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 Well, we're about to hear the story, the first-hand account of what happened.

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 So will you please let me say just a few words to get us thinking before we hear the story.

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 This COVID crisis we're in, I think it's forced us all to re-evaluate what's essential in our lives.

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 You're probably sick of that word essential, but I think it's making us all ask that question.

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 What is absolutely necessary for my life?

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 When this was all starting, I went to Audi one night, and I didn't care too much that I couldn't get the vegetables I was after, but there was no coffee.

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 So I ordered some online.

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 I don't know why I looked up then.

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 I suppose God does provide all things, but I ordered some online.

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 And as I excitedly opened the delivery, I was wondering if coffee was just a bit too essential for my own happiness.

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 When this card fell out of the package.

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 Could have been an answer.

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 I'm not sure.

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 But the coffee was delicious.

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 And that's the main point.

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 We're all asking this question.

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 What is essential at a public level?

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 What are essential services that remain open?

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 What are essential reasons that we're allowed to leave the house like exercise and acts of compassion?

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 But I reckon we're asking this question at a deeper level than this.

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 I think we're asking the question.

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 What is essential for our home life?

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 What's essential for our relationships being sustained and growing through this time?

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 If we can't be in each other's presence, can't shake hands and hug, how do we express our connection?

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 Being forced to isolate.

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 I wonder if you're like me and you're just growing in your appreciation for how connection is just so close to the heart of what gives us life.

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 So we're all asking this question.

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 What's essential for life?

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 The story we're about to hear gives a surprising answer to our question.

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 What's absolutely essential for my life is that another man died.

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 Jesus died to give us connection with God and connection with one another.

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 So what we're going to do now is we're going to hear this story.

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 Simon will read what happened and I will point out a few things in the story as we go.

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 And as I said, we're going to cross each time.

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 We're going to hear the story in four parts.

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 And after each part, we'll hear from four people and how this story has changed and is changing their lives.

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 So I hope you're looking forward to this.

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 I invite you to listen and to reflect.

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 We pick up the story with Jesus having claimed that he is God's only son, the good shepherd who will lay down his life for his sheep.

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 He's been betrayed by his closest friends, arrested by his own Jewish people, those who should have recognized him.

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 And he's now been handed over to the Roman governor, Pilate.

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 So over to you, Simon, to read part one of the story.

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 Okay.

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 Okay.

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 John chapter 19.

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 Pilate took Jesus and flogged him.

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 And the soldiers twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head and arrayed him in a purple robe.

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 They came up to him saying, hail, king of the Jews and struck him with their hands.

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 Pilate went out again and said to them, see, I am bringing him out to you that you may know that I find no guilt in him.

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 So Jesus came out wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe.

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 Pilate said to them, behold the man.

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 When the chief priests and the officers saw him, they cried out, crucify him, crucify him.

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 Pilate said to them, take him yourselves and crucify him.

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 For I find no guilt in him.

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 The Jews answered him, we have a law.

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 And according to that law, he ought to die because he has made himself the son of God.

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 When Pilate heard this statement, he was even more afraid.

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 He entered his headquarters again and said to Jesus, where are you from?

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 But Jesus gave him no answer.

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 So Pilate said to him, you will not speak to me.

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 Do you not know that I have authority to release you and authority to crucify you?

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 Jesus answered him.

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 You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above.

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 Therefore, he who delivered me over to you has the greatest sin.

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 From then on, Pilate sought to release him.

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 But the Jews cried out, if you release this man, you are not Caesar's friend.

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 Everyone who makes himself a king opposes Caesar.

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 So when Pilate heard these words, he brought Jesus out and sat down on the judgment seat at a place called the stone pavement and in Aramaic, Gabbatha.

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 Now, it was the day of preparation of the Passover.

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 It was about the sixth hour.

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 He said to the Jews, behold your king.

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 And they cried out, away with him, away with him, crucify him.

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 Pilate said to them, shall I crucify your king?

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 The chief priests answered, we have no king but Caesar.

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 So he delivered him over to them to be crucified.

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 So he delivered him over to them to be crucified.

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 It was a very dangerous thing to claim to be a king and so stir people up to go against the authority of Rome.

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 That's a quick and sure way to be crucified.

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 That's the kind of thing that Pilate, the governor representing Caesar, was to squash without mercy or hesitation.

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 But that's why it's really surprising that three times Pilate says in different ways, I find no guilt in him.

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 To try and satisfy the murderous cries of the Jewish authorities, he has Jesus beaten so that he can then release him.

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 Jesus is mocked, dressed in royal purple, which is the best colour by the way, and given a crown of thorns dug into his head,

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 each soldier bowing before him, hail King of the Jews, and striking him.

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 But it's not enough.

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 Only death would satisfy Jesus' own Jewish people.

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 And only a public death, discrediting once and for all, all his claims to be God's son.

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 To be killed and hung on a tree was a sure sign of God's rejection of a person.

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 The Jews won't be satisfied with anything less.

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 Pilate didn't care so much that Jesus was innocent.

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 But he did care that the Jewish authorities were manipulating him to do their will.

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 And they knew they had the upper hand.

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 What would Caesar do if he heard Pilate didn't crucify someone claiming to be the king?

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 Pilate didn't crucify someone claiming to be the king?

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 So easily.

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 But Jesus was silent.

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 Pilate hands Jesus over to be crucified.

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 But not without putting the Jews in their place first.

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 Okay, then, have what you want.

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 This is the only king you Jews will ever have.

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 So now watch him be crushed by the power of Rome.

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 Behold your king.

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 Pilate and the soldiers who beat him had no idea how true their words were.

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 Pilate and the soldiers who beat him had no idea how true their words were.

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 Friends, behold your king.

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 Innocent yet punished.

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 Accused yet silent.

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 Having all authority yet submitting to death.

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 chosen by God yet rejected by the world

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 the question we're left with until the next part of the story is why

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 why would he endure this but before we hear the next part we're going to first

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 cross to Catherine and she's going to share how Jesus

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 has really impacted her life so thank you Catherine

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 okay

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 when I was listening to this story

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 to this reading one of the things that really struck me

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 was how unjustly Jesus was accused and that he didn't do anything

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 and I know for me that this was particularly

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 striking because I really really really hate being unjustly accused and I not only don't want to

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 I always want to be right but I always want to be seen to be right as well and if I am unjustly accused

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 particularly by those closest to me particularly in marriage and at home the wheels fall off I react to really

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 intensely massively defensive massively aggressive and lash out in a really destructive way

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 and when I think about Jesus at this time

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 he of all people not only has the right of being able to say I am right guys but also he has the power to be able to blitz these guys and smash them to smithereens

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 and he doesn't he is silent when accused and he is calm when he responds he responds in a moderated calm way saying you only get this authority because God's given you this authority

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 and it keeps reminding me that I have far less right to be seen as seen as right and in fact it doesn't matter

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 it doesn't matter if those who are with me can see that I'm good or bad God knows

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 that the heart stuff and it gives me a chance to step back and go all right how am I going to respond am I going to respond in a way that is

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 unpleasing to God hitting out at everybody around me or am I going to respond

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 slowly kindly compassionately with patience looking at myself and seeing where the fault is

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 so um I've been 40 years a Christian I can see how much I've changed in that 40 years

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 um particularly under great trials and stress um I can see where I've uh not been what I've wanted to be

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 but where over time things are changing and I hope that things will continue to change in fact I know that things will continue to change

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 um God is working at me and he is really making a difference

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 thanks Catherine we're going to pick up now um midway verse through verse 16 and continue our reading

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 so they took Jesus and he went out bearing his own cross to the place called the place of the skull

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 which in Aramaic is called Golgotha there they crucified him and with him two others one on either side

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 and Jesus between them

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 Pilate also wrote an inscription and put it on the cross

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 it read

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 Jesus of Nazareth

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 the king of the Jews

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 many of the Jews read this inscription

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 for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city

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 and it was written in Aramaic

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 in Latin

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 and in Greek

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 so the chief priests of the Jews said to Pilate

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 do not write the king of the Jews

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 but rather

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 this man said I am king of the Jews

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 Pilate answered

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 what I have written

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 I have written

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 when the soldiers had crucified Jesus

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 they took his garments and divided them into four parts

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 one part for each soldier

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 also his tunic

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 but the tunic was seamless

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 woven in one piece from top to bottom

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 so they said to one another

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 let us not tear it

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 but cast lots for it

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 to see whose it shall be

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 this was to fulfill the scripture

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 which says

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 they divided my garments among them

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 and for my clothing they cast lots

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 so the soldiers did these things

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 but standing by the cross of Jesus

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 were his mother

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 and his mother's sister

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 Mary the wife of Clopas

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 and Mary Magdalene

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 when Jesus saw his mother

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 and the disciple whom he loved

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 standing nearby

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 he said to his mother

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 woman

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 behold

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 your son

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 then he said to the disciple

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 behold

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 your mother

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 and from that hour

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 the disciple took her to his own home

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 after this

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 Jesus knowing that all was now finished

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 said

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 to fulfill the scripture

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 I thirst

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 a jar full of sour wine stood there

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 so they put a sponge full of the sour wine

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 on a hyssop branch

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 and held it to his mouth

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 when Jesus had received the sour wine

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 he said

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 it is finished

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 and he bowed his head

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 and gave up his spirit

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 Roman practice was to

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 whip criminals before they are crucified

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 with whips that have bits of bone and metal

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 tearing at the flesh

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 a crucified victim was stripped naked

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 publicly put to shame

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 with their crime displayed

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 for all the world to see

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 the victim is nailed

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 through their hands

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 or wrists

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 and they are left there

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 in the hot sun

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 for hours

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 sometimes days

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 until eventually

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 the victim is too tired

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 to hold up their body weight

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 to allow air into their lungs

