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 You are listening to a message from Southwood Presbyterian Church in Huntsville, Alabama.

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 I'm going to start by reading Joshua, the book of Joshua, chapter 1, first 9 verses.

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 After the death of Moses, the servant of the Lord, the Lord said to Joshua, the son of Nun,

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 Moses' assistant, Moses, my servant, is dead.

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 Now therefore, rise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people, into the land that I am giving to them,

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 to the people of Israel. Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon,

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 I have given to you, just as I promised to Moses.

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 From the wilderness and this Lebanon, as far as the great river, the great river Euphrates,

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 all the land of the Hittites to the great sea, toward the going down of the sun,

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 shall be your territory.

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 No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life.

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 Just as I was with Moses, so I'll be with you.

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 I will not leave you or forsake you.

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 Be strong and courageous,

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 for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them.

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 Only be strong and very courageous,

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 being careful to do according to all the law that Moses, my servant, commanded you.

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 Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left,

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 that you may go have good success wherever you go.

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 This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth,

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 but you shall meditate on it day and night,

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 so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it.

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 For then you will make your way prosperous,

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 and then you will have good success.

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 Have I not commanded you?

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 Be strong and courageous.

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 Do not be afraid, excuse me,

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 do not be frightened,

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 and do not be dismayed,

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 for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

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 That passage has been

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 something like out in front of me.

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 There have been about three that have been out in front of me

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 in the back of my mind at the same time.

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 Sort of directing my motivation

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 and setting my sights on

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 where I think

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 God really,

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 the work that he's trying to do.

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 And I think it fits for all of us.

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 And it's interesting to me that

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 you know what the moment is.

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 Moses has died.

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 God has said that.

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 It's always interesting to me that God is so

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 direct about that.

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 Moses, my servant, is dead.

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 Huh.

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 Okay.

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 I'm sure he cared about that,

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 but he stated that fact.

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 Making clear to Joshua,

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 this is where you're at.

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 And yet,

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 you're going to lead this people

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 and take this vast amount of territory

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 that I promised to your fathers a long time ago.

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 And it's on you.

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 It's the kind of situation

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 where any of us would be like,

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 uh-oh.

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 Whoa.

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 Really?

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 How did I end up here?

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 And yet,

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 God doesn't do something

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 that in this day and age especially

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 we would expect

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 and we would hope him to do.

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 Hope that he would do.

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 He doesn't lay out the plans.

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 He doesn't say,

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 take this division of men

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 and that division

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 and send them there

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 and send them there

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 and accomplish that objective

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 and so when you do that

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 then they can do this

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 and flank them

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 and attack here,

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 attack.

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 He doesn't do that.

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 None of it.

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 There's nothing like that.

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 That would drive most of us nuts.

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 It's like God's withholding the information

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 and keep it in his pocket.

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 Part of me almost is,

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 I don't know if this is true,

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 but part of me is just like,

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 sometimes God's just playing with us,

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 isn't he?

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 Maybe he is a little bit

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 because he respects and trusts us

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 more than we trust ourselves.

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 So we're looking for that information

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 and that plan

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 and all of that.

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 Sometimes we're praying

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 for God to tell us what to do

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 and he's not telling us

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 because he's like,

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 I don't need to.

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 I'm with you.

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 So go,

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 is what he says.

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 I've listed there in the outline

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 some specific things that God does.

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 In verse 2,

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 God reminds Joshua

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 who God is.

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 What does he say there in verse 2?

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 Moses, my servant.

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 I'm the leader.

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 I am God.

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 You remember,

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 Moses used to go to that tent of meeting

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 and meet with me.

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 maintaining that relationship

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 in a special way

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 that almost no one else on earth

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 had ever done.

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 To go to that tent of meeting

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 and God's presence

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 was there.

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 I say almost

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 because there was an exception,

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 Joshua,

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 toward the end of Moses' life.

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 This same passage

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 is actually recorded in Deuteronomy.

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 Deuteronomy.

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 That moment where Joshua

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 went with Moses

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 to that tent of meeting

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 and God says this.

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 You're going to lead the people.

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 Be strong and courageous.

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 Don't be afraid.

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 I'm with you.

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 That's all Joshua needed to know.

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 So God reminds Joshua

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 of who God is.

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 God reminds Joshua

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 of his relationship

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 with Joshua.

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 I see it in verse 5

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 but it's really

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 all over the passage.

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 No man

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 shall be able to stand

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 before all the days,

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 before you

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 all the days

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 of your life

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 just as I was with Moses.

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 I'll be with you.

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 Remember that.

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 Just as I was with Moses, Joshua.

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 I'll be with you.

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 You just have to remember

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 the relationship.

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 You don't need the plan.

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 God gives limited information.

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 I've talked about that.

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 God encourages Joshua

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 to be grounded

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 in God's relationship

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 with him.

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 Again in verse 5.

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 Just as I was with Moses,

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 so I will be with you.

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 I will not leave you

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 or forsake you.

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 To be convinced

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 he's not going away.

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 He's not going away.

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 He's not going away.

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 And he says then

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 in verse 6,

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 be strong and courageous.

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 He's not asking Joshua

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 to be strong and courageous

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 to find something

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 in himself

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 and stir it up

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 and bring it up

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 and act out of that.

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 He's saying,

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 I'm with you.

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 So why couldn't you

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 be strong and courageous?

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 You don't have to be enough.

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 You don't have to be strong enough.

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 You just have to be grounded

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 in the fact that

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 I'm with you.

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 The things that we're

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 thinking about

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 and talking about

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 this weekend

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 about our relationships

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 as husbands and wives,

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 our relationships

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 as parents with our kids,

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 our relationship

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 as kids with our parents,

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 might be,

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 I could make a case

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 to grow and

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 and work on those things,

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 being transformed

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 in the quality

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 of those relationships

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 to really be taking care

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 of each other's hearts

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 might be

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 the hardest battle

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 that we have

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 in our lives.

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 You won't hear from me.

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 You haven't heard from me.

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 And some of you

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 might be a little frustrated.

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 You know,

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 that nugget,

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 that specific

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 how-to.

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 Oh, okay.

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 I can do that.

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 That tool.

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 Oh, I can take that

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 and I can make things happen now.

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 I think

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 part of what God's

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 showing us here

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 in Joshua 1

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 is that's not

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 His idea

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 of how it works.

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 That's ours.

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 And it's not really

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 the best idea.

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 His idea is,

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 oh yeah,

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 there are challenging things.

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 You're going to go

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 everywhere you set your foot.

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 God says to Joshua,

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 you're going to take the land,

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 but it's not going to happen easily.

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 You have to fight through

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 to set your foot

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 in all that territory.

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 People will die.

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 There'll be a big cost.

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 But it's not the plan

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 that's going to carry you through

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 and do the work

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 that God has for you.

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 It's the fact that He's with you.

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 And resting in that,

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 being grounded in that fact

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 that He's with you,

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 that thing that you don't know

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 as you enter into

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 that hard moment

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 actually isn't the point.

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 The challenge is

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 trusting

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 in God's presence

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 that He will enable you

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 to first of all

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 be courageous,

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 to be strong

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 in the sense of not being afraid.

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 He keeps those linked together

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 so that we can be courageous.

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 There might not be

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 anything that takes more courage

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 than for a man to look

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 in his wife's eyes

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 and ask her,

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 I must be missing you.

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 How am I missing you?

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 Or for a woman to look

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 in her husband's eyes

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 and ask,

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 have I been trying

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 to control you?

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 Is that,

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 what does it feel like

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 for you

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 to be married to me?

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 That takes courage.

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 Courage.

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 That's a challenging thing.

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 In verse 9,

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 have I not commanded you

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 to be strong and courageous?

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 Do not be frightened.

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 Do not be dismayed.

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 For the Lord your God

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 is with you

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 wherever you go.

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 Wherever you go.

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 It doesn't specify it.

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 Wherever you go.

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 I'm summarizing that

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 as that

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 all of this

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 is so that Joshua

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 can be enough

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 even though he's not

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 on his own.

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 The strong and courageous

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 is not,

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 you know,

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 in preparation,

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 lift those

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 general weights,

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 weights for generals,

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 lift those weights

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 for leaders,

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 learn those lessons

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 that you need to learn

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 so that you can be strong

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 and go be strong.

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 If no,

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 in the moment,

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 trust God

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 to take what

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 he's already built

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 into you

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 and to apply it

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 in a courageous way

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 which means

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 being vulnerable

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 and open-hearted

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 for the other's good.

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 Sacrificially.

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 So some things

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 to consider,

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 some truths

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 to consider.

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 It's as if

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 I think I'm allergic

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 to these things.

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 something always happens.

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 Falls off my belt.

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 Sorry.

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 It's as if

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 in Joshua 1

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 God's saying

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 these

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 wonderful truths

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 but there are

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 these other truths

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 that are something

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 of a but.

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 That's really

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 that Joshua 1 stuff

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 is

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 a little too hard.

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 I just want us

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 to think about

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 why it's hard.

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 You see that

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 first line there

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 because fear

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 is hiding

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 in your soul.

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 And it's

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 sneaky

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 and powerful.

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 God knows

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 what he's doing.

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 That's a funny

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 thing to say.

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 God knows

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 what he's doing

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 when he comes

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 to Joshua

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 at such a key point

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 and he says

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 don't be afraid.

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 Jesus does

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 the same thing

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 with his disciples

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 in that upper room

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 preparing them

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 for what's going

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 to happen tomorrow.

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 And he says

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 let not your hearts

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 be troubled.

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 God knows

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 that the

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 most challenging

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 thing for us

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 is there's this

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 fear,

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 there's this tendency

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 to be afraid

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 but it's sneaky

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 and it hides

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 and we don't see it

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 which even adds

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 to its power.

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 fear.

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 But so often

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 we live

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 out of the fear

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 more than the

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 assurance

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 that God

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 is with us

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 and that we

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 can be strong

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 enough

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 with God's

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 help

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 as he works

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 in us.

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 That's one

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 of the buts.

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 another one

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 is that

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 those people

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 that you care

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 about the most

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 the ones

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 sitting next

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 to you

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 many of you

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 your husband

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 your wife

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 your children

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 your parents

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 most of the time

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 they're the ones

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 you're afraid of

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 the most.

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 You might think

00:14:53.259 --> 00:14:53.620
 about that

00:14:53.620 --> 00:14:54.040
 for a while

00:14:54.040 --> 00:14:55.279
 it might be

00:14:55.279 --> 00:14:55.860
 a surprise.

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 Intimacy

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 being known

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 Genesis 2

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 tells us

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 that Adam

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 and Eve

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 were naked

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 without shame

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 they were

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 completely

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 known

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 and yet

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 accepted.

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 Since Adam

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 and Eve

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 sin

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 that's way

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 out there.

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 The road

00:15:22.540 --> 00:15:23.060
 to that

00:15:23.060 --> 00:15:24.080
 sense

00:15:24.080 --> 00:15:24.500
 of being

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 naked

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 without shame

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 is a

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 rocky

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 twisted

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 broken

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 road.

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 It's

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 possible

00:15:35.599 --> 00:15:36.699
 but God

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 has to do

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 that work

00:15:37.599 --> 00:15:38.379
 we have to

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 collaborate

00:15:38.719 --> 00:15:39.379
 in that work.

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 It's important

00:15:42.000 --> 00:15:42.439
 for us to

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 recognize

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 that

00:15:43.319 --> 00:15:45.779
 in the

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 most

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 intimate

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 moments

00:15:47.099 --> 00:15:48.799
 most

00:15:48.799 --> 00:15:49.339
 of us

00:15:49.339 --> 00:15:51.739
 are looking

00:15:51.739 --> 00:15:52.059
 for an

00:15:52.059 --> 00:15:52.339
 escape.

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 It's so

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 uncomfortable.

