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 Over the last few months, during the COVID experience, my wife Evie has gotten really

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 into home conversion.

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 She just loves to be able to go home and just sort of move things around so that it feels

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 like a new space.

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 And particularly in a time like COVID, where there's so many things that we realize we

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 don't have control of.

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 When we're stuck at home, perhaps more than we would like to be, there's something really

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 appealing about being able to experience some kind of change.

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 Evie is like a Tetris wizard with this.

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 Somehow, when we first got married, we had one bookcase.

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 Now we have three, and yet somehow our home feels more spacious.

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 So she is both gifted at this and a regular practitioner of it.

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 But there's something appealing, isn't it?

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 When we're at home, when we're stuck at home, knowing that there is a change that we can

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 experience, that we aren't just stuck the same, unable to change or do anything in a strange

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 season like this.

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 And so some kind of change is really appealing.

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 But other change can often be uncomfortable, perhaps even confronting.

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 I wonder what kind of thoughts and feelings come to mind, not when you think of home conversion,

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 but what about when you think about people being converted?

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 What kind of things come to mind?

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 Perhaps, and I think what's a common thought for our world and culture is that the thought

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 of people being converted can come across as mean or arrogant, perhaps even just narrow-minded.

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 Maybe even for some of us who are Christians, it can still be an uncomfortable thought.

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 The thought that there might be real cost to relationships, to friends and family, the fear

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 of rejection, the relational costs that can come when sharing the good news of Jesus.

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 But if people being converted is so uncomfortable, if our world thinks it is so uncomfortable, if we

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 feel uncomfortable about it, why do we bother doing it?

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 Why do we bother persevering for it?

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 I mean, why do we bother trying to convert people at all with the good news of Jesus,

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 if it just brings discomfort?

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 Well, as we come to our passage this morning in Acts 9,

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 we encounter one of the most famous conversion stories in the history of the world.

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 And as we actually walk through Saul's conversion account, how he goes from being an enemy of God

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 to a loved child of his, God wants to teach us three things about the nature of conversion,

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 three reasons why it is worth persevering in, and that it is a good and right thing that God

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 has put before us. So three things that God teaches us about the nature of conversion.

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 First of all, that conversion is uncomfortable.

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 Conversion is personal.

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 And that conversion is essential.

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 It is uncomfortable, it is personal, and it is essential.

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 So first of all, conversion is uncomfortable.

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 Now, as we look at Saul's mission at the start of Acts 9 here,

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 we see he is on a very specific mission.

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 In verse 1 and 2, it describes Saul as heading to Damascus,

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 breathing out murderous threats against God's people.

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 He has a very clear mission and purpose.

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 He wants to round up those of the way, those who follow Jesus at this time,

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 and he wants to have them rounded up, persecuted and imprisoned.

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 And he believes that he's doing this for God's good and his honor,

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 that these people are blasphemers, those who follow Jesus.

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 And yet in verse 3 and 4, as he sets out on this mission,

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 he experiences a radical encounter with Jesus,

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 which is described as Saul being knocked to the ground by a light from heaven,

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 and he hears a voice,

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 Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?

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 Now, clearly, clearly this is not the plan that Saul had set out for himself.

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 I mean, he's going to Damascus to confront the Christians,

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 those of the way,

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 and yet now he himself is being confronted by Jesus.

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 But conversion, it's an uncomfortable process.

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 You see, the very nature of conversion, the very idea of it,

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 says that it begins with God, God seeking us out,

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 rather than us seeking God.

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 Begins with God seeking us out, rather than us seeking God.

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 And it is no different with Saul.

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 You see, he's confident in his understanding of the truth.

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 I mean, he's a guy with vast knowledge of the Old Testament.

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 He's a guy of position and status.

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 He has great authority that he comes with as he heads to Damascus.

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 And he believes that he is honoring his God

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 as he seeks to crush this rebellious uprising of Christians.

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 And yet, what is his response?

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 In verse 5 and 6,

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 the only words that Saul says in his encounter with Jesus,

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 who are you, Lord?

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 See, for all his knowledge and confidence and his power and authority,

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 when he's confronted by the living God,

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 it reveals that he doesn't even know who he is.

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 He didn't even know the God that he thought he was serving.

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 And we see in verse 7 and 8 following this,

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 that Saul, having been confronted by this Jesus,

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 he's left blinded, he's now relying on his traveling companions,

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 simply just to guide him to the city that God has instructed him to go.

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 I mean, how disorientating that must have been for Saul.

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 He's come with a purpose, he's going to persecute the Christians,

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 he's confronted by Jesus himself,

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 whom he realizes he does not know,

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 and now he's blinded.

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 He is a picture of humiliation.

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 He's been humbled,

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 his power,

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 his authority,

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 all that makes him who he is,

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 and now he can't even travel

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 without being guided by others.

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 You see, Saul's new reality,

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 when you experience that kind of radical change,

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 when it's that uncomfortable,

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 it forces you to think.

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 You're sort of jolted into trying to make sense of this new reality.

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 And that can be a really uncomfortable process.

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 I've got to be honest,

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 it was a really uncomfortable process for me in my own life.

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 I became a Christian midway through high school in January of 2010.

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 And prior to that point,

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 I was really sure that I had the good news of Jesus all figured out.

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 It was not for me.

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 And more so than that,

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 I had an older brother,

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 a really nice,

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 sort of actually annoyingly nice,

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 older brother,

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 who was a Christian,

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 and I just could not make sense of this guy.

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 Like, he was so nice,

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 so caring,

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 and if you've had anything to do with teenage boys,

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 those are not usually the words you would associate to them.

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 And I just couldn't understand him at all.

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 And that lack of understanding

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 created a lot of frustration.

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 From me to him,

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 I just could not make sense of him.

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 And so I took out that frustration

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 on other Christians.

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 You know,

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 other people who would be foolish enough

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 to believe that Jesus was who he claimed to be,

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 that he really was this Lord and Savior.

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 Now, just to clarify,

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 just in case people are watching at home,

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 when I say I sort of taunted and make fun of Christians,

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 it was not in the same sense as Saul.

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 I did not threaten anyone's life.

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 Just got to make that nice and clear.

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 But I was particularly rough

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 to one of my school chaplains.

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 I took a special kind of delight

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 in making his life difficult.

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 I liked to ask annoying and uncomfortable questions,

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 not for answers,

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 just to see him squirm.

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 I would have been a great friend

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 if you knew me in high school.

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 I hope you're getting that picture.

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 So as I was sharing life with this guy,

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 I would just continually try to sort of irritate him.

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 I would try to make him uncomfortable.

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 I'd try to make him think that his job

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 and his time and his efforts were wasted.

