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 Chapter 15, verse 1, we read,

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 And Samuel said to Saul,

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 The Lord sent me to anoint you king over his people Israel.

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 Now therefore, listen to the words of the Lord.

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 Thus says the Lord of hosts,

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 I have noted that Amalek did what Amalek did to Israel

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 in opposing them on the way when they came up out of Egypt.

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 Now go and strike Amalek and devote to destruction all that they have.

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 Do not spare them, but kill both men and women,

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 child and infant, ox and sheep, camel and donkey.

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 So Saul summoned the people and numbered them in Talim,

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 200,000 men on foot and 10,000 men of Judah.

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 And Saul came to the city of Amalek and lay in wait in the valley.

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 Then Saul said to the Canaanites,

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 Go, depart, go down from among the Amalekites,

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 lest I destroy you with them.

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 For you showed kindness to all the people of Israel

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 when they came up out of Egypt.

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 So the Canaanites departed from among the Amalekites.

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 And Saul defeated the Amalekites from Havilah,

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 as far as Shur, which is east of Egypt.

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 And he took Agag, the king of the Amalekites,

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 alive and devoted to destruction all the people

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 with the edge of the sword.

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 But Saul and the people spared Agag

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 and the best of the sheep and of the oxen

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 and of the fattened calves and the lamb

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 and all that was good

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 and would not utterly destroy them.

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 All that was despised and worthless,

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 they devoted to destruction.

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 The word of the Lord came to Samuel.

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 I regret that I have met Saul king,

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 for he has turned back from following me

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 and has not performed my commandments.

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 And Samuel was angry

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 and he cried to the Lord all night.

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 And Samuel rose early to meet Saul in the morning.

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 And it was told Samuel,

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 Saul came to Carmel

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 and behold, he set up a monument for himself

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 and turned and passed on

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 and went down to Yuga.

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 And Saul said to him,

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 Blessed be you to the Lord.

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 I have performed the commandment of the Lord.

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 And Samuel said,

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 What then is this bleating of the sheep in my ears

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 and the lowing of the oxen that I hear?

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 Saul said,

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 They have brought them from the Amalekites,

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 for the people spared the best of the sheep

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 and the oxen to sacrifice to the Lord your God

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 and the rest we have devoted to destruction.

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 And Samuel said to Saul,

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 Stop!

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 I will tell you what the Lord said to me this night.

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 And he said to him,

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 Speak.

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 And Samuel said,

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 Though you are little in your own eyes,

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 are you not the head of the tribes of Israel?

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 The Lord anointed you king over Israel,

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 and the Lord sent you on a mission and said,

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 Go, devote to destruction the sinners,

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 the Amalekites,

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 and fight against them until they are consumed.

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 Why then did you not obey the voice of the Lord?

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 Why did you pounce on the spoil

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 and do what was evil in the sight of the Lord?

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 And Saul said to Samuel,

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 I have obeyed the voice of the Lord.

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 I have gone on the mission on which the Lord sent me.

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 I have brought Agag, the king of Amalek,

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 and I have devoted the Amalekites to destruction.

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 But the people took of the spoil,

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 sheep and oxen,

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 the best of the things devoted to destruction,

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 to sacrifice to the loyal God in Gilgal.

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 And Samuel said,

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 Has the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices

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 as in obeying the voice of the Lord?

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 Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,

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 and to listen than the fat of rams.

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 For rebellion is the sin of divination,

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 and presumption is as iniquity and idolatry.

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 Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,

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 he has also rejected you from being king.

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 Saul said to Samuel,

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 I have sinned,

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 for I have transgressed the commandment of the Lord

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 and your words,

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 because I feared the people

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 and obeyed their voice.

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 Now therefore,

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 please pardon my sin and return with me,

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 that I may bow before the Lord.

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 And Samuel said to Saul,

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 I will not return with you,

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 for you have rejected the word of the Lord,

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 and the Lord has rejected you

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 from being king over Israel.

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 As Samuel turned to go away,

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 Saul seized the skirt of his robe and it tore.

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 And Samuel said to him,

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 The Lord has torn the kingdom of Israel from you this day,

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 and has given it to a neighbor of yours,

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 who is better than you.

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 And also,

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 the glory of Israel would not lie or have regret,

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 for he is not a man that he should have regret.

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 And he said,

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 I have sinned,

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 I have sinned,

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 yet honor me now before the elders of my people

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 and before Israel,

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 and return with me,

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 that I may bow before the Lord your God.

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 So Samuel turned back after Saul,

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 and Saul bowed before the Lord.

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 Then in verse 35,

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 And Samuel did not see Saul again

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 until the day of his death.

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 But Samuel grieved over Saul,

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 and the Lord regretted

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 that he had made Saul king over Israel.

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 This is the word of God.

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 I'm just going to do something.

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 So welcome.

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 Welcome everyone to Watermark.

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 Just really exciting to actually see some of your faces on the screen.

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 Great to see Hui Lin,

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 and Jesse,

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 and Victoria,

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 and Dwight earlier.

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 Great to see you.

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 I know in this time,

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 Zoom can be difficult to concentrate.

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 It can be difficult to focus.

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 But my prayer is actually,

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 just as Jeremy shared earlier on,

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 that actually we take this season,

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 not as a season to kind of wish your way,

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 but actually to really pursue God,

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 and to really seek to say,

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 God, who is the person,

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 or the people that you're placing on my heart,

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 that I can be praying for in Watermark,

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 that I can be sending a text,

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 that I can be encouraging at this time.

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 Because we really need to be a community

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 that's helping point each other to Jesus,

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 even in this period.

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 So let me just pray for us

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 as we get into God's word together.

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 Father, I just want to thank you

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 that you are a gracious God.

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 Thank you that you're a God who speaks to us.

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 Thank you, the God who knows us.

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 Thank you, the God who has not left us by ourselves,

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 but you're a God who comes to us

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 again and again and again,

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 who calls us back to yourself.

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 Thank you that you are a kind of God

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 who is not distant,

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 but actually wants deep relationship with us.

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 And I pray this morning,

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 as we hear from your word

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 and we hear about Saul's life and David's life,

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 we pray that God,

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 would you make us people after your own heart?

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 Would you make us those

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 who really know what it means to follow you?

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 I pray, Lord, particularly for those in this season,

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 whether it's with kids schooling online

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 or whether it's just the holidays coming up

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 and Chinese New Year not being all

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 that we wish it was going to be.

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 Lord, I pray that whatever the circumstances

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 that we find ourselves in,

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 you'd help us to realign our hearts,

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 place them back to you.

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 And realize that you are enough for us.

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 So we love you.

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 Speak to us, we pray.

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 In Jesus' name.

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 Amen.

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 Great.

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 Boris Johnson is the prime minister of the UK.

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 I don't think I've ever started a sermon like that before.

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 But he is.

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 But he is.

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 And he's right in the middle of something people are calling Partygate,

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 a scandal that he and his ministers and his office

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 have seemingly broken,

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 potentially,

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 some of the COVID lockdown rules

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 that they created themselves.

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 And so right in the midst of this,

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 it's a very tense situation for him.

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 And his leadership manifesto,

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 or his leadership mantra, if you like,

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 is never apologize,

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 never explain.

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 And yet,

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 about just a few weeks ago,

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 Boris Johnson came out to apologize

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 as the heat of anger,

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 public anger,

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 rose.

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 And here's what he said.

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 He said,

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 I want to apologize

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 because I carry full responsibility

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 for what took place.

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 But nobody told me

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 this was an event

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 that was against the rules.

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 Now,

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 I don't know about you,

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 and I'm not being political here,

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 but that,

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 to me,

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 doesn't sound like an apology.

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 That's what we call a non-apology.

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 You know,

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 it's like,

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 I'm sorry you were offended

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 kind of apology.

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 You know,

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 and in our culture of trial by social media,

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 almost every single day,

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 it seems,

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 there's either some sports personality,

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 a celebrity,

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 a business,

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 which comes out and apologizes

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 in some way

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 to kind of remove the heat

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 of the anger

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 or the circumstances

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 that are around them

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 to just be able to carry on

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 with what they're doing.

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 It's the,

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 I'm sorry we didn't do as well

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 as we could have

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 kind of answer,

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 which I often wonder,

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 are those actually true apologies

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 or are they non-apologies?

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 Because it's not just politicians

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 and it's not just celebrities.

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 Actually,

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 each one of us

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 can be masters

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 at some time or another

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 of the non-apology.

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 And so,

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 this passage

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 that we're looking at today

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 is actually all about

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 a non-apology.

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 You see,

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 we've been,

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 it's actually about

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 and we've titled it

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 How Not to Repent.

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 Because this,

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 we've been looking

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 at the book of Samuel

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 and Samuel has been

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 all about

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 how God

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 turns upside down

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 the way we look at things.

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 Whereas we look

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 at the outward appearance,

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 we look at how

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 religious someone looks,

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 how good someone looks

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 like Eli

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 or Eli's sons

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 on the outside

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 or tall and handsome

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 like Saul is.

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 But God

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 looks at the inside

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 of our hearts.

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 And God has given

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 the people of Israel

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 the king that they wanted

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 to fight their battles.

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 And he's actually led them

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 just in the last couple

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 of chapters

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 in great victory.

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 And everything

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 has seemed to be going well.

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 But there are signs

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 that not everything is right.

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 Because Saul

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 is a people pleaser.

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 And he's already

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 sacrificed

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 and gone against

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 the command of God

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 one time

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 because of his fear

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 of the people.

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 And today

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 we're going to look at

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 another incident

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 where we see

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 what's really going on

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 in the heart of Saul.

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 And so we're going to look

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 in three different sections.

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 We're going to look at

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 breaking God's heart.

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 We're going to look at

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 defending our pride

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 and then turning our hearts

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 in true repentance.

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 Okay?

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 So let's start off

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 with breaking God's heart.

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 So God

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 and keep looking

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 at the chapter

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 in front of you

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 if you've got your Bible

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 please have it open

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 so you can look through.

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 But God

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 through Samuel

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 comes to Saul

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 and he says this.

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 He says

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 the Lord

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 has sent me

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 to anoint you

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 king over his people.

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 In other words

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 he's saying

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 God

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 has given you

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 Saul

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 a responsibility

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 a stewardship

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 to lead

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 his people

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 God's people

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 they're not your people

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 they're his people

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 but you are to steward them

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 and lead them

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 to flourishing

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 and to lead them

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 towards God.

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 And then he gives

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 a command

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 he gives a command

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 he says

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 I want you to

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 strike Amalek

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 and I want you to

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 devote them to destruction

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 I want you to wipe them out

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 and leave nothing left.

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 Now

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 I don't have time

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 to actually

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 in this sermon

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 to go into

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 all the details

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 for that

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 but actually

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 for some of us

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 the idea

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 that God

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 actually commands

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 the death

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 of a group

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 of people

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 can be very disturbing

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 in many ways

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 and I feel

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 a little disturbed

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 in many things

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 and so

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 if you would like

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 to actually talk

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 a little bit more

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 about that

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 after the service

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 we're going to have

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 a breakout room

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 where we're going to

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 have a chance

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 for Q&A

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 where we can actually

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 go into more detail

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 and talk a little bit

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 about this issue

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 but the main point

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 of this passage

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 is not that

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 because the main point

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 of this passage

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 is what Saul

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 and the people

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 do in response

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 you see

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 how do they respond

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 they respond

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 by destroying

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 everything they think

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 is of little value

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 everything they despise

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 they get rid of

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 and then everything

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 they think is good

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 in their eyes

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 they keep

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 they despise

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 the Lord's command

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 and take

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 for themselves

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 what they want

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 just like Eli's sons

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 a few chapters earlier

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 just like Adam and Eve

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 do right at the

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 beginning of the

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 Bible story

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 right at the very

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 heart of sin

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 is this idea

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 of despising

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 what God says

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 and taking

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 for yourself

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 what you think

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 is good

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 in your own eyes

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 and God's response

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 isn't just kind of

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 a cold

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 or distant

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 oh

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 I'll leave you

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 to yourself

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 it isn't just

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 an angry response

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 it's not a kind of

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 that's it

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 I've had enough

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 of you

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 get out

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 it says here

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 in verse 11

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 it says

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 I regret

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 that's literally

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 I'm grieved

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 that I have made

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 Saul king

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 for he's turned back

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 from following me

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 you see

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 this same word

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 of I regret

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 this I'm grieved

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 is actually the same

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 word that comes in

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 in Genesis 6

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 where

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 out of the wickedness

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 of human beings

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 God promises a flood

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 and it says

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 the Lord was sorry

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 was grieved

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 that he had made man

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 on the earth

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 and it grieved him

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 okay

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 there's another

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 emotional word there

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 grieved him

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 to his heart

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 in the New Testament

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 in Mark 3

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 it says

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 when Jesus looked

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 at the Pharisees

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 who were treating

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 the vulnerable

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 with utter contempt

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 it says

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 he looked at them

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 with anger

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 grieved at their

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 hardness of heart

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 you see

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 what you see

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 is when God

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 looks at sin

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 if we put it

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 in human terms

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 he has mixed emotions

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 it's always an emotionally

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 painful experience

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 for God

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 because sin

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 breaks God's heart

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 because sin

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 breaks loving relationships