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 The truth

00:15:56.099 --> 00:15:56.500
 is we

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 can't

00:15:56.919 --> 00:15:57.339
 tolerate

00:15:57.339 --> 00:15:57.979
 too much

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 intimacy

00:15:58.799 --> 00:15:59.699
 for very

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 long.

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 We need

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 it.

00:16:03.639 --> 00:16:04.379
 We need

00:16:04.379 --> 00:16:04.579
 it.

00:16:05.939 --> 00:16:06.719
 But at the

00:16:06.719 --> 00:16:07.719
 best moments

00:16:07.719 --> 00:16:12.199
 we will

00:16:12.199 --> 00:16:12.399
 bail.

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 Some of you

00:16:18.099 --> 00:16:18.699
 might be like

00:16:18.699 --> 00:16:19.339
 me and you

00:16:19.339 --> 00:16:19.759
 don't like

00:16:19.759 --> 00:16:20.279
 goodbyes.

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 not liking

00:16:24.639 --> 00:16:25.159
 goodbyes

00:16:25.159 --> 00:16:25.539
 is something

00:16:25.539 --> 00:16:26.100
 about that

00:16:26.100 --> 00:16:26.399
 because

00:16:26.399 --> 00:16:26.959
 goodbyes

00:16:26.959 --> 00:16:27.439
 get very

00:16:27.439 --> 00:16:27.740
 intimate.