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 Until he actually,

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 well, he ended up having to quit his job.

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 He ended up having to quit his job.

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 And I like to think that I was involved in that process,

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 you know, that it was because of how annoying

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 I must have been.

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 It's always fun when families sit in

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 and hear this stuff as well.

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 Thinking about how annoying I must have been.

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 And as I saw him, quite literally,

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 finishing up his job,

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 I saw him carrying a box of his stuff

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 from his office to the car,

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 and I thought here was a chance

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 to get one last jab in,

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 you know, to really make him feel bad.

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 And so I went up to him

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 and sort of just tauntingly said,

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 where are you going, sir?

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 And I'll never forget what he said.

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 He looked at me,

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 and perhaps in a moment of weakness and frustration,

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 he said,

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 I have better things to do

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 than waste my time

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 on crappy little kids like you.

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 Now, to me at the time,

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 that really felt like a victory.

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 You know, it showed,

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 I showed this guy

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 for the ridiculous beliefs that he had.

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 You know, what a waste of his time

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 to go to a school

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 and share the good news of Jesus.

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 However,

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 over the following six months,

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 all of the things that I thought

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 made my life happy and meaningful,

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 playing football,

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 spending time with friends,

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 over the next six months,

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 I started to get quite sick,

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 and I had to stop playing football.

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 And that meant that I started

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 to see my friends less.

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 And it was really disorientating

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 to think how quickly

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 my life and the purpose

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 that I had from it

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 started to unravel.

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 All of a sudden,

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 my comfortable,

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 cruisy life,

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 I was stuck at home going,

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 who am I?

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 What is my life

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 without these things?

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 Where am I going to find

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 fulfillment?

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 And it was in this season

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 that very much

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 against my own wishes,

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 my parents sent me

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 to a Christian camp

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 that the same annoyingly kind

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 older brother was leading on.

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 This was particularly fun,

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 saying as my brother

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 sat there at the nine o'clock service.

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 He enjoyed it.

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 Now, when I went on this camp,

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 I had one goal in mind.

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 The only thing that I was focused on

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 was do not listen to the talks.

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 Don't humor them

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 by showing that you're interested in Jesus.

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 That'll just make them more keen.

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 And yet, over the course of the week,

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 there was one specific thought

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 that I just could not get out of my head,

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 no matter how hard I tried.

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 And it was a thought

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 that I tried to run from,

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 but it just kept piercing my mind.

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 I was reminded that,

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 what if I'm so stubborn

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 that I actually needed

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 to have something taken from me

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 to hear this message seriously?

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 What if I was so stubborn

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 that I needed to have something

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 taken from me

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 to hear this message seriously?

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 You see, my conversion began

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 with this uncomfortable realization

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 that I am a proud and stubborn person.

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 And it was only through

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 having something taken from me

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 that I actually realized

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 how little I am,

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 how frail my life actually is.

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 And similarly with Saul's conversion,

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 it begins with a very uncomfortable reality

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 when he's confronted by the God

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 that he thought he was serving,

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 only to realize

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 he didn't know him at all,

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 only to lose his sight

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 to realize how frail his life was.

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 I wonder what kind of discomfort

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 God has been bringing about in your life,

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 perhaps during this COVID-19 season.

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 What have you been learning

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 through this uncomfortable season?

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 Could it be that God is using

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 this discomfort

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 to bring you

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 to a new perspective

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 on who Jesus is?

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 Could it be that this is a process

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 of your own conversion

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 as you come to a humbling realization

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 that your discomfort,

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 your own weakness,

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 your own lack of control,

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 your own frailty

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 is brought to the very surface?

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 You see, conversion

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 begins

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 as an uncomfortable process.

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 It is God

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 breaking into our life,

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 challenging our assumptions

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 and perspectives,

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 breaking down the illusions

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 of control

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 and the craving for comfort

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 that we create for ourselves.

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 It is uncomfortable.

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 But it isn't just uncomfortable.

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 You see, conversion

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 is also personal.

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 Have a look at the beginning

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 of Jesus' interaction

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 with Ananias with me.

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 It's in verse 10.

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 It says,

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 In Damascus,

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 there was a disciple

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 named Ananias.

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 The Lord called to him

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 in a vision.

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 Ananias!

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 Yes, Lord,

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 he answered.

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 Go to the house of Judas

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 on Straight Street

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 and ask for a man

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 from Tarsus

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 named Saul,

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 for he is praying.

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 In a vision,

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 he has seen a man

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 named Ananias

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 come and place hands

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 on him

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 to restore his sight.

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 Now,

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 we don't actually know

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 much about Ananias

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 except for this

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 particular encounter,

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 except for this

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 description in Acts.

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 In fact,

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 he's mentioned

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 nowhere else

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 in Scripture

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 except in relation

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 to Saul's conversion.

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 All that we know

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 of him

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 is that he was

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 a Christian

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 in Damascus,

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 that he very clearly

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 knew who Saul was

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 and his reputation,

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 that he was not

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 good news for Christians,

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 that him coming

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 to Damascus

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 would spell trouble

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 for him.

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 But we also see him

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 as a picture

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 of faithfulness.

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 But if you think

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 about the very little

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 that we actually know

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 of Ananias here,

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 it seems strange

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 that he would even

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 be involved

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 in this story at all.

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 I mean,

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 he doesn't seem

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 like the kind of

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 go-to guy

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 for someone like Saul,

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 of great power

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 and authority,

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 one who comes

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 to threaten

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 his very life.

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 And so it feels

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 like a reasonable

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 question to ask,

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 why is Ananias

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 involved at all?

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 I mean,

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 Jesus has already

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 humbled Saul

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 to see who he is

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 and he's now

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 prayerfully seeking

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 God in his discomfort.

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 Is it really necessary

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 for God to bring

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 Ananias into this?

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 It just seems like

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 an unnecessary obstacle

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 towards God's plan

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 and purposes here.

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 And yet,

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 God consistently

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 shows us

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 that conversion

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 is personal,

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 that God delights

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 to work through

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 his people.

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 And he delights

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 to work through

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 the weakness

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 and faithfulness

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 of his people.

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 You see,

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 there is something

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 just so profoundly

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 beautiful

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 and encouraging

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 about the picture

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 of Ananias' witness

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 here.

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 And it's something

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 really encouraging

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 for us as Christians

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 to look at

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 and see

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 God's power

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 displayed

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 in his weakness.

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 Since it's the only time

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 that we get to encounter

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 Ananias,

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 the only things

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 that we see,

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 he's fearful

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 and he is faithful.

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 Right?

