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 For a moment, let's bow our heads in prayer.

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 Father, we ask that you would gently but powerfully pour out the Holy Spirit upon us this morning.

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 Father, once again, we ask that as you make us more aware of who Jesus is and what he did for us,

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 that, Father, gripped by that, more and more gripped by that,

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 you would help us to understand who we are, who each of us are,

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 and how it is that you desire to shape us and form us and prepare us, Father, for an eternity in the new heaven and the new earth.

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 And, Father, that is a work that only your Holy Spirit can do.

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 And so we ask that you would be the one who would do that wonderful work in our hearts and our minds this morning.

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 And we ask this in the name of Jesus, your Son and our Savior. Amen.

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 Please be seated.

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 So, you know, we've all had situations, and maybe we've been guilty of ourselves,

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 where, you know, we say to somebody, you know, go ahead and tell me what you really think.

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 Like, I won't be upset. Like, I won't be mad. I won't hold it against you.

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 And sometimes when people say that to us, they really mean it.

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 They will accept it. They will hear it.

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 They won't hold it against us.

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 But as we all know, sometimes that's not true.

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 We mistakenly or erroneously go ahead and tell them what we actually think about something or what we've done,

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 and they do hold against us.

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 A hundred million years ago, when I was...

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 In the old Diocese of Ottawa that I was part of, there was a discernment process,

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 a big process that you went through to discern whether or not you were called to be an Anglican minister,

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 an Anglican presbyter.

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 And sort of the culmination of that discernment on one level was going away for these two days, three days.

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 You'd go off to... We went to a motel, and there was, you know, people from a variety of all over the province.

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 And basically, from the time you arrived until lunchtime on Saturday, and you had to arrive on Thursday,

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 you were assessed by all of these different people.

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 But you also had specific times of assessment.

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 And in my specific time of assessment, the guy was... He was an Anglican minister, and he just was... It was just odd.

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 He kept asking me things like,

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 What do you feel good about?

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 I don't... Like, I don't know. How do you answer a question like that?

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 I don't know. Like, I feel good that it's sunny outside?

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 I don't know. I like...

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 You know, what do you feel bad about?

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 Like, what makes you happy? What makes you...

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 He's asking me all these vague questions.

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 And then he... And I'm sort of giving him some type of lame answer, probably.

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 Because, yeah, I mean, the fact of the matter is,

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 everybody at it, including me, are unbelievably tense, right?

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 You're under whatever that is, like 48 hours, not counting sleep,

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 of intensive scrutiny that helps to determine your future.

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 So, yeah, there's no stress here amongst me or any of the other people.

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 It was really dumb questions.

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 Anyway, finally, after about 10 minutes, he said to me,

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 Well, tell me, what is it you really don't like about the Anglican Church?

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 Well, I'm not going to answer that question.

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 And then he presses me and presses me and presses me.

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 And he kept saying, Listen, I'm not going to hold it against you.

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 I'm just curious. Like, you know, I'm just curious.

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 So, kid you not, at that time at a university that I was still connected with,

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 which will go nameless in case you can trace back who I'm referring to,

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 there was an Anglican minister who was a chaplain.

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 And I'd heard him speak several times.

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 And that Anglican minister didn't believe that Jesus had risen from the dead,

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 didn't believe in the incarnation or the virgin birth,

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 didn't believe most things in the New Testament actually happened.

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 Like, you just name any core doctrine.

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 He didn't even hide that he didn't believe it.

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 He boasted and tried to encourage everybody else to stop believing in these things.

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 So, I just said, You know, there's this Anglican minister there,

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 and he says all of these things.

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 And as far as I'm concerned, if he believes those things,

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 he shouldn't be an Anglican minister.

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 Well, that's when I discovered he was going to hold it against me,

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 and he was going to make a big deal of it.

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 And rather than assessing me for the next 30 minutes,

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 he gave me a 30-minute lecture about how maybe I was just not well-read enough.

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 Maybe this other minister is more spiritually and intellectually and academically advanced,

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 and on and on and on.

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 And then in my third assessment, it turned out that I had to answer the question.

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 I was narrow-minded and prejudiced because there were some concerns about it.

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 Now, just as an aside, how on earth did I pass that, you're wondering?

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 In those days, I had hair down to my belt and a beard,

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 and I think that's the only reason I passed.

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 Because they wanted younger people,

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 and I just didn't look like somebody would hold those views.

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 So, I think they gave me a pass,

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 and they probably have been regretting it ever since,

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 but that's a separate story.

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 But the problem is, as we all know,

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 that sometimes, you know, people say that,

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 they say they're not going to hold it against you,

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 they say certain things, but they just don't mean it.

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 They just don't mean what we say.

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 And this very, very, very sad text that we're looking at today,

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 and for some of these sermons I've been saying,

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 imagine that they were taking the Gospel of Mark,

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 and they were turning it into like a Netflix series,

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 or something like that,

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 or an Amazon Prime series,

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 or Crave, or whatever, HBO.

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 And, you know, every week there was a bit of an episode.

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 And this would be an episode that is just frankly sad.

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 It ends in sorrow.

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 It ends in almost inconsolable, heartbreaking sorrow.

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 And the question arises from the text,

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 it's like, why is it that there would be such a sad story?

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 Like, why would this be in the Bible?

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 Why would this be in the Gospel?

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 A story which is so sad,

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 a story about failure,

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 a story about guilt,

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 a story about doing wrong.

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 But it really enters into a very, very profound topic

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 in terms of whether or not,

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 well,

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 the older you are,

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 the more that you understand,

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 I think wise people understand,

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 that what we need is not,

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 we need justice always, of course.

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 I'm not denying that we need justice.

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 But more than justice,

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 we need forgiveness.

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 And is Jesus serious

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 when he talks about forgiveness?

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 Like, is the Bible serious about it?

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 Does it have some wise things to say

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 about one of the deepest needs

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 that human beings have,

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 which is a need for forgiveness?

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 So let's look.

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 If you have your Bibles,

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 it's Mark chapter 14,

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 verses 66 to 72.

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 And just in terms of,

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 you know,

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 if this was Netflix or Amazon Prime

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 or whatever,

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 there'd be a little recap at the beginning.

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 And rather than just pushing

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 the skip recap button,

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 just sort of just before that,

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 there's been lots of very sad things.

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 We're sort of almost halfway through

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 the 24 hours that changed the world.

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 It's all the first day of the Passover

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 because Jewish people at that time,

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 still actually,

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 the day begins at sunset

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 and ends the next sunset.

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 That's how the day works.

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 So there's 24 hours that changed the world.

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 Jesus has predicted to his disciples

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 and his other friends

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 he's going to be betrayed.

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 Judas has, in fact, betrayed him.

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 Jesus has been just throwing himself

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 on the ground in sorrow,

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 calling out to the Father

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 to answer a prayer with yes,

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 and the Father says no.

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 And Jesus is seized,

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 and Judas,

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 Jesus has just been through

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 a kangaroo court,

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 a show trial,

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 and at the end of it,

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 like on,

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 given that his life depends

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 upon how he answers it,

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 he goes in,

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 he gives the honest answer

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 that he is the Messiah,

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 he is God,

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 the Son of God,

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 and his enemies have got

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 what they need

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 to put him to death.

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 And so while that's going on,

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 this story happens.

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 Okay?

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 And here's how it begins,

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 verse 66.

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 And as Peter was below

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 in the courtyard,

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 one of the servant girls

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 of the high priest came

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 and seeing Peter warming himself,

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 she looked at him and said,

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 you also were with the Nazarene,

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 Jesus.

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 But he denied it,

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 saying,

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 I neither know nor understand

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 what you mean.

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 And he went out,

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 Peter went out into the gateway

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 and the rooster crowed.

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 Now just a couple of things

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 about this.

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 First of all,

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 it's very interesting.

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 We talked about this last week

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 to show that the whole,

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 that his enemies attacking Jesus

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 is the examination of Jesus

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 doesn't take place

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 in any official place

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 like where the Sanhedrin meets

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 or the official court,

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 but in a high priest's house

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 where there's guards

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 in the courtyard.

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 And here we see that

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 while Peter is speaking below,

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 Jesus, we now know,

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 is on the second floor.

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 That's where his enemies

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 are going after him

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 on the second floor

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 and Peter is outside below him.

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 And he has a,

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 Jesus is put down

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 by a servant girl.

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 You know, here it is.

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 Jesus, as we looked at last week,

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 you can go back

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 and read it later,

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 he makes,

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 in the presence of his enemies

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 on trial for his life,

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 he makes this momentous declaration

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 that he, in fact,

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 is the Messiah,

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 that he is, in fact,

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 God, the Son of God.

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 He actually confesses to this

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 in the presence of his enemies

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 in a capital trial

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 where he knows

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 they want to have him

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 put to death.

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 And while he's making

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 these momentous claims,

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 and if you're here

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 as a seeker

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 or you're not quite sure

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 what you think of,

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 that's,

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 we'll talk about that,

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 not necessarily today,

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 but why that's a good thing

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 to believe,

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 but later on,

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 we will talk about

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 why those,

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 why it is,

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 it's reasonable

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 to believe that,

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 and we'll say something

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 in a moment,

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 but while this is going on,

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 the woman has just

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 a casual put down

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 of Jesus,

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 the Nazarene Jesus.

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 Some of you have heard

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 me explain it before.

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 If I was to bring

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 somebody up front

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 and I was to introduce

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 the person as,

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 you know,

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 this is,

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 this is an Oxford guy,

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 Oxford gal,

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 or Cambridge,

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 MIT,

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 you know,

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 it's,

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 that's who this person is,

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 or if I was to say this,

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 you know,

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 John here is from

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 Apple headquarters,

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 you'd all go,

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 oh,

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 this person's a somebody,

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 you know,

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 this person here

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 has just come,

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 he's,

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 he or she is with

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 the Prime Minister's office,

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 the Chief of Staff,

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 they're here to address you,

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 I'm trying to impress you

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 with their credentials,

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 but Nazarene is

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 nowheresville,

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 it would be as if

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 and today,

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 if I was to invite

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 Steve up to speak

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 and said,

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 this is Steve

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 from Brudenell,

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 and Brudenell,

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 as I've said to you before,

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 if you look in a big

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 empty spot

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 of eastern Ontario

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 and you're trying to go

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 from one empty spot

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 to another empty spot,

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 you pass through Brudenell,

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 it's nowhereville,

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 and,

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 and so this is just

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 a casual put down

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 of Jesus,

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 the Nazarene,

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 the guy from nowhere,

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 the guy from

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 unimportantville,

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 like we're no,

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 like we're only

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 hicks live

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 and nothing is ever

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 of great value,

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 but then Peter

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 gives this really

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 weird answer,

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 look,

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 look at it again,

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 and by the way,

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 verse 68 says,

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 but he denied it,

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 saying,

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 I neither know

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 nor understand

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 what you mean,

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 although then he goes

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 out farther

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 from the light,

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 like farther off

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 into the darkness,

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 but here's the thing,

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 it's weird,

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 in the original language,

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 he says,

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 there are two separate

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 words for knowledge,

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 the first knowledge,

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 type of knowledge,

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 is theoretical

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 or abstract knowledge,

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 it's E equals MC squared

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 type of knowledge,

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 okay,

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 it's like going

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 to university

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 and taking a,

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 you know,

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 a theory of numbers,

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 or,

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 you know,

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 the theory,

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 the high level,

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 and the other one

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 is practical knowledge,

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 and this is just

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 like a weird answer,

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 like she just says,

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 hey,

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 you're with the

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 Nazarene Jesus,

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 and he said,

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 I neither have

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 the theoretical knowledge

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 or the practical knowledge

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 to understand

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 what that means,

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 like what?

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 Like privately,

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 she probably said to later,

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 there's this jerk

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 over there,

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 like he gave me

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 this really stupid answer,

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 and I bet that Peter

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 at the time

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 didn't think

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 he denied Jesus,

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 I thought,

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 I think he thought

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 he was being clever,

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 what exactly do you mean

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 by Jesus,

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 it's a common name,

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 like I,

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 you know,

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 what about Nazarene,

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 what does from mean,

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 like,

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 I don't know,

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 like it's just,

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 here,

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 if you could put up

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 the first point,

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 just a little

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 off the side point,

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 but important,

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 beware of using cleverness

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 to try and cover up

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 your unfaithfulness,

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 beware of using cleverness

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 to try to cover up

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 your unfaithfulness,

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 actually,

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 the book of common prayer

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 has a really,

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 if you use morning

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 and evening prayer,

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 it's called

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 dissembling and cloaking

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 your sin,

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 it's a beautiful phrase,

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 dissembling means

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 you try to confuse people

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 with what you've actually said

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 or you try to hide it

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 and that's what Peter's

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 trying to do

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 and I bet you actually

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 that at the time,

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 Peter probably thought

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 that he,

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 I didn't deny her,

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 he sort of got out of it

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 somehow with,

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 I mean,

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 the servant girl

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 probably thought

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 he was a jerk,

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 he probably thought

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 he hadn't denied it

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 because technically,

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 technically,

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 it might not sound like

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 to him that it's a denial,

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 but it was,

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 it was a denial.

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 In fact,

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 actually,

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 you'll notice

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 that the text nails it,

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 but he denied it

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 saying,

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 I neither know,

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 so that the text,

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 just one of the things

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 you need to know

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 about the text here,

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 which is really interesting

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 at this point,

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 so first of all,

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 how would anybody know

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 about this encounter

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 unless Peter told them

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 about it,

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 unless afterwards

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 Peter told them

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 what had happened

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 and that Peter

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 actually shared

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 with people

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 that I thought

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 I was being clever,

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 but I was really

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 just being a jerk

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 and I,

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 you know,

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 for that brief moment,

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 I thought I'd avoided it,

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 but in hindsight,

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 what it was

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 is actually,

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 it was a denial.

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 It's not just,

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 and one of the,

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 and one of the things

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 in particular

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 is that most modern scholars

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 and following

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 the testimony

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 of the early church

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 believe that Peter,

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 this is ultimately

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 Peter's gospel,

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 even though it has

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 Mark's name on it.

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 In other words,

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 that Mark wrote down

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 how Peter

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 remembered Jesus

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 and what Peter saw

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 and did with Jesus

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 and Mark wrote it down.

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 And,

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 and so it's very interesting

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 that not only

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 later on

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 for posterity

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 does Peter label it

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 a denial,

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 but as we'll see

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 in a moment,

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 by the end of the story,

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 Peter has had

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 a change of heart,

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 a deep sorrow

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 that he now understands

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 that this first thing

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 that he did

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 wasn't clever,

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 but was in fact

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 a denial.

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 We'll see that.

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 Look at verse,

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 look at verse 69.

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 And the servant girl

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 saw Peter

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 and he goes off

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 into the darkness.

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 She saw Peter

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 and began again

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 to say to the bystanders,

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 this man is,

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 is one of them.

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 But again,

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 Peter denied it.

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 And,

00:16:00.980 --> 00:16:02.019
 and actually

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 just sort of pause here.

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 You can't know this

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 unless you know

00:16:04.700 --> 00:16:05.840
 the original language,

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 but in the original language,

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 what it really is saying

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 is Peter

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 not just denied,

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 he didn't just say no,

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 he went on and on

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 and on and on

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 and on about it.

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 Right?

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 You know how sometimes,

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 so if one thing

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 what we try to do

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 sometimes to cover up

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 when we've been unfaithful,

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 we,

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 we think we're being clever

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 with fine distinctions

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 or something like that.

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 The other way that we do,

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 we try to get out of

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 taking responsibility

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 for a certain thing

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 or denying something

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 is we,

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 we talk a lot about it.

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 Right?