00:16:29.000 --> 00:16:29.579
 When you're

00:16:29.579 --> 00:16:30.079
 saying goodbye

00:16:30.079 --> 00:16:30.559
 to someone

00:16:30.559 --> 00:16:30.939
 and you

00:16:30.939 --> 00:16:31.919
 don't know

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 when you're

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 going to

00:16:32.519 --> 00:16:32.819
 see them

00:16:32.819 --> 00:16:33.120
 again

00:16:33.120 --> 00:16:33.559
 or if

00:16:33.559 --> 00:16:34.059
 you will

00:16:34.059 --> 00:16:35.000
 and they

00:16:35.000 --> 00:16:35.639
 matter to

00:16:35.639 --> 00:16:36.000
 you

00:16:36.000 --> 00:16:37.519
 you want

00:16:37.519 --> 00:16:37.959
 to be able

00:16:37.959 --> 00:16:38.500
 to communicate

00:16:38.500 --> 00:16:38.899
 that

00:16:38.899 --> 00:16:39.919
 and there's

00:16:39.919 --> 00:16:40.159
 something

00:16:40.159 --> 00:16:40.639
 happening

00:16:40.639 --> 00:16:41.019
 that you

00:16:41.019 --> 00:16:41.439
 don't have

00:16:41.439 --> 00:16:42.000
 any control

00:16:42.000 --> 00:16:42.199
 of

00:16:42.199 --> 00:16:42.480
 and it's

00:16:42.480 --> 00:16:42.639
 just

00:16:42.639 --> 00:16:42.959
 that you

00:16:42.959 --> 00:16:43.240
 both

00:16:43.240 --> 00:16:43.699
 know

00:16:43.700 --> 00:16:47.900
 we really

00:16:47.900 --> 00:16:48.360
 care for

00:16:48.360 --> 00:16:48.800
 each other

00:16:48.800 --> 00:16:49.560
 and we're

00:16:49.560 --> 00:16:50.759
 approaching

00:16:50.759 --> 00:16:52.259
 getting ready

00:16:52.259 --> 00:16:52.860
 that we

00:16:52.860 --> 00:16:53.660
 sense that

00:16:53.660 --> 00:16:54.040
 this is

00:16:54.040 --> 00:16:54.259
 going to

00:16:54.259 --> 00:16:54.740
 change

00:16:54.740 --> 00:16:55.720
 and we're

00:16:55.720 --> 00:16:56.160
 losing

00:16:56.160 --> 00:16:56.780
 something

00:16:56.780 --> 00:17:00.500
 and something

00:17:00.500 --> 00:17:00.940
 you feel

00:17:00.940 --> 00:17:01.780
 so intensely

00:17:01.780 --> 00:17:02.600
 there aren't

00:17:02.600 --> 00:17:03.440
 really enough

00:17:03.440 --> 00:17:04.080
 words

00:17:04.080 --> 00:17:07.080
 or words

00:17:07.080 --> 00:17:07.420
 aren't

00:17:07.420 --> 00:17:08.039
 powerful

00:17:08.039 --> 00:17:08.559
 enough

00:17:08.559 --> 00:17:09.759
 words

00:17:09.759 --> 00:17:10.000
 aren't

00:17:10.000 --> 00:17:10.620
 big enough

00:17:10.620 --> 00:17:11.340
 containers

00:17:11.339 --> 00:17:12.639
 for those

00:17:12.639 --> 00:17:12.879
 things

00:17:12.879 --> 00:17:13.179
 that you

00:17:13.179 --> 00:17:13.500
 feel

00:17:13.500 --> 00:17:17.299
 we don't

00:17:17.299 --> 00:17:17.779
 live in a

00:17:17.779 --> 00:17:18.319
 world that's

00:17:18.319 --> 00:17:18.919
 taught us

00:17:18.919 --> 00:17:19.279
 that we

00:17:19.279 --> 00:17:19.819
 actually can

00:17:19.819 --> 00:17:20.259
 communicate

00:17:20.259 --> 00:17:21.019
 things without

00:17:21.019 --> 00:17:21.539
 words

00:17:21.539 --> 00:17:22.220
 we do

00:17:22.220 --> 00:17:22.779
 anyway

00:17:22.779 --> 00:17:24.039
 but we're

00:17:24.039 --> 00:17:24.419
 not used

00:17:24.419 --> 00:17:24.799
 to that

00:17:24.799 --> 00:17:25.159
 we don't

00:17:25.159 --> 00:17:25.740
 trust that

00:17:25.740 --> 00:17:26.480
 very much

00:17:26.480 --> 00:17:28.859
 and so

00:17:28.859 --> 00:17:29.659
 often in that

00:17:29.659 --> 00:17:30.459
 sense of

00:17:30.459 --> 00:17:31.859
 I can't

00:17:31.859 --> 00:17:32.579
 say it

00:17:32.579 --> 00:17:34.779
 we run

00:17:34.779 --> 00:17:35.159
 from the

00:17:35.159 --> 00:17:35.539
 moment

00:17:35.539 --> 00:17:41.839
 as I've

00:17:41.839 --> 00:17:42.299
 aged

00:17:42.299 --> 00:17:42.799
 I've gotten

00:17:42.799 --> 00:17:43.299
 a little

00:17:43.299 --> 00:17:43.920
 better at

00:17:43.920 --> 00:17:44.399
 correcting

00:17:44.399 --> 00:17:44.980
 myself

00:17:44.980 --> 00:17:46.480
 I don't

00:17:46.480 --> 00:17:47.000
 always do

00:17:47.000 --> 00:17:47.240
 it

00:17:47.240 --> 00:17:47.720
 because it's

00:17:47.720 --> 00:17:48.099
 a hard

00:17:48.099 --> 00:17:48.480
 thing

00:17:48.480 --> 00:17:50.759
 what I mean

00:17:50.759 --> 00:17:51.139
 by that

00:17:51.139 --> 00:17:51.519
 is

00:17:51.519 --> 00:17:53.039
 you know

00:17:53.039 --> 00:17:53.319
 at that

00:17:53.319 --> 00:17:53.599
 point

00:17:53.599 --> 00:17:53.980
 that I

00:17:53.980 --> 00:17:54.500
 say

00:17:54.500 --> 00:17:57.019
 see you

00:17:57.019 --> 00:17:57.339
 later

00:17:57.339 --> 00:17:59.940
 to someone

00:17:59.940 --> 00:18:00.279
 that I'm

00:18:00.279 --> 00:18:00.639
 not

00:18:00.639 --> 00:18:01.319
 going to

00:18:01.319 --> 00:18:01.799
 see later

00:18:01.799 --> 00:18:03.460
 you know

00:18:03.460 --> 00:18:04.039
 it's the

00:18:04.039 --> 00:18:05.200
 we're going

00:18:05.200 --> 00:18:05.460
 to do

00:18:05.460 --> 00:18:05.919
 this just

00:18:05.919 --> 00:18:06.279
 like we

00:18:06.279 --> 00:18:06.859
 always do

00:18:06.859 --> 00:18:07.559
 as if

00:18:07.559 --> 00:18:10.599
 to escape

00:18:10.599 --> 00:18:10.940
 that

00:18:10.940 --> 00:18:11.619
 discomfort

00:18:11.619 --> 00:18:13.039
 of

00:18:13.039 --> 00:18:13.879
 really

00:18:13.879 --> 00:18:14.599
 connecting

00:18:14.599 --> 00:18:15.139
 and being

00:18:15.139 --> 00:18:15.579
 intimate

00:18:15.579 --> 00:18:15.980
 around

00:18:15.980 --> 00:18:16.379
 what are

00:18:16.379 --> 00:18:16.519
 we

00:18:16.519 --> 00:18:16.899
 feeling

00:18:16.899 --> 00:18:17.480
 right now

00:18:17.480 --> 00:18:21.240
 so the

00:18:21.240 --> 00:18:21.539
 correction

00:18:21.539 --> 00:18:22.180
 looks like

00:18:22.180 --> 00:18:24.180
 no

00:18:24.180 --> 00:18:25.700
 there I

00:18:25.700 --> 00:18:26.220
 go again

00:18:26.220 --> 00:18:28.579
 that's not

00:18:28.579 --> 00:18:29.419
 it is it

00:18:29.419 --> 00:18:30.559
 we're not

00:18:30.559 --> 00:18:31.139
 we don't

00:18:31.139 --> 00:18:31.460
 know

00:18:31.460 --> 00:18:33.579
 until we

00:18:33.579 --> 00:18:33.880
 have a

00:18:33.880 --> 00:18:34.259
 little bit

00:18:34.259 --> 00:18:34.360
 of

00:18:34.360 --> 00:18:34.920
 conversation

00:18:34.920 --> 00:18:40.200
 I'm

00:18:40.200 --> 00:18:40.240
 going to

00:18:40.240 --> 00:18:40.440
 have to

00:18:40.440 --> 00:18:40.819
 trust you

00:18:40.819 --> 00:18:41.240
 to think

00:18:41.240 --> 00:18:41.740
 about that

00:18:41.740 --> 00:18:42.140
 some more

00:18:42.140 --> 00:18:43.840
 I'm

00:18:43.840 --> 00:18:44.319
 finding it

00:18:44.319 --> 00:18:44.640
 hard to

00:18:44.640 --> 00:18:45.079
 explain

00:18:45.079 --> 00:18:48.299
 that we're

00:18:48.299 --> 00:18:48.700
 afraid of

00:18:48.700 --> 00:18:49.140
 intimacy

00:18:49.140 --> 00:18:51.039
 afraid of

00:18:51.039 --> 00:18:51.620
 being known

00:18:51.620 --> 00:18:55.539
 maybe it

00:18:55.539 --> 00:18:56.019
 has a lot

00:18:56.019 --> 00:18:56.420
 to do with

00:18:56.420 --> 00:18:56.779
 our own

00:18:56.779 --> 00:18:57.180
 shame

00:18:57.180 --> 00:18:57.779
 that we

00:18:57.779 --> 00:18:58.140
 all have

00:18:58.140 --> 00:18:58.680
 a certain

00:18:58.680 --> 00:18:59.259
 dose of

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 that

00:19:00.859 --> 00:19:01.519
 even

00:19:01.519 --> 00:19:02.039
 I know

00:19:02.039 --> 00:19:02.479
 for me

00:19:02.479 --> 00:19:02.939
 is I'm

00:19:02.939 --> 00:19:03.259
 in that

00:19:03.259 --> 00:19:03.759
 a moment

00:19:03.759 --> 00:19:04.259
 like that

00:19:04.259 --> 00:19:04.959
 saying goodbye

00:19:04.959 --> 00:19:05.779
 and I

00:19:05.779 --> 00:19:06.279
 can't

00:19:06.279 --> 00:19:06.719
 I don't

00:19:06.719 --> 00:19:07.979
 my whole

00:19:07.979 --> 00:19:08.399
 life is

00:19:08.399 --> 00:19:08.879
 words

00:19:08.879 --> 00:19:10.639
 and here I

00:19:10.639 --> 00:19:11.000
 am in

00:19:11.000 --> 00:19:11.659
 this moment

00:19:11.659 --> 00:19:12.019
 where I

00:19:12.019 --> 00:19:12.740
 I don't

00:19:12.740 --> 00:19:13.000
 have the

00:19:13.000 --> 00:19:13.359
 words

00:19:13.359 --> 00:19:17.759
 thing that's

00:19:17.759 --> 00:19:18.279
 strange

00:19:18.279 --> 00:19:19.159
 seems

00:19:19.159 --> 00:19:19.659
 strange

00:19:19.659 --> 00:19:20.719
 it's ironic

00:19:20.720 --> 00:19:25.900
 is as

00:19:25.900 --> 00:19:26.779
 God's

00:19:26.779 --> 00:19:27.180
 worked in

00:19:27.180 --> 00:19:27.779
 my life

00:19:27.779 --> 00:19:28.799
 and I've

00:19:28.799 --> 00:19:29.039
 gotten

00:19:29.039 --> 00:19:29.600
 more

00:19:29.600 --> 00:19:31.700
 grown the

00:19:31.700 --> 00:19:32.440
 capacity to

00:19:32.440 --> 00:19:32.860
 be more

00:19:32.860 --> 00:19:34.019
 aware of

00:19:34.019 --> 00:19:34.299
 what I

00:19:34.299 --> 00:19:34.640
 feel

00:19:34.640 --> 00:19:37.400
 I'm not

00:19:37.400 --> 00:19:37.880
 any better

00:19:37.880 --> 00:19:38.440
 at saying

00:19:38.440 --> 00:19:38.720
 it

00:19:38.720 --> 00:19:40.039
 or I'm

00:19:40.039 --> 00:19:40.500
 not much

00:19:40.500 --> 00:19:40.920
 better at

00:19:40.920 --> 00:19:41.400
 saying it

00:19:41.400 --> 00:19:42.759
 you know

00:19:42.759 --> 00:19:43.279
 it's still

00:19:43.279 --> 00:19:43.700
 hard

00:19:43.700 --> 00:19:44.720
 in fact

00:19:44.720 --> 00:19:45.460
 it's harder

00:19:45.460 --> 00:19:47.259
 as I'm

00:19:47.259 --> 00:19:47.920
 more aware

00:19:47.920 --> 00:19:52.620
 it's harder

00:19:52.620 --> 00:19:53.079
 because I

00:19:53.079 --> 00:19:53.259
 don't

00:19:53.259 --> 00:19:54.559
 I'm more

00:19:54.559 --> 00:19:54.940
 aware I

00:19:54.940 --> 00:19:55.279
 don't have

00:19:55.279 --> 00:19:55.740
 the words

00:19:55.740 --> 00:19:57.860
 in that

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 moment

00:19:58.180 --> 00:19:59.880
 so it

00:19:59.880 --> 00:20:00.900
 takes courage

00:20:00.900 --> 00:20:02.079
 to attempt

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 something

00:20:02.920 --> 00:20:04.559
 and to

00:20:04.559 --> 00:20:05.240
 remember

00:20:05.240 --> 00:20:07.279
 it actually

00:20:07.279 --> 00:20:08.019
 isn't the

00:20:08.019 --> 00:20:09.019
 content in

00:20:09.019 --> 00:20:09.460
 a moment

00:20:09.460 --> 00:20:10.500
 the content

00:20:10.500 --> 00:20:10.900