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 We see that he's fearful

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 of encountering Saul

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 and yet,

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 when God confronts him

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 that Saul

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 is going to be

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 his chosen instrument,

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 his chosen mouthpiece

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 to proclaim

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 the good news

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 of Jesus

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 to the nations,

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 he is willingly

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 obedient and faithful.

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 He goes

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 and meets with Saul

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 and he greets him

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 as brother.

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 You see,

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 for someone

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 of no real significance

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 in human history,

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 God uses Ananias

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 in this defining moment

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 as he declares

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 that Saul

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 is going to be

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 his chosen instrument

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 for the nations

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 and yet ties

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 Ananias' faithful witness

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 to this incredible

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 world-changing encounter.

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 And all we know

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 of Ananias,

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 a weak

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 but faithful servant.

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 Do you remember

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 the faithful servants

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 and faithful witnesses

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 who have shared

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 Jesus with you?

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 Can you think

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 of those

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 that God may have

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 given you the privilege

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 of sharing Jesus with?

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 You see,

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 it could well be

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 that there is

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 no one else

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 who knows

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 of the witness

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 of the opportunity

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 that God gives you

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 to testify

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 to the good news

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 of Jesus.

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 It is likely

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 that none of us

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 will have the role

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 that Saul had

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 to be a mouthpiece

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 to the nations.

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 But like Ananias,

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 God desires faithfulness.

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 He desires faithful witnesses

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 and he sees

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 your faithfulness.

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 He delights

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 in the faithful witness

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 of his children.

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 It's a little bit

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 like a guy

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 named Mordecai Ham.

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 Now,

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 that is just

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 an outstanding name

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 and I feel like

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 I'm appreciating it more

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 at the 11 o'clock service

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 with Ham.

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 I feel like it's

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 really close to lunch.

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 Anyway,

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 could you just get

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 a quick show of hands?

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 Does anyone know

00:18:28.640 --> 00:18:29.980
 who Mordecai Ham is?

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 Still no?

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 Okay.

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 I feel like you're cheating,

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 Evie,

00:18:35.879 --> 00:18:36.240
 since you're here

00:18:36.240 --> 00:18:37.119
 at the 9 o'clock service.

00:18:38.399 --> 00:18:39.359
 Mordecai Ham

00:18:39.359 --> 00:18:42.959
 was an American evangelist

00:18:42.959 --> 00:18:43.619
 in Kentucky

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 that lived over

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 100 years ago

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 and it would have seemed

00:18:47.259 --> 00:18:48.579
 laughable to him

00:18:48.579 --> 00:18:49.719
 that his name

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 would be mentioned

00:18:50.299 --> 00:18:51.500
 over a century later

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 on the other side

00:18:52.359 --> 00:18:52.839
 of the world.

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 And yet,

00:18:56.319 --> 00:18:58.159
 he is the man

00:18:58.159 --> 00:18:59.539
 that God worked through

00:18:59.539 --> 00:19:01.099
 to bring a certain

00:19:01.099 --> 00:19:01.939
 Billy Graham

00:19:01.940 --> 00:19:03.420
 to a faith in Jesus.

00:19:04.820 --> 00:19:06.080
 A man who became

00:19:06.080 --> 00:19:07.519
 a global mouthpiece

00:19:07.519 --> 00:19:08.600
 for the gospel

00:19:08.600 --> 00:19:09.580
 as many people

00:19:09.580 --> 00:19:10.960
 around the world

00:19:10.960 --> 00:19:12.559
 heard the good news

00:19:12.559 --> 00:19:13.140
 of Jesus

00:19:13.140 --> 00:19:14.500
 were brought to their knees

00:19:14.500 --> 00:19:15.519
 as they realized

00:19:15.519 --> 00:19:16.640
 that he offered

00:19:16.640 --> 00:19:17.600
 life and forgiveness.

00:19:19.220 --> 00:19:20.279
 But if it wasn't

00:19:20.279 --> 00:19:21.279
 for Mordecai Ham's

00:19:21.279 --> 00:19:22.279
 faithful witness,

00:19:23.580 --> 00:19:25.440
 the gospel impact

00:19:25.440 --> 00:19:25.960
 around the world

00:19:25.960 --> 00:19:26.279
 would have been

00:19:26.279 --> 00:19:27.279
 so much poorer.

00:19:28.039 --> 00:19:28.240
 See,

00:19:28.299 --> 00:19:28.700
 we don't know

00:19:28.700 --> 00:19:29.799
 the names of people

00:19:29.799 --> 00:19:30.680
 like Mordecai Ham,

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 but God,

00:19:31.639 --> 00:19:32.579
 in his goodness,

00:19:32.980 --> 00:19:34.259
 intrinsically draws them

00:19:34.259 --> 00:19:35.200
 in to be part

00:19:35.200 --> 00:19:36.220
 of his plans

00:19:36.220 --> 00:19:36.940
 and purposes

00:19:36.940 --> 00:19:38.099
 for the kingdom

00:19:38.099 --> 00:19:38.899
 to go forward.

00:19:41.480 --> 00:19:41.740
 And so,

00:19:41.839 --> 00:19:42.220
 St. Paul's,

00:19:42.279 --> 00:19:43.299
 be encouraged

00:19:43.299 --> 00:19:44.220
 in your witness.

00:19:45.779 --> 00:19:47.159
 God does not demand

00:19:47.159 --> 00:19:48.599
 a global audience

00:19:48.599 --> 00:19:49.960
 for each of us,

00:19:50.279 --> 00:19:51.639
 but he does desire

00:19:51.639 --> 00:19:52.539
 us to be faithful

00:19:52.539 --> 00:19:53.859
 to those he places

00:19:53.859 --> 00:19:54.559
 around us.

00:19:55.099 --> 00:19:56.500
 He does desire us

00:19:56.500 --> 00:19:57.559
 to testify

00:19:57.559 --> 00:19:58.900
 to the hope

00:19:58.900 --> 00:19:59.539
 that we have

00:19:59.539 --> 00:20:00.180
 in Jesus

00:20:00.180 --> 00:20:01.119
 in the hopes

00:20:01.119 --> 00:20:01.980
 that they too

00:20:01.980 --> 00:20:03.140
 might be welcomed

00:20:03.140 --> 00:20:04.279
 into God's family.

00:20:06.200 --> 00:20:07.279
 Because God's

00:20:07.279 --> 00:20:08.059
 primary method

00:20:08.059 --> 00:20:08.660
 of conversion

00:20:08.660 --> 00:20:09.980
 is personal.