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 You know,

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 I'm not picking sides

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 in part,

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 but one of the things

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 politicians do

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 when somebody tries

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 to,

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 to pin them

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 on whether they've done

00:16:41.519 --> 00:16:41.899
 something,

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 they give a long

00:16:42.620 --> 00:16:43.659
 convoluted answer,

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 hoping that by the end

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 of the answer,

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 which isn't an answer,

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 you've forgotten

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 what you've asked.

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 Right?

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 And,

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 and so that's what Peter does.

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 He goes on and on

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 and on and on about it.

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 But it actually ends up

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 backfiring on him.

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 Look again at verse 70.

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 But again,

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 he denied it.

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 And after a little while,

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 the bystanders again said

00:17:00.820 --> 00:17:01.180
 to Peter,

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 certainly you're one of them,

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 for you are a Galilean.

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 In other words,

00:17:04.680 --> 00:17:05.460
 the more he talked,

00:17:05.519 --> 00:17:06.839
 his Galilean accent

00:17:06.839 --> 00:17:07.599
 came out.

00:17:09.440 --> 00:17:10.759
 His Galilean

00:17:10.759 --> 00:17:12.120
 isms

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 came out.

00:17:14.339 --> 00:17:15.460
 But he,

00:17:15.720 --> 00:17:16.000
 Peter,

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 began to invoke

00:17:17.620 --> 00:17:18.579
 a curse

00:17:18.579 --> 00:17:19.420
 on himself

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 and to swear,

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 I do not know

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 this man

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 of whom you speak.

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 Now,

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 just sort of

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 pause here for a second.

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 Some of you,

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 especially if you're looking

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 in your own Bibles,

00:17:31.439 --> 00:17:33.699
 you might see that

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 it's worded a little bit

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 differently.

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 Some of the,

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 the versions of the Bible

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 says,

00:17:37.679 --> 00:17:39.299
 he began to invoke

00:17:39.299 --> 00:17:40.379
 a curse on them

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 and,

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 and to swear.

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 So,

00:17:43.240 --> 00:17:44.179
 what's happening there,

00:17:44.339 --> 00:17:44.720
 it's,

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 one of the things

00:17:45.700 --> 00:17:46.700
 about this,

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 the language of the time,

00:17:48.160 --> 00:17:49.240
 in the original language,

00:17:49.860 --> 00:17:52.299
 you can't actually tell.

00:17:52.440 --> 00:17:53.420
 The way the words are,

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 it could mean either one.

00:17:55.000 --> 00:17:55.839
 It could either mean

00:17:55.839 --> 00:17:56.519
 that he

00:17:56.519 --> 00:17:58.019
 curses himself

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 or curses another person.

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 And it might even just be

00:18:01.180 --> 00:18:02.039
 that he did both,

00:18:02.200 --> 00:18:02.660
 by the way.

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 And I'll explain

00:18:04.400 --> 00:18:04.880
 what he means

00:18:04.880 --> 00:18:05.160
 when I,

00:18:05.259 --> 00:18:05.900
 what this is.

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 So,

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 here's what it is.

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 And we all,

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 maybe none of us do this.

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 Maybe we know people

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 who talk this way,

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 but it's definitely

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 a thing of books

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 and movies.

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 You know,

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 the first thing is,

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 he said,

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 may God,

00:18:17.080 --> 00:18:17.420
 in a sense,

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 okay,

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 just,

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 may God strike me dead.

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 I swear to you

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 on my mother's grave,

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 I'm telling you the truth.

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 That's invoking a curse

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 on himself

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 and taking an oath

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 that he's telling the truth.

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 Right?

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 The,

00:18:33.460 --> 00:18:34.779
 the other way is,

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 you know,

00:18:35.820 --> 00:18:37.400
 to be mad at the other person

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 and,

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 and just pardon my language

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 to say in a sense

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 to somebody who's challenging,

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 you know,

00:18:41.340 --> 00:18:41.980
 God damn you.

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 I swear,

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 I swear on my children's lives

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 when I'm telling you the truth.

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 And you can see that,

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 in a sense,

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 it might even be

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 that he did both

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 and it's just interesting

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 because,

00:18:57.279 --> 00:18:57.460
 you know,

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 nowadays when we,

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 you know,

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 we can type on the computer

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 and you just type

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 and type

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 and type

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 and type

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 and it just goes on forever.

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 But back then,

00:19:04.340 --> 00:19:05.060
 things to write on

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 were very precious

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 and expensive

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 and you just had

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 a certain number of words

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 that you could do

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 and that just one of the things

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 that in the original language

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 it could be

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 that he did both.

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 But it's more likely,

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 but people,

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 translators,

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 because of English,

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 you can't do it.

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 Translators have to figure out

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 which one's most likely

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 and it's probably more likely

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 that he's not trying

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 to intimidate people

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 because he's,

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 he's frightened

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 and so he does the first thing,

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 you know,

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 like,

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 you know,

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 God,

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 strike me dead.

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 You know,

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 may God curse me forever.

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 Strike me dead.

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 I swear on my mother's grave

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 or I swear by the temple

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 that I am telling you the truth.

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 I am telling you the truth.

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 I do not know this man

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 of whom you speak.

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 If you could put up

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 just the second point.

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 Some of you might be familiar

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 with the Bible

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 and in Matthew chapter 5,

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 Jesus warns us

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 against taking oaths

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 and that's because

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 it is far too common

00:20:03.600 --> 00:20:05.059
 to invoke a curse

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 or make an oath

00:20:06.180 --> 00:20:09.380
 to try and cover up wrongdoing.

00:20:10.960 --> 00:20:11.160
 Right?

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 Like,

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 if you see in a movie

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 somebody saying like that,

00:20:13.440 --> 00:20:13.559
 like,

00:20:13.620 --> 00:20:14.960
 I swear on my mother's grave

00:20:14.960 --> 00:20:15.400
 or whatever,

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 they're lying usually,

00:20:16.580 --> 00:20:16.759
 right?

00:20:16.779 --> 00:20:18.019
 When they say something like that,

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 it usually means they're lying

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 and they're trying

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 to get out of it

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 and it's not,

00:20:22.680 --> 00:20:23.539
 not that every time

00:20:23.539 --> 00:20:24.000
 it happens,

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 but often that's what happens.

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 You try to up everything,

00:20:27.960 --> 00:20:28.399
 you know,

00:20:28.839 --> 00:20:30.539
 to cover up the fact

00:20:30.539 --> 00:20:31.500
 that what you're doing

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 is shady at the best,

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 but often just downright despicable.

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 And it's a human problem

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 and Jesus nails it.

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 And actually,

00:20:44.980 --> 00:20:45.259
 you know,

00:20:45.259 --> 00:20:45.720
 by the way,

00:20:45.720 --> 00:20:46.960
 one of the arguments

00:20:46.960 --> 00:20:48.879
 for why this

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 is so trustworthy,

00:20:50.420 --> 00:20:51.800
 like,

00:20:51.800 --> 00:20:51.820
 like,

00:20:51.880 --> 00:20:52.940
 occasionally you'll come

00:20:52.940 --> 00:20:53.940
 across skeptics

00:20:53.940 --> 00:20:54.440
 who'll say,

00:20:54.539 --> 00:20:54.720
 you know,

00:20:54.779 --> 00:20:56.720
 that most of these things

00:20:56.720 --> 00:20:58.060
 in the New Testament,

00:20:58.220 --> 00:20:58.340
 like,

00:20:58.460 --> 00:20:59.800
 in these ancient eyewitness

00:20:59.800 --> 00:21:00.700
 biographies

00:21:00.700 --> 00:21:01.900
 aren't ancient eyewitness

00:21:01.900 --> 00:21:02.720
 biographies.

00:21:02.840 --> 00:21:03.960
 They were written much later

00:21:03.960 --> 00:21:05.680
 and they were sort of

00:21:05.680 --> 00:21:06.480
 written in secret

00:21:06.480 --> 00:21:07.640
 and they're really trying

00:21:07.640 --> 00:21:09.220
 to serve the power

00:21:09.220 --> 00:21:09.980
 of the church

00:21:09.980 --> 00:21:11.300
 and the church's agenda

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 or some community's agenda.

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 And one of the arguments

00:21:15.240 --> 00:21:16.799
 as to why that isn't true

00:21:16.799 --> 00:21:18.359
 is the fact that Peter

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 records

00:21:19.200 --> 00:21:23.000
 his

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 despicableness.

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 Like,

00:21:26.759 --> 00:21:27.960
 how does this serve

00:21:27.960 --> 00:21:29.440
 propping up the power

00:21:29.440 --> 00:21:30.859
 structures of the church

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 if in,

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 you know,

00:21:33.000 --> 00:21:34.160
 James and John

00:21:34.160 --> 00:21:34.700
 and Peter

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 all are shown

00:21:35.700 --> 00:21:36.779
 to be failures

00:21:36.779 --> 00:21:37.579
 and doubters

00:21:37.579 --> 00:21:38.559
 and deniers

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 and fleers

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 and cowards

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 and liars?

00:21:43.019 --> 00:21:44.660
 Like,

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 that's why the text

00:21:45.980 --> 00:21:46.960
 has the,

00:21:46.960 --> 00:21:49.779
 has the feel

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 and the shape

00:21:51.879 --> 00:21:53.019
 of integrity.

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 Because this isn't

00:21:55.579 --> 00:21:56.619
 something you'd make up

00:21:56.619 --> 00:21:57.500
 if you're trying to make

00:21:57.500 --> 00:21:58.440
 the Peter party

00:21:58.440 --> 00:21:58.920
 or the,

00:21:59.000 --> 00:22:00.359
 the more and more strong

00:22:00.359 --> 00:22:00.920
 and why everybody

00:22:00.920 --> 00:22:01.859
 should listen to him

00:22:01.859 --> 00:22:03.519
 by having Peter

00:22:03.519 --> 00:22:05.019
 make sure that it's

00:22:05.019 --> 00:22:05.680
 written down

00:22:05.680 --> 00:22:07.680
 just how,

00:22:07.859 --> 00:22:09.000
 how much of a sinner

00:22:09.000 --> 00:22:12.420
 he was and is.

00:22:13.019 --> 00:22:15.799
 Well,

00:22:16.039 --> 00:22:16.819
 remember I said

00:22:16.819 --> 00:22:18.539
 that it's very

00:22:18.539 --> 00:22:19.220
 interesting that

00:22:19.220 --> 00:22:19.900
 Peter has to be

00:22:19.900 --> 00:22:20.720
 the source of this

00:22:20.720 --> 00:22:22.700
 and the first denial

00:22:22.700 --> 00:22:23.839
 he might have at the time

00:22:23.839 --> 00:22:24.500
 thought it wasn't

00:22:24.500 --> 00:22:25.279
 really a denial

00:22:25.279 --> 00:22:26.440
 but now when we're

00:22:26.440 --> 00:22:27.420
 reading about it

00:22:27.420 --> 00:22:27.900
 it's nailed

00:22:27.900 --> 00:22:28.660
 that it's a denial.

00:22:29.500 --> 00:22:30.220
 Look how

00:22:30.220 --> 00:22:31.220
 we,

00:22:31.359 --> 00:22:32.200
 we see that

00:22:32.200 --> 00:22:33.160
 even in that time

00:22:33.160 --> 00:22:34.180
 that Peter understood

00:22:34.180 --> 00:22:35.259
 that what that first

00:22:35.259 --> 00:22:35.859
 instant was

00:22:35.859 --> 00:22:36.799
 was actually a denial.

00:22:36.940 --> 00:22:37.940
 Look at verse 72.

00:22:37.940 --> 00:22:40.460
 And immediately

00:22:40.460 --> 00:22:41.680
 the rooster

00:22:41.680 --> 00:22:43.440
 crowed a second time

00:22:43.440 --> 00:22:45.059
 and Peter remembered

00:22:45.059 --> 00:22:46.320
 how Jesus had said

00:22:46.320 --> 00:22:46.799
 to him

00:22:46.799 --> 00:22:48.600
 before the rooster

00:22:48.600 --> 00:22:49.620
 crows twice

00:22:49.620 --> 00:22:51.380
 you will deny me

00:22:51.380 --> 00:22:52.240
 three times

00:22:52.240 --> 00:22:53.620
 and Peter

00:22:53.620 --> 00:22:54.720
 broke down

00:22:54.720 --> 00:22:55.440
 and wept.

00:22:56.279 --> 00:22:57.320
 And in the original

00:22:57.320 --> 00:22:58.580
 language that broke down

00:22:58.580 --> 00:22:59.680
 that means broke down

00:22:59.680 --> 00:23:00.799
 like that means

00:23:00.799 --> 00:23:02.019
 that means

00:23:02.019 --> 00:23:03.360
 convulsive sobbing.

00:23:03.359 --> 00:23:04.839
 that means

00:23:04.839 --> 00:23:06.919
 hardly able to stand

00:23:06.919 --> 00:23:08.839
 sorrow.

00:23:10.939 --> 00:23:12.939
 Barely able to stand

00:23:12.939 --> 00:23:14.359
 heart-wrenching

00:23:15.359 --> 00:23:18.359
 sobs

00:23:18.979 --> 00:23:20.479
 of sorrow.

00:23:24.359 --> 00:23:26.019
 And it's really interesting

00:23:26.019 --> 00:23:26.799
 I, you know

00:23:26.799 --> 00:23:27.719
 it's really interesting

00:23:27.719 --> 00:23:28.119
 that

00:23:28.119 --> 00:23:30.839
 it's a rooster

00:23:30.839 --> 00:23:34.379
 it's a rooster

00:23:34.379 --> 00:23:36.039
 that serves

00:23:36.039 --> 00:23:36.919
 as the sign

00:23:36.919 --> 00:23:39.359
 because what is it

00:23:39.359 --> 00:23:39.980
 about roosters?

00:23:40.199 --> 00:23:41.359
 Roosters are an image

00:23:41.359 --> 00:23:42.980
 of strutting

00:23:42.980 --> 00:23:44.079
 pride.

00:23:45.839 --> 00:23:46.759
 And so

00:23:46.759 --> 00:23:47.379
 an image

00:23:47.379 --> 00:23:48.619
 of strutting

00:23:48.619 --> 00:23:49.419
 pride

00:23:49.419 --> 00:23:52.559
 is what brings

00:23:52.559 --> 00:23:53.539
 Peter

00:23:53.539 --> 00:23:55.519
 to understand

00:23:55.519 --> 00:23:56.399
 that he

00:23:56.399 --> 00:23:57.439
 has nothing

00:23:57.439 --> 00:23:58.439
 to be proud about

00:23:58.439 --> 00:24:00.639
 and break him down

00:24:00.640 --> 00:24:01.540
 in sobs.

00:24:02.580 --> 00:24:03.860
 So why such a sad

00:24:03.860 --> 00:24:04.820
 story in the Bible

00:24:04.820 --> 00:24:05.780
 in the gospel?

00:24:07.720 --> 00:24:08.660
 It's here I think

00:24:08.660 --> 00:24:09.120
 because

00:24:09.120 --> 00:24:09.960
 it's going to say

00:24:09.960 --> 00:24:10.680
 something to us

00:24:10.680 --> 00:24:11.520
 very profound

00:24:11.520 --> 00:24:12.160
 and important

00:24:12.160 --> 00:24:12.960
 about forgiveness

00:24:12.960 --> 00:24:15.000
 about patience

00:24:15.000 --> 00:24:16.560
 about prayer

00:24:16.560 --> 00:24:17.880
 and about personal

00:24:17.880 --> 00:24:18.460
 change.