 that you

00:20:10.900 --> 00:20:11.299
 express

00:20:11.299 --> 00:20:11.720
 that's the

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 point

00:20:12.059 --> 00:20:12.819
 it's the

00:20:12.819 --> 00:20:13.720
 process of

00:20:13.720 --> 00:20:14.240
 trying to

00:20:14.240 --> 00:20:14.840
 express it

00:20:14.839 --> 00:20:20.759
 it's actually

00:20:20.759 --> 00:20:21.819
 the impact

00:20:21.819 --> 00:20:22.179
 that you

00:20:22.179 --> 00:20:22.559
 have on

00:20:22.559 --> 00:20:23.119
 the person

00:20:23.119 --> 00:20:24.199
 not the

00:20:24.199 --> 00:20:24.699
 content

00:20:24.699 --> 00:20:25.099
 that you

00:20:25.099 --> 00:20:25.480
 put in

00:20:25.480 --> 00:20:25.720
 their

00:20:25.720 --> 00:20:26.919
 cognitive

00:20:26.919 --> 00:20:28.439
 portions

00:20:28.439 --> 00:20:28.759
 of their

00:20:28.759 --> 00:20:29.139
 brain

00:20:29.139 --> 00:20:30.279
 it's the

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 impact

00:20:30.839 --> 00:20:31.139
 that you

00:20:31.139 --> 00:20:31.459
 have on

00:20:31.459 --> 00:20:31.859
 a person

00:20:31.859 --> 00:20:32.240
 which has

00:20:32.240 --> 00:20:32.639
 more to

00:20:32.639 --> 00:20:33.079
 do with

00:20:33.079 --> 00:20:35.099
 what you're

00:20:35.099 --> 00:20:35.659
 projecting

00:20:35.659 --> 00:20:36.439
 from yourself

00:20:36.439 --> 00:20:36.899
 what you're

00:20:36.899 --> 00:20:37.339
 feeling

00:20:37.339 --> 00:20:41.199
 I may have

00:20:41.199 --> 00:20:41.519
 said this

00:20:41.519 --> 00:20:42.000
 last night

00:20:42.000 --> 00:20:42.939
 I was

00:20:42.939 --> 00:20:43.339
 reading some

00:20:43.339 --> 00:20:43.779
 research

00:20:43.779 --> 00:20:45.220
 on the

00:20:45.220 --> 00:20:45.500
 plane

00:20:45.500 --> 00:20:46.079
 Friday

00:20:46.079 --> 00:20:49.259
 and it

00:20:49.259 --> 00:20:49.460
 was on

00:20:49.460 --> 00:20:49.839
 emotional

00:20:49.839 --> 00:20:50.480
 intelligence

00:20:50.480 --> 00:20:51.039
 in the

00:20:51.039 --> 00:20:52.240
 work and

00:20:52.240 --> 00:20:52.779
 leadership and

00:20:52.779 --> 00:20:53.139
 business

00:20:53.139 --> 00:20:54.559
 excuse me

00:20:54.559 --> 00:20:57.859
 and they

00:20:57.859 --> 00:20:58.160
 were talking

00:20:58.160 --> 00:20:58.480
 about the

00:20:58.480 --> 00:20:58.899
 fact that

00:20:58.899 --> 00:20:59.660
 the leader

00:20:59.660 --> 00:21:00.220
 of an

00:21:00.220 --> 00:21:00.779
 organization

00:21:00.779 --> 00:21:01.660
 that person's

00:21:01.660 --> 00:21:02.420
 emotional

00:21:02.420 --> 00:21:03.299
 style

00:21:03.299 --> 00:21:05.220
 filters down

00:21:05.220 --> 00:21:06.700
 through the

00:21:06.700 --> 00:21:06.880
 whole

00:21:06.880 --> 00:21:07.519
 organization

00:21:07.519 --> 00:21:08.940
 I've

00:21:08.940 --> 00:21:09.539
 observed

00:21:09.539 --> 00:21:09.839
 that

00:21:09.839 --> 00:21:13.220
 I've

00:21:13.220 --> 00:21:13.539
 observed

00:21:13.539 --> 00:21:14.160
 when leaders

00:21:14.160 --> 00:21:14.860
 change

00:21:14.860 --> 00:21:15.120
 and the

00:21:15.120 --> 00:21:15.299
 new

00:21:15.299 --> 00:21:15.519
 leader

00:21:15.519 --> 00:21:16.220
 comes in

00:21:16.220 --> 00:21:16.920
 and is

00:21:16.920 --> 00:21:17.759
 projecting

00:21:17.759 --> 00:21:18.480
 something else

00:21:18.480 --> 00:21:18.940
 and trying to

00:21:18.940 --> 00:21:19.440
 change the

00:21:19.440 --> 00:21:19.920
 culture

00:21:19.920 --> 00:21:20.360
 which is

00:21:20.360 --> 00:21:20.819
 really that

00:21:20.819 --> 00:21:21.380
 emotional

00:21:21.380 --> 00:21:22.039
 style

00:21:22.039 --> 00:21:22.920
 filtered down

00:21:22.920 --> 00:21:23.680
 and shaped

00:21:23.680 --> 00:21:24.519
 an organization

00:21:24.519 --> 00:21:25.599
 that it's a

00:21:25.599 --> 00:21:26.440
 very difficult

00:21:26.440 --> 00:21:27.200
 process

00:21:27.200 --> 00:21:28.700
 and initially

00:21:28.700 --> 00:21:29.220
 for those

00:21:29.220 --> 00:21:29.559
 leaders

00:21:29.559 --> 00:21:29.900
 and I've

00:21:29.900 --> 00:21:30.160
 seen it

00:21:30.160 --> 00:21:30.480
 more than

00:21:30.480 --> 00:21:30.859
 once

00:21:30.859 --> 00:21:32.200
 the responses

00:21:32.200 --> 00:21:32.740
 are they

00:21:32.740 --> 00:21:34.240
 react to

00:21:34.240 --> 00:21:34.920
 that leader

00:21:34.920 --> 00:21:36.680
 as if

00:21:36.680 --> 00:21:37.480
 they want

00:21:37.480 --> 00:21:38.539
 that other

00:21:38.539 --> 00:21:38.839
 leader

00:21:38.839 --> 00:21:39.700
 they want

00:21:39.700 --> 00:21:40.099
 the same

00:21:40.099 --> 00:21:40.660
 style

00:21:40.660 --> 00:21:41.119
 that's what

00:21:41.119 --> 00:21:41.539
 they're used

00:21:41.539 --> 00:21:41.920
 to and it's

00:21:41.920 --> 00:21:42.259
 what feels

00:21:42.259 --> 00:21:42.680
 like home

00:21:42.680 --> 00:21:44.379
 it doesn't

00:21:44.379 --> 00:21:45.019
 matter if

00:21:45.019 --> 00:21:45.480
 that leader

00:21:45.480 --> 00:21:45.799
 was a

00:21:45.799 --> 00:21:46.180
 tyrant

00:21:46.180 --> 00:21:48.180
 it feels

00:21:48.180 --> 00:21:48.599
 like home

00:21:48.599 --> 00:21:50.599
 someone comes

00:21:50.599 --> 00:21:50.940
 in who's

00:21:50.940 --> 00:21:51.539
 different

00:21:51.539 --> 00:21:53.359
 and they're

00:21:53.359 --> 00:21:53.599
 trying to

00:21:53.599 --> 00:21:53.899
 figure it

00:21:53.899 --> 00:21:54.099
 out

00:21:54.099 --> 00:21:58.079
 they're

00:21:58.079 --> 00:21:58.339
 trying to

00:21:58.339 --> 00:21:59.119
 feel safe

00:21:59.119 --> 00:22:00.039
 at least

00:22:00.039 --> 00:22:00.779
 comfortable

00:22:00.779 --> 00:22:02.940
 sort of

00:22:02.940 --> 00:22:03.519
 able to

00:22:03.519 --> 00:22:03.940
 predict

00:22:03.940 --> 00:22:06.579
 and it's

00:22:06.579 --> 00:22:06.839
 a tough

00:22:06.839 --> 00:22:07.339
 challenge

00:22:07.339 --> 00:22:08.680
 the point

00:22:08.680 --> 00:22:09.220
 being that

00:22:09.220 --> 00:22:09.799
 leader's

00:22:09.799 --> 00:22:10.559
 emotion

00:22:10.559 --> 00:22:12.700
 even if

00:22:12.700 --> 00:22:13.059
 he doesn't

00:22:13.059 --> 00:22:13.519
 express it

00:22:13.519 --> 00:22:13.980
 with words

00:22:13.980 --> 00:22:14.899
 filters down

00:22:14.899 --> 00:22:15.220
 through the

00:22:15.220 --> 00:22:15.759
 organization

00:22:15.759 --> 00:22:18.099
 so someone

00:22:18.099 --> 00:22:18.720
 did research

00:22:18.720 --> 00:22:19.099
 on this

00:22:19.099 --> 00:22:19.420
 and they got

00:22:19.420 --> 00:22:20.019
 three people

00:22:20.019 --> 00:22:20.680
 they identified

00:22:20.680 --> 00:22:21.399
 the person

00:22:21.400 --> 00:22:21.780
 who was

00:22:21.780 --> 00:22:22.240
 the most

00:22:22.240 --> 00:22:22.920
 expressive

00:22:22.920 --> 00:22:23.560
 emotionally

00:22:23.560 --> 00:22:26.380
 and they're

00:22:26.380 --> 00:22:26.920
 looking at

00:22:26.920 --> 00:22:27.300
 how do you

00:22:27.300 --> 00:22:27.560
 do that

00:22:27.560 --> 00:22:28.200
 without words

00:22:28.200 --> 00:22:28.720
 can you

00:22:28.720 --> 00:22:28.900
 do it

00:22:28.900 --> 00:22:29.460
 without words

00:22:29.460 --> 00:22:30.700
 yes

00:22:30.700 --> 00:22:30.980
 no

00:22:30.980 --> 00:22:32.040
 so they

00:22:32.040 --> 00:22:32.380
 put these

00:22:32.380 --> 00:22:32.920
 three people

00:22:32.920 --> 00:22:33.560
 at a table

00:22:33.560 --> 00:22:35.040
 no words

00:22:35.040 --> 00:22:35.660
 silent

00:22:35.660 --> 00:22:38.100
 and within

00:22:38.100 --> 00:22:38.860
 a few minutes

00:22:38.860 --> 00:22:39.640
 not a very

00:22:39.640 --> 00:22:40.220
 long time

00:22:40.220 --> 00:22:41.440
 the two

00:22:41.440 --> 00:22:42.040
 people that

00:22:42.040 --> 00:22:42.480
 are less

00:22:42.480 --> 00:22:43.000
 expressive

00:22:43.000 --> 00:22:43.740
 in style

00:22:43.740 --> 00:22:44.640
 know

00:22:44.640 --> 00:22:46.360
 are able

00:22:46.360 --> 00:22:46.900
 to say

00:22:46.900 --> 00:22:47.660
 what the

00:22:47.660 --> 00:22:48.160
 other person

00:22:48.160 --> 00:22:49.240
 is feeling

00:22:49.240 --> 00:22:53.720
 it's

00:22:53.720 --> 00:22:54.099
 like we

00:22:54.099 --> 00:22:54.579
 have more

00:22:54.579 --> 00:22:55.039
 senses

00:22:55.039 --> 00:22:55.480
 than we

00:22:55.480 --> 00:22:56.019
 realize

00:22:56.019 --> 00:22:58.079
 you ever

00:22:58.079 --> 00:22:58.640
 walk in a

00:22:58.640 --> 00:22:58.980
 room

00:22:58.980 --> 00:23:00.240
 it could be

00:23:00.240 --> 00:23:00.759
 this one

00:23:00.759 --> 00:23:02.079
 everyone's

00:23:02.079 --> 00:23:02.620
 milling around

00:23:02.620 --> 00:23:03.099
 you come in

00:23:03.099 --> 00:23:03.460
 the room

00:23:03.460 --> 00:23:04.000
 you're finding

00:23:04.000 --> 00:23:04.500
 a seat

00:23:04.500 --> 00:23:05.539
 and you just

00:23:05.539 --> 00:23:05.859
 have that

00:23:05.859 --> 00:23:06.400
 feeling

00:23:06.400 --> 00:23:07.779
 and you

00:23:07.779 --> 00:23:08.120
 look

00:23:08.120 --> 00:23:08.680
 and yes

00:23:08.680 --> 00:23:09.279
 a person's

00:23:09.279 --> 00:23:09.740
 looking at

00:23:09.740 --> 00:23:10.000
 you

00:23:10.000 --> 00:23:11.220
 how'd you

00:23:11.220 --> 00:23:11.620
 know

00:23:11.619 --> 00:23:13.199
 I mean

00:23:13.199 --> 00:23:13.579
 how did

00:23:13.579 --> 00:23:13.899
 you know

00:23:13.899 --> 00:23:14.259
 I don't

00:23:14.259 --> 00:23:14.519
 know

00:23:14.519 --> 00:23:16.599
 but we

00:23:16.599 --> 00:23:17.039
 have an

00:23:17.039 --> 00:23:17.599
 ability

00:23:17.599 --> 00:23:18.479
 to somehow

00:23:18.479 --> 00:23:19.159
 I mean

00:23:19.159 --> 00:23:19.500
 some people

00:23:19.500 --> 00:23:19.939
 start talking

00:23:19.939 --> 00:23:20.539
 about energy

00:23:20.539 --> 00:23:21.059
 and this

00:23:21.059 --> 00:23:21.459
 and that

00:23:21.459 --> 00:23:21.919
 it's like

00:23:21.919 --> 00:23:22.639
 I don't

00:23:22.639 --> 00:23:22.939
 know

00:23:22.939 --> 00:23:24.679
 it's one

00:23:24.679 --> 00:23:24.919
 of those

00:23:24.919 --> 00:23:25.319
 it's a little

00:23:25.319 --> 00:23:25.619
 bit of

00:23:25.619 --> 00:23:25.979
 everything

00:23:25.979 --> 00:23:26.379
 it's not

00:23:26.379 --> 00:23:26.719
 just a

00:23:26.719 --> 00:23:26.919
 simple

00:23:26.919 --> 00:23:27.479
 because

