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 The thief of joy, this concept that we truly can have joy and delight in the Lord, regardless of our circumstances, regardless of what we have.

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 But oftentimes, through comparison, it leads to envy, and that really steals our joy.

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 And envy is something that steals any contentment that we may have had.

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 And so I want to talk about two different verticals, kind of forming across here with my hands, two different verticals to the concept of envy.

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 And we are recording this for some of the ladies, but we're going to take off the discussion part so that people don't hear that.

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 So there's a vertical dimension to envy, right between us and God, our relationship with God, that really results in, it's an issue of a lack of trust paired with a lack of gratitude.

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 We become envious when in our relationship with God, we don't trust him, or we aren't grateful for what we have.

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 And then it's a horizontal dimension as well in terms of envy.

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 In our relationship with others, it's actually rooted in a lack of love for our neighbors.

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 This may sound weird, but we're going to look at some scriptures to really flesh out what this looks like.

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 So between us and God, it's a lack of trust and a lack of gratitude.

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 And with us and others, it's a lack of love for our neighbors.

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 So I'm going to pose that when we understand that we as believers have the most valuable thing that has ever existed since the dawn of time,

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 when that truth and that reality hits us to our core, gratitude and thanksgiving is just the natural outpouring of our hearts in response to salvation from death.

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 When we understand, like, at our core, the most amazing thing we could ever have, the most amazing thing we could ever be, the most amazing thing we could ever do has already been done,

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 gratitude and thanksgiving and praise is the natural outflow.

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 And our attention is moved from what we don't have but want toward what we have but don't deserve.

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 I think that's a really important mind shift that oftentimes when we do end sinning in envy,

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 it's because we're comparing to people that have what we want but we don't have.

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 And it's helpful for us to think about what do we have that we don't deserve?

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 And there's a lot of things we're going to talk about later in the natural world that we actually do have as blessings that we may be taking for granted.

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 But ultimately, it's our salvation.

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 So I'm going to ask a couple volunteers in your Bibles, whether it's on your phone or whatever.

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 I have four verses I'd like us to read out loud and to discuss maybe some common themes we're hearing.

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 Can I have a volunteer read Romans 5, 8?

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 Lauren?

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 Lauren, Romans 5, 8.

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 Ephesians 2, 8 through 9.

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 Aubrey, Ephesians 2, 8 through 9.

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 And then Amanda, can you do 2 Corinthians 5, 21?

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 5, 21.

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 2 Corinthians 5, 21.

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 And then the last one, Romans 8, 31 to 32.

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 Okay, Mina.

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 Romans 8, 31 to 32.

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 Okay, so it's Lauren, Romans 5, 8.

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 Aubrey, Ephesians 2, 8 through 9.

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 Amanda, 2 Corinthians 5, 21.

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 And Mina is in Romans 8, 31 to 32.

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 So I'm going to ask you guys to read them slowly because everyone's not going to be able to follow along in writing for those that are not auditory processors.

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 So let's listen to these verses.

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 And we're going to talk about a common theme that maybe you hear.

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 Aubrey, can you share Romans 5, 8 with us?

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 I mean, sorry, Lauren.

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 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this.

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 While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

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 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and this is not your own doing.

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 It is a gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one knows.

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 For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him you might become the righteousness of God.

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 What then shall we say in response to these things?

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 If God is for us, who can be against us?

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 He who did not spare his own son, but gave him up for us all,

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 how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

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 So what are some things that are sticking out to you guys that you're hearing?

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 He saved us when we were a mess?

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 It's a gift.

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 He what now?

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 It's a gift.

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 It's a gift.

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 He knows how to give three gifts.

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 He died for all of us.

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 He's given us all things.

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 He's given us all things.

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 Yep.

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 Not a result of works.

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 Not a result of works.

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 Yep.

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 It's not because we deserve it.

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 Anything else?

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 They're so nice to see you.

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 so

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 so the question really comes down to do you believe that god has been gracious towards you

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 and giving up his only son for you

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 do you really believe that you have what you don't deserve and that you actually have it

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 all things in jesus

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 and if you believe that god has been gracious towards you

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 and giving up the most precious thing he could have ever given

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 do you believe that he would be ungracious and ungenerous towards you

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 in your current situation

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 if god was gracious in giving his only son do you think he's going to be

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 ungracious and ungenerous towards you in whatever your current situation is

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 and that temptation

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 to believe that god is withholding good things from you

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 goes all the way back to the garden of eden

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 eve thought god is withholding good things from me

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 therefore i gotta do something about it

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 and again i'm not going to compare us to men because that would like kind of like be ironic

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 um

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 teach back comparison

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 but i really do believe ladies that this is something that like we do really deeply struggle with

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 is this concept

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 and i remember um it was such a blessing to me

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 it was about a year a year and a half ago

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 um bailey was spending some listening time praying for me

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 and she heard the lord say

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 such a simple phrase

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 and i have been meditating and chewing on this for like

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 over a year

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 she

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 the lord told bailey to tell me

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 i'm not withholding anything from you

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 do you remember that

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 was this the cabin

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 huh

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 was this the cabin

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 i don't remember

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 i think it was before that

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 it was like a long time ago

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 withholding nothing i think was the phrase you got

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 withholding nothing

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 well whether she remembers it or not

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 it was deeply profoundly impactful

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 because at the time

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 i really was where i still am now

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 like lord why am i not married yet

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 lord why do i not have the career that i want yet

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 lord why am i still struggling financially

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 when before like i was like financial abundance

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 lord why you know all these different things

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 um and so i really have had to take some time to wrestle with that

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 why do i believe he's holding good things for me

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 because that is not truth

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 that is not what we see in scripture

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 um

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 so yeah that that is an age-old temptation that

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 it's gonna continue to be a temptation to think

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 and so we really have to root ourselves

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 in scripture and not just have these trite little

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 you know cliche things like

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 oh no no i'm doing me

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 my life is good

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 or whatever you may be tempted to say

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 like at a deep core level

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 we have to receive that message of like

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 he gave us everything in jesus

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 right like everything else is just icing on the cake after that

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 literally

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 um so there's an aspect of envy

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 that is actually in romans 12 15

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 it's a failure to rejoice with those who rejoice

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 and weep with those who weep

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 and so um it's this concept that

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 if we're envious of what someone else has

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 right if i'm envious of that co-worker

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 who keeps getting that kind of praise

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 or um you know that that sister

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 who keeps getting married and having a kid

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 and having all these you know these types of things

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 or financial success

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 we end up not being happy when they succeed

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 and we end up rejoicing when they don't

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 and that is scary right

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 that shows in our hearts

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 that something's off

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 that something's off there

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 and so um if we're weeping when others rejoice

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 and we're rejoicing when others weep

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 um i think we may need to take some time

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 and reflecting and confessing that to the lord

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 and asking for his grace and his help

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 um to deal with that

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 because at the end of the day

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 we don't deserve eternal life

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 and communion with god

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 we've done nothing to earn that

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 yet by his grace

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 and through his mercy

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 he freely offers us

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 the most wonderful gift

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 that we could ever have asked for

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 and this should get you more excited

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 than any news you could ever receive

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 than any person asking you out

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 than any positive pregnancy test

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 than any boss sitting you down

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 and telling you you're just getting a promotion

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 like this news

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 when we really sit with it

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 should make us even more excited

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 than the top five things on our list

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 that we're asking for

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 being like answered in a day

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 can you imagine

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 if you had five things you're asking for right now

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 and in a day they just all happen

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 how like what a good mood you'd be in

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 right

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 let's be in that mood today

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 because we understand

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 the amazing vastness

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 and profoundness

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 and just glory

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 of the gift that we have

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 in our salvation

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 so when we start from that perspective

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 in life

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 when we consider our life

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 and what we don't have yet

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 and what we still desire

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 I think a lot of these verses make sense

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 because if not

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 it can come off as almost like unempathetic

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 if you're just like

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 well you know whatever

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 you're not going to always get everything you want

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 well okay

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 yes that's true

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 but like we also need to find a way of like

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 really grappling and wrestling with some of these feelings

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 that we may be like

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 why am I dissatisfied

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 in life right now

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 I do feel like I'm languishing

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 is there something off in my expectations

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 so yeah I would just say like

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 when we start understanding

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 that like our cake of life

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 is sweet

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 salvation

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 is the cake

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 eternal communion with the Lord

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 will be that cake

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 and everything else is just icing on it

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 the blessings in your life

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 the promotions

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 the spouses

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 the spiritual gifts

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 whatever

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 that's just icing on the cake

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 helps us live with perspective

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 right

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 I think that's really important

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 to see that the blessings

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 make life even sweeter

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 than it already is

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 it doesn't make it sweet

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 so Sean actually has a sermon on this

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 that I'm not going to go super in depth on

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 but I am going to post on Slack afterwards

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 some recommended listenings

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 for resources for you guys

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 he did the sermon on when we were going through Exodus

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 Exodus 2017

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 is one of the commandments

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 so I'm just going to

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 quote his

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 read his little quote

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 and then we're going to

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 go into some more discussion

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 so he says

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 so coveting

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 is similar to envy

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 are you guys all familiar with the concept of coveting

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 okay

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 and so the

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 passage says

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 do not covet

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 can I actually have someone read

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 Exodus 2017 real quick

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 and then someone else

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 James 4 1 through 3

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 2017

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 2017

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 okay Skyler's going to read

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 Exodus 2017

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 and then can someone else

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 read James 4 1 through 3

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 and we're going to

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 reference back to both of those later

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 James 4 1 through 3

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 Lydia

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 okay great

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 Lydia's going to do

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 James 4 1 through 3

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 okay so these two

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 two scriptures

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 we're actually going to

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 reference later as well

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 so Exodus 2017

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 and James 4 1 through 3

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 hit it Skyler

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 you shall not covet

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 your neighbor's house

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 you shall not covet

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 your neighbor's wife

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 or his male servant

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 or his female servant

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 or his ox

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 or his donkey

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 or anything

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 that is your neighbor's

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 what causes quarrels

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 and what causes fights

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 among you

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 is it not this

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 that your passions

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 are at war within you

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 you desire

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 and do not have

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 so you murder

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 you covet

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 and cannot obtain

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 so you fight

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 and quarrel

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 you do not have

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 because you do not ask

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 you ask

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 and do not receive

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 because you ask wrongly

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 to spend it on your passions

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 you adulterous people

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 do you not know

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 that friendship

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 with the world

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 is enmity with God

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 therefore

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 whoever wishes

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 to be a friend

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 of the world

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 makes himself

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 an enemy of God

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 awesome

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 so we're just going to

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 again read what Sean

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 wrote about this

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 from his sermon

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 because it's so good

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 and coveting

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 is a bitter root

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 that brings forth

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 many more bitter roots

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 so it's a sin

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 that leads to other sins

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 James 4 1 through 2

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 says

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 what causes quarrels

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 and fights among you

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 is it not this

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 that your passions

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 are at war within you

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 you desire

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 and do not have

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 so you murder

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 you covet

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 and cannot obtain

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 so you fight

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 and quarrel

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 coveting what belongs

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 to another

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 leads to murder

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 which is a violation

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 of the sixth commandment

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 coveting your neighbor's wife

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 leads to adultery

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 a violation of the seventh commandment

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 coveting your neighbor's ox

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 his donkey

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 anything that your neighbor's

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 leads to stealing

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 a violation of the eighth commandment

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 in this way

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 coveting can lead us

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 to break every single

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 one of the commandments

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 intended

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 to help us love our neighbors

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 as ourselves

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 coveting is

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 by its very nature

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 anti-social

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 so when we think about

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 that God part

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 of the relationship of envy

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 and then we think about

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 the horizontal relational part

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 that's a lack

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 of love for our neighbors

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 when we covet

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 it's by its very nature

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 nature anti-social

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 I love that concept

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 and it can lead to

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 so many other sins

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 but having desires

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 for good things

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 isn't bad

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 right

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 having a desire

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 to be able to share

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 with others

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 from scripture

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 more quickly

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 is like such a beautiful desire

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 all the desires

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 that you guys said

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 again

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 spouse

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 baby

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 job

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 whatever it may be

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 like

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 those are beautiful

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 things to desire

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 so the question becomes

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 what are we to do

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 with the desires

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 that we have

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 if it's an issue

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 of wanting something

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 we don't have

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 or that's not ours

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 what do we do

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 with those desires

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 you just push them down

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 and say

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 well whatever

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 that will be done

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 do we just

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 ignore it

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 do we make

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 15 million Pinterest boards

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 of like a vision

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 and manifest it

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 until like it becomes ours

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 we're called to do

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 two things

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 ask

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 okay three things really

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 and then surrender

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 and trust

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 we are called to ask

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 for these desires

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 but then

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 our response

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 once we've asked

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 should be surrender

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 and trust

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 so can I have

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 someone look up

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 Philippians 4

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 6 through 7

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 Lauren

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 and then

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 Lydia

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 I'm going to have you

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 reread again

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 when she's done

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 just verses 1 through 3

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 from James 4

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 just verses 1 through 3

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 okay so this is

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 Philippians 4

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 6 through 7

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 and back

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 we're coming back

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 to James 4

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 1 through 3

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 and so

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 again we're talking about

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 what are we to do

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 with these desires

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 we're called to ask

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 and then surrender

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 and trust

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 so Lauren

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 can you go ahead

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 and read

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 do not be anxious

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 about anything

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 but in every situation

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 by prayer

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 and petitions

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 with thanksgiving

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 present your request

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 to God

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 and the peace of God

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 which transcends

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 all understanding

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 will guard your hearts

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 and your minds

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 in Christ Jesus

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 what causes quarrels

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 and what causes

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 fights among you

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 is it not this

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 that your passions

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 are a role within you

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 you desire

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 and do not have

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 you murder

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 you covet

00:17:34.039 --> 00:17:35.179
 and cannot obtain

00:17:35.179 --> 00:17:35.959
 so you fight

00:17:35.959 --> 00:17:36.599
 and quarrel

00:17:36.599 --> 00:17:38.000
 you do not have

00:17:38.000 --> 00:17:39.319
 because you do not ask

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 you ask

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 and do not receive

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 because you ask wrongly

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 suspended on your passions

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 so what's standing out

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 to you guys

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 in these verses

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 as it relates

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 to your own desires

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 and your own needs

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 to ask

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 and then trust

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 and surrender

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 how are you hearing

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 those verses

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 I'm hearing like

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 what are your

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 priorities and motivations

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 behind those desires

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 that's good

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 why do you even

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 desire it

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 to begin with

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 I like it too

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 because

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 when you bring

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 something to the Lord

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 it sort of

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 forces you to

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 check and make sure

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 that it is a good thing

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 that you're desiring

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 that

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 like

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 you know

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 it is a good thing

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 that you want to

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 bring and ask the Lord

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 you don't want to

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 just ask him

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 for something

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 that you're like

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 oh this is actually

00:18:47.120 --> 00:18:47.840
 maybe simple

00:18:47.839 --> 00:18:48.579
 yeah

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 yeah

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 that's good

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 I think it's a really

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 big deal that you're

00:18:58.019 --> 00:18:58.939
 taking it to the Lord

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 not just

00:19:00.379 --> 00:19:02.139
 sitting in silence

00:19:02.139 --> 00:19:02.959
 you know

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 afraid to ask

00:19:03.920 --> 00:19:04.660
 yeah

00:19:04.660 --> 00:19:04.820
 yeah

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 like God wants us

00:19:07.660 --> 00:19:08.620
 to come to him

00:19:08.620 --> 00:19:09.620
 with all of our

00:19:09.620 --> 00:19:10.720
 desires and wants

00:19:10.720 --> 00:19:11.160
 and like

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 yeah they can be

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 unholy

00:19:12.400 --> 00:19:12.880
 but like

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 we'll work through it

00:19:13.840 --> 00:19:14.340
 with God

00:19:14.340 --> 00:19:14.860
 rather than like

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 pushing it inside

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 and kind of brushing it aside

