child.

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 And then

00:17:18.480 --> 00:17:19.220
 he kept saying,

00:17:19.279 --> 00:17:19.480
 he's like,

00:17:19.519 --> 00:17:19.700
 no,

00:17:19.779 --> 00:17:20.380
 you don't.

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 No,

00:17:21.720 --> 00:17:22.080
 you don't.

00:17:22.140 --> 00:17:22.559
 And I was like,

00:17:22.660 --> 00:17:24.140
 what do you mean?

00:17:24.140 --> 00:17:27.280
 And

00:17:27.280 --> 00:17:31.120
 what happened

00:17:31.120 --> 00:17:31.640
 was,

00:17:31.780 --> 00:17:32.680
 as I

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 spent more

00:17:33.600 --> 00:17:34.500
 and more time

00:17:34.500 --> 00:17:35.560
 just with God,

00:17:36.100 --> 00:17:38.420
 the message

00:17:38.420 --> 00:17:39.060
 was,

00:17:39.440 --> 00:17:40.220
 you do not

00:17:40.220 --> 00:17:41.120
 know that you

00:17:41.120 --> 00:17:42.000
 are my child

00:17:42.000 --> 00:17:42.980
 even though you

00:17:42.980 --> 00:17:44.160
 proclaim it,

00:17:44.280 --> 00:17:44.980
 even though you

00:17:44.980 --> 00:17:45.560
 share it,

00:17:45.640 --> 00:17:46.280
 even though you

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 encourage others

00:17:47.480 --> 00:17:49.020
 that they are

00:17:49.020 --> 00:17:49.759
 a child

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 of God

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 because you

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 do not ask.

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 And I think

00:17:59.000 --> 00:17:59.920
 on a reflection

00:17:59.920 --> 00:18:01.039
 I thought,

00:18:01.359 --> 00:18:01.519
 well,

00:18:01.579 --> 00:18:02.519
 I always ask.

00:18:02.879 --> 00:18:03.279
 I was like,

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 I ask for your will

00:18:04.599 --> 00:18:05.559
 to be done in my life

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 every single day.

00:18:09.259 --> 00:18:09.779
 And

00:18:09.779 --> 00:18:12.039
 what the spirit

00:18:12.039 --> 00:18:12.519
 was

00:18:12.519 --> 00:18:14.019
 reminding me

00:18:14.019 --> 00:18:14.539
 was like,

00:18:14.920 --> 00:18:15.279
 no,

00:18:15.839 --> 00:18:17.000
 that's not asking

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 me.

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 that's just

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 submitting

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 under my

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 authority,

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 which is good.

00:18:24.659 --> 00:18:25.419
 But your

00:18:25.419 --> 00:18:26.039
 problem is

00:18:26.039 --> 00:18:26.299
 that you

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 don't come

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 to me

00:18:27.500 --> 00:18:29.339
 as

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 a child

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 who can

00:18:31.059 --> 00:18:31.879
 just simply

00:18:31.879 --> 00:18:32.419
 ask.

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 And so

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 I then

00:18:35.119 --> 00:18:38.379
 yeah,

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 I then

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 just

00:18:42.539 --> 00:18:43.579
 stopped

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 and I

00:18:46.639 --> 00:18:47.299
 complained

00:18:47.299 --> 00:18:47.980
 I said,

00:18:48.059 --> 00:18:48.299
 God,

00:18:48.419 --> 00:18:49.019
 but I

00:18:49.019 --> 00:18:49.399
 have,

00:18:49.759 --> 00:18:50.839
 you know,

00:18:51.500 --> 00:18:52.039
 dedicated

00:18:52.039 --> 00:18:52.919
 these 40

00:18:52.919 --> 00:18:53.419
 days and

00:18:53.419 --> 00:18:53.879
 all you're

00:18:53.879 --> 00:18:54.440
 telling me

00:18:54.440 --> 00:18:54.899
 is that I

00:18:54.899 --> 00:18:55.440
 don't know

00:18:55.440 --> 00:18:55.960
 that I

00:18:55.960 --> 00:18:56.399
 am your

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 child.

00:18:58.220 --> 00:18:58.700
 And

00:18:58.700 --> 00:18:59.740
 that's it.

00:19:00.079 --> 00:19:00.399
 So I

00:19:00.399 --> 00:19:00.960
 was quite

00:19:00.960 --> 00:19:01.500
 frustrated.

00:19:03.379 --> 00:19:04.139
 But then

00:19:04.139 --> 00:19:04.819
 what he

00:19:04.819 --> 00:19:07.059
 kept telling

00:19:07.059 --> 00:19:07.919
 me was

00:19:07.919 --> 00:19:09.039
 true.

00:19:09.419 --> 00:19:09.839
 And I

00:19:09.839 --> 00:19:10.399
 looked back

00:19:10.399 --> 00:19:10.599
 and I

00:19:10.599 --> 00:19:10.839
 was like,

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 oh yeah,

00:19:11.299 --> 00:19:11.740
 I can't.

00:19:12.099 --> 00:19:12.419
 I don't,

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 I find it

00:19:13.659 --> 00:19:14.139
 so difficult

00:19:14.139 --> 00:19:14.639
 to ask.

00:19:15.000 --> 00:19:15.299
 In fact,

00:19:15.299 --> 00:19:15.599
 if you

00:19:15.599 --> 00:19:16.339
 ask those

00:19:16.339 --> 00:19:16.819
 who know

00:19:16.819 --> 00:19:17.119
 me a

00:19:17.119 --> 00:19:17.240
 little

00:19:17.240 --> 00:19:17.619
 better,

00:19:17.859 --> 00:19:18.399
 I find

00:19:18.399 --> 00:19:18.740
 it very

00:19:18.740 --> 00:19:19.220
 ask to

00:19:19.220 --> 00:19:19.619
 ask for

00:19:19.619 --> 00:19:21.700
 help in

00:19:21.700 --> 00:19:22.259
 any way.

00:19:22.460 --> 00:19:22.740
 It takes

00:19:22.740 --> 00:19:23.440
 a lot

00:19:23.440 --> 00:19:24.399
 for me to

00:19:24.399 --> 00:19:24.859
 get to a

00:19:24.859 --> 00:19:25.500
 point where

00:19:25.500 --> 00:19:26.200
 I should

00:19:26.200 --> 00:19:26.879
 just ask.

00:19:28.379 --> 00:19:29.799
 And what

00:19:29.799 --> 00:19:31.159
 happened after

00:19:31.159 --> 00:19:31.779
 that was

00:19:31.779 --> 00:19:32.159
 when I

00:19:32.159 --> 00:19:34.359
 went to

00:19:34.359 --> 00:19:34.940
 James after

00:19:34.940 --> 00:19:35.419
 the 40

00:19:35.419 --> 00:19:35.899
 days,

00:19:37.619 --> 00:19:38.220
 actually before

00:19:38.220 --> 00:19:38.680
 I went to

00:19:38.680 --> 00:19:38.980
 James,

00:19:38.980 --> 00:19:43.640
 God put

00:19:43.640 --> 00:19:44.539
 this desire

00:19:44.539 --> 00:19:44.920
 on my

00:19:44.920 --> 00:19:45.380
 heart to

00:19:45.380 --> 00:19:45.819
 have more

00:19:45.819 --> 00:19:46.180
 children.

00:19:48.680 --> 00:19:49.380
 And I

00:19:49.380 --> 00:19:49.759
 went to

00:19:49.759 --> 00:19:50.140
 God and

00:19:50.140 --> 00:19:50.420
 said,

00:19:50.620 --> 00:19:50.940
 Lord,

00:19:51.059 --> 00:19:51.680
 you know

00:19:51.680 --> 00:19:52.579
 my desire

00:19:52.579 --> 00:19:54.160
 is to

00:19:54.160 --> 00:19:54.559
 have more

00:19:54.559 --> 00:19:54.799
 children,

00:19:54.940 --> 00:19:55.360
 hence why

00:19:55.360 --> 00:19:55.779
 I went

00:19:55.779 --> 00:19:56.559
 through the

00:19:56.559 --> 00:19:56.880
 adoption

00:19:56.880 --> 00:19:57.539
 process.

00:19:57.920 --> 00:19:58.279
 Now I'm

00:19:58.279 --> 00:19:58.640
 not going

00:19:58.640 --> 00:19:58.960
 to have

00:19:58.960 --> 00:19:59.180
 more

00:19:59.180 --> 00:19:59.440
 children

00:19:59.440 --> 00:19:59.660
 with

00:19:59.660 --> 00:19:59.880
 James

00:19:59.880 --> 00:20:00.160
 because

00:20:00.160 --> 00:20:00.519
 James

00:20:00.519 --> 00:20:00.740
 has

00:20:00.740 --> 00:20:01.000
 said,

00:20:01.099 --> 00:20:01.360
 no,

00:20:01.819 --> 00:20:02.180
 he does

00:20:02.180 --> 00:20:02.579
 not want

00:20:02.579 --> 00:20:02.839
 to need

00:20:02.839 --> 00:20:03.059
 more

00:20:03.059 --> 00:20:03.440
 children.

00:20:03.799 --> 00:20:04.120
 And you

00:20:04.120 --> 00:20:04.480
 know that

00:20:04.480 --> 00:20:05.000
 story.

00:20:05.259 --> 00:20:05.700
 He's like,

00:20:05.940 --> 00:20:06.599
 I'm done.

00:20:06.599 --> 00:20:08.119
 I feel

00:20:08.119 --> 00:20:08.819
 complete.

00:20:10.379 --> 00:20:11.240
 I don't

00:20:11.240 --> 00:20:12.139
 need any

00:20:12.139 --> 00:20:12.639
 more

00:20:12.639 --> 00:20:14.079
 tiredness

00:20:14.079 --> 00:20:14.359
 in my

00:20:14.359 --> 00:20:14.759
 life.

00:20:16.459 --> 00:20:16.919
 And so

00:20:16.919 --> 00:20:18.819
 anyway,

00:20:19.599 --> 00:20:20.240
 you know

00:20:20.240 --> 00:20:20.779
 my desire,

00:20:20.919 --> 00:20:21.119
 God.

00:20:21.659 --> 00:20:22.079
 So I

00:20:22.079 --> 00:20:22.919
 just bowed

00:20:22.919 --> 00:20:23.279
 on my

00:20:23.279 --> 00:20:24.939
 knees and

00:20:24.939 --> 00:20:25.539
 actually

00:20:25.539 --> 00:20:26.159
 asked.

00:20:26.839 --> 00:20:27.139
 And it

00:20:27.139 --> 00:20:27.699
 wasn't just

00:20:27.699 --> 00:20:28.139
 asking,

00:20:28.299 --> 00:20:28.839
 oh God,

00:20:28.939 --> 00:20:29.199
 can I

00:20:29.199 --> 00:20:29.719
 have this?

00:20:30.379 --> 00:20:30.939
 It was

00:20:30.939 --> 00:20:31.599
 bowing

00:20:31.599 --> 00:20:32.519
 before him

00:20:32.519 --> 00:20:33.679
 with

00:20:33.679 --> 00:20:34.379
 confidence

00:20:34.379 --> 00:20:35.199
 that not

00:20:35.199 --> 00:20:35.740
 only do

00:20:35.740 --> 00:20:36.179
 I know

00:20:36.180 --> 00:20:37.100
 who he

00:20:37.100 --> 00:20:37.759
 is,

00:20:38.660 --> 00:20:39.160
 that I

00:20:39.160 --> 00:20:39.640
 know who

00:20:39.640 --> 00:20:40.240
 I am

00:20:40.240 --> 00:20:40.900
 because of

00:20:40.900 --> 00:20:41.740
 him and

00:20:41.740 --> 00:20:42.180
 because he

00:20:42.180 --> 00:20:42.680
 calls me

00:20:42.680 --> 00:20:43.080
 beloved.

00:20:43.759 --> 00:20:44.360
 And I

00:20:44.360 --> 00:20:45.580
 can confidently

00:20:45.580 --> 00:20:46.380
 come to

00:20:46.380 --> 00:20:46.860
 him as

00:20:46.860 --> 00:20:47.700
 his child

00:20:47.700 --> 00:20:49.160
 and ask.