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 with God

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 with each other

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 with ourselves

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 and with creation

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 it breaks everything

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 and it makes him

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 angry

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 and it also

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 grieves him

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 you see

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 self-righteous anger

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 is only filled

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 with anger

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 righteous anger

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 is always

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 an emotion

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 which is

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 filled with sadness

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 so if you want

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 to think about

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 the last time

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 you were angry

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 and you want

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 to decide

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 was it righteous

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 or was it self-righteous

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 kind of angry

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 towards someone

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 just think of

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 did you have

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 any sadness

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 towards the person

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 at the same time

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 because that may

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 give you an indication

00:15:54.379 --> 00:15:55.879
 of where your heart

00:15:55.879 --> 00:15:56.900
 was in that point

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 because Samuel

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 feels God's heart

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 and it says

00:16:01.759 --> 00:16:02.900
 and Samuel

00:16:02.900 --> 00:16:04.360
 was angry

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 and he cried

00:16:05.779 --> 00:16:06.779
 to the Lord

00:16:06.779 --> 00:16:08.360
 all night

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 do you see

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 discipleship

00:16:10.579 --> 00:16:11.559
 growing like Jesus

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 is not just about

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 growing in our

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 understanding

00:16:13.819 --> 00:16:14.519
 of the Bible

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 it's actually

00:16:15.419 --> 00:16:16.139
 growing

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 to emotionally

00:16:17.720 --> 00:16:18.620
 that your heart

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 gets impacted

00:16:19.539 --> 00:16:20.600
 by the same things

00:16:20.600 --> 00:16:21.120
 that impact

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 God's heart

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 that your heart

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 when you see

00:16:24.199 --> 00:16:24.980
 your sin

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 when you see

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 other people's sin

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 when you see

00:16:27.100 --> 00:16:27.659
 injustice

00:16:27.659 --> 00:16:29.379
 it breaks your heart

00:16:29.379 --> 00:16:30.419
 for what breaks

00:16:30.419 --> 00:16:31.220
 God's heart

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 that's when you know

00:16:32.600 --> 00:16:33.240
 that your heart

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 is being changed

00:16:34.580 --> 00:16:35.080
 by God

00:16:35.080 --> 00:16:35.840
 to become more

00:16:35.840 --> 00:16:37.200
 after his own heart

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 and that's what

00:16:38.360 --> 00:16:39.100
 the whole of Samuel

00:16:39.100 --> 00:16:39.580
 is about

00:16:39.580 --> 00:16:40.940
 where our hearts are

00:16:40.940 --> 00:16:42.480
 and you see

00:16:42.480 --> 00:16:43.560
 the author

00:16:43.560 --> 00:16:44.200
 now

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 brilliantly

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 contrasts

00:16:46.900 --> 00:16:47.060
 now

00:16:47.060 --> 00:16:48.340
 this heart

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 that Samuel

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 has

00:16:49.500 --> 00:16:50.379
 which is God's

00:16:50.379 --> 00:16:50.680
 heart

00:16:50.680 --> 00:16:51.520
 towards this

00:16:51.520 --> 00:16:52.160
 situation

00:16:52.160 --> 00:16:53.379
 towards the sin

00:16:53.379 --> 00:16:53.860
 of Saul

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 with how Saul

00:16:55.120 --> 00:16:56.460
 himself responds

00:16:56.460 --> 00:16:57.379
 and so here's

00:16:57.379 --> 00:16:57.720
 where we're going

00:16:57.720 --> 00:16:58.139
 to go

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 and move

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 to

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 not just

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 breaking God's

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 heart

00:17:00.920 --> 00:17:01.759
 but actually

00:17:01.759 --> 00:17:02.600
 defending

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 your own heart

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 your own pride

00:17:05.319 --> 00:17:06.440
 and here

00:17:06.440 --> 00:17:07.140
 we're going to look

00:17:07.140 --> 00:17:08.720
 at Saul

00:17:08.720 --> 00:17:11.360
 and just kind of

00:17:11.360 --> 00:17:12.420
 flow through with me

00:17:12.420 --> 00:17:12.960
 in the text

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 where we're going

00:17:13.620 --> 00:17:14.360
 you see what happens

00:17:14.360 --> 00:17:15.059
 in verse 12

00:17:15.059 --> 00:17:16.339
 it says

00:17:16.339 --> 00:17:18.079
 it was told to Samuel

00:17:18.079 --> 00:17:19.140
 that Saul

00:17:19.140 --> 00:17:19.940
 came to Carmel

00:17:19.940 --> 00:17:20.640
 and behold

00:17:20.640 --> 00:17:21.960
 he set up a monument

00:17:21.960 --> 00:17:22.880
 for himself

00:17:22.880 --> 00:17:23.559
 and then he turned

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 and passed on

00:17:24.180 --> 00:17:24.660
 and went down

00:17:24.660 --> 00:17:25.140
 to Gilgal

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 to meet Samuel

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 now just think

00:17:28.620 --> 00:17:29.019
 about that

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 a monument

00:17:29.980 --> 00:17:30.880
 just think about

00:17:30.880 --> 00:17:31.480
 what he's doing

00:17:31.480 --> 00:17:34.140
 right at the heart

00:17:34.140 --> 00:17:36.200
 of what's going on

00:17:36.200 --> 00:17:37.200
 Samuel is actually

00:17:37.200 --> 00:17:38.140
 seized behind the

00:17:38.140 --> 00:17:38.660
 scenes of what's

00:17:38.660 --> 00:17:39.000
 happening

00:17:39.000 --> 00:17:40.240
 Saul wants to

00:17:40.240 --> 00:17:41.400
 honour and exalt

00:17:41.400 --> 00:17:42.299
 himself in the

00:17:42.299 --> 00:17:43.120
 eyes of the people

00:17:43.120 --> 00:17:44.539
 he's a people

00:17:44.539 --> 00:17:45.079
 pleaser

00:17:45.079 --> 00:17:46.680
 he craves their

00:17:46.680 --> 00:17:47.019
 respect

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 that's why he

00:17:47.500 --> 00:17:47.900
 builds his

00:17:47.900 --> 00:17:48.279
 monument

00:17:48.279 --> 00:17:49.519
 now right at

00:17:49.519 --> 00:17:50.539
 the end of the

00:17:50.539 --> 00:17:50.980
 story

00:17:50.980 --> 00:17:52.500
 the last thing

00:17:52.500 --> 00:17:53.380
 that Saul does

00:17:53.380 --> 00:17:55.559
 that Saul does

00:17:55.559 --> 00:17:56.220
 he says this

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 he says

00:17:56.940 --> 00:17:57.980
 honour me now

00:17:57.980 --> 00:17:59.339
 before the elders

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 of my people

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 and before Israel

00:18:01.359 --> 00:18:03.479
 you see

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 what is he

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 doing

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 see he's

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 actually

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 what's changed

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 in his heart

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 nothing's changed

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 for Saul

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 he feels

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 small and

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 insignificant

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 Samuel says

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 you were little

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 in your own

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 eyes in verse 17

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 but he wants

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 to feel big

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 he wants others

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 to go yeah

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 you're the man

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 he wants to be

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 able to walk

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 into a room

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 and people go

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 there's Saul

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 wow what a guy

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 that's what he

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 wants because

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 what people think

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 about him is what

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 drives his own

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 heart

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 and in the

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 title of a

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 book

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 when people

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 are big

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 God is

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 small

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 and so when

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 he sees

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 Samuel

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 straight after

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 this

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 Saul shows

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 us how not

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 to repent

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 and how to

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 defend what

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 you have

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 done

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 okay

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 I'm going

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 to go

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 through four

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 tactics

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 that Saul

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 does to

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 still try

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 and keep

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 face

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 and make

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 himself

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 look good

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 even though

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 he's honouring

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 himself rather

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 than honouring

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 God

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 tactic one

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 he plays

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 the innocent

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 that's 13

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 he goes

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 blessed be you

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 to the Lord

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 I've performed

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 the commandment

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 of the Lord

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 now Samuel

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 knows like

00:19:02.740 --> 00:19:03.200
 what's going

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 on behind

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 the scenes

00:19:04.180 --> 00:19:04.920
 but Saul

00:19:04.920 --> 00:19:05.320
 just wants

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 to look good

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 and religious

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 in front of

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 him

00:19:07.440 --> 00:19:09.000
 Samuel sees

00:19:09.000 --> 00:19:09.540
 through it

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 and he says

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 this

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 he says

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 oh what

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 then is this

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 bleating

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 of the sheep

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 in my ears

00:19:15.240 --> 00:19:15.780
 and the lowing

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 of the oxen

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 that I hear

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 in other words

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 he's saying

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 I'm hearing

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 one thing

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 from you Saul

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 but my ears

00:19:21.680 --> 00:19:22.020
 are hearing

00:19:22.020 --> 00:19:22.540
 a completely

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 different story

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 and what he's

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 doing he's

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 actually confronting

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 Saul with

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 reality

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 the reality

00:19:29.060 --> 00:19:29.640
 of his sin

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 and when God

00:19:30.100 --> 00:19:30.779
 confronts you

00:19:30.779 --> 00:19:31.440
 with the reality

00:19:31.440 --> 00:19:32.100
 of your sin

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 it's never

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 to condemn you

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 it's always

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 giving you

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 an opportunity

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 to come clean

00:19:36.640 --> 00:19:37.480
 to come into

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 the light

00:19:38.019 --> 00:19:38.740
 to come and

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 find freedom

00:19:39.600 --> 00:19:40.560