00:19:17.360 --> 00:19:18.940
 which is what I typically do

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 and like I remember

00:19:20.559 --> 00:19:21.480
 during the prayer

00:19:21.480 --> 00:19:23.039
 seminar thing

00:19:23.039 --> 00:19:23.960
 that Pastor Sean did

00:19:23.960 --> 00:19:25.340
 like he made the analogy

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 of like

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 God is our Father

00:19:27.740 --> 00:19:28.920
 and like

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 like

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 y'all come to him

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 with everything

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 that they

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 want and desire

00:19:34.340 --> 00:19:35.259
 um

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 yes I think that's

00:19:36.840 --> 00:19:37.840
 a helpful comparison

00:19:37.840 --> 00:19:38.380
 for me

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 yeah

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 yeah are you bringing

00:19:41.299 --> 00:19:42.259
 everything to him

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 yeah

00:19:42.620 --> 00:19:44.100
 that's good

00:19:44.099 --> 00:19:48.839
 anyone else

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 I think like

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 oh

00:19:50.219 --> 00:19:51.959
 oh no no no

00:19:51.959 --> 00:19:52.319
 sorry I was

00:19:52.319 --> 00:19:53.000
 brushing my hair

00:19:53.000 --> 00:19:53.599
 um

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 I was gonna say

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 like this

00:19:55.219 --> 00:19:55.899
 um

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 I think I'm a little

00:19:57.359 --> 00:19:58.439
 confused about this

00:19:58.439 --> 00:19:59.539
 because you asked

00:19:59.539 --> 00:20:00.740
 wrongly to spend it

00:20:00.740 --> 00:20:01.519
 on your passions

00:20:01.519 --> 00:20:02.319
 mm-hmm

00:20:02.319 --> 00:20:03.179
 is he saying

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 um

00:20:05.000 --> 00:20:06.099
 is that more

00:20:06.099 --> 00:20:06.619
 I don't know

00:20:06.619 --> 00:20:07.039
 if that's more

00:20:07.039 --> 00:20:07.439
 talking about

00:20:07.439 --> 00:20:08.000
 the motivation

00:20:08.000 --> 00:20:08.619
 behind it

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 because I think

00:20:09.139 --> 00:20:10.919
 my fear would be

00:20:10.919 --> 00:20:12.699
 that I would not

00:20:12.699 --> 00:20:13.439
 bring requests

00:20:13.440 --> 00:20:14.140
 before God

00:20:14.140 --> 00:20:14.740
 because I

00:20:14.740 --> 00:20:15.680
 like oh

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 I don't wanna

00:20:16.420 --> 00:20:18.019
 ask God for this

00:20:18.019 --> 00:20:18.500
 because I know

00:20:18.500 --> 00:20:19.539
 my heart behind it

00:20:19.539 --> 00:20:20.140
 is

00:20:20.140 --> 00:20:20.860
 I'm scared

00:20:20.860 --> 00:20:22.019
 it's um

00:20:22.019 --> 00:20:23.380
 it's like

00:20:23.380 --> 00:20:24.519
 got gross

00:20:24.519 --> 00:20:25.120
 motivation

00:20:25.120 --> 00:20:25.720
 behind it

00:20:25.720 --> 00:20:26.019
 or like

00:20:26.019 --> 00:20:26.779
 I'm kinda guilty

00:20:26.779 --> 00:20:28.220
 of why I want

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 this

00:20:28.640 --> 00:20:30.580
 and um

00:20:30.580 --> 00:20:33.680
 I don't know

00:20:33.680 --> 00:20:34.220
 and so

00:20:34.220 --> 00:20:34.940
 I'm not sure

00:20:34.940 --> 00:20:35.820
 or if he's just

00:20:35.820 --> 00:20:36.799
 saying you ask

00:20:36.799 --> 00:20:37.539
 wrongly

00:20:37.539 --> 00:20:38.120
 um

00:20:38.120 --> 00:20:39.120
 because

00:20:39.120 --> 00:20:40.380
 you're

00:20:40.380 --> 00:20:42.140
 suspended on

00:20:42.140 --> 00:20:43.000
 your passions

00:20:43.000 --> 00:20:43.500
 of life

00:20:43.500 --> 00:20:44.200
 I don't know

00:20:44.200 --> 00:20:44.880
 mm-hmm

00:20:44.880 --> 00:20:45.900
 it's a really

00:20:45.900 --> 00:20:46.420
 good question

00:20:46.420 --> 00:20:46.859
 it's the next

00:20:46.859 --> 00:20:47.220
 point I was

00:20:47.220 --> 00:20:47.640
 gonna highlight

00:20:47.640 --> 00:20:48.059
 so that's

00:20:48.059 --> 00:20:48.240
 great

00:20:48.240 --> 00:20:48.660
 good job

00:20:48.660 --> 00:20:49.940
 um

00:20:49.940 --> 00:20:50.680
 it's basically

00:20:50.680 --> 00:20:51.140
 kind of what

00:20:51.140 --> 00:20:51.839
 Kendall was saying

00:20:51.839 --> 00:20:52.920
 in that

00:20:52.920 --> 00:20:54.319
 if the desire

00:20:54.319 --> 00:20:55.039
 is rooted in

00:20:55.039 --> 00:20:55.920
 selfishness

00:20:55.920 --> 00:20:57.519
 God's gonna

00:20:57.519 --> 00:20:58.519
 not necessarily

00:20:58.519 --> 00:20:59.059
 answer that

00:20:59.059 --> 00:20:59.299
 prayer

00:20:59.299 --> 00:20:59.799
 but

00:20:59.799 --> 00:21:00.960
 prayer has a

00:21:00.960 --> 00:21:01.920
 way of making

00:21:01.920 --> 00:21:02.619
 us aware

00:21:02.619 --> 00:21:03.400
 of those desires

00:21:03.400 --> 00:21:04.539
 so even if

00:21:04.539 --> 00:21:04.980
 it's a desire

00:21:04.980 --> 00:21:05.359
 rooted in

00:21:05.359 --> 00:21:05.960
 selfishness

00:21:05.960 --> 00:21:06.819
 you should still

00:21:06.819 --> 00:21:07.480
 pray about it

00:21:07.480 --> 00:21:08.259
 because

00:21:08.259 --> 00:21:09.720
 prayer has

00:21:09.720 --> 00:21:10.480
 a purifying

00:21:10.480 --> 00:21:11.480
 influence on us

00:21:11.480 --> 00:21:12.420
 and as we pray

00:21:12.420 --> 00:21:13.200
 more and more

00:21:13.200 --> 00:21:13.819
 and as like

00:21:13.819 --> 00:21:14.380
 even prayers

00:21:14.380 --> 00:21:14.980
 that go unmet

00:21:14.980 --> 00:21:15.960
 you may be like

00:21:15.960 --> 00:21:16.759
 wrestling with this

00:21:16.759 --> 00:21:17.120
 and like God

00:21:17.120 --> 00:21:17.599
 why not

00:21:17.599 --> 00:21:18.599
 and he may

00:21:18.599 --> 00:21:19.720
 bring conviction

00:21:19.720 --> 00:21:20.900
 oh

00:21:20.900 --> 00:21:21.680
 because

00:21:21.680 --> 00:21:22.799
 you don't actually

00:21:22.799 --> 00:21:23.700
 want this for my glory

00:21:23.700 --> 00:21:24.460
 you want it for your

00:21:24.460 --> 00:21:24.880
 comfort

00:21:24.880 --> 00:21:26.460
 or you don't actually

00:21:26.460 --> 00:21:26.839
 want it

00:21:26.839 --> 00:21:27.599
 what

00:21:27.599 --> 00:21:28.460
 it wouldn't be good

00:21:28.460 --> 00:21:29.059
 it wouldn't be good

00:21:29.059 --> 00:21:29.460
 for you

00:21:29.460 --> 00:21:30.519
 yeah exactly

00:21:30.519 --> 00:21:31.759
 um

00:21:31.759 --> 00:21:32.259
 it's not my plan

00:21:32.259 --> 00:21:32.480
 for you

00:21:32.480 --> 00:21:32.839
 I have something

00:21:32.839 --> 00:21:33.220
 better for you

00:21:33.220 --> 00:21:33.539
 I have something

00:21:33.539 --> 00:21:34.120
 even better

00:21:34.120 --> 00:21:34.640
 for you

00:21:34.640 --> 00:21:35.680
 um

00:21:35.680 --> 00:21:36.660
 so yeah

00:21:36.660 --> 00:21:37.380
 it's not a call

00:21:37.380 --> 00:21:38.200
 to only pray

00:21:38.200 --> 00:21:38.700
 when you're holy

00:21:38.700 --> 00:21:40.960
 pray in all things

00:21:40.960 --> 00:21:41.860
 in everything

00:21:41.860 --> 00:21:42.740
 bring everything

00:21:42.740 --> 00:21:43.360
 before him

00:21:43.360 --> 00:21:44.740
 but also be aware

00:21:44.740 --> 00:21:45.920
 that prayer does

00:21:45.920 --> 00:21:47.200
 have a purifying

00:21:47.200 --> 00:21:47.980
 influence on our

00:21:47.980 --> 00:21:48.440
 desires

00:21:48.440 --> 00:21:49.299
 that the more

00:21:49.299 --> 00:21:50.080
 you pray

00:21:50.080 --> 00:21:51.500
 the more you're

00:21:51.500 --> 00:21:52.319
 actually gonna pray

00:21:52.319 --> 00:21:52.920
 God's will

00:21:52.920 --> 00:21:53.779
 because there's a

00:21:53.779 --> 00:21:54.920
 convicting aspect

00:21:54.920 --> 00:21:55.840
 that happens to that

00:21:55.840 --> 00:21:57.039
 um

00:21:57.039 --> 00:21:58.420
 because at the same

00:21:58.420 --> 00:21:58.740
 token

00:21:58.740 --> 00:21:59.720
 prayerlessness

00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:01.279
 can result in a

00:22:01.279 --> 00:22:01.819
 lack of blessings

00:22:01.819 --> 00:22:02.779
 there are things

00:22:02.779 --> 00:22:03.779
 that we can miss out

00:22:03.779 --> 00:22:04.519
 on in life

00:22:04.519 --> 00:22:05.080
 because

00:22:05.080 --> 00:22:06.259
 we either don't

00:22:06.259 --> 00:22:06.880
 trust God

00:22:06.880 --> 00:22:07.800
 to pray

00:22:07.800 --> 00:22:08.340
 or we don't

00:22:08.340 --> 00:22:08.860
 think he's gonna

00:22:08.860 --> 00:22:09.300
 do it

00:22:09.300 --> 00:22:10.100
 he's not willing

00:22:10.100 --> 00:22:11.160
 um

00:22:11.160 --> 00:22:11.760
 or that prayer

00:22:11.760 --> 00:22:12.400
 just doesn't work

00:22:12.400 --> 00:22:12.980
 we discount

00:22:12.980 --> 00:22:13.900
 the power of prayer

00:22:13.900 --> 00:22:14.960
 um

00:22:14.960 --> 00:22:16.300
 so yeah

00:22:16.300 --> 00:22:16.820
 I think it's

00:22:16.820 --> 00:22:17.540
 both and there

00:22:17.540 --> 00:22:18.380
 that's a good

00:22:18.380 --> 00:22:18.820
 question

00:22:18.820 --> 00:22:20.800
 this is slightly

00:22:20.800 --> 00:22:21.480
 overrated

00:22:21.480 --> 00:22:22.260
 but there's a

00:22:22.260 --> 00:22:22.700
 really good

00:22:22.700 --> 00:22:23.780
 analogy for like

00:22:23.780 --> 00:22:24.920
 when you ask

00:22:24.920 --> 00:22:25.760
 for things for God

00:22:25.760 --> 00:22:26.240
 you might not

00:22:26.240 --> 00:22:26.820
 give you exactly

00:22:26.820 --> 00:22:27.440
 what you think

00:22:27.440 --> 00:22:28.020
 um

00:22:28.020 --> 00:22:29.020
 it's basically

00:22:29.020 --> 00:22:30.020
 like this analogy

00:22:30.020 --> 00:22:31.220
 of imagine

00:22:31.220 --> 00:22:31.840
 you're asking

00:22:31.840 --> 00:22:32.620
 God for like

00:22:32.620 --> 00:22:33.700
 a small teddy bear

00:22:33.700 --> 00:22:34.840
 and then behind

00:22:34.840 --> 00:22:35.280
 his back

00:22:35.280 --> 00:22:35.740
 he's holding

00:22:35.740 --> 00:22:36.540
 a really big

00:22:36.539 --> 00:22:37.039
 teddy bear

00:22:37.039 --> 00:22:37.720
 ready to give

00:22:37.720 --> 00:22:38.200
 that to you

00:22:38.200 --> 00:22:38.619
 but you're

00:22:38.619 --> 00:22:39.139
 asking for

00:22:39.139 --> 00:22:39.599
 the smaller

00:22:39.599 --> 00:22:39.960
 bear

00:22:39.960 --> 00:22:41.099
 and so

00:22:41.099 --> 00:22:41.460
 I just

00:22:41.460 --> 00:22:41.659
 thought

00:22:41.659 --> 00:22:41.960
 that would

00:22:41.960 --> 00:22:42.539
 be a cute

00:22:42.539 --> 00:22:42.899
 picture

00:22:42.899 --> 00:22:43.180
 yep

00:22:43.180 --> 00:22:43.920
 yep

00:22:43.920 --> 00:22:44.859
 and he's like

00:22:44.859 --> 00:22:45.659
 no I'm not

00:22:45.659 --> 00:22:46.059
 giving you that

00:22:46.059 --> 00:22:46.420
 teddy bear

00:22:46.420 --> 00:22:46.859
 and the girl's

00:22:46.859 --> 00:22:47.259
 like I was

00:22:47.259 --> 00:22:47.879
 too holding up

00:22:47.879 --> 00:22:48.220
 he's like

00:22:48.220 --> 00:22:48.839
 because

00:22:48.839 --> 00:22:51.319
 yeah

00:22:51.319 --> 00:22:53.339
 do we really

00:22:53.339 --> 00:22:54.000
 understand that

00:22:54.000 --> 00:22:54.819
 Abba father

00:22:54.819 --> 00:22:56.099
 is that in

00:22:56.099 --> 00:22:56.859
 every situation

00:22:56.859 --> 00:22:57.879
 even when you

00:22:57.879 --> 00:22:58.639
 don't realize

00:22:58.639 --> 00:22:59.299
 the big teddy bear

00:22:59.299 --> 00:23:00.119
 for what it is

00:23:00.119 --> 00:23:01.119
 if he ever says

00:23:01.119 --> 00:23:01.700