00:20:50.140 --> 00:20:50.560
 And so

00:20:50.560 --> 00:20:53.080
 you know

00:20:53.080 --> 00:20:53.500
 the

00:20:53.500 --> 00:20:56.019
 passage

00:20:56.019 --> 00:20:57.799
 seek and

00:20:57.799 --> 00:20:58.340
 you will

00:20:58.340 --> 00:20:58.640
 find,

00:20:58.759 --> 00:20:59.080
 knock and

00:20:59.080 --> 00:20:59.380
 the door

00:20:59.380 --> 00:20:59.640
 will be

00:20:59.640 --> 00:21:00.440
 open and

00:21:00.440 --> 00:21:02.460
 ask and

00:21:02.460 --> 00:21:02.779
 it shall

00:21:02.779 --> 00:21:03.200
 be given

00:21:03.200 --> 00:21:03.820
 to you

00:21:03.819 --> 00:21:06.099
 was

00:21:06.099 --> 00:21:08.039
 resonating

00:21:08.039 --> 00:21:08.379
 in me.

00:21:08.500 --> 00:21:08.879
 And of

00:21:08.879 --> 00:21:09.460
 course the

00:21:09.460 --> 00:21:09.819
 other

00:21:09.819 --> 00:21:12.480
 part was

00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:13.019
 to ask

00:21:13.019 --> 00:21:13.679
 in confidence

00:21:13.679 --> 00:21:14.599
 to know

00:21:14.599 --> 00:21:15.139
 who he

00:21:15.139 --> 00:21:15.779
 is and

00:21:15.779 --> 00:21:16.639
 then in

00:21:16.639 --> 00:21:17.879
 accordance to

00:21:17.879 --> 00:21:18.599
 knowing who

00:21:18.599 --> 00:21:19.359
 he is,

00:21:19.839 --> 00:21:21.519
 then also

00:21:21.519 --> 00:21:22.500
 in accordance

00:21:22.500 --> 00:21:23.000
 to his

00:21:23.000 --> 00:21:23.359
 will,

00:21:24.279 --> 00:21:24.980
 you will

00:21:24.980 --> 00:21:26.179
 receive.

00:21:26.180 --> 00:21:28.519
 and then

00:21:28.519 --> 00:21:29.100
 afterwards

00:21:29.100 --> 00:21:30.560
 when James

00:21:30.560 --> 00:21:30.779
 said,

00:21:30.860 --> 00:21:31.299
 oh so what

00:21:31.299 --> 00:21:31.740
 did you do

00:21:31.740 --> 00:21:32.640
 in those

00:21:32.640 --> 00:21:33.220
 40 days?

00:21:33.299 --> 00:21:33.700
 I was like,

00:21:34.160 --> 00:21:34.660
 yeah,

00:21:35.279 --> 00:21:36.860
 God was

00:21:36.860 --> 00:21:37.620
 teaching me

00:21:37.620 --> 00:21:38.440
 about how

00:21:38.440 --> 00:21:39.180
 I should be

00:21:39.180 --> 00:21:39.680
 a child

00:21:39.680 --> 00:21:40.180
 of God.

00:21:41.060 --> 00:21:41.519
 And that

00:21:41.519 --> 00:21:41.900
 was it.

00:21:42.259 --> 00:21:42.700
 I didn't

00:21:42.700 --> 00:21:43.480
 tell him

00:21:43.480 --> 00:21:44.160
 what I

00:21:44.160 --> 00:21:44.799
 asked for.

00:21:45.220 --> 00:21:46.000
 I didn't

00:21:46.000 --> 00:21:46.940
 tell him

00:21:46.940 --> 00:21:49.059
 the challenge

00:21:49.059 --> 00:21:50.920
 of what

00:21:50.920 --> 00:21:51.920
 I asked

00:21:51.920 --> 00:21:52.460
 for.

00:21:54.019 --> 00:21:54.580
 So yeah.

00:21:55.880 --> 00:21:56.259
 And so

00:21:56.259 --> 00:21:58.620
 God's a

00:21:58.620 --> 00:21:59.320
 troll and

00:21:59.320 --> 00:21:59.720
 so is my

00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:00.039
 wife.

00:22:01.700 --> 00:22:02.140
 Now just

00:22:02.140 --> 00:22:03.360
 to reiterate,

00:22:03.740 --> 00:22:04.240
 you couldn't

00:22:04.240 --> 00:22:04.880
 find anyone

00:22:04.880 --> 00:22:06.600
 more against

00:22:06.600 --> 00:22:07.200
 having children

00:22:07.200 --> 00:22:07.820
 than me.

00:22:08.980 --> 00:22:09.559
 Of course,

00:22:09.680 --> 00:22:10.860
 I love them,

00:22:10.940 --> 00:22:11.160
 they're in

00:22:11.160 --> 00:22:11.279
 there.

00:22:11.940 --> 00:22:12.380
 But I was

00:22:12.380 --> 00:22:12.480
 like,

00:22:12.500 --> 00:22:13.000
 I'm so done.

00:22:13.360 --> 00:22:13.720
 I'm so done

00:22:13.720 --> 00:22:14.059
 with this.

00:22:14.480 --> 00:22:14.799
 John knows,

00:22:14.860 --> 00:22:15.160
 I'm so done

00:22:15.160 --> 00:22:15.500
 with this.

00:22:15.500 --> 00:22:17.279
 And so

00:22:17.279 --> 00:22:17.740
 I was so

00:22:17.740 --> 00:22:18.059
 happy.

00:22:18.359 --> 00:22:18.779
 My tank

00:22:18.779 --> 00:22:19.119
 was so

00:22:19.119 --> 00:22:19.440
 full.

00:22:21.420 --> 00:22:23.420
 And we

00:22:23.420 --> 00:22:24.000
 hadn't

00:22:24.000 --> 00:22:24.640
 fought over

00:22:24.640 --> 00:22:25.099
 this issue,

00:22:25.200 --> 00:22:25.460
 but this

00:22:25.460 --> 00:22:25.839
 was the

00:22:25.839 --> 00:22:26.559
 sensitive

00:22:26.559 --> 00:22:27.059
 point of

00:22:27.059 --> 00:22:27.500
 contention

00:22:27.500 --> 00:22:28.160
 that husbands

00:22:28.160 --> 00:22:28.619
 and wives

00:22:28.619 --> 00:22:29.279
 find themselves

00:22:29.279 --> 00:22:29.519
 in.

00:22:31.680 --> 00:22:32.279
 So then

00:22:32.279 --> 00:22:32.839
 unbeknownst

00:22:32.839 --> 00:22:33.180
 to me,

00:22:34.019 --> 00:22:34.380
 a month

00:22:34.380 --> 00:22:34.759
 later,

00:22:35.200 --> 00:22:35.539
 I'm in

00:22:35.539 --> 00:22:35.819
 Singapore

00:22:35.819 --> 00:22:36.180
 for a

00:22:36.180 --> 00:22:36.619
 conference.

00:22:38.420 --> 00:22:38.579
 And I,

00:22:38.700 --> 00:22:38.819
 okay,

00:22:38.859 --> 00:22:39.180
 this is a

00:22:39.180 --> 00:22:39.259
 bit,

00:22:39.259 --> 00:22:39.440
 okay,

00:22:39.799 --> 00:22:40.460
 the place

00:22:40.460 --> 00:22:40.900
 this happens

00:22:40.900 --> 00:22:41.259
 is a little

00:22:41.259 --> 00:22:41.539
 bit weird,

00:22:41.599 --> 00:22:41.720
 but you

00:22:41.720 --> 00:22:41.900
 should have

00:22:41.900 --> 00:22:42.059
 to bear

00:22:42.059 --> 00:22:42.299
 with me.

00:22:42.579 --> 00:22:42.920
 So we

00:22:42.920 --> 00:22:43.500
 were in

00:22:43.500 --> 00:22:43.819
 the night

00:22:43.819 --> 00:22:44.279
 safari.

00:22:44.279 --> 00:22:45.480
 Me and

00:22:45.480 --> 00:22:45.879
 my colleagues

00:22:45.879 --> 00:22:46.119
 and we

00:22:46.119 --> 00:22:46.359
 were just

00:22:46.359 --> 00:22:46.720
 kind of

00:22:46.720 --> 00:22:47.339
 sitting on

00:22:47.339 --> 00:22:47.500
 those,

00:22:47.639 --> 00:22:48.379
 who's been

00:22:48.379 --> 00:22:48.559
 to the

00:22:48.559 --> 00:22:48.700
 night

00:22:48.700 --> 00:22:49.099
 safari in

00:22:49.099 --> 00:22:49.359
 Singapore?

00:22:49.839 --> 00:22:50.119
 Where you're

00:22:50.119 --> 00:22:50.379
 kind of on

00:22:50.379 --> 00:22:51.000
 that little

00:22:51.000 --> 00:22:51.259
 tram,

00:22:51.339 --> 00:22:51.639
 that cart

00:22:51.639 --> 00:22:51.819
 thing,

00:22:51.879 --> 00:22:52.019
 and you're

00:22:52.019 --> 00:22:52.299
 just walking

00:22:52.299 --> 00:22:53.599
 and we go

00:22:53.599 --> 00:22:54.019
 past and we

00:22:54.019 --> 00:22:54.279
 see the

00:22:54.279 --> 00:22:54.779
 flamingos.

00:22:55.500 --> 00:22:55.940
 And in

00:22:55.940 --> 00:22:56.359
 that moment,

00:22:56.460 --> 00:22:56.700
 the most

00:22:56.700 --> 00:22:57.039
 random

00:22:57.039 --> 00:22:57.339
 thought,

00:22:57.920 --> 00:22:58.200
 it was,

00:22:58.639 --> 00:22:58.859
 James,

00:22:59.339 --> 00:22:59.740
 if you had

00:22:59.740 --> 00:23:00.039
 a third,

00:23:00.139 --> 00:23:00.339
 you'd be

00:23:00.339 --> 00:23:00.599
 okay.

00:23:01.279 --> 00:23:01.619
 Just the

00:23:01.619 --> 00:23:02.059
 most random

00:23:02.059 --> 00:23:02.339
 thought.

00:23:03.480 --> 00:23:04.200
 I don't know

00:23:04.200 --> 00:23:04.519
 why it was

00:23:04.519 --> 00:23:05.099
 the flamingos.

00:23:05.359 --> 00:23:05.879
 I've committed

00:23:05.879 --> 00:23:06.299
 to never

00:23:06.299 --> 00:23:06.660
 seeing them

00:23:06.660 --> 00:23:07.079
 ever again.

00:23:09.440 --> 00:23:09.799
 And it

00:23:09.799 --> 00:23:09.899
 was,

00:23:10.059 --> 00:23:10.200
 James,

00:23:10.319 --> 00:23:10.660
 if you had

00:23:10.660 --> 00:23:10.879
 a third,

00:23:10.880 --> 00:23:11.140
 you'd be

00:23:11.140 --> 00:23:11.380
 okay.

00:23:12.100 --> 00:23:12.380
 I said,

00:23:12.420 --> 00:23:12.620
 no,

00:23:12.680 --> 00:23:12.840
 I won't

00:23:12.840 --> 00:23:13.120
 be okay.

00:23:13.200 --> 00:23:13.420
 You know

00:23:13.420 --> 00:23:13.660
 I won't

00:23:13.660 --> 00:23:13.920
 be okay,

00:23:13.980 --> 00:23:14.120
 God.

00:23:15.660 --> 00:23:16.020
 And then

00:23:16.020 --> 00:23:16.880
 it was just,

00:23:17.040 --> 00:23:17.340
 of course,

00:23:17.680 --> 00:23:19.200
 we're looking

00:23:19.200 --> 00:23:19.460
 at other

00:23:19.460 --> 00:23:19.920
 animals and

00:23:19.920 --> 00:23:20.680
 it just

00:23:20.680 --> 00:23:21.320
 starts swirling

00:23:21.320 --> 00:23:21.720
 in my head.

00:23:22.000 --> 00:23:22.480
 What would

00:23:22.480 --> 00:23:23.080
 it look like

00:23:23.080 --> 00:23:23.680
 to have a

00:23:23.680 --> 00:23:23.920
 third?

00:23:24.580 --> 00:23:25.060
 That would

00:23:25.060 --> 00:23:25.660
 be so crazy.

00:23:25.960 --> 00:23:26.120
 I mean,

00:23:27.060 --> 00:23:27.360
 I'm getting

00:23:27.360 --> 00:23:27.880
 pretty old.

00:23:28.920 --> 00:23:29.380
 This is not,

00:23:30.460 --> 00:23:31.120
 let's leave it.