 and forgiveness

00:19:40.560 --> 00:19:42.259
 and healing

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 but Saul's

00:19:44.100 --> 00:19:45.100
 face is too

00:19:45.100 --> 00:19:46.000
 important to him

00:19:46.000 --> 00:19:47.560
 so he moves

00:19:47.560 --> 00:19:48.640
 on to tactic

00:19:48.640 --> 00:19:49.040
 two

00:19:49.040 --> 00:19:51.120
 which is a

00:19:51.120 --> 00:19:51.900
 defensiveness

00:19:51.900 --> 00:19:52.500
 and blame

00:19:52.500 --> 00:19:52.980
 shifting

00:19:52.980 --> 00:19:54.500
 so Saul says

00:19:54.500 --> 00:19:55.880
 they

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 have brought

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 them

00:19:57.040 --> 00:19:57.340
 from the

00:19:57.340 --> 00:19:57.840
 Amalekites

00:19:57.840 --> 00:19:58.140
 for the

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 people

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 spared

00:19:59.240 --> 00:19:59.620
 the best

00:19:59.620 --> 00:19:59.860
 of the

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 sheep

00:20:00.100 --> 00:20:00.440
 and of the

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 oxen

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 to sacrifice

00:20:01.500 --> 00:20:02.080
 to the

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 Lord your

00:20:02.400 --> 00:20:02.740
 God

00:20:02.740 --> 00:20:03.260
 and the

00:20:03.260 --> 00:20:03.600
 rest

00:20:03.600 --> 00:20:04.420
 we have

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 devoted

00:20:04.820 --> 00:20:05.760
 to destruction

00:20:05.760 --> 00:20:06.700
 do you see

00:20:06.700 --> 00:20:07.080
 what he's doing

00:20:07.080 --> 00:20:07.820
 he's blame

00:20:07.820 --> 00:20:08.140
 shifting

00:20:08.140 --> 00:20:08.820
 all the

00:20:08.820 --> 00:20:09.560
 responsibility

00:20:09.560 --> 00:20:10.580
 on to the

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 people

00:20:10.900 --> 00:20:11.360
 now

00:20:11.360 --> 00:20:11.680
 he says

00:20:11.680 --> 00:20:12.000
 it's not

00:20:12.000 --> 00:20:12.260
 me

00:20:12.260 --> 00:20:12.760
 it was

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 them

00:20:13.160 --> 00:20:14.020
 and it

00:20:14.020 --> 00:20:14.320
 was good

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 intentions

00:20:14.920 --> 00:20:16.220
 after all

00:20:16.220 --> 00:20:16.700
 it was kind

00:20:16.700 --> 00:20:17.080
 of no one

00:20:17.080 --> 00:20:17.320
 told me

00:20:17.320 --> 00:20:17.700
 the rules

00:20:17.700 --> 00:20:18.480
 I was tired

00:20:18.480 --> 00:20:19.300
 you started

00:20:19.300 --> 00:20:19.820
 it

00:20:19.820 --> 00:20:22.420
 Samuel's not

00:20:22.420 --> 00:20:23.420
 buying it

00:20:23.420 --> 00:20:25.259
 verse 17

00:20:25.259 --> 00:20:26.140
 he says

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 but the

00:20:26.720 --> 00:20:27.019
 Lord

00:20:27.019 --> 00:20:27.440
 anointed

00:20:27.440 --> 00:20:28.200
 you

00:20:28.200 --> 00:20:28.820
 king

00:20:28.820 --> 00:20:29.140
 over

00:20:29.140 --> 00:20:29.620
 Israel

00:20:29.620 --> 00:20:30.440
 why then

00:20:30.440 --> 00:20:31.140
 did you

00:20:31.140 --> 00:20:32.019
 not obey

00:20:32.019 --> 00:20:32.560
 the voice

00:20:32.560 --> 00:20:32.740
 of the

00:20:32.740 --> 00:20:32.840
 Lord

00:20:32.840 --> 00:20:33.180
 why did

00:20:33.180 --> 00:20:33.840
 you

00:20:33.840 --> 00:20:34.519
 pounce

00:20:34.519 --> 00:20:34.860
 on the

00:20:34.860 --> 00:20:35.140
 spoil

00:20:35.140 --> 00:20:35.360
 and do

00:20:35.360 --> 00:20:35.640
 what was

00:20:35.640 --> 00:20:36.000
 evil

00:20:36.000 --> 00:20:36.580
 in the

00:20:36.580 --> 00:20:36.920
 sight

00:20:36.920 --> 00:20:37.160
 of the

00:20:37.160 --> 00:20:37.320
 Lord

00:20:37.320 --> 00:20:37.560
 he's

00:20:37.560 --> 00:20:37.860
 saying

00:20:37.860 --> 00:20:39.019
 you're

00:20:39.019 --> 00:20:39.740
 responsible

00:20:39.740 --> 00:20:40.340
 Saul

00:20:40.340 --> 00:20:41.080
 you're

00:20:41.080 --> 00:20:41.300
 the

00:20:41.300 --> 00:20:41.820
 king

00:20:41.820 --> 00:20:43.080
 stop

00:20:43.080 --> 00:20:43.740
 passing

00:20:43.740 --> 00:20:44.000
 the

00:20:44.000 --> 00:20:44.300
 buck

00:20:44.300 --> 00:20:45.080
 playing

00:20:45.080 --> 00:20:45.400
 the

00:20:45.400 --> 00:20:45.800
 victim

00:20:45.800 --> 00:20:46.360
 you know

00:20:46.360 --> 00:20:46.660
 some of

00:20:46.660 --> 00:20:46.759
 us

00:20:46.759 --> 00:20:47.080
 can do

00:20:47.080 --> 00:20:47.300
 that

00:20:47.300 --> 00:20:48.200
 we can

00:20:48.200 --> 00:20:49.060
 blame

00:20:49.060 --> 00:20:49.279
 shift

00:20:49.279 --> 00:20:49.580
 and play

00:20:49.580 --> 00:20:49.740
 the

00:20:49.740 --> 00:20:50.000
 victim

00:20:50.000 --> 00:20:50.740
 but godly

00:20:50.740 --> 00:20:51.180
 people

00:20:51.180 --> 00:20:51.660
 own

00:20:51.660 --> 00:20:51.880
 their

00:20:51.880 --> 00:20:52.200
 sin

00:20:52.200 --> 00:20:52.680
 they

00:20:52.680 --> 00:20:52.960
 don't

00:20:52.960 --> 00:20:53.340
 blame

00:20:53.340 --> 00:20:53.740
 shift

00:20:53.740 --> 00:20:54.320
 and play

00:20:54.320 --> 00:20:54.480
 the

00:20:54.480 --> 00:20:54.940
 victim

00:20:54.940 --> 00:20:55.340
 that's

00:20:55.340 --> 00:20:55.440
 what

00:20:55.440 --> 00:20:55.840
 Samuel's

00:20:55.840 --> 00:20:56.120
 coming

00:20:56.120 --> 00:20:56.420
 to him

00:20:56.420 --> 00:20:56.720
 again

00:20:56.720 --> 00:20:58.220
 but Saul's

00:20:58.220 --> 00:20:59.200
 not having

00:20:59.200 --> 00:20:59.740
 any of it

00:20:59.740 --> 00:21:00.660
 tactic

00:21:00.660 --> 00:21:01.060
 three

00:21:01.060 --> 00:21:01.779
 okay

00:21:01.779 --> 00:21:02.259
 he's gone

00:21:02.259 --> 00:21:02.519
 from

00:21:02.519 --> 00:21:03.560
 just playing

00:21:03.560 --> 00:21:03.900
 innocent

00:21:03.900 --> 00:21:04.500
 he's gone

00:21:04.500 --> 00:21:05.060
 now from

00:21:05.060 --> 00:21:05.460
 blame

00:21:05.460 --> 00:21:05.800
 shifting

00:21:05.800 --> 00:21:06.360
 now he

00:21:06.360 --> 00:21:06.779
 wants to

00:21:06.779 --> 00:21:07.519
 highlight

00:21:07.519 --> 00:21:08.300
 all of

00:21:08.300 --> 00:21:08.640
 his good

00:21:08.640 --> 00:21:09.180
 points

00:21:09.180 --> 00:21:10.480
 he says

00:21:10.480 --> 00:21:11.360
 verse 20

00:21:11.360 --> 00:21:12.480
 I have obeyed

00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:12.860
 the Lord

00:21:12.860 --> 00:21:13.740
 the voice

00:21:13.740 --> 00:21:14.000
 of the Lord

00:21:14.000 --> 00:21:14.620
 I have

00:21:14.620 --> 00:21:14.940
 gone on

00:21:14.940 --> 00:21:15.259
 the mission

00:21:15.259 --> 00:21:15.700
 of the Lord

00:21:15.700 --> 00:21:16.340
 that the Lord

00:21:16.340 --> 00:21:16.779
 sent me

00:21:16.779 --> 00:21:16.920
 on

00:21:16.920 --> 00:21:17.620
 I have

00:21:17.620 --> 00:21:17.940
 brought

00:21:17.940 --> 00:21:18.500
 Agag

00:21:18.500 --> 00:21:18.840
 the king

00:21:18.840 --> 00:21:19.380
 of Amalek

00:21:19.380 --> 00:21:20.060
 I have

00:21:20.060 --> 00:21:20.500
 devoted

00:21:20.500 --> 00:21:21.180
 the Amalekites

00:21:21.180 --> 00:21:21.640
 to the

00:21:21.640 --> 00:21:22.039
 destruction

00:21:22.039 --> 00:21:22.700
 he's saying

00:21:22.700 --> 00:21:23.220
 look at all

00:21:23.220 --> 00:21:23.480
 the good

00:21:23.480 --> 00:21:23.759
 things

00:21:23.759 --> 00:21:24.080
 that I've

00:21:24.080 --> 00:21:24.420
 done

00:21:24.420 --> 00:21:26.080
 but the

00:21:26.080 --> 00:21:26.660
 people

00:21:26.660 --> 00:21:28.220
 blame

00:21:28.220 --> 00:21:28.500
 shifting

00:21:28.500 --> 00:21:28.880
 again

00:21:28.880 --> 00:21:29.580
 took

00:21:29.580 --> 00:21:29.980
 of the

00:21:29.980 --> 00:21:30.340
 spoil

00:21:30.340 --> 00:21:31.019
 the sheep

00:21:31.019 --> 00:21:31.460
 and the

00:21:31.460 --> 00:21:31.900
 oxen

00:21:31.900 --> 00:21:32.920
 you know

00:21:32.920 --> 00:21:33.279
 this is

00:21:33.279 --> 00:21:33.580
 the kind

00:21:33.580 --> 00:21:33.900
 of the

00:21:33.900 --> 00:21:34.320
 marriage

00:21:34.320 --> 00:21:35.000
 defensiveness

00:21:35.000 --> 00:21:36.060
 of I've

00:21:36.060 --> 00:21:36.539
 done so

00:21:36.539 --> 00:21:37.039
 much for

00:21:37.039 --> 00:21:37.519
 you and

00:21:37.519 --> 00:21:37.820
 you list

00:21:37.820 --> 00:21:38.100
 all the

00:21:38.100 --> 00:21:38.500
 good things

00:21:38.500 --> 00:21:38.680
 you've

00:21:38.680 --> 00:21:38.860
 done

00:21:38.860 --> 00:21:39.720
 so now

00:21:39.720 --> 00:21:39.940
 you're

00:21:39.940 --> 00:21:40.400
 criticizing

00:21:40.400 --> 00:21:40.840
 me for

00:21:40.840 --> 00:21:41.360
 this

00:21:41.360 --> 00:21:44.700
 and Saul's

00:21:44.700 --> 00:21:45.420
 had three

00:21:45.420 --> 00:21:46.299
 chances to

00:21:46.299 --> 00:21:46.840
 repent

00:21:46.840 --> 00:21:47.980
 but instead

00:21:47.980 --> 00:21:48.480
 of owning

00:21:48.480 --> 00:21:49.259
 any of it

00:21:49.259 --> 00:21:50.420
 he's just

00:21:50.420 --> 00:21:51.119
 been defensive

00:21:51.119 --> 00:21:51.579
 the whole

00:21:51.579 --> 00:21:51.940
 way

00:21:51.940 --> 00:21:53.299
 why

00:21:53.299 --> 00:21:54.980
 because of

00:21:54.980 --> 00:21:55.680
 his pride

00:21:55.680 --> 00:21:56.160
 because of

00:21:56.160 --> 00:21:56.859
 that monument

00:21:56.859 --> 00:21:57.599
 that he wants

00:21:57.599 --> 00:21:58.140
 to build to

00:21:58.140 --> 00:21:58.500
 himself

00:21:58.500 --> 00:21:58.980
 because of

00:21:58.980 --> 00:21:59.740
 his insecurity

00:21:59.740 --> 00:22:01.379
 because none

00:22:01.379 --> 00:22:01.779
 of us want

00:22:01.779 --> 00:22:02.599
 to be exposed

00:22:02.599 --> 00:22:03.099
 do we

00:22:03.099 --> 00:22:03.599
 really for

00:22:03.599 --> 00:22:04.079
 what's really

00:22:04.079 --> 00:22:04.519
 going on

00:22:04.519 --> 00:22:05.039
 down here

00:22:05.039 --> 00:22:06.140
 it's scary

00:22:06.140 --> 00:22:06.619
 you know

00:22:06.619 --> 00:22:07.160
 an apology

00:22:07.160 --> 00:22:08.480
 a true

00:22:08.480 --> 00:22:08.839
 repentance

00:22:08.839 --> 00:22:10.279
 lays you

00:22:10.279 --> 00:22:10.819
 open to

00:22:10.819 --> 00:22:11.259
 being seen

00:22:11.259 --> 00:22:11.759
 as weak

00:22:11.759 --> 00:22:12.720
 and vulnerable

00:22:12.720 --> 00:22:13.839
 to attack

00:22:13.839 --> 00:22:15.039
 you know

00:22:15.039 --> 00:22:17.119
 the German

00:22:17.119 --> 00:22:17.579
 philosopher

00:22:17.579 --> 00:22:18.000
 Friedrich

00:22:18.000 --> 00:22:18.379
 Nietzsche

00:22:18.379 --> 00:22:19.799
 he said

00:22:19.799 --> 00:22:20.099
 this

00:22:20.099 --> 00:22:20.419
 and I

00:22:20.419 --> 00:22:21.119
 like this

00:22:21.119 --> 00:22:21.299
 quote

00:22:21.299 --> 00:22:21.599
 he said

00:22:21.599 --> 00:22:22.220
 memory

00:22:22.220 --> 00:22:22.720
 says

00:22:22.720 --> 00:22:23.259
 I did

00:22:23.259 --> 00:22:23.659
 that

00:22:23.659 --> 00:22:24.500
 pride

00:22:24.500 --> 00:22:25.159
 replies

00:22:25.159 --> 00:22:25.720
 I could

00:22:25.720 --> 00:22:26.119
 not have

00:22:26.119 --> 00:22:26.299
 done

00:22:26.299 --> 00:22:26.679
 that

00:22:26.679 --> 00:22:27.480
 eventually

00:22:27.480 --> 00:22:28.220
 memory

00:22:28.220 --> 00:22:28.819
 yields

00:22:28.819 --> 00:22:29.919
 do you

00:22:29.919 --> 00:22:30.139
 get what

00:22:30.139 --> 00:22:30.519
 he's saying

00:22:30.519 --> 00:22:31.240
 he's saying

00:22:31.240 --> 00:22:31.579
 actually

00:22:31.579 --> 00:22:32.599
 it's right

00:22:32.599 --> 00:22:32.980
 at heart

00:22:32.980 --> 00:22:33.959
 our pride

00:22:33.959 --> 00:22:34.659
 wants us

00:22:34.659 --> 00:22:34.980
 to be

00:22:34.980 --> 00:22:35.579
 exalted

00:22:35.579 --> 00:22:36.779
 and that's

00:22:36.779 --> 00:22:37.220
 what leads

00:22:37.220 --> 00:22:37.819
 us to

00:22:37.819 --> 00:22:38.220
 defend

00:22:38.220 --> 00:22:38.659
 ourselves

00:22:38.659 --> 00:22:39.619
 so much

00:22:39.619 --> 00:22:40.099
 it's what's

00:22:40.099 --> 00:22:40.500
 going on

00:22:40.500 --> 00:22:41.139
 with Saul's

00:22:41.139 --> 00:22:41.459
 heart

00:22:41.460 --> 00:22:43.039
 and Samuel

00:22:43.039 --> 00:22:44.000
 he sees

00:22:44.000 --> 00:22:44.259
 through the

00:22:44.259 --> 00:22:44.759
 whole thing

00:22:44.759 --> 00:22:45.440
 and he

00:22:45.440 --> 00:22:46.079
 brings down

00:22:46.079 --> 00:22:46.480
 the hammer

00:22:46.480 --> 00:22:46.779
 blow

00:22:46.779 --> 00:22:48.100
 he goes

00:22:48.100 --> 00:22:48.539
 like this

00:22:48.539 --> 00:22:49.079
 he says

00:22:49.079 --> 00:22:50.519
 has the

00:22:50.519 --> 00:22:50.860
 Lord

00:22:50.860 --> 00:22:51.600
 as great

00:22:51.600 --> 00:22:52.140
 delight

00:22:52.140 --> 00:22:52.819
 in burnt

00:22:52.819 --> 00:22:53.380
 offerings

00:22:53.380 --> 00:22:54.779
 as sacrifices

00:22:54.779 --> 00:22:56.420
 as in obeying

00:22:56.420 --> 00:22:56.840
 the voice

00:22:56.840 --> 00:22:57.319
 of the Lord

00:22:57.319 --> 00:22:58.180
 behold

00:22:58.180 --> 00:22:58.799
 to obey

00:22:58.799 --> 00:22:59.340
 is better

00:22:59.340 --> 00:22:59.980
 than sacrifice

00:22:59.980 --> 00:23:00.480
 and to

00:23:00.480 --> 00:23:00.940
 listen

00:23:00.940 --> 00:23:01.600
 than the

00:23:01.600 --> 00:23:01.900
 fact

00:23:01.900 --> 00:23:02.680
 of rams

00:23:02.680 --> 00:23:03.559
 rebellion

00:23:03.559 --> 00:23:04.180
 is the

00:23:04.180 --> 00:23:04.559
 sin

00:23:04.559 --> 00:23:05.259
 of divination

00:23:05.259 --> 00:23:06.200
 and presumption

00:23:06.200 --> 00:23:06.819
 is as

00:23:06.819 --> 00:23:07.400
 iniquity

00:23:07.400 --> 00:23:08.340
 and idolatry

00:23:08.340 --> 00:23:09.460
 he's saying

00:23:09.460 --> 00:23:09.960
 what you're

00:23:09.960 --> 00:23:10.400
 doing is

00:23:10.400 --> 00:23:11.240
 idolatry

00:23:11.240 --> 00:23:12.180
 because you

00:23:12.180 --> 00:23:13.079
 have rejected

00:23:13.079 --> 00:23:13.680
 the word

00:23:13.680 --> 00:23:14.180
 of the Lord

00:23:14.180 --> 00:23:14.839
 here's the

00:23:14.839 --> 00:23:15.120
 blow

00:23:15.120 --> 00:23:15.859
 he has

00:23:15.859 --> 00:23:16.380
 also

00:23:16.380 --> 00:23:17.019
 rejected

00:23:17.019 --> 00:23:17.579
 you

00:23:17.579 --> 00:23:18.559
 from being

00:23:18.559 --> 00:23:19.279
 king

00:23:19.279 --> 00:23:21.259
 do you see

00:23:21.259 --> 00:23:21.519
 what he's

00:23:21.519 --> 00:23:21.759
 saying

00:23:21.759 --> 00:23:22.819
 he's saying

00:23:22.819 --> 00:23:23.720
 all your

00:23:23.720 --> 00:23:24.019
 kind of

00:23:24.019 --> 00:23:24.420
 pretended

00:23:24.420 --> 00:23:24.940
 sacrifice

00:23:24.940 --> 00:23:25.240
 you know

00:23:25.240 --> 00:23:25.480
 you can

00:23:25.480 --> 00:23:25.839
 you can

00:23:25.839 --> 00:23:26.079
 say oh

00:23:26.079 --> 00:23:26.259
 I've

00:23:26.259 --> 00:23:26.519
 served

00:23:26.519 --> 00:23:26.740
 this

00:23:26.740 --> 00:23:26.900
 I've

00:23:26.900 --> 00:23:27.019
 done

00:23:27.019 --> 00:23:27.160
 all

00:23:27.160 --> 00:23:27.359
 this

00:23:27.359 --> 00:23:27.519
 I've

00:23:27.519 --> 00:23:27.620
 done

00:23:27.620 --> 00:23:27.740
 all

00:23:27.740 --> 00:23:27.880
 this

00:23:27.880 --> 00:23:28.059
 for

00:23:28.059 --> 00:23:28.299
 you

00:23:28.299 --> 00:23:28.660
 God

00:23:28.660 --> 00:23:29.359
 but

00:23:29.359 --> 00:23:29.700
 all

00:23:29.700 --> 00:23:29.859
 of

00:23:29.859 --> 00:23:30.099
 that's

00:23:30.099 --> 00:23:30.240
 a

00:23:30.240 --> 00:23:30.559
 smoke

00:23:30.559 --> 00:23:30.859
 screen

00:23:30.859 --> 00:23:31.059
 for

00:23:31.059 --> 00:23:31.359
 this

00:23:31.359 --> 00:23:31.779
 area

00:23:31.779 --> 00:23:32.039
 this

00:23:32.039 --> 00:23:32.559
 command

00:23:32.559 --> 00:23:33.019
 where

00:23:33.019 --> 00:23:33.240
 he

00:23:33.240 --> 00:23:33.420
 is

00:23:33.420 --> 00:23:33.660
 in

00:23:33.660 --> 00:23:34.480
 disobedience

00:23:34.480 --> 00:23:35.400
 and

00:23:35.400 --> 00:23:35.740
 God

00:23:35.740 --> 00:23:36.019
 says

00:23:36.019 --> 00:23:36.420
 I

00:23:36.420 --> 00:23:36.799
 look

00:23:36.799 --> 00:23:36.980
 with

00:23:36.980 --> 00:23:37.160
 the

00:23:37.160 --> 00:23:37.420
 same

00:23:37.420 --> 00:23:38.140
 disdain

00:23:38.140 --> 00:23:38.660
 on that

00:23:38.660 --> 00:23:38.960
 as I

00:23:38.960 --> 00:23:39.480
 look at

00:23:39.480 --> 00:23:40.500
 witchcraft

00:23:40.500 --> 00:23:41.620
 he says

00:23:41.620 --> 00:23:42.100
 because the

00:23:42.100 --> 00:23:42.700
 heart of

00:23:42.700 --> 00:23:43.140
 rebelling

00:23:43.140 --> 00:23:44.000
 against me

00:23:44.000 --> 00:23:45.080
 is the

00:23:45.080 --> 00:23:45.560
 same

00:23:45.560 --> 00:23:46.600
 and

00:23:46.600 --> 00:23:47.220
 interestingly

00:23:47.220 --> 00:23:47.759
 actually to

00:23:47.759 --> 00:23:48.120
 prove the

00:23:48.120 --> 00:23:48.380
 point

00:23:48.380 --> 00:23:48.780
 the end

00:23:48.780 --> 00:23:49.300
 of Samuel

00:23:49.300 --> 00:23:50.000
 has Saul

00:23:50.000 --> 00:23:50.720
 actually going

00:23:50.720 --> 00:23:51.400
 to visit

00:23:51.400 --> 00:23:52.500
 a witch

00:23:52.500 --> 00:23:52.940
 the witch

00:23:52.940 --> 00:23:53.560
 of Endor

00:23:53.560 --> 00:23:54.320
 which shows

00:23:54.320 --> 00:23:54.640
 where the

00:23:54.640 --> 00:23:55.220
 trajectory

00:23:55.220 --> 00:23:55.560
 of his

00:23:55.560 --> 00:23:56.020
 entire

00:23:56.020 --> 00:23:56.540
 heart

00:23:56.540 --> 00:23:57.360