 no I'm not

00:23:01.700 --> 00:23:02.180
 giving you that

00:23:02.180 --> 00:23:02.980
 specific teddy bear

00:23:02.980 --> 00:23:04.379
 it literally is

00:23:04.379 --> 00:23:05.119
 always because

00:23:05.119 --> 00:23:05.779
 he has something

00:23:05.779 --> 00:23:06.420
 better for you

00:23:06.420 --> 00:23:07.620
 and better for you

00:23:07.620 --> 00:23:08.320
 may be

00:23:08.320 --> 00:23:09.880
 continuing to wait

00:23:09.880 --> 00:23:10.480
 where you grow

00:23:10.480 --> 00:23:11.240
 in intimacy with

00:23:11.240 --> 00:23:11.960
 Jesus and Jesus

00:23:11.960 --> 00:23:12.380
 alone

00:23:12.380 --> 00:23:13.660
 better for you

00:23:13.660 --> 00:23:14.580
 may be a season

00:23:14.580 --> 00:23:15.080
 in the wilderness

00:23:15.080 --> 00:23:16.240
 because he's preparing

00:23:16.240 --> 00:23:17.620
 you for incredible

00:23:17.620 --> 00:23:18.019
 ministry

00:23:18.019 --> 00:23:18.920
 I don't know

00:23:18.920 --> 00:23:22.140
 yeah that's a good

00:23:22.140 --> 00:23:22.400
 question

00:23:22.400 --> 00:23:23.259
 is that answer

00:23:23.259 --> 00:23:23.779
 satisfying

00:23:23.779 --> 00:23:25.660
 yeah I think

00:23:25.660 --> 00:23:27.680
 I struggle

00:23:27.680 --> 00:23:28.160
 with the

00:23:28.160 --> 00:23:31.259
 you're not

00:23:31.259 --> 00:23:32.019
 going to receive

00:23:32.019 --> 00:23:33.160
 because you

00:23:33.160 --> 00:23:34.700
 asked wrongly

00:23:34.700 --> 00:23:35.700
 and then that

00:23:35.700 --> 00:23:36.519
 can get really

00:23:36.519 --> 00:23:37.539
 almost like

00:23:37.539 --> 00:23:38.639
 self condemning

00:23:38.639 --> 00:23:39.240
 a little bit

00:23:39.240 --> 00:23:40.039
 but I think

00:23:40.039 --> 00:23:40.720
 it's going

00:23:40.720 --> 00:23:42.440
 even that

00:23:42.440 --> 00:23:43.639
 to God

00:23:43.639 --> 00:23:44.299
 and being like

00:23:44.299 --> 00:23:45.160
 I'm struggling

00:23:45.160 --> 00:23:45.759
 with this

00:23:45.759 --> 00:23:46.160
 yes

00:23:46.160 --> 00:23:48.980
 he wants to

00:23:48.980 --> 00:23:49.700
 love on that

00:23:49.700 --> 00:23:50.740
 yeah and I

00:23:50.740 --> 00:23:51.799
 don't think

00:23:51.799 --> 00:23:52.599
 he's saying

00:23:52.599 --> 00:23:53.759
 you ask

00:23:53.759 --> 00:23:54.259
 wrongly

00:23:54.259 --> 00:23:55.039
 so don't ask

00:23:55.039 --> 00:23:56.539
 I think

00:23:56.539 --> 00:23:57.220
 he's saying

00:23:57.220 --> 00:23:57.900
 but where

00:23:57.900 --> 00:23:58.339
 there are

00:23:58.339 --> 00:23:58.960
 things that

00:23:58.960 --> 00:23:59.379
 are

00:23:59.379 --> 00:24:00.599
 motivations

00:24:00.599 --> 00:24:01.400
 he may not

00:24:01.400 --> 00:24:01.859
 give

00:24:01.859 --> 00:24:02.819
 because

00:24:02.819 --> 00:24:03.720
 it's not

00:24:03.720 --> 00:24:04.039
 his plan

00:24:04.039 --> 00:24:04.400
 for you

00:24:04.400 --> 00:24:04.799
 or whatever

00:24:04.799 --> 00:24:05.240
 you know

00:24:05.240 --> 00:24:07.920
 did you have

00:24:07.920 --> 00:24:08.160
 something you

00:24:08.160 --> 00:24:08.519
 want to say

00:24:08.519 --> 00:24:08.859
 no

00:24:08.859 --> 00:24:09.519
 sorry

00:24:09.519 --> 00:24:14.960
 okay so

00:24:14.960 --> 00:24:15.700
 so if

00:24:15.700 --> 00:24:16.519
 great

00:24:16.519 --> 00:24:17.000
 awesome

00:24:17.000 --> 00:24:17.700
 rock star

00:24:17.700 --> 00:24:18.639
 I have

00:24:18.639 --> 00:24:19.019
 I'm aware

00:24:19.019 --> 00:24:19.259
 of these

00:24:19.259 --> 00:24:19.639
 desires

00:24:19.639 --> 00:24:20.420
 okay I do

00:24:20.420 --> 00:24:20.700
 not have

00:24:20.700 --> 00:24:21.059
 these things

00:24:21.059 --> 00:24:21.519
 yet but I'm

00:24:21.519 --> 00:24:21.960
 not coveting

00:24:21.960 --> 00:24:22.299
 them in my

00:24:22.299 --> 00:24:22.539
 neighbor

00:24:22.539 --> 00:24:23.099
 so what do

00:24:23.099 --> 00:24:23.420
 I do

00:24:23.420 --> 00:24:24.079
 I ask

00:24:24.079 --> 00:24:24.680
 and I

00:24:24.680 --> 00:24:24.940
 surrender

00:24:24.940 --> 00:24:25.339
 and trust

00:24:25.339 --> 00:24:25.819
 awesome

00:24:25.819 --> 00:24:26.819
 I'm four

00:24:26.819 --> 00:24:27.619
 years in

00:24:27.619 --> 00:24:28.440
 into

00:24:28.440 --> 00:24:29.639
 asking

00:24:29.639 --> 00:24:31.599
 and surrendering

00:24:31.599 --> 00:24:33.099
 and trusting

00:24:33.099 --> 00:24:34.940
 now what do

00:24:34.940 --> 00:24:35.279
 I do

00:24:35.279 --> 00:24:36.859
 what do

00:24:36.859 --> 00:24:37.619
 we do

00:24:37.619 --> 00:24:39.059
 with desires

00:24:39.059 --> 00:24:40.480
 that continue

00:24:40.480 --> 00:24:40.879
 to go

00:24:40.879 --> 00:24:41.319
 on men

00:24:41.319 --> 00:24:42.960
 with prayer

00:24:42.960 --> 00:24:43.500
 requests that

00:24:43.500 --> 00:24:44.119
 we believe

00:24:44.119 --> 00:24:44.619
 are holy

00:24:44.619 --> 00:24:45.940
 that we've

00:24:45.940 --> 00:24:46.339
 prayed this

00:24:46.339 --> 00:24:46.500
 prayer

00:24:46.500 --> 00:24:46.859
 Lord if

00:24:46.859 --> 00:24:47.279
 it's not

00:24:47.279 --> 00:24:47.639
 if my

00:24:47.639 --> 00:24:48.359
 motivation's

00:24:48.359 --> 00:24:48.639
 off

00:24:48.639 --> 00:24:48.879
 if my

00:24:48.879 --> 00:24:49.339
 desire's

00:24:49.339 --> 00:24:49.500
 off

00:24:49.500 --> 00:24:49.859
 let me

00:24:49.859 --> 00:24:49.980
 know

00:24:49.980 --> 00:24:50.179
 and I'll

00:24:50.179 --> 00:24:50.379
 let it

00:24:50.379 --> 00:24:50.619
 go

00:24:50.619 --> 00:24:51.259
 and you

00:24:51.259 --> 00:24:51.679
 continue

00:24:51.679 --> 00:24:52.019
 to lean

00:24:52.019 --> 00:24:52.220
 in and

00:24:52.220 --> 00:24:52.339
 you're

00:24:52.339 --> 00:24:52.539
 like

00:24:52.539 --> 00:24:53.919
 no I

00:24:53.919 --> 00:24:54.220
 think

00:24:54.220 --> 00:24:54.659
 this is

00:24:54.659 --> 00:24:54.940
 what you

00:24:54.940 --> 00:24:55.299
 want me

00:24:55.299 --> 00:24:55.579
 to pray

00:24:55.579 --> 00:24:55.879
 for

00:24:55.879 --> 00:24:56.279
 and I'm

00:24:56.279 --> 00:24:56.419
 going to

00:24:56.419 --> 00:24:56.799
 continue

00:24:56.799 --> 00:24:57.159
 to pray

00:24:57.159 --> 00:24:57.579
 for it

00:24:57.579 --> 00:24:58.440
 but I'm

00:24:58.440 --> 00:24:58.740
 not seeing

00:24:58.740 --> 00:24:59.339
 any movement

00:24:59.339 --> 00:25:00.759
 what do

00:25:00.759 --> 00:25:01.000
 we do

00:25:01.000 --> 00:25:01.519
 with those

00:25:01.519 --> 00:25:02.039
 desires

00:25:02.039 --> 00:25:04.980
 how many

00:25:04.980 --> 00:25:05.679
 of you

00:25:05.679 --> 00:25:06.500
 in one

00:25:06.500 --> 00:25:06.859
 way or

00:25:06.859 --> 00:25:07.200
 another

00:25:07.200 --> 00:25:07.659
 big or

00:25:07.659 --> 00:25:08.039
 small

00:25:08.039 --> 00:25:09.659
 feel like

00:25:09.659 --> 00:25:10.279
 you're in

00:25:10.279 --> 00:25:10.859
 a season

00:25:10.859 --> 00:25:11.420
 of waiting

00:25:11.420 --> 00:25:16.399
 most of

00:25:16.399 --> 00:25:16.659
 us

00:25:16.659 --> 00:25:20.019
 I feel

00:25:20.019 --> 00:25:20.619
 you

00:25:20.619 --> 00:25:22.079
 let me

00:25:22.079 --> 00:25:22.720
 tell you

00:25:22.720 --> 00:25:23.619
 I feel

00:25:23.619 --> 00:25:24.220
 your pain

00:25:24.220 --> 00:25:24.740
 on so many

00:25:24.740 --> 00:25:25.099
 levels

00:25:25.099 --> 00:25:25.619
 some of you

00:25:25.619 --> 00:25:25.779
 have been

00:25:25.779 --> 00:25:26.200
 waiting longer

00:25:26.200 --> 00:25:26.480
 than me

00:25:26.480 --> 00:25:27.039
 I get it

00:25:27.039 --> 00:25:28.799
 and I just

00:25:28.799 --> 00:25:29.339
 think of like

00:25:29.339 --> 00:25:30.099
 amazing stories

00:25:30.099 --> 00:25:30.539
 of like

00:25:30.539 --> 00:25:31.440
 Mina's family

00:25:31.440 --> 00:25:31.920
 praying for

00:25:31.920 --> 00:25:32.420
 their dad

00:25:32.420 --> 00:25:32.819
 for what was it

00:25:32.819 --> 00:25:33.420
 like 15

00:25:33.420 --> 00:25:34.000
 years

00:25:34.000 --> 00:25:34.559
 you guys

00:25:34.559 --> 00:25:34.980
 sought the

00:25:34.980 --> 00:25:35.299
 Lord

00:25:35.299 --> 00:25:36.500
 persistently

00:25:36.500 --> 00:25:37.220
 what a good

00:25:37.220 --> 00:25:37.779
 desire

00:25:37.779 --> 00:25:38.700
 of course

00:25:38.700 --> 00:25:39.160
 that God

00:25:39.160 --> 00:25:39.480
 wants to

00:25:39.480 --> 00:25:39.819
 answer that

00:25:39.819 --> 00:25:40.099
 prayer

00:25:40.099 --> 00:25:40.720
 but you

00:25:40.720 --> 00:25:41.019
 didn't

00:25:41.019 --> 00:25:41.339
 give up

00:25:41.339 --> 00:25:41.619
 you didn't

00:25:41.619 --> 00:25:42.039
 throw your

00:25:42.039 --> 00:25:42.400
 hands up

00:25:42.400 --> 00:25:42.859
 after 10

00:25:42.859 --> 00:25:43.119
 years

00:25:43.119 --> 00:25:43.460
 and say

00:25:43.460 --> 00:25:43.720
 well we're

00:25:43.720 --> 00:25:44.019
 not going

00:25:44.019 --> 00:25:44.279
 to break

00:25:44.279 --> 00:25:44.839
 because clearly

00:25:44.839 --> 00:25:45.259
 this man's

00:25:45.259 --> 00:25:45.500
 heart ain't

00:25:45.500 --> 00:25:45.680
 going to

00:25:45.680 --> 00:25:45.960
 change

00:25:45.960 --> 00:25:47.059
 15 years

00:25:47.059 --> 00:25:47.420
 they prayed

00:25:47.420 --> 00:25:47.700
 for her

00:25:47.700 --> 00:25:47.960
 dad's

00:25:47.960 --> 00:25:48.380
 salvation

00:25:48.380 --> 00:25:50.099
 what are

00:25:50.099 --> 00:25:50.480
 you doing

00:25:50.480 --> 00:25:51.140
 in between

00:25:51.140 --> 00:25:51.680
 while you're

00:25:51.680 --> 00:25:52.380
 waiting for

00:25:52.380 --> 00:25:53.039
 those answers

00:25:53.039 --> 00:25:53.339
 and you

00:25:53.339 --> 00:25:54.019
 believe God

00:25:54.019 --> 00:25:54.619
 is powerful

00:25:54.619 --> 00:25:55.079
 and he

00:25:55.079 --> 00:25:55.559
 wants to

00:25:55.559 --> 00:25:55.859
 move

00:25:55.859 --> 00:25:56.200
 but he's

00:25:56.200 --> 00:25:56.779
 not yet

00:25:56.779 --> 00:26:00.180
 for me

00:26:00.180 --> 00:26:01.619
 this is the

00:26:01.619 --> 00:26:01.980
 first time

00:26:01.980 --> 00:26:02.579
 in my life

00:26:02.579 --> 00:26:03.099
 that I have

00:26:03.099 --> 00:26:03.559
 come to

00:26:03.559 --> 00:26:04.539
 learn and

00:26:04.539 --> 00:26:05.319
 grow and

00:26:05.319 --> 00:26:06.059
 appreciate the

00:26:06.059 --> 00:26:07.039
 beauty of

00:26:07.039 --> 00:26:07.599
 the discipline

00:26:07.599 --> 00:26:08.179
 of lament

00:26:08.179 --> 00:26:10.339
 and lament

00:26:10.339 --> 00:26:10.879
 is something

00:26:10.879 --> 00:26:11.419
 we don't

00:26:11.419 --> 00:26:11.819
 talk about

00:26:11.819 --> 00:26:12.179
 a lot

00:26:12.179 --> 00:26:12.700
 well actually

00:26:12.700 --> 00:26:12.919
 in our

00:26:12.919 --> 00:26:13.200
 church we

00:26:13.200 --> 00:26:13.480
 talk about

00:26:13.480 --> 00:26:13.740
 a lot

00:26:13.740 --> 00:26:13.919
 but I

00:26:13.919 --> 00:26:14.119
 would say

00:26:14.119 --> 00:26:14.359
 in the

00:26:14.359 --> 00:26:14.899
 big church

00:26:14.899 --> 00:26:15.419
 big C

00:26:15.419 --> 00:26:15.899
 big C

00:26:15.899 --> 00:26:16.059
 church

00:26:16.059 --> 00:26:16.399
 we don't

00:26:16.399 --> 00:26:16.720
 talk about

00:26:16.720 --> 00:26:17.220
 lament a lot

00:26:17.220 --> 00:26:18.139
 something I

00:26:18.139 --> 00:26:18.379
 love about

00:26:18.379 --> 00:26:18.679
 our church

00:26:18.679 --> 00:26:18.980
 we're actually

00:26:18.980 --> 00:26:19.399
 very honest

00:26:19.399 --> 00:26:19.759
 about it

00:26:19.759 --> 00:26:21.339
 and so I

00:26:21.339 --> 00:26:21.599
 had never

00:26:21.599 --> 00:26:21.980
 been exposed

00:26:21.980 --> 00:26:22.439
 to it

00:26:22.439 --> 00:26:22.899
 before coming

00:26:22.899 --> 00:26:23.319
 to Trinity

00:26:23.319 --> 00:26:23.960
 no I

00:26:23.960 --> 00:26:24.599
 literally knew

00:26:24.599 --> 00:26:25.099
 lamentations

00:26:25.099 --> 00:26:25.399
 of the book

00:26:25.399 --> 00:26:25.839
 of the Bible