00:23:31.360 --> 00:23:31.620
 And anyway,

00:23:31.700 --> 00:23:32.180
 our two kids

00:23:32.180 --> 00:23:32.620
 are already

00:23:32.620 --> 00:23:33.160
 very happy

00:23:33.160 --> 00:23:33.580
 and also

00:23:33.580 --> 00:23:34.120
 getting older

00:23:34.120 --> 00:23:34.380
 as well,

00:23:34.440 --> 00:23:34.820
 so the gap

00:23:34.820 --> 00:23:35.040
 would be

00:23:35.040 --> 00:23:35.500
 pretty big.

00:23:37.040 --> 00:23:37.220
 And then

00:23:37.220 --> 00:23:37.540
 I turned,

00:23:37.660 --> 00:23:37.920
 and actually,

00:23:38.000 --> 00:23:38.500
 one thing I've

00:23:38.500 --> 00:23:39.300
 always said is,

00:23:39.480 --> 00:23:39.780
 actually,

00:23:39.779 --> 00:23:41.180
 my puzzle

00:23:41.180 --> 00:23:41.819
 is complete.

00:23:41.980 --> 00:23:42.899
 I am so happy

00:23:42.899 --> 00:23:43.279
 in every way.

00:23:43.319 --> 00:23:43.899
 I'm not needing

00:23:43.899 --> 00:23:44.180
 anything.

00:23:44.740 --> 00:23:45.319
 And so I turned

00:23:45.319 --> 00:23:45.839
 to my colleague

00:23:45.839 --> 00:23:46.319
 who I'd just

00:23:46.319 --> 00:23:46.599
 met,

00:23:46.740 --> 00:23:47.099
 who'd come

00:23:47.099 --> 00:23:47.599
 from the US,

00:23:47.660 --> 00:23:47.859
 and I said,

00:23:47.899 --> 00:23:48.000
 hey,

00:23:48.059 --> 00:23:48.519
 so how many

00:23:48.519 --> 00:23:48.879
 kids do you

00:23:48.879 --> 00:23:49.059
 have?

00:23:49.839 --> 00:23:50.460
 He said,

00:23:50.559 --> 00:23:51.079
 we have

00:23:51.079 --> 00:23:51.259
 three.

00:23:52.160 --> 00:23:52.799
 But the

00:23:52.799 --> 00:23:53.460
 third one

00:23:53.460 --> 00:23:54.660
 was a surprise

00:23:54.660 --> 00:23:56.180
 and it was a

00:23:56.180 --> 00:23:56.660
 gift that we

00:23:56.660 --> 00:23:57.160
 didn't know

00:23:57.160 --> 00:23:57.519
 that we were

00:23:57.519 --> 00:23:57.700
 going to

00:23:57.700 --> 00:23:58.079
 receive.

00:23:58.759 --> 00:23:59.359
 And it was

00:23:59.359 --> 00:23:59.839
 a medically

00:23:59.839 --> 00:24:00.460
 impossible

00:24:00.460 --> 00:24:01.339
 gift.

00:24:02.440 --> 00:24:03.000
 He'd done

00:24:03.000 --> 00:24:03.639
 something to

00:24:03.639 --> 00:24:03.980
 make sure

00:24:03.980 --> 00:24:04.240
 that that

00:24:04.240 --> 00:24:04.399
 wouldn't

00:24:04.399 --> 00:24:04.700
 happen,

00:24:04.940 --> 00:24:05.259
 and it

00:24:05.259 --> 00:24:05.579
 happened.

00:24:08.299 --> 00:24:08.660
 Right?

00:24:08.660 --> 00:24:09.519
 He went

00:24:09.519 --> 00:24:09.820
 back to

00:24:09.820 --> 00:24:10.259
 that doctor

00:24:10.259 --> 00:24:10.519
 and the

00:24:10.519 --> 00:24:10.820
 doctor had

00:24:10.820 --> 00:24:11.080
 already

00:24:11.080 --> 00:24:11.560
 tucked a lot

00:24:11.560 --> 00:24:11.980
 close down.

00:24:16.220 --> 00:24:19.540
 But he

00:24:19.540 --> 00:24:19.920
 said this

00:24:19.920 --> 00:24:20.279
 one thing.

00:24:20.340 --> 00:24:20.660
 He said,

00:24:20.779 --> 00:24:20.980
 oh,

00:24:21.200 --> 00:24:21.440
 but it

00:24:21.440 --> 00:24:21.700
 was a

00:24:21.700 --> 00:24:21.880
 missing

00:24:21.880 --> 00:24:22.279
 piece of

00:24:22.279 --> 00:24:22.560
 the puzzle

00:24:22.560 --> 00:24:22.900
 I never

00:24:22.900 --> 00:24:23.220
 knew I

00:24:23.220 --> 00:24:23.440
 needed.

00:24:24.180 --> 00:24:24.360
 I was

00:24:24.360 --> 00:24:24.480
 like,

00:24:24.560 --> 00:24:24.759
 whew,

00:24:25.600 --> 00:24:25.980
 that's a

00:24:25.980 --> 00:24:26.800
 good line.

00:24:28.300 --> 00:24:28.980
 And then I

00:24:28.980 --> 00:24:29.240
 said,

00:24:30.160 --> 00:24:30.740
 how old

00:24:30.740 --> 00:24:30.980
 were your

00:24:30.980 --> 00:24:31.400
 kids when

00:24:31.400 --> 00:24:32.200
 the surprise

00:24:32.200 --> 00:24:32.560
 happened?

00:24:33.040 --> 00:24:33.240
 He was

00:24:33.240 --> 00:24:33.380
 like,

00:24:33.500 --> 00:24:34.000
 11 and

00:24:34.000 --> 00:24:34.220
 7.

00:24:35.180 --> 00:24:35.420
 I was

00:24:35.420 --> 00:24:35.600
 like,

00:24:35.740 --> 00:24:35.920
 oh,

00:24:35.920 --> 00:24:36.120
 shoot,

00:24:36.119 --> 00:24:37.319
 my kids

00:24:37.319 --> 00:24:37.719
 are 11

00:24:37.719 --> 00:24:38.079
 and 7.

00:24:40.519 --> 00:24:40.919
 And none

00:24:40.919 --> 00:24:41.059
 of,

00:24:41.139 --> 00:24:41.459
 she didn't

00:24:41.459 --> 00:24:41.779
 tell me

00:24:41.779 --> 00:24:42.059
 any of

00:24:42.059 --> 00:24:42.259
 this.

00:24:42.819 --> 00:24:43.199
 And I

00:24:43.199 --> 00:24:43.699
 was having

00:24:43.699 --> 00:24:44.039
 my own

00:24:44.039 --> 00:24:44.539
 little moment

00:24:44.539 --> 00:24:45.559
 freaking

00:24:45.559 --> 00:24:45.899
 out.

00:24:46.899 --> 00:24:47.199
 But anyway,

00:24:47.299 --> 00:24:47.579
 as the

00:24:47.579 --> 00:24:47.879
 good,

00:24:48.019 --> 00:24:48.199
 honest

00:24:48.199 --> 00:24:48.539
 husband,

00:24:48.939 --> 00:24:49.419
 after my

00:24:49.419 --> 00:24:49.679
 conference,

00:24:49.739 --> 00:24:49.919
 I went

00:24:49.919 --> 00:24:50.179
 back home,

00:24:50.219 --> 00:24:50.359
 I said,

00:24:50.399 --> 00:24:50.459
 hey,

00:24:50.500 --> 00:24:50.879
 let's talk

00:24:50.879 --> 00:24:51.119
 about

00:24:51.119 --> 00:24:51.619
 something.

00:24:52.059 --> 00:24:52.459
 I just

00:24:52.459 --> 00:24:52.719
 had the

00:24:52.719 --> 00:24:53.319
 most weird

00:24:53.319 --> 00:24:53.979
 experience

00:24:53.979 --> 00:24:54.419
 of encounter

00:24:54.419 --> 00:24:54.679
 in the

00:24:54.679 --> 00:24:55.179
 night safari

00:24:55.179 --> 00:24:55.479
 with the

00:24:55.479 --> 00:24:55.919
 flamingos.

00:24:58.979 --> 00:25:00.000
 And I

00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:00.500
 think God's

00:25:00.500 --> 00:25:00.919
 telling me

00:25:00.919 --> 00:25:01.179
 that I

00:25:01.179 --> 00:25:01.459
 need to

00:25:01.459 --> 00:25:01.779
 surrender

00:25:01.779 --> 00:25:02.879
 my fear

00:25:02.880 --> 00:25:04.220
 and

00:25:04.220 --> 00:25:04.680
 control

00:25:04.680 --> 00:25:05.700
 of having

00:25:05.700 --> 00:25:05.940
 another

00:25:05.940 --> 00:25:06.220
 kid.

00:25:07.900 --> 00:25:08.240
 And can

00:25:08.240 --> 00:25:08.480
 you just

00:25:08.480 --> 00:25:08.980
 imagine from

00:25:08.980 --> 00:25:09.300
 her

00:25:09.300 --> 00:25:09.760
 perspective,

00:25:09.940 --> 00:25:10.360
 the wrestling

00:25:10.360 --> 00:25:10.700
 that she

00:25:10.700 --> 00:25:11.100
 went on

00:25:11.100 --> 00:25:11.340
 on these

00:25:11.340 --> 00:25:11.900
 40 days,

00:25:12.180 --> 00:25:13.260
 she just

00:25:13.260 --> 00:25:13.640
 broke down

00:25:13.640 --> 00:25:14.100
 into his.

00:25:14.240 --> 00:25:14.380
 And I

00:25:14.380 --> 00:25:14.560
 was like,

00:25:14.600 --> 00:25:14.740
 yeah,

00:25:14.780 --> 00:25:14.940
 I'm

00:25:14.940 --> 00:25:15.460
 crying too.

00:25:18.240 --> 00:25:18.600
 Oh,

00:25:18.960 --> 00:25:19.080
 he's

00:25:19.080 --> 00:25:19.300
 awake.

00:25:19.800 --> 00:25:20.260
 And then,

00:25:20.960 --> 00:25:22.580
 so then it

00:25:22.580 --> 00:25:22.900
 was a

00:25:22.900 --> 00:25:23.140
 wrestling

00:25:23.140 --> 00:25:23.460
 match.

00:25:23.640 --> 00:25:23.800
 It was

00:25:23.800 --> 00:25:23.940
 like,

00:25:24.020 --> 00:25:24.160
 okay,

00:25:25.240 --> 00:25:25.540
 look,

00:25:27.300 --> 00:25:28.060
 we'll

00:25:28.060 --> 00:25:28.320
 try,

00:25:29.120 --> 00:25:29.440
 but we

00:25:29.440 --> 00:25:29.600
 can't

00:25:29.600 --> 00:25:29.880
 try for

00:25:29.880 --> 00:25:30.060
 long.

00:25:30.800 --> 00:25:31.220
 Just a

00:25:31.220 --> 00:25:31.580
 little try,

00:25:31.740 --> 00:25:31.980
 just a

00:25:31.980 --> 00:25:32.340
 little knock,

00:25:32.339 --> 00:25:32.519
 and then

00:25:32.519 --> 00:25:32.619
 we'll

00:25:32.619 --> 00:25:32.899
 run at

00:25:32.899 --> 00:25:33.139
 if the

00:25:33.139 --> 00:25:33.500
 door opens.

00:25:34.539 --> 00:25:35.939
 And I

00:25:35.939 --> 00:25:36.119
 was like,

00:25:36.139 --> 00:25:36.240
 hey,

00:25:36.299 --> 00:25:36.399
 look,

00:25:36.480 --> 00:25:36.980
 we're just

00:25:36.980 --> 00:25:37.119
 going to

00:25:37.119 --> 00:25:37.419
 try for

00:25:37.419 --> 00:25:37.759
 a very

00:25:37.759 --> 00:25:38.220
 short period.

00:25:38.299 --> 00:25:38.419
 She's

00:25:38.419 --> 00:25:38.519
 like,

00:25:38.559 --> 00:25:38.659
 oh,

00:25:38.679 --> 00:25:38.919
 but that's

00:25:38.919 --> 00:25:39.279
 too short

00:25:39.279 --> 00:25:39.639
 a period.

00:25:40.279 --> 00:25:40.720
 Then I'm

00:25:40.720 --> 00:25:40.819
 like,

00:25:40.859 --> 00:25:40.959
 well,

00:25:41.039 --> 00:25:41.539
 if your

00:25:41.539 --> 00:25:42.079
 God wants

00:25:42.079 --> 00:25:42.399
 this to

00:25:42.399 --> 00:25:42.720
 happen,

00:25:43.119 --> 00:25:45.099
 then he

00:25:45.099 --> 00:25:45.559
 will make

00:25:45.559 --> 00:25:45.919
 it happen.