 is going

00:23:57.360 --> 00:23:58.960
 because

00:23:58.960 --> 00:23:59.460
 he's not

00:23:59.460 --> 00:23:59.900
 willing to

00:23:59.900 --> 00:24:00.320
 repent

00:24:00.320 --> 00:24:01.580
 you know

00:24:01.580 --> 00:24:02.080
 we can

00:24:02.080 --> 00:24:02.520
 serve all

00:24:02.520 --> 00:24:02.820
 we like

00:24:02.820 --> 00:24:03.040
 we can

00:24:03.040 --> 00:24:03.480
 do a ton

00:24:03.480 --> 00:24:03.900
 of great

00:24:03.900 --> 00:24:04.220
 religious

00:24:04.220 --> 00:24:04.780
 things

00:24:04.780 --> 00:24:05.460
 but if

00:24:05.460 --> 00:24:05.780
 actually

00:24:05.780 --> 00:24:06.700
 God is

00:24:06.700 --> 00:24:07.240
 calling us

00:24:07.240 --> 00:24:07.680
 to obey

00:24:07.680 --> 00:24:08.019
 him in

00:24:08.019 --> 00:24:08.220
 some

00:24:08.220 --> 00:24:08.519
 area

00:24:08.519 --> 00:24:08.980
 and we

00:24:08.980 --> 00:24:09.120
 are

00:24:09.120 --> 00:24:10.220
 resisting

00:24:10.220 --> 00:24:10.940
 we are

00:24:10.940 --> 00:24:11.420
 resisting

00:24:11.420 --> 00:24:11.980
 we are

00:24:11.980 --> 00:24:12.440
 resisting

00:24:12.440 --> 00:24:14.420
 God

00:24:14.420 --> 00:24:14.700
 says

00:24:14.700 --> 00:24:15.599
 I don't

00:24:15.599 --> 00:24:16.019
 care about

00:24:16.019 --> 00:24:16.339
 the other

00:24:16.339 --> 00:24:16.599
 stuff

00:24:16.599 --> 00:24:17.120
 I'm looking

00:24:17.120 --> 00:24:17.420
 at where

00:24:17.420 --> 00:24:18.059
 your heart

00:24:18.059 --> 00:24:18.440
 is

00:24:18.440 --> 00:24:19.180
 I'm not

00:24:19.180 --> 00:24:19.539
 looking at

00:24:19.539 --> 00:24:20.140
 the outward

00:24:20.140 --> 00:24:22.200
 you know

00:24:22.200 --> 00:24:23.620
 Jeremy Tam

00:24:23.620 --> 00:24:24.460
 showed me

00:24:24.460 --> 00:24:25.019
 actually this

00:24:25.019 --> 00:24:25.299
 week

00:24:25.299 --> 00:24:26.420
 verse 15

00:24:26.420 --> 00:24:26.880
 21

00:24:26.880 --> 00:24:27.480
 30

00:24:27.480 --> 00:24:28.859
 Saul

00:24:28.859 --> 00:24:29.579
 actually

00:24:29.579 --> 00:24:30.059
 keeps

00:24:30.059 --> 00:24:30.519
 referring

00:24:30.519 --> 00:24:31.180
 to God

00:24:31.180 --> 00:24:32.420
 as the

00:24:32.420 --> 00:24:32.759
 Lord

00:24:32.759 --> 00:24:33.759
 your God

00:24:33.759 --> 00:24:34.299
 Samuel

00:24:34.299 --> 00:24:35.220
 you see

00:24:35.220 --> 00:24:35.759
 it's not

00:24:35.759 --> 00:24:36.539
 his God

00:24:36.539 --> 00:24:37.019
 because

00:24:37.019 --> 00:24:37.839
 he is

00:24:37.839 --> 00:24:38.460
 his own

00:24:38.460 --> 00:24:38.740
 God

00:24:38.740 --> 00:24:39.000
 he's

00:24:39.000 --> 00:24:39.180
 wanting

00:24:39.180 --> 00:24:39.879
 to exalt

00:24:39.879 --> 00:24:40.400
 and honour

00:24:40.400 --> 00:24:40.900
 himself

00:24:40.900 --> 00:24:41.339
 with that

00:24:41.339 --> 00:24:41.740
 monument

00:24:41.740 --> 00:24:42.599
 with his

00:24:42.599 --> 00:24:43.139
 own honour

00:24:43.139 --> 00:24:44.920
 and when

00:24:44.920 --> 00:24:45.240
 you do

00:24:45.240 --> 00:24:45.519
 that

00:24:45.519 --> 00:24:45.940
 there are

00:24:45.940 --> 00:24:46.700
 consequences

00:24:46.700 --> 00:24:47.759
 Samuel

00:24:47.759 --> 00:24:48.240
 says

00:24:48.240 --> 00:24:48.960
 your kingship

00:24:48.960 --> 00:24:49.379
 is over

00:24:49.379 --> 00:24:50.299
 because you

00:24:50.299 --> 00:24:50.859
 wanted to be

00:24:50.859 --> 00:24:51.379
 your own

00:24:51.379 --> 00:24:51.839
 king for

00:24:51.839 --> 00:24:52.240
 your own

00:24:52.240 --> 00:24:52.539
 honour

00:24:52.539 --> 00:24:53.460
 not God's

00:24:53.460 --> 00:24:53.779
 king

00:24:53.779 --> 00:24:54.599
 then you

00:24:54.599 --> 00:24:54.900
 will no

00:24:54.900 --> 00:24:55.379
 longer be

00:24:55.379 --> 00:24:55.759
 God's

00:24:55.759 --> 00:24:56.099
 king

00:24:56.099 --> 00:24:56.779
 for his

00:24:56.779 --> 00:24:57.180
 people

00:24:57.180 --> 00:24:58.619
 and you

00:24:58.619 --> 00:24:58.980
 could hear

00:24:58.980 --> 00:24:59.440
 a pin

00:24:59.440 --> 00:24:59.859
 drop

00:24:59.859 --> 00:25:02.460
 because Saul

00:25:02.460 --> 00:25:03.019
 knows

00:25:03.019 --> 00:25:03.480
 Samuel

00:25:03.480 --> 00:25:03.900
 speaks

00:25:03.900 --> 00:25:04.259
 God's

00:25:04.259 --> 00:25:04.579
 word

00:25:04.579 --> 00:25:06.799
 and so

00:25:06.799 --> 00:25:06.939
 he's

00:25:06.939 --> 00:25:07.220
 gone

00:25:07.220 --> 00:25:07.500
 from

00:25:07.500 --> 00:25:07.699
 trying

00:25:07.699 --> 00:25:07.799
 to

00:25:07.799 --> 00:25:07.960
 play

00:25:07.960 --> 00:25:08.099
 the

00:25:08.099 --> 00:25:08.379
 innocent

00:25:08.379 --> 00:25:09.039
 he's

00:25:09.039 --> 00:25:09.220
 gone

00:25:09.220 --> 00:25:09.399
 from

00:25:09.399 --> 00:25:09.559
 just

00:25:09.559 --> 00:25:09.939
 defending

00:25:09.939 --> 00:25:10.240
 blame

00:25:10.240 --> 00:25:10.559
 shifting

00:25:10.559 --> 00:25:10.740
 to

00:25:10.740 --> 00:25:10.899
 try

00:25:10.899 --> 00:25:11.019
 and

00:25:11.019 --> 00:25:11.240
 focus

00:25:11.240 --> 00:25:11.399
 on

00:25:11.399 --> 00:25:11.539
 all

00:25:11.539 --> 00:25:11.639
 the

00:25:11.639 --> 00:25:11.779
 good

00:25:11.779 --> 00:25:12.019
 things

00:25:12.019 --> 00:25:12.159
 he's

00:25:12.159 --> 00:25:12.419
 doing

00:25:12.419 --> 00:25:12.819
 to

00:25:12.819 --> 00:25:13.000
 then

00:25:13.000 --> 00:25:13.319
 step

00:25:13.319 --> 00:25:13.579
 four

00:25:13.579 --> 00:25:14.000
 tactic

00:25:14.000 --> 00:25:14.439
 for

00:25:14.439 --> 00:25:15.119
 a

00:25:15.119 --> 00:25:15.859
 non-apology

00:25:15.859 --> 00:25:16.679
 to avoid

00:25:16.679 --> 00:25:17.399
 consequences

00:25:17.399 --> 00:25:19.240
 Saul

00:25:19.240 --> 00:25:20.179
 feels

00:25:20.179 --> 00:25:20.839
 the

00:25:20.839 --> 00:25:21.359
 consequences

00:25:21.359 --> 00:25:22.119
 he feels

00:25:22.119 --> 00:25:22.240
 it

00:25:22.240 --> 00:25:22.699
 the place

00:25:22.699 --> 00:25:23.000
 which is

00:25:23.000 --> 00:25:23.859
 most precious

00:25:23.859 --> 00:25:24.279
 to his

00:25:24.279 --> 00:25:24.500
 heart

00:25:24.500 --> 00:25:25.059
 his own

00:25:25.059 --> 00:25:25.460
 honour

00:25:25.460 --> 00:25:26.279
 and out

00:25:26.279 --> 00:25:26.559
 of fear

00:25:26.559 --> 00:25:27.059
 he goes

00:25:27.059 --> 00:25:27.779
 I've

00:25:27.779 --> 00:25:28.240
 sinned

00:25:28.240 --> 00:25:28.720
 for

00:25:28.720 --> 00:25:28.980
 I

00:25:28.980 --> 00:25:29.179
 have

00:25:29.179 --> 00:25:30.059
 transgressed

00:25:30.059 --> 00:25:30.179
 the

00:25:30.179 --> 00:25:30.700
 commandment

00:25:30.700 --> 00:25:30.940
 of the

00:25:30.940 --> 00:25:31.200
 Lord

00:25:31.200 --> 00:25:31.879
 and

00:25:31.879 --> 00:25:32.200
 your

00:25:32.200 --> 00:25:32.720
 words

00:25:32.720 --> 00:25:33.259
 because

00:25:33.259 --> 00:25:33.480
 I

00:25:33.480 --> 00:25:33.879
 feared

00:25:33.879 --> 00:25:34.059
 the

00:25:34.059 --> 00:25:34.339
 people

00:25:34.339 --> 00:25:34.519
 and

00:25:34.519 --> 00:25:34.879
 obeyed

00:25:34.879 --> 00:25:35.000
 their

00:25:35.000 --> 00:25:35.379
 voice

00:25:35.379 --> 00:25:35.859
 now

00:25:35.859 --> 00:25:36.319
 please

00:25:36.319 --> 00:25:37.000
 pardon

00:25:37.000 --> 00:25:37.319
 my

00:25:37.319 --> 00:25:37.720
 sin

00:25:37.720 --> 00:25:38.519
 and

00:25:38.519 --> 00:25:38.779
 come

00:25:38.779 --> 00:25:39.059
 back

00:25:39.059 --> 00:25:39.259
 with

00:25:39.259 --> 00:25:39.619
 me

00:25:39.619 --> 00:25:40.480
 you see

00:25:40.480 --> 00:25:40.679
 he

00:25:40.679 --> 00:25:41.379
 admits

00:25:41.379 --> 00:25:41.599
 the

00:25:41.599 --> 00:25:41.940
 issue

00:25:41.940 --> 00:25:42.559
 he's

00:25:42.559 --> 00:25:42.659
 a

00:25:42.659 --> 00:25:42.859
 people

00:25:42.859 --> 00:25:43.259
 pleaser

00:25:43.259 --> 00:25:43.679
 he

00:25:43.679 --> 00:25:44.019
 feared

00:25:44.019 --> 00:25:44.179
 the

00:25:44.179 --> 00:25:44.539
 people

00:25:44.539 --> 00:25:45.740
 and

00:25:45.740 --> 00:25:46.000
 you know

00:25:46.000 --> 00:25:46.339
 people

00:25:46.339 --> 00:25:46.799
 pleasers

00:25:46.799 --> 00:25:47.079
 are

00:25:47.079 --> 00:25:47.460
 always

00:25:47.460 --> 00:25:47.899
 obedient

00:25:47.899 --> 00:25:48.460
 people

00:25:48.460 --> 00:25:49.299
 it's

00:25:49.299 --> 00:25:49.619
 just

00:25:49.619 --> 00:25:50.159
 they

00:25:50.159 --> 00:25:50.559
 obey

00:25:50.559 --> 00:25:51.740
 other

00:25:51.740 --> 00:25:52.240
 people's

00:25:52.240 --> 00:25:52.579
 voices

00:25:52.579 --> 00:25:52.960
 not

00:25:52.960 --> 00:25:53.679
 God's

00:25:53.679 --> 00:25:55.299
 because

00:25:55.299 --> 00:25:55.740
 fear

00:25:55.740 --> 00:25:56.299
 can actually

00:25:56.299 --> 00:25:56.700
 make you

00:25:56.700 --> 00:25:57.220
 apologize

00:25:57.220 --> 00:25:59.019
 but

00:25:59.019 --> 00:25:59.360
 sorry

00:25:59.360 --> 00:25:59.700
 is not

00:25:59.700 --> 00:26:00.140
 enough

00:26:00.140 --> 00:26:00.759
 here

00:26:00.759 --> 00:26:01.380
 because

00:26:01.380 --> 00:26:01.519
 it

00:26:01.519 --> 00:26:01.799
 doesn't

00:26:01.799 --> 00:26:02.000
 turn

00:26:02.000 --> 00:26:02.140
 his

00:26:02.140 --> 00:26:02.340
 heart

00:26:02.340 --> 00:26:02.640
 away

00:26:02.640 --> 00:26:03.160
 from

00:26:03.160 --> 00:26:03.460
 people

00:26:03.460 --> 00:26:03.880
 pleasing

00:26:03.880 --> 00:26:04.559
 because

00:26:04.559 --> 00:26:05.279
 the

00:26:05.279 --> 00:26:05.539
 final

00:26:05.539 --> 00:26:05.759
 thing

00:26:05.759 --> 00:26:05.900
 he

00:26:05.900 --> 00:26:06.279
 says

00:26:06.279 --> 00:26:06.779
 is

00:26:06.779 --> 00:26:07.140
 this

00:26:07.140 --> 00:26:07.900
 he

00:26:07.900 --> 00:26:08.059
 says

00:26:08.059 --> 00:26:08.279
 I've

00:26:08.279 --> 00:26:09.559
 sinned

00:26:09.559 --> 00:26:09.819
 yet

00:26:09.819 --> 00:26:10.080
 honour

00:26:10.080 --> 00:26:10.519
 me

00:26:10.519 --> 00:26:11.200
 now

00:26:11.200 --> 00:26:11.740
 before

00:26:11.740 --> 00:26:11.920
 the

00:26:11.920 --> 00:26:12.160
 elders

00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:12.460
 of my

00:26:12.460 --> 00:26:12.819
 people

00:26:12.819 --> 00:26:13.200
 and

00:26:13.200 --> 00:26:13.460
 before

00:26:13.460 --> 00:26:13.960
 Israel

00:26:13.960 --> 00:26:14.259
 and

00:26:14.259 --> 00:26:14.559
 return

00:26:14.559 --> 00:26:14.720
 with

00:26:14.720 --> 00:26:14.900
 me

00:26:14.900 --> 00:26:15.059
 that

00:26:15.059 --> 00:26:15.240
 I

00:26:15.240 --> 00:26:15.420
 may

00:26:15.420 --> 00:26:15.740
 bow

00:26:15.740 --> 00:26:16.059
 before

00:26:16.059 --> 00:26:16.259
 the

00:26:16.259 --> 00:26:16.440
 Lord

00:26:16.440 --> 00:26:16.600
 your

00:26:16.600 --> 00:26:16.840
 God

00:26:16.840 --> 00:26:17.160
 you see

00:26:17.160 --> 00:26:17.319
 it's

00:26:17.319 --> 00:26:17.460
 all

00:26:17.460 --> 00:26:17.700
 about

00:26:17.700 --> 00:26:18.000
 show

00:26:18.000 --> 00:26:18.120
 on

00:26:18.120 --> 00:26:18.240
 the

00:26:18.240 --> 00:26:18.500
 outward

00:26:18.500 --> 00:26:19.160
 when

00:26:19.160 --> 00:26:19.319
 the

00:26:19.319 --> 00:26:19.640
 inward

00:26:19.640 --> 00:26:20.140
 is

00:26:20.140 --> 00:26:20.460
 about

00:26:20.460 --> 00:26:20.819
 his

00:26:20.819 --> 00:26:21.259
 own

00:26:21.259 --> 00:26:21.819
 honour

00:26:21.819 --> 00:26:22.360
 in

00:26:22.360 --> 00:26:22.620
 front

00:26:22.619 --> 00:26:22.759
 of

00:26:22.759 --> 00:26:23.119
 everybody

00:26:23.119 --> 00:26:23.599
 else

00:26:23.599 --> 00:26:27.039
 I

00:26:27.039 --> 00:26:27.159
 don't

00:26:27.159 --> 00:26:27.319
 know

00:26:27.319 --> 00:26:27.539
 if

00:26:27.539 --> 00:26:27.719
 you

00:26:27.719 --> 00:26:28.619
 can

00:26:28.619 --> 00:26:28.939
 relate

00:26:28.939 --> 00:26:29.119
 to

00:26:29.119 --> 00:26:29.259
 any

00:26:29.259 --> 00:26:29.379
 of

00:26:29.379 --> 00:26:29.599
 that

00:26:29.599 --> 00:26:30.659
 I

00:26:30.659 --> 00:26:30.959
 can

00:26:30.959 --> 00:26:31.099
 in

00:26:31.099 --> 00:26:31.239
 my

00:26:31.239 --> 00:26:31.399
 own

00:26:31.399 --> 00:26:31.699
 life

00:26:31.699 --> 00:26:32.099
 I

00:26:32.099 --> 00:26:32.179
 don't

00:26:32.179 --> 00:26:32.239
 know

00:26:32.239 --> 00:26:32.319
 how

00:26:32.319 --> 00:26:32.439
 you

00:26:32.439 --> 00:26:32.559
 see

00:26:32.559 --> 00:26:32.759
 those

00:26:32.759 --> 00:26:33.199
 tactics

00:26:33.199 --> 00:26:33.500
 work

00:26:33.500 --> 00:26:33.679
 out

00:26:33.679 --> 00:26:33.839
 for

00:26:33.839 --> 00:26:33.959
 you

00:26:33.959 --> 00:26:34.139
 let

00:26:34.139 --> 00:26:34.219
 me

00:26:34.219 --> 00:26:34.379
 give

00:26:34.379 --> 00:26:34.519
 you

00:26:34.519 --> 00:26:34.719
 a

00:26:34.719 --> 00:26:35.599
 very

00:26:35.599 --> 00:26:36.359
 hypothetical

00:26:36.359 --> 00:26:37.959
 situation

00:26:37.959 --> 00:26:39.539
 so

00:26:39.539 --> 00:26:39.819
 my

00:26:39.819 --> 00:26:40.079
 wife

00:26:40.079 --> 00:26:40.219
 and

00:26:40.219 --> 00:26:40.539
 I

00:26:40.539 --> 00:26:41.500
 we

00:26:41.500 --> 00:26:41.779
 agree

00:26:41.779 --> 00:26:41.959
 that

00:26:41.959 --> 00:26:42.099
 if

00:26:42.099 --> 00:26:42.239
 I'm

00:26:42.239 --> 00:26:42.339
 going

00:26:42.339 --> 00:26:42.419
 to

00:26:42.419 --> 00:26:42.559
 go

00:26:42.559 --> 00:26:42.739
 out

00:26:42.739 --> 00:26:42.879
 in

00:26:42.879 --> 00:26:43.259
 evening

00:26:43.259 --> 00:26:43.779
 times

00:26:43.779 --> 00:26:44.579
 I

00:26:44.579 --> 00:26:44.739
 need

00:26:44.739 --> 00:26:44.859
 to

00:26:44.859 --> 00:26:45.000
 let

00:26:45.000 --> 00:26:45.119
 her

00:26:45.119 --> 00:26:45.439
 know

00:26:45.439 --> 00:26:46.959
 beforehand

00:26:46.959 --> 00:26:47.259
 just

00:26:47.259 --> 00:26:47.379
 in

00:26:47.379 --> 00:26:47.539
 case

00:26:47.539 --> 00:26:47.879
 she

00:26:47.879 --> 00:26:48.099
 needs

00:26:48.099 --> 00:26:48.379
 help

00:26:48.379 --> 00:26:48.539
 with

00:26:48.539 --> 00:26:48.679
 the

00:26:48.679 --> 00:26:49.000
 kids

00:26:52.619 --> 00:26:53.259
 and

00:26:53.259 --> 00:26:53.899
 when

00:26:53.899 --> 00:26:54.099
 my

00:26:54.099 --> 00:26:54.519
 wife

00:26:54.519 --> 00:26:56.259
 confronts

00:26:56.259 --> 00:26:56.379
 me

00:26:56.379 --> 00:26:56.559
 with

00:26:56.559 --> 00:26:56.919
 why

00:26:56.919 --> 00:26:57.459
 I

00:26:57.459 --> 00:26:57.779
 didn't

00:26:57.779 --> 00:26:58.099
 tell

00:26:58.099 --> 00:26:58.359
 her

00:26:58.359 --> 00:26:59.459
 do

00:26:59.459 --> 00:26:59.500
 you

00:26:59.500 --> 00:26:59.599
 know

00:26:59.599 --> 00:26:59.719
 what

00:26:59.719 --> 00:26:59.819
 I

00:26:59.819 --> 00:26:59.959
 do

00:26:59.959 --> 00:27:00.279
 sometimes

00:27:00.279 --> 00:27:00.519
 I

00:27:00.519 --> 00:27:00.739
 say

00:27:00.739 --> 00:27:01.000
 things

00:27:01.000 --> 00:27:01.299
 like

00:27:01.299 --> 00:27:01.899
 I

00:27:01.899 --> 00:27:02.079
 play

00:27:02.079 --> 00:27:02.219
 the

00:27:02.219 --> 00:27:02.459
 innocent

00:27:02.459 --> 00:27:02.679
 I

00:27:02.679 --> 00:27:02.779
 say

00:27:02.779 --> 00:27:02.919
 oh

00:27:02.919 --> 00:27:03.119
 yeah

00:27:03.119 --> 00:27:03.239
 I

00:27:03.239 --> 00:27:03.419
 did

00:27:03.419 --> 00:27:03.659
 tell

00:27:03.659 --> 00:27:03.779
 you

00:27:03.779 --> 00:27:03.859
 I

00:27:03.859 --> 00:27:04.000
 did

00:27:04.000 --> 00:27:04.119
 tell

00:27:04.119 --> 00:27:04.219
 I'm

00:27:04.219 --> 00:27:04.459
 sure

00:27:04.459 --> 00:27:04.619
 I

00:27:04.619 --> 00:27:04.839
 told

00:27:04.839 --> 00:27:05.079
 you

00:27:05.079 --> 00:27:06.239
 and

00:27:06.239 --> 00:27:06.359
 then

00:27:06.359 --> 00:27:06.459
 she

00:27:06.459 --> 00:27:06.619
 says

00:27:06.619 --> 00:27:06.919
 when

00:27:06.919 --> 00:27:08.000
 and

00:27:08.000 --> 00:27:08.059
 I

00:27:08.059 --> 00:27:08.159
 go

00:27:08.159 --> 00:27:08.559
 well

00:27:08.559 --> 00:27:09.239
 work

00:27:09.239 --> 00:27:09.419
 with

00:27:09.419 --> 00:27:09.619
 kind

00:27:09.619 --> 00:27:09.739
 of

00:27:09.739 --> 00:27:10.000
 super

00:27:10.000 --> 00:27:10.299
 busy

00:27:10.299 --> 00:27:11.059
 and

00:27:11.059 --> 00:27:11.279
 I

00:27:11.279 --> 00:27:11.459
 just

00:27:11.459 --> 00:27:11.719
 didn't

00:27:11.719 --> 00:27:11.859
 have

00:27:11.859 --> 00:27:11.979
 the

00:27:11.979 --> 00:27:12.359
 time

00:27:12.359 --> 00:27:12.679
 but

00:27:12.679 --> 00:27:13.739
 she

00:27:13.739 --> 00:27:13.939
 then

00:27:13.939 --> 00:27:14.159
 goes

00:27:14.159 --> 00:27:14.419
 well

00:27:14.419 --> 00:27:14.639
 so

00:27:14.639 --> 00:27:14.759
 how

00:27:14.759 --> 00:27:14.920
 come

00:27:14.920 --> 00:27:15.039
 you

00:27:15.039 --> 00:27:15.160
 had

00:27:15.160 --> 00:27:15.440
 time

00:27:15.440 --> 00:27:15.740
 to

00:27:15.740 --> 00:27:16.799
 watch

00:27:16.799 --> 00:27:17.180
 YouTube

00:27:17.180 --> 00:27:17.599
 or

00:27:17.599 --> 00:27:18.059
 do

00:27:18.059 --> 00:27:18.220
 that

00:27:18.220 --> 00:27:18.400
 other

00:27:18.400 --> 00:27:18.619
 thing

00:27:18.619 --> 00:27:18.759
 that

00:27:18.759 --> 00:27:18.859
 you

00:27:18.859 --> 00:27:18.980
 were

00:27:18.980 --> 00:27:19.259
 doing

00:27:19.259 --> 00:27:19.619
 and

00:27:19.619 --> 00:27:19.700
 I

00:27:19.700 --> 00:27:19.799
 go

00:27:19.799 --> 00:27:20.140
 well

00:27:20.140 --> 00:27:21.000
 listen

00:27:21.000 --> 00:27:22.539
 every

00:27:22.539 --> 00:27:22.819
 other

00:27:22.819 --> 00:27:23.200
 time

00:27:23.200 --> 00:27:23.500
 in

00:27:23.500 --> 00:27:23.599
 the

00:27:23.599 --> 00:27:23.859
 last

00:27:23.859 --> 00:27:24.259