00:26:25.839 --> 00:26:26.500
 didn't know

00:26:26.500 --> 00:26:26.980
 anything about

00:26:26.980 --> 00:26:27.740
 what lament

00:26:27.740 --> 00:26:27.980
 meant

00:26:27.980 --> 00:26:30.159
 and so lament

00:26:30.159 --> 00:26:31.119
 is a beautiful

00:26:31.119 --> 00:26:32.200
 spiritual practice

00:26:32.200 --> 00:26:34.620
 that is

00:26:34.620 --> 00:26:35.440
 absolutely

00:26:35.440 --> 00:26:36.519
 100%

00:26:36.519 --> 00:26:37.080
 a part

00:26:37.080 --> 00:26:37.720
 of every

00:26:37.720 --> 00:26:38.279
 believer's

00:26:38.279 --> 00:26:38.600
 life

00:26:38.600 --> 00:26:39.460
 so if you've

00:26:39.460 --> 00:26:40.620
 never been

00:26:40.620 --> 00:26:41.120
 disappointed

00:26:41.120 --> 00:26:41.620
 in life

00:26:41.620 --> 00:26:42.080
 you've never

00:26:42.080 --> 00:26:43.120
 had to work

00:26:43.120 --> 00:26:43.759
 through the

00:26:43.759 --> 00:26:44.220
 concept of

00:26:44.220 --> 00:26:44.460
 lament

00:26:44.460 --> 00:26:45.460
 I promise

00:26:45.460 --> 00:26:45.860
 you you

00:26:45.860 --> 00:26:46.140
 will

00:26:46.140 --> 00:26:47.779
 at some

00:26:47.779 --> 00:26:48.240
 point

00:26:48.240 --> 00:26:48.900
 between now

00:26:48.900 --> 00:26:49.319
 and heaven

00:26:49.319 --> 00:26:50.600
 you're going

00:26:50.600 --> 00:26:51.440
 to have

00:26:51.440 --> 00:26:52.259
 deep deep

00:26:52.259 --> 00:26:53.039
 disappointments

00:26:53.039 --> 00:26:53.740
 and deep

00:26:53.740 --> 00:26:54.120
 deep

00:26:54.120 --> 00:26:54.940
 things that

00:26:54.940 --> 00:26:55.340
 grieve you

00:26:55.340 --> 00:26:55.779
 on a deep

00:26:55.779 --> 00:26:56.059
 level

00:26:56.059 --> 00:26:56.779
 and promises

00:26:56.779 --> 00:26:57.220
 you believe

00:26:57.220 --> 00:26:57.720
 God's given

00:26:57.720 --> 00:26:58.299
 you that you're

00:26:58.299 --> 00:26:58.799
 waiting and

00:26:58.799 --> 00:26:59.160
 waiting and

00:26:59.160 --> 00:26:59.500
 waiting and

00:26:59.500 --> 00:26:59.740
 he hasn't

00:26:59.740 --> 00:27:00.299
 answered yet

00:27:00.299 --> 00:27:01.379
 because it's

00:27:01.379 --> 00:27:01.720
 a part

00:27:01.720 --> 00:27:02.180
 actually

00:27:02.180 --> 00:27:03.139
 it sounds

00:27:03.139 --> 00:27:03.899
 backwards

00:27:03.899 --> 00:27:04.240
 but again

00:27:04.240 --> 00:27:04.619
 we live in

00:27:04.619 --> 00:27:04.879
 an upside

00:27:04.879 --> 00:27:05.399
 down kingdom

00:27:05.399 --> 00:27:06.419
 it's how we

00:27:06.419 --> 00:27:06.980
 grow in our

00:27:06.980 --> 00:27:07.619
 intimacy with

00:27:07.619 --> 00:27:07.899
 Jesus

00:27:07.899 --> 00:27:09.139
 in our

00:27:09.139 --> 00:27:09.960
 sufferings

00:27:09.960 --> 00:27:10.799
 we get to

00:27:10.799 --> 00:27:11.240
 know him

00:27:11.240 --> 00:27:11.639
 in a way

00:27:11.639 --> 00:27:12.019
 that you

00:27:12.019 --> 00:27:13.119
 never will

00:27:13.119 --> 00:27:14.059
 in all your

00:27:14.059 --> 00:27:14.440
 answers

00:27:14.440 --> 00:27:15.599
 your prayer

00:27:15.599 --> 00:27:16.000
 requests being

00:27:16.000 --> 00:27:16.339
 answered

00:27:16.339 --> 00:27:18.079
 there is this

00:27:18.079 --> 00:27:18.759
 element to

00:27:18.759 --> 00:27:19.259
 suffering

00:27:19.259 --> 00:27:19.619
 that is

00:27:19.619 --> 00:27:20.279
 yes we know

00:27:20.279 --> 00:27:20.539
 the word

00:27:20.539 --> 00:27:20.940
 refining

00:27:20.940 --> 00:27:21.299
 refining

00:27:21.299 --> 00:27:21.720
 sounds so

00:27:21.720 --> 00:27:22.180
 cold to

00:27:22.180 --> 00:27:22.539
 me though

00:27:22.539 --> 00:27:23.980
 there's this

00:27:23.980 --> 00:27:24.579
 element of

00:27:24.579 --> 00:27:25.220
 intimacy

00:27:25.220 --> 00:27:26.740
 and sweetness

00:27:26.740 --> 00:27:28.659
 and radical

00:27:28.659 --> 00:27:29.539
 delight

00:27:29.539 --> 00:27:31.299
 that comes

00:27:31.299 --> 00:27:32.339
 from getting

00:27:32.339 --> 00:27:32.759
 to your

00:27:32.759 --> 00:27:33.359
 rock bottom

00:27:33.359 --> 00:27:33.859
 and having

00:27:33.859 --> 00:27:34.440
 nothing to

00:27:34.440 --> 00:27:34.859
 look forward

00:27:34.859 --> 00:27:35.980
 to and

00:27:35.980 --> 00:27:38.379
 seeing that

00:27:38.379 --> 00:27:38.920
 Jesus is

00:27:38.920 --> 00:27:39.359
 holding your

00:27:39.359 --> 00:27:39.940
 hands there

00:27:39.940 --> 00:27:41.960
 so we have

00:27:41.960 --> 00:27:42.579
 to learn how

00:27:42.579 --> 00:27:42.960
 to lament

00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:43.500
 because if we

00:27:43.500 --> 00:27:44.279
 just cover our

00:27:44.279 --> 00:27:44.619
 eyes and we're

00:27:44.619 --> 00:27:44.879
 like no

00:27:44.879 --> 00:27:45.420
 everything's fine

00:27:45.420 --> 00:27:45.720
 I'm fine

00:27:45.720 --> 00:27:46.220
 everything's fine

00:27:46.220 --> 00:27:47.680
 that's gonna

00:27:47.680 --> 00:27:49.799
 take away the

00:27:49.799 --> 00:27:50.639
 opportunity for

00:27:50.639 --> 00:27:51.619
 you to grow in

00:27:51.619 --> 00:27:52.720
 intimacy with him

00:27:52.720 --> 00:27:53.720
 in that season

00:27:53.720 --> 00:27:54.920
 so there's a

00:27:54.920 --> 00:27:55.519
 couple recommendations

00:27:55.519 --> 00:27:56.259
 I have I'm gonna

00:27:56.259 --> 00:27:56.720
 post on the

00:27:56.720 --> 00:27:57.220
 slack channel

00:27:57.220 --> 00:27:58.660
 this is not a

00:27:58.660 --> 00:27:59.259
 lesson on lament

00:27:59.259 --> 00:27:59.860
 and some of you

00:27:59.860 --> 00:28:00.160
 guys probably

00:28:00.160 --> 00:28:00.579
 did not think

00:28:00.579 --> 00:28:00.980
 we're gonna talk

00:28:00.980 --> 00:28:01.380
 about lament

00:28:01.380 --> 00:28:01.680
 when we're

00:28:01.680 --> 00:28:01.960
 talking about

00:28:01.960 --> 00:28:02.519
 mb in comparison

00:28:02.519 --> 00:28:03.079
 but I really

00:28:03.079 --> 00:28:03.559
 think it's an

00:28:03.559 --> 00:28:04.460
 important part

00:28:04.460 --> 00:28:05.860
 when we consider

00:28:05.860 --> 00:28:06.559
 our desires

00:28:06.559 --> 00:28:07.120
 and what to do

00:28:07.120 --> 00:28:07.480
 with them

00:28:07.480 --> 00:28:08.440
 so a couple

00:28:08.440 --> 00:28:09.039
 recommendations

00:28:09.039 --> 00:28:09.640
 is there's a

00:28:09.640 --> 00:28:10.200
 book dark

00:28:10.200 --> 00:28:10.839
 clouds deep

00:28:10.839 --> 00:28:11.220
 mercy

00:28:11.220 --> 00:28:12.620
 and in this

00:28:12.620 --> 00:28:13.200
 book he

00:28:13.200 --> 00:28:13.720
 basically

00:28:13.720 --> 00:28:14.920
 fleshes out

00:28:14.920 --> 00:28:16.039
 the four steps

00:28:16.039 --> 00:28:16.700
 of lament

00:28:16.700 --> 00:28:17.460
 Sean's had a

00:28:17.460 --> 00:28:18.120
 series on this

00:28:18.120 --> 00:28:18.960
 we've heard it

00:28:18.960 --> 00:28:19.319
 from a couple

00:28:19.319 --> 00:28:20.100
 different speakers

00:28:20.100 --> 00:28:21.240
 at our church

00:28:21.240 --> 00:28:21.980
 but the four steps

00:28:21.980 --> 00:28:22.420
 of lament

00:28:22.420 --> 00:28:23.240
 are turn to

00:28:23.240 --> 00:28:23.539
 God

00:28:23.539 --> 00:28:25.519
 so not turning

00:28:25.519 --> 00:28:26.019
 to others

00:28:26.019 --> 00:28:26.700
 and complaining

00:28:26.700 --> 00:28:27.579
 not turning

00:28:27.579 --> 00:28:28.259
 inwardly

00:28:28.259 --> 00:28:28.639
 and getting

00:28:28.639 --> 00:28:29.079
 depressed

00:28:29.079 --> 00:28:29.680
 but turning

00:28:29.680 --> 00:28:30.119
 to God

00:28:30.119 --> 00:28:31.960
 second step

00:28:31.960 --> 00:28:32.940
 is lay out

00:28:32.940 --> 00:28:33.480
 your complaint

00:28:33.480 --> 00:28:34.980
 let him have

00:28:34.980 --> 00:28:35.200
 it

00:28:35.200 --> 00:28:35.680
 he already

00:28:35.680 --> 00:28:36.079
 knows

00:28:36.079 --> 00:28:36.539
 you're only

00:28:36.539 --> 00:28:36.779
 fooling

00:28:36.779 --> 00:28:37.119
 yourself

00:28:37.119 --> 00:28:37.879
 let him

00:28:37.879 --> 00:28:38.099
 know

00:28:38.099 --> 00:28:38.400
 let him

00:28:38.400 --> 00:28:39.059
 hear it

00:28:39.059 --> 00:28:41.160
 this third

00:28:41.160 --> 00:28:41.559
 step

00:28:41.559 --> 00:28:42.759
 is then

00:28:42.759 --> 00:28:43.460
 ask God

00:28:43.460 --> 00:28:43.940
 for help

00:28:43.940 --> 00:28:45.139
 don't go

00:28:45.139 --> 00:28:45.619
 to others

00:28:45.619 --> 00:28:46.079
 don't pick

00:28:46.079 --> 00:28:46.460
 up the phone

00:28:46.460 --> 00:28:46.720
 and call

00:28:46.720 --> 00:28:47.099
 your best

00:28:47.099 --> 00:28:47.379
 friend

00:28:47.379 --> 00:28:47.879
 don't you

00:28:47.879 --> 00:28:48.180
 know look

00:28:48.180 --> 00:28:48.819
 within you

00:28:48.819 --> 00:28:49.119
 and how

00:28:49.119 --> 00:28:49.279
 do I

00:28:49.279 --> 00:28:49.920
 become my

00:28:49.920 --> 00:28:50.480
 best self

00:28:50.480 --> 00:28:50.680
 you know

00:28:50.680 --> 00:28:50.960
 with this

00:28:50.960 --> 00:28:51.220
 desire

00:28:51.220 --> 00:28:51.579
 whatever

00:28:51.579 --> 00:28:52.279
 it's ask

00:28:52.279 --> 00:28:52.639
 God

00:28:52.639 --> 00:28:53.019
 for help

00:28:53.019 --> 00:28:53.359
 because he's

00:28:53.359 --> 00:28:53.559
 the only

00:28:53.559 --> 00:28:53.839
 one who

00:28:53.839 --> 00:28:54.220
 can help

00:28:54.220 --> 00:28:54.420
 you

00:28:54.420 --> 00:28:55.920
 and the

00:28:55.920 --> 00:28:56.180
 fourth

00:28:56.180 --> 00:28:56.480
 and this

00:28:56.480 --> 00:28:56.940
 is sometimes

00:28:56.940 --> 00:28:57.580
 the hardest

00:28:57.580 --> 00:28:59.180
 declare your

00:28:59.180 --> 00:29:00.120
 trust in him

00:29:00.120 --> 00:29:00.740
 anyway

00:29:00.740 --> 00:29:03.320
 even though I

00:29:03.320 --> 00:29:03.900
 don't see you

00:29:03.900 --> 00:29:04.300
 working

00:29:04.300 --> 00:29:06.000
 I know that

00:29:06.000 --> 00:29:06.240
 you are

00:29:06.240 --> 00:29:06.600
 working

00:29:06.600 --> 00:29:08.060
 even though I

00:29:08.060 --> 00:29:08.740
 don't see

00:29:08.740 --> 00:29:09.840
 a way

00:29:09.840 --> 00:29:10.340
 that you

00:29:10.340 --> 00:29:10.720
 can

00:29:10.720 --> 00:29:11.700
 bring a

00:29:11.700 --> 00:29:11.900
 husband

00:29:11.900 --> 00:29:12.259
 bring a

00:29:12.259 --> 00:29:12.519
 child

00:29:12.519 --> 00:29:12.940
 bring a

00:29:12.940 --> 00:29:13.380
 whatever

00:29:13.380 --> 00:29:13.680
 it may

00:29:13.680 --> 00:29:13.900
 be

00:29:13.900 --> 00:29:15.120
 I trust

00:29:15.120 --> 00:29:15.320
 you

00:29:15.320 --> 00:29:15.519
 and I

00:29:15.519 --> 00:29:15.720
 trust

00:29:15.720 --> 00:29:16.060
 your plan

00:29:16.060 --> 00:29:16.460
 for me

00:29:16.460 --> 00:29:17.620
 so

00:29:17.620 --> 00:29:18.440
 again I

00:29:18.440 --> 00:29:18.840
 would recommend

00:29:18.840 --> 00:29:19.800
 Sean has a

00:29:19.800 --> 00:29:20.700
 sermon series

00:29:20.700 --> 00:29:22.620
 from four

00:29:22.620 --> 00:29:23.120
 psalms

00:29:23.120 --> 00:29:23.940
 of lament

00:29:23.940 --> 00:29:24.440
 that we

00:29:24.440 --> 00:29:24.840
 did last

00:29:24.840 --> 00:29:25.100
 summer

00:29:25.100 --> 00:29:26.319
 phenomenal

00:29:26.319 --> 00:29:27.759
 sermon series

00:29:27.759 --> 00:29:28.200
 if you guys

00:29:28.200 --> 00:29:28.500
 want to go

00:29:28.500 --> 00:29:28.880
 deeper

00:29:28.880 --> 00:29:29.759
 into this

00:29:29.759 --> 00:29:30.100
 and then we

00:29:30.100 --> 00:29:30.519
 also had a

00:29:30.519 --> 00:29:30.940
 guest speaker

00:29:30.940 --> 00:29:31.400
 named Dane

00:29:31.400 --> 00:29:31.880
 Helsing

00:29:31.880 --> 00:29:32.680
 he came

00:29:32.680 --> 00:29:33.000
 and spoke

00:29:33.000 --> 00:29:33.259
 on that

00:29:33.259 --> 00:29:33.600
 if you guys

00:29:33.600 --> 00:29:33.920
 heard his

00:29:33.920 --> 00:29:34.140
 sermon

00:29:34.140 --> 00:29:34.720
 that was

00:29:34.720 --> 00:29:36.680
 so I'll

00:29:36.680 --> 00:29:37.400
 link to that