00:25:47.240 --> 00:25:47.500
 And

00:25:47.500 --> 00:25:48.959
 anyway,

00:25:49.220 --> 00:25:49.559
 of course,

00:25:49.679 --> 00:25:50.119
 it happened

00:25:50.119 --> 00:25:50.919
 fairly quickly.

00:25:52.419 --> 00:25:53.019
 And then I

00:25:53.019 --> 00:25:53.240
 was just

00:25:53.240 --> 00:25:53.480
 like,

00:25:53.559 --> 00:25:53.879
 man,

00:25:55.000 --> 00:25:55.639
 God loves

00:25:55.639 --> 00:25:56.359
 Christina so

00:25:56.359 --> 00:25:56.699
 much.

00:25:58.839 --> 00:25:59.319
 And he

00:25:59.319 --> 00:25:59.819
 really doesn't

00:25:59.819 --> 00:26:00.159
 like me

00:26:00.159 --> 00:26:00.679
 very much.

00:26:02.339 --> 00:26:05.359
 And just

00:26:05.359 --> 00:26:06.099
 to watch

00:26:06.099 --> 00:26:06.740
 that journey

00:26:06.740 --> 00:26:07.259
 where I

00:26:07.259 --> 00:26:07.639
 know that

00:26:07.639 --> 00:26:08.059
 she doesn't

00:26:08.059 --> 00:26:09.039
 like asking

00:26:09.039 --> 00:26:09.299
 for help.

00:26:09.399 --> 00:26:09.919
 She doesn't

00:26:09.919 --> 00:26:10.259
 like asking

00:26:10.259 --> 00:26:10.720
 for anything.

00:26:11.759 --> 00:26:12.079
 But to

00:26:12.079 --> 00:26:12.459
 watch her

00:26:12.459 --> 00:26:12.779
 go through

00:26:12.779 --> 00:26:13.199
 this journey

00:26:13.199 --> 00:26:13.599
 and learn

00:26:13.599 --> 00:26:14.039
 what asking

00:26:14.039 --> 00:26:15.259
 means was

00:26:15.259 --> 00:26:15.819
 inspiring to

00:26:15.819 --> 00:26:15.980
 me.

00:26:16.519 --> 00:26:16.799
 And of

00:26:16.799 --> 00:26:16.919
 course,

00:26:16.980 --> 00:26:17.099
 we're

00:26:17.099 --> 00:26:17.480
 blessed with

00:26:17.480 --> 00:26:18.439
 this cute

00:26:18.439 --> 00:26:18.619
 little

00:26:18.619 --> 00:26:20.240
 baldy right

00:26:20.240 --> 00:26:20.539
 here.

00:26:21.740 --> 00:26:22.259
 But I'll

00:26:22.259 --> 00:26:22.500
 tell you

00:26:22.500 --> 00:26:22.740
 this,

00:26:22.859 --> 00:26:23.339
 and I want

00:26:23.339 --> 00:26:23.519
 to be

00:26:23.519 --> 00:26:23.839
 sensitive

00:26:23.839 --> 00:26:24.339
 because,

00:26:25.579 --> 00:26:25.759
 actually,

00:26:25.799 --> 00:26:26.099
 I know that

00:26:26.099 --> 00:26:26.319
 there are

00:26:26.319 --> 00:26:26.819
 people also

00:26:26.819 --> 00:26:27.179
 in the room

00:26:27.180 --> 00:26:28.180
 who have

00:26:28.180 --> 00:26:28.480
 asked for

00:26:28.480 --> 00:26:28.740
 children.

00:26:29.980 --> 00:26:30.340
 Actually,

00:26:30.420 --> 00:26:30.680
 you've asked

00:26:30.680 --> 00:26:31.000
 for different

00:26:31.000 --> 00:26:32.100
 things over

00:26:32.100 --> 00:26:32.580
 the years,

00:26:33.160 --> 00:26:35.019
 and you've

00:26:35.019 --> 00:26:35.259
 not got

00:26:35.259 --> 00:26:35.539
 them yet.

00:26:36.660 --> 00:26:37.060
 And I

00:26:37.060 --> 00:26:37.360
 tell this

00:26:37.360 --> 00:26:37.799
 story not

00:26:37.799 --> 00:26:38.100
 just to

00:26:38.100 --> 00:26:38.259
 say,

00:26:38.360 --> 00:26:38.480
 oh,

00:26:38.600 --> 00:26:38.880
 man,

00:26:39.400 --> 00:26:39.720
 this is,

00:26:40.220 --> 00:26:40.860
 God is so

00:26:40.860 --> 00:26:41.140
 good,

00:26:41.220 --> 00:26:41.440
 and he

00:26:41.440 --> 00:26:41.600
 blessed

00:26:41.600 --> 00:26:41.900
 with this.

00:26:42.440 --> 00:26:42.640
 It's,

00:26:43.640 --> 00:26:44.980
 what I do

00:26:44.980 --> 00:26:46.960
 know is

00:26:46.960 --> 00:26:47.080
 that,

00:26:47.080 --> 00:26:47.400
 actually,

00:26:48.180 --> 00:26:48.580
 God is

00:26:48.580 --> 00:26:48.820
 good.

00:26:50.100 --> 00:26:50.700
 He does

00:26:50.700 --> 00:26:51.039
 know what

00:26:51.039 --> 00:26:51.420
 you want.

00:26:52.880 --> 00:26:53.259
 But,

00:26:53.320 --> 00:26:53.440
 yes,

00:26:53.500 --> 00:26:53.779
 there are

00:26:53.779 --> 00:26:54.299
 some times

00:26:54.299 --> 00:26:54.819
 where you

00:26:54.819 --> 00:26:55.279
 don't get

00:26:55.279 --> 00:26:56.940
 what it

00:26:56.940 --> 00:26:57.139
 is.

00:26:58.559 --> 00:26:58.759
 And,

00:26:58.859 --> 00:26:58.960
 actually,

00:26:59.039 --> 00:26:59.379
 I'm here

00:26:59.379 --> 00:26:59.960
 to tell you,

00:26:59.980 --> 00:27:00.259
 I'm not

00:27:00.259 --> 00:27:00.720
 here to tell

00:27:00.720 --> 00:27:01.180
 you why,

00:27:01.579 --> 00:27:01.799
 like,

00:27:01.899 --> 00:27:02.139
 why.

00:27:02.740 --> 00:27:03.539
 I don't

00:27:03.539 --> 00:27:05.319
 know why.

00:27:07.379 --> 00:27:07.980
 I don't

00:27:07.980 --> 00:27:08.159
 know.

00:27:08.980 --> 00:27:09.339
 And,

00:27:09.419 --> 00:27:09.559
 as a

00:27:09.559 --> 00:27:09.799
 pastor,

00:27:09.899 --> 00:27:10.079
 I'm

00:27:10.079 --> 00:27:10.740
 learning over

00:27:10.740 --> 00:27:11.019
 and over

00:27:11.019 --> 00:27:11.319
 again.

00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:14.039
 Why,

00:27:14.200 --> 00:27:14.359
 God,

00:27:14.399 --> 00:27:14.740
 won't you

00:27:14.740 --> 00:27:16.519
 answer the

00:27:16.519 --> 00:27:16.859
 prayers that

00:27:16.859 --> 00:27:17.139
 we've had

00:27:17.139 --> 00:27:17.359
 for all

00:27:17.359 --> 00:27:17.700
 these years?

00:27:18.399 --> 00:27:18.500
 And,

00:27:18.559 --> 00:27:18.639
 maybe,

00:27:18.740 --> 00:27:19.059
 a final

00:27:19.059 --> 00:27:19.339
 thing I

00:27:19.339 --> 00:27:19.519
 wanted

00:27:19.519 --> 00:27:19.940
 Christina

00:27:19.940 --> 00:27:20.419
 to share

00:27:20.419 --> 00:27:21.440
 in all

00:27:21.440 --> 00:27:22.460
 this is,

00:27:22.619 --> 00:27:22.879
 actually,

00:27:23.419 --> 00:27:23.799
 this is

00:27:23.799 --> 00:27:24.339
 one prayer,

00:27:24.879 --> 00:27:25.180
 but you

00:27:25.180 --> 00:27:25.819
 have tons

00:27:25.819 --> 00:27:26.200
 of prayers

00:27:26.200 --> 00:27:26.899
 that you've

00:27:26.899 --> 00:27:27.720
 not had

00:27:27.720 --> 00:27:28.000
 answered.

00:27:29.059 --> 00:27:29.639
 There are

00:27:29.639 --> 00:27:30.079
 long-standing

00:27:30.079 --> 00:27:30.680
 prayers right

00:27:30.680 --> 00:27:31.159
 now about

00:27:31.159 --> 00:27:31.579
 your family

00:27:31.579 --> 00:27:31.919
 that are

00:27:31.919 --> 00:27:32.500
 still not

00:27:32.500 --> 00:27:32.879
 answered.

00:27:34.299 --> 00:27:34.779
 What's

00:27:34.779 --> 00:27:35.440
 your process

00:27:35.440 --> 00:27:35.799
 when it

00:27:35.799 --> 00:27:36.480
 comes to

00:27:36.480 --> 00:27:37.019
 unanswered

00:27:37.019 --> 00:27:37.180
 prayer?

00:27:39.779 --> 00:27:40.419
 I think,

00:27:40.579 --> 00:27:40.960
 first of

00:27:40.960 --> 00:27:41.220
 all,

00:27:41.399 --> 00:27:42.720
 is admitting

00:27:42.720 --> 00:27:43.299
 that I'm

00:27:43.299 --> 00:27:44.599
 angry and

00:27:44.599 --> 00:27:45.200
 frustrated.

00:27:48.639 --> 00:27:49.200
 But,

00:27:49.399 --> 00:27:50.899
 going to

00:27:50.899 --> 00:27:52.099
 him with

00:27:52.099 --> 00:27:52.799
 that,

00:27:52.799 --> 00:27:54.680
 just as

00:27:54.680 --> 00:27:55.579
 raw as

00:27:55.579 --> 00:27:55.919
 it can

00:27:55.919 --> 00:27:56.899
 be,

00:27:56.899 --> 00:28:00.359
 and being

00:28:00.359 --> 00:28:00.980
 honest with

00:28:00.980 --> 00:28:01.299
 God,

00:28:03.099 --> 00:28:04.759
 and being

00:28:04.759 --> 00:28:05.919
 reminded that

00:28:05.919 --> 00:28:06.480
 he is

00:28:06.480 --> 00:28:06.980
 faithful,

00:28:08.180 --> 00:28:09.240
 being reminded

00:28:09.240 --> 00:28:10.119
 that he is

00:28:10.119 --> 00:28:10.599
 good,

00:28:11.180 --> 00:28:11.579
 and being

00:28:11.579 --> 00:28:12.559
 reminded that

00:28:12.559 --> 00:28:13.099
 it's not

00:28:13.099 --> 00:28:13.539
 about the

00:28:13.539 --> 00:28:15.139
 things in

00:28:15.139 --> 00:28:15.740
 this world.

00:28:15.740 --> 00:28:15.779
 God,

00:28:16.420 --> 00:28:19.559
 this whole

00:28:19.559 --> 00:28:21.640
 time that

00:28:21.640 --> 00:28:22.299
 we have

00:28:22.299 --> 00:28:22.920
 on earth

00:28:22.920 --> 00:28:23.920
 is just

00:28:23.920 --> 00:28:24.740
 God chasing

00:28:24.740 --> 00:28:25.299
 us,

00:28:25.539 --> 00:28:26.000
 and us

00:28:26.000 --> 00:28:26.400
 alone,

00:28:26.779 --> 00:28:27.960
 that he

00:28:27.960 --> 00:28:28.880
 wants us

00:28:28.880 --> 00:28:29.680
 to really,

00:28:29.859 --> 00:28:30.480
 really know

00:28:30.480 --> 00:28:31.160
 that we are

00:28:31.160 --> 00:28:31.940
 his child,

00:28:32.059 --> 00:28:32.819
 his child,

00:28:33.359 --> 00:28:34.279
 his precious,

00:28:34.740 --> 00:28:36.019
 beloved child,

00:28:36.160 --> 00:28:36.779
 and there's

00:28:36.779 --> 00:28:37.539
 nothing that we

00:28:37.539 --> 00:28:38.259
 can do,

00:28:39.259 --> 00:28:40.160
 wrong or

00:28:40.160 --> 00:28:40.539
 right,

00:28:41.160 --> 00:28:42.019
 that would

00:28:42.019 --> 00:28:43.940
 make him

00:28:43.940 --> 00:28:44.460
 love us

00:28:44.460 --> 00:28:45.240
 any more

00:28:45.240 --> 00:28:45.859
 or less.