 three

00:27:24.259 --> 00:27:24.539
 weeks

00:27:24.539 --> 00:27:24.779
 I

00:27:24.779 --> 00:27:25.400
 told

00:27:25.400 --> 00:27:25.799
 you

00:27:25.799 --> 00:27:26.660
 and

00:27:26.660 --> 00:27:28.039
 you

00:27:28.039 --> 00:27:28.279
 didn't

00:27:28.279 --> 00:27:28.519
 tell

00:27:28.519 --> 00:27:28.740
 me

00:27:28.740 --> 00:27:28.920
 the

00:27:28.920 --> 00:27:29.160
 last

00:27:29.160 --> 00:27:29.420
 time

00:27:29.420 --> 00:27:29.539
 you

00:27:29.539 --> 00:27:29.720
 went

00:27:29.720 --> 00:27:30.000
 out

00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:30.640
 and

00:27:30.640 --> 00:27:31.059
 so

00:27:31.059 --> 00:27:32.339
 and

00:27:32.339 --> 00:27:33.059
 then

00:27:33.059 --> 00:27:33.220
 she

00:27:33.220 --> 00:27:33.420
 may

00:27:33.420 --> 00:27:33.839
 reply

00:27:33.839 --> 00:27:34.059
 well

00:27:34.059 --> 00:27:35.220
 this

00:27:35.220 --> 00:27:35.379
 is

00:27:35.379 --> 00:27:35.619
 actually

00:27:35.619 --> 00:27:35.960
 serious

00:27:35.960 --> 00:27:36.099
 and

00:27:36.099 --> 00:27:36.220
 so

00:27:36.220 --> 00:27:36.819
 until

00:27:36.819 --> 00:27:37.279
 you

00:27:37.279 --> 00:27:38.819
 change

00:27:38.819 --> 00:27:39.819
 I

00:27:39.819 --> 00:27:39.859
 I

00:27:39.859 --> 00:27:40.180
 am

00:27:40.180 --> 00:27:40.579
 not

00:27:40.579 --> 00:27:40.879
 going

00:27:40.879 --> 00:27:40.940
 to

00:27:40.940 --> 00:27:41.099
 go

00:27:41.099 --> 00:27:41.279
 out

00:27:41.279 --> 00:27:41.440
 to

00:27:41.440 --> 00:27:41.519
 you

00:27:41.519 --> 00:27:41.660
 with

00:27:41.660 --> 00:27:41.819
 that

00:27:41.819 --> 00:27:42.359
 important

00:27:42.359 --> 00:27:42.759
 meeting

00:27:42.759 --> 00:27:43.439
 that

00:27:43.439 --> 00:27:43.740
 you

00:27:43.740 --> 00:27:43.959
 want

00:27:43.959 --> 00:27:44.319
 me

00:27:44.319 --> 00:27:44.439
 to

00:27:44.439 --> 00:27:44.579
 go

00:27:44.579 --> 00:27:44.779
 to

00:27:44.779 --> 00:27:44.919
 and

00:27:44.919 --> 00:27:45.059
 then

00:27:45.059 --> 00:27:45.299
 suddenly

00:27:45.299 --> 00:27:45.639
 I'm

00:27:45.639 --> 00:27:46.599
 really

00:27:46.599 --> 00:27:47.000
 listening

00:27:47.000 --> 00:27:48.579
 because

00:27:48.579 --> 00:27:48.819
 actually

00:27:48.819 --> 00:27:48.939
 I

00:27:48.939 --> 00:27:49.099
 really

00:27:49.099 --> 00:27:49.299
 want

00:27:49.299 --> 00:27:49.439
 us

00:27:49.439 --> 00:27:49.519
 to

00:27:49.519 --> 00:27:49.639
 be

00:27:49.639 --> 00:27:49.759
 able

00:27:49.759 --> 00:27:49.839
 to

00:27:49.839 --> 00:27:49.959
 go

00:27:49.959 --> 00:27:50.399
 together

00:27:50.399 --> 00:27:51.219
 and

00:27:51.219 --> 00:27:51.359
 then

00:27:51.359 --> 00:27:51.500
 I

00:27:51.500 --> 00:27:51.639
 go

00:27:51.639 --> 00:27:52.359
 I'm

00:27:52.359 --> 00:27:52.679
 sorry

00:27:52.679 --> 00:27:52.919
 I'll

00:27:52.919 --> 00:27:53.079
 try

00:27:53.079 --> 00:27:53.179
 to

00:27:53.179 --> 00:27:53.240
 do

00:27:53.240 --> 00:27:53.419
 better

00:27:53.419 --> 00:27:53.719
 next

00:27:53.719 --> 00:27:54.279
 time

00:27:54.279 --> 00:27:54.679
 but

00:27:54.679 --> 00:27:54.839
 I

00:27:54.839 --> 00:27:55.019
 just

00:27:55.019 --> 00:27:55.219
 need

00:27:55.219 --> 00:27:55.319
 you

00:27:55.319 --> 00:27:55.419
 to

00:27:55.419 --> 00:27:55.579
 come

00:27:55.579 --> 00:27:55.719
 with

00:27:55.719 --> 00:27:55.879
 me

00:27:55.879 --> 00:27:56.079
 this

00:27:56.079 --> 00:27:56.359
 time

00:27:56.359 --> 00:27:56.619
 okay

00:27:56.619 --> 00:27:56.779
 it's

00:27:56.779 --> 00:27:56.979
 really

00:27:56.979 --> 00:27:57.159
 really

00:27:57.159 --> 00:27:57.639
 important

00:27:57.639 --> 00:27:59.059
 do

00:27:59.059 --> 00:27:59.099
 you

00:27:59.099 --> 00:27:59.179
 know

00:27:59.179 --> 00:27:59.419
 that's

00:27:59.419 --> 00:27:59.579
 not

00:27:59.579 --> 00:27:59.699
 an

00:27:59.699 --> 00:28:00.059
 apology

00:28:00.059 --> 00:28:00.939
 that's

00:28:00.939 --> 00:28:01.079
 not

00:28:01.079 --> 00:28:01.199
 an

00:28:01.199 --> 00:28:01.579
 apology

00:28:01.579 --> 00:28:02.119
 and

00:28:02.119 --> 00:28:02.199
 she

00:28:02.199 --> 00:28:02.339
 goes

00:28:02.339 --> 00:28:02.479
 oh

00:28:02.479 --> 00:28:02.639
 how

00:28:02.639 --> 00:28:02.759
 are

00:28:12.359 --> 00:28:12.619
 with

00:28:12.619 --> 00:28:12.959
 God

00:28:12.959 --> 00:28:13.379
 or

00:28:13.379 --> 00:28:13.559
 a

00:28:13.559 --> 00:28:13.839
 family

00:28:13.839 --> 00:28:14.019
 or

00:28:14.019 --> 00:28:14.159
 a

00:28:14.159 --> 00:28:14.539
 spouse

00:28:14.539 --> 00:28:15.139
 without

00:28:15.139 --> 00:28:15.719
 truly

00:28:15.719 --> 00:28:16.099
 owning

00:28:16.099 --> 00:28:16.359
 your

00:28:16.359 --> 00:28:16.679
 sin

00:28:16.679 --> 00:28:17.539
 without

00:28:17.539 --> 00:28:18.399
 excusing

00:28:18.399 --> 00:28:19.939
 the

00:28:19.939 --> 00:28:20.379
 harder

00:28:20.379 --> 00:28:21.339
 your

00:28:21.339 --> 00:28:21.740
 heart

00:28:21.740 --> 00:28:22.439
 becomes

00:28:22.439 --> 00:28:24.859
 until

00:28:24.859 --> 00:28:25.279
 your

00:28:25.279 --> 00:28:25.699
 arteries

00:28:25.699 --> 00:28:26.099
 can be

00:28:26.099 --> 00:28:26.659
 so hard

00:28:26.659 --> 00:28:27.019
 that there's

00:28:27.019 --> 00:28:27.319
 no way

00:28:27.319 --> 00:28:27.779
 back

00:28:27.779 --> 00:28:28.559
 and so

00:28:28.559 --> 00:28:28.819
 actually

00:28:28.819 --> 00:28:29.419
 repentance

00:28:29.419 --> 00:28:30.019
 the call

00:28:30.019 --> 00:28:30.419
 to repent

00:28:30.419 --> 00:28:30.819
 is an

00:28:30.819 --> 00:28:31.579
 opportunity

00:28:31.579 --> 00:28:32.399
 that God

00:28:32.399 --> 00:28:32.759
 brings

00:28:32.759 --> 00:28:33.279
 to us

00:28:33.279 --> 00:28:34.099
 you know

00:28:34.099 --> 00:28:34.299
 I was

00:28:34.299 --> 00:28:34.579
 preparing

00:28:34.579 --> 00:28:34.779
 this

00:28:34.779 --> 00:28:34.979
 sermon

00:28:34.979 --> 00:28:35.240
 in a

00:28:35.240 --> 00:28:35.479
 cafe

00:28:35.479 --> 00:28:36.319
 and

00:28:36.319 --> 00:28:37.099
 just

00:28:37.099 --> 00:28:37.339
 as I

00:28:37.339 --> 00:28:37.439
 was

00:28:37.439 --> 00:28:37.779
 preparing

00:28:37.779 --> 00:28:37.979
 this

00:28:37.979 --> 00:28:38.199
 part

00:28:38.199 --> 00:28:38.959
 a

00:28:38.959 --> 00:28:39.299
 song

00:28:39.299 --> 00:28:39.639
 came

00:28:39.639 --> 00:28:39.879
 on

00:28:39.879 --> 00:28:40.779
 the

00:28:40.779 --> 00:28:41.179
 radio

00:28:41.179 --> 00:28:41.759
 and

00:28:41.759 --> 00:28:41.959
 it

00:28:41.959 --> 00:28:42.159
 said

00:28:42.160 --> 00:28:42.800
 it's

00:28:42.800 --> 00:28:43.019
 too

00:28:43.019 --> 00:28:43.460
 late

00:28:43.460 --> 00:28:43.620
 to

00:28:43.620 --> 00:28:44.120
 apologize

00:28:44.120 --> 00:28:45.220
 it's

00:28:45.220 --> 00:28:45.440
 too

00:28:45.440 --> 00:28:46.380
 late

00:28:46.380 --> 00:28:47.460
 okay

00:28:47.460 --> 00:28:48.300
 and

00:28:48.300 --> 00:28:48.600
 that's

00:28:48.600 --> 00:28:48.900
 all

00:28:48.900 --> 00:28:49.540
 sorry

00:28:49.540 --> 00:28:49.820
 for my

00:28:49.820 --> 00:28:50.060
 singing

00:28:50.060 --> 00:28:50.360
 but

00:28:50.360 --> 00:28:50.660
 that's

00:28:50.660 --> 00:28:51.000
 all

00:28:51.000 --> 00:28:51.640
 it's

00:28:51.640 --> 00:28:51.880
 too

00:28:51.880 --> 00:28:52.100
 late

00:28:52.100 --> 00:28:52.400
 for him

00:28:52.400 --> 00:28:52.560
 to

00:28:52.560 --> 00:28:53.040
 apologize

00:28:53.040 --> 00:28:54.060
 because

00:28:54.060 --> 00:28:54.320
 he's

00:28:54.320 --> 00:28:54.440
 had

00:28:54.440 --> 00:28:54.680
 so

00:28:54.680 --> 00:28:54.880
 many

00:28:54.880 --> 00:28:55.460
 opportunities

00:28:55.460 --> 00:28:55.700
 but

00:28:55.700 --> 00:28:55.860
 his

00:28:55.860 --> 00:28:56.259
 heart

00:28:56.259 --> 00:28:56.740
 is

00:28:56.740 --> 00:28:57.240
 hard

00:28:57.240 --> 00:28:58.420
 and so

00:28:58.420 --> 00:28:58.640
 there's

00:28:58.640 --> 00:28:58.740
 the

00:28:58.740 --> 00:28:59.140
 question

00:28:59.140 --> 00:29:00.240
 where

00:29:00.240 --> 00:29:00.360
 are

00:29:00.360 --> 00:29:00.500
 the

00:29:00.500 --> 00:29:00.860
 areas

00:29:00.860 --> 00:29:01.040
 of

00:29:01.040 --> 00:29:01.240
 your

00:29:01.240 --> 00:29:01.680
 life

00:29:01.680 --> 00:29:02.580
 your

00:29:02.580 --> 00:29:03.140
 relationship

00:29:03.140 --> 00:29:03.420
 with

00:29:03.420 --> 00:29:03.720
 God

00:29:03.720 --> 00:29:04.500
 what

00:29:04.500 --> 00:29:04.640
 is

00:29:04.640 --> 00:29:04.779
 he

00:29:04.779 --> 00:29:05.100
 calling

00:29:05.100 --> 00:29:05.360
 you

00:29:05.360 --> 00:29:05.500
 to

00:29:05.500 --> 00:29:05.740
 do

00:29:05.740 --> 00:29:06.340
 what

00:29:06.340 --> 00:29:06.560
 about

00:29:06.560 --> 00:29:06.720
 with

00:29:06.720 --> 00:29:07.220
 relationships

00:29:07.220 --> 00:29:07.700
 with

00:29:07.700 --> 00:29:08.220
 family

00:29:08.220 --> 00:29:08.540
 with

00:29:08.540 --> 00:29:09.000
 friend

00:29:09.000 --> 00:29:09.240
 with

00:29:09.240 --> 00:29:09.700
 spouses

00:29:09.700 --> 00:29:10.220
 where

00:29:10.220 --> 00:29:11.380
 your

00:29:11.380 --> 00:29:12.120
 defenses

00:29:12.160 --> 00:29:12.920
 where

00:29:12.920 --> 00:29:13.279
 you

00:29:13.279 --> 00:29:13.759
 not

00:29:13.759 --> 00:29:14.259
 apologize

00:29:14.259 --> 00:29:14.779
 instead

00:29:14.779 --> 00:29:14.980
 of

00:29:14.980 --> 00:29:15.240
 taking

00:29:15.240 --> 00:29:15.900
 responsibility

00:29:15.900 --> 00:29:17.320
 you know

00:29:17.320 --> 00:29:17.720
 some of

00:29:17.720 --> 00:29:17.900
 our

00:29:17.900 --> 00:29:18.400
 relationships

00:29:18.400 --> 00:29:18.740
 have

00:29:18.740 --> 00:29:19.019
 real

00:29:19.019 --> 00:29:19.540
 struggles

00:29:19.540 --> 00:29:20.500
 because

00:29:20.500 --> 00:29:20.700
 we're

00:29:20.700 --> 00:29:20.860
 not

00:29:20.860 --> 00:29:21.240
 owning

00:29:21.240 --> 00:29:21.800
 the

00:29:21.800 --> 00:29:22.120
 part

00:29:22.120 --> 00:29:22.300
 that

00:29:22.300 --> 00:29:22.460
 God

00:29:22.460 --> 00:29:22.600
 is

00:29:22.600 --> 00:29:22.920
 calling

00:29:22.920 --> 00:29:23.120
 us

00:29:23.120 --> 00:29:23.279
 to

00:29:23.279 --> 00:29:23.620
 own

00:29:23.620 --> 00:29:24.380
 and

00:29:24.380 --> 00:29:24.580
 God

00:29:24.580 --> 00:29:25.000
 comes

00:29:25.000 --> 00:29:25.160
 to

00:29:25.160 --> 00:29:25.320
 us

00:29:25.320 --> 00:29:25.720
 today

00:29:25.720 --> 00:29:26.040
 and

00:29:26.040 --> 00:29:26.420
 says

00:29:26.420 --> 00:29:27.080
 I

00:29:27.080 --> 00:29:27.300
 want

00:29:27.300 --> 00:29:27.420
 to

00:29:27.420 --> 00:29:27.620
 bring

00:29:27.620 --> 00:29:27.759
 you

00:29:27.759 --> 00:29:28.259
 freedom

00:29:28.259 --> 00:29:28.940
 will

00:29:28.940 --> 00:29:29.100
 you

00:29:29.100 --> 00:29:29.460
 own

00:29:29.460 --> 00:29:29.920
 what

00:29:29.920 --> 00:29:30.060
 I

00:29:30.060 --> 00:29:30.240
 have

00:29:30.240 --> 00:29:30.500
 called

00:29:30.500 --> 00:29:30.680
 you

00:29:30.680 --> 00:29:30.900
 to

00:29:30.900 --> 00:29:32.080
 it

00:29:32.080 --> 00:29:32.220
 is

00:29:32.220 --> 00:29:32.759
 grace

00:29:32.759 --> 00:29:33.160
 that

00:29:33.160 --> 00:29:33.340
 God

00:29:33.340 --> 00:29:33.700
 brings

00:29:33.700 --> 00:29:33.900
 us

00:29:33.900 --> 00:29:34.120
 to

00:29:34.120 --> 00:29:34.860
 so

00:29:34.860 --> 00:29:35.340
 that's

00:29:35.340 --> 00:29:35.860
 Saul

00:29:35.860 --> 00:29:36.600
 that's

00:29:36.600 --> 00:29:36.740
 how

00:29:36.740 --> 00:29:36.880
 he

00:29:36.880 --> 00:29:37.280
 defends

00:29:37.280 --> 00:29:37.480
 his

00:29:37.480 --> 00:29:37.960
 pride

00:29:37.960 --> 00:29:39.280
 and

00:29:39.280 --> 00:29:39.420
 now

00:29:39.420 --> 00:29:39.519
 we

00:29:39.519 --> 00:29:39.640
 can

00:29:39.640 --> 00:29:39.800
 leave

00:29:39.800 --> 00:29:39.900
 it

00:29:39.900 --> 00:29:40.120
 there

00:29:40.120 --> 00:29:40.240
 and

00:29:40.240 --> 00:29:40.340
 then

00:29:40.340 --> 00:29:40.480
 we

00:29:40.480 --> 00:29:41.019
 just

00:29:41.019 --> 00:29:41.200
 go

00:29:41.200 --> 00:29:41.440
 away

00:29:41.440 --> 00:29:41.740
 feeling

00:29:41.740 --> 00:29:42.080
 oh

00:29:42.080 --> 00:29:42.580
 that's

00:29:42.580 --> 00:29:42.780
 a little

00:29:42.780 --> 00:29:43.120
 hard

00:29:43.120 --> 00:29:43.380
 that's

00:29:43.380 --> 00:29:43.560
 a little

00:29:43.560 --> 00:29:43.960
 heavy

00:29:43.960 --> 00:29:45.019
 but

00:29:45.019 --> 00:29:45.140
 you

00:29:45.140 --> 00:29:45.259
 know

00:29:45.259 --> 00:29:45.460
 the

00:29:45.460 --> 00:29:46.259
 book

00:29:46.259 --> 00:29:46.460
 of

00:29:46.460 --> 00:29:46.840
 Samuel

00:29:46.840 --> 00:29:47.200
 actually

00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:47.960
 continues

00:29:47.960 --> 00:29:49.120
 it's

00:29:49.120 --> 00:29:49.640
 an amazingly

00:29:49.640 --> 00:29:49.920
 written

00:29:49.920 --> 00:29:50.240
 book

00:29:50.240 --> 00:29:51.180
 it

00:29:51.180 --> 00:29:51.780
 continues

00:29:51.780 --> 00:29:52.380
 with

00:29:52.380 --> 00:29:52.580
 my

00:29:52.580 --> 00:29:53.100
 third

00:29:53.100 --> 00:29:53.460
 thing

00:29:53.460 --> 00:29:53.820
 we've

00:29:53.820 --> 00:29:53.940
 seen

00:29:53.940 --> 00:29:54.100
 how

00:29:54.100 --> 00:29:54.360
 God

00:29:54.360 --> 00:29:55.340
 breaking

00:29:55.340 --> 00:29:55.720
 God's

00:29:55.720 --> 00:29:55.840
 heart

00:29:55.840 --> 00:29:56.000
 we've

00:29:56.000 --> 00:29:56.080
 seen

00:29:56.080 --> 00:29:56.280
 how

00:29:56.280 --> 00:29:56.680
 Saul

00:29:56.680 --> 00:29:57.540
 defends

00:29:57.539 --> 00:29:57.759
 his

00:29:57.759 --> 00:29:58.279
 pride

00:29:58.279 --> 00:29:58.519
 all

00:29:58.519 --> 00:29:58.700
 the

00:29:58.700 --> 00:29:59.079
 time

00:29:59.079 --> 00:29:59.299
 and

00:29:59.299 --> 00:29:59.460
 how

00:29:59.460 --> 00:29:59.579
 it

00:29:59.579 --> 00:30:00.019
 leads

00:30:00.019 --> 00:30:00.299
 just

00:30:00.299 --> 00:30:00.500
 to

00:30:00.500 --> 00:30:00.799
 actually

00:30:00.799 --> 00:30:01.259
 his

00:30:01.259 --> 00:30:01.740
 own

00:30:01.740 --> 00:30:02.440
 downfall

00:30:02.440 --> 00:30:03.639
 but

00:30:03.639 --> 00:30:03.799
 the

00:30:03.799 --> 00:30:04.039
 third

00:30:04.039 --> 00:30:04.359
 thing

00:30:04.359 --> 00:30:05.019
 is

00:30:05.019 --> 00:30:05.420
 actually

00:30:05.420 --> 00:30:06.019
 how

00:30:06.019 --> 00:30:06.200
 we

00:30:06.200 --> 00:30:06.579
 free

00:30:06.579 --> 00:30:06.779
 our

00:30:06.779 --> 00:30:07.099
 hearts

00:30:07.099 --> 00:30:07.319
 by

00:30:07.319 --> 00:30:07.779
 turning

00:30:07.779 --> 00:30:08.039
 our

00:30:08.039 --> 00:30:08.339
 hearts

00:30:08.339 --> 00:30:08.559
 in

00:30:08.559 --> 00:30:08.920
 true

00:30:08.920 --> 00:30:09.599
 repentance

00:30:09.599 --> 00:30:11.000
 and

00:30:11.000 --> 00:30:11.200
 here

00:30:11.200 --> 00:30:11.379
 we

00:30:11.379 --> 00:30:11.659
 see

00:30:11.659 --> 00:30:13.279
 that

00:30:13.279 --> 00:30:13.980
 in

00:30:13.980 --> 00:30:14.099
 the

00:30:14.099 --> 00:30:14.240
 book

00:30:14.240 --> 00:30:14.399
 of

00:30:14.399 --> 00:30:14.740
 Samuel

00:30:14.740 --> 00:30:14.980
 there's

00:30:14.980 --> 00:30:15.240
 another

00:30:15.240 --> 00:30:15.619
 king

00:30:15.619 --> 00:30:17.259
 who

00:30:17.259 --> 00:30:17.399
 is

00:30:17.399 --> 00:30:17.619
 also

00:30:17.619 --> 00:30:17.859
 a

00:30:17.859 --> 00:30:18.119
 sinner

00:30:18.119 --> 00:30:18.960
 called

00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:19.200
 King

00:30:19.200 --> 00:30:19.579
 David

00:30:19.579 --> 00:30:21.480
 and

00:30:21.480 --> 00:30:22.759
 his

00:30:22.759 --> 00:30:23.119
 sin

00:30:23.119 --> 00:30:23.920
 actually

00:30:23.920 --> 00:30:24.359
 looks

00:30:24.359 --> 00:30:24.799
 way

00:30:24.799 --> 00:30:25.200
 worse

00:30:25.200 --> 00:30:25.539
 on the

00:30:25.539 --> 00:30:25.980
 surface

00:30:25.980 --> 00:30:26.519
 than

00:30:26.519 --> 00:30:26.920
 Saul's

00:30:26.920 --> 00:30:27.220
 does

00:30:27.220 --> 00:30:28.180
 you

00:30:28.180 --> 00:30:28.259
 know

00:30:28.259 --> 00:30:28.400
 he

00:30:28.400 --> 00:30:28.700
 commits

00:30:28.700 --> 00:30:29.220
 adultery

00:30:29.220 --> 00:30:29.420
 then

00:30:29.420 --> 00:30:29.600
 he

00:30:29.600 --> 00:30:30.039
 murders

00:30:30.039 --> 00:30:30.559
 the

00:30:30.559 --> 00:30:30.860
 husband

00:30:30.860 --> 00:30:31.059
 when

00:30:31.059 --> 00:30:31.180
 he

00:30:31.180 --> 00:30:31.480
 can't

00:30:31.480 --> 00:30:31.700
 cover

00:30:31.700 --> 00:30:31.839
 it

00:30:31.839 --> 00:30:32.000
 up

00:30:32.000 --> 00:30:32.460
 it's

00:30:32.460 --> 00:30:32.700
 actually

00:30:32.700 --> 00:30:33.299
 horrific

00:30:33.299 --> 00:30:33.539
 I mean

00:30:33.539 --> 00:30:33.680
 it's

00:30:33.680 --> 00:30:33.920
 really

00:30:33.920 --> 00:30:34.279
 bad

00:30:34.279 --> 00:30:34.860
 and

00:30:34.860 --> 00:30:35.319
 God's

00:30:35.319 --> 00:30:35.600
 word

00:30:35.600 --> 00:30:36.000
 comes

00:30:36.000 --> 00:30:36.500
 to him

00:30:36.500 --> 00:30:37.180
 again

00:30:37.180 --> 00:30:37.700
 this

00:30:37.700 --> 00:30:38.039
 time

00:30:38.039 --> 00:30:38.279
 through

00:30:38.279 --> 00:30:38.660
 Nathan

00:30:38.660 --> 00:30:38.860
 the

00:30:38.860 --> 00:30:39.160
 prophet

00:30:39.160 --> 00:30:39.759
 saying

00:30:39.759 --> 00:30:40.519
 why

00:30:40.519 --> 00:30:40.960
 have

00:30:40.960 --> 00:30:41.100
 you

00:30:41.100 --> 00:30:41.960
 despised

00:30:41.960 --> 00:30:42.400
 the