00:29:37.400 --> 00:29:37.860
 on slack

00:29:37.860 --> 00:29:38.640
 in the dark

00:29:38.640 --> 00:29:39.059
 clouds deep

00:29:39.059 --> 00:29:39.319
 mercy

00:29:39.319 --> 00:29:40.620
 so again

00:29:40.620 --> 00:29:40.840
 we're not

00:29:40.840 --> 00:29:41.100
 going to spend

00:29:41.100 --> 00:29:41.400
 too much

00:29:41.400 --> 00:29:41.819
 time on this

00:29:41.819 --> 00:29:42.160
 but can I

00:29:42.160 --> 00:29:42.480
 just have

00:29:42.480 --> 00:29:43.039
 one volunteer

00:29:43.039 --> 00:29:43.900
 to read

00:29:43.900 --> 00:29:44.700
 psalm 130

00:29:44.700 --> 00:29:45.580
 I want you

00:29:45.580 --> 00:29:46.240
 to hear

00:29:46.240 --> 00:29:47.640
 the voice

00:29:47.640 --> 00:29:48.059
 of this

00:29:48.059 --> 00:29:48.380
 author

00:29:48.380 --> 00:29:49.140
 he is not

00:29:49.140 --> 00:29:49.880
 holding back

00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:50.500
 he is not

00:29:50.500 --> 00:29:51.020
 even kind

00:29:51.020 --> 00:29:51.320
 of like

00:29:51.320 --> 00:29:51.680
 trying to

00:29:51.680 --> 00:29:52.680
 sugarcoat

00:29:52.680 --> 00:29:52.840
 it

00:29:52.840 --> 00:29:53.560
 psalm 130

00:29:53.560 --> 00:29:54.820
 and hear

00:29:54.820 --> 00:29:55.800
 the passion

00:29:55.800 --> 00:29:56.760
 and the emotion

00:29:56.760 --> 00:29:58.060
 the honesty

00:29:58.060 --> 00:29:58.520
 about his

00:29:58.520 --> 00:29:59.000
 desires

00:29:59.000 --> 00:30:00.340
 but also

00:30:00.340 --> 00:30:00.660
 how he

00:30:00.660 --> 00:30:01.020
 follows

00:30:01.020 --> 00:30:01.520
 these four

00:30:01.520 --> 00:30:01.900
 steps

00:30:01.900 --> 00:30:02.920
 can someone

00:30:02.920 --> 00:30:03.500
 read aloud

00:30:03.500 --> 00:30:04.260
 psalm 130

00:30:04.260 --> 00:30:04.920
 for us

00:30:04.920 --> 00:30:08.480
 okay go for it

00:30:08.480 --> 00:30:11.100
 out of the depths

00:30:11.100 --> 00:30:12.340
 I cry to you

00:30:12.340 --> 00:30:13.140
 oh lord

00:30:13.140 --> 00:30:14.500
 oh lord

00:30:14.500 --> 00:30:15.800
 hear my voice

00:30:15.800 --> 00:30:17.460
 let your ears

00:30:17.460 --> 00:30:18.140
 be attentive

00:30:18.140 --> 00:30:18.960
 to the voice

00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:19.360
 of my

00:30:19.359 --> 00:30:19.779
 please

00:30:19.779 --> 00:30:20.399
 for mercy

00:30:20.399 --> 00:30:21.899
 if you

00:30:21.899 --> 00:30:22.339
 oh lord

00:30:22.339 --> 00:30:22.859
 should mark

00:30:22.859 --> 00:30:23.479
 iniquities

00:30:23.479 --> 00:30:24.579
 oh lord

00:30:24.579 --> 00:30:25.500
 who could

00:30:25.500 --> 00:30:26.000
 stand

00:30:26.000 --> 00:30:27.659
 but with you

00:30:27.659 --> 00:30:28.559
 there is forgiveness

00:30:28.559 --> 00:30:30.079
 that you may be

00:30:30.079 --> 00:30:30.399
 feared

00:30:30.399 --> 00:30:32.419
 I wait for the

00:30:32.419 --> 00:30:32.679
 lord

00:30:32.679 --> 00:30:33.759
 my soul

00:30:33.759 --> 00:30:34.299
 waits

00:30:34.299 --> 00:30:35.599
 and in his

00:30:35.599 --> 00:30:35.879
 word

00:30:35.879 --> 00:30:36.500
 I hope

00:30:36.500 --> 00:30:38.099
 my soul

00:30:38.099 --> 00:30:38.819
 waits for the

00:30:38.819 --> 00:30:39.159
 lord

00:30:39.159 --> 00:30:40.159
 more than

00:30:40.159 --> 00:30:40.539
 watching

00:30:40.539 --> 00:30:41.000
 for the

00:30:41.000 --> 00:30:41.359
 morning

00:30:41.359 --> 00:30:42.659
 more than

00:30:42.659 --> 00:30:43.039
 watching

00:30:43.039 --> 00:30:43.539
 for the

00:30:43.539 --> 00:30:43.839
 morning

00:30:43.839 --> 00:30:45.339
 oh

00:30:45.339 --> 00:30:45.979
 Israel

00:30:45.979 --> 00:30:46.959
 hope in the

00:30:46.959 --> 00:30:47.359
 lord

00:30:47.359 --> 00:30:48.379
 for with

00:30:48.379 --> 00:30:48.839
 the lord

00:30:48.839 --> 00:30:49.279
 there is

00:30:49.279 --> 00:30:50.139
 steadfast

00:30:50.139 --> 00:30:50.659
 love

00:30:50.659 --> 00:30:51.619
 and with

00:30:51.619 --> 00:30:52.000
 him

00:30:52.000 --> 00:30:52.919
 is plentiful

00:30:52.919 --> 00:30:53.459
 redemption

00:30:53.459 --> 00:30:55.319
 and he

00:30:55.319 --> 00:30:55.979
 will redeem

00:30:55.979 --> 00:30:56.599
 Israel

00:30:56.599 --> 00:30:57.679
 from all

00:30:57.679 --> 00:30:57.959
 his

00:30:57.959 --> 00:30:58.559
 iniquities

00:30:58.559 --> 00:31:00.799
 love

00:31:00.799 --> 00:31:01.079
 that

00:31:01.079 --> 00:31:02.519
 there is

00:31:02.519 --> 00:31:02.799
 another

00:31:02.799 --> 00:31:03.759
 psalm

00:31:03.759 --> 00:31:04.039
 psalm

00:31:04.039 --> 00:31:04.259
 6

00:31:04.259 --> 00:31:04.480
 that is

00:31:04.480 --> 00:31:04.720
 a psalm

00:31:04.720 --> 00:31:05.139
 of lament

00:31:05.139 --> 00:31:07.299
 and in

00:31:07.299 --> 00:31:08.480
 the psalm

00:31:08.480 --> 00:31:09.679
 the author

00:31:09.679 --> 00:31:11.659
 asks

00:31:11.659 --> 00:31:12.759
 how long

00:31:12.759 --> 00:31:13.379
 oh lord

00:31:13.379 --> 00:31:14.079
 how long

00:31:14.079 --> 00:31:14.419
 am I going

00:31:14.419 --> 00:31:14.799
 to have to

00:31:14.799 --> 00:31:14.980
 wait

00:31:14.980 --> 00:31:15.720
 seriously

00:31:15.720 --> 00:31:16.299
 I have

00:31:16.299 --> 00:31:16.720
 been here

00:31:16.720 --> 00:31:17.039
 we have

00:31:17.039 --> 00:31:17.419
 been through

00:31:17.419 --> 00:31:17.839
 this

00:31:17.839 --> 00:31:19.279
 and something

00:31:19.279 --> 00:31:19.659
 I have

00:31:19.659 --> 00:31:19.960
 shared this

00:31:19.960 --> 00:31:20.379
 before

00:31:20.379 --> 00:31:21.879
 in different

00:31:21.879 --> 00:31:22.179
 settings

00:31:22.179 --> 00:31:23.579
 but I think

00:31:23.579 --> 00:31:23.819
 we need

00:31:23.819 --> 00:31:25.199
 a mindset

00:31:25.199 --> 00:31:25.859
 shift

00:31:25.859 --> 00:31:27.220
 instead of

00:31:27.220 --> 00:31:27.579
 asking

00:31:27.579 --> 00:31:28.399
 how long

00:31:28.399 --> 00:31:29.319
 how long

00:31:29.319 --> 00:31:29.639
 am I going

00:31:29.639 --> 00:31:30.059
 to be single

00:31:30.059 --> 00:31:31.639
 how long

00:31:31.639 --> 00:31:32.019
 are my

00:31:32.019 --> 00:31:32.699
 kids going

00:31:32.699 --> 00:31:32.839
 to be

00:31:32.839 --> 00:31:33.119
 struggling

00:31:33.119 --> 00:31:33.439
 with

00:31:33.439 --> 00:31:33.919
 whatever

00:31:33.919 --> 00:31:34.579
 how long

00:31:34.579 --> 00:31:34.899
 am I going

00:31:34.899 --> 00:31:35.079
 to be

00:31:35.079 --> 00:31:35.379
 stuck

00:31:35.379 --> 00:31:35.779
 in this

00:31:35.779 --> 00:31:36.099
 job

00:31:36.099 --> 00:31:36.339
 when I

00:31:36.339 --> 00:31:36.500
 am

00:31:36.500 --> 00:31:37.000
 really

00:31:37.000 --> 00:31:37.819
 miserable

00:31:37.819 --> 00:31:38.980
 instead

00:31:38.980 --> 00:31:39.679
 ask

00:31:39.679 --> 00:31:40.839
 what now

00:31:40.839 --> 00:31:42.839
 what would

00:31:42.839 --> 00:31:43.240
 you have

00:31:43.240 --> 00:31:43.799
 me do

00:31:43.799 --> 00:31:44.379
 in this

00:31:44.379 --> 00:31:44.659
 season

00:31:44.659 --> 00:31:45.139
 of life

00:31:45.139 --> 00:31:46.960
 what are

00:31:46.960 --> 00:31:47.679
 the opportunities

00:31:47.679 --> 00:31:48.159
 in front

00:31:48.159 --> 00:31:48.379
 of me

00:31:48.379 --> 00:31:48.839
 that clearly

00:31:48.839 --> 00:31:49.480
 you're not

00:31:49.480 --> 00:31:49.899
 changing

00:31:49.899 --> 00:31:50.679
 my situation

00:31:50.679 --> 00:31:51.240
 that you

00:31:51.240 --> 00:31:51.619
 want me

00:31:51.619 --> 00:31:52.419
 to really

00:31:52.419 --> 00:31:53.059
 take hold

00:31:53.059 --> 00:31:53.379
 of

00:31:53.379 --> 00:31:54.619
 and squeeze

00:31:54.619 --> 00:31:55.259
 out

00:31:55.259 --> 00:31:56.099
 all that

00:31:56.099 --> 00:31:56.339
 is in

00:31:56.339 --> 00:31:56.940
 this season

00:31:56.940 --> 00:31:57.940
 before

00:31:57.940 --> 00:31:58.579
 you answer

00:31:58.579 --> 00:31:59.059
 my prayer

00:31:59.059 --> 00:32:01.039
 so uh

00:32:01.039 --> 00:32:02.119
 reading Lord of the Rings

00:32:02.119 --> 00:32:03.039
 big Lord of the Rings

00:32:03.039 --> 00:32:03.299
 fan

00:32:03.299 --> 00:32:04.399
 so there's this quote

00:32:04.399 --> 00:32:05.079
 from Gandalf

00:32:05.079 --> 00:32:06.139
 oh it's just like

00:32:06.139 --> 00:32:07.220
 oh it's so good

00:32:07.220 --> 00:32:07.599
 huh

00:32:07.599 --> 00:32:08.179
 I was already

00:32:08.179 --> 00:32:08.740
 thinking of it

00:32:08.740 --> 00:32:09.440
 yeah yeah

00:32:09.440 --> 00:32:10.039
 you're probably

00:32:10.039 --> 00:32:10.639
 sure you've already

00:32:10.639 --> 00:32:11.200
 already heard the quote

00:32:11.200 --> 00:32:12.000
 okay so imagine

00:32:12.000 --> 00:32:12.559
 Gandalf

00:32:12.559 --> 00:32:13.159
 gray cloak

00:32:13.159 --> 00:32:13.659
 long beard

00:32:13.659 --> 00:32:14.700
 and he says

00:32:14.700 --> 00:32:15.419
 to Frodo

00:32:15.419 --> 00:32:16.139
 it's so beautiful

00:32:16.139 --> 00:32:17.779
 all you have

00:32:17.779 --> 00:32:18.559
 to decide

00:32:18.559 --> 00:32:20.559
 is what to do

00:32:20.559 --> 00:32:21.579
 with the time

00:32:21.579 --> 00:32:22.460
 that is given you

00:32:22.460 --> 00:32:24.319
 you don't have

00:32:24.319 --> 00:32:25.000
 to worry about

00:32:25.000 --> 00:32:25.640
 all the other

00:32:25.640 --> 00:32:26.259
 things and all

00:32:26.259 --> 00:32:26.539
 the other

00:32:26.539 --> 00:32:27.019
 storylines

00:32:27.019 --> 00:32:27.440
 your life

00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:27.920
 could have

00:32:27.920 --> 00:32:28.259
 followed

00:32:28.259 --> 00:32:29.079
 all you have

00:32:29.079 --> 00:32:29.400
 to worry

00:32:29.400 --> 00:32:29.740
 about

00:32:29.740 --> 00:32:30.519
 is what's

00:32:30.519 --> 00:32:30.740
 in front

00:32:30.740 --> 00:32:30.880
 of you

00:32:30.880 --> 00:32:31.319
 right now

00:32:31.319 --> 00:32:32.420
 and that's

00:32:32.420 --> 00:32:33.259
 so freeing

00:32:33.259 --> 00:32:34.039
 some people

00:32:34.039 --> 00:32:34.319
 could say

00:32:34.319 --> 00:32:34.579
 well that's

00:32:34.579 --> 00:32:35.059
 so limiting

00:32:35.059 --> 00:32:35.500
 but I think

00:32:35.500 --> 00:32:36.360
 that's so freeing

00:32:36.360 --> 00:32:36.779
 when we think

00:32:36.779 --> 00:32:37.180
 about these

00:32:37.180 --> 00:32:37.620
 desires

00:32:37.620 --> 00:32:37.920
 and we're

00:32:37.920 --> 00:32:38.220
 tempted

00:32:38.220 --> 00:32:38.620
 to live

00:32:38.620 --> 00:32:39.200
 someone else's

00:32:39.200 --> 00:32:39.480
 life

00:32:39.480 --> 00:32:39.880
 or do

00:32:39.880 --> 00:32:40.600
 do their

00:32:40.600 --> 00:32:41.360
 job at work

00:32:41.360 --> 00:32:41.740
 or be

00:32:41.740 --> 00:32:42.500
 their friend

00:32:42.500 --> 00:32:43.019
 to someone

00:32:43.019 --> 00:32:44.700
 who are

00:32:44.700 --> 00:32:45.059
 the friends

00:32:45.059 --> 00:32:45.319
 in front

00:32:45.319 --> 00:32:45.559
 of you

00:32:45.559 --> 00:32:46.059
 that you're

00:32:46.059 --> 00:32:46.420
 called to be

00:32:46.420 --> 00:32:46.880
 a friend to

00:32:46.880 --> 00:32:48.039
 or what's

00:32:48.039 --> 00:32:48.579
 the job

00:32:48.579 --> 00:32:48.860
 at work

00:32:48.860 --> 00:32:49.400
 that you're

00:32:49.400 --> 00:32:49.940
 called to do

00:32:49.940 --> 00:32:51.799
 so something

00:32:51.799 --> 00:32:52.360
 that's big

00:32:52.360 --> 00:32:53.220
 huge for me

00:32:53.220 --> 00:32:53.660
 because I've

00:32:53.660 --> 00:32:53.960
 struggled with

00:32:53.960 --> 00:32:54.299
 this my

00:32:54.299 --> 00:32:54.860
 entire life

00:32:54.860 --> 00:32:56.299
 when I am

00:32:56.299 --> 00:32:57.140
 tempted to

00:32:57.140 --> 00:32:57.759
 envy and

00:32:57.759 --> 00:32:58.580
 compare myself

00:32:58.580 --> 00:32:59.220
 to others

00:32:59.220 --> 00:33:00.140
 is actually

00:33:00.140 --> 00:33:00.680
 to journal

00:33:00.680 --> 00:33:01.279
 and reflect