00:28:47.079 --> 00:28:47.460
 And just

00:28:47.460 --> 00:28:48.220
 reminding of

00:28:48.220 --> 00:28:49.019
 that truth

00:28:49.019 --> 00:28:50.440
 then puts

00:28:50.440 --> 00:28:51.220
 everything into

00:28:51.220 --> 00:28:51.740
 perspective,

00:28:52.400 --> 00:28:53.519
 that even

00:28:53.519 --> 00:28:55.319
 if he

00:28:55.319 --> 00:28:56.240
 gave me

00:28:56.240 --> 00:28:57.160
 what I

00:28:57.160 --> 00:28:57.599
 wanted,

00:28:58.599 --> 00:28:59.019
 that that

00:28:59.019 --> 00:28:59.819
 isn't what

00:28:59.819 --> 00:29:00.799
 he wants

00:29:00.799 --> 00:29:01.299
 from us,

00:29:01.359 --> 00:29:01.740
 that we

00:29:01.740 --> 00:29:02.359
 just go

00:29:02.359 --> 00:29:03.099
 and ask,

00:29:03.779 --> 00:29:04.299
 but we

00:29:04.299 --> 00:29:04.779
 go and

00:29:04.779 --> 00:29:05.319
 ask in

00:29:05.319 --> 00:29:06.000
 acknowledgement

00:29:06.000 --> 00:29:06.660
 of who

00:29:06.660 --> 00:29:07.059
 we are,

00:29:07.099 --> 00:29:07.359
 that we

00:29:07.359 --> 00:29:07.960
 are beloved,

00:29:08.559 --> 00:29:09.180
 and that's

00:29:09.180 --> 00:29:09.559
 all that

00:29:09.559 --> 00:29:10.019
 matters,

00:29:10.019 --> 00:29:11.619
 that's

00:29:11.619 --> 00:29:12.160
 what God

00:29:12.160 --> 00:29:12.839
 cares about

00:29:12.839 --> 00:29:13.660
 most,

00:29:13.940 --> 00:29:14.359
 not to

00:29:14.359 --> 00:29:14.740
 just

00:29:14.740 --> 00:29:15.119
 fulfill

00:29:15.119 --> 00:29:15.519
 our

00:29:15.519 --> 00:29:16.180
 desires,

00:29:16.660 --> 00:29:17.220
 but for

00:29:17.220 --> 00:29:17.680
 us to

00:29:17.680 --> 00:29:18.119
 desire

00:29:18.119 --> 00:29:18.819
 him as

00:29:18.819 --> 00:29:19.039
 our

00:29:19.039 --> 00:29:19.379
 father.

00:29:21.379 --> 00:29:21.940
 Thank you.

00:29:22.099 --> 00:29:22.279
 Can we

00:29:22.279 --> 00:29:22.579
 give her a

00:29:22.579 --> 00:29:22.839
 round of

00:29:22.839 --> 00:29:23.099
 applause?

00:29:28.180 --> 00:29:28.720
 If you

00:29:28.720 --> 00:29:29.200
 join me in

00:29:29.200 --> 00:29:29.559
 just praying

00:29:29.559 --> 00:29:30.000
 these words

00:29:30.000 --> 00:29:30.319
 with me,

00:29:30.599 --> 00:29:30.799
 Psalm

00:29:30.799 --> 00:29:31.660
 121.

00:29:33.000 --> 00:29:33.680
 I lift

00:29:33.680 --> 00:29:34.059
 up my

00:29:34.059 --> 00:29:34.599
 eyes to

00:29:34.599 --> 00:29:35.019
 the hills,

00:29:35.740 --> 00:29:36.980
 from where

00:29:36.980 --> 00:29:37.420
 does my

00:29:37.420 --> 00:29:37.879
 help come

00:29:37.879 --> 00:29:38.160
 from?

00:29:38.160 --> 00:29:39.820
 My help

00:29:39.820 --> 00:29:40.259
 comes from

00:29:40.259 --> 00:29:40.640
 the Lord,

00:29:41.160 --> 00:29:41.800
 who made

00:29:41.800 --> 00:29:43.040
 heaven and

00:29:43.040 --> 00:29:43.279
 earth.

00:29:44.560 --> 00:29:45.140
 He will

00:29:45.140 --> 00:29:45.500
 not let

00:29:45.500 --> 00:29:45.900
 your foot

00:29:45.900 --> 00:29:46.400
 be moved.

00:29:46.840 --> 00:29:47.140
 He who

00:29:47.140 --> 00:29:47.640
 keeps you

00:29:47.640 --> 00:29:48.080
 will not

00:29:48.080 --> 00:29:48.480
 slumber.

00:29:49.540 --> 00:29:49.960
 Behold,

00:29:50.080 --> 00:29:50.480
 he who

00:29:50.480 --> 00:29:51.200
 keeps Israel

00:29:51.200 --> 00:29:51.700
 will neither

00:29:51.700 --> 00:29:52.519
 slumber nor

00:29:52.519 --> 00:29:52.900
 sleep.

00:29:53.980 --> 00:29:54.500
 The Lord

00:29:54.500 --> 00:29:54.940
 is your

00:29:54.940 --> 00:29:55.240
 keeper.

00:29:56.060 --> 00:29:56.560
 The Lord

00:29:56.560 --> 00:29:56.920
 is your

00:29:56.920 --> 00:29:57.580
 shade on

00:29:57.580 --> 00:29:58.040
 your right

00:29:58.040 --> 00:29:58.320
 hand.

00:29:59.259 --> 00:29:59.800
 The sun

00:29:59.800 --> 00:30:00.320
 shall not

00:30:00.320 --> 00:30:00.860
 strike you

00:30:00.860 --> 00:30:01.340
 by day

00:30:01.340 --> 00:30:01.820
 nor the

00:30:01.820 --> 00:30:02.080
 moon

00:30:02.080 --> 00:30:02.620
 by night.

00:30:03.180 --> 00:30:03.600
 The Lord

00:30:03.600 --> 00:30:04.080
 will keep

00:30:04.080 --> 00:30:04.420
 you from

00:30:04.420 --> 00:30:04.940
 all evil.

00:30:05.120 --> 00:30:05.400
 He will

00:30:05.400 --> 00:30:06.019
 keep your

00:30:06.019 --> 00:30:06.320
 life.

00:30:06.319 --> 00:30:07.779
 the Lord

00:30:07.779 --> 00:30:08.220
 will keep

00:30:08.220 --> 00:30:08.679
 your going

00:30:08.679 --> 00:30:09.139
 out and

00:30:09.139 --> 00:30:09.559
 your coming

00:30:09.559 --> 00:30:10.079
 in from

00:30:10.079 --> 00:30:10.639
 this time

00:30:10.639 --> 00:30:12.539
 forth and

00:30:12.539 --> 00:30:13.119
 forevermore.

00:30:17.759 --> 00:30:18.299
 These are

00:30:18.299 --> 00:30:18.679
 the words

00:30:18.679 --> 00:30:19.399
 of the

00:30:19.399 --> 00:30:19.960
 psalmist in

00:30:19.960 --> 00:30:20.279
 Psalm

00:30:20.279 --> 00:30:21.240
 121.

00:30:22.919 --> 00:30:23.599
 This is our

00:30:23.599 --> 00:30:24.240
 final song of

00:30:24.240 --> 00:30:24.779
 ascent in

00:30:24.779 --> 00:30:25.339
 this series.

00:30:27.299 --> 00:30:27.980
 This is a

00:30:27.980 --> 00:30:28.519
 very well-known

00:30:28.519 --> 00:30:28.720
 one.

00:30:28.859 --> 00:30:29.079
 In fact,

00:30:29.139 --> 00:30:29.379
 actually,

00:30:29.439 --> 00:30:29.779
 if you talk

00:30:29.779 --> 00:30:30.339
 about the

00:30:30.339 --> 00:30:30.659
 well-known

00:30:30.659 --> 00:30:31.099
 psalms that

00:30:31.099 --> 00:30:31.559
 people use

00:30:31.559 --> 00:30:32.099
 to memorize,

00:30:32.259 --> 00:30:32.500
 it's probably

00:30:32.500 --> 00:30:33.159
 Psalm 23,

00:30:33.740 --> 00:30:34.439
 Psalm 46,

00:30:34.799 --> 00:30:35.200
 and then

00:30:35.200 --> 00:30:36.259
 Psalm 121.

00:30:37.319 --> 00:30:38.099
 You've heard

00:30:38.099 --> 00:30:38.539
 this before.

00:30:38.720 --> 00:30:39.279
 I lift up

00:30:39.279 --> 00:30:39.919
 my eyes to

00:30:39.919 --> 00:30:40.299
 the hills.

00:30:40.419 --> 00:30:40.839
 From where

00:30:40.839 --> 00:30:41.399
 does my

00:30:41.399 --> 00:30:42.659
 help come

00:30:42.659 --> 00:30:42.960
 from?

00:30:43.059 --> 00:30:43.559
 My help

00:30:43.559 --> 00:30:44.000
 comes from

00:30:44.000 --> 00:30:44.439
 the Lord

00:30:44.439 --> 00:30:45.519
 who made

00:30:45.519 --> 00:30:46.819
 heaven and

00:30:46.819 --> 00:30:47.099
 earth.

00:30:48.339 --> 00:30:49.000
 Some people

00:30:49.000 --> 00:30:49.399
 call this

00:30:49.399 --> 00:30:49.839
 Psalm the

00:30:49.839 --> 00:30:50.359
 Psalm of

00:30:50.359 --> 00:30:50.960
 the sojourner,

00:30:51.179 --> 00:30:51.720
 the Psalm of

00:30:51.720 --> 00:30:52.139
 the person

00:30:52.139 --> 00:30:52.559
 who just

00:30:52.559 --> 00:30:53.759
 journeys in

00:30:53.759 --> 00:30:54.099
 life.

00:30:54.179 --> 00:30:54.899
 Life is

00:30:54.899 --> 00:30:55.259
 hard, and

00:30:55.259 --> 00:30:55.500
 there's an

00:30:55.500 --> 00:30:56.139
 anxiety that

00:30:56.139 --> 00:30:56.480
 comes of

00:30:56.480 --> 00:30:57.099
 this as

00:30:57.099 --> 00:30:57.279
 they're

00:30:57.279 --> 00:30:58.099
 walking and

00:30:58.099 --> 00:30:58.319
 they're

00:30:58.319 --> 00:30:58.839
 seeing the

00:30:58.839 --> 00:30:59.179
 hills.

00:30:59.679 --> 00:31:00.119
 Now, just

00:31:00.119 --> 00:31:01.720
 a reminder,

00:31:01.939 --> 00:31:02.359
 walking in

00:31:02.359 --> 00:31:02.740
 the hills

00:31:02.740 --> 00:31:03.279
 those days

00:31:03.279 --> 00:31:03.919
 was not like

00:31:03.919 --> 00:31:04.639
 walking in

00:31:04.639 --> 00:31:05.119
 Dragon's Back

00:31:05.119 --> 00:31:05.839
 for hiking or

00:31:05.839 --> 00:31:06.279
 Lion Rock.

00:31:06.319 --> 00:31:06.639
 here in

00:31:06.639 --> 00:31:07.019
 Hong Kong,

00:31:07.179 --> 00:31:07.599
 when you're

00:31:07.599 --> 00:31:08.019
 walking the

00:31:08.019 --> 00:31:08.500
 hills back

00:31:08.500 --> 00:31:08.859
 in those

00:31:08.859 --> 00:31:09.519
 days, there

00:31:09.519 --> 00:31:10.079
 was danger.

00:31:10.679 --> 00:31:11.000
 There were

00:31:11.000 --> 00:31:11.379
 thieves.

00:31:12.299 --> 00:31:12.839
 That's where

00:31:12.839 --> 00:31:13.480
 even the

00:31:13.480 --> 00:31:13.859
 parable of

00:31:13.859 --> 00:31:14.099
 the Good

00:31:14.099 --> 00:31:14.480
 Samaritan

00:31:14.480 --> 00:31:14.980
 comes, because

00:31:14.980 --> 00:31:15.419
 someone is

00:31:15.419 --> 00:31:16.559
 walking through

00:31:16.559 --> 00:31:17.240
 and ends

00:31:17.240 --> 00:31:17.519
 up getting

00:31:17.519 --> 00:31:17.839
 jumped.