00:30:42.400 --> 00:30:42.799
 word

00:30:42.799 --> 00:30:43.160
 of

00:30:43.160 --> 00:30:43.319
 the

00:30:43.319 --> 00:30:43.600
 Lord

00:30:43.600 --> 00:30:43.880
 by

00:30:43.880 --> 00:30:44.200
 doing

00:30:44.200 --> 00:30:44.680
 evil

00:30:44.680 --> 00:30:44.940
 in

00:30:44.940 --> 00:30:45.140
 his

00:30:45.140 --> 00:30:45.539
 sight

00:30:45.539 --> 00:30:46.559
 it's

00:30:46.559 --> 00:30:46.759
 almost

00:30:46.759 --> 00:30:47.180
 exactly

00:30:47.180 --> 00:30:47.420
 what

00:30:47.420 --> 00:30:47.799
 Samuel

00:30:47.799 --> 00:30:48.380
 comes

00:30:48.380 --> 00:30:48.660
 to

00:30:48.660 --> 00:30:49.059
 and

00:30:49.059 --> 00:30:49.259
 says

00:30:49.259 --> 00:30:49.500
 to

00:30:49.500 --> 00:30:50.140
 Saul

00:30:50.140 --> 00:30:50.799
 but

00:30:50.799 --> 00:30:51.059
 instead

00:30:51.059 --> 00:30:51.240
 of

00:30:51.240 --> 00:30:51.720
 defending

00:30:51.720 --> 00:30:52.039
 instead

00:30:52.039 --> 00:30:52.180
 of

00:30:52.180 --> 00:30:53.440
 excusing

00:30:53.440 --> 00:30:53.640
 instead

00:30:53.640 --> 00:30:53.740
 of

00:30:53.740 --> 00:30:54.520
 non-apologies

00:30:54.520 --> 00:30:56.600
 David

00:30:56.600 --> 00:30:57.380
 faces

00:30:57.380 --> 00:30:57.720
 his

00:30:57.720 --> 00:30:58.080
 sin

00:30:58.080 --> 00:30:58.660
 honestly

00:30:58.660 --> 00:30:59.000
 and

00:30:59.000 --> 00:30:59.180
 here's

00:30:59.180 --> 00:30:59.280
 what

00:30:59.280 --> 00:30:59.400
 he

00:30:59.400 --> 00:30:59.680
 says

00:30:59.680 --> 00:31:00.200
 he

00:31:00.200 --> 00:31:00.460
 says

00:31:00.460 --> 00:31:01.420
 I

00:31:01.420 --> 00:31:01.600
 have

00:31:01.600 --> 00:31:02.160
 sinned

00:31:02.160 --> 00:31:02.560
 against

00:31:02.560 --> 00:31:02.800
 the

00:31:02.800 --> 00:31:03.080
 Lord

00:31:03.080 --> 00:31:04.420
 full

00:31:04.420 --> 00:31:04.700
 stop

00:31:04.700 --> 00:31:05.960
 no

00:31:05.960 --> 00:31:06.380
 excuses

00:31:06.380 --> 00:31:07.480
 you know

00:31:07.480 --> 00:31:08.020
 there's

00:31:08.020 --> 00:31:08.320
 going to be

00:31:08.320 --> 00:31:08.980
 consequences

00:31:08.980 --> 00:31:09.540
 for him

00:31:09.540 --> 00:31:10.420
 consequences

00:31:10.420 --> 00:31:10.720
 there's

00:31:10.720 --> 00:31:10.960
 going to be

00:31:10.960 --> 00:31:11.280
 death

00:31:11.280 --> 00:31:11.660
 and civil

00:31:11.660 --> 00:31:12.020
 war

00:31:12.020 --> 00:31:12.560
 Nathan

00:31:12.560 --> 00:31:12.980
 tells

00:31:12.980 --> 00:31:13.220
 him

00:31:13.220 --> 00:31:13.820
 prophet

00:31:13.820 --> 00:31:15.540
 but he

00:31:15.540 --> 00:31:15.740
 just

00:31:15.740 --> 00:31:16.120
 doesn't

00:31:16.120 --> 00:31:16.300
 go

00:31:16.300 --> 00:31:16.480
 hey

00:31:16.480 --> 00:31:16.759
 please

00:31:16.759 --> 00:31:16.940
 honor

00:31:16.940 --> 00:31:17.100
 me

00:31:17.100 --> 00:31:17.300
 he

00:31:17.300 --> 00:31:17.520
 doesn't

00:31:17.520 --> 00:31:17.820
 go

00:31:17.820 --> 00:31:18.220
 like

00:31:18.220 --> 00:31:18.400
 just

00:31:18.400 --> 00:31:18.640
 please

00:31:18.640 --> 00:31:18.900
 forgive

00:31:18.900 --> 00:31:19.000
 me

00:31:19.000 --> 00:31:19.140
 he's

00:31:19.140 --> 00:31:19.280
 not

00:31:19.280 --> 00:31:19.520
 just

00:31:19.520 --> 00:31:19.759
 about

00:31:19.759 --> 00:31:20.060
 removing

00:31:20.060 --> 00:31:20.240
 the

00:31:20.240 --> 00:31:20.840
 consequences

00:31:20.840 --> 00:31:21.860
 he

00:31:21.860 --> 00:31:22.920
 desires

00:31:22.920 --> 00:31:24.820
 to

00:31:24.820 --> 00:31:25.060
 just

00:31:25.060 --> 00:31:25.380
 come

00:31:25.380 --> 00:31:25.800
 clean

00:31:25.800 --> 00:31:26.120
 before

00:31:26.120 --> 00:31:26.520
 God

00:31:26.520 --> 00:31:27.320
 and

00:31:27.320 --> 00:31:27.420
 you

00:31:27.420 --> 00:31:27.480
 know

00:31:27.480 --> 00:31:27.620
 he

00:31:27.620 --> 00:31:27.920
 writes

00:31:27.920 --> 00:31:28.240
 Psalm

00:31:28.240 --> 00:31:28.720
 51

00:31:28.720 --> 00:31:29.060
 which

00:31:29.060 --> 00:31:29.200
 is

00:31:29.200 --> 00:31:29.440
 this

00:31:29.440 --> 00:31:31.500
 confession

00:31:31.500 --> 00:31:32.460
 after

00:31:32.460 --> 00:31:32.700
 this

00:31:32.700 --> 00:31:33.220
 incident

00:31:33.220 --> 00:31:33.759
 with

00:31:33.759 --> 00:31:34.380
 Bathsheba

00:31:34.380 --> 00:31:34.540
 the

00:31:34.540 --> 00:31:35.100
 adultery

00:31:35.100 --> 00:31:35.480
 after

00:31:35.480 --> 00:31:35.780
 Nathan

00:31:35.780 --> 00:31:36.400
 confronts

00:31:36.400 --> 00:31:36.500
 him

00:31:36.500 --> 00:31:36.620
 and

00:31:36.620 --> 00:31:36.820
 here's

00:31:36.820 --> 00:31:36.940
 what

00:31:36.940 --> 00:31:37.060
 he

00:31:37.060 --> 00:31:37.380
 says

00:31:37.380 --> 00:31:38.320
 against

00:31:38.320 --> 00:31:38.840
 you

00:31:38.840 --> 00:31:39.580
 you

00:31:39.580 --> 00:31:40.140
 only

00:31:40.140 --> 00:31:40.580
 God

00:31:40.580 --> 00:31:40.840
 have

00:31:40.840 --> 00:31:41.040
 I

00:31:41.040 --> 00:31:41.380
 sinned

00:31:41.380 --> 00:31:41.520
 and

00:31:41.520 --> 00:31:41.740
 done

00:31:41.740 --> 00:31:41.960
 what

00:31:41.960 --> 00:31:42.120
 is

00:31:42.120 --> 00:31:42.500
 evil

00:31:42.500 --> 00:31:42.759
 in

00:31:42.759 --> 00:31:42.920
 your

00:31:42.920 --> 00:31:43.340
 sight

00:31:43.340 --> 00:31:44.200
 you

00:31:44.200 --> 00:31:44.860
 will

00:31:44.860 --> 00:31:45.040
 not

00:31:45.040 --> 00:31:45.380
 delight

00:31:45.380 --> 00:31:45.560
 in

00:31:45.560 --> 00:31:46.120
 sacrifice

00:31:46.120 --> 00:31:46.360
 you

00:31:46.360 --> 00:31:46.480
 see

00:31:46.480 --> 00:31:46.700
 what

00:31:46.700 --> 00:31:46.940
 Saul

00:31:46.940 --> 00:31:47.100
 was

00:31:47.100 --> 00:31:47.340
 doing

00:31:47.340 --> 00:31:48.060
 you

00:31:48.060 --> 00:31:48.180
 see

00:31:48.180 --> 00:31:48.360
 he

00:31:49.140 --> 00:31:51.200
 you

00:31:51.200 --> 00:31:51.520
 will

00:31:51.520 --> 00:31:51.800
 not

00:31:51.800 --> 00:31:52.020
 be

00:31:52.020 --> 00:31:52.460
 pleased

00:31:52.460 --> 00:31:52.620
 with

00:31:52.620 --> 00:31:52.759
 a

00:31:52.759 --> 00:31:52.940
 bird

00:31:52.940 --> 00:31:53.340
 offering

00:31:53.340 --> 00:31:54.700
 because

00:31:54.700 --> 00:31:55.120
 actually

00:31:55.120 --> 00:31:55.560
 the

00:31:55.560 --> 00:31:56.360
 sacrifices

00:31:56.360 --> 00:31:57.000
 of

00:31:57.000 --> 00:31:57.240
 God

00:31:57.240 --> 00:31:57.380
 are

00:31:57.380 --> 00:31:57.600
 actually

00:31:57.600 --> 00:31:57.759
 a

00:31:57.759 --> 00:31:58.040
 broken

00:31:58.040 --> 00:31:58.660
 spirit

00:31:58.660 --> 00:31:59.320
 they're

00:31:59.320 --> 00:31:59.460
 a

00:31:59.460 --> 00:31:59.820
 broken

00:31:59.820 --> 00:32:00.180
 and

00:32:00.180 --> 00:32:00.940
 contrite

00:32:00.940 --> 00:32:01.420
 heart

00:32:01.420 --> 00:32:02.080
 and

00:32:02.080 --> 00:32:02.440
 that's

00:32:02.440 --> 00:32:02.600
 what

00:32:02.600 --> 00:32:02.840
 God

00:32:02.840 --> 00:32:03.020
 you

00:32:03.020 --> 00:32:03.259
 don't

00:32:03.259 --> 00:32:03.900
 despise

00:32:03.900 --> 00:32:04.100
 he

00:32:04.100 --> 00:32:04.500
 says

00:32:04.500 --> 00:32:05.900
 can

00:32:05.900 --> 00:32:06.000
 you

00:32:06.000 --> 00:32:06.160
 see

00:32:06.160 --> 00:32:06.320
 how

00:32:06.320 --> 00:32:06.460
 the

00:32:06.460 --> 00:32:06.740
 difference

00:32:06.740 --> 00:32:06.920
 is

00:32:06.920 --> 00:32:07.100
 with

00:32:07.100 --> 00:32:07.360
 Saul

00:32:07.360 --> 00:32:08.140
 you

00:32:08.140 --> 00:32:08.240
 see

00:32:08.240 --> 00:32:08.460
 no

00:32:08.460 --> 00:32:09.020
 defensiveness

00:32:09.020 --> 00:32:09.380
 no

00:32:09.380 --> 00:32:09.640
 blame

00:32:09.640 --> 00:32:10.020
 shifting

00:32:10.020 --> 00:32:10.320
 no

00:32:10.320 --> 00:32:10.680
 covering

00:32:10.680 --> 00:32:10.880
 up

00:32:10.880 --> 00:32:11.360
 it's

00:32:11.360 --> 00:32:11.740
 total

00:32:11.740 --> 00:32:12.280
 honesty

00:32:12.280 --> 00:32:12.720
 before

00:32:12.720 --> 00:32:12.900
 a

00:32:12.900 --> 00:32:13.120
 holy

00:32:13.120 --> 00:32:13.500
 God

00:32:13.500 --> 00:32:15.300
 and

00:32:15.300 --> 00:32:15.400
 he

00:32:15.400 --> 00:32:15.580
 knows

00:32:15.580 --> 00:32:15.780
 God

00:32:15.780 --> 00:32:16.020
 looks

00:32:16.020 --> 00:32:16.140
 at

00:32:16.140 --> 00:32:16.240
 the

00:32:16.240 --> 00:32:16.500
 heart

00:32:16.500 --> 00:32:17.440
 and

00:32:17.440 --> 00:32:17.520
 he

00:32:17.519 --> 00:32:17.759
 doesn't

00:32:17.759 --> 00:32:18.279
 despise

00:32:18.279 --> 00:32:18.460
 the

00:32:18.460 --> 00:32:18.859
 honesty

00:32:18.859 --> 00:32:19.339
 he

00:32:19.339 --> 00:32:19.619
 doesn't

00:32:19.619 --> 00:32:20.220
 hold

00:32:20.220 --> 00:32:20.400
 on

00:32:20.400 --> 00:32:20.519
 to

00:32:20.519 --> 00:32:20.700
 his

00:32:20.700 --> 00:32:21.200
 face

00:32:21.200 --> 00:32:21.680
 for

00:32:21.680 --> 00:32:21.900
 it

00:32:21.900 --> 00:32:22.660
 you

00:32:22.660 --> 00:32:22.759
 know

00:32:22.759 --> 00:32:22.920
 there

00:32:22.920 --> 00:32:23.059
 was

00:32:23.059 --> 00:32:23.299
 a

00:32:23.299 --> 00:32:24.019
 New

00:32:24.019 --> 00:32:24.220
 Zealand

00:32:24.220 --> 00:32:24.660
 cricketer

00:32:24.660 --> 00:32:25.660
 called

00:32:25.660 --> 00:32:26.180
 Lou

00:32:26.180 --> 00:32:26.539
 Vincent

00:32:26.539 --> 00:32:27.799
 who got

00:32:27.799 --> 00:32:28.160
 caught

00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:28.500
 for

00:32:28.500 --> 00:32:29.139
 match

00:32:29.139 --> 00:32:29.639
 fixing

00:32:29.639 --> 00:32:30.619
 it's

00:32:30.619 --> 00:32:30.859
 kind of

00:32:30.859 --> 00:32:31.099
 taking

00:32:31.099 --> 00:32:31.460
 money

00:32:31.460 --> 00:32:31.759
 to

00:32:31.759 --> 00:32:32.139
 lose

00:32:32.139 --> 00:32:32.980
 matches

00:32:32.980 --> 00:32:33.660
 and

00:32:33.660 --> 00:32:34.460
 Jeremy

00:32:34.460 --> 00:32:34.940
 can

00:32:34.940 --> 00:32:35.379
 put up

00:32:35.379 --> 00:32:35.460
 a

00:32:35.460 --> 00:32:35.700
 slide

00:32:35.700 --> 00:32:36.619
 and

00:32:36.619 --> 00:32:37.440
 here's

00:32:37.440 --> 00:32:37.579
 what

00:32:37.579 --> 00:32:37.680
 he

00:32:37.680 --> 00:32:38.000
 said

00:32:38.000 --> 00:32:38.220
 when

00:32:38.220 --> 00:32:38.400
 he

00:32:38.400 --> 00:32:38.960
 got

00:32:38.960 --> 00:32:39.299
 caught

00:32:39.299 --> 00:32:39.500
 and

00:32:39.500 --> 00:32:39.619
 he

00:32:39.619 --> 00:32:40.519
 confessed

00:32:40.519 --> 00:32:40.779
 his

00:32:40.779 --> 00:32:40.940
 sin

00:32:40.940 --> 00:32:41.079
 he

00:32:41.079 --> 00:32:41.420
 started

00:32:41.420 --> 00:32:41.660
 like

00:32:41.660 --> 00:32:41.980
 this

00:32:41.980 --> 00:32:47.559
 wow

00:32:47.559 --> 00:32:49.160
 that

00:32:49.160 --> 00:32:50.000
 is

00:32:50.000 --> 00:32:50.140
 a

00:32:50.140 --> 00:32:50.680
 true

00:32:50.680 --> 00:32:52.400
 apology

00:32:52.400 --> 00:32:53.279
 that's

00:32:53.279 --> 00:32:53.380
 the

00:32:53.380 --> 00:32:53.579
 kind

00:32:53.579 --> 00:32:53.660
 of

00:32:53.660 --> 00:32:54.059
 honesty

00:32:54.059 --> 00:32:54.299
 we

00:32:54.299 --> 00:32:54.440
 need

00:32:54.440 --> 00:32:54.559
 to

00:32:54.559 --> 00:32:54.759
 have

00:32:54.759 --> 00:32:54.860
 in

00:32:54.860 --> 00:32:55.019
 our

00:32:55.019 --> 00:32:55.539
 relationships

00:32:55.539 --> 00:32:55.819
 with

00:32:55.819 --> 00:32:56.140
 God

00:32:56.140 --> 00:32:56.680
 and

00:32:56.680 --> 00:32:56.880
 each

00:32:56.880 --> 00:32:57.180
 other

00:32:57.180 --> 00:32:57.839
 to

00:32:57.839 --> 00:32:58.039
 my

00:32:58.039 --> 00:32:58.400
 wife

00:32:58.400 --> 00:32:58.539
 I

00:32:58.539 --> 00:32:58.680
 need

00:32:58.680 --> 00:32:58.779
 to

00:32:58.779 --> 00:32:58.880
 go

00:32:58.880 --> 00:32:59.059
 hey

00:32:59.059 --> 00:32:59.220
 I

00:32:59.220 --> 00:32:59.500
 forgot

00:32:59.500 --> 00:32:59.720
 to

00:32:59.720 --> 00:33:00.000
 text

00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:00.160
 you

00:33:00.160 --> 00:33:00.420
 because

00:33:00.420 --> 00:33:00.599
 I

00:33:00.599 --> 00:33:00.720
 was

00:33:00.720 --> 00:33:00.920
 more

00:33:00.920 --> 00:33:01.460
 concerned

00:33:01.460 --> 00:33:01.960
 with

00:33:01.960 --> 00:33:02.099
 what

00:33:02.099 --> 00:33:02.240
 I

00:33:02.240 --> 00:33:02.360
 was

00:33:02.360 --> 00:33:02.599
 doing

00:33:02.599 --> 00:33:02.759
 than

00:33:02.759 --> 00:33:03.099
 loving

00:33:03.099 --> 00:33:03.460
 you

00:33:03.460 --> 00:33:05.360
 that

00:33:05.360 --> 00:33:05.539
 is

00:33:05.539 --> 00:33:05.799
 super

00:33:05.799 --> 00:33:06.240
 scary

00:33:06.240 --> 00:33:07.019
 but

00:33:07.019 --> 00:33:07.160
 that

00:33:07.160 --> 00:33:07.299
 is

00:33:07.299 --> 00:33:07.599
 also

00:33:07.599 --> 00:33:08.400
 freeing

00:33:08.400 --> 00:33:08.960
 because

00:33:08.960 --> 00:33:09.160
 I've

00:33:09.160 --> 00:33:09.299
 got

00:33:09.299 --> 00:33:09.599
 nothing

00:33:09.599 --> 00:33:09.819
 to

00:33:09.819 --> 00:33:10.099
 hide

00:33:10.099 --> 00:33:10.299
 any

00:33:10.299 --> 00:33:10.579
 longer

00:33:10.579 --> 00:33:11.139
 I'm

00:33:11.139 --> 00:33:11.539
 totally

00:33:11.539 --> 00:33:11.720
 in

00:33:11.720 --> 00:33:11.859
 the

00:33:11.859 --> 00:33:12.240
 light

00:33:12.240 --> 00:33:12.779
 and

00:33:12.779 --> 00:33:13.019
 that

00:33:13.019 --> 00:33:13.159
 is

00:33:13.159 --> 00:33:13.279
 a

00:33:13.279 --> 00:33:13.519
 place

00:33:13.519 --> 00:33:13.679
 of

00:33:13.679 --> 00:33:14.039
 freedom

00:33:14.039 --> 00:33:14.839
 you

00:33:14.839 --> 00:33:15.099
 see

00:33:15.099 --> 00:33:15.639
 true

00:33:15.639 --> 00:33:16.139
 repentance

00:33:16.139 --> 00:33:16.899
 faces

00:33:16.899 --> 00:33:17.159
 its

00:33:17.159 --> 00:33:17.460
 sin

00:33:17.460 --> 00:33:18.379
 honestly

00:33:18.379 --> 00:33:18.720
 and

00:33:18.720 --> 00:33:19.000
 looks

00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:19.139
 in

00:33:19.139 --> 00:33:19.259
 the

00:33:19.259 --> 00:33:19.639
 heart

00:33:19.639 --> 00:33:20.500
 but

00:33:20.500 --> 00:33:20.779
 secondly

00:33:20.779 --> 00:33:21.000
 the

00:33:21.000 --> 00:33:21.299
 true

00:33:21.299 --> 00:33:21.740
 repentance

00:33:21.740 --> 00:33:22.319
 is

00:33:22.319 --> 00:33:22.659
 also

00:33:22.659 --> 00:33:23.539
 relational

00:33:23.539 --> 00:33:24.619
 notice

00:33:24.619 --> 00:33:24.799
 he

00:33:24.799 --> 00:33:25.019
 says

00:33:25.019 --> 00:33:25.599
 against

00:33:25.599 --> 00:33:26.059
 you

00:33:26.059 --> 00:33:26.519
 God

00:33:26.519 --> 00:33:27.079
 you

00:33:27.079 --> 00:33:27.740
 only

00:33:27.740 --> 00:33:28.179
 have

00:33:28.179 --> 00:33:28.379
 I

00:33:28.379 --> 00:33:29.000
 sinned

00:33:29.000 --> 00:33:29.220
 and

00:33:29.220 --> 00:33:29.359
 done

00:33:29.359 --> 00:33:29.480
 what

00:33:29.480 --> 00:33:29.599
 is

00:33:29.599 --> 00:33:29.779
 evil

00:33:29.779 --> 00:33:29.919
 in

00:33:29.919 --> 00:33:30.059
 your

00:33:30.059 --> 00:33:30.399
 sight

00:33:30.399 --> 00:33:31.039
 you

00:33:31.039 --> 00:33:31.139
 see

00:33:31.139 --> 00:33:31.460
 this

00:33:31.460 --> 00:33:31.579
 is

00:33:31.579 --> 00:33:31.759
 the

00:33:31.759 --> 00:33:32.119
 difference

00:33:32.119 --> 00:33:32.480
 between

00:33:32.480 --> 00:33:33.139
 remorse

00:33:33.139 --> 00:33:33.419
 and

00:33:33.419 --> 00:33:33.919
 repentance

00:33:33.919 --> 00:33:34.480
 you

00:33:34.480 --> 00:33:34.599
 see

00:33:34.599 --> 00:33:35.039
 remorse

00:33:35.039 --> 00:33:35.579
 grieves

00:33:35.579 --> 00:33:35.939
 and feel

00:33:35.939 --> 00:33:36.319
 bad

00:33:36.319 --> 00:33:36.579
 that it

00:33:36.579 --> 00:33:36.799
 got

00:33:36.799 --> 00:33:37.419
 caught

00:33:37.420 --> 00:33:38.820
 repentance

00:33:38.820 --> 00:33:39.640
 grieves

00:33:39.640 --> 00:33:40.560
 the relational

00:33:40.560 --> 00:33:41.060
 damage

00:33:41.060 --> 00:33:41.600
 of sin

00:33:41.600 --> 00:33:42.360
 and seeks

00:33:42.360 --> 00:33:43.100
 to change

00:33:43.100 --> 00:33:44.340
 remorse

00:33:44.340 --> 00:33:44.779
 sees sin

00:33:44.779 --> 00:33:45.220
 of breaking

00:33:45.220 --> 00:33:45.779
 a rule

00:33:45.779 --> 00:33:46.620
 letting

00:33:46.620 --> 00:33:47.100
 yourself

00:33:47.100 --> 00:33:47.500
 down

00:33:47.500 --> 00:33:48.420
 repentance

00:33:48.420 --> 00:33:49.039
 knows

00:33:49.039 --> 00:33:49.680
 sin

00:33:49.680 --> 00:33:50.019
 isn't

00:33:50.019 --> 00:33:50.340
 breaking

00:33:50.340 --> 00:33:50.680
 a rule

00:33:50.680 --> 00:33:50.920
 it's

00:33:50.920 --> 00:33:51.220
 breaking

00:33:51.220 --> 00:33:51.380
 a

00:33:51.380 --> 00:33:52.039
 relationship

00:33:52.039 --> 00:33:53.740
 David

00:33:53.740 --> 00:33:54.259
 is more

00:33:54.259 --> 00:33:54.740
 concerned

00:33:54.740 --> 00:33:55.000
 about

00:33:55.000 --> 00:33:55.519
 grieving

00:33:55.519 --> 00:33:56.200
 God

00:33:56.200 --> 00:33:56.600
 himself

00:33:56.600 --> 00:33:56.820
 than

00:33:56.820 --> 00:33:57.019
 just

00:33:57.019 --> 00:33:57.440
 failing

00:33:57.440 --> 00:33:57.820
 to be

00:33:57.820 --> 00:33:58.120
 a good

00:33:58.120 --> 00:33:58.680
 Christian

00:33:58.680 --> 00:33:59.800
 you see

00:33:59.800 --> 00:33:59.960
 it's

00:33:59.960 --> 00:34:00.500
 relational

00:34:00.500 --> 00:34:02.859
 but

00:34:02.859 --> 00:34:03.200
 here's

00:34:03.200 --> 00:34:03.339
 the

00:34:03.339 --> 00:34:03.539
 thing

00:34:03.539 --> 00:34:03.759
 about

00:34:03.759 --> 00:34:03.920
 the

00:34:03.920 --> 00:34:04.460
 relationship

00:34:04.460 --> 00:34:06.480