00:23:27.479 --> 00:23:28.699
 but it's

00:23:28.699 --> 00:23:29.139
 true

00:23:29.139 --> 00:23:31.739
 that happens

00:23:31.739 --> 00:23:32.259
 all the time

00:23:32.259 --> 00:23:32.879
 between parents

00:23:32.879 --> 00:23:33.439
 and our kids

00:23:33.439 --> 00:23:33.959
 and husbands

00:23:33.959 --> 00:23:34.519
 and wives

00:23:34.519 --> 00:23:36.000
 you know

00:23:36.000 --> 00:23:38.019
 it happens

00:23:38.019 --> 00:23:38.579
 in your day

00:23:38.579 --> 00:23:39.639
 do you ever

00:23:39.639 --> 00:23:40.359
 wonder how it

00:23:40.359 --> 00:23:40.879
 is that

00:23:40.879 --> 00:23:42.279
 people can

00:23:42.279 --> 00:23:42.759
 look at you

00:23:42.759 --> 00:23:43.319
 in the morning

00:23:43.319 --> 00:23:43.899
 and they can

00:23:43.899 --> 00:23:45.679
 say

00:23:45.679 --> 00:23:46.459
 how you doing

00:23:46.459 --> 00:23:49.179
 and they just

00:23:49.179 --> 00:23:49.639
 mean you know

00:23:49.639 --> 00:23:50.159
 how you doing

00:23:50.159 --> 00:23:53.339
 and then other

00:23:53.339 --> 00:23:54.139
 days they look

00:23:54.139 --> 00:23:54.559
 at you

00:23:54.559 --> 00:23:55.019
 and they

00:23:55.019 --> 00:23:56.319
 kind of cock

00:23:56.319 --> 00:23:56.639
 their head

00:23:56.639 --> 00:23:57.179
 a little bit

00:23:57.179 --> 00:23:57.659
 and it's

00:23:57.659 --> 00:23:59.399
 how are you

00:23:59.399 --> 00:24:00.259
 doing

00:24:00.259 --> 00:24:01.619
 you know

00:24:01.619 --> 00:24:02.740
 you okay

00:24:02.740 --> 00:24:04.079
 how do they

00:24:04.079 --> 00:24:04.359
 know

00:24:04.359 --> 00:24:05.079
 to ask that

00:24:05.079 --> 00:24:05.740
 and you're like

00:24:05.740 --> 00:24:06.919
 how did they

00:24:06.919 --> 00:24:07.240
 know

00:24:07.240 --> 00:24:07.899
 you know

00:24:07.899 --> 00:24:08.299
 am I wearing

00:24:08.299 --> 00:24:08.819
 a sign

00:24:08.819 --> 00:24:12.759
 I sometimes

00:24:12.759 --> 00:24:13.579
 wonder why

00:24:13.579 --> 00:24:17.439
 I can go

00:24:17.439 --> 00:24:18.059
 to Panera

00:24:18.059 --> 00:24:19.119
 I do that

00:24:19.119 --> 00:24:19.480
 a lot

00:24:19.480 --> 00:24:21.599
 and

00:24:21.599 --> 00:24:24.299
 maybe late

00:24:24.299 --> 00:24:25.000
 on a Sunday

00:24:25.000 --> 00:24:25.460
 night

00:24:25.460 --> 00:24:27.179
 and sit

00:24:27.179 --> 00:24:27.700
 down

00:24:27.700 --> 00:24:29.099
 and I'm

00:24:29.099 --> 00:24:29.639
 doing a little

00:24:29.639 --> 00:24:30.439
 email or

00:24:30.439 --> 00:24:30.960
 something

00:24:30.960 --> 00:24:31.700
 or figuring

00:24:31.700 --> 00:24:32.460
 out what's

00:24:32.460 --> 00:24:32.779
 happening

00:24:32.779 --> 00:24:33.299
 tomorrow

00:24:33.299 --> 00:24:35.519
 and the

00:24:35.519 --> 00:24:36.179
 manager

00:24:36.179 --> 00:24:36.619
 that I

00:24:36.619 --> 00:24:37.059
 kind of

00:24:37.059 --> 00:24:37.339
 know

00:24:37.339 --> 00:24:37.720
 because I

00:24:37.720 --> 00:24:38.119
 go there

00:24:38.119 --> 00:24:38.579
 a lot

00:24:38.579 --> 00:24:39.419
 don't know

00:24:39.419 --> 00:24:39.939
 her name

00:24:39.939 --> 00:24:41.839
 sits down

00:24:41.839 --> 00:24:42.919
 at the

00:24:42.919 --> 00:24:43.379
 table

00:24:43.379 --> 00:24:45.059
 and tells

00:24:45.059 --> 00:24:45.959
 me about

00:24:45.959 --> 00:24:46.599
 her son's

00:24:46.599 --> 00:24:47.179
 suicide

00:24:47.179 --> 00:24:49.779
 I'm just

00:24:49.779 --> 00:24:50.319
 a guy

00:24:50.319 --> 00:24:52.119
 sitting in

00:24:52.119 --> 00:24:52.639
 a Panera

00:24:52.639 --> 00:24:53.159
 eating this

00:24:53.159 --> 00:24:53.679
 chocolate chip

00:24:53.679 --> 00:24:54.039
 cookie

00:24:54.039 --> 00:24:55.219
 you know

00:24:55.219 --> 00:24:57.039
 and I'm

00:24:57.039 --> 00:24:57.479
 just like

00:24:57.479 --> 00:24:59.319
 do I have

00:24:59.319 --> 00:24:59.759
 a sign

00:24:59.759 --> 00:25:00.179
 on me

00:25:00.179 --> 00:25:00.619
 how did

00:25:00.619 --> 00:25:00.979
 she know

00:25:00.979 --> 00:25:01.319
 that

00:25:01.319 --> 00:25:05.919
 I'm

00:25:05.919 --> 00:25:06.220
 sending

00:25:06.220 --> 00:25:06.819
 the message

00:25:06.819 --> 00:25:08.779
 somehow

00:25:08.779 --> 00:25:10.839
 you all

00:25:10.839 --> 00:25:11.159
 do the

00:25:11.159 --> 00:25:11.359
 same

00:25:11.359 --> 00:25:11.659
 thing

00:25:11.659 --> 00:25:12.859
 you can

00:25:12.859 --> 00:25:13.079
 think

00:25:13.079 --> 00:25:13.619
 right now

00:25:13.619 --> 00:25:13.839
 in

00:25:13.839 --> 00:25:15.259
 ten

00:25:15.259 --> 00:25:15.700
 seconds

00:25:15.700 --> 00:25:17.079
 and come

00:25:17.079 --> 00:25:17.339
 up with

00:25:17.339 --> 00:25:17.919
 three names

00:25:17.919 --> 00:25:19.019
 of people

00:25:19.019 --> 00:25:20.159
 maybe even

00:25:20.159 --> 00:25:20.799
 today as you

00:25:20.799 --> 00:25:21.259
 came in

00:25:21.259 --> 00:25:22.119
 where you

00:25:22.119 --> 00:25:22.299
 knew

00:25:22.299 --> 00:25:23.559
 ooh

00:25:23.559 --> 00:25:24.960
 you know

00:25:24.960 --> 00:25:25.179
 where you

00:25:25.179 --> 00:25:25.839
 ask something

00:25:25.839 --> 00:25:26.619
 you have this

00:25:26.619 --> 00:25:26.919
 happen

00:25:26.919 --> 00:25:27.899
 hey how you

00:25:27.899 --> 00:25:28.200
 doing

00:25:28.200 --> 00:25:28.579
 and you're

00:25:28.579 --> 00:25:29.119
 walking by

00:25:29.119 --> 00:25:29.699
 and they say

00:25:29.699 --> 00:25:30.059
 something

00:25:30.059 --> 00:25:30.579
 and you

00:25:30.579 --> 00:25:31.019
 pause

00:25:31.019 --> 00:25:32.379
 maybe you

00:25:32.379 --> 00:25:32.759
 go back

00:25:32.759 --> 00:25:33.179
 maybe you

00:25:33.179 --> 00:25:33.659
 don't

00:25:33.659 --> 00:25:34.419
 others you

00:25:34.419 --> 00:25:35.179
 just see

00:25:35.179 --> 00:25:35.679
 a face

00:25:35.679 --> 00:25:37.719
 and you

00:25:37.719 --> 00:25:37.919
 know

00:25:37.919 --> 00:25:41.579
 those are

00:25:41.579 --> 00:25:42.079
 little bits

00:25:42.079 --> 00:25:42.699
 of intimacy

00:25:42.699 --> 00:25:44.579
 that we

00:25:44.579 --> 00:25:46.239
 bump into

00:25:46.239 --> 00:25:48.439
 that maybe

00:25:48.439 --> 00:25:48.959
 we're not so

00:25:48.959 --> 00:25:49.559
 afraid of

00:25:49.559 --> 00:25:50.439
 because they're

00:25:50.439 --> 00:25:51.159
 derived by

00:25:51.159 --> 00:25:51.679
 intimacy

00:25:51.679 --> 00:25:56.879
 maybe those

00:25:56.879 --> 00:25:57.339
 are pieces

00:25:57.339 --> 00:25:57.879
 that we can

00:25:57.879 --> 00:25:58.579
 reflect on

00:25:58.579 --> 00:25:58.939
 and think

00:25:58.939 --> 00:25:59.319
 about

00:25:59.319 --> 00:26:00.619
 how can

00:26:00.619 --> 00:26:00.960
 I slow

00:26:00.960 --> 00:26:01.399
 down the

00:26:01.399 --> 00:26:01.720
 car

00:26:01.720 --> 00:26:02.199
 and not

00:26:02.199 --> 00:26:02.859
 drive by

00:26:02.859 --> 00:26:04.299
 and just

00:26:04.299 --> 00:26:04.779
 get used

00:26:04.779 --> 00:26:05.279
 to

00:26:05.279 --> 00:26:07.079
 knowing

00:26:07.079 --> 00:26:07.579
 others

00:26:07.579 --> 00:26:09.539
 as best

00:26:09.539 --> 00:26:10.079
 I can

00:26:10.079 --> 00:26:11.179
 in a

00:26:11.179 --> 00:26:11.539
 moment

00:26:11.539 --> 00:26:12.699
 and knowing

00:26:12.699 --> 00:26:15.019
 letting

00:26:15.019 --> 00:26:15.519
 others know

00:26:15.519 --> 00:26:15.799
 me

00:26:15.799 --> 00:26:18.279
 in that

00:26:18.279 --> 00:26:20.119
 process

00:26:20.119 --> 00:26:21.279
 it's one

00:26:21.279 --> 00:26:21.539
 of the

00:26:21.539 --> 00:26:22.039
 challenges

00:26:22.039 --> 00:26:23.559
 to living

00:26:23.559 --> 00:26:24.220
 this life

00:26:24.220 --> 00:26:24.619
 the way

00:26:24.619 --> 00:26:25.099
 Joshua

00:26:25.099 --> 00:26:26.099
 1 tells

00:26:26.099 --> 00:26:26.399
 us

00:26:26.399 --> 00:26:27.419
 is that

00:26:27.419 --> 00:26:27.759
 we're

00:26:27.759 --> 00:26:28.459
 not only

00:26:28.459 --> 00:26:28.980
 afraid

00:26:28.980 --> 00:26:29.859
 in general

00:26:29.859 --> 00:26:30.399
 we're

00:26:30.399 --> 00:26:30.919
 particularly

00:26:30.919 --> 00:26:31.419
 afraid

00:26:31.419 --> 00:26:31.619
 of

00:26:31.619 --> 00:26:32.179
 intimacy

00:26:32.179 --> 00:26:32.679
 with the

00:26:32.679 --> 00:26:32.939
 people

00:26:32.939 --> 00:26:33.219
 most

00:26:33.219 --> 00:26:33.619
 important

00:26:33.619 --> 00:26:34.459
 to us

00:26:34.459 --> 00:26:35.559
 that's going

00:26:35.559 --> 00:26:35.659
 to be

00:26:35.659 --> 00:26:36.219
 very subtle

00:26:36.219 --> 00:26:37.299
 it takes

00:26:37.299 --> 00:26:37.699
 work

00:26:37.699 --> 00:26:39.439
 but it's not a

00:26:39.439 --> 00:26:40.459
 problem that you

00:26:40.459 --> 00:26:41.079
 root out

00:26:41.079 --> 00:26:43.039
 it's something that you

00:26:43.039 --> 00:26:44.139
 address indirectly

00:26:44.140 --> 00:26:46.400
 by growing the

00:26:46.400 --> 00:26:46.900
 good stuff

00:26:46.900 --> 00:26:49.120
 I'll give you an

00:26:49.120 --> 00:26:49.500
 example

00:26:49.500 --> 00:26:52.180
 this was in a

00:26:52.180 --> 00:26:52.840
 previous outline

00:26:52.840 --> 00:26:53.380
 but I didn't

00:26:53.380 --> 00:26:53.940
 say it

00:26:53.940 --> 00:26:58.160
 there was a man

00:26:58.160 --> 00:26:58.660
 his name was

00:26:58.660 --> 00:26:59.660
 Milton Erickson

00:26:59.660 --> 00:27:01.440
 Erickson was

00:27:01.440 --> 00:27:02.080
 one of those

00:27:02.080 --> 00:27:02.800
 rare

00:27:02.800 --> 00:27:04.220
 who's a

00:27:04.220 --> 00:27:05.240
 psychiatrist

00:27:05.240 --> 00:27:06.720
 one of those

00:27:06.720 --> 00:27:07.780
 rare creatures

00:27:07.780 --> 00:27:08.680
 rare people

00:27:08.680 --> 00:27:11.799
 amazingly

00:27:11.799 --> 00:27:13.279
 empathic

00:27:13.279 --> 00:27:14.460
 and amazingly

00:27:14.460 --> 00:27:15.140
 intuitive

00:27:15.140 --> 00:27:18.620
 his therapy

00:27:18.620 --> 00:27:19.259
 went in all

00:27:19.259 --> 00:27:19.700
 kinds of

00:27:19.700 --> 00:27:20.120
 directions

00:27:20.120 --> 00:27:20.600
 and some

00:27:20.600 --> 00:27:20.820
 of them

00:27:20.820 --> 00:27:21.100
 I don't

00:27:21.100 --> 00:27:21.519
 necessarily

00:27:21.519 --> 00:27:22.220
 believe in

00:27:22.220 --> 00:27:22.600
 but the

00:27:22.600 --> 00:27:23.279
 person of

00:27:23.279 --> 00:27:23.720
 Erickson