00:33:01.279 --> 00:33:01.960
 on God's

00:33:01.960 --> 00:33:02.380
 specific

00:33:02.380 --> 00:33:03.180
 faithfulnesses

00:33:03.180 --> 00:33:03.820
 to me

00:33:03.820 --> 00:33:05.019
 and so

00:33:05.019 --> 00:33:05.840
 I'm sure

00:33:05.840 --> 00:33:06.059
 you guys

00:33:06.059 --> 00:33:06.320
 have heard

00:33:06.320 --> 00:33:06.660
 about the

00:33:06.660 --> 00:33:07.019
 concept

00:33:07.019 --> 00:33:07.620
 of a

00:33:07.620 --> 00:33:07.900
 gratitude

00:33:07.900 --> 00:33:08.299
 journal

00:33:08.299 --> 00:33:08.980
 I cannot

00:33:08.980 --> 00:33:09.400
 emphasize

00:33:09.400 --> 00:33:09.980
 enough

00:33:09.980 --> 00:33:11.080
 the importance

00:33:11.080 --> 00:33:11.740
 of being

00:33:11.740 --> 00:33:12.240
 able to

00:33:12.240 --> 00:33:12.799
 start

00:33:12.799 --> 00:33:13.960
 grab a

00:33:13.960 --> 00:33:14.220
 journal

00:33:14.220 --> 00:33:14.860
 one thing

00:33:14.860 --> 00:33:15.140
 a day

00:33:15.140 --> 00:33:15.900
 wake up

00:33:15.900 --> 00:33:16.100
 in the

00:33:16.100 --> 00:33:16.279
 morning

00:33:16.279 --> 00:33:16.500
 and write

00:33:16.500 --> 00:33:16.900
 one thing

00:33:16.900 --> 00:33:17.180
 a day

00:33:17.180 --> 00:33:17.559
 I did

00:33:17.559 --> 00:33:17.980
 this about

00:33:17.980 --> 00:33:18.519
 eight years

00:33:18.519 --> 00:33:18.799
 ago

00:33:18.799 --> 00:33:19.220
 and it

00:33:19.220 --> 00:33:20.259
 transformed

00:33:20.259 --> 00:33:20.660
 the way

00:33:20.660 --> 00:33:20.860
 that I

00:33:20.860 --> 00:33:21.220
 even wake

00:33:21.220 --> 00:33:21.460
 up in

00:33:21.460 --> 00:33:21.880
 the morning

00:33:21.880 --> 00:33:22.460
 the way

00:33:22.460 --> 00:33:22.779
 that I'm

00:33:22.779 --> 00:33:23.259
 walking

00:33:23.259 --> 00:33:23.660
 through the

00:33:23.660 --> 00:33:23.980
 day

00:33:23.980 --> 00:33:25.900
 and then

00:33:25.900 --> 00:33:26.420
 sometimes

00:33:26.420 --> 00:33:27.220
 instead of

00:33:27.220 --> 00:33:27.960
 writing down

00:33:27.960 --> 00:33:28.279
 things I'm

00:33:28.279 --> 00:33:28.640
 grateful for

00:33:28.640 --> 00:33:29.039
 I'll actually

00:33:29.039 --> 00:33:29.440
 pull out

00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:30.079
 old journals

00:33:30.079 --> 00:33:30.860
 from that

00:33:30.860 --> 00:33:31.180
 time

00:33:31.180 --> 00:33:31.600
 eight years

00:33:31.600 --> 00:33:31.860
 ago

00:33:31.860 --> 00:33:32.220
 when I

00:33:32.220 --> 00:33:32.920
 was not

00:33:32.920 --> 00:33:33.240
 even walking

00:33:33.240 --> 00:33:33.500
 with the

00:33:33.500 --> 00:33:33.640
 Lord

00:33:33.640 --> 00:33:33.900
 I'll be

00:33:33.900 --> 00:33:34.140
 honest

00:33:34.140 --> 00:33:35.200
 and I'm

00:33:35.200 --> 00:33:35.799
 like oh

00:33:35.799 --> 00:33:37.079
 my gosh

00:33:37.079 --> 00:33:38.319
 how much

00:33:38.319 --> 00:33:38.720
 do I have

00:33:38.720 --> 00:33:38.940
 to be

00:33:38.940 --> 00:33:39.600
 grateful for

00:33:39.600 --> 00:33:39.900
 that I'm

00:33:39.900 --> 00:33:40.360
 literally not

00:33:40.360 --> 00:33:40.620
 struggling

00:33:40.620 --> 00:33:40.920
 with that

00:33:40.920 --> 00:33:41.220
 anymore

00:33:41.220 --> 00:33:41.960
 like praise

00:33:41.960 --> 00:33:42.360
 the Lord

00:33:42.360 --> 00:33:43.279
 oh my

00:33:43.279 --> 00:33:43.500
 gosh

00:33:43.500 --> 00:33:43.799
 when you

00:33:43.799 --> 00:33:44.259
 really

00:33:44.259 --> 00:33:45.620
 share your

00:33:45.620 --> 00:33:45.980
 testimony

00:33:45.980 --> 00:33:46.900
 with yourself

00:33:46.900 --> 00:33:49.000
 wow

00:33:49.000 --> 00:33:49.759
 contentment

00:33:49.759 --> 00:33:50.320
 and joy

00:33:50.320 --> 00:33:50.920
 is like

00:33:50.920 --> 00:33:51.780
 the natural

00:33:51.780 --> 00:33:52.280
 outpouring

00:33:52.280 --> 00:33:52.620
 when you

00:33:52.620 --> 00:33:53.040
 see how

00:33:53.040 --> 00:33:53.480
 much God's

00:33:53.480 --> 00:33:53.720
 done in

00:33:53.720 --> 00:33:54.240
 your life

00:33:54.240 --> 00:33:54.940
 how much

00:33:54.940 --> 00:33:55.460
 he's provided

00:33:55.460 --> 00:33:55.880
 for you

00:33:55.880 --> 00:33:56.080
 and the

00:33:56.080 --> 00:33:56.400
 big and the

00:33:56.400 --> 00:33:56.720
 small

00:33:56.720 --> 00:33:57.100
 you know

00:33:57.100 --> 00:33:57.480
 that parking

00:33:57.480 --> 00:33:57.840
 spot was

00:33:57.840 --> 00:33:58.100
 awesome

00:33:58.100 --> 00:33:58.420
 that one

00:33:58.420 --> 00:33:58.660
 time

00:33:58.660 --> 00:33:58.960
 like you

00:33:58.960 --> 00:33:59.060
 know

00:33:59.060 --> 00:33:59.340
 I was running

00:33:59.340 --> 00:33:59.740
 late and you

00:33:59.740 --> 00:34:00.220
 provided for

00:34:00.220 --> 00:34:00.420
 me

00:34:00.420 --> 00:34:01.220
 versus like

00:34:01.220 --> 00:34:02.540
 you brought

00:34:02.540 --> 00:34:03.080
 my dad

00:34:03.080 --> 00:34:03.759
 to salvation

00:34:03.759 --> 00:34:04.660
 like praise

00:34:04.660 --> 00:34:05.080
 the Lord

00:34:05.080 --> 00:34:05.560
 whatever it

00:34:05.560 --> 00:34:06.060
 may be

00:34:06.060 --> 00:34:08.400
 so yeah

00:34:08.400 --> 00:34:08.840
 just another

00:34:08.840 --> 00:34:09.240
 thing

00:34:09.240 --> 00:34:10.360
 I think

00:34:10.360 --> 00:34:10.619
 that when

00:34:10.619 --> 00:34:10.780
 we're

00:34:10.780 --> 00:34:11.559
 contented to

00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:11.880
 compare

00:34:11.880 --> 00:34:12.280
 ourselves

00:34:12.280 --> 00:34:13.019
 to others

00:34:13.019 --> 00:34:13.739
 what they

00:34:13.739 --> 00:34:14.300
 look like

00:34:14.300 --> 00:34:14.639
 the life

00:34:14.639 --> 00:34:14.900
 that they

00:34:14.900 --> 00:34:15.239
 have

00:34:15.239 --> 00:34:16.000
 we have

00:34:16.000 --> 00:34:16.460
 to remember

00:34:16.460 --> 00:34:17.139
 that God

00:34:17.139 --> 00:34:17.980
 created each

00:34:17.980 --> 00:34:18.400
 of us

00:34:18.400 --> 00:34:19.679
 so specially

00:34:19.679 --> 00:34:20.619
 and so

00:34:20.619 --> 00:34:21.099
 uniquely

00:34:21.099 --> 00:34:21.480
 that there

00:34:21.480 --> 00:34:21.800
 is only

00:34:21.800 --> 00:34:22.599
 one Aubrey

00:34:22.599 --> 00:34:22.940
 Penn in

00:34:22.940 --> 00:34:23.300
 this world

00:34:23.300 --> 00:34:23.619
 right

00:34:23.619 --> 00:34:24.099
 there's only

00:34:24.099 --> 00:34:24.920
 one Natalie

00:34:24.920 --> 00:34:25.360
 Ma and

00:34:25.360 --> 00:34:25.679
 that he

00:34:25.679 --> 00:34:26.639
 has a

00:34:26.639 --> 00:34:27.159
 specific

00:34:27.159 --> 00:34:28.099
 story

00:34:28.099 --> 00:34:28.759
 and a

00:34:28.759 --> 00:34:29.039
 specific

00:34:29.039 --> 00:34:29.679
 work that

00:34:29.679 --> 00:34:30.039
 he wants

00:34:30.039 --> 00:34:30.340
 to do

00:34:30.340 --> 00:34:30.639
 in each

00:34:30.639 --> 00:34:31.139
 of us

00:34:31.139 --> 00:34:32.179
 with specific

00:34:32.179 --> 00:34:32.699
 skills

00:34:32.699 --> 00:34:33.239
 talents

00:34:33.239 --> 00:34:33.820
 giftings

00:34:33.820 --> 00:34:34.059
 we each

00:34:34.059 --> 00:34:34.259
 have a

00:34:34.259 --> 00:34:34.480
 personal

00:34:34.480 --> 00:34:34.860
 testimony

00:34:34.860 --> 00:34:35.340
 to share

00:34:35.340 --> 00:34:36.300
 and I

00:34:36.300 --> 00:34:36.679
 think he's

00:34:36.679 --> 00:34:37.119
 given us

00:34:37.119 --> 00:34:37.639
 those specific

00:34:37.639 --> 00:34:38.480
 things to

00:34:38.480 --> 00:34:38.960
 bring glory

00:34:38.960 --> 00:34:39.579
 to himself

00:34:39.579 --> 00:34:40.460
 so when

00:34:40.460 --> 00:34:40.920
 we compare

00:34:40.920 --> 00:34:41.360
 ourselves

00:34:41.360 --> 00:34:42.259
 with others

00:34:42.260 --> 00:34:42.700
 and try

00:34:42.700 --> 00:34:43.080
 and be

00:34:43.080 --> 00:34:43.680
 someone else

00:34:43.680 --> 00:34:44.080
 or live

00:34:44.080 --> 00:34:44.620
 someone else's

00:34:44.620 --> 00:34:44.940
 life

00:34:44.940 --> 00:34:45.660
 you actually

00:34:45.660 --> 00:34:46.500
 deprive the

00:34:46.500 --> 00:34:47.200
 world of

00:34:47.200 --> 00:34:47.640
 the person

00:34:47.640 --> 00:34:48.240
 God created

00:34:48.240 --> 00:34:48.900
 you to be

00:34:48.900 --> 00:34:49.740
 and the

00:34:49.740 --> 00:34:50.320
 talents he's

00:34:50.320 --> 00:34:51.000
 given you

00:34:51.000 --> 00:34:51.660
 to share

00:34:51.660 --> 00:34:52.060
 right

00:34:52.060 --> 00:34:52.420
 when you're

00:34:52.420 --> 00:34:52.820
 trying to

00:34:52.820 --> 00:34:53.680
 be you

00:34:53.680 --> 00:34:53.920
 know

00:34:53.920 --> 00:34:55.040
 sparkling

00:34:55.040 --> 00:34:55.540
 in daisies

00:34:55.540 --> 00:34:55.980
 and roses

00:34:55.980 --> 00:34:56.480
 when really

00:34:56.480 --> 00:34:56.960
 God's created

00:34:56.960 --> 00:34:57.460
 you to be

00:34:57.460 --> 00:34:58.020
 quiet

00:34:58.020 --> 00:34:58.760
 and deep

00:34:58.760 --> 00:34:59.440
 and contemplative

00:34:59.440 --> 00:34:59.980
 whatever it

00:34:59.980 --> 00:35:00.240
 may be

00:35:00.240 --> 00:35:00.480
 I don't

00:35:00.480 --> 00:35:00.820
 know

00:35:00.820 --> 00:35:01.980
 you deprive

00:35:01.980 --> 00:35:02.480
 the world

00:35:02.480 --> 00:35:03.660
 of who he

00:35:03.660 --> 00:35:03.960
 made you

00:35:03.960 --> 00:35:04.360
 to be

00:35:04.360 --> 00:35:04.800
 and that's

00:35:04.800 --> 00:35:05.240
 a gift

00:35:05.240 --> 00:35:07.080
 I just want

00:35:07.080 --> 00:35:07.400
 to emphasize

00:35:07.400 --> 00:35:07.840
 he has a

00:35:07.840 --> 00:35:08.640
 specific calling

00:35:08.640 --> 00:35:09.160
 and task

00:35:09.160 --> 00:35:09.740
 for you to

00:35:09.740 --> 00:35:10.240
 fulfill in

00:35:10.240 --> 00:35:10.680
 your life

00:35:10.680 --> 00:35:11.740
 to glorify

00:35:11.740 --> 00:35:12.200
 himself

00:35:12.199 --> 00:35:13.339
 through you

00:35:13.339 --> 00:35:14.039
 that if you're

00:35:14.039 --> 00:35:14.480
 trying to be

00:35:14.480 --> 00:35:15.159
 someone else

00:35:15.159 --> 00:35:16.519
 he gets less

00:35:16.519 --> 00:35:16.960
 glory

00:35:16.960 --> 00:35:20.359
 so comparison

00:35:20.359 --> 00:35:21.039
 is always a losing

00:35:21.039 --> 00:35:21.319
 game

00:35:21.319 --> 00:35:22.000
 I'm just gonna

00:35:22.000 --> 00:35:22.539
 throw it out there

00:35:22.539 --> 00:35:23.559
 you either compare

00:35:23.559 --> 00:35:24.939
 and you come

00:35:24.939 --> 00:35:25.619
 out on top

00:35:25.619 --> 00:35:26.379
 you're feeling

00:35:26.379 --> 00:35:26.960
 pretty good

00:35:26.960 --> 00:35:27.960
 wait I actually

00:35:27.960 --> 00:35:28.480
 do have a lot

00:35:28.480 --> 00:35:29.159
 of spiritual gifts

00:35:29.159 --> 00:35:30.079
 wait I actually

00:35:30.079 --> 00:35:30.759
 do have like a

00:35:30.759 --> 00:35:31.359
 smoking hot husband

00:35:31.359 --> 00:35:32.000
 wait I actually

00:35:32.000 --> 00:35:32.500
 do have like

00:35:32.500 --> 00:35:32.899
 all my kids

00:35:32.899 --> 00:35:33.779
 whatever

00:35:33.779 --> 00:35:34.519
 they're not as

00:35:34.519 --> 00:35:34.839
 bad as

00:35:34.839 --> 00:35:35.319
 someone says

00:35:35.320 --> 00:35:38.200
 or you become

00:35:38.200 --> 00:35:38.720
 envious

00:35:38.720 --> 00:35:39.480
 and jealous

00:35:39.480 --> 00:35:40.640
 wait I don't

00:35:40.640 --> 00:35:41.220
 have what they

00:35:41.220 --> 00:35:41.460
 have

00:35:41.460 --> 00:35:42.160
 I want all

00:35:42.160 --> 00:35:42.700
 those things

00:35:42.700 --> 00:35:43.280
 so like I

00:35:43.280 --> 00:35:44.039
 really do think

00:35:44.039 --> 00:35:45.440
 it's part of

00:35:45.440 --> 00:35:45.820
 like taking

00:35:45.820 --> 00:35:46.180
 every thought

00:35:46.180 --> 00:35:46.539
 captive

00:35:46.539 --> 00:35:47.440
 and being

00:35:47.440 --> 00:35:47.960
 mindful of

00:35:47.960 --> 00:35:48.260
 even when

00:35:48.260 --> 00:35:48.820
 the comparing

00:35:48.820 --> 00:35:49.539