 repentance

00:34:06.480 --> 00:34:07.200
 is

00:34:07.200 --> 00:34:07.920
 fueled

00:34:07.920 --> 00:34:08.739
 not

00:34:08.739 --> 00:34:08.960
 just

00:34:08.960 --> 00:34:09.099
 by

00:34:09.099 --> 00:34:09.260
 out

00:34:09.260 --> 00:34:09.360
 of

00:34:09.360 --> 00:34:09.739
 relational

00:34:09.739 --> 00:34:10.400
 fear

00:34:10.400 --> 00:34:10.980
 it's

00:34:10.980 --> 00:34:11.199
 actually

00:34:11.199 --> 00:34:11.719
 fueled

00:34:11.719 --> 00:34:11.940
 by

00:34:11.940 --> 00:34:12.500
 relational

00:34:12.500 --> 00:34:13.219
 joy

00:34:13.219 --> 00:34:14.440
 you see

00:34:14.440 --> 00:34:14.880
 later on

00:34:14.880 --> 00:34:15.219
 he goes

00:34:15.219 --> 00:34:15.860
 restore

00:34:15.860 --> 00:34:16.360
 to me

00:34:16.360 --> 00:34:17.679
 the joy

00:34:17.679 --> 00:34:18.639
 of my

00:34:18.639 --> 00:34:19.559
 salvation

00:34:19.559 --> 00:34:20.519
 you see

00:34:20.519 --> 00:34:21.239
 every time

00:34:21.239 --> 00:34:22.139
 you and I

00:34:22.139 --> 00:34:22.659
 are like

00:34:22.659 --> 00:34:23.039
 Saul

00:34:23.039 --> 00:34:23.820
 are defensive

00:34:23.820 --> 00:34:24.380
 blame

00:34:24.380 --> 00:34:24.780
 shifting

00:34:24.780 --> 00:34:25.480
 dishonest

00:34:25.480 --> 00:34:25.760
 self

00:34:25.760 --> 00:34:26.219
 justifying

00:34:26.219 --> 00:34:26.539
 all those

00:34:26.539 --> 00:34:26.820
 kind of

00:34:26.820 --> 00:34:27.059
 things

00:34:27.059 --> 00:34:27.440
 it's

00:34:27.440 --> 00:34:27.679
 because

00:34:27.679 --> 00:34:27.900
 we're

00:34:27.900 --> 00:34:28.260
 afraid

00:34:28.260 --> 00:34:29.420
 we're

00:34:29.420 --> 00:34:29.719
 afraid

00:34:29.719 --> 00:34:30.059
 that the

00:34:30.059 --> 00:34:30.480
 monument

00:34:30.480 --> 00:34:30.860
 we've

00:34:30.860 --> 00:34:31.000
 built

00:34:31.000 --> 00:34:31.199
 to

00:34:31.199 --> 00:34:31.659
 ourselves

00:34:31.659 --> 00:34:32.320
 is

00:34:32.320 --> 00:34:32.579
 going

00:34:32.579 --> 00:34:33.019
 to

00:34:33.019 --> 00:34:33.960
 topple

00:34:33.960 --> 00:34:34.199
 our

00:34:34.199 --> 00:34:34.440
 sense

00:34:34.440 --> 00:34:34.599
 of

00:34:34.599 --> 00:34:34.880
 self

00:34:34.880 --> 00:34:35.299
 respect

00:34:35.299 --> 00:34:35.500
 our

00:34:35.500 --> 00:34:35.699
 sense

00:34:35.699 --> 00:34:35.860
 of

00:34:35.860 --> 00:34:36.179
 self

00:34:36.179 --> 00:34:36.539
 honor

00:34:36.539 --> 00:34:36.940
 a

00:34:36.940 --> 00:34:37.159
 sense

00:34:37.159 --> 00:34:37.380
 of

00:34:37.380 --> 00:34:37.719
 shame

00:34:37.719 --> 00:34:37.920
 may

00:34:37.920 --> 00:34:38.039
 be

00:34:38.039 --> 00:34:38.739
 trampled

00:34:38.739 --> 00:34:38.920
 them

00:34:38.920 --> 00:34:39.500
 and that

00:34:39.500 --> 00:34:39.980
 statue

00:34:39.980 --> 00:34:40.579
 may be

00:34:40.579 --> 00:34:41.299
 toppled

00:34:41.299 --> 00:34:42.460
 and we'll

00:34:42.460 --> 00:34:43.099
 be condemned

00:34:43.099 --> 00:34:43.779
 or judged

00:34:43.779 --> 00:34:44.500
 or shamed

00:34:44.500 --> 00:34:45.400
 in our eyes

00:34:45.400 --> 00:34:45.759
 and everyone

00:34:45.759 --> 00:34:46.659
 else's eyes

00:34:46.659 --> 00:34:47.360
 you see

00:34:47.360 --> 00:34:47.699
 actually

00:34:47.699 --> 00:34:48.400
 defensiveness

00:34:48.400 --> 00:34:49.659
 is simply

00:34:49.659 --> 00:34:50.639
 a fruit

00:34:50.639 --> 00:34:51.139
 of people

00:34:51.139 --> 00:34:51.519
 pleasing

00:34:51.519 --> 00:34:52.659
 it's a fruit

00:34:52.659 --> 00:34:53.440
 of insecurity

00:34:53.440 --> 00:34:53.840
 pleasing

00:34:53.840 --> 00:34:54.259
 ourselves

00:34:54.259 --> 00:34:54.699
 and pleasing

00:34:54.699 --> 00:34:55.340
 other people

00:34:55.340 --> 00:34:56.179
 with looking

00:34:56.179 --> 00:34:56.719
 good in

00:34:56.719 --> 00:34:57.079
 front of

00:34:57.079 --> 00:34:57.299
 them

00:34:57.299 --> 00:34:58.299
 but the

00:34:58.299 --> 00:34:58.719
 gospel

00:34:58.719 --> 00:35:00.699
 the gospel

00:35:00.699 --> 00:35:01.159
 says

00:35:01.159 --> 00:35:02.039
 the joy

00:35:02.039 --> 00:35:02.619
 of our

00:35:02.619 --> 00:35:03.199
 salvation

00:35:03.199 --> 00:35:04.099
 is this

00:35:04.099 --> 00:35:05.899
 that when

00:35:05.899 --> 00:35:06.359
 we were

00:35:06.359 --> 00:35:07.079
 still sinners

00:35:07.079 --> 00:35:07.659
 Christ

00:35:07.659 --> 00:35:08.299
 died

00:35:08.299 --> 00:35:09.679
 for us

00:35:09.679 --> 00:35:10.480
 you are

00:35:10.480 --> 00:35:11.179
 fully known

00:35:11.179 --> 00:35:11.779
 right at the

00:35:11.779 --> 00:35:12.299
 messiest

00:35:12.299 --> 00:35:13.259
 core of

00:35:13.259 --> 00:35:14.059
 your heart

00:35:14.059 --> 00:35:15.159
 and yet

00:35:15.159 --> 00:35:15.599
 you're fully

00:35:15.599 --> 00:35:16.139
 loved

00:35:16.139 --> 00:35:17.359
 do you remember

00:35:17.359 --> 00:35:18.480
 Adam and Eve

00:35:18.480 --> 00:35:20.059
 when they were

00:35:20.059 --> 00:35:20.839
 naked in the

00:35:20.839 --> 00:35:21.179
 garden

00:35:21.179 --> 00:35:21.980
 from their

00:35:21.980 --> 00:35:22.419
 shame and

00:35:22.419 --> 00:35:22.799
 their sin

00:35:22.799 --> 00:35:23.099
 and they

00:35:23.099 --> 00:35:23.699
 sought to

00:35:23.699 --> 00:35:24.339
 cover themselves

00:35:24.339 --> 00:35:24.759
 up

00:35:24.759 --> 00:35:25.359
 but you know

00:35:25.360 --> 00:35:25.800
 what happens

00:35:25.800 --> 00:35:26.700
 God comes

00:35:26.700 --> 00:35:27.079
 to them

00:35:27.079 --> 00:35:28.519
 he exposes

00:35:28.519 --> 00:35:29.059
 them with a

00:35:29.059 --> 00:35:29.440
 question

00:35:29.440 --> 00:35:30.360
 he confronts

00:35:30.360 --> 00:35:30.640
 them with

00:35:30.640 --> 00:35:31.099
 their sin

00:35:31.099 --> 00:35:31.840
 and then he

00:35:31.840 --> 00:35:32.400
 does what

00:35:32.400 --> 00:35:32.920
 they could

00:35:32.920 --> 00:35:33.260
 not do

00:35:33.260 --> 00:35:33.920
 for themselves

00:35:33.920 --> 00:35:34.720
 he makes

00:35:34.720 --> 00:35:35.740
 coverings for

00:35:35.740 --> 00:35:36.120
 them of

00:35:36.120 --> 00:35:36.880
 animal skin

00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:37.840
 to cover

00:35:37.840 --> 00:35:38.500
 their shame

00:35:38.500 --> 00:35:40.099
 you see

00:35:40.099 --> 00:35:40.800
 Christ on the

00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:41.320
 cross was

00:35:41.320 --> 00:35:42.059
 stripped naked

00:35:42.059 --> 00:35:43.059
 he was

00:35:43.059 --> 00:35:43.480
 shamed

00:35:43.480 --> 00:35:44.280
 humiliated

00:35:44.280 --> 00:35:45.240
 and condemned

00:35:45.240 --> 00:35:46.680
 though his

00:35:46.680 --> 00:35:47.160
 heart was

00:35:47.160 --> 00:35:47.960
 fully pleasing

00:35:47.960 --> 00:35:48.840
 to God

00:35:48.840 --> 00:35:50.760
 so that we

00:35:50.760 --> 00:35:51.340
 might come

00:35:51.340 --> 00:35:52.039
 into this

00:35:52.039 --> 00:35:52.700
 relationship

00:35:52.699 --> 00:35:53.559
 with God

00:35:53.559 --> 00:35:54.359
 and know

00:35:54.359 --> 00:35:55.339
 his voice

00:35:55.339 --> 00:35:56.759
 not everybody

00:35:56.759 --> 00:35:57.279
 else's

00:35:57.279 --> 00:35:57.819
 but his

00:35:57.819 --> 00:35:58.199
 voice

00:35:58.199 --> 00:35:58.759
 which says

00:35:58.759 --> 00:35:59.299
 you are my

00:35:59.299 --> 00:35:59.939
 precious

00:35:59.939 --> 00:36:01.000
 you are precious

00:36:01.000 --> 00:36:01.579
 and honoured

00:36:01.579 --> 00:36:02.279
 in my sight

00:36:02.279 --> 00:36:03.599
 and I love

00:36:03.599 --> 00:36:04.019
 you

00:36:04.019 --> 00:36:06.500
 you know

00:36:06.500 --> 00:36:06.799
 Alan

00:36:06.799 --> 00:36:08.480
 told me about

00:36:08.480 --> 00:36:09.719
 his high school

00:36:09.719 --> 00:36:10.239
 principal

00:36:10.239 --> 00:36:10.699
 I think it was

00:36:10.699 --> 00:36:11.239
 called Reverend

00:36:11.239 --> 00:36:11.639
 Howard

00:36:11.639 --> 00:36:13.960
 who was

00:36:13.960 --> 00:36:14.879
 so loved

00:36:14.879 --> 00:36:15.439
 by all the

00:36:15.439 --> 00:36:16.199
 boys in his

00:36:16.199 --> 00:36:16.599
 school

00:36:16.599 --> 00:36:17.519
 because they

00:36:17.519 --> 00:36:17.960
 knew

00:36:17.960 --> 00:36:19.139
 how much

00:36:19.139 --> 00:36:19.460
 Reverend

00:36:19.460 --> 00:36:20.259
 Howard loved

00:36:20.259 --> 00:36:20.439
 them

00:36:20.439 --> 00:36:20.919
 he really

00:36:20.919 --> 00:36:21.599
 cared about

00:36:21.599 --> 00:36:21.779
 them

00:36:21.779 --> 00:36:22.419
 individually

00:36:22.420 --> 00:36:23.800
 and very

00:36:23.800 --> 00:36:24.500
 practically

00:36:24.500 --> 00:36:26.220
 so if

00:36:26.220 --> 00:36:26.940
 he ever

00:36:26.940 --> 00:36:27.380
 scolded

00:36:27.380 --> 00:36:27.900
 any of the

00:36:27.900 --> 00:36:28.159
 boys

00:36:28.159 --> 00:36:29.159
 Alan told

00:36:29.159 --> 00:36:29.420
 me that

00:36:29.420 --> 00:36:30.119
 18 year

00:36:30.119 --> 00:36:30.760
 old boys

00:36:30.760 --> 00:36:31.519
 would break

00:36:31.519 --> 00:36:32.079
 down in

00:36:32.079 --> 00:36:32.480
 tears

00:36:32.480 --> 00:36:33.220
 before him

00:36:33.220 --> 00:36:34.220
 not from

00:36:34.220 --> 00:36:35.019
 the scolding

00:36:35.019 --> 00:36:35.760
 but because

00:36:35.760 --> 00:36:37.420
 they had

00:36:37.420 --> 00:36:38.039
 hurt and

00:36:38.039 --> 00:36:38.760
 disappointed

00:36:38.760 --> 00:36:39.180
 the one

00:36:39.180 --> 00:36:39.740
 they knew

00:36:39.740 --> 00:36:40.400
 who loved

00:36:40.400 --> 00:36:40.780
 them so

00:36:40.780 --> 00:36:41.039
 much

00:36:41.039 --> 00:36:41.380
 they were

00:36:41.380 --> 00:36:41.880
 afraid

00:36:41.880 --> 00:36:42.760
 of

00:36:42.760 --> 00:36:43.559
 displeasing

00:36:43.559 --> 00:36:43.940
 him

00:36:43.940 --> 00:36:44.599
 but it

00:36:44.599 --> 00:36:45.019
 wasn't a

00:36:45.019 --> 00:36:45.539
 crippling

00:36:45.539 --> 00:36:46.019
 fear

00:36:46.019 --> 00:36:46.840
 it was a

00:36:46.840 --> 00:36:47.340
 fear of

00:36:47.340 --> 00:36:47.820
 breaking

00:36:47.820 --> 00:36:48.180
 this

00:36:48.180 --> 00:36:48.800
 treasured

00:36:48.800 --> 00:36:49.380
 relationship

00:36:49.380 --> 00:36:49.820
 that they

00:36:49.820 --> 00:36:50.280
 had

00:36:50.280 --> 00:36:51.619
 you see

00:36:51.619 --> 00:36:52.000
 that's how

00:36:52.000 --> 00:36:52.440
 repentance

00:36:52.440 --> 00:36:53.059
 works with

00:36:53.059 --> 00:36:53.460
 God

00:36:53.460 --> 00:36:54.199
 it's

00:36:54.199 --> 00:36:55.259
 Christ's

00:36:55.259 --> 00:36:55.839
 love for

00:36:55.839 --> 00:36:56.019
 you

00:36:56.019 --> 00:36:56.539
 the joy

00:36:56.539 --> 00:36:57.019
 of your

00:36:57.019 --> 00:36:57.500
 salvation

00:36:57.500 --> 00:36:58.019
 of knowing

00:36:58.019 --> 00:36:58.259
 him

00:36:58.259 --> 00:36:58.739
 that is

00:36:58.739 --> 00:36:59.400
 the fuel

00:36:59.400 --> 00:37:00.719
 that is

00:37:00.719 --> 00:37:01.079
 the fuel

00:37:01.079 --> 00:37:01.359
 that will

00:37:01.359 --> 00:37:01.779
 make your

00:37:01.779 --> 00:37:02.219
 heart

00:37:02.219 --> 00:37:02.900
 desire

00:37:02.900 --> 00:37:03.679
 to look

00:37:03.679 --> 00:37:04.119
 good in

00:37:04.119 --> 00:37:04.799
 his eyes

00:37:04.799 --> 00:37:05.159
 more than

00:37:05.159 --> 00:37:06.000
 other people's

00:37:06.000 --> 00:37:06.440
 eyes

00:37:06.440 --> 00:37:07.380
 or your

00:37:07.380 --> 00:37:08.219
 own eyes

00:37:08.219 --> 00:37:09.759
 it's that

00:37:09.759 --> 00:37:10.239
 that when you

00:37:10.239 --> 00:37:10.839
 are confronted

00:37:10.839 --> 00:37:11.400
 by others

00:37:11.400 --> 00:37:12.039
 when you're

00:37:12.039 --> 00:37:12.579
 criticized

00:37:12.579 --> 00:37:13.719
 or confronted

00:37:13.719 --> 00:37:14.239
 by God

00:37:14.239 --> 00:37:14.599
 or even

00:37:14.599 --> 00:37:15.219
 by your own

00:37:15.219 --> 00:37:15.659
 thoughts

00:37:15.659 --> 00:37:16.159
 that gives

00:37:16.159 --> 00:37:16.420
 you the

00:37:16.420 --> 00:37:16.900
 security

00:37:16.900 --> 00:37:17.639
 to listen

00:37:17.639 --> 00:37:18.079
 well

00:37:18.079 --> 00:37:18.759
 to be

00:37:18.759 --> 00:37:19.179
 brutally

00:37:19.179 --> 00:37:19.759
 honest

00:37:19.759 --> 00:37:20.440
 it's

00:37:20.440 --> 00:37:20.739
 that

00:37:20.739 --> 00:37:20.940
 that

00:37:20.940 --> 00:37:21.159
 makes

00:37:21.159 --> 00:37:21.299
 you

00:37:21.299 --> 00:37:21.940
 afraid

00:37:21.940 --> 00:37:22.619
 not

00:37:22.619 --> 00:37:22.759
 of

00:37:22.759 --> 00:37:22.919
 other

00:37:22.919 --> 00:37:23.139
 people

00:37:23.139 --> 00:37:23.539
 finding

00:37:23.539 --> 00:37:23.799
 out

00:37:23.799 --> 00:37:24.039
 about

00:37:24.039 --> 00:37:24.219
 your

00:37:24.219 --> 00:37:24.359
 sin

00:37:24.359 --> 00:37:24.519
 but

00:37:24.519 --> 00:37:24.879
 afraid

00:37:24.879 --> 00:37:25.059
 of

00:37:25.059 --> 00:37:25.719
 justifying

00:37:25.719 --> 00:37:25.919
 your

00:37:25.919 --> 00:37:26.099
 sin

00:37:26.099 --> 00:37:26.379
 because

00:37:26.379 --> 00:37:26.699
 you know

00:37:26.699 --> 00:37:27.119
 it breaks

00:37:27.119 --> 00:37:27.559
 God's

00:37:27.559 --> 00:37:27.940
 heart

00:37:27.940 --> 00:37:29.619
 and you

00:37:29.619 --> 00:37:29.779
 know

00:37:29.779 --> 00:37:29.960
 his

00:37:29.960 --> 00:37:30.419
 deep

00:37:30.419 --> 00:37:30.719
 love

00:37:30.719 --> 00:37:31.219
 for you

00:37:31.219 --> 00:37:32.799
 and you

00:37:32.799 --> 00:37:33.000
 don't

00:37:33.000 --> 00:37:33.239
 want

00:37:33.239 --> 00:37:33.679
 that

00:37:33.679 --> 00:37:34.980
 and it's

00:37:34.980 --> 00:37:35.419
 that

00:37:35.419 --> 00:37:36.039
 desire

00:37:36.039 --> 00:37:36.559
 to come

00:37:36.559 --> 00:37:37.019
 back

00:37:37.019 --> 00:37:37.500
 into that

00:37:37.500 --> 00:37:38.099
 restored

00:37:38.099 --> 00:37:38.719
 relationship

00:37:38.719 --> 00:37:39.399
 to enjoy

00:37:39.399 --> 00:37:39.759
 God

00:37:39.759 --> 00:37:40.279
 again

00:37:40.279 --> 00:37:41.299
 in communion

00:37:41.299 --> 00:37:41.819
 with him

00:37:41.819 --> 00:37:42.559
 that is

00:37:42.559 --> 00:37:42.960
 meant to

00:37:42.960 --> 00:37:43.519
 lead us

00:37:43.519 --> 00:37:44.299
 and move

00:37:44.299 --> 00:37:44.539
 us

00:37:44.539 --> 00:37:44.879
 towards

00:37:44.879 --> 00:37:45.339
 God

00:37:45.339 --> 00:37:46.099
 and towards

00:37:46.099 --> 00:37:46.919
 change

00:37:46.920 --> 00:37:48.840
 you know

00:37:48.840 --> 00:37:49.400
 it says

00:37:49.400 --> 00:37:50.059
 in 2

00:37:50.059 --> 00:37:50.400
 Corinthians

00:37:50.400 --> 00:37:50.920
 it says

00:37:50.920 --> 00:37:51.760
 worldly

00:37:51.760 --> 00:37:52.180
 sorrow

00:37:52.180 --> 00:37:52.680
 leads to

00:37:52.680 --> 00:37:53.159
 death

00:37:53.159 --> 00:37:53.659
 the

00:37:53.659 --> 00:37:54.400
 non-apology

00:37:54.400 --> 00:37:54.920
 leads to

00:37:54.920 --> 00:37:55.360
 death

00:37:55.360 --> 00:37:56.420
 but godly

00:37:56.420 --> 00:37:56.780
 sorrow

00:37:56.780 --> 00:37:57.320
 which is

00:37:57.320 --> 00:37:57.680
 from the

00:37:57.680 --> 00:37:57.940
 heart

00:37:57.940 --> 00:37:58.500
 leads to

00:37:58.500 --> 00:37:59.079
 life

00:37:59.079 --> 00:38:01.159
 and here

00:38:01.159 --> 00:38:02.000
 the final

00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:02.480
 thing that

00:38:02.480 --> 00:38:02.900
 repentance

00:38:02.900 --> 00:38:03.220
 does

00:38:03.220 --> 00:38:03.619
 repentance

00:38:03.619 --> 00:38:04.099
 is brutally

00:38:04.099 --> 00:38:04.519
 honest

00:38:04.519 --> 00:38:05.019
 repentance

00:38:05.019 --> 00:38:05.760
 is relational

00:38:05.760 --> 00:38:06.099
 but it's

00:38:06.099 --> 00:38:06.400
 out of

00:38:06.400 --> 00:38:07.360
 relational

00:38:07.360 --> 00:38:07.960
 joy

00:38:07.960 --> 00:38:10.400
 and repentance

00:38:10.400 --> 00:38:11.579
 moves

00:38:11.579 --> 00:38:12.079
 towards

00:38:12.079 --> 00:38:12.880
 change

00:38:12.880 --> 00:38:13.539
 you see

00:38:13.539 --> 00:38:13.860
 what David

00:38:13.860 --> 00:38:14.300
 says

00:38:14.300 --> 00:38:15.519
 he says

00:38:15.519 --> 00:38:16.920
 restore to me

00:38:16.920 --> 00:38:17.380
 the joy

00:38:17.380 --> 00:38:17.739
 of my

00:38:17.739 --> 00:38:18.300
 salvation

00:38:18.300 --> 00:38:19.500
 uphold me

00:38:19.500 --> 00:38:20.000
 with a

00:38:20.000 --> 00:38:20.280
 willing

00:38:20.280 --> 00:38:20.880
 spirit

00:38:20.880 --> 00:38:21.639
 then I

00:38:21.639 --> 00:38:22.219
 will teach

00:38:22.219 --> 00:38:22.900
 transgressors

00:38:22.900 --> 00:38:23.400
 your ways

00:38:23.400 --> 00:38:24.239
 and sinners

00:38:24.239 --> 00:38:24.940
 will return

00:38:24.940 --> 00:38:25.579
 to you

00:38:25.579 --> 00:38:26.500
 he's saying

00:38:26.500 --> 00:38:27.000
 repentance

00:38:27.000 --> 00:38:27.480
 is a

00:38:27.480 --> 00:38:28.099
 direction

00:38:28.099 --> 00:38:28.980
 change

00:38:28.980 --> 00:38:30.239
 it's not

00:38:30.239 --> 00:38:30.599
 just saying

00:38:30.599 --> 00:38:31.099
 sorry

00:38:31.099 --> 00:38:31.739
 it's actually

00:38:31.739 --> 00:38:33.000
 turning from

00:38:33.000 --> 00:38:33.300
 you

00:38:33.300 --> 00:38:34.099
 turning to

00:38:34.099 --> 00:38:34.500
 God

00:38:34.500 --> 00:38:35.199
 and saying

00:38:35.199 --> 00:38:35.880
 I want to

00:38:35.880 --> 00:38:36.320
 come to

00:38:36.320 --> 00:38:36.840
 you

00:38:36.840 --> 00:38:37.780
 with my

00:38:37.780 --> 00:38:37.940
 life

00:38:37.940 --> 00:38:38.360
 I want

00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:38.559
 this