00:24:21.040 --> 00:24:21.480
 Actually

00:24:21.480 --> 00:24:22.320
 it's interesting

00:24:22.320 --> 00:24:22.759
 and if

00:24:22.759 --> 00:24:23.460
 by the way

00:24:23.460 --> 00:24:24.980
 one of the people

00:24:24.980 --> 00:24:25.940
 that I talked to

00:24:25.940 --> 00:24:26.780
 yesterday

00:24:26.780 --> 00:24:28.620
 in the coffee shop

00:24:28.620 --> 00:24:29.000
 or here

00:24:29.000 --> 00:24:30.040
 shout out to you

00:24:30.039 --> 00:24:30.519
 you guys do

00:24:30.519 --> 00:24:31.399
 a great job

00:24:31.399 --> 00:24:34.119
 it's a wonderful

00:24:34.119 --> 00:24:34.819
 coffee shop

00:24:34.819 --> 00:24:35.259
 to go to

00:24:35.259 --> 00:24:36.000
 so a shout out

00:24:36.000 --> 00:24:36.279
 to you

00:24:36.279 --> 00:24:37.000
 if you're watching

00:24:37.000 --> 00:24:38.359
 one of the

00:24:38.359 --> 00:24:39.240
 baristas

00:24:39.240 --> 00:24:39.839
 asked me

00:24:39.839 --> 00:24:40.339
 as I'm getting

00:24:40.339 --> 00:24:41.019
 my refill

00:24:41.019 --> 00:24:43.099
 what I was going

00:24:43.099 --> 00:24:43.700
 to like

00:24:43.700 --> 00:24:44.259
 first of all

00:24:44.259 --> 00:24:44.680
 she said

00:24:44.680 --> 00:24:45.259
 anyway

00:24:45.259 --> 00:24:47.379
 she asked me

00:24:47.379 --> 00:24:47.740
 what I was going

00:24:47.740 --> 00:24:48.359
 to talk about

00:24:48.359 --> 00:24:48.980
 tomorrow

00:24:48.980 --> 00:24:49.579
 which is now

00:24:49.579 --> 00:24:49.960
 today

00:24:49.960 --> 00:24:51.019
 and

00:24:51.019 --> 00:24:53.139
 she said

00:24:53.139 --> 00:24:53.480
 asked me

00:24:53.480 --> 00:24:54.180
 if I was ready

00:24:54.180 --> 00:24:54.359
 yet

00:24:54.359 --> 00:24:54.639
 and I said

00:24:54.639 --> 00:24:54.779
 no

00:24:54.779 --> 00:24:55.279
 that's what

00:24:55.279 --> 00:24:55.899
 I'm working

00:24:55.899 --> 00:24:56.539
 on right now

00:24:56.539 --> 00:24:56.940
 and she said

00:24:56.940 --> 00:24:57.200
 what are you

00:24:57.200 --> 00:24:57.539
 going to talk

00:24:57.539 --> 00:24:57.779
 about

00:24:57.779 --> 00:24:59.100
 and I said

00:24:59.100 --> 00:25:00.180
 um

00:25:00.180 --> 00:25:01.759
 I didn't have

00:25:01.759 --> 00:25:02.180
 the deer in the

00:25:02.180 --> 00:25:02.759
 headlight moment

00:25:02.759 --> 00:25:03.180
 but I said

00:25:03.180 --> 00:25:03.720
 um

00:25:03.720 --> 00:25:05.380
 I'm going to

00:25:05.380 --> 00:25:05.840
 talk about

00:25:05.840 --> 00:25:06.759
 why forgiving

00:25:06.759 --> 00:25:07.460
 yourself

00:25:07.460 --> 00:25:08.920
 doesn't work

00:25:08.920 --> 00:25:10.220
 and in fact

00:25:10.220 --> 00:25:10.759
 only makes

00:25:10.759 --> 00:25:11.440
 things worse

00:25:11.440 --> 00:25:13.960
 and she goes

00:25:13.960 --> 00:25:15.200
 whoa

00:25:15.200 --> 00:25:17.539
 you talk about

00:25:17.539 --> 00:25:18.380
 things like that

00:25:18.380 --> 00:25:19.519
 like that

00:25:19.519 --> 00:25:20.240
 sounds deep

00:25:20.240 --> 00:25:21.920
 and then we

00:25:21.920 --> 00:25:22.440
 had this like

00:25:22.440 --> 00:25:23.039
 there's nobody

00:25:23.039 --> 00:25:23.420
 else

00:25:23.420 --> 00:25:24.480
 and then like

00:25:24.480 --> 00:25:25.180
 the four of

00:25:25.180 --> 00:25:25.279
 them

00:25:25.279 --> 00:25:25.680
 I have this

00:25:25.680 --> 00:25:26.299
 brief talk

00:25:26.299 --> 00:25:26.720
 a little bit

00:25:26.720 --> 00:25:27.220
 about why

00:25:27.220 --> 00:25:27.579
 it is

00:25:27.579 --> 00:25:28.039
 that self

00:25:28.039 --> 00:25:28.460
 forgiveness

00:25:28.460 --> 00:25:29.660
 doesn't work

00:25:29.660 --> 00:25:30.960
 so here

00:25:30.960 --> 00:25:31.259
 just

00:25:31.259 --> 00:25:32.299
 here's the

00:25:32.299 --> 00:25:32.579
 thing

00:25:32.579 --> 00:25:34.799
 we could all

00:25:34.799 --> 00:25:35.200
 think of

00:25:35.200 --> 00:25:35.720
 stories

00:25:35.720 --> 00:25:37.220
 in our own

00:25:37.220 --> 00:25:37.579
 lives

00:25:37.579 --> 00:25:38.220
 where we feel

00:25:38.220 --> 00:25:38.940
 bound by

00:25:38.940 --> 00:25:39.319
 guilt

00:25:39.319 --> 00:25:40.039
 where we've

00:25:40.039 --> 00:25:40.539
 done things

00:25:40.539 --> 00:25:40.900
 which are

00:25:40.900 --> 00:25:41.839
 terribly wrong

00:25:41.839 --> 00:25:43.539
 maybe at the

00:25:43.539 --> 00:25:44.160
 time we didn't

00:25:44.160 --> 00:25:44.660
 think they were

00:25:44.660 --> 00:25:45.259
 very wrong

00:25:45.259 --> 00:25:45.860
 but afterwards

00:25:45.860 --> 00:25:46.620
 we realized

00:25:46.620 --> 00:25:47.460
 just how wrong

00:25:47.460 --> 00:25:48.099
 they were

00:25:48.099 --> 00:25:49.539
 and

00:25:49.539 --> 00:25:51.200
 the feeling

00:25:51.200 --> 00:25:51.640
 of guilt

00:25:51.640 --> 00:25:52.000
 can be

00:25:52.000 --> 00:25:52.519
 very very

00:25:52.519 --> 00:25:53.180
 powerful

00:25:53.180 --> 00:25:54.220
 it can bind

00:25:54.220 --> 00:25:54.640
 us

00:25:54.640 --> 00:25:56.480
 and sometimes

00:25:56.480 --> 00:25:58.200
 even after a

00:25:58.200 --> 00:25:58.740
 person has

00:25:58.740 --> 00:25:59.420
 forgiven us

00:25:59.420 --> 00:26:00.000
 for the wrong

00:26:00.000 --> 00:26:00.500
 that they've

00:26:00.500 --> 00:26:00.759
 done

00:26:00.759 --> 00:26:01.380
 we've done

00:26:01.380 --> 00:26:01.840
 to them

00:26:01.840 --> 00:26:03.140
 we still feel

00:26:03.140 --> 00:26:04.420
 bound and

00:26:04.420 --> 00:26:05.140
 trapped by

00:26:05.140 --> 00:26:05.759
 that guilt

00:26:05.759 --> 00:26:07.500
 but often

00:26:07.500 --> 00:26:07.980
 in life

00:26:07.980 --> 00:26:08.720
 people don't

00:26:08.720 --> 00:26:09.440
 forgive us

00:26:09.440 --> 00:26:10.500
 and sometimes

00:26:10.500 --> 00:26:11.220
 as you know

00:26:11.220 --> 00:26:11.860
 even those

00:26:11.860 --> 00:26:12.200
 who don't

00:26:12.200 --> 00:26:12.680
 forgive us

00:26:12.680 --> 00:26:13.279
 they move

00:26:13.279 --> 00:26:13.759
 away or

00:26:13.759 --> 00:26:14.299
 they die

00:26:14.299 --> 00:26:15.360
 and they

00:26:15.360 --> 00:26:16.380
 died not

00:26:16.380 --> 00:26:16.980
 forgiving us

00:26:16.980 --> 00:26:17.340
 at all

00:26:17.340 --> 00:26:18.019
 and so

00:26:18.019 --> 00:26:18.799
 sometimes we

00:26:18.799 --> 00:26:19.440
 can be even

00:26:19.440 --> 00:26:20.759
 doubly bound

00:26:20.759 --> 00:26:21.299
 by it

00:26:21.299 --> 00:26:22.820
 we don't really

00:26:22.819 --> 00:26:23.279
 know where

00:26:23.279 --> 00:26:23.779
 to go

00:26:23.779 --> 00:26:24.759
 with our

00:26:24.759 --> 00:26:25.179
 guilt

00:26:25.179 --> 00:26:27.159
 and so

00:26:27.159 --> 00:26:28.119
 the culture

00:26:28.119 --> 00:26:29.039
 increasingly

00:26:29.039 --> 00:26:30.119
 what Canadian

00:26:30.119 --> 00:26:30.619
 culture

00:26:30.619 --> 00:26:31.279
 North American

00:26:31.279 --> 00:26:31.759
 culture

00:26:31.759 --> 00:26:32.359
 increasingly

00:26:32.359 --> 00:26:32.960
 recommends

00:26:32.960 --> 00:26:33.419
 you see it

00:26:33.419 --> 00:26:33.759
 in books

00:26:33.759 --> 00:26:34.159
 you see it

00:26:34.159 --> 00:26:34.659
 in movies

00:26:34.659 --> 00:26:36.139
 is that we

00:26:36.139 --> 00:26:36.639
 need to learn

00:26:36.639 --> 00:26:37.119
 to forgive

00:26:37.119 --> 00:26:37.700
 ourselves

00:26:37.700 --> 00:26:40.539
 and on one

00:26:40.539 --> 00:26:41.019
 hand it's a

00:26:41.019 --> 00:26:41.619
 very very

00:26:41.619 --> 00:26:42.839
 it's responding

00:26:42.839 --> 00:26:43.480
 to this

00:26:43.480 --> 00:26:44.919
 existential need

00:26:44.919 --> 00:26:46.919
 that not all

00:26:46.919 --> 00:26:47.419
 of us feel

00:26:47.419 --> 00:26:47.819
 all of the

00:26:47.819 --> 00:26:48.159
 time

00:26:48.159 --> 00:26:49.099
 everybody will

00:26:49.099 --> 00:26:49.659
 feel at some

00:26:49.659 --> 00:26:50.220
 point in time

00:26:50.220 --> 00:26:50.700
 in their life

00:26:50.700 --> 00:26:51.180
 and many

00:26:51.180 --> 00:26:51.600
 of us

00:26:51.600 --> 00:26:52.440
 can feel

00:26:52.440 --> 00:26:53.600
 it for

00:26:53.600 --> 00:26:54.220
 many years

00:26:54.220 --> 00:26:54.600
 and many

00:26:54.600 --> 00:26:55.420
 seasons of

00:26:55.420 --> 00:26:56.039
 our lives

00:26:56.039 --> 00:26:57.480
 this sense

00:26:57.480 --> 00:26:58.259
 of guilt

00:26:58.259 --> 00:26:58.920
 and with it

00:26:58.920 --> 00:26:59.340
 this sense

00:26:59.340 --> 00:27:00.019
 of shame

00:27:00.019 --> 00:27:01.819
 and a sense

00:27:01.819 --> 00:27:02.080
 of type

00:27:02.080 --> 00:27:03.019
 of powerlessness

00:27:03.019 --> 00:27:03.759
 in the face

00:27:03.759 --> 00:27:04.120
 of it

00:27:04.120 --> 00:27:05.140
 and it

00:27:05.140 --> 00:27:06.880
 sort of

00:27:06.880 --> 00:27:07.360
 beats us

00:27:07.360 --> 00:27:07.680
 up

00:27:07.680 --> 00:27:09.559
 it

00:27:09.559 --> 00:27:11.980
 takes the

00:27:11.980 --> 00:27:12.420
 oomph out

00:27:12.420 --> 00:27:12.759
 of our

00:27:12.759 --> 00:27:13.299
 sails

00:27:13.299 --> 00:27:14.940
 it makes

00:27:14.940 --> 00:27:15.340
 it hard

00:27:15.340 --> 00:27:15.640
 for us

00:27:15.640 --> 00:27:15.940
 to look

00:27:15.940 --> 00:27:16.160
 another

00:27:16.160 --> 00:27:16.539
 person

00:27:16.539 --> 00:27:16.779
 in the

00:27:16.779 --> 00:27:17.039
 eye

00:27:17.039 --> 00:27:18.819
 it makes

00:27:18.819 --> 00:27:19.200
 it hard

00:27:19.200 --> 00:27:19.659
 for us

00:27:19.659 --> 00:27:20.139
 to enter

00:27:20.139 --> 00:27:20.539
 into a

00:27:20.539 --> 00:27:21.099
 relationship

00:27:21.099 --> 00:27:21.539
 or a

00:27:21.539 --> 00:27:21.899
 friendship

00:27:21.899 --> 00:27:24.379
 it can

00:27:24.379 --> 00:27:24.639
 make it

00:27:24.639 --> 00:27:25.059
 hard for

00:27:25.059 --> 00:27:25.319
 us to

00:27:25.319 --> 00:27:25.700
 see other

00:27:25.700 --> 00:27:26.139
 people

00:27:26.139 --> 00:27:28.740
 it's very

00:27:28.740 --> 00:27:29.379
 isolating

00:27:29.379 --> 00:27:31.059
 and so in

00:27:31.059 --> 00:27:31.700
 response to

00:27:31.700 --> 00:27:31.980
 that our

00:27:31.980 --> 00:27:32.539
 culture does

00:27:32.539 --> 00:27:32.940
 the best

00:27:32.940 --> 00:27:33.359
 it can

00:27:33.359 --> 00:27:33.659
 it says

00:27:33.659 --> 00:27:33.920
 you need

00:27:33.920 --> 00:27:34.319
 to forgive

00:27:34.319 --> 00:27:34.759
 yourself

00:27:34.759 --> 00:27:36.579
 but here's

00:27:36.579 --> 00:27:37.220
 the problem

00:27:37.220 --> 00:27:38.599
 I use this

00:27:38.599 --> 00:27:39.279
 example with

00:27:39.279 --> 00:27:39.420
 them

00:27:39.420 --> 00:27:39.859
 imagine

00:27:39.859 --> 00:27:40.159
 this

00:27:40.159 --> 00:27:41.619
 you know

00:27:41.619 --> 00:27:41.940
 you

00:27:41.940 --> 00:27:43.839
 manage to

00:27:43.839 --> 00:27:44.299
 talk these

00:27:44.299 --> 00:27:44.899
 other three

00:27:44.899 --> 00:27:45.639
 into lending

00:27:45.640 --> 00:27:46.660
 you $5,000

00:27:46.660 --> 00:27:47.300
 and you

00:27:47.300 --> 00:27:47.800
 didn't tell

00:27:47.800 --> 00:27:48.340
 any of the

00:27:48.340 --> 00:27:48.680
 three of

00:27:48.680 --> 00:27:48.860
 them

00:27:48.860 --> 00:27:50.020
 that you

00:27:50.020 --> 00:27:50.300
 were doing

00:27:50.300 --> 00:27:50.540
 it to

00:27:50.540 --> 00:27:50.880
 all of

00:27:50.880 --> 00:27:51.060
 them