00:20:10.900 --> 00:20:11.920
 He uses weak,

00:20:12.660 --> 00:20:13.099
 fearful,

00:20:13.880 --> 00:20:14.759
 uncertain people

00:20:14.759 --> 00:20:15.859
 like Ananias,

00:20:16.480 --> 00:20:17.160
 perhaps like you

00:20:17.160 --> 00:20:17.519
 and me,

00:20:18.359 --> 00:20:19.140
 to proclaim

00:20:19.140 --> 00:20:19.920
 the good news

00:20:19.920 --> 00:20:20.420
 of Jesus

00:20:20.420 --> 00:20:21.640
 so that others

00:20:21.640 --> 00:20:22.480
 would be converted

00:20:22.480 --> 00:20:23.500
 and welcomed

00:20:23.500 --> 00:20:24.880
 into God's family.

00:20:26.500 --> 00:20:29.019
 Now,

00:20:29.119 --> 00:20:29.599
 I want to just

00:20:29.599 --> 00:20:30.319
 take a step back

00:20:30.319 --> 00:20:30.799
 for a moment.

00:20:32.799 --> 00:20:34.059
 It could be

00:20:34.059 --> 00:20:35.880
 that what you've heard

00:20:35.880 --> 00:20:36.599
 so far today

00:20:36.599 --> 00:20:37.339
 is that conversion

00:20:37.339 --> 00:20:38.299
 is uncomfortable

00:20:38.299 --> 00:20:40.940
 and that conversion

00:20:40.940 --> 00:20:41.799
 is personal

00:20:41.799 --> 00:20:43.079
 in how God

00:20:43.079 --> 00:20:44.220
 works through

00:20:44.220 --> 00:20:45.079
 his people

00:20:45.079 --> 00:20:46.599
 to bring others

00:20:46.599 --> 00:20:48.319
 into his family.

00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:50.059
 But it's possible

00:20:50.059 --> 00:20:51.140
 that you can hear that

00:20:51.140 --> 00:20:52.319
 and it might just

00:20:52.319 --> 00:20:53.200
 make sense

00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:54.319
 of a really fascinating

00:20:54.319 --> 00:20:55.700
 story of how Saul

00:20:55.700 --> 00:20:56.819
 has gone from

00:20:56.819 --> 00:20:57.940
 persecutor

00:20:57.940 --> 00:20:59.059
 of God's people

00:20:59.059 --> 00:21:00.120
 to all of a sudden

00:21:00.120 --> 00:21:00.940
 a proclaimer

00:21:00.940 --> 00:21:02.360
 of Jesus.

00:21:03.299 --> 00:21:03.980
 Maybe it even

00:21:03.980 --> 00:21:04.900
 helps you make sense

00:21:04.900 --> 00:21:06.160
 of some Christians

00:21:06.160 --> 00:21:06.720
 that you know

00:21:06.720 --> 00:21:07.519
 in your life.

00:21:10.340 --> 00:21:11.980
 But all of us,

00:21:12.759 --> 00:21:13.600
 all of us

00:21:13.600 --> 00:21:14.360
 need to hear

00:21:14.360 --> 00:21:16.740
 the most offensive

00:21:16.740 --> 00:21:18.880
 and the most

00:21:18.880 --> 00:21:19.700
 uncomfortable truth

00:21:20.259 --> 00:21:21.440
 that is revealed

00:21:21.440 --> 00:21:21.840
 to us

00:21:21.840 --> 00:21:22.720
 in Saul's conversion.

00:21:22.720 --> 00:21:22.839
 conversion.

00:21:24.960 --> 00:21:25.519
 And that is

00:21:25.519 --> 00:21:26.200
 that conversion

00:21:26.200 --> 00:21:27.339
 is essential.

00:21:28.880 --> 00:21:29.799
 It is essential

00:21:29.799 --> 00:21:30.900
 for everyone.

00:21:32.200 --> 00:21:32.420
 You see,

00:21:32.480 --> 00:21:33.519
 as we read more

00:21:33.519 --> 00:21:34.940
 about Saul's journey

00:21:34.940 --> 00:21:36.519
 as the mouthpiece

00:21:36.519 --> 00:21:38.700
 to proclaim Jesus,

00:21:39.259 --> 00:21:39.880
 he reflects

00:21:39.880 --> 00:21:40.620
 on the meaning

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 and purpose

00:21:41.339 --> 00:21:42.519
 of his own

00:21:42.519 --> 00:21:43.900
 radical encounter

00:21:43.900 --> 00:21:44.620
 that's described

00:21:44.620 --> 00:21:45.339
 in Acts 9.

00:21:45.880 --> 00:21:46.839
 Later in the Bible,

00:21:46.920 --> 00:21:47.220
 in the book

00:21:47.220 --> 00:21:47.860
 of 1 Timothy,

00:21:48.000 --> 00:21:48.559
 he reflects

00:21:48.559 --> 00:21:49.460
 not just on

00:21:49.460 --> 00:21:49.940
 what happened

00:21:49.940 --> 00:21:50.580
 to him,

00:21:51.299 --> 00:21:52.259
 but on what

00:21:52.259 --> 00:21:53.240
 God is revealing

00:21:53.240 --> 00:21:54.519
 about all people.

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 So I just want

00:21:55.720 --> 00:21:56.140
 to read to you

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 two verses

00:21:56.700 --> 00:21:57.519
 from 1 Timothy.

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 It's from chapter 1,

00:21:58.559 --> 00:21:59.620
 verse 15 and 16.

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 And this is what it says.

00:22:01.840 --> 00:22:02.080
 It says,

00:22:02.180 --> 00:22:03.180
 here is a trustworthy

00:22:03.180 --> 00:22:04.779
 saying that deserves

00:22:04.779 --> 00:22:05.700
 full acceptance.

00:22:07.059 --> 00:22:08.000
 Christ Jesus

00:22:08.000 --> 00:22:09.180
 came into the world

00:22:09.180 --> 00:22:10.240
 to save sinners

00:22:10.240 --> 00:22:12.460
 of whom I am

00:22:12.460 --> 00:22:13.160
 the worst.

00:22:13.160 --> 00:22:15.840
 but for this

00:22:15.840 --> 00:22:17.060
 very reason

00:22:17.060 --> 00:22:19.360
 I was shown

00:22:19.360 --> 00:22:19.820
 mercy

00:22:19.820 --> 00:22:20.940
 so that in me,

00:22:21.120 --> 00:22:22.300
 the worst of sinners,

00:22:22.519 --> 00:22:23.259
 Christ Jesus

00:22:23.259 --> 00:22:23.980
 might display

00:22:23.980 --> 00:22:25.259
 his immense patience

00:22:25.259 --> 00:22:26.400
 as an example

00:22:26.400 --> 00:22:27.080
 for those

00:22:27.080 --> 00:22:28.100
 who would believe

00:22:28.100 --> 00:22:28.720
 in him

00:22:28.720 --> 00:22:29.720
 and receive

00:22:29.720 --> 00:22:30.720
 eternal life.