00:27:23.720 --> 00:27:24.740
 was just

00:27:24.740 --> 00:27:25.180
 such a

00:27:25.180 --> 00:27:25.900
 perceptive

00:27:25.900 --> 00:27:26.259
 guy

00:27:26.259 --> 00:27:28.820
 and a

00:27:28.820 --> 00:27:29.220
 man named

00:27:29.220 --> 00:27:29.940
 Bill O'Hanlon

00:27:29.940 --> 00:27:30.779
 who's

00:27:30.779 --> 00:27:31.940
 roughly my

00:27:31.940 --> 00:27:32.259
 age

00:27:32.259 --> 00:27:33.460
 Erickson's

00:27:33.460 --> 00:27:34.180
 deceased

00:27:34.180 --> 00:27:35.160
 quite a

00:27:35.160 --> 00:27:35.580
 while ago

00:27:35.580 --> 00:27:37.900
 worked with

00:27:37.900 --> 00:27:38.240
 Erickson

00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:38.539
 and he

00:27:38.539 --> 00:27:39.019
 tells this

00:27:39.019 --> 00:27:39.559
 story

00:27:39.559 --> 00:27:43.519
 and Erickson

00:27:43.519 --> 00:27:44.200
 told him

00:27:44.200 --> 00:27:44.599
 about

00:27:44.599 --> 00:27:46.120
 Erickson

00:27:46.120 --> 00:27:46.599
 lived in

00:27:46.599 --> 00:27:47.099
 Arizona

00:27:47.099 --> 00:27:48.740
 and was

00:27:48.740 --> 00:27:49.200
 taking a

00:27:49.200 --> 00:27:49.559
 trip to

00:27:49.559 --> 00:27:50.039
 Milwaukee

00:27:50.039 --> 00:27:50.640
 Wisconsin

00:27:50.640 --> 00:27:52.960
 and a

00:27:52.960 --> 00:27:53.339
 colleague

00:27:53.339 --> 00:27:54.240
 was concerned

00:27:54.240 --> 00:27:54.759
 about his

00:27:54.759 --> 00:27:55.200
 aunt

00:27:55.200 --> 00:27:56.359
 that lived

00:27:56.359 --> 00:27:57.140
 in Milwaukee

00:27:57.140 --> 00:27:58.420
 she was

00:27:58.420 --> 00:27:58.819
 older

00:27:58.819 --> 00:27:59.359
 she lived

00:27:59.359 --> 00:27:59.740
 alone

00:27:59.740 --> 00:28:00.039
 in this

00:28:00.039 --> 00:28:00.440
 great big

00:28:00.440 --> 00:28:00.799
 house

00:28:00.799 --> 00:28:01.480
 maybe a

00:28:01.480 --> 00:28:01.680
 widow

00:28:01.680 --> 00:28:02.059
 I don't

00:28:02.059 --> 00:28:02.359
 remember

00:28:02.359 --> 00:28:02.559
 that

00:28:02.559 --> 00:28:03.039
 detail

00:28:03.039 --> 00:28:04.599
 and the

00:28:04.599 --> 00:28:04.880
 colleague

00:28:04.880 --> 00:28:05.460
 was concerned

00:28:05.460 --> 00:28:05.779
 that she

00:28:05.779 --> 00:28:06.339
 was depressed

00:28:06.339 --> 00:28:08.859
 so would

00:28:08.859 --> 00:28:09.359
 Erickson go

00:28:09.359 --> 00:28:09.759
 see her

00:28:09.759 --> 00:28:10.419
 and so he

00:28:10.419 --> 00:28:10.679
 did

00:28:10.679 --> 00:28:11.179
 he went

00:28:11.179 --> 00:28:11.740
 and visited

00:28:11.740 --> 00:28:13.000
 this lady

00:28:13.000 --> 00:28:13.579
 and talked

00:28:13.579 --> 00:28:14.099
 with her

00:28:14.099 --> 00:28:15.159
 and she

00:28:15.159 --> 00:28:15.779
 gave him

00:28:15.779 --> 00:28:16.659
 he may have

00:28:16.659 --> 00:28:17.240
 asked for it

00:28:17.240 --> 00:28:17.519
 a tour

00:28:17.519 --> 00:28:17.799
 of her

00:28:17.799 --> 00:28:18.220
 house

00:28:18.220 --> 00:28:19.980
 and in

00:28:19.980 --> 00:28:20.659
 the going

00:28:20.659 --> 00:28:21.099
 through the

00:28:21.099 --> 00:28:21.519
 house

00:28:21.519 --> 00:28:22.639
 all of the

00:28:22.639 --> 00:28:23.099
 rooms

00:28:23.099 --> 00:28:24.419
 the shades

00:28:24.419 --> 00:28:24.839
 were pulled

00:28:24.839 --> 00:28:25.220
 down and

00:28:25.220 --> 00:28:25.459
 they were

00:28:25.459 --> 00:28:25.839
 dark

00:28:25.839 --> 00:28:26.480
 except for

00:28:26.480 --> 00:28:26.679
 one

00:28:26.679 --> 00:28:29.099
 and in

00:28:29.099 --> 00:28:29.559
 that room

00:28:29.559 --> 00:28:29.980
 she grew

00:28:29.980 --> 00:28:30.439
 African

00:28:30.439 --> 00:28:30.959
 violets

00:28:30.959 --> 00:28:32.299
 she had

00:28:32.299 --> 00:28:32.679
 all these

00:28:32.679 --> 00:28:33.019
 African

00:28:33.019 --> 00:28:33.419
 violets

00:28:33.419 --> 00:28:33.679
 in this

00:28:33.679 --> 00:28:33.899
 room

00:28:33.899 --> 00:28:34.259
 shades

00:28:34.259 --> 00:28:34.579
 are up

00:28:34.579 --> 00:28:34.799
 it's

00:28:34.799 --> 00:28:35.099
 bright

00:28:35.099 --> 00:28:36.379
 it's

00:28:36.379 --> 00:28:36.699
 different

00:28:36.699 --> 00:28:38.579
 there's

00:28:38.579 --> 00:28:38.839
 life

00:28:38.839 --> 00:28:39.099
 there

00:28:39.099 --> 00:28:41.720
 so as

00:28:41.720 --> 00:28:42.299
 Erickson

00:28:42.299 --> 00:28:43.199
 was leaving

00:28:43.199 --> 00:28:43.599
 I'm not

00:28:43.599 --> 00:28:43.879
 sure how

00:28:43.879 --> 00:28:44.579
 he discerned

00:28:44.579 --> 00:28:44.939
 all of

00:28:44.939 --> 00:28:45.079
 these

00:28:45.079 --> 00:28:45.500
 details

00:28:45.500 --> 00:28:45.879
 but he

00:28:45.879 --> 00:28:46.319
 says to

00:28:46.319 --> 00:28:46.859
 this woman

00:28:46.859 --> 00:28:47.359
 you know

00:28:47.359 --> 00:28:47.980
 your nephew

00:28:47.980 --> 00:28:49.199
 wanted me

00:28:49.199 --> 00:28:49.579
 to come

00:28:49.579 --> 00:28:50.279
 by because

00:28:50.279 --> 00:28:50.720
 he was

00:28:50.720 --> 00:28:51.339
 concerned

00:28:51.339 --> 00:28:52.099
 that you're

00:28:52.099 --> 00:28:52.559
 depressed

00:28:52.559 --> 00:28:53.939
 but I

00:28:53.939 --> 00:28:54.399
 see that

00:28:54.399 --> 00:28:54.740
 that's not

00:28:54.740 --> 00:28:55.220
 the problem

00:28:55.220 --> 00:28:56.279
 he said

00:28:56.279 --> 00:28:58.399
 the problem

00:28:58.399 --> 00:28:58.799
 is you're

00:28:58.799 --> 00:28:59.159
 not a good

00:28:59.159 --> 00:28:59.779
 Christian woman

00:28:59.779 --> 00:29:02.720
 he was being

00:29:02.720 --> 00:29:02.960
 a little

00:29:02.960 --> 00:29:03.480
 provocative

00:29:03.480 --> 00:29:05.160
 what he

00:29:05.160 --> 00:29:05.660
 suggested

00:29:05.660 --> 00:29:07.099
 was to

00:29:07.099 --> 00:29:07.539
 take her

00:29:07.539 --> 00:29:07.819
 church

00:29:07.819 --> 00:29:08.380
 bulletin

00:29:08.380 --> 00:29:10.200
 that had

00:29:10.200 --> 00:29:10.579
 a list

00:29:10.579 --> 00:29:11.019
 of shut

00:29:11.019 --> 00:29:11.460
 ins on

00:29:11.460 --> 00:29:11.700
 it

00:29:11.700 --> 00:29:14.200
 and take

00:29:14.200 --> 00:29:14.680
 an African

00:29:14.680 --> 00:29:15.099
 violet

00:29:15.099 --> 00:29:16.440
 to those

00:29:16.440 --> 00:29:16.799
 people

00:29:16.799 --> 00:29:18.319
 that's what

00:29:18.319 --> 00:29:18.839
 he suggested

00:29:18.839 --> 00:29:22.579
 and she

00:29:22.579 --> 00:29:23.019
 did that

00:29:23.019 --> 00:29:23.839
 she took

00:29:23.839 --> 00:29:24.120
 his

00:29:24.120 --> 00:29:24.819
 advice

00:29:24.819 --> 00:29:26.480
 so Erickson

00:29:26.480 --> 00:29:27.160
 reaches for

00:29:27.160 --> 00:29:27.860
 a three ring

00:29:27.860 --> 00:29:28.339
 binder

00:29:28.339 --> 00:29:29.339
 notebook

00:29:29.339 --> 00:29:30.059
 pulls it

00:29:30.059 --> 00:29:30.420
 out

00:29:30.420 --> 00:29:31.200
 flips

00:29:31.200 --> 00:29:31.599
 through

00:29:31.599 --> 00:29:32.259
 comes to

00:29:32.259 --> 00:29:32.980
 a newspaper

00:29:32.980 --> 00:29:33.420
 clipping

00:29:33.420 --> 00:29:34.059
 and shows

00:29:34.059 --> 00:29:34.400
 it to

00:29:34.400 --> 00:29:34.980
 Bill O'Hanlon

00:29:34.980 --> 00:29:36.779
 the headline

00:29:36.779 --> 00:29:37.400
 was

00:29:37.400 --> 00:29:39.180
 African

00:29:39.180 --> 00:29:40.440
 Violet

00:29:40.440 --> 00:29:41.559
 Queen

00:29:41.559 --> 00:29:42.700
 Dies

00:29:42.700 --> 00:29:44.440
 Thousands

00:29:44.440 --> 00:29:44.980
 Mourn

00:29:44.980 --> 00:29:52.160
 O'Hanlon

00:29:52.160 --> 00:29:52.620
 says to

00:29:52.620 --> 00:29:53.019
 Erickson

00:29:53.019 --> 00:29:53.660
 how did

00:29:53.660 --> 00:29:53.960
 you know

00:29:53.960 --> 00:29:54.279
 to do

00:29:54.279 --> 00:29:54.620
 that

00:29:54.620 --> 00:29:56.700
 and Erickson

00:29:56.700 --> 00:29:57.160
 says

00:29:57.160 --> 00:29:58.740
 it seemed

00:29:58.740 --> 00:29:59.240
 better

00:29:59.240 --> 00:30:00.759
 to grow

00:30:00.759 --> 00:30:01.380
 the African

00:30:01.380 --> 00:30:01.720
 violet

00:30:01.720 --> 00:30:02.120
 part of

00:30:02.120 --> 00:30:02.519
 her life

00:30:02.519 --> 00:30:04.560
 than root

00:30:04.560 --> 00:30:04.900
 out the

00:30:04.900 --> 00:30:05.240
 depressed

00:30:05.240 --> 00:30:05.560
 part

00:30:05.560 --> 00:30:12.420
 I actually

00:30:12.420 --> 00:30:12.840
 think

00:30:12.840 --> 00:30:13.320
 if we get

00:30:13.320 --> 00:30:13.940
 the whole

00:30:13.940 --> 00:30:15.000
 biblical story

00:30:15.000 --> 00:30:15.580
 that starts

00:30:15.580 --> 00:30:16.220
 with creation

00:30:16.220 --> 00:30:16.700
 and the

00:30:16.700 --> 00:30:17.140
 dignity

00:30:17.140 --> 00:30:17.620
 and the

00:30:17.620 --> 00:30:18.080
 agency

00:30:18.080 --> 00:30:18.440
 and the

00:30:18.440 --> 00:30:18.920
 capacity

00:30:18.920 --> 00:30:19.320
 that God

00:30:19.320 --> 00:30:19.620
 builds

00:30:19.620 --> 00:30:20.060
 in us

00:30:20.060 --> 00:30:20.980
 before we

00:30:20.980 --> 00:30:21.259
 get to

00:30:21.259 --> 00:30:21.400
 our

00:30:21.400 --> 00:30:21.960
 depravity

00:30:21.960 --> 00:30:24.940
 that that's

00:30:24.940 --> 00:30:25.360
 the biblical

00:30:25.360 --> 00:30:25.799
 method

00:30:25.799 --> 00:30:26.840
 it's the

00:30:26.840 --> 00:30:27.100
 biblical

00:30:27.100 --> 00:30:27.539
 model

00:30:27.539 --> 00:30:29.700
 don't try

00:30:29.700 --> 00:30:30.019
 to root

00:30:30.019 --> 00:30:30.279
 out the

00:30:30.279 --> 00:30:30.860
 depravity

00:30:30.860 --> 00:30:31.440
 good luck

00:30:31.440 --> 00:30:31.940
 with that

00:30:31.940 --> 00:30:34.600
 even though

00:30:34.600 --> 00:30:35.240
 Jesus has

00:30:35.240 --> 00:30:36.059
 conquered that

00:30:36.059 --> 00:30:36.480
 battle

00:30:36.480 --> 00:30:38.059
 ultimately

00:30:38.059 --> 00:30:38.819
 on the

00:30:38.819 --> 00:30:39.220
 cross

00:30:39.220 --> 00:30:39.860
 that battle

00:30:39.860 --> 00:30:40.400
 is not

00:30:40.400 --> 00:30:40.799
 conquered

00:30:40.799 --> 00:30:41.579
 now

00:30:41.579 --> 00:30:42.059
 at this

00:30:42.059 --> 00:30:42.279
 point

00:30:42.279 --> 00:30:42.519
 in the

00:30:42.519 --> 00:30:42.860
 story

00:30:42.860 --> 00:30:44.600
 that's

00:30:44.600 --> 00:30:44.900
 not the

00:30:44.900 --> 00:30:45.340
 approach

00:30:45.339 --> 00:30:47.619
 Jesus'