00:27:51.060 --> 00:27:51.540
 and then

00:27:51.540 --> 00:27:51.900
 after you

00:27:51.900 --> 00:27:52.220
 got the

00:27:52.220 --> 00:27:52.900
 $5,000

00:27:52.900 --> 00:27:53.740
 you left

00:27:53.740 --> 00:27:54.720
 and you

00:27:54.720 --> 00:27:55.120
 never came

00:27:55.120 --> 00:27:55.380
 back

00:27:55.380 --> 00:27:55.680
 you never

00:27:55.680 --> 00:27:56.040
 paid

00:27:56.040 --> 00:27:56.300
 them

00:27:56.300 --> 00:27:57.740
 and I

00:27:57.740 --> 00:27:58.920
 can tell

00:27:58.920 --> 00:27:59.200
 you for

00:27:59.200 --> 00:27:59.460
 each of

00:27:59.460 --> 00:28:00.040
 those three

00:28:00.040 --> 00:28:01.300
 young women

00:28:01.300 --> 00:28:02.320
 $5,000

00:28:02.320 --> 00:28:02.940
 is a lot

00:28:02.940 --> 00:28:03.280
 of money

00:28:03.280 --> 00:28:04.460
 I mean even

00:28:04.460 --> 00:28:04.940
 for some

00:28:04.940 --> 00:28:05.420
 of us

00:28:05.420 --> 00:28:06.180
 who have

00:28:06.180 --> 00:28:06.540
 a lot

00:28:06.540 --> 00:28:06.920
 of money

00:28:06.920 --> 00:28:07.259
 who could

00:28:07.259 --> 00:28:07.560
 write a

00:28:07.560 --> 00:28:07.740
 check

00:28:07.740 --> 00:28:08.640
 for $5,000

00:28:08.640 --> 00:28:09.280
 we'd be

00:28:09.280 --> 00:28:09.740
 pretty

00:28:09.740 --> 00:28:12.240
 upset

00:28:12.240 --> 00:28:13.000
 if somebody

00:28:13.000 --> 00:28:14.320
 stole $5,000

00:28:14.320 --> 00:28:15.140
 on us

00:28:15.140 --> 00:28:16.020
 and even

00:28:16.020 --> 00:28:16.440
 worse

00:28:16.440 --> 00:28:16.700
 if we

00:28:16.700 --> 00:28:17.040
 found out

00:28:17.040 --> 00:28:17.300
 that we

00:28:17.300 --> 00:28:17.660
 were just

00:28:17.660 --> 00:28:17.960
 one of

00:28:17.960 --> 00:28:18.280
 three

00:28:18.280 --> 00:28:18.600
 and that

00:28:18.600 --> 00:28:18.980
 in fact

00:28:18.980 --> 00:28:19.220
 it was

00:28:19.220 --> 00:28:20.060
 $15,000

00:28:20.060 --> 00:28:24.120
 and then

00:28:24.120 --> 00:28:25.940
 later on

00:28:25.940 --> 00:28:26.759
 in Facebook

00:28:26.759 --> 00:28:27.460
 or Instagram

00:28:27.460 --> 00:28:28.160
 like a year

00:28:28.160 --> 00:28:28.440
 or two

00:28:28.440 --> 00:28:28.800
 or three

00:28:28.800 --> 00:28:29.400
 years later

00:28:29.400 --> 00:28:31.220
 you see

00:28:31.220 --> 00:28:31.900
 their picture

00:28:31.900 --> 00:28:33.580
 and you

00:28:33.580 --> 00:28:34.040
 read this

00:28:34.040 --> 00:28:35.000
 little testimony

00:28:35.000 --> 00:28:35.560
 that they've

00:28:35.560 --> 00:28:35.900
 had in

00:28:35.900 --> 00:28:36.320
 Facebook

00:28:36.320 --> 00:28:37.980
 about how

00:28:37.980 --> 00:28:39.640
 they did

00:28:39.640 --> 00:28:40.200
 these wrong

00:28:40.200 --> 00:28:40.700
 things to

00:28:40.700 --> 00:28:41.160
 their three

00:28:41.160 --> 00:28:41.580
 friends

00:28:41.580 --> 00:28:42.720
 and it

00:28:42.720 --> 00:28:43.160
 involved

00:28:43.160 --> 00:28:43.600
 money

00:28:43.599 --> 00:28:44.679
 and it's

00:28:44.679 --> 00:28:44.959
 really

00:28:44.959 --> 00:28:45.439
 caused

00:28:45.439 --> 00:28:45.799
 this

00:28:45.799 --> 00:28:46.219
 person

00:28:46.219 --> 00:28:46.819
 grief

00:28:46.819 --> 00:28:47.299
 and

00:28:47.299 --> 00:28:48.019
 sadness

00:28:48.019 --> 00:28:49.959
 but

00:28:49.959 --> 00:28:51.459
 and then

00:28:51.459 --> 00:28:51.759
 they write

00:28:51.759 --> 00:28:52.179
 but now

00:28:52.179 --> 00:28:52.740
 I've forgiven

00:28:52.740 --> 00:28:53.299
 myself

00:28:53.299 --> 00:28:56.740
 and I said

00:28:56.740 --> 00:28:57.599
 you wouldn't

00:28:57.599 --> 00:28:58.379
 accept that

00:28:58.379 --> 00:28:58.839
 you say

00:28:58.839 --> 00:28:59.299
 you dirty

00:28:59.299 --> 00:28:59.759
 rat

00:28:59.759 --> 00:29:00.240
 what do you

00:29:00.240 --> 00:29:00.519
 mean

00:29:00.519 --> 00:29:01.839
 you forgave

00:29:01.839 --> 00:29:02.439
 yourself

00:29:02.439 --> 00:29:05.059
 like for

00:29:05.059 --> 00:29:05.719
 those of us

00:29:05.719 --> 00:29:06.039
 who've been

00:29:06.039 --> 00:29:06.740
 victims of

00:29:06.740 --> 00:29:07.219
 abuse

00:29:07.219 --> 00:29:07.740
 and then

00:29:07.740 --> 00:29:08.119
 you find

00:29:08.119 --> 00:29:08.519
 out later

00:29:08.519 --> 00:29:08.980
 two years

00:29:08.980 --> 00:29:09.259
 later

00:29:09.259 --> 00:29:09.659
 that the

00:29:09.659 --> 00:29:10.099
 person who

00:29:10.099 --> 00:29:10.659
 abused you

00:29:10.659 --> 00:29:11.000
 says I

00:29:11.000 --> 00:29:11.599
 now forgive

00:29:11.599 --> 00:29:12.319
 myself for

00:29:12.319 --> 00:29:12.399
 it

00:29:12.399 --> 00:29:12.980
 like what

00:29:12.980 --> 00:29:14.899
 that doesn't

00:29:14.899 --> 00:29:15.279
 make who

00:29:15.279 --> 00:29:15.779
 made who

00:29:15.779 --> 00:29:16.419
 died and

00:29:16.419 --> 00:29:16.879
 made you

00:29:16.879 --> 00:29:17.480
 God

00:29:17.480 --> 00:29:20.819
 how dare

00:29:20.819 --> 00:29:21.779
 you absolve

00:29:21.779 --> 00:29:22.419
 yourself

00:29:22.419 --> 00:29:24.339
 how dare

00:29:24.339 --> 00:29:25.039
 you forgive

00:29:25.039 --> 00:29:25.759
 yourself

00:29:25.759 --> 00:29:31.339
 you see

00:29:31.339 --> 00:29:31.719
 that just

00:29:31.719 --> 00:29:32.419
 doesn't work

00:29:32.419 --> 00:29:33.799
 it's it's a

00:29:33.799 --> 00:29:34.219
 type of

00:29:34.219 --> 00:29:35.359
 self flattery

00:29:35.359 --> 00:29:36.319
 and delusion

00:29:36.319 --> 00:29:38.460
 it's it's

00:29:38.460 --> 00:29:39.019
 taking

00:29:39.019 --> 00:29:40.319
 like to

00:29:40.319 --> 00:29:40.720
 forgive

00:29:40.720 --> 00:29:41.240
 yourself

00:29:41.240 --> 00:29:41.879
 it's actually

00:29:41.879 --> 00:29:42.659
 taking two

00:29:42.659 --> 00:29:43.000
 or three

00:29:43.000 --> 00:29:43.720
 more steps

00:29:43.720 --> 00:29:44.019
 into

00:29:44.019 --> 00:29:44.919
 narcissism

00:29:44.919 --> 00:29:48.059
 and the

00:29:48.059 --> 00:29:48.220
 more

00:29:48.220 --> 00:29:49.119
 narcissistic

00:29:49.119 --> 00:29:49.679
 and proud

00:29:49.679 --> 00:29:50.099
 and self

00:29:50.099 --> 00:29:50.539
 centered you

00:29:50.539 --> 00:29:50.819
 are the

00:29:50.819 --> 00:29:51.559
 more damage

00:29:51.559 --> 00:29:51.879
 you're going

00:29:51.879 --> 00:29:52.179
 to make

00:29:52.179 --> 00:29:52.659
 to others

00:29:52.659 --> 00:29:52.980
 in your

00:29:52.980 --> 00:29:53.559
 own life

00:29:53.559 --> 00:29:55.439
 but then

00:29:55.439 --> 00:29:55.899
 people might

00:29:55.899 --> 00:29:56.259
 say what

00:29:56.259 --> 00:29:56.720
 do you

00:29:56.720 --> 00:29:57.119
 do George

00:29:57.119 --> 00:29:57.559
 like there's

00:29:57.559 --> 00:29:58.159
 no hope

00:29:58.159 --> 00:29:59.399
 well no but

00:29:59.399 --> 00:29:59.919
 that's actually

00:29:59.919 --> 00:30:00.220
 what the

00:30:00.220 --> 00:30:00.879
 gospel is all

00:30:00.879 --> 00:30:01.139
 about

00:30:01.140 --> 00:30:03.640
 you see

00:30:03.640 --> 00:30:04.160
 because

00:30:04.160 --> 00:30:05.580
 what's

00:30:05.580 --> 00:30:06.160
 happening in

00:30:06.160 --> 00:30:06.759
 that moment

00:30:06.759 --> 00:30:07.460
 even when

00:30:07.460 --> 00:30:08.180
 there's the

00:30:08.180 --> 00:30:08.960
 two situations

00:30:08.960 --> 00:30:09.600
 because sometimes

00:30:09.600 --> 00:30:10.200
 we can be

00:30:10.200 --> 00:30:10.620
 overcome

00:30:10.620 --> 00:30:12.500
 with sorrow

00:30:12.500 --> 00:30:13.640
 and guilt

00:30:13.640 --> 00:30:15.040
 and feel bound

00:30:15.040 --> 00:30:15.800
 and all of that

00:30:15.800 --> 00:30:16.520
 when a person

00:30:16.520 --> 00:30:17.420
 has forgiven us

00:30:17.420 --> 00:30:17.880
 and sometimes

00:30:17.880 --> 00:30:18.560
 we feel that

00:30:18.560 --> 00:30:19.180
 when a person

00:30:19.180 --> 00:30:20.320
 hasn't forgiven us

00:30:20.320 --> 00:30:21.740
 and we don't

00:30:21.740 --> 00:30:22.160
 know where to

00:30:22.160 --> 00:30:22.720
 go to it

00:30:22.720 --> 00:30:23.680
 and what

00:30:23.680 --> 00:30:24.740
 this experience

00:30:24.740 --> 00:30:25.640
 is opening

00:30:25.640 --> 00:30:26.440
 the door to

00:30:26.440 --> 00:30:27.000
 is that in

00:30:27.000 --> 00:30:27.420
 the real

00:30:27.420 --> 00:30:28.160
 world

00:30:28.160 --> 00:30:29.900
 in the real

00:30:29.900 --> 00:30:30.480
 world

00:30:30.480 --> 00:30:31.799
 the world

00:30:31.799 --> 00:30:32.539
 of when we

00:30:32.539 --> 00:30:33.120
 walk out the

00:30:33.120 --> 00:30:33.579
 door of

00:30:33.579 --> 00:30:34.339
 streets and

00:30:34.339 --> 00:30:35.059
 cars and

00:30:35.059 --> 00:30:36.019
 sunsets and

00:30:36.019 --> 00:30:36.839
 bank balances

00:30:36.839 --> 00:30:37.700
 and math

00:30:37.700 --> 00:30:39.500
 and in the

00:30:39.500 --> 00:30:40.240
 real world

00:30:40.240 --> 00:30:42.099
 you have been

00:30:42.099 --> 00:30:42.759
 created by

00:30:42.759 --> 00:30:43.160
 God

00:30:43.160 --> 00:30:45.019
 and God

00:30:45.019 --> 00:30:45.940
 still exists

00:30:45.940 --> 00:30:48.259
 and God

00:30:48.259 --> 00:30:48.779
 has made you

00:30:48.779 --> 00:30:49.460
 for himself

00:30:49.460 --> 00:30:50.860
 and your heart

00:30:50.860 --> 00:30:51.579
 is restless

00:30:51.579 --> 00:30:52.400
 until it rests

00:30:52.400 --> 00:30:52.819
 in him

00:30:52.819 --> 00:30:54.539
 and every

00:30:54.539 --> 00:30:55.319
 offense against

00:30:55.319 --> 00:30:55.980
 another person

00:30:55.980 --> 00:30:56.680
 is also an

00:30:56.680 --> 00:30:57.360
 offense against

00:30:57.360 --> 00:30:57.640
 God

00:30:57.640 --> 00:30:58.039
 there's this

00:30:58.039 --> 00:30:58.740
 really wonderful

00:30:58.740 --> 00:30:59.400
 thing I think

00:30:59.400 --> 00:31:00.279
 it's in Acts 9

00:31:00.279 --> 00:31:01.680
 where Paul

00:31:01.680 --> 00:31:02.440
 before he

00:31:02.440 --> 00:31:02.960
 becomes a

00:31:02.960 --> 00:31:03.220
 Christian

00:31:03.220 --> 00:31:03.579
 has been

00:31:03.579 --> 00:31:04.180
 persecuting

00:31:04.180 --> 00:31:04.619
 Christians

00:31:04.619 --> 00:31:05.240
 and Jesus

00:31:05.240 --> 00:31:05.940
 appears to

00:31:05.940 --> 00:31:06.099
 him

00:31:06.099 --> 00:31:07.599
 and Jesus

00:31:07.599 --> 00:31:08.180
 says to

00:31:08.180 --> 00:31:08.339
 him

00:31:08.339 --> 00:31:08.819
 why have

00:31:08.819 --> 00:31:09.139
 you been

00:31:09.139 --> 00:31:09.960
 persecuting

00:31:09.960 --> 00:31:10.460
 me

00:31:10.460 --> 00:31:13.119
 because every

00:31:13.119 --> 00:31:13.680
 act of

00:31:13.680 --> 00:31:14.240
 violence and

00:31:14.240 --> 00:31:14.920
 abuse against

00:31:14.920 --> 00:31:15.559
 another person

00:31:15.559 --> 00:31:16.099
 is also an

00:31:16.099 --> 00:31:16.720
 act of abuse

00:31:16.720 --> 00:31:17.379
 against God

00:31:17.379 --> 00:31:22.960
 and so on

00:31:22.960 --> 00:31:23.379
 one hand

00:31:23.379 --> 00:31:23.779
 what we're

00:31:23.779 --> 00:31:24.740
 longing for

00:31:24.740 --> 00:31:25.819
 is to know

00:31:25.819 --> 00:31:26.819
 God

00:31:26.819 --> 00:31:27.819
 is to know

00:31:27.819 --> 00:31:28.339
 that our

00:31:28.339 --> 00:31:28.759
 creator has

00:31:28.759 --> 00:31:30.480
 forgiven us

00:31:30.480 --> 00:31:30.859
 and has

00:31:30.859 --> 00:31:31.480
 forgiven us

00:31:31.480 --> 00:31:31.919