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 and they suffocate

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 but the agony of Jesus

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 isn't the focus

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 in the story

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 instead our attention

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 is drawn

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 to the soldiers

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 gambling

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 for Jesus' clothing

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 unknowingly

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 these executioners

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 are acting

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 to God's script

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 written in Psalm 22

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 a thousand years earlier

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 they divide my garments

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 among them

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 and for my clothing

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 they cast lots

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 Jesus knew

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 that his mission

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 was almost complete

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 so he cries out

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 in thirst

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 as God's word

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 said it would happen

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 and drinking sour wine

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 clothes

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 and drinking sour wine

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 they just seem like

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 random things

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 to focus on

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 don't they

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 but there was nothing

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 random going on

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 and Jesus knew it

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 and that's the point

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 Jesus was fully aware

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 that every step

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 leading to his

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 impending death

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 was the design

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 of his heavenly father

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 and he obeyed

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 every step

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 of the way

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 his last words

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 are not words

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 of a victim

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 but words of triumph

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 it is finished

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 my mission

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 is complete

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 and he bows

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 his head

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 freely

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 giving up

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 his spirit

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 no one

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 took his life

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 from him

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 not Pilate

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 not the Jews

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 they're arguing

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 over the crime

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 written above him

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 the king

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 of the Jews

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 which is written

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 in three languages

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 for all the Roman world

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 to read

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 and understand

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 as Pilate

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 and the Jews

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 fight for authority

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 over the situation

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 unknowingly

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 God is using them

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 to declare

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 to the whole world

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 that Jesus

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 is

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 God's

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 king

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 this is

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 the father's plan

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 for our king

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 to die

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 and our king

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 was obedient

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 to his father

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 until his last breath

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 it

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 is

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 finished

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 we're going

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 to hear now

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 from Gareth

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 who will share

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 how he's come

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 to rest

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 in God's

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 unexpected plan

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 so thanks Gareth

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 good morning all

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 going back to my late teens