00:31:18.599 --> 00:31:19.740
 So I

00:31:19.740 --> 00:31:20.720
 lift my

00:31:20.720 --> 00:31:21.159
 eyes up to

00:31:21.159 --> 00:31:21.500
 the hills.

00:31:21.599 --> 00:31:21.899
 Where does

00:31:21.899 --> 00:31:22.359
 my help

00:31:22.359 --> 00:31:22.859
 come from?

00:31:22.859 --> 00:31:25.240
 God, I

00:31:25.240 --> 00:31:25.859
 do not

00:31:25.859 --> 00:31:26.859
 go to

00:31:26.859 --> 00:31:26.899
 God, this

00:31:26.899 --> 00:31:28.059
 journey, this

00:31:28.059 --> 00:31:28.599
 journey is

00:31:28.599 --> 00:31:29.319
 hard, it's

00:31:29.319 --> 00:31:29.979
 long, I

00:31:29.979 --> 00:31:30.599
 can't even

00:31:30.599 --> 00:31:31.219
 see around

00:31:31.219 --> 00:31:31.679
 the corners,

00:31:31.919 --> 00:31:32.399
 I don't even

00:31:32.399 --> 00:31:33.019
 know if

00:31:33.019 --> 00:31:33.500
 there's something

00:31:33.500 --> 00:31:33.859
 that's going

00:31:33.859 --> 00:31:34.240
 to be out

00:31:34.240 --> 00:31:34.859
 there for

00:31:34.859 --> 00:31:35.079
 me.

00:31:36.079 --> 00:31:36.479
 And the

00:31:36.479 --> 00:31:36.919
 psalmist is

00:31:36.919 --> 00:31:37.279
 reminding

00:31:37.279 --> 00:31:38.279
 himself, I

00:31:38.279 --> 00:31:38.740
 lift up my

00:31:38.740 --> 00:31:39.179
 eyes to the

00:31:39.179 --> 00:31:39.599
 hills, from

00:31:39.599 --> 00:31:40.599
 where does my

00:31:40.599 --> 00:31:41.000
 help come

00:31:41.000 --> 00:31:41.219
 from?

00:31:41.259 --> 00:31:41.599
 And then he

00:31:41.599 --> 00:31:41.939
 answers

00:31:41.939 --> 00:31:43.359
 himself, my

00:31:43.359 --> 00:31:43.839
 help comes

00:31:43.839 --> 00:31:44.119
 from the

00:31:44.119 --> 00:31:45.539
 Lord, who

00:31:45.539 --> 00:31:46.240
 made heaven

00:31:46.240 --> 00:31:47.159
 and earth.

00:31:47.159 --> 00:31:47.639
 I'll tell you

00:31:47.640 --> 00:31:48.000
 what that

00:31:48.000 --> 00:31:48.420
 means, that

00:31:48.420 --> 00:31:50.500
 means there

00:31:50.500 --> 00:31:51.120
 is no hill I

00:31:51.120 --> 00:31:51.460
 need to be

00:31:51.460 --> 00:31:51.920
 afraid of.

00:31:52.780 --> 00:31:53.400
 This guy

00:31:53.400 --> 00:31:54.100
 made heaven

00:31:54.100 --> 00:31:54.980
 and earth, I

00:31:54.980 --> 00:31:55.160
 don't have to

00:31:55.160 --> 00:31:55.800
 be afraid of

00:31:55.800 --> 00:31:56.420
 storms because

00:31:56.420 --> 00:31:57.460
 he can stop

00:31:57.460 --> 00:31:58.120
 the storm just

00:31:58.120 --> 00:31:58.620
 like that.

00:31:59.440 --> 00:31:59.960
 It's that

00:31:59.960 --> 00:32:00.380
 person.

00:32:01.600 --> 00:32:02.060
 Do you have

00:32:02.060 --> 00:32:02.759
 anxiety as

00:32:02.759 --> 00:32:03.480
 you walk this

00:32:03.480 --> 00:32:04.160
 life and this

00:32:04.160 --> 00:32:04.580
 journey that

00:32:04.580 --> 00:32:04.920
 you're on?

00:32:04.980 --> 00:32:05.160
 You're like,

00:32:05.740 --> 00:32:06.580
 where is my

00:32:06.580 --> 00:32:07.120
 help going to

00:32:07.120 --> 00:32:07.620
 come from?

00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:08.460
 Then this is

00:32:08.460 --> 00:32:08.960
 the prayer that

00:32:08.960 --> 00:32:09.480
 you remind

00:32:09.480 --> 00:32:10.060
 yourself with,

00:32:10.440 --> 00:32:11.320
 I lift up my

00:32:11.320 --> 00:32:11.820
 eyes to the

00:32:11.820 --> 00:32:12.200
 hills, from

00:32:12.200 --> 00:32:12.759
 where does my

00:32:12.759 --> 00:32:13.400
 help come from?

00:32:13.460 --> 00:32:13.900
 My help

00:32:13.900 --> 00:32:15.240
 comes from the

00:32:15.240 --> 00:32:16.320
 Lord, who

00:32:16.320 --> 00:32:16.960
 made heaven

00:32:16.960 --> 00:32:18.720
 and earth

00:32:18.720 --> 00:32:20.259
 and he

00:32:20.259 --> 00:32:20.799
 will not let

00:32:20.799 --> 00:32:21.539
 my foot be

00:32:21.539 --> 00:32:21.819
 moved.

00:32:23.200 --> 00:32:23.620
 Ken and I

00:32:23.620 --> 00:32:24.120
 will know this

00:32:24.120 --> 00:32:24.579
 through our

00:32:24.579 --> 00:32:25.319
 injury that we

00:32:25.319 --> 00:32:26.279
 had in the

00:32:26.279 --> 00:32:26.819
 early days when

00:32:26.819 --> 00:32:27.160
 we had the

00:32:27.160 --> 00:32:27.440
 crutches.

00:32:27.880 --> 00:32:28.480
 Actually, there

00:32:28.480 --> 00:32:28.880
 was danger,

00:32:28.960 --> 00:32:29.140
 there was

00:32:29.140 --> 00:32:29.420
 slipping,

00:32:29.779 --> 00:32:30.380
 especially in

00:32:30.380 --> 00:32:30.640
 the rainy

00:32:30.640 --> 00:32:30.980
 season,

00:32:31.079 --> 00:32:31.220
 right?

00:32:32.680 --> 00:32:33.819
 But there's

00:32:33.819 --> 00:32:34.940
 someone who

00:32:34.940 --> 00:32:35.440
 actually won't

00:32:35.440 --> 00:32:36.240
 let me slip,

00:32:37.600 --> 00:32:38.000
 who won't let

00:32:38.000 --> 00:32:40.319
 me fall and

00:32:40.319 --> 00:32:41.140
 he won't slumber

00:32:41.140 --> 00:32:41.799
 nor sleep.

00:32:42.279 --> 00:32:42.700
 And one of the

00:32:42.700 --> 00:32:43.059
 things the

00:32:43.059 --> 00:32:43.880
 doctors told us

00:32:43.880 --> 00:32:44.559
 was when you

00:32:44.559 --> 00:32:45.420
 sleep in the

00:32:45.420 --> 00:32:45.819
 early days,

00:32:45.860 --> 00:32:46.279
 you have to

00:32:46.279 --> 00:32:46.660
 lift your

00:32:46.660 --> 00:32:46.880
 foot.

00:32:46.960 --> 00:32:47.420
 Right up.

00:32:48.340 --> 00:32:48.740
 You have to

00:32:48.740 --> 00:32:49.120
 lift it up

00:32:49.120 --> 00:32:49.480
 because all

00:32:49.480 --> 00:32:49.799
 the blood

00:32:49.799 --> 00:32:51.779
 cannot clot

00:32:51.779 --> 00:32:52.220
 up in the

00:32:52.220 --> 00:32:52.620
 leg area.

00:32:53.000 --> 00:32:53.799
 So I put a

00:32:53.799 --> 00:32:54.420
 couple pillows

00:32:54.420 --> 00:32:55.360
 under my

00:32:55.360 --> 00:32:55.920
 feet as I

00:32:55.920 --> 00:32:56.180
 sleep.

00:32:56.460 --> 00:32:56.700
 But of

00:32:56.700 --> 00:32:57.340
 course, the

00:32:57.340 --> 00:32:57.740
 moment I

00:32:57.740 --> 00:32:58.259
 fall asleep,

00:32:58.660 --> 00:32:59.579
 I'm a

00:32:59.579 --> 00:33:00.120
 martial arts

00:33:00.120 --> 00:33:00.840
 expert during

00:33:00.840 --> 00:33:01.640
 my sleeping

00:33:01.640 --> 00:33:01.960
 time.

00:33:02.480 --> 00:33:02.960
 So by the

00:33:02.960 --> 00:33:03.440
 time I'm

00:33:03.440 --> 00:33:03.720
 done, the

00:33:03.720 --> 00:33:04.160
 cushion's

00:33:04.160 --> 00:33:04.779
 completely

00:33:04.779 --> 00:33:05.200
 somewhere else.

00:33:05.299 --> 00:33:05.500
 Well, actually

00:33:05.500 --> 00:33:05.740
 no, my

00:33:05.740 --> 00:33:06.120
 wife's kicked

00:33:06.120 --> 00:33:06.420
 me out of

00:33:06.420 --> 00:33:06.799
 bed by then.

00:33:07.019 --> 00:33:07.680
 So I'm in

00:33:07.680 --> 00:33:07.880
 the other

00:33:07.880 --> 00:33:08.240
 room anyway.

00:33:08.559 --> 00:33:10.660
 But the

00:33:10.660 --> 00:33:11.039
 one who

00:33:11.039 --> 00:33:11.579
 keeps my

00:33:11.579 --> 00:33:12.160
 foot, the

00:33:12.160 --> 00:33:12.420
 one who

00:33:12.420 --> 00:33:12.920
 looks after

00:33:12.920 --> 00:33:13.380
 me, does

00:33:13.380 --> 00:33:13.920
 not slumber

00:33:13.920 --> 00:33:14.980
 nor sleep.

00:33:15.279 --> 00:33:16.259
 It's 24-7.

00:33:16.259 --> 00:33:17.379
 He's

00:33:17.379 --> 00:33:19.420
 always there.

00:33:20.299 --> 00:33:20.619
 And the

00:33:20.619 --> 00:33:21.039
 Lord is your

00:33:21.039 --> 00:33:21.279
 keeper.

00:33:21.400 --> 00:33:21.720
 He is your

00:33:21.720 --> 00:33:22.720
 shade on your

00:33:22.720 --> 00:33:23.279
 right hand.

00:33:23.500 --> 00:33:24.460
 So the

00:33:24.460 --> 00:33:25.000
 sun won't

00:33:25.000 --> 00:33:25.539
 strike you,

00:33:25.720 --> 00:33:26.180
 nor the

00:33:26.180 --> 00:33:26.799
 moon by

00:33:26.799 --> 00:33:27.259
 night.

00:33:27.259 --> 00:33:29.279
 Do you

00:33:29.279 --> 00:33:29.759
 believe that?

00:33:30.000 --> 00:33:30.339
 That there

00:33:30.339 --> 00:33:30.799
 is a God

00:33:30.799 --> 00:33:31.839
 who is

00:33:31.839 --> 00:33:32.319
 with you

00:33:32.319 --> 00:33:34.140
 every step

00:33:34.140 --> 00:33:34.539
 of the way

00:33:34.539 --> 00:33:36.059
 that is

00:33:36.059 --> 00:33:38.180
 sovereign over

00:33:38.180 --> 00:33:38.680
 everything that

00:33:38.680 --> 00:33:39.019
 you're going

00:33:39.019 --> 00:33:41.019
 through, even

00:33:41.019 --> 00:33:42.619
 the pain, even

00:33:42.619 --> 00:33:43.379
 the uncertainty,

00:33:44.579 --> 00:33:45.240
 even if you

00:33:45.240 --> 00:33:45.799
 don't know what

00:33:45.799 --> 00:33:46.500
 is just around

00:33:46.500 --> 00:33:47.140
 the corner on

00:33:47.140 --> 00:33:48.599
 that hill, he

00:33:48.599 --> 00:33:49.799
 is there with

00:33:49.799 --> 00:33:49.960
 you.