00:22:32.600 --> 00:22:32.820
 You see,

00:22:32.880 --> 00:22:33.660
 Saul's story

00:22:33.660 --> 00:22:34.880
 reveals what is

00:22:34.880 --> 00:22:35.700
 both personally

00:22:35.700 --> 00:22:36.700
 true for him

00:22:36.700 --> 00:22:38.320
 as an enemy

00:22:38.320 --> 00:22:40.140
 of God

00:22:40.140 --> 00:22:40.860
 as separated

00:22:40.860 --> 00:22:41.400
 from him

00:22:41.400 --> 00:22:42.200
 by his sin

00:22:42.200 --> 00:22:44.080
 but it also

00:22:44.080 --> 00:22:44.900
 describes a

00:22:44.900 --> 00:22:46.100
 universal picture

00:22:46.100 --> 00:22:46.880
 of humanity.

00:22:47.519 --> 00:22:48.360
 We are all

00:22:48.360 --> 00:22:48.880
 sinners

00:22:48.880 --> 00:22:50.640
 who need

00:22:50.640 --> 00:22:51.340
 a saviour

00:22:51.340 --> 00:22:54.319
 and that Jesus

00:22:54.319 --> 00:22:55.880
 is that saviour,

00:22:56.220 --> 00:22:57.299
 the one who can

00:22:57.299 --> 00:22:58.319
 free us

00:22:58.319 --> 00:22:59.860
 from the guilt

00:22:59.860 --> 00:23:00.440
 and weight

00:23:00.440 --> 00:23:00.940
 of sin.

00:23:03.340 --> 00:23:04.480
 But if Jesus

00:23:04.480 --> 00:23:05.039
 is Lord

00:23:05.039 --> 00:23:05.680
 and saviour,

00:23:06.940 --> 00:23:08.299
 if he is Lord,

00:23:09.640 --> 00:23:10.319
 it means that

00:23:10.319 --> 00:23:11.080
 we need to be

00:23:11.080 --> 00:23:11.900
 willing to hear

00:23:11.900 --> 00:23:13.380
 uncomfortable things,

00:23:13.880 --> 00:23:14.580
 that he might

00:23:14.580 --> 00:23:15.440
 reveal

00:23:15.440 --> 00:23:16.680
 uncomfortable things

00:23:16.680 --> 00:23:17.200
 within us

00:23:17.200 --> 00:23:17.980
 for our own good.

00:23:19.540 --> 00:23:20.560
 We might even

00:23:20.560 --> 00:23:21.860
 find uncomfortable

00:23:21.860 --> 00:23:22.420
 things that we

00:23:22.420 --> 00:23:23.080
 find uncomfortable

00:23:23.080 --> 00:23:23.900
 about him,

00:23:25.120 --> 00:23:25.680
 things that we

00:23:25.680 --> 00:23:26.300
 don't like.

00:23:27.980 --> 00:23:28.960
 But this is the

00:23:28.960 --> 00:23:29.940
 essential call

00:23:29.940 --> 00:23:30.680
 of conversion

00:23:30.680 --> 00:23:31.960
 and that what God

00:23:31.960 --> 00:23:33.120
 desires for everyone

00:23:33.120 --> 00:23:33.700
 in Jesus.

00:23:34.400 --> 00:23:35.360
 Not to choose

00:23:35.360 --> 00:23:36.000
 the things that you

00:23:36.000 --> 00:23:37.160
 like about Jesus

00:23:37.160 --> 00:23:39.140
 but to surrender

00:23:39.140 --> 00:23:40.380
 yourself to Jesus

00:23:40.380 --> 00:23:41.300
 so that you

00:23:41.300 --> 00:23:41.900
 might receive

00:23:41.900 --> 00:23:42.460
 forgiveness

00:23:42.460 --> 00:23:43.860
 and enjoy

00:23:43.860 --> 00:23:44.820
 new life

00:23:44.820 --> 00:23:45.800
 in his name.

00:23:48.340 --> 00:23:48.580
 You see,

00:23:48.680 --> 00:23:49.620
 what Saul's story

00:23:49.620 --> 00:23:50.620
 is not saying,

00:23:51.000 --> 00:23:53.220
 it's not saying

00:23:53.220 --> 00:23:54.940
 that wicked

00:23:54.940 --> 00:23:55.700
 and evil

00:23:55.700 --> 00:23:56.840
 people like him

00:23:56.840 --> 00:23:57.880
 who actively

00:23:57.880 --> 00:23:58.779
 persecuted

00:23:58.779 --> 00:23:59.640
 and sought to

00:23:59.640 --> 00:24:00.940
 harm God

00:24:00.940 --> 00:24:01.700
 and his people,

00:24:02.320 --> 00:24:03.200
 that people like

00:24:03.200 --> 00:24:03.680
 them need

00:24:03.680 --> 00:24:04.039
 forgiveness.

00:24:05.560 --> 00:24:05.759
 No,

00:24:05.840 --> 00:24:06.720
 what Saul's story

00:24:06.720 --> 00:24:07.180
 is saying

00:24:07.180 --> 00:24:08.180
 is so much

00:24:08.180 --> 00:24:09.140
 more deep,

00:24:09.400 --> 00:24:09.840
 so much more

00:24:09.840 --> 00:24:10.200
 profound,

00:24:10.279 --> 00:24:10.680
 so much more

00:24:10.680 --> 00:24:11.640
 hopeful than that.

00:24:12.080 --> 00:24:12.320
 You see,

00:24:12.360 --> 00:24:12.779
 it says that

00:24:12.779 --> 00:24:13.900
 even someone

00:24:13.900 --> 00:24:14.740
 like Saul,

00:24:15.200 --> 00:24:16.440
 even an enemy

00:24:16.440 --> 00:24:17.060
 of God,

00:24:17.200 --> 00:24:17.620
 someone who

00:24:17.620 --> 00:24:18.620
 actively sought

00:24:18.620 --> 00:24:20.039
 to hurt his

00:24:20.039 --> 00:24:20.480
 people,

00:24:22.019 --> 00:24:22.600
 that even

00:24:22.600 --> 00:24:23.519
 someone like that

00:24:23.519 --> 00:24:24.360
 can find forgiveness

00:24:24.360 --> 00:24:24.920
 in Jesus.