00:38:38.559 --> 00:38:39.059
 relationship

00:38:39.059 --> 00:38:39.559
 restored

00:38:39.559 --> 00:38:39.920
 with you

00:38:39.920 --> 00:38:40.420
 and out

00:38:40.420 --> 00:38:40.960
 of that

00:38:40.960 --> 00:38:41.920
 will flow

00:38:41.920 --> 00:38:42.980
 behavioural

00:38:42.980 --> 00:38:43.500
 change

00:38:43.500 --> 00:38:44.280
 over time

00:38:44.280 --> 00:38:45.840
 Saul

00:38:45.840 --> 00:38:46.120
 had a

00:38:46.120 --> 00:38:46.400
 pattern

00:38:46.400 --> 00:38:46.660
 of

00:38:46.660 --> 00:38:46.960
 people

00:38:46.960 --> 00:38:47.360
 pleasing

00:38:47.360 --> 00:38:48.680
 I

00:38:48.680 --> 00:38:49.080
 recently

00:38:49.080 --> 00:38:49.580
 realised

00:38:49.580 --> 00:38:49.900
 that

00:38:49.900 --> 00:38:50.360
 I'm

00:38:50.360 --> 00:38:50.500
 the

00:38:50.500 --> 00:38:50.760
 same

00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:51.280
 in

00:38:51.280 --> 00:38:51.620
 certain

00:38:51.620 --> 00:38:52.080
 areas

00:38:52.080 --> 00:38:53.620
 when I'm

00:38:53.620 --> 00:38:54.360
 criticised

00:38:54.360 --> 00:38:55.500
 when someone

00:38:55.500 --> 00:38:55.880
 says something

00:38:55.880 --> 00:38:56.680
 negative about

00:38:56.680 --> 00:38:56.900
 me

00:38:56.900 --> 00:38:57.700
 or I

00:38:57.700 --> 00:38:58.019
 fear

00:38:58.019 --> 00:38:58.300
 someone

00:38:58.300 --> 00:38:58.580
 will

00:38:58.580 --> 00:38:59.240
 I

00:38:59.240 --> 00:38:59.519
 can be

00:38:59.519 --> 00:38:59.980
 defensive

00:38:59.980 --> 00:39:01.360
 just ask

00:39:01.360 --> 00:39:01.880
 my wife

00:39:01.880 --> 00:39:03.660
 and

00:39:03.660 --> 00:39:04.560
 as I

00:39:04.560 --> 00:39:05.500
 identified

00:39:05.500 --> 00:39:06.180
 this one

00:39:06.180 --> 00:39:06.800
 symptom

00:39:06.800 --> 00:39:07.740
 of my

00:39:07.740 --> 00:39:08.060
 heart

00:39:08.060 --> 00:39:08.500
 condition

00:39:08.500 --> 00:39:08.860
 in my

00:39:08.860 --> 00:39:09.260
 life

00:39:09.260 --> 00:39:10.240
 I realised

00:39:10.240 --> 00:39:10.620
 something

00:39:10.620 --> 00:39:11.720
 I realised

00:39:11.720 --> 00:39:12.200
 that God

00:39:12.200 --> 00:39:12.960
 has actually

00:39:12.960 --> 00:39:13.660
 applied the

00:39:13.659 --> 00:39:14.000
 gospel

00:39:14.000 --> 00:39:14.440
 into a

00:39:14.440 --> 00:39:14.639
 whole

00:39:14.639 --> 00:39:14.799
 load

00:39:14.799 --> 00:39:14.879
 of

00:39:14.879 --> 00:39:15.219
 areas

00:39:15.219 --> 00:39:15.379
 in

00:39:15.379 --> 00:39:15.519
 my

00:39:15.519 --> 00:39:15.859
 life

00:39:15.859 --> 00:39:16.039
 and

00:39:16.039 --> 00:39:16.239
 brought

00:39:16.239 --> 00:39:16.480
 real

00:39:16.480 --> 00:39:17.039
 change

00:39:17.039 --> 00:39:17.199
 in

00:39:17.199 --> 00:39:17.519
 areas

00:39:17.519 --> 00:39:17.639
 of

00:39:17.639 --> 00:39:17.779
 my

00:39:17.779 --> 00:39:18.039
 life

00:39:18.039 --> 00:39:19.179
 but

00:39:19.179 --> 00:39:19.319
 in

00:39:19.319 --> 00:39:19.579
 this

00:39:19.579 --> 00:39:19.859
 one

00:39:19.859 --> 00:39:20.239
 area

00:39:20.239 --> 00:39:21.579
 I

00:39:21.579 --> 00:39:21.719
 was

00:39:21.719 --> 00:39:21.940
 still

00:39:21.940 --> 00:39:22.399
 desperately

00:39:22.399 --> 00:39:22.839
 insecure

00:39:22.839 --> 00:39:24.139
 I

00:39:24.139 --> 00:39:24.399
 still

00:39:24.399 --> 00:39:24.579
 had

00:39:24.579 --> 00:39:24.759
 my

00:39:24.759 --> 00:39:25.219
 monument

00:39:25.219 --> 00:39:25.839
 of

00:39:25.839 --> 00:39:26.500
 pride

00:39:26.500 --> 00:39:26.879
 still

00:39:26.879 --> 00:39:27.219
 there

00:39:27.219 --> 00:39:29.039
 and

00:39:29.039 --> 00:39:29.179
 I

00:39:29.179 --> 00:39:29.399
 saw

00:39:29.399 --> 00:39:29.899
 others

00:39:29.899 --> 00:39:30.920
 as I

00:39:30.920 --> 00:39:31.079
 look

00:39:31.079 --> 00:39:31.500
 around

00:39:31.500 --> 00:39:31.839
 who

00:39:31.839 --> 00:39:31.940
 are

00:39:31.940 --> 00:39:32.119
 more

00:39:32.119 --> 00:39:32.619
 secure

00:39:32.619 --> 00:39:32.819
 in

00:39:32.819 --> 00:39:33.019
 God

00:39:33.019 --> 00:39:33.539
 enjoying

00:39:33.539 --> 00:39:33.759
 the

00:39:33.759 --> 00:39:34.199
 gospel

00:39:34.199 --> 00:39:34.679
 and

00:39:34.679 --> 00:39:35.219
 humbly

00:39:35.219 --> 00:39:35.579
 accept

00:39:35.579 --> 00:39:36.119
 criticism

00:39:36.119 --> 00:39:36.699
 and are

00:39:36.699 --> 00:39:37.119
 able to

00:39:37.119 --> 00:39:37.460
 just be

00:39:37.460 --> 00:39:37.799
 brutally

00:39:37.799 --> 00:39:38.379
 honest

00:39:38.379 --> 00:39:39.339
 without

00:39:39.339 --> 00:39:39.679
 any

00:39:39.679 --> 00:39:40.460
 defensiveness

00:39:40.460 --> 00:39:42.239
 I've

00:39:42.239 --> 00:39:42.460
 started

00:39:42.460 --> 00:39:42.799
 praying

00:39:42.799 --> 00:39:43.159
 God

00:39:43.159 --> 00:39:43.480
 would you

00:39:43.480 --> 00:39:43.940
 change

00:39:43.940 --> 00:39:44.099
 me

00:39:44.099 --> 00:39:44.219
 in

00:39:44.219 --> 00:39:44.400
 this

00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:44.760
 area

00:39:44.760 --> 00:39:45.500
 would you

00:39:45.500 --> 00:39:45.880
 change

00:39:45.880 --> 00:39:46.099
 me

00:39:46.099 --> 00:39:46.460
 and

00:39:46.460 --> 00:39:46.780
 started

00:39:46.780 --> 00:39:47.300
 dwelling

00:39:47.300 --> 00:39:47.860
 on

00:39:47.860 --> 00:39:48.039
 and

00:39:48.039 --> 00:39:48.539
 thanking

00:39:48.539 --> 00:39:48.920
 God

00:39:48.920 --> 00:39:49.440
 for the

00:39:49.440 --> 00:39:50.000
 security

00:39:50.000 --> 00:39:50.480
 and the

00:39:50.480 --> 00:39:50.780
 love

00:39:50.780 --> 00:39:51.079
 that I

00:39:51.079 --> 00:39:51.360
 have

00:39:51.360 --> 00:39:51.519
 in

00:39:51.519 --> 00:39:51.800
 him

00:39:51.800 --> 00:39:52.599
 I

00:39:52.599 --> 00:39:52.820
 don't

00:39:52.820 --> 00:39:53.179
 need

00:39:53.179 --> 00:39:53.360
 the

00:39:53.360 --> 00:39:53.880
 approval

00:39:53.880 --> 00:39:54.219
 of

00:39:54.219 --> 00:39:54.460
 others

00:39:54.460 --> 00:39:54.619
 I

00:39:54.619 --> 00:39:54.800
 don't

00:39:54.800 --> 00:39:55.000
 need

00:39:55.000 --> 00:39:55.159
 to

00:39:55.159 --> 00:39:55.400
 look

00:39:55.400 --> 00:39:55.599
 good

00:39:55.599 --> 00:39:55.719
 on

00:39:55.719 --> 00:39:55.840
 the

00:39:55.840 --> 00:39:56.380
 outside

00:39:56.380 --> 00:39:56.980
 because

00:39:56.980 --> 00:39:57.260
 what

00:39:57.260 --> 00:39:57.539
 God

00:39:57.539 --> 00:39:57.840
 thinks

00:39:57.840 --> 00:39:58.119
 about

00:39:58.119 --> 00:39:58.260
 me

00:39:58.260 --> 00:39:58.380
 is

00:39:58.380 --> 00:39:58.579
 way

00:39:58.579 --> 00:39:58.780
 more

00:39:58.780 --> 00:39:59.280
 important

00:39:59.280 --> 00:40:00.059
 and

00:40:00.059 --> 00:40:00.179
 do you

00:40:00.179 --> 00:40:00.280
 know

00:40:00.280 --> 00:40:00.400
 what

00:40:00.400 --> 00:40:00.659
 happens

00:40:00.659 --> 00:40:00.860
 over

00:40:00.860 --> 00:40:01.280
 time

00:40:01.280 --> 00:40:01.619
 I

00:40:01.619 --> 00:40:01.920
 begin

00:40:01.920 --> 00:40:02.139
 to

00:40:02.139 --> 00:40:02.539
 hate

00:40:02.539 --> 00:40:03.119
 behaving

00:40:03.119 --> 00:40:03.800
 like

00:40:03.800 --> 00:40:03.960
 that

00:40:03.960 --> 00:40:04.119
 when

00:40:04.119 --> 00:40:04.240
 I

00:40:04.240 --> 00:40:04.480
 start

00:40:04.480 --> 00:40:05.019
 finding

00:40:05.019 --> 00:40:05.199
 the

00:40:05.199 --> 00:40:05.740
 defensiveness

00:40:05.740 --> 00:40:06.139
 coming

00:40:06.139 --> 00:40:06.400
 out

00:40:06.400 --> 00:40:06.519
 of

00:40:06.519 --> 00:40:06.760
 me

00:40:06.760 --> 00:40:08.059
 I

00:40:08.059 --> 00:40:08.720
 go

00:40:08.720 --> 00:40:08.920
 oh

00:40:08.920 --> 00:40:09.099
 no

00:40:09.099 --> 00:40:09.220
 I

00:40:09.220 --> 00:40:09.380
 don't

00:40:09.380 --> 00:40:09.680
 want

00:40:09.680 --> 00:40:09.860
 that

00:40:09.860 --> 00:40:10.059
 any

00:40:10.059 --> 00:40:10.360
 longer

00:40:10.360 --> 00:40:11.139
 because

00:40:11.139 --> 00:40:11.340
 I

00:40:11.340 --> 00:40:11.579
 see

00:40:11.579 --> 00:40:11.720
 it

00:40:11.720 --> 00:40:11.980
 actually

00:40:11.980 --> 00:40:12.559
 enslaves

00:40:12.559 --> 00:40:12.760
 me

00:40:12.760 --> 00:40:12.940
 to

00:40:12.940 --> 00:40:13.099
 other

00:40:13.099 --> 00:40:13.559
 people's

00:40:13.559 --> 00:40:13.980
 opinions

00:40:13.980 --> 00:40:15.260
 and

00:40:15.260 --> 00:40:15.400
 I've

00:40:15.400 --> 00:40:15.519
 gone

00:40:15.519 --> 00:40:15.740
 from

00:40:15.740 --> 00:40:16.480
 justifying

00:40:16.480 --> 00:40:16.660
 it

00:40:16.660 --> 00:40:16.800
 to

00:40:16.800 --> 00:40:16.980
 wanting

00:40:16.980 --> 00:40:17.180
 to

00:40:17.180 --> 00:40:17.500
 please

00:40:17.500 --> 00:40:17.780
 God

00:40:17.780 --> 00:40:17.920
 in

00:40:17.920 --> 00:40:18.099
 this

00:40:18.099 --> 00:40:18.440
 area

00:40:18.440 --> 00:40:19.460
 and

00:40:19.460 --> 00:40:19.639
 over

00:40:19.639 --> 00:40:20.079
 time

00:40:20.079 --> 00:40:20.240
 as

00:40:20.240 --> 00:40:20.360
 I

00:40:20.360 --> 00:40:20.599
 see

00:40:20.599 --> 00:40:20.940
 just

00:40:20.940 --> 00:40:21.880
 I'm

00:40:21.880 --> 00:40:22.260
 learning

00:40:22.260 --> 00:40:22.760
 slowly

00:40:22.760 --> 00:40:23.220
 that

00:40:23.220 --> 00:40:23.380
 when

00:40:23.380 --> 00:40:23.579
 those

00:40:23.579 --> 00:40:24.099
 opportunities

00:40:24.099 --> 00:40:24.619
 arrive

00:40:24.619 --> 00:40:24.980
 to be

00:40:24.980 --> 00:40:25.440
 defensive

00:40:25.440 --> 00:40:25.920
 and

00:40:25.920 --> 00:40:26.039
 I

00:40:26.039 --> 00:40:26.340
 find

00:40:26.340 --> 00:40:26.500
 it

00:40:26.500 --> 00:40:26.840
 coming

00:40:26.840 --> 00:40:27.059
 out

00:40:27.059 --> 00:40:27.119
 of

00:40:27.119 --> 00:40:27.260
 my

00:40:27.260 --> 00:40:27.480
 mouth

00:40:27.480 --> 00:40:28.099
 I'm

00:40:28.099 --> 00:40:28.380
 learning

00:40:28.380 --> 00:40:28.559
 how

00:40:28.559 --> 00:40:28.660
 to

00:40:28.660 --> 00:40:28.800
 hold

00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:28.980
 my

00:40:28.980 --> 00:40:29.300
 tongue

00:40:29.300 --> 00:40:30.039
 and

00:40:30.039 --> 00:40:30.539
 reflect

00:40:30.539 --> 00:40:31.139
 on

00:40:31.139 --> 00:40:31.320
 what

00:40:31.320 --> 00:40:31.420
 the

00:40:31.420 --> 00:40:31.559
 other

00:40:31.559 --> 00:40:31.960
 person

00:40:31.960 --> 00:40:32.179
 is

00:40:32.179 --> 00:40:32.500
 saying

00:40:32.500 --> 00:40:33.400
 I'm

00:40:33.400 --> 00:40:33.759
 learning

00:40:33.759 --> 00:40:34.079
 when

00:40:34.079 --> 00:40:34.259
 to

00:40:34.259 --> 00:40:34.400
 give

00:40:34.400 --> 00:40:34.920
 reasons

00:40:34.920 --> 00:40:35.159
 for

00:40:35.159 --> 00:40:35.340
 my

00:40:35.340 --> 00:40:35.719
 behavior

00:40:35.719 --> 00:40:35.920
 and

00:40:35.920 --> 00:40:36.179
 when

00:40:36.179 --> 00:40:36.920
 actually

00:40:36.920 --> 00:40:37.179
 just

00:40:37.179 --> 00:40:37.360
 to

00:40:37.360 --> 00:40:37.960
 hold

00:40:37.960 --> 00:40:38.259
 off

00:40:38.259 --> 00:40:38.400
 and

00:40:38.400 --> 00:40:38.559
 just

00:40:38.559 --> 00:40:38.699
 to

00:40:38.699 --> 00:40:39.039
 listen

00:40:39.039 --> 00:40:40.019
 and

00:40:40.019 --> 00:40:40.099
 you

00:40:40.099 --> 00:40:40.199
 know

00:40:40.199 --> 00:40:40.340
 it's

00:40:40.340 --> 00:40:40.460
 a

00:40:40.460 --> 00:40:40.800
 process

00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:41.139
 sometimes

00:40:41.139 --> 00:40:41.400
 two

00:40:41.400 --> 00:40:41.599
 step

00:40:41.599 --> 00:40:41.840
 forward

00:40:41.840 --> 00:40:42.039
 one

00:40:42.039 --> 00:40:42.259
 step

00:40:42.259 --> 00:40:42.500
 back

00:40:42.500 --> 00:40:42.639
 but

00:40:42.639 --> 00:40:42.900
 here's

00:40:42.900 --> 00:40:43.019
 the

00:40:43.019 --> 00:40:43.300
 thing

00:40:43.300 --> 00:40:44.599
 the

00:40:44.599 --> 00:40:45.039
 gospel

00:40:45.039 --> 00:40:45.699
 for

00:40:45.699 --> 00:40:45.960
 each

00:40:45.960 --> 00:40:46.199
 one

00:40:46.199 --> 00:40:46.360
 of

00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:46.719
 us

00:40:46.719 --> 00:40:47.900
 is

00:40:47.900 --> 00:40:48.199
 so

00:40:48.199 --> 00:40:48.940
 freeing

00:40:48.940 --> 00:40:49.219
 if

00:40:49.219 --> 00:40:49.380
 we

00:40:49.380 --> 00:40:49.699
 allow

00:40:49.699 --> 00:40:49.860
 it

00:40:49.860 --> 00:40:49.980
 to

00:40:49.980 --> 00:40:50.119
 be

00:40:50.119 --> 00:40:50.599
 applied

00:40:50.599 --> 00:40:50.960
 right

00:40:50.960 --> 00:40:51.179
 into

00:40:51.179 --> 00:40:51.360
 the

00:40:51.360 --> 00:40:51.679
 direct

00:40:51.679 --> 00:40:52.019
 areas

00:40:52.019 --> 00:40:52.179
 of

00:40:52.179 --> 00:40:52.279
 our

00:40:52.279 --> 00:40:52.679
 hearts

00:40:52.679 --> 00:40:53.900
 that

00:40:53.900 --> 00:40:54.059
 it

00:40:54.059 --> 00:40:54.420
 calls

00:40:54.420 --> 00:40:54.679
 each

00:40:54.679 --> 00:40:54.900
 one

00:40:54.900 --> 00:40:55.059
 of

00:40:55.059 --> 00:40:55.340
 us

00:40:55.340 --> 00:40:56.000
 wherever

00:40:56.000 --> 00:40:56.259
 you

00:40:56.259 --> 00:40:56.420
 are

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 in

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 your

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 relationships

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 with

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 God

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 or

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 with

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 others

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 to

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 stop

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 making

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 excuses

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 to

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 stop

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 fearing

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 about

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 what's

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 the

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 impact

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 it's

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 going

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 to

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 make

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 on

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 your

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 face

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 or

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 your

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 own

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 honor

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 because

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 actually

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 in

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 Christ

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 there is

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 a far

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 greater

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 honor

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 that

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 you

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 have

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 and

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 you

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 and

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 I

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 will

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 not

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 enjoy

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 that

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 until

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 we

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 come

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 and

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 come

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 back

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 to

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 God

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 in

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 true

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 repentance

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 honestly

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 relationally

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 but

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 realizing

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 that

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 is

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 the

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 place

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 of

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 freedom

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 and

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 hope

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 for

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 all

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 of

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 us