00:30:47.879 --> 00:30:48.199
 work

00:30:48.199 --> 00:30:48.559
 God's

00:30:48.559 --> 00:30:48.799
 work

00:30:48.799 --> 00:30:49.099
 in our

00:30:49.099 --> 00:30:49.500
 lives

00:30:49.500 --> 00:30:49.819
 is to

00:30:49.819 --> 00:30:50.199
 grow

00:30:50.199 --> 00:30:50.399
 the

00:30:50.399 --> 00:30:51.179
 capacity

00:30:51.179 --> 00:30:52.779
 so that

00:30:52.779 --> 00:30:52.939
 the

00:30:52.939 --> 00:30:53.699
 depravity

00:30:53.699 --> 00:30:54.299
 doesn't

00:30:54.299 --> 00:30:54.759
 really

00:30:54.759 --> 00:30:56.579
 deter

00:30:56.579 --> 00:30:56.939
 us

00:30:56.939 --> 00:30:57.299
 from our

00:30:57.299 --> 00:30:57.579
 mission

00:30:57.579 --> 00:31:00.000
 which is

00:31:00.000 --> 00:31:00.240
 to be

00:31:00.240 --> 00:31:00.879
 growing

00:31:00.879 --> 00:31:01.599
 at a

00:31:01.599 --> 00:31:01.899
 heart

00:31:01.899 --> 00:31:02.339
 level

00:31:02.339 --> 00:31:03.119
 for the

00:31:03.119 --> 00:31:03.740
 relationships

00:31:03.740 --> 00:31:04.179
 that we

00:31:04.179 --> 00:31:04.539
 have

00:31:04.539 --> 00:31:05.480
 that are

00:31:05.480 --> 00:31:05.980
 central

00:31:05.980 --> 00:31:06.359
 to our

00:31:06.359 --> 00:31:06.639
 mission

00:31:06.639 --> 00:31:12.379
 I don't

00:31:12.379 --> 00:31:12.619
 know what

00:31:12.619 --> 00:31:12.919
 it means

00:31:12.919 --> 00:31:13.279
 for you

00:31:13.279 --> 00:31:13.639
 to grow

00:31:13.639 --> 00:31:13.799
 the

00:31:13.799 --> 00:31:14.119
 African

00:31:14.119 --> 00:31:15.319
 violet

00:31:15.319 --> 00:31:15.679
 part of

00:31:15.679 --> 00:31:15.759
 your

00:31:15.759 --> 00:31:16.039
 life

00:31:16.039 --> 00:31:17.200
 in your

00:31:17.200 --> 00:31:17.539
 marriage

00:31:17.539 --> 00:31:19.879
 but I'm

00:31:19.879 --> 00:31:20.359
 suggesting

00:31:20.359 --> 00:31:21.079
 it's

00:31:21.079 --> 00:31:21.899
 don't set

00:31:21.899 --> 00:31:22.500
 out to

00:31:22.500 --> 00:31:23.720
 root out

00:31:23.720 --> 00:31:24.259
 the fear

00:31:24.259 --> 00:31:27.659
 try to

00:31:27.659 --> 00:31:28.079
 grow that

00:31:28.079 --> 00:31:28.619
 part of

00:31:28.619 --> 00:31:29.159
 you that

00:31:29.159 --> 00:31:32.000
 longs for

00:31:32.000 --> 00:31:32.480
 intimacy

00:31:32.480 --> 00:31:35.700
 wants more

00:31:35.700 --> 00:31:40.460
 and you

00:31:40.460 --> 00:31:40.779
 do it

00:31:40.779 --> 00:31:41.240
 by the

00:31:41.240 --> 00:31:41.779
 process

00:31:41.779 --> 00:31:45.539
 you

00:31:45.539 --> 00:31:45.899
 try to

00:31:45.899 --> 00:31:46.160
 have

00:31:46.160 --> 00:31:46.619
 more

00:31:46.619 --> 00:31:47.319
 conversation

00:31:47.319 --> 00:31:48.940
 you

00:31:48.940 --> 00:31:49.240
 try to

00:31:49.240 --> 00:31:49.420
 have

00:31:49.420 --> 00:31:49.720
 more

00:31:49.720 --> 00:31:50.399
 conversation

00:31:50.399 --> 00:31:51.579
 that's

00:31:51.579 --> 00:31:52.480
 honest

00:31:52.480 --> 00:31:53.240
 conversation

00:31:53.240 --> 00:31:54.039
 honest in

00:31:54.039 --> 00:31:54.420
 the sense

00:31:54.420 --> 00:31:54.639
 of

00:31:54.639 --> 00:31:55.200
 I'm

00:31:55.200 --> 00:31:56.039
 going to

00:31:56.039 --> 00:31:56.839
 tell you

00:31:56.839 --> 00:31:57.220
 right now

00:31:57.220 --> 00:31:57.599
 how you

00:31:57.599 --> 00:31:57.899
 need to

00:31:57.899 --> 00:31:58.180
 change

00:31:58.180 --> 00:31:58.480
 no no

00:31:58.480 --> 00:31:58.859
 not that

00:31:58.859 --> 00:31:59.299
 honesty

00:31:59.299 --> 00:32:00.399
 the

00:32:00.399 --> 00:32:00.819
 honesty

00:32:00.819 --> 00:32:01.299
 of

00:32:01.299 --> 00:32:02.299
 this is

00:32:02.299 --> 00:32:02.920
 where I

00:32:02.920 --> 00:32:03.160
 am

00:32:03.160 --> 00:32:03.519
 this is

00:32:03.519 --> 00:32:03.899
 who I

00:32:03.899 --> 00:32:04.059
 am

00:32:04.059 --> 00:32:04.379
 this is

00:32:04.379 --> 00:32:04.660
 what I'm

00:32:04.660 --> 00:32:04.940
 longing

00:32:04.940 --> 00:32:05.240
 for

00:32:05.240 --> 00:32:05.579
 this is

00:32:05.579 --> 00:32:05.899
 what I'm

00:32:05.900 --> 00:32:06.140
 missing

00:32:06.140 --> 00:32:06.620
 this is

00:32:06.620 --> 00:32:07.480
 what I'm

00:32:07.480 --> 00:32:08.140
 celebrating

00:32:08.140 --> 00:32:19.540
 I say a

00:32:19.540 --> 00:32:19.880
 couple other

00:32:19.880 --> 00:32:20.320
 things there

00:32:20.320 --> 00:32:20.540
 I'm not

00:32:20.540 --> 00:32:20.720
 going to

00:32:20.720 --> 00:32:21.120
 dwell on

00:32:21.120 --> 00:32:21.320
 them

00:32:21.320 --> 00:32:23.220
 those people

00:32:23.220 --> 00:32:23.640
 you are

00:32:23.640 --> 00:32:24.200
 most angry

00:32:24.200 --> 00:32:25.200
 at are

00:32:25.200 --> 00:32:25.480
 the ones

00:32:25.480 --> 00:32:25.759
 you fear

00:32:25.759 --> 00:32:26.120
 most

00:32:26.120 --> 00:32:30.160
 I'll just

00:32:30.160 --> 00:32:30.519
 say this

00:32:30.519 --> 00:32:30.980
 about it

00:32:30.980 --> 00:32:32.640
 we're

00:32:32.640 --> 00:32:33.460
 really

00:32:33.460 --> 00:32:34.000
 good

00:32:34.000 --> 00:32:35.400
 at trying

00:32:35.400 --> 00:32:35.860
 to figure

00:32:35.860 --> 00:32:36.180
 out

00:32:36.180 --> 00:32:36.519
 the

00:32:36.519 --> 00:32:37.040
 thing

00:32:37.040 --> 00:32:38.620
 that's

00:32:38.620 --> 00:32:38.960
 the cause

00:32:38.960 --> 00:32:39.100
 of

00:32:39.100 --> 00:32:39.400
 something

00:32:39.400 --> 00:32:42.040
 if you

00:32:42.040 --> 00:32:42.340
 want to

00:32:42.340 --> 00:32:42.740
 really think

00:32:42.740 --> 00:32:43.180
 about how

00:32:43.180 --> 00:32:43.620
 good we

00:32:43.620 --> 00:32:43.860
 are

00:32:43.860 --> 00:32:44.580
 just listen

00:32:44.580 --> 00:32:44.960
 to how

00:32:44.960 --> 00:32:45.480
 often you

00:32:45.480 --> 00:32:46.000
 use the

00:32:46.000 --> 00:32:46.140
 word

00:32:46.140 --> 00:32:46.580
 because

00:32:46.580 --> 00:32:52.759
 so you're

00:32:52.759 --> 00:32:53.200
 in a

00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:54.460
 discussion

00:32:54.460 --> 00:32:55.620
 with each

00:32:55.620 --> 00:32:55.880
 other

00:32:55.880 --> 00:32:57.460
 and one

00:32:57.460 --> 00:32:57.900
 of you

00:32:57.900 --> 00:32:58.620
 points the

00:32:58.620 --> 00:32:59.080
 finger at

00:32:59.080 --> 00:32:59.380
 the other

00:32:59.380 --> 00:33:00.000
 one and

00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:00.440
 says they've

00:33:00.440 --> 00:33:00.580
 done

00:33:00.580 --> 00:33:00.860
 something

00:33:00.860 --> 00:33:01.160
 wrong

00:33:01.160 --> 00:33:03.580
 we want

00:33:03.580 --> 00:33:04.280
 the one

00:33:04.280 --> 00:33:04.800
 over here

00:33:04.800 --> 00:33:05.259
 we want

00:33:05.259 --> 00:33:05.900
 that person

00:33:05.900 --> 00:33:06.619
 to understand

00:33:06.619 --> 00:33:07.259
 oh no

00:33:07.259 --> 00:33:07.400
 no

00:33:07.400 --> 00:33:07.519
 no

00:33:07.519 --> 00:33:07.680
 no

00:33:07.680 --> 00:33:08.039
 there was

00:33:08.039 --> 00:33:08.599
 a good

00:33:08.599 --> 00:33:09.059
 reason

00:33:09.059 --> 00:33:09.559
 for that

00:33:09.559 --> 00:33:10.039
 so what

00:33:10.039 --> 00:33:10.279
 do we

00:33:10.279 --> 00:33:10.700
 stay

00:33:10.700 --> 00:33:11.099
 how do we

00:33:11.099 --> 00:33:11.440
 start

00:33:11.440 --> 00:33:12.119
 well that's

00:33:12.119 --> 00:33:12.559
 because

00:33:12.559 --> 00:33:17.359
 because we

00:33:17.359 --> 00:33:17.839
 actually

00:33:17.839 --> 00:33:18.960
 because we

00:33:18.960 --> 00:33:19.799
 actually believe

00:33:19.799 --> 00:33:20.319
 that if we

00:33:20.319 --> 00:33:21.299
 can get

00:33:21.299 --> 00:33:21.839
 that one

00:33:21.839 --> 00:33:22.599
 thing

00:33:22.599 --> 00:33:24.720
 that they're

00:33:24.720 --> 00:33:25.240
 misunderstanding

00:33:25.240 --> 00:33:26.119
 or just get

00:33:26.119 --> 00:33:26.619
 that one

00:33:26.619 --> 00:33:27.200
 thing that's

00:33:27.200 --> 00:33:27.700
 the cause

00:33:27.700 --> 00:33:28.059
 of this

00:33:28.059 --> 00:33:28.500
 and if we

00:33:28.500 --> 00:33:29.099
 agree that

00:33:29.099 --> 00:33:29.559
 that's the

00:33:29.559 --> 00:33:30.019
 cause of

00:33:30.019 --> 00:33:30.220
 this

00:33:30.220 --> 00:33:30.819
 then we

00:33:30.819 --> 00:33:31.400
 can solve

00:33:31.400 --> 00:33:31.700
 this

00:33:31.700 --> 00:33:32.019
 we can

00:33:32.019 --> 00:33:32.240
 work

00:33:32.240 --> 00:33:32.519