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 I believe the real life

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 was random

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 that is

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 I stopped believing

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 that there was a God

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 and I believed

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 that

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 the world

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 came into being

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 randomly

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 by Big Bang

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 or some other such thing

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 when I really thought

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 on that

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 it terrified me

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 because I recognised

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 how short life is

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 and that through

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 that lens

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 how utterly meaningless

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 that terror

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 stayed with me

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 for quite some time

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 until I could stand it

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 no more

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 and ask my father

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 rather a lot of questions

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 about his belief

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 in God

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 my memory of that

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 conversation is very vague

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 I remember thinking

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 that dad's belief

00:20:20.459 --> 00:20:21.659
 wasn't so silly

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 after all

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 I think he prayed

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 at the end

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 and I remember

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 that I felt

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 as if a massive burden

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 had been removed

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 from my shoulders

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 much like that of

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 Pilgrim

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 in Pilgrim's Progress

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 these days

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 I look through

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 a different lens

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 I look at life

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 through God's word

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 the Bible

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 and life makes

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 a lot more sense

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 and it has meaning

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 the psalmist

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 in Psalm 31

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 says

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 I trust in you

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 oh Lord

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 I say

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 you are my God

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 my times

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 are in your hand

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 I believe

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 that I too

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 can trust in God

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 and that my times

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 are in his hand

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 15 years ago

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 I was really unhappy

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 with the job

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 I was in

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 I was starting

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 early in the morning

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 and finishing late

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 not even able

00:21:20.819 --> 00:21:21.460
 to attend

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 an evening Bible study

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 at the new church

00:21:25.019 --> 00:21:25.940
 we were now attending

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 so I prayed

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 Lord please help me

00:21:30.200 --> 00:21:30.639
 with this

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 not too long

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 after that

00:21:33.920 --> 00:21:34.800
 I was called

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 into the boss's office

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 and made redundant

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 we're letting you go

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 he said

00:21:40.920 --> 00:21:41.880
 like I was

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 some sort of fish

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 I said very little

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 but felt quite

00:21:47.259 --> 00:21:48.280
 indignant about it

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 how dare they

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 I thought

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 then I remembered

00:21:51.940 --> 00:21:52.880
 my prayer

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 and could see

00:21:54.040 --> 00:21:55.180
 that God was in it

00:21:55.180 --> 00:21:56.860
 and gave thanks

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 even though

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 it was

00:21:58.560 --> 00:21:59.500
 unnerving

00:21:59.500 --> 00:22:00.519
 to say the least

00:22:00.519 --> 00:22:03.339
 within two weeks

00:22:03.339 --> 00:22:04.660
 I received a phone call

00:22:04.660 --> 00:22:05.279
 from someone

00:22:05.279 --> 00:22:06.700
 saying that they had heard

00:22:06.700 --> 00:22:08.140
 that I may be looking

00:22:08.140 --> 00:22:08.680
 for work

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 and would I consider

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 working for them

00:22:11.640 --> 00:22:14.059
 I said I would consider it

00:22:14.059 --> 00:22:15.220
 and have been working

00:22:15.220 --> 00:22:16.079
 for them ever since

00:22:16.079 --> 00:22:18.880
 God had a more

00:22:18.880 --> 00:22:19.700
 appropriate job

00:22:19.700 --> 00:22:20.039
 for me

00:22:20.039 --> 00:22:21.039
 with regular hours

00:22:21.039 --> 00:22:23.019
 I know that I can

00:22:23.019 --> 00:22:24.220
 really trust in God

00:22:24.220 --> 00:22:25.519
 and my time

00:22:25.519 --> 00:22:27.200
 really is in his hand

00:22:27.200 --> 00:22:29.920
 because of Jesus Christ

00:22:29.920 --> 00:22:30.680
 and what he did

00:22:30.680 --> 00:22:31.380
 on the cross

00:22:31.380 --> 00:22:33.460
 my life has meaning

00:22:33.460 --> 00:22:34.720
 and hope

00:22:34.720 --> 00:22:42.660
 thanks Gareth

00:22:42.660 --> 00:22:46.279
 we'll continue our reading

00:22:46.279 --> 00:22:47.480
 from verse 31

00:22:47.480 --> 00:22:51.680
 since it was the day

00:22:51.680 --> 00:22:52.460
 of preparation

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 and so that the bodies

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 would not remain

00:22:54.759 --> 00:22:55.380
 on the cross

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 on the Sabbath

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 for that Sabbath

00:22:57.640 --> 00:22:58.700
 was a high day

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 the Jews asked

00:23:00.640 --> 00:23:01.740
 Pilate that their legs

00:23:01.740 --> 00:23:02.480
 might be broken

00:23:02.480 --> 00:23:03.559
 and that they might