 in a way

00:31:31.919 --> 00:31:32.279
 that is

00:31:32.279 --> 00:31:32.939
 just

00:31:32.939 --> 00:31:35.240
 that it's

00:31:35.240 --> 00:31:35.659
 not just

00:31:35.659 --> 00:31:36.119
 forgetting

00:31:36.119 --> 00:31:36.659
 it's not

00:31:36.659 --> 00:31:37.159
 just giving

00:31:37.159 --> 00:31:38.039
 me a pass

00:31:38.039 --> 00:31:39.299
 that it's

00:31:39.299 --> 00:31:40.099
 an actual

00:31:40.099 --> 00:31:40.879
 absorbing

00:31:40.879 --> 00:31:42.500
 into himself

00:31:42.500 --> 00:31:44.399
 the consequences

00:31:44.399 --> 00:31:45.139
 of what I've

00:31:45.139 --> 00:31:45.379
 done

00:31:45.379 --> 00:31:45.899
 there's that

00:31:45.899 --> 00:31:46.519
 there must be

00:31:46.519 --> 00:31:47.159
 some way

00:31:47.159 --> 00:31:47.799
 that God

00:31:47.799 --> 00:31:48.579
 can forgive

00:31:48.579 --> 00:31:49.039
 me

00:31:49.039 --> 00:31:50.759
 if you could

00:31:50.759 --> 00:31:51.240
 put up the

00:31:51.240 --> 00:31:51.579
 point

00:31:51.579 --> 00:31:52.699
 it's very

00:31:52.699 --> 00:31:53.199
 interesting

00:31:53.199 --> 00:31:54.000
 that Peter

00:31:54.000 --> 00:31:55.039
 probably calls

00:31:55.039 --> 00:31:55.619
 down a curse

00:31:55.619 --> 00:31:56.399
 upon himself

00:31:56.399 --> 00:31:58.099
 and here's

00:31:58.099 --> 00:31:58.720
 the gospel

00:31:58.720 --> 00:32:00.419
 the curse

00:32:00.419 --> 00:32:00.819
 that you

00:32:00.819 --> 00:32:01.399
 deserved

00:32:01.399 --> 00:32:02.139
 fell on

00:32:02.139 --> 00:32:02.480
 him

00:32:02.480 --> 00:32:03.599
 and the

00:32:03.599 --> 00:32:03.960
 blessing

00:32:03.960 --> 00:32:05.079
 he deserved

00:32:05.079 --> 00:32:06.199
 he put

00:32:06.199 --> 00:32:06.659
 on you

00:32:06.659 --> 00:32:06.980
 and in

00:32:06.980 --> 00:32:07.199
 you

00:32:07.199 --> 00:32:09.599
 the curse

00:32:09.599 --> 00:32:10.139
 that I

00:32:10.139 --> 00:32:10.799
 deserved

00:32:10.799 --> 00:32:11.799
 fell on

00:32:11.799 --> 00:32:12.159
 Jesus

00:32:12.159 --> 00:32:13.619
 and the

00:32:13.619 --> 00:32:14.099
 blessing

00:32:14.099 --> 00:32:15.439
 he deserved

00:32:15.439 --> 00:32:15.779
 in fact

00:32:15.779 --> 00:32:16.399
 he is

00:32:16.399 --> 00:32:16.939
 blessing

00:32:16.939 --> 00:32:18.299
 he put

00:32:18.299 --> 00:32:19.339
 on me

00:32:19.339 --> 00:32:20.099
 and in

00:32:20.099 --> 00:32:20.539
 me

00:32:20.539 --> 00:32:21.559
 when I

00:32:21.559 --> 00:32:22.059
 come to

00:32:22.059 --> 00:32:22.359
 him

00:32:22.359 --> 00:32:23.759
 and acknowledge

00:32:23.759 --> 00:32:25.319
 my guilt

00:32:25.319 --> 00:32:27.920
 and my

00:32:27.920 --> 00:32:28.500
 separation

00:32:28.500 --> 00:32:29.279
 from him

00:32:29.279 --> 00:32:30.259
 and my

00:32:30.259 --> 00:32:30.700
 inability

00:32:30.700 --> 00:32:31.420
 to save

00:32:31.420 --> 00:32:32.079
 myself

00:32:32.079 --> 00:32:34.200
 and I

00:32:34.200 --> 00:32:34.720
 call out

00:32:34.720 --> 00:32:35.019
 to him

00:32:35.019 --> 00:32:35.579
 for mercy

00:32:35.579 --> 00:32:36.159
 and grace

00:32:36.159 --> 00:32:36.819
 that Jesus

00:32:36.819 --> 00:32:37.299
 would have

00:32:37.299 --> 00:32:37.940
 mercy on

00:32:37.940 --> 00:32:38.180
 me

00:32:38.180 --> 00:32:40.099
 and Jesus

00:32:40.099 --> 00:32:40.899
 hears that

00:32:40.899 --> 00:32:41.319
 prayer

00:32:41.319 --> 00:32:42.420
 and he

00:32:42.420 --> 00:32:43.099
 has mercy

00:32:43.099 --> 00:32:43.740
 on me

00:32:43.740 --> 00:32:44.940
 and in

00:32:44.940 --> 00:32:45.579
 that moment

00:32:45.579 --> 00:32:45.940
 as I

00:32:45.940 --> 00:32:46.399
 call out

00:32:46.399 --> 00:32:46.740
 to him

00:32:46.740 --> 00:32:47.460
 for mercy

00:32:47.460 --> 00:32:49.099
 then what

00:32:49.099 --> 00:32:49.740
 happened on

00:32:49.740 --> 00:32:50.259
 the cross

00:32:50.259 --> 00:32:51.319
 2000 years

00:32:51.319 --> 00:32:51.599
 ago

00:32:51.599 --> 00:32:52.200
 is applied

00:32:52.200 --> 00:32:52.839
 to me

00:32:52.839 --> 00:32:55.099
 and in

00:32:55.099 --> 00:32:56.019
 the Bible

00:32:56.019 --> 00:32:56.879
 the Bible

00:32:56.879 --> 00:32:57.660
 is very wise

00:32:57.660 --> 00:32:58.319
 if you trace

00:32:58.319 --> 00:32:59.000
 through blessings

00:32:59.000 --> 00:32:59.819
 and curses

00:32:59.819 --> 00:33:01.379
 and in a

00:33:01.379 --> 00:33:01.680
 sense

00:33:01.680 --> 00:33:02.339
 a blessing

00:33:02.339 --> 00:33:02.900
 and a curse

00:33:02.900 --> 00:33:03.519
 are opposite

00:33:03.519 --> 00:33:04.319
 a blessing

00:33:04.319 --> 00:33:05.839
 when we

00:33:05.839 --> 00:33:06.619
 bless something

00:33:06.619 --> 00:33:07.819
 we're asking

00:33:07.819 --> 00:33:08.220
 that they

00:33:08.220 --> 00:33:08.619
 will be

00:33:08.619 --> 00:33:09.240
 fulfilled

00:33:09.240 --> 00:33:10.160
 that it

00:33:10.160 --> 00:33:10.539
 will be

00:33:10.539 --> 00:33:10.740
 fulfilled

00:33:10.740 --> 00:33:11.160
 that they'll

00:33:11.160 --> 00:33:12.019
 be fulfilled

00:33:12.019 --> 00:33:13.420
 that not

00:33:13.420 --> 00:33:13.839
 just that

00:33:13.839 --> 00:33:14.140
 they'll be

00:33:14.140 --> 00:33:14.500
 fulfilled

00:33:14.500 --> 00:33:14.940
 but that

00:33:14.940 --> 00:33:15.660
 there's a

00:33:15.660 --> 00:33:16.359
 telos

00:33:16.359 --> 00:33:16.819
 an end

00:33:16.819 --> 00:33:17.099
 to their

00:33:17.099 --> 00:33:17.359
 life

00:33:17.359 --> 00:33:17.740
 a good

00:33:17.740 --> 00:33:18.119
 end to

00:33:18.119 --> 00:33:18.480
 their life

00:33:18.480 --> 00:33:18.920
 a meaning

00:33:18.920 --> 00:33:19.300
 to their

00:33:19.300 --> 00:33:19.519
 life

00:33:19.519 --> 00:33:20.019
 a purpose

00:33:20.019 --> 00:33:20.380
 to their

00:33:20.380 --> 00:33:20.580
 life

00:33:20.580 --> 00:33:21.759
 a place

00:33:21.759 --> 00:33:23.140
 in God's

00:33:23.140 --> 00:33:23.440
 universe

00:33:23.440 --> 00:33:23.840
 and with

00:33:23.840 --> 00:33:24.180
 God

00:33:24.180 --> 00:33:24.640
 and we're

00:33:24.640 --> 00:33:25.100
 asking that

00:33:25.100 --> 00:33:25.360
 they would

00:33:25.360 --> 00:33:26.060
 be fulfilled

00:33:26.060 --> 00:33:26.460
 that they

00:33:26.460 --> 00:33:26.920
 would come

00:33:26.920 --> 00:33:27.460
 to that

00:33:27.460 --> 00:33:28.320
 final resting

00:33:28.320 --> 00:33:28.720
 place

00:33:28.720 --> 00:33:29.080
 and move

00:33:29.080 --> 00:33:29.580
 towards

00:33:29.580 --> 00:33:30.560
 that end

00:33:30.560 --> 00:33:30.940
 that they

00:33:30.940 --> 00:33:31.759
 would thrive

00:33:31.759 --> 00:33:32.300
 that they

00:33:32.300 --> 00:33:33.340
 would connect

00:33:33.340 --> 00:33:34.279
 to creation

00:33:34.279 --> 00:33:34.759
 and to

00:33:34.759 --> 00:33:36.480
 God himself

00:33:36.480 --> 00:33:36.920
 that there

00:33:36.920 --> 00:33:38.060
 would be

00:33:38.060 --> 00:33:38.560
 restored

00:33:38.560 --> 00:33:39.300
 relationships

00:33:39.300 --> 00:33:40.000
 with God

00:33:40.000 --> 00:33:40.539
 and with

00:33:40.539 --> 00:33:40.900
 others

00:33:40.900 --> 00:33:42.100
 and that

00:33:42.100 --> 00:33:42.920
 they in a

00:33:42.920 --> 00:33:43.220
 sense would

00:33:43.220 --> 00:33:43.900
 walk in

00:33:43.900 --> 00:33:44.340
 beauty

00:33:44.340 --> 00:33:44.779
 and that

00:33:44.779 --> 00:33:45.300
 beauty would

00:33:45.300 --> 00:33:45.900
 characterize

00:33:45.900 --> 00:33:47.040
 their life

00:33:47.040 --> 00:33:47.380
 and what

00:33:47.380 --> 00:33:47.940
 is a curse

00:33:47.940 --> 00:33:48.400
 a curse

00:33:48.400 --> 00:33:49.019
 is that

00:33:49.019 --> 00:33:49.320
 you will

00:33:49.320 --> 00:33:50.420
 not find

00:33:50.420 --> 00:33:51.060
 fulfillment

00:33:51.060 --> 00:33:51.480
 but that

00:33:51.480 --> 00:33:51.759
 you will

00:33:51.759 --> 00:33:52.040
 find

00:33:52.040 --> 00:33:52.860
 frustration

00:33:52.860 --> 00:33:53.700
 that you

00:33:53.700 --> 00:33:54.180
 will not

00:33:54.180 --> 00:33:55.120
 find that

00:33:55.120 --> 00:33:55.780
 end and

00:33:55.780 --> 00:33:56.400
 purpose for

00:33:56.400 --> 00:33:56.759
 which you

00:33:56.759 --> 00:33:57.120
 were made

00:33:57.120 --> 00:33:57.440
 but that

00:33:57.440 --> 00:33:57.700
 you would

00:33:57.700 --> 00:33:58.400
 be lost

00:33:58.400 --> 00:33:58.820
 from it

00:33:58.820 --> 00:33:59.340
 that you

00:33:59.340 --> 00:33:59.740
 will not

00:33:59.740 --> 00:34:00.480
 thrive

00:34:00.480 --> 00:34:01.480
 in terms

00:34:01.480 --> 00:34:01.860
 of your

00:34:01.860 --> 00:34:02.160
 end

00:34:02.160 --> 00:34:02.500
 but that

00:34:02.500 --> 00:34:02.840
 you will

00:34:02.840 --> 00:34:03.300
 wither

00:34:03.300 --> 00:34:03.980
 it will

00:34:03.980 --> 00:34:04.360
 not be

00:34:04.360 --> 00:34:04.660
 that you

00:34:04.660 --> 00:34:05.259
 connect

00:34:05.259 --> 00:34:05.540
 with

00:34:05.540 --> 00:34:06.540
 God

00:34:06.540 --> 00:34:07.180
 and his

00:34:07.180 --> 00:34:07.600
 creation

00:34:07.600 --> 00:34:07.960
 but that

00:34:07.960 --> 00:34:08.200
 you will

00:34:08.200 --> 00:34:09.180
 be alienated

00:34:09.180 --> 00:34:09.680
 further

00:34:09.680 --> 00:34:10.360
 alienated

00:34:10.360 --> 00:34:10.820
 it is not

00:34:10.820 --> 00:34:11.160
 that you

00:34:11.160 --> 00:34:11.660
 enter into

00:34:11.660 --> 00:34:12.320
 relationship

00:34:12.320 --> 00:34:13.059
 but that

00:34:13.059 --> 00:34:13.579
 you become

00:34:13.579 --> 00:34:14.400
 more lonely

00:34:14.400 --> 00:34:15.079
 and it's

00:34:15.079 --> 00:34:15.460
 not that

00:34:15.460 --> 00:34:15.960
 you walk

00:34:15.960 --> 00:34:16.480
 in beauty

00:34:16.480 --> 00:34:16.900
 but that

00:34:16.900 --> 00:34:17.180
 you are

00:34:17.180 --> 00:34:17.660
 bound

00:34:17.660 --> 00:34:18.700
 by boring

00:34:18.700 --> 00:34:19.660
 ugliness

00:34:19.660 --> 00:34:21.019
 and that's

00:34:21.019 --> 00:34:21.320
 what we

00:34:21.320 --> 00:34:21.579
 wish

00:34:21.579 --> 00:34:22.019
 when we

00:34:22.019 --> 00:34:22.500
 say

00:34:22.500 --> 00:34:23.280
 you know

00:34:23.280 --> 00:34:23.860
 that

00:34:23.860 --> 00:34:24.519
 person

00:34:24.519 --> 00:34:26.559
 they said

00:34:26.559 --> 00:34:27.240
 they forgave

00:34:27.240 --> 00:34:27.639
 themselves

00:34:27.639 --> 00:34:28.480
 and this

00:34:28.480 --> 00:34:29.059
 is the wrong

00:34:29.059 --> 00:34:29.559
 thing they

00:34:29.559 --> 00:34:30.160
 did for me

00:34:30.160 --> 00:34:30.519
 and this

00:34:30.519 --> 00:34:30.820
 is what

00:34:30.820 --> 00:34:31.280
 I hope

00:34:31.280 --> 00:34:32.160
 I hope

00:34:32.160 --> 00:34:32.880
 they wither

00:34:32.880 --> 00:34:33.760
 I hope

00:34:33.760 --> 00:34:34.480
 everybody

00:34:34.480 --> 00:34:35.139
 knows how

00:34:35.139 --> 00:34:35.720
 bad they

00:34:35.720 --> 00:34:35.880
 are

00:34:35.880 --> 00:34:36.519
 I hope

00:34:36.519 --> 00:34:37.220
 that God

00:34:37.220 --> 00:34:37.599
 and others

00:34:37.599 --> 00:34:38.200
 have nothing

00:34:38.200 --> 00:34:38.619
 to do

00:34:38.619 --> 00:34:38.960
 with them

00:34:38.960 --> 00:34:39.400
 I hope

00:34:39.400 --> 00:34:39.780
 that their

00:34:39.780 --> 00:34:40.320
 life will

00:34:40.320 --> 00:34:41.019
 be completely

00:34:41.019 --> 00:34:41.500
 and utterly