00:24:26.039 --> 00:24:27.440
 So that when you

00:24:27.440 --> 00:24:29.060
 realize that you

00:24:29.060 --> 00:24:29.720
 need forgiveness,

00:24:30.279 --> 00:24:30.980
 you don't need to

00:24:30.980 --> 00:24:31.940
 fear or doubt

00:24:31.940 --> 00:24:32.700
 or worry

00:24:32.700 --> 00:24:34.759
 if you will

00:24:34.759 --> 00:24:35.400
 find it.

00:24:37.000 --> 00:24:37.880
 That when you

00:24:37.880 --> 00:24:38.660
 ask for forgiveness

00:24:38.660 --> 00:24:39.620
 and life in Jesus,

00:24:40.440 --> 00:24:40.980
 you can have

00:24:40.980 --> 00:24:41.920
 confidence that

00:24:41.920 --> 00:24:42.660
 it will be

00:24:42.660 --> 00:24:43.480
 given to you.

00:24:46.360 --> 00:24:47.220
 If you're someone

00:24:47.220 --> 00:24:47.620
 who already

00:24:47.620 --> 00:24:48.259
 follows Jesus,

00:24:48.440 --> 00:24:49.240
 is this what

00:24:49.240 --> 00:24:49.779
 your heart

00:24:49.779 --> 00:24:50.680
 yearns for?

00:24:50.759 --> 00:24:51.140
 Is this what

00:24:51.140 --> 00:24:51.880
 your heart

00:24:51.880 --> 00:24:52.420
 desires?

00:24:53.019 --> 00:24:53.660
 That God

00:24:53.660 --> 00:24:54.480
 would use you

00:24:54.480 --> 00:24:55.400
 and his people

00:24:55.400 --> 00:24:56.860
 as we are,

00:24:57.640 --> 00:24:58.220
 frail,

00:24:58.400 --> 00:24:58.640
 weak,

00:24:58.799 --> 00:24:59.319
 uncertain,

00:24:59.319 --> 00:25:01.379
 to welcome

00:25:01.379 --> 00:25:02.000
 in the sinner,

00:25:02.339 --> 00:25:02.819
 to welcome

00:25:02.819 --> 00:25:03.559
 in the outcast,

00:25:03.639 --> 00:25:04.039
 to welcome

00:25:04.039 --> 00:25:04.679
 in the enemy,

00:25:05.939 --> 00:25:06.659
 realizing that

00:25:06.659 --> 00:25:07.519
 that was our

00:25:07.519 --> 00:25:07.859
 picture,

00:25:08.779 --> 00:25:09.819
 that was our

00:25:09.819 --> 00:25:10.419
 standing before

00:25:10.419 --> 00:25:10.779
 God,

00:25:11.419 --> 00:25:12.220
 but for Jesus.

00:25:13.720 --> 00:25:14.079
 Because

00:25:14.079 --> 00:25:14.720
 conversion,

00:25:15.659 --> 00:25:16.539
 conversion from

00:25:16.539 --> 00:25:17.439
 death to life,

00:25:17.839 --> 00:25:18.460
 from enemy

00:25:18.460 --> 00:25:19.379
 to family,

00:25:20.419 --> 00:25:21.299
 that is what

00:25:21.299 --> 00:25:22.079
 God's heart

00:25:22.079 --> 00:25:22.740
 beats for.

00:25:24.399 --> 00:25:25.379
 God is in

00:25:25.379 --> 00:25:25.960
 the business

00:25:25.960 --> 00:25:26.779
 of conversion,

00:25:27.379 --> 00:25:27.899
 of bringing

00:25:27.899 --> 00:25:29.039
 people from

00:25:29.039 --> 00:25:29.680
 death and

00:25:29.680 --> 00:25:30.299
 separation

00:25:30.299 --> 00:25:32.240
 into his

00:25:32.240 --> 00:25:32.779
 family to

00:25:32.779 --> 00:25:33.639
 enjoy life

00:25:33.639 --> 00:25:35.180
 in Jesus'

00:25:35.379 --> 00:25:35.599
 name.

00:25:37.659 --> 00:25:38.099
 So for

00:25:38.099 --> 00:25:38.440
 Saul,

00:25:39.059 --> 00:25:39.619
 he was led

00:25:39.619 --> 00:25:40.099
 through a

00:25:40.099 --> 00:25:40.779
 series of

00:25:40.779 --> 00:25:41.480
 uncomfortable

00:25:41.480 --> 00:25:42.220
 moments

00:25:42.220 --> 00:25:43.519
 before he

00:25:43.519 --> 00:25:44.000
 was brought

00:25:44.000 --> 00:25:44.339
 to his

00:25:44.339 --> 00:25:44.720
 knees

00:25:44.720 --> 00:25:46.079
 and saw

00:25:46.079 --> 00:25:46.879
 Jesus as

00:25:46.879 --> 00:25:47.519
 the Lord,

00:25:48.559 --> 00:25:49.000
 as the

00:25:49.000 --> 00:25:49.500
 only one

00:25:49.500 --> 00:25:49.819
 who could

00:25:49.819 --> 00:25:50.279
 save him

00:25:50.279 --> 00:25:50.680
 from his

00:25:50.680 --> 00:25:50.920
 sin.