00:23:03.559 --> 00:23:04.360
 be taken away

00:23:04.360 --> 00:23:06.819
 so the soldiers

00:23:06.819 --> 00:23:07.259
 came

00:23:07.259 --> 00:23:08.200
 and broke the legs

00:23:08.200 --> 00:23:08.839
 of the first

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 and of the other

00:23:10.440 --> 00:23:11.360
 who had been crucified

00:23:11.360 --> 00:23:11.980
 with him

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 but when they came

00:23:14.400 --> 00:23:14.900
 to Jesus

00:23:14.900 --> 00:23:15.860
 and saw that he

00:23:15.860 --> 00:23:16.680
 was already dead

00:23:16.680 --> 00:23:18.060
 they did not

00:23:18.060 --> 00:23:18.820
 break his legs

00:23:18.820 --> 00:23:21.400
 but one of the soldiers

00:23:21.400 --> 00:23:22.360
 pierced his side

00:23:22.360 --> 00:23:22.940
 with a spear

00:23:22.940 --> 00:23:24.340
 and at once

00:23:24.340 --> 00:23:25.140
 there came out

00:23:25.140 --> 00:23:26.160
 blood and water

00:23:26.160 --> 00:23:29.380
 he who saw it

00:23:29.380 --> 00:23:30.400
 has borne witness

00:23:30.400 --> 00:23:31.840
 his testimony

00:23:31.840 --> 00:23:32.560
 is true

00:23:32.560 --> 00:23:33.700
 and he knows

00:23:33.700 --> 00:23:34.300
 that he is telling

00:23:34.300 --> 00:23:34.800
 the truth

00:23:34.800 --> 00:23:36.500
 that you also

00:23:36.500 --> 00:23:37.259
 may believe

00:23:37.259 --> 00:23:39.840
 for these things

00:23:39.840 --> 00:23:40.400
 took place

00:23:40.400 --> 00:23:40.920
 that the scripture

00:23:40.920 --> 00:23:41.840
 might be fulfilled

00:23:41.840 --> 00:23:43.560
 not one of his bones

00:23:43.560 --> 00:23:44.259
 will be broken

00:23:44.259 --> 00:23:46.119
 and again

00:23:46.119 --> 00:23:46.759
 another scripture

00:23:46.759 --> 00:23:47.200
 says

00:23:47.200 --> 00:23:48.559
 they will look

00:23:48.559 --> 00:23:49.000
 on him

00:23:49.000 --> 00:23:49.640
 whom they have

00:23:49.640 --> 00:23:50.140
 pierced

00:23:50.140 --> 00:23:58.859
 well

00:23:58.859 --> 00:24:00.000
 Roman practice

00:24:00.000 --> 00:24:01.220
 was to leave

00:24:01.220 --> 00:24:02.200
 the corpse

00:24:02.200 --> 00:24:03.379
 hanging on the cross

00:24:03.379 --> 00:24:04.140
 for days

00:24:04.140 --> 00:24:05.099
 for the vultures

00:24:05.099 --> 00:24:05.779
 to eat

00:24:05.779 --> 00:24:08.140
 but for the Jews

00:24:08.140 --> 00:24:09.079
 this would be

00:24:09.079 --> 00:24:10.559
 considered as

00:24:10.559 --> 00:24:11.359
 God's curse

00:24:11.359 --> 00:24:12.200
 on the whole land

00:24:12.200 --> 00:24:12.740
 and people

00:24:12.740 --> 00:24:13.580
 to leave

00:24:13.580 --> 00:24:13.940
 the body

00:24:13.940 --> 00:24:14.460
 hanging

00:24:14.460 --> 00:24:16.600
 and especially

00:24:16.600 --> 00:24:17.860
 for this to happen

00:24:17.860 --> 00:24:18.860
 on a Sabbath day

00:24:18.860 --> 00:24:19.519
 at the start

00:24:19.519 --> 00:24:20.259
 of the Passover

00:24:20.259 --> 00:24:20.920
 festival

00:24:20.920 --> 00:24:22.000
 a festival

00:24:22.000 --> 00:24:22.860
 that celebrated

00:24:22.860 --> 00:24:23.539
 cleansing

00:24:23.539 --> 00:24:24.799
 from sin

00:24:24.799 --> 00:24:26.059
 and freedom

00:24:26.059 --> 00:24:27.299
 to live

00:24:27.299 --> 00:24:27.940
 with God

00:24:27.940 --> 00:24:29.819
 to leave

00:24:29.819 --> 00:24:30.160
 the body

00:24:30.160 --> 00:24:30.480
 hanging

00:24:30.480 --> 00:24:30.920
 would just

00:24:30.920 --> 00:24:31.759
 contaminate

00:24:31.759 --> 00:24:33.539
 in Jewish thinking

00:24:33.539 --> 00:24:34.960
 so they asked

00:24:34.960 --> 00:24:35.819
 Pilate to break

00:24:35.819 --> 00:24:36.660
 the legs

00:24:36.660 --> 00:24:37.279
 of Jesus

00:24:37.279 --> 00:24:37.960
 to speed up

00:24:37.960 --> 00:24:38.380
 his death

00:24:38.380 --> 00:24:38.920
 and take him

00:24:38.920 --> 00:24:39.200
 away

00:24:39.200 --> 00:24:41.039
 they come

00:24:41.039 --> 00:24:41.400
 and break

00:24:41.400 --> 00:24:41.740
 the two

00:24:41.740 --> 00:24:42.080
 criminals

00:24:42.080 --> 00:24:42.440
 legs

00:24:42.440 --> 00:24:43.160
 either side

00:24:43.160 --> 00:24:43.720
 but Jesus

00:24:43.720 --> 00:24:44.480
 was already

00:24:44.480 --> 00:24:45.420
 dead

00:24:45.420 --> 00:24:47.100
 and to be sure

00:24:47.100 --> 00:24:47.759
 a soldier

00:24:47.759 --> 00:24:49.080
 pierces his side

00:24:49.080 --> 00:24:49.799
 with his spear

00:24:49.799 --> 00:24:50.360
 and John

00:24:50.360 --> 00:24:50.960
 saw

00:24:50.960 --> 00:24:52.180
 that it brought

00:24:52.180 --> 00:24:52.900
 a sudden

00:24:52.900 --> 00:24:54.220
 flow of blood

00:24:54.220 --> 00:24:55.740
 and water

00:24:55.740 --> 00:24:57.660
 we're not going

00:24:57.660 --> 00:24:58.140
 to go into the

00:24:58.140 --> 00:24:58.539
 details

00:24:58.539 --> 00:24:59.220
 but medically

00:24:59.220 --> 00:25:01.039
 it's kind of

00:25:01.039 --> 00:25:01.460
 obvious

00:25:01.460 --> 00:25:02.580
 he was definitely

00:25:02.580 --> 00:25:02.920
 dead

00:25:02.920 --> 00:25:05.279
 but there's a

00:25:05.279 --> 00:25:06.080
 deeper significance

00:25:06.080 --> 00:25:06.960
 here that John

00:25:06.960 --> 00:25:07.779
 wants us to see

00:25:07.779 --> 00:25:09.059
 in Jewish

00:25:09.059 --> 00:25:09.920
 sacrifices

00:25:09.920 --> 00:25:10.980
 both blood

00:25:10.980 --> 00:25:11.720
 and water

00:25:11.720 --> 00:25:12.680
 are both used

00:25:12.680 --> 00:25:13.379
 to cleanse

00:25:13.379 --> 00:25:14.680
 people from

00:25:14.680 --> 00:25:15.720
 all their

00:25:15.720 --> 00:25:16.839
 moral sin

00:25:16.839 --> 00:25:17.740
 against God

00:25:17.740 --> 00:25:18.740
 making them

00:25:18.740 --> 00:25:19.899
 acceptable

00:25:19.899 --> 00:25:21.539
 to live with

00:25:21.539 --> 00:25:21.720
 him

00:25:21.720 --> 00:25:22.379
 clean

00:25:22.379 --> 00:25:24.139
 reconnected

00:25:24.139 --> 00:25:24.660
 to him

00:25:24.660 --> 00:25:27.359
 just as the

00:25:27.359 --> 00:25:28.519
 Passover lamb

00:25:28.519 --> 00:25:29.500
 had to have

00:25:29.500 --> 00:25:30.299
 no blemish

00:25:30.299 --> 00:25:31.379
 and have no

00:25:31.379 --> 00:25:32.200
 broken bones

00:25:32.200 --> 00:25:32.839
 to be an

00:25:32.839 --> 00:25:33.500
 acceptable

00:25:33.500 --> 00:25:34.559
 sacrifice

00:25:34.559 --> 00:25:35.299
 to God

00:25:35.299 --> 00:25:36.180
 so we see

00:25:36.180 --> 00:25:36.700
 Jesus

00:25:36.700 --> 00:25:38.819
 the true

00:25:38.819 --> 00:25:39.580
 lamb

00:25:39.580 --> 00:25:40.259
 of God

00:25:40.259 --> 00:25:42.059
 who takes

00:25:42.059 --> 00:25:42.680
 away

00:25:42.680 --> 00:25:44.480
 the sin

00:25:44.480 --> 00:25:44.880
 of the

00:25:44.880 --> 00:25:45.360
 world

00:25:45.360 --> 00:25:48.920
 whose sin

00:25:48.920 --> 00:25:49.380
 is taken

00:25:49.380 --> 00:25:49.740
 away

00:25:49.740 --> 00:25:51.220
 John tells

00:25:51.220 --> 00:25:51.720
 us clearly

00:25:51.720 --> 00:25:54.180
 he who saw

00:25:54.180 --> 00:25:54.640
 all this

00:25:54.640 --> 00:25:55.160
 happen

00:25:55.160 --> 00:25:55.900
 with his

00:25:55.900 --> 00:25:56.680
 own eyes

00:25:56.680 --> 00:25:57.460
 has borne

00:25:57.460 --> 00:25:57.799
 witness

00:25:57.799 --> 00:25:58.340
 we have been

00:25:58.340 --> 00:25:59.240
 listening to

00:25:59.240 --> 00:25:59.920
 his testimony

00:25:59.920 --> 00:26:00.620
 this morning

00:26:00.620 --> 00:26:01.220
 and he's

00:26:01.220 --> 00:26:01.799
 telling us

00:26:01.799 --> 00:26:02.080
 this

00:26:02.080 --> 00:26:03.259
 so that we

00:26:03.259 --> 00:26:04.019
 also might

00:26:04.019 --> 00:26:04.460
 believe

00:26:04.460 --> 00:26:06.620
 as you

00:26:06.620 --> 00:26:07.019
 picture

00:26:07.019 --> 00:26:08.120
 the blood

00:26:08.120 --> 00:26:08.799
 coming out

00:26:08.799 --> 00:26:09.200
 of Jesus

00:26:09.200 --> 00:26:09.700
 side

00:26:09.700 --> 00:26:11.980
 do you

00:26:11.980 --> 00:26:12.360
 believe

00:26:12.360 --> 00:26:12.680
 that he

00:26:12.680 --> 00:26:13.079
 did this

00:26:13.079 --> 00:26:13.460
 willingly

00:26:13.460 --> 00:26:15.759
 do you

00:26:15.759 --> 00:26:16.319
 believe

00:26:16.319 --> 00:26:17.440
 he did

00:26:17.440 --> 00:26:17.880
 this for

00:26:17.880 --> 00:26:18.340
 you

00:26:18.340 --> 00:26:21.680
 then all

00:26:21.680 --> 00:26:22.279
 you're wrong

00:26:22.279 --> 00:26:23.160
 before God

00:26:23.160 --> 00:26:23.460
 has been

00:26:23.460 --> 00:26:23.700
 washed

00:26:23.700 --> 00:26:24.039
 clean

00:26:24.039 --> 00:26:27.900
 you can

00:26:27.900 --> 00:26:28.100
 know

00:26:28.100 --> 00:26:28.660
 without a

00:26:28.660 --> 00:26:29.000
 doubt

00:26:29.000 --> 00:26:30.140
 that God

00:26:30.140 --> 00:26:30.799
 loves you

00:26:30.799 --> 00:26:33.279
 John 3

00:26:33.279 --> 00:26:34.319
 16 says

00:26:34.319 --> 00:26:35.919
 for God

00:26:35.919 --> 00:26:39.879
 so loved

00:26:39.879 --> 00:26:40.579
 the world

00:26:40.579 --> 00:26:42.079
 that he

00:26:42.079 --> 00:26:43.059
 gave his

00:26:43.059 --> 00:26:43.519
 one and

00:26:43.519 --> 00:26:44.139
 only son

00:26:44.139 --> 00:26:45.000