 thought comes

00:35:49.539 --> 00:35:49.900
 in

00:35:49.900 --> 00:35:51.780
 just to be

00:35:51.780 --> 00:35:52.100
 aware of

00:35:52.100 --> 00:35:52.320
 that

00:35:52.320 --> 00:35:54.019
 because

00:35:54.019 --> 00:35:54.480
 oftentimes

00:35:54.480 --> 00:35:55.080
 we tend

00:35:55.080 --> 00:35:55.940
 to downplay

00:35:55.940 --> 00:35:56.600
 the positive

00:35:56.600 --> 00:35:57.180
 aspects of

00:35:57.180 --> 00:35:57.820
 our life

00:35:57.820 --> 00:35:59.400
 and overemphasize

00:35:59.400 --> 00:35:59.900
 the positive

00:35:59.900 --> 00:36:00.720
 aspects of

00:36:00.720 --> 00:36:01.200
 other people's

00:36:01.200 --> 00:36:01.580
 lives

00:36:01.579 --> 00:36:02.759
 but at the

00:36:02.759 --> 00:36:03.239
 same time

00:36:03.239 --> 00:36:04.360
 overemphasizing

00:36:04.360 --> 00:36:04.980
 how hard

00:36:04.980 --> 00:36:05.420
 our life

00:36:05.420 --> 00:36:05.860
 is

00:36:05.860 --> 00:36:07.619
 and downplaying

00:36:07.619 --> 00:36:08.759
 hard and

00:36:08.759 --> 00:36:09.139
 challenging

00:36:09.139 --> 00:36:09.460
 in other

00:36:09.460 --> 00:36:09.779
 people's

00:36:09.779 --> 00:36:10.079
 lives

00:36:10.079 --> 00:36:10.519
 right

00:36:10.519 --> 00:36:11.799
 so you

00:36:11.799 --> 00:36:11.960
 can just

00:36:11.960 --> 00:36:12.400
 get a show

00:36:12.400 --> 00:36:12.659
 of hands

00:36:12.659 --> 00:36:13.219
 how many

00:36:13.219 --> 00:36:13.440
 of you

00:36:13.440 --> 00:36:14.059
 single ladies

00:36:14.059 --> 00:36:14.500
 feel at

00:36:14.500 --> 00:36:14.880
 times

00:36:14.880 --> 00:36:15.519
 life is

00:36:15.519 --> 00:36:16.199
 really hard

00:36:16.199 --> 00:36:17.900
 it's really

00:36:17.900 --> 00:36:18.179
 hard

00:36:18.179 --> 00:36:22.440
 how many

00:36:22.440 --> 00:36:23.039
 married women

00:36:23.039 --> 00:36:23.480
 feel at

00:36:23.480 --> 00:36:23.900
 times

00:36:23.900 --> 00:36:24.460
 marriage

00:36:24.460 --> 00:36:25.159
 is really

00:36:25.159 --> 00:36:25.480
 hard

00:36:25.480 --> 00:36:30.279
 what about

00:36:30.279 --> 00:36:30.719
 moms

00:36:30.719 --> 00:36:31.359
 do you feel

00:36:31.359 --> 00:36:31.919
 motherhood

00:36:31.919 --> 00:36:32.539
 at times

00:36:32.539 --> 00:36:33.159
 is hard

00:36:33.159 --> 00:36:36.579
 unanimous

00:36:36.579 --> 00:36:37.000
 consent

00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:37.679
 what about

00:36:37.679 --> 00:36:38.299
 working women

00:36:38.299 --> 00:36:38.819
 honestly

00:36:38.819 --> 00:36:39.359
 like is your

00:36:39.359 --> 00:36:40.199
 job hard

00:36:40.199 --> 00:36:40.719
 sometimes

00:36:40.719 --> 00:36:41.599
 are there

00:36:41.599 --> 00:36:42.039
 aspects to

00:36:42.039 --> 00:36:42.459
 your job

00:36:42.459 --> 00:36:42.939
 that are

00:36:42.939 --> 00:36:43.199
 hard

00:36:43.199 --> 00:36:46.139
 it's because

00:36:46.139 --> 00:36:46.819
 life is

00:36:46.819 --> 00:36:47.319
 hard

00:36:47.319 --> 00:36:49.939
 it's never

00:36:49.939 --> 00:36:50.339
 going to be

00:36:50.339 --> 00:36:50.799
 better on

00:36:50.799 --> 00:36:51.179
 the other

00:36:51.179 --> 00:36:51.619
 side

00:36:51.619 --> 00:36:53.739
 what God

00:36:53.739 --> 00:36:54.199
 has given

00:36:54.199 --> 00:36:54.639
 you in

00:36:54.639 --> 00:36:55.219
 this pasture

00:36:55.219 --> 00:36:55.639
 he's given

00:36:55.639 --> 00:36:56.099
 you to

00:36:56.099 --> 00:36:56.980
 tend is

00:36:56.980 --> 00:36:57.519
 beautiful

00:36:57.519 --> 00:36:58.659
 but it's

00:36:58.659 --> 00:36:59.480
 also hard

00:36:59.480 --> 00:37:01.320
 because we're

00:37:01.320 --> 00:37:01.599
 in the

00:37:01.599 --> 00:37:01.960
 already

00:37:01.960 --> 00:37:02.599
 not yet

00:37:02.599 --> 00:37:04.579
 we're in

00:37:04.579 --> 00:37:05.099
 this space

00:37:05.099 --> 00:37:05.360
 where we're

00:37:05.360 --> 00:37:05.599
 saying

00:37:05.599 --> 00:37:06.000
 Jesus

00:37:06.000 --> 00:37:06.719
 come

00:37:06.719 --> 00:37:07.260
 redeem

00:37:07.260 --> 00:37:07.940
 this

00:37:07.940 --> 00:37:09.119
 but I

00:37:09.119 --> 00:37:09.760
 feel that

00:37:09.760 --> 00:37:10.219
 pain

00:37:10.219 --> 00:37:10.500
 of you

00:37:10.500 --> 00:37:11.039
 not being

00:37:11.039 --> 00:37:11.360
 here

00:37:11.360 --> 00:37:11.820
 yet

00:37:11.820 --> 00:37:13.320
 life is

00:37:13.320 --> 00:37:13.619
 hard

00:37:13.619 --> 00:37:14.039
 at any

00:37:14.039 --> 00:37:14.539
 stage

00:37:14.539 --> 00:37:15.360
 no matter

00:37:15.360 --> 00:37:15.820
 how many

00:37:15.820 --> 00:37:16.280
 things you

00:37:16.280 --> 00:37:16.780
 have

00:37:16.780 --> 00:37:17.679
 no matter

00:37:17.679 --> 00:37:18.019
 how many

00:37:18.019 --> 00:37:18.360
 prayers

00:37:18.360 --> 00:37:19.099
 go answered

00:37:19.099 --> 00:37:20.740
 it's still

00:37:20.740 --> 00:37:21.119
 going to be

00:37:21.119 --> 00:37:21.539
 hard

00:37:21.539 --> 00:37:24.500
 because this

00:37:24.500 --> 00:37:25.019
 life on

00:37:25.019 --> 00:37:25.719
 earth apart

00:37:25.719 --> 00:37:26.380
 from Christ

00:37:26.380 --> 00:37:27.159
 isn't what

00:37:27.159 --> 00:37:27.500
 is going

00:37:27.500 --> 00:37:28.139
 to last

00:37:28.139 --> 00:37:29.179
 or ultimately

00:37:29.179 --> 00:37:29.860
 fulfill and

00:37:29.860 --> 00:37:30.239
 satisfy

00:37:30.239 --> 00:37:32.219
 and we

00:37:32.219 --> 00:37:32.940
 see this

00:37:32.940 --> 00:37:33.920
 in Jesus

00:37:33.920 --> 00:37:34.239
 and the

00:37:34.239 --> 00:37:34.599
 Samaritan

00:37:34.599 --> 00:37:34.920
 woman

00:37:34.920 --> 00:37:36.480
 there's only

00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:37.500
 one thing

00:37:37.500 --> 00:37:37.880
 that can

00:37:37.880 --> 00:37:38.900
 truly satisfy

00:37:38.900 --> 00:37:39.539
 that can

00:37:39.539 --> 00:37:40.259
 truly fulfill

00:37:40.259 --> 00:37:41.199
 all of our

00:37:41.199 --> 00:37:41.759
 desires

00:37:41.759 --> 00:37:42.880
 that can

00:37:42.880 --> 00:37:43.239
 quench

00:37:43.239 --> 00:37:43.980
 our thirst

00:37:43.980 --> 00:37:45.320
 I'm reading

00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:45.860
 from John

00:37:45.860 --> 00:37:46.320
 4

00:37:46.320 --> 00:37:47.119
 13 to

00:37:47.119 --> 00:37:47.519
 14

00:37:47.519 --> 00:37:55.460
 Jesus

00:37:55.460 --> 00:37:55.940
 said to

00:37:55.940 --> 00:37:56.219
 her

00:37:56.219 --> 00:37:57.960
 everyone

00:37:57.960 --> 00:37:58.500
 who drinks

00:37:58.500 --> 00:37:58.820
 of this

00:37:58.820 --> 00:37:59.139
 water

00:37:59.139 --> 00:38:00.099
 will be

00:38:00.099 --> 00:38:00.460
 thirsty

00:38:00.460 --> 00:38:00.880
 again

00:38:00.880 --> 00:38:02.179
 but

00:38:02.179 --> 00:38:02.519
 whoever

00:38:02.519 --> 00:38:02.840
 drinks

00:38:02.840 --> 00:38:03.099
 of the

00:38:03.099 --> 00:38:03.340
 water

00:38:03.340 --> 00:38:03.940
 that I

00:38:03.940 --> 00:38:04.139
 will

00:38:04.139 --> 00:38:04.380
 give

00:38:04.380 --> 00:38:04.639
 him

00:38:04.639 --> 00:38:05.679
 will

00:38:05.679 --> 00:38:06.239
 never

00:38:06.239 --> 00:38:06.800
 be

00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:07.280
 thirsty

00:38:07.280 --> 00:38:07.980
 again

00:38:07.980 --> 00:38:09.360
 the

00:38:09.360 --> 00:38:09.619
 water

00:38:09.619 --> 00:38:10.139
 that I

00:38:10.139 --> 00:38:10.300
 will

00:38:10.300 --> 00:38:10.539
 give

00:38:10.539 --> 00:38:10.820
 him

00:38:10.820 --> 00:38:11.539
 will

00:38:11.539 --> 00:38:11.940
 become

00:38:11.940 --> 00:38:12.099
 in

00:38:12.099 --> 00:38:12.280
 him

00:38:12.280 --> 00:38:12.579
 a

00:38:12.579 --> 00:38:13.179
 spring

00:38:13.179 --> 00:38:13.759
 of

00:38:13.759 --> 00:38:14.159
 water

00:38:14.159 --> 00:38:15.079
 welling

00:38:15.079 --> 00:38:15.440
 up

00:38:15.440 --> 00:38:16.139
 to

00:38:16.139 --> 00:38:16.539
 eternal

00:38:16.539 --> 00:38:17.019
 life

00:38:17.019 --> 00:38:20.119
 so I

00:38:20.119 --> 00:38:20.199
 want to

00:38:20.199 --> 00:38:20.579
 ask you

00:38:20.579 --> 00:38:20.759
 guys

00:38:20.759 --> 00:38:21.219
 how does

00:38:21.219 --> 00:38:21.480
 that

00:38:21.480 --> 00:38:21.900
 reality

00:38:21.900 --> 00:38:22.219
 sit

00:38:22.219 --> 00:38:22.639
 with you

00:38:22.639 --> 00:38:23.179
 today

00:38:23.179 --> 00:38:23.699
 that

00:38:23.699 --> 00:38:24.119
 nothing

00:38:24.119 --> 00:38:24.400
 this

00:38:24.400 --> 00:38:24.599
 side

00:38:24.599 --> 00:38:24.739
 of

00:38:24.739 --> 00:38:24.980
 heaven

00:38:24.980 --> 00:38:25.179
 will

00:38:25.179 --> 00:38:25.500
 ever

00:38:25.500 --> 00:38:25.900
 truly

00:38:25.900 --> 00:38:26.259
 fulfill

00:38:26.259 --> 00:38:26.460
 our

00:38:26.460 --> 00:38:26.980
 longings

00:38:26.980 --> 00:38:27.300
 or

00:38:27.300 --> 00:38:27.579
 ever

00:38:27.579 --> 00:38:28.000
 truly

00:38:28.000 --> 00:38:28.280
 be

00:38:28.280 --> 00:38:28.699
 enough

00:38:28.699 --> 00:38:30.039
 and I

00:38:30.039 --> 00:38:30.219
 want to

00:38:30.219 --> 00:38:30.340
 hear

00:38:30.340 --> 00:38:30.619
 what

00:38:30.619 --> 00:38:30.960
 is there

00:38:30.960 --> 00:38:31.159
 anything

00:38:31.159 --> 00:38:31.579
 you find

00:38:31.579 --> 00:38:32.079
 encouraging

00:38:32.079 --> 00:38:32.420
 then

00:38:32.420 --> 00:38:32.719
 about

00:38:32.719 --> 00:38:32.880
 what

00:38:32.880 --> 00:38:33.079
 we've

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 discussed

00:38:33.400 --> 00:38:33.739
 today

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 how does

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 that

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 reality

00:38:39.300 --> 00:38:39.619
 sit

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 with

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 you

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 that

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 nothing

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 this

00:38:41.059 --> 00:38:41.280
 side

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 of

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 heaven

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 will

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 ever

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 truly

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 fulfill

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 our

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 longings

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 or

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 ever

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 truly

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 be

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 enough

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 I

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 think

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 when you

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 said

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 that

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 if you

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 got

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 all the

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 five

00:38:50.860 --> 00:38:51.460
 things

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 that

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 you

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 listed

00:38:52.159 --> 00:38:52.739
 today

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 like

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 this

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 I

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 would