00:25:52.359 --> 00:25:53.139
 For me,

00:25:53.180 --> 00:25:53.599
 it involved

00:25:53.599 --> 00:25:54.220
 a process

00:25:54.220 --> 00:25:54.980
 of uncomfortable

00:25:54.980 --> 00:25:55.619
 moments

00:25:55.619 --> 00:25:56.599
 moments

00:25:56.599 --> 00:25:57.139
 that ultimately

00:25:57.139 --> 00:25:57.979
 meant that

00:25:57.979 --> 00:25:58.459
 I sat

00:25:58.459 --> 00:25:59.179
 in an

00:25:59.179 --> 00:25:59.539
 outdoor

00:25:59.539 --> 00:26:00.000
 gazebo

00:26:00.000 --> 00:26:00.419
 with my

00:26:00.419 --> 00:26:00.799
 brother

00:26:00.799 --> 00:26:02.099
 confessing

00:26:02.099 --> 00:26:02.599
 that Jesus

00:26:02.599 --> 00:26:03.219
 was Lord,

00:26:03.359 --> 00:26:03.639
 that he

00:26:03.639 --> 00:26:04.099
 was Lord

00:26:04.099 --> 00:26:04.500
 of my

00:26:04.500 --> 00:26:05.000
 life,

00:26:06.239 --> 00:26:06.559
 and that

00:26:06.559 --> 00:26:06.839
 in that

00:26:06.839 --> 00:26:07.179
 moment,

00:26:07.359 --> 00:26:08.000
 what Jesus

00:26:08.000 --> 00:26:08.919
 had accomplished

00:26:08.919 --> 00:26:09.759
 by his

00:26:09.759 --> 00:26:10.500
 victory over

00:26:10.500 --> 00:26:10.959
 sin and

00:26:10.959 --> 00:26:11.239
 death at

00:26:11.239 --> 00:26:11.759
 the cross,

00:26:12.099 --> 00:26:12.500
 it meant

00:26:12.500 --> 00:26:12.839
 that I

00:26:12.839 --> 00:26:13.359
 went into

00:26:13.359 --> 00:26:14.179
 that gazebo,

00:26:14.639 --> 00:26:15.159
 an enemy

00:26:15.159 --> 00:26:15.519
 of God,

00:26:15.659 --> 00:26:16.559
 separated from

00:26:16.559 --> 00:26:17.079
 him because

00:26:17.079 --> 00:26:17.939
 of my sin,

00:26:18.299 --> 00:26:18.679
 and yet I

00:26:18.679 --> 00:26:19.500
 left there

00:26:19.500 --> 00:26:20.639
 as an

00:26:20.639 --> 00:26:21.099
 adopted,

00:26:21.399 --> 00:26:21.639
 loved,

00:26:21.799 --> 00:26:22.179
 forgiven,

00:26:22.180 --> 00:26:23.039
 child of

00:26:23.039 --> 00:26:23.340
 his.

00:26:24.160 --> 00:26:24.680
 That is

00:26:24.680 --> 00:26:25.160
 the gospel.

00:26:27.620 --> 00:26:28.279
 But what

00:26:28.279 --> 00:26:28.700
 about you?

00:26:31.580 --> 00:26:32.140
 Maybe

00:26:32.140 --> 00:26:32.640
 today is

00:26:32.640 --> 00:26:33.120
 your moment.

00:26:35.560 --> 00:26:36.120
 Maybe

00:26:36.120 --> 00:26:36.400
 you've

00:26:36.400 --> 00:26:36.820
 turned up

00:26:36.820 --> 00:26:37.259
 today,

00:26:37.400 --> 00:26:37.860
 or you

00:26:37.860 --> 00:26:38.460
 are watching

00:26:38.460 --> 00:26:39.200
 online,

00:26:39.759 --> 00:26:40.320
 and you

00:26:40.320 --> 00:26:40.720
 know that

00:26:40.720 --> 00:26:41.019
 you are

00:26:41.019 --> 00:26:41.480
 not a

00:26:41.480 --> 00:26:42.120
 follower of

00:26:42.120 --> 00:26:42.380
 Jesus,

00:26:43.500 --> 00:26:44.200
 and you

00:26:44.200 --> 00:26:44.460
 felt

00:26:44.460 --> 00:26:45.140
 confronted

00:26:45.140 --> 00:26:47.039
 by this

00:26:47.039 --> 00:26:47.880
 uncomfortable

00:26:47.880 --> 00:26:48.519
 reality

00:26:48.519 --> 00:26:50.740
 that,

00:26:50.980 --> 00:26:51.440
 like Saul,

00:26:52.180 --> 00:26:52.860
 you are

00:26:52.860 --> 00:26:53.360
 an enemy

00:26:53.360 --> 00:26:53.779
 of God,

00:26:53.940 --> 00:26:54.560
 separated

00:26:54.560 --> 00:26:55.840
 by the

00:26:55.840 --> 00:26:56.640
 weight of

00:26:56.640 --> 00:26:57.100
 your own

00:26:57.100 --> 00:26:57.420
 sin,

00:26:58.259 --> 00:26:59.060
 and that

00:26:59.060 --> 00:26:59.440
 the Lord

00:26:59.440 --> 00:27:00.100
 Jesus is

00:27:00.100 --> 00:27:00.660
 the only

00:27:00.660 --> 00:27:01.299
 one who

00:27:01.299 --> 00:27:02.100
 can convert

00:27:02.100 --> 00:27:02.400
 you,

00:27:02.620 --> 00:27:02.940
 who can

00:27:02.940 --> 00:27:03.460
 change

00:27:03.460 --> 00:27:03.600
 you,

00:27:03.640 --> 00:27:03.900
 who can

00:27:03.900 --> 00:27:04.360
 bring you

00:27:04.360 --> 00:27:04.799
 in from

00:27:04.799 --> 00:27:05.240
 an enemy

00:27:05.240 --> 00:27:05.900
 and outsider

00:27:05.900 --> 00:27:07.080
 to a

00:27:07.080 --> 00:27:07.620
 forgiven and

00:27:07.620 --> 00:27:08.259
 loved family

00:27:08.259 --> 00:27:08.600
 member.

00:27:10.400 --> 00:27:11.180
 If that

00:27:11.180 --> 00:27:11.680
 is you,

00:27:13.539 --> 00:27:14.340
 then know

00:27:14.340 --> 00:27:15.100
 conversion

00:27:15.100 --> 00:27:16.299
 is essential,

00:27:16.980 --> 00:27:17.759
 but it is

00:27:17.759 --> 00:27:19.019
 also available.

00:27:19.600 --> 00:27:20.000
 You can

00:27:20.000 --> 00:27:20.620
 receive it

00:27:20.620 --> 00:27:21.120
 here and

00:27:21.120 --> 00:27:21.600
 now this

00:27:21.600 --> 00:27:21.940
 morning,

00:27:22.180 --> 00:27:23.200
 and God

00:27:23.200 --> 00:27:25.060
 rejoices when

00:27:25.060 --> 00:27:25.480
 a sinner

00:27:25.480 --> 00:27:26.180
 turns to

00:27:26.180 --> 00:27:27.400
 him to

00:27:27.400 --> 00:27:28.019
 trust in

00:27:28.019 --> 00:27:28.620
 Jesus as

00:27:28.620 --> 00:27:29.060
 their Lord

00:27:29.060 --> 00:27:29.600
 and Savior.