 that whoever

00:26:45.000 --> 00:26:45.659
 believes

00:26:45.659 --> 00:26:47.619
 in him

00:26:47.619 --> 00:26:48.299
 shall not

00:26:48.299 --> 00:26:48.680
 perish

00:26:48.680 --> 00:26:50.359
 but have

00:26:50.359 --> 00:26:50.960
 eternal

00:26:50.960 --> 00:26:51.639
 life

00:26:51.640 --> 00:26:56.920
 well we're

00:26:56.920 --> 00:26:57.080
 going to

00:26:57.080 --> 00:26:57.400
 hear now

00:26:57.400 --> 00:26:57.640
 from

00:26:57.640 --> 00:26:58.000
 Marie

00:26:58.000 --> 00:26:59.000
 and

00:26:59.000 --> 00:26:59.200
 Marie

00:26:59.200 --> 00:26:59.440
 is going

00:26:59.440 --> 00:26:59.800
 to share

00:26:59.800 --> 00:27:00.300
 how she

00:27:00.300 --> 00:27:00.580
 has come

00:27:00.580 --> 00:27:01.060
 to believe

00:27:01.060 --> 00:27:01.880
 more deeply

00:27:01.880 --> 00:27:03.300
 of God's

00:27:03.300 --> 00:27:03.680
 love for

00:27:03.680 --> 00:27:03.940
 her

00:27:03.940 --> 00:27:04.640
 so thanks

00:27:04.640 --> 00:27:04.940
 Marie

00:27:04.940 --> 00:27:09.320
 hi

00:27:09.320 --> 00:27:10.340
 I'm

00:27:10.340 --> 00:27:10.700
 Marie

00:27:10.700 --> 00:27:11.340
 and this

00:27:11.340 --> 00:27:12.020
 is my

00:27:12.020 --> 00:27:12.660
 family

00:27:12.660 --> 00:27:14.500
 sorry in

00:27:14.500 --> 00:27:15.040
 advance

00:27:15.040 --> 00:27:15.780
 if they're

00:27:15.780 --> 00:27:16.000
 a little

00:27:16.000 --> 00:27:16.540
 bit noisy

00:27:16.540 --> 00:27:17.120
 we've just

00:27:17.120 --> 00:27:17.940
 totally rubbed

00:27:17.940 --> 00:27:18.240
 them with

00:27:18.240 --> 00:27:18.560
 chocolate

00:27:18.560 --> 00:27:19.380
 so hopefully

00:27:19.380 --> 00:27:19.660
 they'll be

00:27:19.660 --> 00:27:20.280
 quiet for a

00:27:20.280 --> 00:27:20.520
 moment

00:27:20.519 --> 00:27:21.639
 yeah so I'm

00:27:21.639 --> 00:27:21.980
 just going to

00:27:21.980 --> 00:27:22.319
 share a

00:27:22.319 --> 00:27:22.599
 little bit

00:27:22.599 --> 00:27:23.279
 of my

00:27:23.279 --> 00:27:23.879
 story

00:27:23.879 --> 00:27:25.500
 so Pete

00:27:25.500 --> 00:27:26.160
 and I

00:27:26.160 --> 00:27:28.139
 we got

00:27:28.139 --> 00:27:28.559
 we were

00:27:28.559 --> 00:27:28.900
 high school

00:27:28.900 --> 00:27:29.660
 sweethearts

00:27:29.660 --> 00:27:30.139
 and we got

00:27:30.139 --> 00:27:30.879
 married young

00:27:30.879 --> 00:27:32.220
 and then a

00:27:32.220 --> 00:27:32.680
 few years

00:27:32.680 --> 00:27:33.259
 later we

00:27:33.259 --> 00:27:34.079
 wanted to

00:27:34.079 --> 00:27:35.379
 start our

00:27:35.379 --> 00:27:36.579
 family

00:27:36.579 --> 00:27:38.240
 and

00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:39.299
 unfortunately

00:27:39.299 --> 00:27:40.039
 then we

00:27:40.039 --> 00:27:40.900
 were introduced

00:27:40.900 --> 00:27:42.019
 to infertility

00:27:42.019 --> 00:27:43.660
 and it was

00:27:43.660 --> 00:27:44.180
 a really

00:27:44.180 --> 00:27:45.079
 hard time

00:27:45.079 --> 00:27:45.599
 for us

00:27:45.599 --> 00:27:46.400
 we

00:27:46.400 --> 00:27:48.059
 saw our

00:27:48.059 --> 00:27:48.660
 friends and

00:27:48.660 --> 00:27:49.220
 families

00:27:49.220 --> 00:27:49.660
 having

00:27:49.660 --> 00:27:50.359
 babies

00:27:50.359 --> 00:27:52.599
 great joy

00:27:52.599 --> 00:27:54.219
 and it

00:27:54.219 --> 00:27:54.639
 just wasn't

00:27:54.639 --> 00:27:55.240
 happening for

00:27:55.240 --> 00:27:55.500
 us

00:27:55.500 --> 00:27:56.279
 and the

00:27:56.279 --> 00:27:56.939
 doctor said

00:27:56.939 --> 00:27:57.740
 it was

00:27:57.740 --> 00:27:58.659
 likely not

00:27:58.659 --> 00:27:59.219
 to ever

00:27:59.219 --> 00:28:00.139
 happen for

00:28:00.139 --> 00:28:00.579
 us as

00:28:00.579 --> 00:28:00.839
 well

00:28:00.839 --> 00:28:01.779
 so we

00:28:01.779 --> 00:28:02.059
 had

00:28:02.059 --> 00:28:03.799
 over eight

00:28:03.799 --> 00:28:04.379
 years of

00:28:04.379 --> 00:28:04.879
 medical

00:28:04.879 --> 00:28:05.639
 things

00:28:05.639 --> 00:28:06.740
 and crying

00:28:06.740 --> 00:28:07.699
 and praying

00:28:07.699 --> 00:28:10.639
 and yeah

00:28:10.639 --> 00:28:12.019
 it was a

00:28:12.019 --> 00:28:12.619
 hard time

00:28:12.619 --> 00:28:13.159
 and also

00:28:13.159 --> 00:28:15.099
 a hard time

00:28:15.099 --> 00:28:15.939
 testing me

00:28:15.939 --> 00:28:16.679
 in my faith

00:28:16.680 --> 00:28:17.539
 as a

00:28:17.539 --> 00:28:17.880
 Christian

00:28:17.880 --> 00:28:18.539
 as well

00:28:18.539 --> 00:28:20.539
 I had to

00:28:20.539 --> 00:28:21.060
 keep

00:28:21.060 --> 00:28:21.720
 rereading

00:28:21.720 --> 00:28:22.220
 passages

00:28:22.220 --> 00:28:22.779
 like we've

00:28:22.779 --> 00:28:23.340
 been reading

00:28:23.340 --> 00:28:24.080
 this morning

00:28:24.080 --> 00:28:25.140
 and reminding

00:28:25.140 --> 00:28:25.740
 myself

00:28:25.740 --> 00:28:27.220
 that I

00:28:27.220 --> 00:28:28.039
 actually was

00:28:28.039 --> 00:28:28.440
 loved

00:28:28.440 --> 00:28:30.060
 and I had

00:28:30.060 --> 00:28:30.900
 to believe

00:28:30.900 --> 00:28:31.680
 that I was

00:28:31.680 --> 00:28:32.700
 loved so much

00:28:32.700 --> 00:28:33.519
 that Jesus

00:28:33.519 --> 00:28:34.759
 would die

00:28:34.759 --> 00:28:35.340
 for me

00:28:35.340 --> 00:28:36.779
 and for my

00:28:36.779 --> 00:28:37.140
 sins

00:28:37.140 --> 00:28:37.799
 so that

00:28:37.799 --> 00:28:38.539
 actually helped

00:28:38.539 --> 00:28:39.060
 even though

00:28:39.060 --> 00:28:39.600
 things weren't

00:28:39.600 --> 00:28:40.299
 going to my

00:28:40.299 --> 00:28:40.600
 plans

00:28:40.599 --> 00:28:42.699
 and as

00:28:42.699 --> 00:28:43.000
 you can

00:28:43.000 --> 00:28:43.339
 see

00:28:43.339 --> 00:28:44.459
 we

00:28:44.459 --> 00:28:45.519
 eventually

00:28:45.519 --> 00:28:46.419
 were blessed

00:28:46.419 --> 00:28:47.859
 with kids

00:28:47.859 --> 00:28:49.240
 and now

00:28:49.240 --> 00:28:50.240
 our daily

00:28:50.240 --> 00:28:51.959
 struggle is

00:28:51.959 --> 00:28:52.699
 learning to be

00:28:52.699 --> 00:28:53.059
 a mum

00:28:53.059 --> 00:28:53.839
 with three

00:28:53.839 --> 00:28:54.539
 young kids

00:28:54.539 --> 00:28:55.599
 while the

00:28:55.599 --> 00:28:56.219
 pandemic's

00:28:56.219 --> 00:28:56.639
 going on

00:28:56.639 --> 00:28:56.980
 and I'm

00:28:56.980 --> 00:28:57.799
 trying to be

00:28:57.799 --> 00:28:58.119
 a kidney

00:28:58.119 --> 00:28:58.819
 teacher as

00:28:58.819 --> 00:28:59.079
 well

00:28:59.079 --> 00:29:01.379
 and

00:29:01.379 --> 00:29:02.379
 unfortunately

00:29:02.379 --> 00:29:03.399
 I often

00:29:03.399 --> 00:29:04.519
 get it wrong

00:29:04.519 --> 00:29:05.279
 as a mum

00:29:05.279 --> 00:29:07.799
 I lose

00:29:07.799 --> 00:29:08.619
 my patience

00:29:08.619 --> 00:29:10.299
 I get

00:29:10.299 --> 00:29:10.699
 quick

00:29:10.699 --> 00:29:11.199
 tempered

00:29:11.199 --> 00:29:11.939
 sometimes

00:29:11.939 --> 00:29:14.279
 but

00:29:14.279 --> 00:29:15.399
 thank goodness

00:29:15.399 --> 00:29:16.000
 I don't

00:29:16.000 --> 00:29:16.459
 have to be

00:29:16.459 --> 00:29:17.019
 weighed down

00:29:17.019 --> 00:29:17.519
 by that

00:29:17.519 --> 00:29:18.519
 I can keep

00:29:18.519 --> 00:29:19.079
 on going

00:29:19.079 --> 00:29:20.639
 because I've

00:29:20.639 --> 00:29:21.339
 been cleansed

00:29:21.339 --> 00:29:22.000
 through Jesus

00:29:22.000 --> 00:29:23.679
 of all my

00:29:23.679 --> 00:29:24.399
 sin and all

00:29:24.399 --> 00:29:25.119
 my failures

00:29:25.119 --> 00:29:28.019
 so not only

00:29:28.019 --> 00:29:28.819
 have I been

00:29:28.819 --> 00:29:29.719
 cleansed

00:29:29.719 --> 00:29:30.519
 but God

00:29:30.519 --> 00:29:31.599
 also promises

00:29:31.599 --> 00:29:32.479
 to be there

00:29:32.479 --> 00:29:33.059
 with me

00:29:33.059 --> 00:29:34.399
 and to help

00:29:34.399 --> 00:29:35.099
 me which

00:29:35.099 --> 00:29:35.959
 is a great

00:29:35.959 --> 00:29:36.819
 comfort as

00:29:36.819 --> 00:29:37.579
 a mum

00:29:37.579 --> 00:29:39.519
 especially

00:29:39.519 --> 00:29:40.220
 during all

00:29:40.220 --> 00:29:40.899
 these uncertain

00:29:40.899 --> 00:29:42.179
 times going

00:29:42.179 --> 00:29:42.619
 on in the

00:29:42.619 --> 00:29:42.919
 world

00:29:42.919 --> 00:29:44.939
 so yeah

00:29:44.939 --> 00:29:45.279
 I think

00:29:45.279 --> 00:29:45.699
 that's just

00:29:45.699 --> 00:29:46.079
 what I wanted

00:29:46.079 --> 00:29:46.439
 to share

00:29:46.439 --> 00:29:46.740
 with you

00:29:46.740 --> 00:29:47.059
 guys

00:29:47.059 --> 00:29:47.740
 that I've

00:29:47.740 --> 00:29:47.960
 learned

00:29:47.960 --> 00:29:48.379
 through my

00:29:48.379 --> 00:29:48.899
 experiences

00:29:48.899 --> 00:29:49.519
 some things

00:29:49.519 --> 00:29:49.919
 can be

00:29:49.919 --> 00:29:50.339
 hard

00:29:50.339 --> 00:29:51.720
 and some

00:29:51.720 --> 00:29:52.439
 things don't

00:29:52.439 --> 00:29:53.259
 go to

00:29:53.259 --> 00:29:53.779
 plans

00:29:53.779 --> 00:29:54.919
 to your own

00:29:54.919 --> 00:29:55.399
 plans

00:29:55.399 --> 00:29:57.220