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 just

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 have

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 another

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 five

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 things

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 it

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 would

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 never

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 ever

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 be

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 enough

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 I

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 would

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 just

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 keep

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 coming

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 up

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 that

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 list

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 and

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 like

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 if

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 I

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 constantly

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 get

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 what

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 I

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 wanted

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 every

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 single

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 time

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 then

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 I

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 would

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 not

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 have

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 a

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 need

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 for

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 Jesus

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 I

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 think

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 the

00:39:15.279 --> 00:39:15.579
 image

00:39:15.579 --> 00:39:15.739
 of

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 a

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 spring

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 of

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 water

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 welling

00:39:17.699 --> 00:39:17.899
 up

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 is

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 so

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 freeing

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 because

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 it

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 makes

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 really

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 real

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 what

00:39:21.959 --> 00:39:22.059
 you

00:39:22.059 --> 00:39:22.259
 said

00:39:22.259 --> 00:39:22.699
 earlier

00:39:22.699 --> 00:39:22.979
 about

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 how

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 all

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 your

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 needs

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 are

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 met

00:39:25.619 --> 00:39:26.479
 you

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 get

00:39:26.659 --> 00:39:26.819
 to

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 live

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 free

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 and

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 free

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 from

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 even

00:39:30.959 --> 00:39:31.379
 these

00:39:31.379 --> 00:39:31.839
 desires

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 because

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 what

00:39:32.359 --> 00:39:32.519
 are

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 they

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 they're

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 nothing

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 compared

00:39:34.419 --> 00:39:34.879
 to

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 like

00:39:35.179 --> 00:39:36.779
 you

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 are

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 being

00:39:38.459 --> 00:39:38.979
 you're

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 not

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 just

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 being

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 filled

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 up

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 and

00:39:40.259 --> 00:39:40.460
 poured

00:39:40.460 --> 00:39:40.699
 out

00:39:40.699 --> 00:39:40.880
 over

00:39:40.880 --> 00:39:40.960
 and

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 over

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 you

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 are

00:39:41.519 --> 00:39:42.259
 you've

00:39:42.259 --> 00:39:42.500
 had

00:39:42.500 --> 00:39:42.659
 the

00:39:42.659 --> 00:39:42.880
 water

00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:43.019
 and

00:39:43.019 --> 00:39:43.139
 now

00:39:43.139 --> 00:39:43.259
 the

00:39:43.259 --> 00:39:43.480
 spirit

00:39:43.480 --> 00:39:43.579
 is

00:39:43.579 --> 00:39:43.759
 in

00:39:43.759 --> 00:39:43.880
 you

00:39:43.880 --> 00:39:44.000
 and

00:39:44.000 --> 00:39:44.159
 you

00:39:44.159 --> 00:39:44.300
 are

00:39:44.300 --> 00:39:44.639
 like

00:39:44.639 --> 00:39:45.699
 overflowing

00:39:45.699 --> 00:39:46.460
 constantly

00:39:46.460 --> 00:39:47.440
 even if

00:39:47.440 --> 00:39:47.679
 you don't

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 realize

00:39:48.119 --> 00:39:48.420
 it

00:39:48.420 --> 00:39:48.980
 it's

00:39:48.980 --> 00:39:49.199
 like

00:39:49.199 --> 00:39:49.579
 you

00:39:49.579 --> 00:39:49.820
 have

00:39:49.820 --> 00:39:50.099
 like

00:39:50.099 --> 00:39:50.800
 this

00:39:50.800 --> 00:39:50.940
 is

00:39:50.940 --> 00:39:51.460
 everything

00:39:51.460 --> 00:39:51.800
 it's

00:39:51.800 --> 00:39:52.079
 everything

00:39:52.079 --> 00:39:52.420
 you need

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 you're

00:39:52.579 --> 00:39:52.860
 full

00:39:52.860 --> 00:39:53.360
 yeah

00:39:53.360 --> 00:39:53.800
 you're

00:39:53.800 --> 00:39:54.099
 full

00:39:54.099 --> 00:39:54.599
 yeah

00:39:54.599 --> 00:39:55.619
 you have

00:39:55.619 --> 00:39:56.059
 so much

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 for

00:39:56.199 --> 00:39:56.539
 others

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 too

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 yep

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 so

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 anyone

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 anyone else

00:40:10.340 --> 00:40:10.860
 how's that

00:40:10.860 --> 00:40:11.220
 sit with

00:40:11.220 --> 00:40:11.420
 you

00:40:11.420 --> 00:40:12.159
 or

00:40:12.159 --> 00:40:12.380
 what have

00:40:12.380 --> 00:40:12.840
 you heard

00:40:12.840 --> 00:40:13.099
 that's

00:40:13.099 --> 00:40:13.500
 encouraging

00:40:13.500 --> 00:40:14.000
 listening

00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:34.079
 This is fallad out, so you can shred until it goes away, so you'll get up-

00:40:34.079 --> 00:40:55.400
 i never considered the like like how in the world you hear the trope like be you be yourself

00:40:55.400 --> 00:41:00.259
 i've never really thought of that from like a spiritual perspective of like no if you're

00:41:00.260 --> 00:41:05.540
 you're not being who god intends you to be you are withholding his glory from the world that

00:41:05.540 --> 00:41:12.680
 that wasn't really yeah that was big yeah you're depriving your friends and family and everyone

00:41:12.680 --> 00:41:23.480
 around you from being who god's called you to be yeah that takes a lot of like faith that god made

00:41:23.480 --> 00:41:31.039
 you to be good enough yeah or that he's good enough yeah you know that you're not inadequate

00:41:31.039 --> 00:41:38.019
 and that's hard to believe about ourselves yeah 15 10 let's go what is it by the grace of god i am

00:41:38.019 --> 00:41:42.500
 what i am his grace to me is not in vain amen amen

00:41:42.500 --> 00:41:55.739
 yeah that's good stuff guys um so just in closing i want to share um first corinthians 6 19 to 20

00:41:55.739 --> 00:42:06.079
 super straightforward first corinthians 6 19 to 20 it says you are not your own

00:42:06.079 --> 00:42:09.679
 for you were bought with a price

00:42:09.679 --> 00:42:21.519
 everything we have we have been given from god every dollar in your bank account every relationship

00:42:21.519 --> 00:42:29.219
 you have every spiritual gift that you have every talent all of it and everything above and beyond our

00:42:29.219 --> 00:42:36.059
 salvation is literally icing on the cake the cake is already sweet the cake is already sad

00:42:36.059 --> 00:42:41.460
 the cake is satisfying the cake is already nourishing and when we live with that reality and that

00:42:41.460 --> 00:42:49.159
 understanding at the forefront of our mind contentment and praise and thanksgiving are the natural

00:42:49.159 --> 00:42:57.880
 outpouring it's that nat we can't help but be thankful and contentment praise and thanksgiving are

00:42:57.880 --> 00:43:02.380
 the antidote to envy and comparison and it all leads to joy

00:43:02.380 --> 00:43:11.039
 so i want to take a minute um just a couple minutes i'm going to ask a question you can journal

00:43:11.039 --> 00:43:16.980
 it or think of think of it on your own or whatever but i want to take five minutes it's 11 27 so um

00:43:16.980 --> 00:43:21.960
 groups to pray for one another so this is called the tend well prayer

00:43:21.960 --> 00:43:33.920
 be content in the station he has appointed you to in this season and yet be ever ready to move at the impulse of his love

00:43:33.920 --> 00:43:45.579
 tend well those things that are before you however humble they be and he will lead you in time to other good works he has

00:43:45.579 --> 00:43:54.900
 appointed for you whether big or small is of no matter be liberated now from this burden of believing that

00:43:54.900 --> 00:44:02.259
 anything depends upon you and so be liberated at last to give yourself to his joyful service

00:44:02.259 --> 00:44:07.460
 in grateful response for the grace he has lavished upon you

00:44:07.460 --> 00:44:13.340
 oh god of all the prophets you knew us and chose us before you formed us in the womb

00:44:13.340 --> 00:44:21.260
 fill us with faith that speaks your word hope that does not disappoint and love that bears all things

00:44:21.260 --> 00:44:28.260
 for your sake until that day when we shall know you fully even as we are known by you amen