00:34:41.500 --> 00:34:42.000
 miserable

00:34:42.000 --> 00:34:42.920
 that's what

00:34:42.920 --> 00:34:43.260
 we do

00:34:43.260 --> 00:34:44.320
 we curse

00:34:44.320 --> 00:34:46.200
 and the

00:34:46.200 --> 00:34:46.740
 wonder of

00:34:46.740 --> 00:34:47.360
 the gospel

00:34:47.360 --> 00:34:47.840
 is the

00:34:47.840 --> 00:34:48.519
 curse that

00:34:48.519 --> 00:34:49.539
 I deserved

00:34:49.539 --> 00:34:50.340
 fell on

00:34:50.340 --> 00:34:50.820
 him

00:34:50.820 --> 00:34:52.360
 and that's

00:34:52.360 --> 00:34:52.660
 why he

00:34:52.660 --> 00:34:53.000
 died on

00:34:53.000 --> 00:34:53.519
 the cross

00:34:53.519 --> 00:34:57.700
 and the

00:34:57.700 --> 00:34:58.240
 blessing that

00:34:58.240 --> 00:34:58.780
 he is

00:34:58.780 --> 00:35:00.600
 is offered

00:35:00.600 --> 00:35:01.100
 to me

00:35:01.100 --> 00:35:02.059
 and it's

00:35:02.059 --> 00:35:02.580
 offered to

00:35:02.580 --> 00:35:02.800
 you

00:35:02.800 --> 00:35:05.280
 we receive

00:35:05.280 --> 00:35:05.600
 it by

00:35:05.600 --> 00:35:06.100
 faith

00:35:06.099 --> 00:35:10.299
 and as

00:35:10.299 --> 00:35:11.400
 as you

00:35:11.400 --> 00:35:11.920
 can see

00:35:11.920 --> 00:35:12.339
 with this

00:35:12.339 --> 00:35:12.779
 image of

00:35:12.779 --> 00:35:13.319
 the curse

00:35:13.319 --> 00:35:13.639
 and the

00:35:13.639 --> 00:35:13.980
 blessing

00:35:13.980 --> 00:35:14.380
 it's

00:35:14.380 --> 00:35:15.339
 deep

00:35:15.339 --> 00:35:17.699
 we desire

00:35:17.699 --> 00:35:18.639
 a deep

00:35:18.639 --> 00:35:19.880
 disorder

00:35:19.880 --> 00:35:21.219
 in those

00:35:21.219 --> 00:35:21.599
 who've done

00:35:21.599 --> 00:35:21.980
 wrong

00:35:21.980 --> 00:35:23.819
 and we

00:35:23.819 --> 00:35:24.380
 desire for

00:35:24.380 --> 00:35:24.799
 ourselves

00:35:24.799 --> 00:35:25.239
 a deep

00:35:25.239 --> 00:35:25.599
 blessing

00:35:25.599 --> 00:35:26.119
 and that's

00:35:26.119 --> 00:35:26.339
 what we

00:35:26.339 --> 00:35:26.759
 see is

00:35:26.759 --> 00:35:27.079
 happening

00:35:27.079 --> 00:35:27.380
 in the

00:35:27.380 --> 00:35:27.799
 cross

00:35:27.800 --> 00:35:30.140
 if you

00:35:30.140 --> 00:35:30.360
 could put

00:35:30.360 --> 00:35:30.560
 up the

00:35:30.560 --> 00:35:31.060
 next point

00:35:31.060 --> 00:35:31.840
 it is

00:35:31.840 --> 00:35:32.380
 real and

00:35:32.380 --> 00:35:32.660
 true

00:35:32.660 --> 00:35:34.460
 he does

00:35:34.460 --> 00:35:35.019
 not weigh

00:35:35.019 --> 00:35:35.700
 your merits

00:35:35.700 --> 00:35:36.480
 he pardons

00:35:36.480 --> 00:35:37.160
 your offenses

00:35:37.160 --> 00:35:39.039
 we see that

00:35:39.039 --> 00:35:39.600
 actually in the

00:35:39.600 --> 00:35:40.220
 text not just

00:35:40.220 --> 00:35:40.800
 in this story

00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:41.260
 you don't have

00:35:41.260 --> 00:35:41.660
 if you have

00:35:41.660 --> 00:35:42.140
 your it's not

00:35:42.140 --> 00:35:42.460
 going to be on

00:35:42.460 --> 00:35:42.780
 the screen

00:35:42.780 --> 00:35:43.080
 because I

00:35:43.080 --> 00:35:43.519
 forgot to

00:35:43.519 --> 00:35:44.539
 ask Claire

00:35:44.539 --> 00:35:45.160
 to put it

00:35:45.160 --> 00:35:45.380
 on the

00:35:45.380 --> 00:35:45.600
 screen

00:35:45.600 --> 00:35:45.860
 but if

00:35:45.860 --> 00:35:46.720
 you back

00:35:46.720 --> 00:35:47.300
 when Jesus

00:35:47.300 --> 00:35:47.920
 in Mark

00:35:47.920 --> 00:35:48.860
 chapter 14

00:35:48.860 --> 00:35:49.560
 verse 48

00:35:49.560 --> 00:35:49.920
 Mark

00:35:49.920 --> 00:35:50.320
 chapter

00:35:50.320 --> 00:35:50.620
 four

00:35:50.620 --> 00:35:52.539
 sorry 28

00:35:52.539 --> 00:35:52.840
 Mark

00:35:52.840 --> 00:35:53.720
 chapter 14

00:35:53.720 --> 00:35:54.500
 verse 28

00:35:54.500 --> 00:35:55.639
 when Jesus

00:35:55.639 --> 00:35:56.940
 has predicted

00:35:56.940 --> 00:35:58.280
 that they're

00:35:58.280 --> 00:35:58.739
 all going to

00:35:58.739 --> 00:35:59.260
 flee and

00:35:59.260 --> 00:35:59.599
 leave him

00:35:59.599 --> 00:35:59.960
 alone

00:35:59.960 --> 00:36:00.739
 he says

00:36:00.739 --> 00:36:01.119
 this is

00:36:01.119 --> 00:36:01.559
 before the

00:36:01.559 --> 00:36:01.699
 cross

00:36:01.699 --> 00:36:02.159
 he knows

00:36:02.159 --> 00:36:02.480
 what he's

00:36:02.480 --> 00:36:02.639
 going to

00:36:02.639 --> 00:36:02.920
 do on

00:36:02.920 --> 00:36:03.380
 the cross

00:36:03.380 --> 00:36:04.260
 he knows

00:36:04.260 --> 00:36:04.460
 they're

00:36:04.460 --> 00:36:04.960
 going to

00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:06.420
 all mess

00:36:06.420 --> 00:36:06.840
 up and

00:36:06.840 --> 00:36:07.619
 all deny

00:36:07.619 --> 00:36:08.019
 him and

00:36:08.019 --> 00:36:08.659
 all flee

00:36:08.659 --> 00:36:09.079
 from him

00:36:09.079 --> 00:36:09.460
 but in

00:36:09.460 --> 00:36:10.380
 verse 28

00:36:10.380 --> 00:36:11.440
 he has

00:36:11.440 --> 00:36:12.219
 this promise

00:36:12.219 --> 00:36:12.880
 for them

00:36:12.880 --> 00:36:13.980
 but after

00:36:13.980 --> 00:36:14.320
 I am

00:36:14.320 --> 00:36:14.719
 raised up

00:36:14.719 --> 00:36:14.960
 in other

00:36:14.960 --> 00:36:15.500
 words after

00:36:15.500 --> 00:36:15.840
 I have

00:36:15.840 --> 00:36:16.400
 died on

00:36:16.400 --> 00:36:17.000
 the cross

00:36:17.000 --> 00:36:17.920
 all alone

00:36:17.920 --> 00:36:19.019
 I will

00:36:19.019 --> 00:36:19.579
 be raised

00:36:19.579 --> 00:36:20.159
 up and

00:36:20.159 --> 00:36:20.719
 I will

00:36:20.719 --> 00:36:21.480
 go before

00:36:21.480 --> 00:36:22.000
 you to

00:36:22.000 --> 00:36:22.559
 Galilee

00:36:22.559 --> 00:36:22.960
 in other

00:36:22.960 --> 00:36:23.539
 words I'm

00:36:23.539 --> 00:36:24.159
 looking forward

00:36:24.159 --> 00:36:24.759
 to seeing

00:36:24.759 --> 00:36:25.319
 you there

00:36:25.319 --> 00:36:28.859
 and in

00:36:28.859 --> 00:36:29.099
 Mark

00:36:29.099 --> 00:36:29.579
 chapter

00:36:29.579 --> 00:36:30.679
 16

00:36:30.679 --> 00:36:33.219
 verse 7

00:36:33.219 --> 00:36:34.139
 after Jesus

00:36:34.139 --> 00:36:34.859
 has died

00:36:34.859 --> 00:36:35.699
 and the

00:36:35.699 --> 00:36:36.159
 grave is

00:36:36.159 --> 00:36:36.579
 empty and

00:36:36.579 --> 00:36:36.960
 he's risen

00:36:36.960 --> 00:36:37.399
 from the

00:36:37.399 --> 00:36:37.679
 dead

00:36:37.679 --> 00:36:38.819
 Jesus

00:36:38.819 --> 00:36:40.179
 says

00:36:40.179 --> 00:36:41.719
 or that

00:36:41.719 --> 00:36:42.279
 the message

00:36:42.279 --> 00:36:42.839
 comes

00:36:42.839 --> 00:36:43.819
 but go

00:36:43.819 --> 00:36:44.559
 tell his

00:36:44.559 --> 00:36:45.219
 disciples

00:36:45.219 --> 00:36:45.940
 and

00:36:45.940 --> 00:36:46.659
 Peter

00:36:46.659 --> 00:36:49.619
 and

00:36:49.619 --> 00:36:50.179
 Peter

00:36:50.179 --> 00:36:52.359
 that he

00:36:52.359 --> 00:36:52.659
 it's the

00:36:52.659 --> 00:36:53.399
 angel says

00:36:53.400 --> 00:36:54.400
 go tell

00:36:54.400 --> 00:36:54.940
 the disciples

00:36:54.940 --> 00:36:55.700
 and Peter

00:36:55.700 --> 00:36:57.180
 Jesus

00:36:57.180 --> 00:36:57.660
 is going

00:36:57.660 --> 00:36:58.280
 to Galilee

00:36:58.280 --> 00:36:59.480
 and he

00:36:59.480 --> 00:36:59.960
 doesn't say

00:36:59.960 --> 00:37:00.480
 that so

00:37:00.480 --> 00:37:00.860
 that Peter

00:37:00.860 --> 00:37:01.300
 can stay

00:37:01.300 --> 00:37:01.760
 away from

00:37:01.760 --> 00:37:02.260
 Galilee

00:37:02.260 --> 00:37:03.639
 but so

00:37:03.639 --> 00:37:04.039
 that Peter

00:37:04.039 --> 00:37:04.440
 can go

00:37:04.440 --> 00:37:04.980
 to Galilee

00:37:04.980 --> 00:37:06.180
 and see

00:37:06.180 --> 00:37:06.740
 Jesus

00:37:06.740 --> 00:37:08.519
 curse that I

00:37:08.519 --> 00:37:09.220
 deserve fell

00:37:09.220 --> 00:37:09.599
 on him

00:37:09.599 --> 00:37:10.039
 the curse

00:37:10.039 --> 00:37:10.539
 that Peter

00:37:10.539 --> 00:37:11.000
 deserved

00:37:11.000 --> 00:37:11.539
 fell on

00:37:11.539 --> 00:37:11.840
 him

00:37:11.840 --> 00:37:12.480
 the blessing

00:37:12.480 --> 00:37:13.599
 that Peter

00:37:13.599 --> 00:37:14.119
 did not

00:37:14.119 --> 00:37:14.559
 deserve

00:37:14.559 --> 00:37:15.139
 the blessing

00:37:15.139 --> 00:37:16.180
 that Jesus

00:37:16.180 --> 00:37:16.880
 deserved

00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:17.920
 as a gift

00:37:17.920 --> 00:37:18.380
 of grace

00:37:18.380 --> 00:37:18.980
 is offered

00:37:18.980 --> 00:37:19.860
 to Peter

00:37:19.860 --> 00:37:23.180
 just a

00:37:23.180 --> 00:37:23.559
 couple of

00:37:23.559 --> 00:37:23.960
 moments

00:37:23.960 --> 00:37:24.880
 so why

00:37:24.880 --> 00:37:25.300
 is it by

00:37:25.300 --> 00:37:25.640
 the way

00:37:25.640 --> 00:37:26.160
 why is

00:37:26.160 --> 00:37:26.480
 there such

00:37:26.480 --> 00:37:27.099
 a sad

00:37:27.099 --> 00:37:28.119
 oh yeah

00:37:28.119 --> 00:37:29.140
 one other

00:37:29.140 --> 00:37:29.460
 thing

00:37:29.460 --> 00:37:30.500
 do you know

00:37:30.500 --> 00:37:30.820
 how

00:37:30.820 --> 00:37:32.140
 strong

00:37:32.140 --> 00:37:32.740
 tradition

00:37:32.740 --> 00:37:34.280
 says that

00:37:34.280 --> 00:37:35.019
 Peter died

00:37:35.019 --> 00:37:37.539
 Peter died

00:37:37.539 --> 00:37:37.940
 depending on

00:37:37.940 --> 00:37:38.519
 how you date

00:37:38.519 --> 00:37:38.960
 this

00:37:38.960 --> 00:37:40.160
 31 to

00:37:40.160 --> 00:37:40.940
 34 years

00:37:40.940 --> 00:37:41.480
 after this

00:37:41.480 --> 00:37:41.940
 account

00:37:41.940 --> 00:37:42.880
 Peter died

00:37:42.880 --> 00:37:45.480
 he died

00:37:45.480 --> 00:37:46.140
 because he

00:37:46.140 --> 00:37:47.019
 refused

00:37:47.019 --> 00:37:48.420
 to deny

00:37:48.420 --> 00:37:49.440
 that the

00:37:49.440 --> 00:37:49.980
 grave was

00:37:49.980 --> 00:37:50.320
 empty

00:37:50.320 --> 00:37:51.240
 and that

00:37:51.240 --> 00:37:51.800
 Jesus had

00:37:51.800 --> 00:37:52.280
 risen from

00:37:52.280 --> 00:37:52.660
 the dead

00:37:52.660 --> 00:37:54.260
 and therefore

00:37:54.260 --> 00:37:54.900
 that he

00:37:54.900 --> 00:37:55.900
 is Messiah

00:37:55.900 --> 00:37:57.079
 and Lord

00:37:57.079 --> 00:37:58.539
 and because

00:37:58.539 --> 00:37:59.579
 he refused

00:37:59.579 --> 00:38:00.260
 to deny

00:38:00.260 --> 00:38:00.960
 that Jesus

00:38:00.960 --> 00:38:01.740
 had conquered

00:38:01.740 --> 00:38:02.240
 death

00:38:02.240 --> 00:38:03.760
 he died

00:38:03.760 --> 00:38:04.860
 by crucifixion

00:38:04.860 --> 00:38:05.820
 under Nero

00:38:05.820 --> 00:38:06.660
 in Rome

00:38:06.660 --> 00:38:07.960
 in 64

00:38:07.960 --> 00:38:14.740
 why is

00:38:14.740 --> 00:38:15.000
 there a

00:38:15.000 --> 00:38:15.220
 sad

00:38:15.220 --> 00:38:15.699
 story

00:38:15.699 --> 00:38:16.639
 in the

00:38:16.639 --> 00:38:17.380
 gospel

00:38:17.380 --> 00:38:17.920
 it's

00:38:17.920 --> 00:38:18.260
 because

00:38:18.260 --> 00:38:18.980
 the need

00:38:18.980 --> 00:38:19.980
 for the

00:38:19.980 --> 00:38:20.659
 forgiveness

00:38:20.659 --> 00:38:21.440
 and these

00:38:21.440 --> 00:38:21.900
 other few

00:38:21.900 --> 00:38:22.300
 things I'll