 but you

00:29:57.220 --> 00:29:58.019
 can find

00:29:58.019 --> 00:29:58.759
 love and

00:29:58.759 --> 00:29:59.659
 great comfort

00:29:59.659 --> 00:30:00.199
 in Jesus

00:30:00.199 --> 00:30:00.779
 and you can

00:30:00.779 --> 00:30:01.439
 be cleansed

00:30:01.439 --> 00:30:02.079
 from all

00:30:02.079 --> 00:30:02.779
 your sins

00:30:02.779 --> 00:30:04.799
 and failures

00:30:04.799 --> 00:30:06.159
 through him

00:30:06.159 --> 00:30:07.500
 so yeah

00:30:07.500 --> 00:30:07.919
 I'll get that

00:30:07.919 --> 00:30:08.399
 out of

00:30:08.399 --> 00:30:08.639
 story

00:30:08.639 --> 00:30:09.119
 thank you

00:30:09.119 --> 00:30:10.119
 for listening

00:30:10.119 --> 00:30:10.819
 and kids

00:30:10.819 --> 00:30:11.180
 do you guys

00:30:11.180 --> 00:30:11.599
 want to say

00:30:11.599 --> 00:30:11.980
 goodbye

00:30:11.980 --> 00:30:12.740
 say bye

00:30:12.740 --> 00:30:12.960
 bye

00:30:12.960 --> 00:30:19.159
 thanks Marie

00:30:19.159 --> 00:30:20.539
 and Pete

00:30:20.539 --> 00:30:23.039
 we're just

00:30:23.039 --> 00:30:23.299
 going to read

00:30:23.299 --> 00:30:23.819
 the last part

00:30:23.819 --> 00:30:24.259
 of the passage

00:30:24.259 --> 00:30:24.680
 now from

00:30:24.680 --> 00:30:25.279
 verse 38

00:30:25.279 --> 00:30:29.139
 after these

00:30:29.139 --> 00:30:29.599
 things

00:30:29.599 --> 00:30:30.839
 Joseph of

00:30:30.839 --> 00:30:31.339
 Arimathea

00:30:31.339 --> 00:30:32.139
 who was a

00:30:32.139 --> 00:30:32.779
 disciple of

00:30:32.779 --> 00:30:33.099
 Jesus

00:30:33.099 --> 00:30:34.619
 but secretly

00:30:34.619 --> 00:30:35.259
 for fear of

00:30:35.259 --> 00:30:35.740
 the Jews

00:30:35.740 --> 00:30:37.299
 asked Pilate

00:30:37.299 --> 00:30:37.819
 that he might

00:30:37.819 --> 00:30:38.399
 take away

00:30:38.399 --> 00:30:39.000
 the body of

00:30:39.000 --> 00:30:39.299
 Jesus

00:30:39.299 --> 00:30:40.680
 and Pilate

00:30:40.680 --> 00:30:41.099
 gave him

00:30:41.099 --> 00:30:41.460
 permission

00:30:41.460 --> 00:30:43.940
 so he came

00:30:43.940 --> 00:30:44.440
 and took away

00:30:44.440 --> 00:30:44.980
 his body

00:30:44.980 --> 00:30:47.960
 Nicodemus also

00:30:47.960 --> 00:30:48.940
 who earlier

00:30:48.940 --> 00:30:49.500
 had come to

00:30:49.500 --> 00:30:50.000
 Jesus by

00:30:50.000 --> 00:30:50.379
 night

00:30:50.539 --> 00:30:51.420
 came

00:30:51.420 --> 00:30:52.039
 bringing a

00:30:52.039 --> 00:30:52.519
 mixture of

00:30:52.519 --> 00:30:53.059
 myrrh and

00:30:53.059 --> 00:30:53.619
 aloes

00:30:53.619 --> 00:30:54.799
 about 75

00:30:54.799 --> 00:30:55.559
 pounds in

00:30:55.559 --> 00:30:55.819
 weight

00:30:55.819 --> 00:30:57.659
 so they took

00:30:57.659 --> 00:30:58.000
 the body

00:30:58.000 --> 00:30:58.460
 of Jesus

00:30:58.460 --> 00:30:59.440
 and bound

00:30:59.440 --> 00:30:59.920
 it in linen

00:30:59.920 --> 00:31:00.579
 cloths with

00:31:00.579 --> 00:31:01.079
 the spices

00:31:01.079 --> 00:31:02.259
 as is the

00:31:02.259 --> 00:31:02.879
 burial custom

00:31:02.879 --> 00:31:03.539
 of the Jews

00:31:03.539 --> 00:31:05.960
 now in the

00:31:05.960 --> 00:31:06.500
 place where he

00:31:06.500 --> 00:31:07.039
 was crucified

00:31:07.039 --> 00:31:07.899
 there was a

00:31:07.899 --> 00:31:08.220
 garden

00:31:08.220 --> 00:31:09.379
 and in the

00:31:09.379 --> 00:31:10.180
 garden a

00:31:10.180 --> 00:31:10.680
 new tomb

00:31:10.680 --> 00:31:11.220
 in which no

00:31:11.220 --> 00:31:11.619
 one had yet

00:31:11.619 --> 00:31:12.180
 been laid

00:31:12.180 --> 00:31:14.059
 so because of

00:31:14.059 --> 00:31:14.440
 the Jewish

00:31:14.440 --> 00:31:14.819
 day of

00:31:14.819 --> 00:31:15.339
 preparation

00:31:15.339 --> 00:31:16.279
 since the

00:31:16.279 --> 00:31:16.680
 tomb was

00:31:16.680 --> 00:31:17.099
 close at

00:31:17.099 --> 00:31:17.399
 hand

00:31:17.399 --> 00:31:18.720
 they laid

00:31:18.720 --> 00:31:19.480
 Jesus there

00:31:19.480 --> 00:31:28.339
 we're now

00:31:28.339 --> 00:31:29.440
 final scene

00:31:29.440 --> 00:31:30.259
 our attention

00:31:30.259 --> 00:31:31.039
 is drawn to

00:31:31.039 --> 00:31:32.200
 two very

00:31:32.200 --> 00:31:32.880
 surprising

00:31:32.880 --> 00:31:33.480
 people

00:31:33.480 --> 00:31:35.220
 they're two

00:31:35.220 --> 00:31:35.960
 men of high

00:31:35.960 --> 00:31:36.579
 position

00:31:36.579 --> 00:31:38.259
 among the

00:31:38.259 --> 00:31:39.200
 Jewish leaders

00:31:39.200 --> 00:31:40.960
 Joseph is

00:31:40.960 --> 00:31:41.779
 described as a

00:31:41.779 --> 00:31:42.460
 believer a

00:31:42.460 --> 00:31:43.200
 follower but

00:31:43.200 --> 00:31:44.980
 secretly because

00:31:44.980 --> 00:31:45.599
 he feared the

00:31:45.599 --> 00:31:46.259
 Jewish authorities

00:31:46.259 --> 00:31:47.259
 and you can

00:31:47.259 --> 00:31:48.579
 see why and

00:31:48.579 --> 00:31:49.420
 Nicodemus who

00:31:49.420 --> 00:31:49.980
 was too afraid

00:31:49.980 --> 00:31:50.500
 to come to

00:31:50.500 --> 00:31:51.039
 Jesus in the

00:31:51.039 --> 00:31:52.900
 daylight so he

00:31:52.900 --> 00:31:53.960
 saw him secretly

00:31:53.960 --> 00:31:55.519
 at night these

00:31:55.519 --> 00:31:56.759
 men had a lot

00:31:56.759 --> 00:31:57.799
 to lose their

00:31:57.799 --> 00:31:58.619
 high position

00:31:58.619 --> 00:31:59.720
 maybe even

00:31:59.720 --> 00:32:00.379
 their lives

00:32:00.379 --> 00:32:02.900
 if you were

00:32:02.900 --> 00:32:04.319
 there seeing

00:32:04.319 --> 00:32:05.140
 the corpse of

00:32:05.140 --> 00:32:05.879
 Jesus hanging

00:32:05.879 --> 00:32:06.519
 on the cross

00:32:06.519 --> 00:32:07.680
 how risky

00:32:07.680 --> 00:32:08.700
 would it be to

00:32:08.700 --> 00:32:09.539
 admit before

00:32:09.539 --> 00:32:10.420
 Pilate and the

00:32:10.420 --> 00:32:11.779
 authorities that

00:32:11.779 --> 00:32:12.500
 you believe that

00:32:12.500 --> 00:32:14.180
 this man is

00:32:14.180 --> 00:32:14.759
 worthy of

00:32:14.759 --> 00:32:15.039
 honour

00:32:15.039 --> 00:32:18.139
 I think

00:32:18.139 --> 00:32:18.599
 we're being

00:32:18.599 --> 00:32:19.799
 shown what

00:32:19.799 --> 00:32:20.599
 believing in

00:32:20.599 --> 00:32:21.240
 Jesus looks

00:32:21.240 --> 00:32:21.579
 like

00:32:21.579 --> 00:32:23.539
 it's believing

00:32:23.539 --> 00:32:24.099
 that Jesus

00:32:24.099 --> 00:32:25.460
 is worth

00:32:25.460 --> 00:32:26.839
 risking everything

00:32:26.839 --> 00:32:27.440
 else for

00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:28.700
 it's not

00:32:28.700 --> 00:32:29.460
 hiding but

00:32:29.460 --> 00:32:30.500
 openly confessing

00:32:30.500 --> 00:32:31.759
 it's not living

00:32:31.759 --> 00:32:32.720
 in fear and

00:32:32.720 --> 00:32:33.559
 darkness but

00:32:33.559 --> 00:32:34.859
 walking in the

00:32:34.859 --> 00:32:36.200
 light of his

00:32:36.200 --> 00:32:36.559
 love

00:32:36.559 --> 00:32:39.039
 they've

00:32:39.039 --> 00:32:39.619
 richly

00:32:39.619 --> 00:32:40.379
 prepared his

00:32:40.379 --> 00:32:40.879
 body for

00:32:40.879 --> 00:32:42.240
 burial so

00:32:42.240 --> 00:32:42.539
 that the

00:32:42.539 --> 00:32:43.119
 stench of

00:32:43.119 --> 00:32:43.859
 death wouldn't

00:32:43.859 --> 00:32:44.700
 be so bad

00:32:44.700 --> 00:32:45.779
 and laid

00:32:45.779 --> 00:32:46.200
 him in a

00:32:46.200 --> 00:32:46.680
 tomb in

00:32:46.680 --> 00:32:47.559
 which no

00:32:47.559 --> 00:32:48.380
 one had

00:32:48.380 --> 00:32:48.779
 yet been

00:32:48.779 --> 00:32:49.160
 laid

00:32:49.160 --> 00:32:52.120
 but even

00:32:52.120 --> 00:32:52.460
 as they

00:32:52.460 --> 00:32:53.039
 honour him

00:32:53.039 --> 00:32:54.559
 they show

00:32:54.559 --> 00:32:55.039
 that they

00:32:55.039 --> 00:32:56.400
 don't quite

00:32:56.400 --> 00:32:57.620
 grasp who

00:32:57.620 --> 00:32:58.380
 Jesus is

00:32:58.380 --> 00:32:59.080
 and what he

00:32:59.080 --> 00:32:59.900
 came to do

00:32:59.900 --> 00:33:01.700
 they were

00:33:01.700 --> 00:33:02.480
 treating Jesus

00:33:02.480 --> 00:33:03.279
 as if his

00:33:03.279 --> 00:33:04.200
 story ended

00:33:04.200 --> 00:33:04.840
 in the tomb

00:33:04.840 --> 00:33:06.759
 if the story

00:33:06.759 --> 00:33:07.400
 ended here

00:33:07.400 --> 00:33:08.980
 we would have

00:33:08.980 --> 00:33:09.779
 no reason

00:33:09.779 --> 00:33:10.580
 to celebrate

00:33:10.580 --> 00:33:11.059
 at Easter

00:33:11.059 --> 00:33:11.840
 because death

00:33:11.840 --> 00:33:12.360
 would yet

00:33:12.359 --> 00:33:12.939
 again

00:33:12.939 --> 00:33:13.819
 have the

00:33:13.819 --> 00:33:14.159
 final

00:33:14.159 --> 00:33:14.539
 save

00:33:14.539 --> 00:33:16.599
 I don't

00:33:16.599 --> 00:33:16.819
 think

00:33:16.819 --> 00:33:17.279
 Joseph

00:33:17.279 --> 00:33:17.779
 and

00:33:17.779 --> 00:33:18.399
 Nicodemus

00:33:18.399 --> 00:33:18.779
 would have

00:33:18.779 --> 00:33:19.119
 bothered

00:33:19.119 --> 00:33:20.339
 with spices

00:33:20.339 --> 00:33:21.079
 and wrapping

00:33:21.079 --> 00:33:21.500
 Jesus'