00:33:50.680 --> 00:33:51.200
 Now, there's

00:33:51.200 --> 00:33:51.640
 an equivalent

00:33:51.640 --> 00:33:52.819
 prayer in the

00:33:52.819 --> 00:33:53.279
 New Testament

00:33:53.279 --> 00:33:54.000
 that is very

00:33:54.000 --> 00:33:54.519
 quite similar.

00:33:54.519 --> 00:33:55.319
 It's probably

00:33:55.319 --> 00:33:55.779
 one of the

00:33:55.779 --> 00:33:56.819
 most well-known

00:33:56.819 --> 00:33:57.460
 passages in the

00:33:57.460 --> 00:33:58.119
 New Testament, and

00:33:58.119 --> 00:33:58.740
 that's Philippians

00:33:58.740 --> 00:34:00.279
 4, verse 4-7.

00:34:01.000 --> 00:34:01.319
 And it is,

00:34:01.400 --> 00:34:01.740
 Do not be

00:34:01.740 --> 00:34:02.220
 anxious about

00:34:02.220 --> 00:34:03.680
 anything, but

00:34:03.680 --> 00:34:04.400
 in everything, by

00:34:04.400 --> 00:34:04.839
 prayer and

00:34:04.839 --> 00:34:05.759
 supplication, with

00:34:05.759 --> 00:34:06.940
 thanksgiving, let

00:34:06.940 --> 00:34:07.799
 your requests be

00:34:07.799 --> 00:34:08.960
 made known to

00:34:08.960 --> 00:34:09.159
 God.

00:34:10.159 --> 00:34:10.579
 Do not be

00:34:10.579 --> 00:34:11.559
 anxious about

00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:13.900
 anything, but in

00:34:13.900 --> 00:34:14.400
 prayer and

00:34:14.400 --> 00:34:15.039
 supplication,

00:34:15.579 --> 00:34:16.599
 supplication means

00:34:16.599 --> 00:34:17.619
 to ask for

00:34:17.619 --> 00:34:18.539
 things, earnestly,

00:34:18.699 --> 00:34:19.079
 sincerely,

00:34:19.519 --> 00:34:20.239
 persistently.

00:34:20.599 --> 00:34:21.039
 John Calvin

00:34:21.039 --> 00:34:21.739
 says, keep

00:34:21.739 --> 00:34:22.399
 asking, two

00:34:22.399 --> 00:34:22.919
 times, three

00:34:22.919 --> 00:34:23.299
 times, a

00:34:23.299 --> 00:34:23.919
 hundred times.

00:34:24.219 --> 00:34:24.739
 That is the

00:34:24.739 --> 00:34:25.239
 nature of

00:34:25.239 --> 00:34:26.039
 prayer, to

00:34:26.039 --> 00:34:27.019
 keep going, just

00:34:27.019 --> 00:34:27.259
 like the

00:34:27.259 --> 00:34:27.919
 persistent widow

00:34:27.919 --> 00:34:28.339
 that Jesus

00:34:28.339 --> 00:34:29.379
 talks about, just

00:34:29.379 --> 00:34:30.779
 keep asking.

00:34:31.699 --> 00:34:32.719
 Now, yes, some

00:34:32.719 --> 00:34:33.279
 of those prayers

00:34:33.279 --> 00:34:34.019
 you don't think

00:34:34.019 --> 00:34:34.719
 get answered.

00:34:35.979 --> 00:34:36.379
 And I don't

00:34:36.379 --> 00:34:36.739
 want to say

00:34:36.739 --> 00:34:37.099
 this in a

00:34:37.099 --> 00:34:37.739
 cliche, cheap

00:34:37.739 --> 00:34:38.799
 kind of way, but

00:34:38.799 --> 00:34:39.399
 I can tell you

00:34:39.399 --> 00:34:40.000
 by my own

00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:41.419
 testimony that

00:34:41.419 --> 00:34:41.859
 actually some

00:34:41.859 --> 00:34:42.659
 of the Lord's

00:34:42.659 --> 00:34:43.619
 greatest refusals

00:34:43.619 --> 00:34:44.319
 of my prayer

00:34:44.319 --> 00:34:45.259
 actually ended up

00:34:45.259 --> 00:34:46.019
 being the things

00:34:46.019 --> 00:34:46.479
 that I really

00:34:46.479 --> 00:34:46.759
 needed.

00:34:47.000 --> 00:34:47.519
 God doesn't

00:34:47.519 --> 00:34:48.059
 give you what

00:34:48.059 --> 00:34:48.579
 you want, he

00:34:48.579 --> 00:34:49.659
 gives you what

00:34:49.659 --> 00:34:50.139
 you need and

00:34:50.139 --> 00:34:50.879
 what you need

00:34:50.879 --> 00:34:52.500
 the most is

00:34:52.500 --> 00:34:52.920
 to be with

00:34:52.920 --> 00:34:53.099
 him.

00:34:54.339 --> 00:34:55.039
 And I don't

00:34:55.039 --> 00:34:55.659
 say this

00:34:55.659 --> 00:34:56.839
 cheaply.

00:34:57.579 --> 00:34:58.400
 I say this as

00:34:58.400 --> 00:34:58.940
 someone who has

00:34:58.940 --> 00:34:59.799
 lost loved

00:34:59.799 --> 00:35:00.039
 ones.

00:35:00.319 --> 00:35:00.839
 I say this as

00:35:00.839 --> 00:35:01.199
 someone who

00:35:01.199 --> 00:35:02.199
 has seen

00:35:02.199 --> 00:35:02.980
 their children

00:35:02.980 --> 00:35:04.139
 in ICU.

00:35:05.539 --> 00:35:06.199
 And the Lord

00:35:06.199 --> 00:35:06.799
 doesn't seem to

00:35:06.799 --> 00:35:07.339
 be quick to

00:35:07.339 --> 00:35:07.619
 answer.

00:35:09.159 --> 00:35:10.000
 So I know, and

00:35:10.000 --> 00:35:10.639
 I don't say

00:35:10.639 --> 00:35:12.460
 this without a

00:35:12.460 --> 00:35:13.119
 sensitivity of

00:35:13.119 --> 00:35:13.699
 that, but what

00:35:13.699 --> 00:35:14.379
 I do, so I

00:35:14.379 --> 00:35:14.980
 don't know why

00:35:14.980 --> 00:35:15.460
 sometimes he

00:35:15.460 --> 00:35:15.980
 doesn't answer,

00:35:16.239 --> 00:35:17.099
 but I do know

00:35:17.099 --> 00:35:18.219
 who he is.

00:35:18.219 --> 00:35:20.459
 And he is

00:35:20.459 --> 00:35:20.839
 the one that

00:35:20.839 --> 00:35:21.399
 keeps us, who

00:35:21.399 --> 00:35:21.679
 does not

00:35:21.679 --> 00:35:23.319
 slumber nor

00:35:23.319 --> 00:35:23.619
 sleep.

00:35:24.339 --> 00:35:24.739
 And so we

00:35:24.739 --> 00:35:25.399
 go to him and

00:35:25.399 --> 00:35:27.379
 we pray and

00:35:27.379 --> 00:35:30.699
 we ask, mostly

00:35:30.699 --> 00:35:31.599
 saying that we

00:35:31.599 --> 00:35:32.359
 trust you, God,

00:35:32.419 --> 00:35:33.079
 that you are

00:35:33.079 --> 00:35:34.539
 sovereign over

00:35:34.539 --> 00:35:35.879
 us.

00:35:37.139 --> 00:35:37.399
 That whether

00:35:37.399 --> 00:35:39.259
 you are my

00:35:39.259 --> 00:35:39.959
 keeper, even in

00:35:39.959 --> 00:35:40.679
 my going out and

00:35:40.679 --> 00:35:41.139
 in my coming

00:35:41.139 --> 00:35:41.619
 in, that you

00:35:41.619 --> 00:35:42.539
 are just always

00:35:42.539 --> 00:35:43.639
 with us.

00:35:43.639 --> 00:35:44.879
 So then the

00:35:44.879 --> 00:35:45.420
 question becomes

00:35:45.420 --> 00:35:46.059
 how do we

00:35:46.059 --> 00:35:47.000
 pray or what

00:35:47.000 --> 00:35:47.839
 do we pray

00:35:47.839 --> 00:35:48.319
 for?

00:35:48.440 --> 00:35:48.839
 There's two

00:35:48.839 --> 00:35:49.719
 kinds of prayer

00:35:49.719 --> 00:35:50.400
 of supplication

00:35:50.400 --> 00:35:50.859
 that I want to

00:35:50.859 --> 00:35:51.579
 briefly talk about

00:35:51.579 --> 00:35:52.379
 and one is

00:35:52.379 --> 00:35:52.739
 petition.

00:35:53.579 --> 00:35:54.119
 Petition is

00:35:54.119 --> 00:35:54.559
 basically you

00:35:54.559 --> 00:35:55.099
 going to God

00:35:55.099 --> 00:35:55.879
 and asking for

00:35:55.879 --> 00:35:57.379
 things for you.

00:35:58.400 --> 00:35:58.940
 Okay, so that

00:35:58.940 --> 00:35:59.940
 could be, God, I've

00:35:59.940 --> 00:36:00.519
 just got all this

00:36:00.519 --> 00:36:01.239
 anxiety, I've got

00:36:01.239 --> 00:36:02.400
 all this pain, I've

00:36:02.400 --> 00:36:03.139
 got all this hurt,

00:36:03.699 --> 00:36:05.159
 can you free me of

00:36:05.159 --> 00:36:05.539
 these things?

00:36:05.659 --> 00:36:06.719
 I want to be a

00:36:06.719 --> 00:36:07.779
 better person, but

00:36:07.779 --> 00:36:08.460
 I know I can't

00:36:08.460 --> 00:36:09.400
 get there without

00:36:09.400 --> 00:36:09.719
 you.

00:36:10.980 --> 00:36:12.420
 It's, God, I

00:36:12.420 --> 00:36:12.839
 really need a

00:36:12.840 --> 00:36:13.420
 parking space

00:36:13.420 --> 00:36:13.960
 right now because

00:36:13.960 --> 00:36:14.400
 I'm running late

00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:15.140
 and I think, God,

00:36:15.200 --> 00:36:16.180
 would you give me

00:36:16.180 --> 00:36:16.640
 a parking space?

00:36:18.380 --> 00:36:19.380
 God, I really,

00:36:20.140 --> 00:36:21.680
 that thing I could

00:36:21.680 --> 00:36:22.260
 really do with that

00:36:22.260 --> 00:36:22.720
 project coming

00:36:22.720 --> 00:36:22.940
 through.

00:36:23.340 --> 00:36:23.740
 Now, of course,

00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:24.120
 we've got to

00:36:24.120 --> 00:36:24.660
 search our hearts

00:36:24.660 --> 00:36:25.480
 and go, is that

00:36:25.480 --> 00:36:26.140
 for me or is that

00:36:26.140 --> 00:36:27.019
 for his glory?

00:36:27.980 --> 00:36:28.720
 But we're allowed

00:36:28.720 --> 00:36:29.420
 to ask these

00:36:29.420 --> 00:36:30.140
 questions to him

00:36:30.140 --> 00:36:30.940
 and that is

00:36:30.940 --> 00:36:31.260
 petition.

00:36:32.340 --> 00:36:32.800
 And then there

00:36:32.800 --> 00:36:33.440
 is intercession,

00:36:33.579 --> 00:36:34.280
 which is, petition

00:36:34.280 --> 00:36:34.960
 is you praying for

00:36:34.960 --> 00:36:36.420
 yourself, intercessory

00:36:36.420 --> 00:36:37.440
 prayer is you praying

00:36:37.440 --> 00:36:37.980
 for others.

00:36:39.480 --> 00:36:40.059
 You're praying for

00:36:40.059 --> 00:36:40.760
 things that are

00:36:40.760 --> 00:36:42.260
 beyond yourself.

00:36:42.840 --> 00:36:44.460
 And we could do

00:36:44.460 --> 00:36:45.440
 with both of

00:36:45.440 --> 00:36:46.000
 those prayers.