00:38:22.300 --> 00:38:22.579
 just say

00:38:22.579 --> 00:38:23.019
 in closing

00:38:23.019 --> 00:38:23.900
 we need

00:38:23.900 --> 00:38:24.240
 this in

00:38:24.240 --> 00:38:24.539
 the real

00:38:24.539 --> 00:38:25.000
 world

00:38:25.000 --> 00:38:25.720
 and the

00:38:25.720 --> 00:38:26.139
 gospel

00:38:26.139 --> 00:38:27.019
 is about

00:38:27.019 --> 00:38:27.420
 the real

00:38:27.420 --> 00:38:27.880
 world

00:38:27.880 --> 00:38:29.099
 just very

00:38:29.099 --> 00:38:29.519
 briefly

00:38:29.519 --> 00:38:30.179
 first if

00:38:30.179 --> 00:38:30.380
 you could

00:38:30.380 --> 00:38:30.599
 put up

00:38:30.599 --> 00:38:30.960
 the thing

00:38:30.960 --> 00:38:33.559
 as this

00:38:33.559 --> 00:38:34.000
 story

00:38:34.000 --> 00:38:34.300
 and as

00:38:34.300 --> 00:38:34.900
 the gospel

00:38:34.900 --> 00:38:35.679
 grips you

00:38:35.679 --> 00:38:38.500
 it forms

00:38:38.500 --> 00:38:38.940
 you to be

00:38:38.940 --> 00:38:39.359
 patient

00:38:39.359 --> 00:38:39.859
 with each

00:38:39.859 --> 00:38:40.119
 other

00:38:40.119 --> 00:38:42.859
 if Peter

00:38:42.859 --> 00:38:43.539
 the apostle

00:38:43.539 --> 00:38:44.039
 fell

00:38:44.039 --> 00:38:44.639
 so will

00:38:44.639 --> 00:38:44.899
 you

00:38:44.899 --> 00:38:45.960
 so will

00:38:45.960 --> 00:38:46.139
 I

00:38:46.139 --> 00:38:48.960
 so will

00:38:48.960 --> 00:38:49.379
 your brother

00:38:49.379 --> 00:38:49.919
 and sister

00:38:49.919 --> 00:38:50.519
 in Christ

00:38:50.519 --> 00:38:51.399
 and if

00:38:51.399 --> 00:38:51.899
 the Lord's

00:38:51.899 --> 00:38:52.480
 grace was

00:38:52.480 --> 00:38:53.139
 greater than

00:38:53.139 --> 00:38:53.960
 Peter's fall

00:38:53.960 --> 00:38:55.239
 his grace

00:38:55.239 --> 00:38:55.599
 will be

00:38:55.599 --> 00:38:56.159
 greater for

00:38:56.159 --> 00:38:56.460
 you

00:38:56.460 --> 00:38:57.679
 and for

00:38:57.679 --> 00:38:58.259
 your brother

00:38:58.259 --> 00:38:59.599
 and sister

00:38:59.599 --> 00:39:00.859
 in Christ

00:39:00.859 --> 00:39:03.259
 as the

00:39:03.259 --> 00:39:04.039
 gospel becomes

00:39:04.039 --> 00:39:04.879
 real to us

00:39:04.880 --> 00:39:05.960
 it should

00:39:05.960 --> 00:39:06.680
 make us

00:39:06.680 --> 00:39:06.980
 less

00:39:06.980 --> 00:39:08.019
 judgmental

00:39:08.019 --> 00:39:09.660
 and anal

00:39:09.660 --> 00:39:11.260
 and hard

00:39:11.260 --> 00:39:11.579
 I know

00:39:11.579 --> 00:39:12.200
 it's hard

00:39:12.200 --> 00:39:12.579
 to believe

00:39:12.579 --> 00:39:12.960
 that this

00:39:12.960 --> 00:39:13.360
 is actually

00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:13.800
 what's supposed

00:39:13.800 --> 00:39:14.240
 to happen

00:39:14.240 --> 00:39:14.720
 if you

00:39:14.720 --> 00:39:16.660
 ever look

00:39:16.660 --> 00:39:17.220
 on Twitter

00:39:17.220 --> 00:39:18.039
 and see

00:39:18.039 --> 00:39:19.300
 how unbelievably

00:39:19.300 --> 00:39:20.059
 nasty

00:39:20.059 --> 00:39:20.660
 Christians

00:39:20.660 --> 00:39:21.240
 can be

00:39:21.240 --> 00:39:21.680
 to each

00:39:21.680 --> 00:39:21.960
 other

00:39:21.960 --> 00:39:25.059
 but I

00:39:25.059 --> 00:39:25.519
 have to be

00:39:25.519 --> 00:39:26.180
 patient with

00:39:26.180 --> 00:39:26.340
 them

00:39:26.340 --> 00:39:26.700
 because I

00:39:26.700 --> 00:39:27.240
 fall too

00:39:27.240 --> 00:39:30.240
 and if

00:39:30.240 --> 00:39:30.480
 you could

00:39:30.480 --> 00:39:30.880
 put up

00:39:30.880 --> 00:39:31.280
 the

00:39:31.280 --> 00:39:32.340
 oh

00:39:32.340 --> 00:39:32.760
 sorry

00:39:32.760 --> 00:39:33.140
 there's

00:39:33.140 --> 00:39:33.280
 no

00:39:33.280 --> 00:39:34.099
 just by

00:39:34.099 --> 00:39:34.299
 this

00:39:34.299 --> 00:39:34.519
 point

00:39:34.519 --> 00:39:34.799
 doesn't

00:39:34.799 --> 00:39:34.960
 have

00:39:34.960 --> 00:39:35.079
 it's

00:39:35.079 --> 00:39:35.199
 not

00:39:35.199 --> 00:39:35.339
 up

00:39:35.339 --> 00:39:35.860
 in the

00:39:35.860 --> 00:39:36.079
 shade

00:39:36.079 --> 00:39:36.980
 it

00:39:36.980 --> 00:39:37.559
 also

00:39:37.559 --> 00:39:38.920
 this

00:39:38.920 --> 00:39:39.739
 story

00:39:39.739 --> 00:39:40.360
 helps

00:39:40.360 --> 00:39:40.539
 us

00:39:40.539 --> 00:39:40.719
 in

00:39:40.719 --> 00:39:41.119
 prayer

00:39:41.119 --> 00:39:42.460
 as I've

00:39:42.460 --> 00:39:42.980
 said before

00:39:42.980 --> 00:39:43.440
 part of

00:39:43.440 --> 00:39:43.839
 what people

00:39:43.839 --> 00:39:44.400
 outside the

00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:44.940
 Christian faith

00:39:44.940 --> 00:39:45.739
 don't understand

00:39:45.739 --> 00:39:46.480
 is that once

00:39:46.480 --> 00:39:47.039
 the gospel

00:39:47.039 --> 00:39:47.699
 becomes real

00:39:47.699 --> 00:39:48.019
 to your

00:39:48.019 --> 00:39:48.299
 heart

00:39:48.299 --> 00:39:49.259
 it becomes

00:39:49.259 --> 00:39:49.759
 more real

00:39:49.759 --> 00:39:50.079
 to your

00:39:50.079 --> 00:39:50.279
 heart

00:39:50.279 --> 00:39:50.679
 there's a

00:39:50.679 --> 00:39:51.179
 profound

00:39:51.179 --> 00:39:51.839
 beauty

00:39:51.839 --> 00:39:53.319
 and emotional

00:39:53.319 --> 00:39:53.860
 resonance

00:39:53.860 --> 00:39:54.519
 to it

00:39:54.519 --> 00:39:57.259
 I was

00:39:57.259 --> 00:39:57.840
 talking to

00:39:57.840 --> 00:39:58.179
 a fellow

00:39:58.179 --> 00:39:58.460
 in a

00:39:58.460 --> 00:39:58.699
 coffee

00:39:58.699 --> 00:39:58.980
 shop

00:39:58.980 --> 00:39:59.139
 the

00:39:59.139 --> 00:39:59.280
 other

00:39:59.280 --> 00:39:59.440
 day

00:39:59.440 --> 00:39:59.759
 because

00:39:59.759 --> 00:40:00.199
 he said

00:40:00.199 --> 00:40:00.699
 that karma

00:40:00.699 --> 00:40:01.219
 is better

00:40:01.219 --> 00:40:02.940
 than whatever

00:40:02.940 --> 00:40:03.960
 Christianity has to say

00:40:03.960 --> 00:40:04.539
 I said no

00:40:04.539 --> 00:40:05.380
 karma has no

00:40:05.380 --> 00:40:05.780
 mercy

00:40:05.780 --> 00:40:07.400
 and when you

00:40:07.400 --> 00:40:07.860
 screw up

00:40:07.860 --> 00:40:08.400
 there's nothing

00:40:08.400 --> 00:40:09.099
 you can do

00:40:09.099 --> 00:40:10.699
 you are

00:40:10.699 --> 00:40:11.179
 helpless

00:40:11.179 --> 00:40:11.719
 and all

00:40:11.719 --> 00:40:12.199
 alone

00:40:12.199 --> 00:40:14.000
 because karma

00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:14.960
 is pitiless

00:40:14.960 --> 00:40:16.980
 but I believe

00:40:16.980 --> 00:40:17.480
 I have a

00:40:17.480 --> 00:40:18.099
 savior who

00:40:18.099 --> 00:40:18.619
 knows my

00:40:18.619 --> 00:40:19.199
 frailty

00:40:19.199 --> 00:40:22.019
 and stories

00:40:22.019 --> 00:40:22.579
 like this

00:40:22.579 --> 00:40:23.139
 means that

00:40:23.139 --> 00:40:23.480
 when you

00:40:23.480 --> 00:40:23.839
 have been

00:40:23.839 --> 00:40:24.339
 betrayed

00:40:24.339 --> 00:40:25.039
 when people

00:40:25.039 --> 00:40:25.819
 have been

00:40:25.819 --> 00:40:26.399
 wronged

00:40:26.399 --> 00:40:26.559
 you

00:40:26.559 --> 00:40:27.000
 you can

00:40:27.000 --> 00:40:27.639
 pour your

00:40:27.639 --> 00:40:28.000
 heart

00:40:28.000 --> 00:40:28.460
 out to

00:40:28.460 --> 00:40:28.879
 Jesus

00:40:28.879 --> 00:40:29.299
 who's

00:40:29.299 --> 00:40:29.899
 experienced

00:40:29.899 --> 00:40:30.379
 that

00:40:30.379 --> 00:40:30.919
 himself

00:40:30.919 --> 00:40:32.559
 and he

00:40:32.559 --> 00:40:33.199
 knows

00:40:33.199 --> 00:40:34.799
 your

00:40:34.799 --> 00:40:35.339
 heart

00:40:35.339 --> 00:40:36.739
 Allah

00:40:36.739 --> 00:40:37.719
 is

00:40:37.719 --> 00:40:38.199
 indifferent

00:40:38.199 --> 00:40:40.059
 and many

00:40:40.059 --> 00:40:40.299
 of the

00:40:40.299 --> 00:40:40.539
 eastern

00:40:40.539 --> 00:40:40.960
 religions

00:40:40.960 --> 00:40:41.619
 just tell

00:40:41.619 --> 00:40:41.919
 you that

00:40:41.919 --> 00:40:42.279
 you have

00:40:42.279 --> 00:40:42.619
 to just

00:40:42.619 --> 00:40:43.179
 get over

00:40:43.179 --> 00:40:43.480
 it

00:40:43.480 --> 00:40:46.039
 and

00:40:46.039 --> 00:40:46.659
 learn

00:40:46.659 --> 00:40:47.460
 to be

00:40:47.460 --> 00:40:47.859
 separate

00:40:47.859 --> 00:40:48.339
 from it

00:40:48.339 --> 00:40:48.679
 and just

00:40:48.679 --> 00:40:49.159
 observe

00:40:49.159 --> 00:40:49.739
 yourself

00:40:49.739 --> 00:40:50.239
 but

00:40:50.239 --> 00:40:51.059
 that

00:40:51.059 --> 00:40:51.379
 doesn't

00:40:51.379 --> 00:40:51.719
 answer

00:40:51.719 --> 00:40:52.159
 the deep

00:40:52.159 --> 00:40:52.599
 sorrow

00:40:52.599 --> 00:40:53.039
 of our

00:40:53.039 --> 00:40:53.500
 hearts

00:40:53.500 --> 00:40:53.980
 and we

00:40:53.980 --> 00:40:54.440
 can pour

00:40:54.440 --> 00:40:54.779
 out our

00:40:54.779 --> 00:40:55.099
 hearts

00:40:55.099 --> 00:40:55.539
 to a

00:40:55.539 --> 00:40:55.839
 savior

00:40:55.839 --> 00:40:56.559
 who knows

00:40:56.559 --> 00:40:56.819
 our

00:40:56.819 --> 00:40:57.480
 sorrows

00:40:57.480 --> 00:40:58.199
 who

00:40:58.199 --> 00:40:58.859
 experienced

00:40:58.859 --> 00:40:59.339
 sorrow

00:40:59.339 --> 00:40:59.980
 himself

00:40:59.980 --> 00:41:01.199
 and knows

00:41:01.199 --> 00:41:02.699
 the cursedness

00:41:02.699 --> 00:41:03.119
 of us

00:41:03.119 --> 00:41:03.679
 and became

00:41:03.679 --> 00:41:04.299
 our curse

00:41:04.299 --> 00:41:05.000
 for us

00:41:05.000 --> 00:41:06.419
 and finally

00:41:06.419 --> 00:41:06.819
 if you could

00:41:06.819 --> 00:41:07.219
 put up the

00:41:07.219 --> 00:41:07.819
 last point

00:41:07.819 --> 00:41:09.899
 the grace

00:41:09.899 --> 00:41:10.219
 of our

00:41:10.219 --> 00:41:10.699
 Lord Jesus

00:41:10.699 --> 00:41:11.119
 Christ

00:41:11.119 --> 00:41:11.819
 grounds

00:41:11.819 --> 00:41:12.639
 draws

00:41:12.639 --> 00:41:13.919
 and

00:41:13.919 --> 00:41:17.539
 I can't

00:41:17.539 --> 00:41:17.899
 read my

00:41:17.899 --> 00:41:18.279
 writing

00:41:18.280 --> 00:41:19.320
 what was

00:41:19.320 --> 00:41:19.760
 the last

00:41:19.760 --> 00:41:20.120
 one

00:41:20.120 --> 00:41:21.880
 and

00:41:21.880 --> 00:41:22.400
 fuels

00:41:22.400 --> 00:41:22.900
 that's

00:41:22.900 --> 00:41:23.300
 the word

00:41:23.300 --> 00:41:23.900
 honest

00:41:23.900 --> 00:41:24.400
 self

00:41:24.400 --> 00:41:25.140
 examination

00:41:25.140 --> 00:41:25.800
 repentance

00:41:25.800 --> 00:41:26.420
 and amendment

00:41:26.420 --> 00:41:26.960
 of life

00:41:26.960 --> 00:41:27.340
 like the

00:41:27.340 --> 00:41:29.000
 the irony

00:41:29.000 --> 00:41:30.060
 the paradox

00:41:30.060 --> 00:41:30.760
 the mystery

00:41:30.760 --> 00:41:31.560
 of the gospel

00:41:31.560 --> 00:41:32.519
 is that as

00:41:32.519 --> 00:41:33.420
 this story

00:41:33.420 --> 00:41:35.260
 as we hear

00:41:35.260 --> 00:41:35.780
 of Peter

00:41:35.780 --> 00:41:36.360
 in light of

00:41:36.360 --> 00:41:36.840
 what Jesus

00:41:36.840 --> 00:41:37.460
 does for us

00:41:37.460 --> 00:41:38.040
 on the cross

00:41:38.040 --> 00:41:38.600
 and as we

00:41:38.600 --> 00:41:39.280
 understand what

00:41:39.280 --> 00:41:40.019
 Jesus has done

00:41:40.019 --> 00:41:40.860
 for us on the cross