00:27:31.640 --> 00:27:32.380
 We're about

00:27:32.380 --> 00:27:32.779
 to sing a

00:27:32.779 --> 00:27:33.200
 song in a

00:27:33.200 --> 00:27:33.440
 moment,

00:27:33.980 --> 00:27:34.340
 and then

00:27:34.340 --> 00:27:34.779
 Adrian is

00:27:34.779 --> 00:27:35.000
 going to

00:27:35.000 --> 00:27:35.539
 lead us

00:27:35.539 --> 00:27:36.080
 through a

00:27:36.080 --> 00:27:36.680
 prayer of

00:27:36.680 --> 00:27:37.160
 repentance

00:27:37.160 --> 00:27:37.960
 and faith,

00:27:39.100 --> 00:27:39.960
 a prayer of

00:27:39.960 --> 00:27:40.620
 surrendering

00:27:40.620 --> 00:27:41.200
 oneself,

00:27:41.779 --> 00:27:42.960
 surrendering the

00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:43.500
 weight of

00:27:43.500 --> 00:27:44.000
 sin,

00:27:44.960 --> 00:27:45.340
 acknowledging

00:27:45.340 --> 00:27:45.860
 that it's a

00:27:45.860 --> 00:27:46.240
 weight that

00:27:46.240 --> 00:27:46.799
 we cannot

00:27:46.799 --> 00:27:47.259
 bear,

00:27:48.940 --> 00:27:50.200
 but rejoicing

00:27:50.200 --> 00:27:51.140
 that Jesus

00:27:51.140 --> 00:27:51.779
 bore that

00:27:51.779 --> 00:27:52.240
 weight when

00:27:52.240 --> 00:27:52.600
 he went

00:27:52.600 --> 00:27:52.840
 to the

00:27:52.840 --> 00:27:53.240
 cross,

00:27:53.240 --> 00:27:54.440
 that we

00:27:54.440 --> 00:27:54.720
 can have

00:27:54.720 --> 00:27:55.519
 confidence in

00:27:55.519 --> 00:27:55.880
 forgiveness,

00:27:56.000 --> 00:27:56.539
 because just

00:27:56.539 --> 00:27:57.080
 as Jesus

00:27:57.080 --> 00:27:57.819
 died to

00:27:57.819 --> 00:27:58.059
 sin,

00:27:58.140 --> 00:27:58.400
 he was

00:27:58.400 --> 00:27:59.380
 raised to

00:27:59.380 --> 00:28:00.080
 new life,

00:28:00.460 --> 00:28:01.340
 conquering sin

00:28:01.340 --> 00:28:02.000
 and death.

00:28:02.000 --> 00:28:05.220
 God brought

00:28:05.220 --> 00:28:05.720
 Saul to his

00:28:05.720 --> 00:28:06.099
 knees,

00:28:07.759 --> 00:28:08.180
 and having

00:28:08.180 --> 00:28:08.920
 spent several

00:28:08.920 --> 00:28:10.180
 days prayerfully

00:28:10.180 --> 00:28:11.160
 seeking God

00:28:11.160 --> 00:28:11.920
 in his

00:28:11.920 --> 00:28:12.460
 discomfort,

00:28:13.900 --> 00:28:14.579
 he was

00:28:14.579 --> 00:28:15.380
 welcomed into

00:28:15.380 --> 00:28:16.180
 the family in

00:28:16.180 --> 00:28:16.579
 a moment,

00:28:17.200 --> 00:28:17.720
 and it's a

00:28:17.720 --> 00:28:18.500
 beautiful picture

00:28:18.500 --> 00:28:19.220
 that's captured

00:28:19.220 --> 00:28:20.400
 by Ananias,

00:28:20.859 --> 00:28:21.539
 realizing that

00:28:21.539 --> 00:28:22.200
 Saul is an

00:28:22.200 --> 00:28:22.579
 enemy,

00:28:23.500 --> 00:28:24.420
 and yet when

00:28:24.420 --> 00:28:25.319
 Saul arrives in

00:28:25.319 --> 00:28:25.700
 front of him,

00:28:25.759 --> 00:28:26.500
 he greets him

00:28:26.500 --> 00:28:27.220
 as brother.

00:28:27.220 --> 00:28:31.880
 God in his

00:28:31.880 --> 00:28:32.600
 kindness,

00:28:32.980 --> 00:28:33.579
 in his

00:28:33.579 --> 00:28:34.180
 kindness,

00:28:34.980 --> 00:28:35.579
 may have

00:28:35.579 --> 00:28:36.839
 impressed the

00:28:36.839 --> 00:28:37.579
 uncomfortable

00:28:37.579 --> 00:28:38.640
 need that you

00:28:38.640 --> 00:28:39.220
 have for a

00:28:39.220 --> 00:28:39.740
 savior this

00:28:39.740 --> 00:28:39.980
 morning,

00:28:40.740 --> 00:28:42.980
 but this is

00:28:42.980 --> 00:28:43.420
 the gospel,

00:28:43.940 --> 00:28:44.539
 this is the

00:28:44.539 --> 00:28:44.759
 gospel,

00:28:44.960 --> 00:28:45.519
 you may have

00:28:45.519 --> 00:28:46.140
 entered here

00:28:46.140 --> 00:28:46.720
 this morning

00:28:46.720 --> 00:28:48.819
 only to be

00:28:48.819 --> 00:28:49.680
 confronted by

00:28:49.680 --> 00:28:50.420
 that uncomfortable

00:28:50.420 --> 00:28:50.980
 reality,

00:28:51.640 --> 00:28:52.839
 that you are

00:28:52.839 --> 00:28:53.759
 an enemy of

00:28:53.759 --> 00:28:54.100
 God,

00:28:54.319 --> 00:28:55.240
 that your sin

00:28:55.240 --> 00:28:56.259
 has separated

00:28:56.259 --> 00:28:56.759
 you from

00:28:56.759 --> 00:28:57.079
 him,

00:28:57.220 --> 00:29:00.259
 but you

00:29:00.259 --> 00:29:00.720
 could leave

00:29:00.720 --> 00:29:01.240
 here today

00:29:01.240 --> 00:29:01.980
 as family,

00:29:02.519 --> 00:29:02.920
 you could

00:29:02.920 --> 00:29:03.559
 leave here

00:29:03.559 --> 00:29:04.779
 today as

00:29:04.779 --> 00:29:05.380
 a forgiven,

00:29:06.019 --> 00:29:06.319
 loved,

00:29:06.480 --> 00:29:07.180
 and cherished

00:29:07.180 --> 00:29:07.960
 child of the

00:29:07.960 --> 00:29:08.539
 living God,

00:29:09.319 --> 00:29:10.299
 that is Jesus

00:29:10.299 --> 00:29:11.019
 promise to

00:29:11.019 --> 00:29:11.279
 you,

00:29:12.500 --> 00:29:14.059
 do you need

00:29:14.059 --> 00:29:14.559
 that gift?

00:29:14.819 --> 00:29:16.460
,

00:29:17.799 --> 00:29:30.559
 will you wait

00:29:30.559 --> 00:29:31.179
 I want to

00:29:31.179 --> 00:29:31.720
 take care

00:29:31.899 --> 00:29:32.299
 Karen

00:29:32.299 --> 00:29:33.039
 yes

00:29:33.039 --> 00:29:34.579
 I want to

00:29:34.579 --> 00:29:34.639
 see it

00:29:34.639 --> 00:29:35.819
 I want to