00:36:47.500 --> 00:36:48.660
 We want to pray

00:36:48.660 --> 00:36:49.220
 those kind of

00:36:49.220 --> 00:36:49.579
 prayers and I

00:36:49.579 --> 00:36:50.059
 want to give us

00:36:50.059 --> 00:36:51.140
 some time now to

00:36:51.140 --> 00:36:51.980
 pray for those

00:36:51.980 --> 00:36:52.600
 kinds of things

00:36:52.600 --> 00:36:53.880
 because even in

00:36:53.880 --> 00:36:54.460
 the Lord's prayer,

00:36:55.000 --> 00:36:55.660
 it's, God, would

00:36:55.660 --> 00:36:56.880
 you give me this?

00:36:57.260 --> 00:36:58.100
 Would you forgive

00:36:58.100 --> 00:36:58.880
 me of this?

00:36:58.960 --> 00:36:59.660
 Would you deliver

00:36:59.660 --> 00:37:00.519
 me from evil?

00:37:00.579 --> 00:37:01.320
 So even baked

00:37:01.320 --> 00:37:02.079
 into the Lord's

00:37:02.079 --> 00:37:04.220
 prayer are basically

00:37:04.220 --> 00:37:05.420
 questions asking God

00:37:05.420 --> 00:37:06.000
 for something.

00:37:07.220 --> 00:37:07.960
 And so what do we

00:37:07.960 --> 00:37:08.360
 pray for?

00:37:08.360 --> 00:37:10.180
 whether it's

00:37:10.180 --> 00:37:10.940
 petition or whether

00:37:10.940 --> 00:37:12.099
 it's intercession.

00:37:12.880 --> 00:37:13.800
 Today, given that

00:37:13.800 --> 00:37:14.440
 we're all gathered

00:37:14.440 --> 00:37:15.760
 here, I would love

00:37:15.760 --> 00:37:16.420
 for us to spend a

00:37:16.420 --> 00:37:17.620
 bit of time in

00:37:17.620 --> 00:37:18.800
 intercession to

00:37:18.800 --> 00:37:19.019
 pray.

00:37:20.420 --> 00:37:21.599
 I said this last

00:37:21.599 --> 00:37:22.099
 time and I'll

00:37:22.099 --> 00:37:22.900
 confess this again.

00:37:23.300 --> 00:37:24.720
 I watched the

00:37:24.720 --> 00:37:25.519
 presidential debate

00:37:25.519 --> 00:37:27.220
 with arms crossed,

00:37:27.960 --> 00:37:29.059
 with a smirk on my

00:37:29.059 --> 00:37:31.240
 face and somehow

00:37:31.240 --> 00:37:31.960
 if you looked at me

00:37:31.960 --> 00:37:32.500
 you'd be like, oh,

00:37:32.539 --> 00:37:33.380
 you enjoy watching

00:37:33.380 --> 00:37:34.000
 the world burn

00:37:34.000 --> 00:37:35.340
 and on fire.

00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:37.179
 And then the Lord

00:37:37.179 --> 00:37:37.739
 convicted me.

00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:38.239
 Have you ever

00:37:38.239 --> 00:37:39.940
 prayed for those

00:37:39.940 --> 00:37:40.400
 two candidates?

00:37:42.019 --> 00:37:42.659
 Have you ever

00:37:42.659 --> 00:37:43.739
 prayed for your

00:37:43.739 --> 00:37:44.039
 leaders?

00:37:45.400 --> 00:37:46.059
 Have you ever

00:37:46.059 --> 00:37:46.940
 prayed for your

00:37:46.940 --> 00:37:47.239
 boss?

00:37:48.639 --> 00:37:49.400
 Paul tells Timothy,

00:37:49.519 --> 00:37:49.960
 hey, you should

00:37:49.960 --> 00:37:51.840
 pray for the

00:37:51.840 --> 00:37:52.440
 leaders of this

00:37:52.440 --> 00:37:52.679
 world.

00:37:53.480 --> 00:37:54.079
 Have we spent

00:37:54.079 --> 00:37:55.500
 time doing that?

00:37:56.960 --> 00:37:57.940
 Have you prayed

00:37:57.940 --> 00:37:58.800
 for your enemies?

00:37:59.440 --> 00:38:00.179
 Jesus says, pray

00:38:00.179 --> 00:38:01.199
 for those who

00:38:01.199 --> 00:38:02.019
 persecute you.

00:38:02.440 --> 00:38:03.159
 We can pray for

00:38:03.159 --> 00:38:03.739
 ourselves, we can

00:38:03.739 --> 00:38:03.980
 pray for our

00:38:03.980 --> 00:38:04.519
 loved ones, we

00:38:04.519 --> 00:38:04.960
 can pray for our

00:38:04.960 --> 00:38:05.539
 friends, especially

00:38:05.539 --> 00:38:06.079
 if they're in

00:38:06.079 --> 00:38:06.500
 dire need of

00:38:06.500 --> 00:38:06.780
 something.

00:38:07.059 --> 00:38:07.719
 But do we pray

00:38:07.719 --> 00:38:09.300
 for the things

00:38:09.300 --> 00:38:10.119
 that are out

00:38:10.119 --> 00:38:10.900
 there that are

00:38:10.900 --> 00:38:11.699
 not so fun to

00:38:11.699 --> 00:38:12.039
 pray for?

00:38:12.420 --> 00:38:12.980
 So if you would

00:38:12.980 --> 00:38:13.659
 allow me, if you

00:38:13.659 --> 00:38:14.139
 would allow us,

00:38:14.219 --> 00:38:14.920
 let's spend some

00:38:14.920 --> 00:38:16.440
 time to pray for

00:38:16.440 --> 00:38:16.820
 those things.

00:38:16.880 --> 00:38:17.380
 Now I won't get

00:38:17.380 --> 00:38:17.980
 you all to turn

00:38:17.980 --> 00:38:19.380
 and pray with

00:38:19.380 --> 00:38:19.719
 each other.

00:38:20.440 --> 00:38:20.980
 Today we're

00:38:20.980 --> 00:38:21.300
 going to just

00:38:21.300 --> 00:38:22.240
 pray prayers of

00:38:22.240 --> 00:38:22.980
 supplication of

00:38:22.980 --> 00:38:25.179
 intercession to

00:38:25.179 --> 00:38:25.800
 the things that

00:38:25.800 --> 00:38:27.980
 actually are out

00:38:27.980 --> 00:38:28.880
 there that we as

00:38:28.880 --> 00:38:29.719
 believers need to

00:38:29.719 --> 00:38:30.059
 pray for.

00:38:30.860 --> 00:38:31.420
 And so the first

00:38:31.420 --> 00:38:32.639
 one is actually

00:38:32.639 --> 00:38:33.719
 to pray for

00:38:33.719 --> 00:38:34.699
 our enemies.

00:38:35.139 --> 00:38:36.000
 Now whilst I

00:38:36.000 --> 00:38:36.500
 speak and I

00:38:36.500 --> 00:38:36.919
 turn to the

00:38:36.919 --> 00:38:37.579
 verse just to

00:38:37.579 --> 00:38:38.739
 quote it to you

00:38:38.739 --> 00:38:40.559
 correctly, you can

00:38:40.559 --> 00:38:41.259
 think about enemies

00:38:41.259 --> 00:38:41.759
 right now.

00:38:42.219 --> 00:38:42.879
 Or you can think

00:38:42.879 --> 00:38:43.579
 about the people who

00:38:43.579 --> 00:38:44.439
 really frustrate you

00:38:44.439 --> 00:38:44.819
 right now.

00:38:45.179 --> 00:38:45.959
 I have some in my

00:38:45.959 --> 00:38:47.439
 head even as I am

00:38:47.439 --> 00:38:48.239
 scrolling through the

00:38:48.239 --> 00:38:48.539
 scriptures.

00:38:50.759 --> 00:38:51.619
 People that really

00:38:51.619 --> 00:38:52.079
 annoy you.

00:38:52.839 --> 00:38:53.379
 People who are

00:38:53.379 --> 00:38:54.159
 actually out to get

00:38:54.159 --> 00:38:54.379
 you.

00:38:54.380 --> 00:38:57.240
 Jesus said, you

00:38:57.240 --> 00:38:57.760
 have heard that it

00:38:57.760 --> 00:38:58.360
 was said, you

00:38:58.360 --> 00:38:58.900
 shall love your

00:38:58.900 --> 00:38:59.519
 neighbor and hate

00:38:59.519 --> 00:38:59.880
 your enemy.

00:38:59.980 --> 00:39:00.579
 But I say to

00:39:00.579 --> 00:39:01.340
 you, love your

00:39:01.340 --> 00:39:02.760
 enemies and pray

00:39:02.760 --> 00:39:04.200
 for those who

00:39:04.200 --> 00:39:04.960
 persecute you.

00:39:07.500 --> 00:39:08.599
 Actually, I'm not

00:39:08.599 --> 00:39:09.099
 doing this myself.

00:39:09.300 --> 00:39:09.720
 There's another

00:39:09.720 --> 00:39:10.539
 pastor who actually

00:39:10.539 --> 00:39:11.599
 likes to pray in

00:39:11.599 --> 00:39:12.000
 this order.

00:39:12.119 --> 00:39:13.039
 It starts with

00:39:13.039 --> 00:39:14.140
 enemies and then

00:39:14.140 --> 00:39:14.840
 it goes into

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 leaders and then

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 it goes into

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 sinners and finally

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 it's your loved

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 ones and your

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 friends.

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 So let's pray.

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 If you would

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 join me now,

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 let's spend a few

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 moments to pray

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 for your enemies.

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 Pray for those

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 who have hurt you.

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 Pray for those

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 who are threatening

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 you.

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 Pray for those

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 who frustrate you.

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 Let us spend

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 some time now and

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 pray for those who

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 persecute us.

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 Lord, we pray for

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 those who have

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 hurt us, who are

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 hurting us, those

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 who we perceive as

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 enemies, those who

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 frustrate us.

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 Lord, we muster up

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 every piece of

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 courage that we

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 have inside us and

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 we pray that you

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 would bless them,

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 that you would

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 keep them safe,

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 that they would

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 know the warmth

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 of your embrace,

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 that any hurt and

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 brokenness that is

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 within them, that

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 causes hurt and

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 brokenness in others

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 and other people,

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 we pray that you

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 would heal and you

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 would restore them.

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 And we find the

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 courage to pray that

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 prayer from the

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 cross.

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 As Jesus, when you

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 asked God to

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 forgive them

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 because they know

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 not what they do,

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 remembering that we

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 once were enemies,

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 that we didn't know

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 what we would do.

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 And Lord, can you

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 soften our hearts

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 towards them?

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 Can you be our

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 protector, but can you

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 also be theirs?

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 Can you be their

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 comforter, just as you

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 are our comforter?

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 Help us to see them

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 as you see them.

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 Help us to forgive

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 them.

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 Help us to be

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 gracious and

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 compassionate and

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 slow to anger towards

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 them.

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 moment.

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 and then Paul tells Timothy

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 first of all then I urge that supplications

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 prayers, intercessions and thanksgivings

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 be made for all people

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 for kings and all

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 who are in high positions

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 that we may lead a peaceful

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 and quiet life, godly and dignified

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 in every way

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 let's spend a few moments now and pray for the leaders

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 in your circle

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 in this city

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 let's pray for John Lee

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 let's pray for President Xi

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 let's pray for Donald Trump

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 let's pray for Kamala Harris

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 let's pray for the leaders of this world

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 so Lord we lift up the leaders of this world to you

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 we know that mankind is made in your image

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 that we know that we have chosen our own way

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 that we all fall short of your glory

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 Lord there is no system that is perfect

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 because there are no people that are perfect

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 we know that every system is broken

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 because people are broken

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 Lord we appeal to you

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 God almighty

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 still sovereign and on your throne

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 the kingdoms rise and kingdoms fall

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 that you remain unchanged above them all

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 would you have your way

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 even what the enemy means for evil

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 would you turn for good

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 Lord we pray for this world to repent and turn

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 and choose you again

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 we know that starts with us repenting

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 and turning to you again

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 and turning to you again

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 and turning to you again

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 Lord we pray for this world to repent and turn to you again

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 and turn to you again

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 and turn to you again

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 Lord we pray without any sense of pride

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 or judgment

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 as you said

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 who is to condemn

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 Christ Jesus is the one who died

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 more than that who was raised

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 who is at the right hand of God

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 who indeed is interceding for us

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 who shall separate us from the love of Christ

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 we pray for us from the love of God

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 we pray for us from the love of Christ Jesus our Lord

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 as we come to an end here

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 I want to pass the time over to Johnny

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 to lead us in communion

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 let us stay in this space of

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 intercession

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 reflection

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 and come to God together as

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 one family

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 moment

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