00:41:40.860 --> 00:41:41.800
 and who he is

00:41:41.800 --> 00:41:43.360
 and we look at

00:41:43.360 --> 00:41:43.900
 these stories

00:41:43.900 --> 00:41:44.579
 rather than

00:41:44.579 --> 00:41:45.160
 making us

00:41:45.160 --> 00:41:45.960
 complacent

00:41:45.960 --> 00:41:46.860
 about the

00:41:46.860 --> 00:41:47.559
 wrong things

00:41:47.559 --> 00:41:47.900
 we do

00:41:47.900 --> 00:41:48.160
 in our

00:41:48.160 --> 00:41:48.440
 life

00:41:48.440 --> 00:41:49.280
 it actually

00:41:49.280 --> 00:41:51.280
 grounds

00:41:51.280 --> 00:41:53.119
 us looking

00:41:53.119 --> 00:41:53.840
 at ourselves

00:41:53.840 --> 00:41:54.440
 and the wrong

00:41:54.440 --> 00:41:54.960
 that we do

00:41:54.960 --> 00:41:55.820
 it actually

00:41:55.820 --> 00:41:57.200
 draws us

00:41:57.200 --> 00:41:57.760
 the story

00:41:57.760 --> 00:41:58.220
 in a sense

00:41:58.220 --> 00:41:59.180
 draws us

00:41:59.180 --> 00:42:00.000
 and pulls us

00:42:00.000 --> 00:42:01.000
 the way a light

00:42:01.000 --> 00:42:01.579
 in a dark

00:42:01.579 --> 00:42:02.660
 if you're stuck

00:42:02.660 --> 00:42:03.160
 in a dark

00:42:03.160 --> 00:42:03.559
 place

00:42:03.559 --> 00:42:03.980
 and you need to

00:42:03.980 --> 00:42:04.420
 see a light

00:42:04.420 --> 00:42:05.200
 in the distance

00:42:05.200 --> 00:42:06.059
 and it draws

00:42:06.059 --> 00:42:06.519
 you to know

00:42:06.519 --> 00:42:06.880
 you can go

00:42:06.880 --> 00:42:07.240
 that way

00:42:07.240 --> 00:42:07.820
 to safety

00:42:07.820 --> 00:42:10.220
 and it propels

00:42:10.219 --> 00:42:10.419
 you

00:42:10.419 --> 00:42:11.199
 it provides

00:42:11.199 --> 00:42:12.559
 this propelling

00:42:12.559 --> 00:42:13.799
 and it infuels

00:42:13.799 --> 00:42:14.539
 you to actually

00:42:14.539 --> 00:42:15.399
 look at yourself

00:42:15.399 --> 00:42:16.239
 because you see

00:42:16.239 --> 00:42:17.119
 no matter

00:42:17.119 --> 00:42:18.279
 how bad

00:42:18.279 --> 00:42:19.539
 I have been

00:42:19.539 --> 00:42:21.199
 and when I

00:42:21.199 --> 00:42:21.939
 realize some of

00:42:21.939 --> 00:42:22.419
 the things I've

00:42:22.419 --> 00:42:22.819
 done that are

00:42:22.819 --> 00:42:23.799
 very very bad

00:42:23.799 --> 00:42:24.239
 and I can

00:42:24.239 --> 00:42:25.119
 understand how

00:42:25.119 --> 00:42:25.579
 people would

00:42:25.579 --> 00:42:26.419
 want to curse

00:42:26.419 --> 00:42:26.879
 me

00:42:26.879 --> 00:42:30.599
 that curse

00:42:30.599 --> 00:42:31.359
 fell on him

00:42:31.359 --> 00:42:33.599
 there's no

00:42:33.599 --> 00:42:34.379
 aspect of how

00:42:34.379 --> 00:42:35.179
 cursed I am

00:42:35.179 --> 00:42:35.659
 that he does

00:42:35.659 --> 00:42:36.139
 not know

00:42:36.139 --> 00:42:38.500
 that he didn't

00:42:38.500 --> 00:42:39.059
 drink in his

00:42:39.059 --> 00:42:39.359
 cup

00:42:39.360 --> 00:42:43.740
 and so for

00:42:43.740 --> 00:42:44.120
 the first

00:42:44.120 --> 00:42:45.240
 time in your

00:42:45.240 --> 00:42:45.820
 life you can

00:42:45.820 --> 00:42:46.579
 begin to have

00:42:46.579 --> 00:42:47.380
 the emotional

00:42:47.380 --> 00:42:49.200
 and identity

00:42:49.200 --> 00:42:50.039
 security

00:42:50.039 --> 00:42:51.960
 to take

00:42:51.960 --> 00:42:52.720
 responsibility

00:42:52.720 --> 00:42:53.620
 for your own

00:42:53.620 --> 00:42:54.099
 crap

00:42:54.099 --> 00:42:56.539
 and call out

00:42:56.539 --> 00:42:57.000
 to Jesus

00:42:57.000 --> 00:42:57.620
 to help you

00:42:57.620 --> 00:42:57.940
 to move

00:42:57.940 --> 00:42:58.380
 forward

00:42:58.380 --> 00:43:01.059
 and live a

00:43:01.059 --> 00:43:01.599
 good life

00:43:01.599 --> 00:43:02.559
 live a life

00:43:02.559 --> 00:43:03.079
 of beauty

00:43:03.079 --> 00:43:05.440
 invite you

00:43:05.440 --> 00:43:05.940
 to stand

00:43:05.940 --> 00:43:12.260
 I hope

00:43:12.260 --> 00:43:12.500
 you've

00:43:12.500 --> 00:43:13.059
 gathered from

00:43:13.059 --> 00:43:13.380
 this and

00:43:13.380 --> 00:43:13.700
 from my

00:43:13.700 --> 00:43:14.200
 talk that

00:43:14.200 --> 00:43:14.440
 you're

00:43:14.440 --> 00:43:14.860
 invited

00:43:14.860 --> 00:43:17.159
 for those

00:43:17.159 --> 00:43:17.679
 of you who

00:43:17.679 --> 00:43:18.019
 are really

00:43:18.019 --> 00:43:18.820
 struggling with

00:43:18.820 --> 00:43:19.539
 guilt you're

00:43:19.539 --> 00:43:20.260
 you're invited

00:43:20.260 --> 00:43:21.599
 to know the

00:43:21.599 --> 00:43:22.320
 gospel even

00:43:22.320 --> 00:43:22.980
 more deeply

00:43:22.980 --> 00:43:24.460
 and you

00:43:24.460 --> 00:43:25.280
 are invited

00:43:25.280 --> 00:43:25.980
 there's no

00:43:25.980 --> 00:43:26.519
 better time

00:43:26.519 --> 00:43:27.019
 now than in

00:43:27.019 --> 00:43:27.579
 your prayers

00:43:27.579 --> 00:43:28.760
 to call out

00:43:28.760 --> 00:43:29.400
 to Jesus

00:43:29.400 --> 00:43:29.940
 and ask

00:43:29.940 --> 00:43:30.380
 forgiveness

00:43:30.380 --> 00:43:31.380
 and ask that

00:43:31.380 --> 00:43:31.820
 he would help

00:43:31.820 --> 00:43:32.240
 you amend

00:43:32.240 --> 00:43:32.760
 your life

00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:34.060
 and if

00:43:34.060 --> 00:43:34.460
 you've never

00:43:34.460 --> 00:43:34.960
 come to

00:43:34.960 --> 00:43:35.560
 Christ and

00:43:35.560 --> 00:43:36.120
 you start

00:43:36.120 --> 00:43:36.760
 to see the

00:43:36.760 --> 00:43:37.360
 beauty and

00:43:37.360 --> 00:43:37.960
 the power of

00:43:37.960 --> 00:43:38.380
 who he is

00:43:38.380 --> 00:43:38.820
 and the truth

00:43:38.820 --> 00:43:39.340
 of who he is

00:43:39.340 --> 00:43:39.720
 there's no

00:43:39.720 --> 00:43:40.160
 better time

00:43:40.160 --> 00:43:40.720
 now than to

00:43:40.720 --> 00:43:41.160
 call out to

00:43:41.160 --> 00:43:41.660
 him and ask

00:43:41.660 --> 00:43:42.000
 him to be

00:43:42.000 --> 00:43:42.580
 your savior

00:43:42.580 --> 00:43:45.900
 and for those

00:43:45.900 --> 00:43:46.400
 of you who are

00:43:46.400 --> 00:43:47.080
 just struggling

00:43:47.080 --> 00:43:47.740
 with sorrow

00:43:47.740 --> 00:43:48.320
 there's no

00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:48.800
 better time

00:43:48.800 --> 00:43:49.360
 now than to

00:43:49.360 --> 00:43:49.860
 pour out your

00:43:49.860 --> 00:43:50.220
 heart

00:43:50.220 --> 00:43:51.600
 and one of the

00:43:51.600 --> 00:43:52.100
 things you can

00:43:52.100 --> 00:43:52.820
 pray for us

00:43:52.820 --> 00:43:53.400
 is that we as

00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:54.100
 a congregation

00:43:54.100 --> 00:43:54.880
 will not just

00:43:54.880 --> 00:43:56.220
 share the gospel

00:43:56.220 --> 00:43:57.080
 and proclaim the

00:43:57.080 --> 00:43:58.000
 gospel but also

00:43:58.000 --> 00:43:58.860
 that we will be a

00:43:58.860 --> 00:44:00.020
 community that's

00:44:00.020 --> 00:44:00.700
 shaped by the

00:44:00.700 --> 00:44:01.940
 gospel that we

00:44:01.940 --> 00:44:02.360
 will be a

00:44:02.360 --> 00:44:03.120
 community where

00:44:03.120 --> 00:44:05.140
 where it's that

00:44:05.140 --> 00:44:06.039
 people can become

00:44:06.039 --> 00:44:07.039
 more godly more

00:44:07.039 --> 00:44:08.000
 christ-like and

00:44:08.000 --> 00:44:08.640
 that through

00:44:08.640 --> 00:44:09.720
 spiritual and

00:44:09.720 --> 00:44:10.780
 and practical

00:44:10.780 --> 00:44:11.760
 friendships and

00:44:11.760 --> 00:44:12.360
 through small

00:44:12.360 --> 00:44:13.620
 groups and and

00:44:13.620 --> 00:44:14.440
 and through men's

00:44:14.440 --> 00:44:15.039
 and women's

00:44:15.039 --> 00:44:16.220
 ministry that that

00:44:16.220 --> 00:44:17.079
 we can do life

00:44:17.079 --> 00:44:17.880
 together that we

00:44:17.880 --> 00:44:18.720
 can be learn how

00:44:18.720 --> 00:44:19.680
 to be patient with

00:44:19.680 --> 00:44:20.400
 each other that we

00:44:20.400 --> 00:44:21.680
 can we can cry

00:44:21.680 --> 00:44:22.480
 together that we

00:44:22.480 --> 00:44:23.460
 can celebrate

00:44:23.460 --> 00:44:24.360
 together we can

00:44:24.360 --> 00:44:25.180
 do everything in

00:44:25.180 --> 00:44:26.400
 between together all

00:44:26.400 --> 00:44:27.079
 because of the

00:44:27.079 --> 00:44:28.200
 gospel and please

00:44:28.200 --> 00:44:29.079
 pray that that

00:44:29.079 --> 00:44:30.780
 becomes us more

00:44:30.780 --> 00:44:31.440
 and more and

00:44:31.440 --> 00:44:31.720
 more

00:44:32.360 --> 00:44:34.640
 that christ will

00:44:34.640 --> 00:44:36.140
 truly rule in the

00:44:36.140 --> 00:44:36.980
 gospel sense in

00:44:36.980 --> 00:44:37.660
 our midst let's

00:44:37.660 --> 00:44:38.300
 bow our heads in

00:44:38.300 --> 00:44:41.160
 prayer father we

00:44:41.160 --> 00:44:41.980
 thank you that

00:44:41.980 --> 00:44:45.340
 jesus would do

00:44:45.340 --> 00:44:46.980
 such an act of

00:44:46.980 --> 00:44:47.880
 love and grace and

00:44:47.880 --> 00:44:48.740
 mercy and justice

00:44:48.740 --> 00:44:51.640
 for us and we

00:44:51.640 --> 00:44:52.720
 ask lord that the

00:44:52.720 --> 00:44:53.620
 holy spirit would

00:44:53.620 --> 00:44:54.740
 bring this story and

00:44:54.740 --> 00:44:56.000
 bring the gospel and

00:44:56.000 --> 00:44:56.980
 uh deeply and

00:44:56.980 --> 00:44:57.760
 deeply into our

00:44:57.760 --> 00:44:58.340
 hearts that it

00:44:58.340 --> 00:44:59.200
 would form us

00:44:59.199 --> 00:45:00.659
 that it would form

00:45:00.659 --> 00:45:01.839
 us father to stop

00:45:01.839 --> 00:45:02.899
 flattering ourselves

00:45:02.899 --> 00:45:03.939
 and and look at

00:45:03.939 --> 00:45:05.139
 ourselves with with

00:45:05.139 --> 00:45:06.399
 with moral clarity

00:45:06.399 --> 00:45:08.279
 so that we might

00:45:08.279 --> 00:45:09.339
 repent and and you

00:45:09.339 --> 00:45:10.019
 would give us help

00:45:10.019 --> 00:45:11.299
 to amend our lives and

00:45:11.299 --> 00:45:12.239
 we thank you that you

00:45:12.239 --> 00:45:13.480
 are so patient with us

00:45:13.480 --> 00:45:15.000
 and and that our end

00:45:15.000 --> 00:45:16.279
 father in christ our

00:45:16.279 --> 00:45:18.039
 end in christ is glory

00:45:18.039 --> 00:45:21.399
 is welcome from you

00:45:21.399 --> 00:45:23.939
 not weighing our merits

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 but pardoning our

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 offenses that the end

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 of our story in christ

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 is you smiling at us

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 and saying welcome

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 welcome my son welcome

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 my daughter father make

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 christ more real to our

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 hearts we ask this in

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 the name of jesus your

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 son and our savior amen

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 thank you

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 okay