00:33:21.699 --> 00:33:21.939
 body

00:33:21.939 --> 00:33:23.059
 if they

00:33:23.059 --> 00:33:23.500
 knew what

00:33:23.500 --> 00:33:24.059
 was coming

00:33:24.059 --> 00:33:25.379
 on Sunday

00:33:25.379 --> 00:33:25.779
 morning

00:33:25.779 --> 00:33:27.979
 the story

00:33:27.979 --> 00:33:28.539
 doesn't end

00:33:28.539 --> 00:33:28.779
 here

00:33:28.779 --> 00:33:30.839
 and that is

00:33:30.839 --> 00:33:31.319
 such good

00:33:31.319 --> 00:33:31.699
 news

00:33:31.699 --> 00:33:33.240
 for all

00:33:33.240 --> 00:33:33.819
 who believe

00:33:33.819 --> 00:33:34.240
 in him

00:33:34.240 --> 00:33:35.879
 our story

00:33:35.879 --> 00:33:36.500
 doesn't end

00:33:36.500 --> 00:33:36.940
 in death

00:33:36.940 --> 00:33:37.279
 either

00:33:37.279 --> 00:33:41.079
 the cross

00:33:41.079 --> 00:33:42.640
 is blood

00:33:42.640 --> 00:33:43.519
 poured out

00:33:43.519 --> 00:33:45.859
 to reconnect

00:33:45.859 --> 00:33:46.660
 us to

00:33:46.660 --> 00:33:47.019
 God

00:33:47.019 --> 00:33:48.940
 and what

00:33:48.940 --> 00:33:49.960
 followed on

00:33:49.960 --> 00:33:50.599
 Sunday

00:33:50.599 --> 00:33:51.099
 morning

00:33:51.099 --> 00:33:52.359
 is absolutely

00:33:52.359 --> 00:33:53.480
 essential

00:33:53.480 --> 00:33:54.980
 for our

00:33:54.980 --> 00:33:55.400
 life

00:33:55.400 --> 00:33:56.339
 friends

00:33:56.339 --> 00:33:56.900
 behold

00:33:56.900 --> 00:33:57.680
 your king

00:33:57.680 --> 00:34:00.180
 innocent

00:34:00.180 --> 00:34:01.480
 and having

00:34:01.480 --> 00:34:02.519
 all authority

00:34:02.519 --> 00:34:03.960
 yet submitting

00:34:03.960 --> 00:34:05.140
 to injustice

00:34:05.140 --> 00:34:05.980
 and rejection

00:34:05.980 --> 00:34:06.640
 and death

00:34:06.640 --> 00:34:07.740
 obedient

00:34:07.740 --> 00:34:08.780
 trusting

00:34:08.780 --> 00:34:09.579
 his father's

00:34:09.579 --> 00:34:09.960
 plan

00:34:09.960 --> 00:34:12.139
 pouring out

00:34:12.139 --> 00:34:12.800
 his blood

00:34:12.800 --> 00:34:13.699
 for you

00:34:13.699 --> 00:34:15.920
 to wash

00:34:15.920 --> 00:34:16.639
 you clean

00:34:16.639 --> 00:34:18.199
 for everyone

00:34:18.199 --> 00:34:19.000
 who believes

00:34:19.000 --> 00:34:20.460
 dying

00:34:20.460 --> 00:34:21.519
 he destroyed

00:34:21.519 --> 00:34:22.079
 the power

00:34:22.079 --> 00:34:22.599
 of death

00:34:22.599 --> 00:34:23.519
 to give us

00:34:23.519 --> 00:34:24.240
 new and

00:34:24.240 --> 00:34:24.760
 forever

00:34:24.760 --> 00:34:25.900
 life

00:34:25.900 --> 00:34:28.079
 what a

00:34:28.079 --> 00:34:28.340
 king

00:34:28.340 --> 00:34:30.320
 the lamb

00:34:30.320 --> 00:34:31.099
 of God

00:34:31.099 --> 00:34:32.420
 who takes

00:34:32.420 --> 00:34:33.019
 away the

00:34:33.019 --> 00:34:33.460
 sin of the

00:34:33.460 --> 00:34:33.760
 world

00:34:33.760 --> 00:34:37.020
 good reason

00:34:37.020 --> 00:34:37.540
 to celebrate

00:34:37.540 --> 00:34:38.220
 well we're

00:34:38.220 --> 00:34:38.400
 going to

00:34:38.400 --> 00:34:39.400
 finish by

00:34:39.400 --> 00:34:40.180
 hearing from

00:34:40.180 --> 00:34:40.600
 Alyssa

00:34:40.600 --> 00:34:42.020
 as she

00:34:42.020 --> 00:34:42.660
 shares how

00:34:42.660 --> 00:34:43.280
 Jesus has

00:34:43.280 --> 00:34:44.060
 washed her

00:34:44.060 --> 00:34:44.980
 and given

00:34:44.980 --> 00:34:45.740
 her new

00:34:45.740 --> 00:34:46.060
 life

00:34:46.060 --> 00:34:46.800
 so over

00:34:46.800 --> 00:34:47.020
 to you

00:34:47.020 --> 00:34:47.340
 Alyssa

00:34:47.340 --> 00:34:59.060
 sorry

00:34:59.060 --> 00:35:00.220
 I just

00:35:00.220 --> 00:35:00.540
 wanted to

00:35:00.540 --> 00:35:00.920
 share some

00:35:00.920 --> 00:35:01.260
 of my

00:35:01.260 --> 00:35:01.880
 story and

00:35:01.880 --> 00:35:02.620
 how Jesus

00:35:02.620 --> 00:35:03.520
 has and

00:35:03.519 --> 00:35:04.059
 is still

00:35:04.059 --> 00:35:04.599
 impacting

00:35:04.599 --> 00:35:05.739
 my life

00:35:05.739 --> 00:35:07.440
 so I

00:35:07.440 --> 00:35:07.960
 grew up

00:35:07.960 --> 00:35:08.900
 in a

00:35:08.900 --> 00:35:09.519
 loving

00:35:09.519 --> 00:35:10.019
 household

00:35:10.019 --> 00:35:10.820
 we were

00:35:10.820 --> 00:35:11.159
 taught

00:35:11.159 --> 00:35:11.519
 about

00:35:11.519 --> 00:35:12.119
 Jesus

00:35:12.119 --> 00:35:13.679
 and his

00:35:13.679 --> 00:35:14.000
 love

00:35:14.000 --> 00:35:14.320
 and the

00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:14.659
 forgiveness

00:35:14.659 --> 00:35:15.639
 that he

00:35:15.639 --> 00:35:16.159
 offers

00:35:16.159 --> 00:35:17.380
 from a

00:35:17.380 --> 00:35:17.840
 really young

00:35:17.840 --> 00:35:18.199
 age

00:35:18.199 --> 00:35:19.519
 however I

00:35:19.519 --> 00:35:20.320
 don't think

00:35:20.320 --> 00:35:20.800
 I ever

00:35:20.800 --> 00:35:21.739
 really realised

00:35:21.739 --> 00:35:22.360
 the weight

00:35:22.360 --> 00:35:22.940
 of what that

00:35:22.940 --> 00:35:23.239
 meant

00:35:23.239 --> 00:35:24.699
 for myself

00:35:24.699 --> 00:35:25.280
 personally

00:35:25.280 --> 00:35:26.460
 until I

00:35:26.460 --> 00:35:26.940
 was in my

00:35:26.940 --> 00:35:27.579
 late teens

00:35:27.579 --> 00:35:29.819
 so from a

00:35:29.819 --> 00:35:30.840
 young age

00:35:30.840 --> 00:35:31.420
 I fell

00:35:31.420 --> 00:35:32.159
 into some

00:35:32.159 --> 00:35:32.960
 forms of

00:35:32.960 --> 00:35:33.400
 addiction

00:35:33.400 --> 00:35:34.400
 and it

00:35:34.400 --> 00:35:35.119
 became a

00:35:35.119 --> 00:35:36.000
 source of

00:35:36.000 --> 00:35:36.719
 comfort for

00:35:36.719 --> 00:35:36.940
 me

00:35:36.940 --> 00:35:38.639
 I always

00:35:38.639 --> 00:35:39.900
 knew in

00:35:39.900 --> 00:35:40.360
 my heart

00:35:40.360 --> 00:35:40.819
 that there

00:35:40.819 --> 00:35:41.380
 was a

00:35:41.380 --> 00:35:41.779
 God and

00:35:41.779 --> 00:35:42.380
 I believed

00:35:42.380 --> 00:35:42.880
 in him

00:35:42.880 --> 00:35:44.539
 but I

00:35:44.539 --> 00:35:44.900
 really

00:35:44.900 --> 00:35:45.920
 struggled to

00:35:45.920 --> 00:35:47.139
 feel his

00:35:47.139 --> 00:35:47.759
 love and

00:35:47.759 --> 00:35:49.059
 his grace

00:35:49.059 --> 00:35:49.639
 for myself

00:35:49.639 --> 00:35:50.960
 and it's

00:35:50.960 --> 00:35:51.900
 only really

00:35:51.900 --> 00:35:52.379
 been in the

00:35:52.379 --> 00:35:52.859
 last few

00:35:52.859 --> 00:35:53.179
 years that

00:35:53.179 --> 00:35:53.659
 I've come

00:35:53.659 --> 00:35:54.339
 to accept

00:35:54.339 --> 00:35:54.920
 that love

00:35:54.920 --> 00:35:55.699
 and forgiveness

00:35:55.699 --> 00:35:58.159
 it was in

00:35:58.159 --> 00:35:58.699
 those younger

00:35:58.699 --> 00:35:59.400
 years however

00:35:59.400 --> 00:36:00.319
 that I

00:36:00.319 --> 00:36:01.019
 had formed

00:36:01.019 --> 00:36:01.539
 some really

00:36:01.539 --> 00:36:02.079
 unhealthy

00:36:02.079 --> 00:36:02.779
 habits

00:36:02.779 --> 00:36:03.900
 and ways

00:36:03.900 --> 00:36:04.400
 of handling

00:36:04.400 --> 00:36:05.359
 pain and

00:36:05.359 --> 00:36:05.799
 emotions

00:36:05.799 --> 00:36:07.179
 I don't

00:36:07.179 --> 00:36:07.799
 feel I ever

00:36:07.799 --> 00:36:08.339
 learnt to

00:36:08.339 --> 00:36:08.920
 handle pain

00:36:08.920 --> 00:36:09.299
 well

00:36:09.299 --> 00:36:10.440
 and I

00:36:10.440 --> 00:36:11.000
 experienced

00:36:11.000 --> 00:36:11.440
 a lot of

00:36:11.440 --> 00:36:11.679
 it and

00:36:11.679 --> 00:36:12.119
 instead of

00:36:12.119 --> 00:36:12.699
 turning to

00:36:12.699 --> 00:36:13.239
 God to

00:36:13.239 --> 00:36:14.139
 find my

00:36:14.139 --> 00:36:14.900
 worth and

00:36:14.900 --> 00:36:15.519
 identity

00:36:15.519 --> 00:36:17.519
 I allowed

00:36:17.519 --> 00:36:18.659
 the addiction

00:36:18.659 --> 00:36:19.199
 and what

00:36:19.199 --> 00:36:19.799
 it brought

00:36:19.799 --> 00:36:20.179
 with it

00:36:20.179 --> 00:36:20.739
 to define

00:36:20.739 --> 00:36:21.039
 me

00:36:21.039 --> 00:36:22.579
 things like

00:36:22.579 --> 00:36:23.139
 shame

00:36:23.139 --> 00:36:24.719
 feeling not

00:36:24.719 --> 00:36:25.599
 worthy enough

00:36:25.599 --> 00:36:27.259
 and being

00:36:27.259 --> 00:36:27.719
 a failure

00:36:27.719 --> 00:36:29.899
 I carried

00:36:29.899 --> 00:36:30.819
 this identity

00:36:30.819 --> 00:36:31.439
 with me

00:36:31.439 --> 00:36:32.439
 and it only

00:36:32.439 --> 00:36:32.919
 led me

00:36:32.919 --> 00:36:33.379
 further

00:36:33.379 --> 00:36:34.139
 into the

00:36:34.139 --> 00:36:34.559
 path of

00:36:34.559 --> 00:36:34.899
 addiction

00:36:34.899 --> 00:36:35.679
 with every

00:36:35.679 --> 00:36:36.139
 trial

00:36:36.139 --> 00:36:37.319
 and pain

00:36:37.319 --> 00:36:37.659
 that I

00:36:37.659 --> 00:36:38.099
 faced

00:36:38.099 --> 00:36:40.599
 as the

00:36:40.599 --> 00:36:41.019
 years have

00:36:41.019 --> 00:36:41.519
 gone on

00:36:41.519 --> 00:36:42.419
 I feel

00:36:42.419 --> 00:36:42.939
 like

00:36:42.939 --> 00:36:43.859
 I am

00:36:43.859 --> 00:36:44.299
 letting go

00:36:44.299 --> 00:36:44.579
 of the

00:36:44.579 --> 00:36:44.859
 shame

00:36:44.859 --> 00:36:46.199
 the feelings

00:36:46.199 --> 00:36:46.579
 of not

00:36:46.579 --> 00:36:47.379
 being worthy

00:36:47.379 --> 00:36:48.239
 or of

00:36:48.239 --> 00:36:48.739
 being a

00:36:48.739 --> 00:36:49.059
 failure

00:36:49.059 --> 00:36:50.559
 and finding

00:36:50.559 --> 00:36:51.460
 my identity

00:36:51.460 --> 00:36:52.000
 more and

00:36:52.000 --> 00:36:52.559
 more in

00:36:52.559 --> 00:36:53.039
 Jesus

00:36:53.039 --> 00:36:55.000
 but I

00:36:55.000 --> 00:36:55.219
 will be

00:36:55.219 --> 00:36:55.679
 honest in

00:36:55.679 --> 00:36:56.139
 saying it's

00:36:56.139 --> 00:36:56.420
 been a

00:36:56.420 --> 00:36:57.059
 really long

00:36:57.059 --> 00:36:57.860
 hard and

00:36:57.860 --> 00:36:58.579
 slow journey

00:36:58.579 --> 00:37:00.739
 but the

00:37:00.739 --> 00:37:01.340
 only way

00:37:01.340 --> 00:37:01.940
 that's been

00:37:01.940 --> 00:37:02.779
 made possible

00:37:02.779 --> 00:37:05.119
 is coming

00:37:05.119 --> 00:37:05.880
 to understand

00:37:05.880 --> 00:37:06.759
 how wide

00:37:06.759 --> 00:37:07.460
 and how

00:37:07.460 --> 00:37:07.880
 deep

00:37:07.880 --> 00:37:08.799
 and how

00:37:08.799 --> 00:37:09.360
 great the

00:37:09.360 --> 00:37:09.920
 love of

00:37:09.920 --> 00:37:10.699
 Jesus is

00:37:10.699 --> 00:37:11.179
 for me

00:37:11.179 --> 00:37:12.019
 and what

00:37:12.019 --> 00:37:12.759
 his forgiveness

00:37:12.759 --> 00:37:13.519
 and grace

00:37:13.519 --> 00:37:14.219
 really means

00:37:14.219 --> 00:37:16.480
 it's a

00:37:16.480 --> 00:37:17.179
 daily struggle

00:37:17.179 --> 00:37:18.139
 and fight

00:37:18.139 --> 00:37:18.519
 not to

00:37:18.519 --> 00:37:18.859
 hold on

00:37:18.859 --> 00:37:19.159
 to the

00:37:19.159 --> 00:37:19.679
 past

00:37:19.679 --> 00:37:20.899
 and allow

00:37:20.899 --> 00:37:21.299
 what has

00:37:21.299 --> 00:37:21.639
 happened

00:37:21.639 --> 00:37:22.199
 to me

00:37:22.199 --> 00:37:22.599
 or what

00:37:22.599 --> 00:37:22.980
 I have

00:37:22.980 --> 00:37:23.359
 done

00:37:23.359 --> 00:37:24.500
 to define

00:37:24.500 --> 00:37:24.819
 me

00:37:24.819 --> 00:37:25.919
 and I

00:37:25.919 --> 00:37:26.379
 still fall

00:37:26.379 --> 00:37:26.739
 into the

00:37:26.739 --> 00:37:27.279
 trap of

00:37:27.279 --> 00:37:27.899
 thinking that

00:37:27.899 --> 00:37:28.459
 other things

00:37:28.459 --> 00:37:28.959
 can carry

00:37:28.959 --> 00:37:29.439
 me through

00:37:29.439 --> 00:37:30.919
 but every

00:37:30.919 --> 00:37:31.480
 day I'm

00:37:31.480 --> 00:37:32.000
 learning that

00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:32.299
 if it

00:37:32.299 --> 00:37:32.799
 wasn't for

00:37:32.799 --> 00:37:33.139
 Jesus

00:37:33.139 --> 00:37:33.799
 and his

00:37:33.799 --> 00:37:34.199
 death

00:37:34.199 --> 00:37:34.959
 and resurrection

00:37:34.959 --> 00:37:36.319
 I would

00:37:36.319 --> 00:37:36.839
 not have

00:37:36.839 --> 00:37:37.339
 been made

00:37:37.339 --> 00:37:37.639
 new

00:37:37.639 --> 00:37:38.639
 I would

00:37:38.639 --> 00:37:39.019
 not have

00:37:39.019 --> 00:37:39.659
 been changed

00:37:39.659 --> 00:37:40.079
 from the

00:37:40.079 --> 00:37:40.819
 inside out

00:37:40.819 --> 00:37:41.879
 nor have

00:37:41.879 --> 00:37:42.359
 the strength

00:37:42.360 --> 00:37:42.720
 to keep

00:37:42.720 --> 00:37:43.079
 going

00:37:43.079 --> 00:37:45.039
 you see

00:37:45.039 --> 00:37:45.579
 the greatest

00:37:45.579 --> 00:37:46.079
 comfort

00:37:46.079 --> 00:37:46.680
 the greatest

00:37:46.680 --> 00:37:47.220
 peace

00:37:47.220 --> 00:37:47.599
 and the

00:37:47.599 --> 00:37:47.860
 greatest

00:37:47.860 --> 00:37:48.400
 hope I

00:37:48.400 --> 00:37:48.760
 have

00:37:48.760 --> 00:37:49.860
 is knowing

00:37:49.860 --> 00:37:50.860
 Jesus Christ

00:37:50.860 --> 00:37:51.539
 and that he

00:37:51.539 --> 00:37:52.400
 knew everything

00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:53.200
 about me

00:37:53.200 --> 00:37:55.720
 and even

00:37:55.720 --> 00:37:56.599
 knowing everything

00:37:56.599 --> 00:37:57.160
 about me

00:37:57.160 --> 00:37:57.780
 he endured

00:37:57.780 --> 00:37:58.360
 the cross

00:37:58.360 --> 00:37:59.539
 and he died

00:37:59.539 --> 00:38:00.240
 so that we

00:38:00.240 --> 00:38:00.620
 could know

00:38:00.620 --> 00:38:00.920
 him

00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:01.900
 his love

00:38:01.900 --> 00:38:02.240
 and his

00:38:02.240 --> 00:38:02.620
 forgiveness

00:38:02.620 --> 00:38:05.460
 Jesus Christ

00:38:05.460 --> 00:38:06.740
 God himself

00:38:06.740 --> 00:38:07.579
 who knew

00:38:07.579 --> 00:38:08.240
 my sin

00:38:08.240 --> 00:38:09.400
 my weakness

00:38:09.400 --> 00:38:10.160
 my failing

00:38:10.160 --> 00:38:11.300
 the king

00:38:11.300 --> 00:38:12.000
 of the world

00:38:12.000 --> 00:38:13.460
 humbled himself

00:38:13.460 --> 00:38:14.840
 went through

00:38:14.840 --> 00:38:15.500
 all that

00:38:15.500 --> 00:38:15.940
 pain

00:38:15.940 --> 00:38:17.340
 suffering

00:38:17.340 --> 00:38:17.960
 rejection

00:38:17.960 --> 00:38:19.039
 and humiliation

00:38:19.039 --> 00:38:20.239
 thinking of

00:38:20.239 --> 00:38:20.840
 you and me

00:38:20.840 --> 00:38:22.400
 carrying the

00:38:22.400 --> 00:38:23.079
 sin of the

00:38:23.079 --> 00:38:23.380
 world

00:38:23.380 --> 00:38:23.900
 he died

00:38:23.900 --> 00:38:24.179
 on the

00:38:24.179 --> 00:38:24.440
 cross

00:38:24.440 --> 00:38:24.800
 and then

00:38:24.800 --> 00:38:25.400
 rose again

00:38:25.400 --> 00:38:26.179
 so we

00:38:26.179 --> 00:38:26.500
 could be

00:38:26.500 --> 00:38:27.199
 made new

00:38:27.199 --> 00:38:28.699
 be holy

00:38:28.699 --> 00:38:29.519
 perfect

00:38:29.519 --> 00:38:30.400
 and blameless

00:38:30.400 --> 00:38:31.539
 and also

00:38:31.539 --> 00:38:32.159
 to give us

00:38:32.159 --> 00:38:32.699
 the strength

00:38:32.699 --> 00:38:33.440
 to persevere

00:38:33.440 --> 00:38:33.940
 and fight

00:38:33.940 --> 00:38:34.480
 temptation

00:38:34.480 --> 00:38:36.119
 my king

00:38:36.119 --> 00:38:36.480
 suffered

00:38:36.480 --> 00:38:36.880
 in my

00:38:36.880 --> 00:38:37.340
 place

00:38:37.340 --> 00:38:38.719
 what a

00:38:38.719 --> 00:38:39.059
 God

00:38:39.059 --> 00:38:40.059
 what a

00:38:40.059 --> 00:38:40.480
 hope we

00:38:40.480 --> 00:38:40.820
 have

00:38:40.820 --> 00:38:41.679
 what a

00:38:41.679 --> 00:38:41.940
 king

00:38:41.940 --> 00:38:43.320
 thanks for

00:38:43.320 --> 00:38:43.940
 listening to

00:38:43.940 --> 00:38:44.840
 my story

00:38:44.840 --> 00:38:54.039
 yeah thank

00:38:54.039 --> 00:38:54.880
 you so much

00:38:54.880 --> 00:38:55.460
 Alyssa

00:38:55.460 --> 00:38:56.940
 and Marie

00:38:56.940 --> 00:38:57.820
 and Gareth

00:38:57.820 --> 00:38:58.420
 and Catherine

00:38:58.420 --> 00:38:59.519
 thank you for

00:38:59.519 --> 00:39:00.280
 opening yourselves

00:39:00.280 --> 00:39:01.019
 up to us

00:39:01.019 --> 00:39:02.740
 to see inside

00:39:02.740 --> 00:39:03.460
 your lives

00:39:03.460 --> 00:39:04.220
 and your hearts

00:39:04.220 --> 00:39:05.079
 thank you so much

00:39:05.079 --> 00:39:05.740
 for sharing your

00:39:05.740 --> 00:39:06.460
 stories with us

00:39:06.460 --> 00:39:07.340
 it's been really

00:39:07.340 --> 00:39:07.840
 encouraging

00:39:07.840 --> 00:39:09.460
 um

00:39:09.460 --> 00:39:09.860
 you

00:39:09.860 --> 00:39:09.920
 so much

00:39:09.920 --> 00:39:10.700
 thank you

00:39:10.700 --> 00:39:11.900
 to see así

00:39:11.900 --> 00:39:12.360
 some of rient

00:39:12.360 --> 00:39:16.200
 and why

00:39:16.200 --> 00:39:16.680
 thank you

00:39:16.680 --> 00:39:17.940
 and I'll

00:39:17.940 --> 00:39:18.840
 see you