 through

00:33:32.519 --> 00:33:32.759
 it

00:33:32.759 --> 00:33:34.960
 life

00:33:34.960 --> 00:33:35.200
 doesn't

00:33:35.200 --> 00:33:35.359
 work

00:33:35.359 --> 00:33:35.539
 that

00:33:35.539 --> 00:33:35.740
 way

00:33:35.740 --> 00:33:37.960
 it just

00:33:37.960 --> 00:33:38.259
 doesn't

00:33:38.259 --> 00:33:38.460
 work

00:33:38.460 --> 00:33:38.619
 that

00:33:38.619 --> 00:33:39.500
 way

00:33:39.500 --> 00:33:44.160
 where

00:33:44.160 --> 00:33:44.379
 there

00:33:44.379 --> 00:33:44.639
 is

00:33:44.639 --> 00:33:45.400
 truth

00:33:45.400 --> 00:33:46.039
 that

00:33:46.039 --> 00:33:46.700
 cause

00:33:46.700 --> 00:33:47.019
 and

00:33:47.019 --> 00:33:47.559
 effect

00:33:47.559 --> 00:33:49.599
 happens

00:33:49.599 --> 00:33:52.180
 it's

00:33:52.180 --> 00:33:52.400
 not

00:33:52.400 --> 00:33:52.660
 the

00:33:52.660 --> 00:33:53.059
 whole

00:33:53.059 --> 00:33:53.680
 truth

00:33:53.680 --> 00:33:57.019
 the

00:33:57.019 --> 00:33:57.519
 A

00:33:57.519 --> 00:33:58.279
 if you

00:33:58.279 --> 00:33:58.500
 do

00:33:58.500 --> 00:33:58.940
 A

00:33:58.940 --> 00:33:59.779
 B

00:33:59.779 --> 00:34:00.379
 results

00:34:00.380 --> 00:34:00.660
 there

00:34:00.660 --> 00:34:00.820
 are

00:34:00.820 --> 00:34:01.460
 consequences

00:34:01.460 --> 00:34:01.880
 that

00:34:01.880 --> 00:34:02.120
 is

00:34:02.120 --> 00:34:02.540
 true

00:34:02.540 --> 00:34:12.039
 if you

00:34:12.039 --> 00:34:12.320
 want to

00:34:12.320 --> 00:34:12.780
 understand

00:34:12.780 --> 00:34:12.980
 the

00:34:12.980 --> 00:34:13.420
 alternative

00:34:13.420 --> 00:34:13.860
 to this

00:34:13.860 --> 00:34:14.140
 really

00:34:14.140 --> 00:34:14.539
 well

00:34:14.539 --> 00:34:16.460
 go listen

00:34:16.460 --> 00:34:16.840
 to the

00:34:16.840 --> 00:34:17.220
 song

00:34:17.220 --> 00:34:17.539
 by the

00:34:17.539 --> 00:34:17.780
 group

00:34:17.780 --> 00:34:18.519
 Dawes

00:34:18.519 --> 00:34:20.400
 D-A-W-E-S

00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:21.079
 fairly

00:34:21.079 --> 00:34:22.519
 contemporary

00:34:22.519 --> 00:34:23.300
 within the

00:34:23.300 --> 00:34:23.740
 last ten

00:34:23.740 --> 00:34:24.019
 years

00:34:24.019 --> 00:34:25.079
 maybe their

00:34:25.079 --> 00:34:25.500
 second

00:34:25.500 --> 00:34:25.980
 album

00:34:25.980 --> 00:34:26.780
 and it's

00:34:26.780 --> 00:34:27.380
 a song

00:34:27.380 --> 00:34:29.440
 starts out

00:34:29.440 --> 00:34:30.160
 with a

00:34:30.160 --> 00:34:31.360
 wonderfully

00:34:31.360 --> 00:34:31.920
 poetic

00:34:31.920 --> 00:34:32.559
 expression

00:34:32.559 --> 00:34:32.980
 of a

00:34:32.980 --> 00:34:33.320
 very

00:34:33.320 --> 00:34:33.660
 hard

00:34:33.660 --> 00:34:34.059
 moment

00:34:34.059 --> 00:34:36.619
 a man

00:34:36.619 --> 00:34:37.119
 is standing

00:34:37.119 --> 00:34:37.480
 on the

00:34:37.480 --> 00:34:37.700
 San

00:34:37.700 --> 00:34:38.079
 Francisco

00:34:38.079 --> 00:34:38.480
 Golden

00:34:38.480 --> 00:34:38.760
 Gate

00:34:38.760 --> 00:34:39.180
 Bridge

00:34:39.180 --> 00:34:41.840
 on the

00:34:41.840 --> 00:34:42.140
 side

00:34:42.140 --> 00:34:42.340
 that

00:34:42.340 --> 00:34:42.700
 faces

00:34:42.700 --> 00:34:42.960
 the

00:34:42.960 --> 00:34:43.360
 prison

00:34:43.360 --> 00:34:44.019
 they

00:34:44.019 --> 00:34:44.300
 say

00:34:44.300 --> 00:34:45.220
 he's

00:34:45.220 --> 00:34:45.460
 throwing

00:34:45.460 --> 00:34:45.700
 a

00:34:45.700 --> 00:34:45.920
 leg

00:34:45.920 --> 00:34:46.880
 over

00:34:46.880 --> 00:34:47.099
 the

00:34:47.099 --> 00:34:47.440
 rail

00:34:47.440 --> 00:34:51.200
 phone

00:34:51.200 --> 00:34:51.559
 calls

00:34:51.559 --> 00:34:51.920
 made

00:34:51.920 --> 00:34:52.380
 police

00:34:52.380 --> 00:34:52.700
 cars

00:34:52.700 --> 00:34:52.980
 show

00:34:52.980 --> 00:34:53.160
 up

00:34:53.160 --> 00:34:53.599
 quickly

00:34:53.599 --> 00:34:54.700
 the

00:34:54.700 --> 00:34:55.160
 sergeant

00:34:55.160 --> 00:34:55.660
 slams

00:34:55.660 --> 00:34:55.860
 his

00:34:55.860 --> 00:34:56.140
 door

00:34:56.140 --> 00:34:56.460
 and he

00:34:56.460 --> 00:34:56.840
 says

00:34:56.840 --> 00:34:58.780
 just

00:34:58.780 --> 00:34:59.160
 tell me

00:34:59.160 --> 00:34:59.360
 why

00:34:59.360 --> 00:34:59.539
 you're

00:34:59.539 --> 00:34:59.740
 doing

00:34:59.740 --> 00:35:00.100
 this

00:35:00.100 --> 00:35:00.579
 son

00:35:00.579 --> 00:35:02.660
 and his

00:35:02.660 --> 00:35:03.260
 answer

00:35:03.260 --> 00:35:04.820
 is

00:35:04.820 --> 00:35:05.320
 profound

00:35:05.320 --> 00:35:07.340
 it's a

00:35:07.340 --> 00:35:07.519
 little

00:35:07.519 --> 00:35:07.920
 bit of

00:35:07.920 --> 00:35:08.320
 everything

00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:10.200
 it's the

00:35:10.200 --> 00:35:10.579
 title of

00:35:10.579 --> 00:35:10.980
 the song

00:35:10.980 --> 00:35:11.480
 it's a

00:35:11.480 --> 00:35:11.680
 little

00:35:11.680 --> 00:35:12.039
 bit of

00:35:12.039 --> 00:35:12.480
 everything

00:35:12.480 --> 00:35:14.500
 it's the

00:35:14.500 --> 00:35:14.940
 death of

00:35:14.940 --> 00:35:15.360
 my first

00:35:15.360 --> 00:35:15.840
 dog

00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:17.100
 he says

00:35:17.100 --> 00:35:20.140
 and there's

00:35:20.140 --> 00:35:20.600
 this long

00:35:20.600 --> 00:35:21.000
 list

00:35:21.000 --> 00:35:22.500
 of things

00:35:22.500 --> 00:35:22.780
 that you

00:35:22.780 --> 00:35:23.100
 would think

00:35:23.100 --> 00:35:23.620
 are little

00:35:23.620 --> 00:35:24.559
 disappointments

00:35:24.559 --> 00:35:27.679
 but they

00:35:27.679 --> 00:35:28.380
 understand

00:35:28.380 --> 00:35:29.380
 how life

00:35:29.380 --> 00:35:29.940
 actually

00:35:29.940 --> 00:35:30.440
 works

00:35:30.440 --> 00:35:30.960
 it really

00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:31.659
 is a

00:35:31.659 --> 00:35:31.900
 little

00:35:31.900 --> 00:35:32.179
 bit

00:35:32.179 --> 00:35:32.360
 of

00:35:32.360 --> 00:35:32.820
 everything

00:35:32.820 --> 00:35:35.119
 and when

00:35:35.119 --> 00:35:35.739
 we're in

00:35:35.739 --> 00:35:36.099
 this

00:35:36.099 --> 00:35:36.960
 contentious

00:35:36.960 --> 00:35:37.480
 moment

00:35:37.480 --> 00:35:37.860
 where we're

00:35:37.860 --> 00:35:38.279
 trying to

00:35:38.279 --> 00:35:38.619
 say

00:35:38.619 --> 00:35:39.420
 I can't

00:35:39.420 --> 00:35:39.779
 believe you

00:35:39.779 --> 00:35:40.299
 did that

00:35:40.299 --> 00:35:41.279
 I can't

00:35:41.279 --> 00:35:41.699
 believe you

00:35:41.699 --> 00:35:41.920
 don't

00:35:41.920 --> 00:35:42.219
 understand

00:35:42.219 --> 00:35:42.599
 you didn't

00:35:42.599 --> 00:35:43.039
 understand

00:35:43.039 --> 00:35:43.420
 what I was

00:35:43.420 --> 00:35:43.759
 trying to

00:35:43.759 --> 00:35:44.099
 do

00:35:44.099 --> 00:35:45.539
 and we

00:35:45.539 --> 00:35:46.059
 get down

00:35:46.059 --> 00:35:46.380
 to this

00:35:46.380 --> 00:35:46.699
 well it's

00:35:46.699 --> 00:35:47.059
 because

00:35:47.059 --> 00:35:47.440
 no it's

00:35:47.440 --> 00:35:47.940
 because

00:35:47.940 --> 00:35:49.500
 the truth

00:35:49.500 --> 00:35:49.900
 is

00:35:49.900 --> 00:35:50.860
 oh all

00:35:50.860 --> 00:35:51.220
 kinds of

00:35:51.220 --> 00:35:51.539
 things are

00:35:51.539 --> 00:35:51.900
 happening

00:35:51.900 --> 00:35:54.619
 all kinds

00:35:54.619 --> 00:35:54.900
 of things

00:35:54.900 --> 00:35:55.300
 are happening

00:35:55.300 --> 00:35:55.480
 in that

00:35:55.480 --> 00:35:55.700
 moment

00:35:55.700 --> 00:35:56.320
 there's so

00:35:56.320 --> 00:35:56.700
 much that

00:35:56.700 --> 00:35:57.079
 you can't

00:35:57.079 --> 00:35:57.400
 sort them

00:35:57.400 --> 00:35:57.800
 all out

00:35:57.800 --> 00:36:00.960
 you actually

00:36:00.960 --> 00:36:01.840
 cannot

00:36:01.840 --> 00:36:03.019
 solve

00:36:03.019 --> 00:36:04.220
 problems

00:36:04.220 --> 00:36:05.559
 through

00:36:05.559 --> 00:36:06.519
 gaining more

00:36:06.519 --> 00:36:07.059
 information

00:36:07.059 --> 00:36:09.079
 you can

00:36:09.079 --> 00:36:10.000
 dissect it

00:36:10.000 --> 00:36:10.860
 and see

00:36:10.860 --> 00:36:11.340
 more and

00:36:11.340 --> 00:36:11.920
 more and

00:36:11.920 --> 00:36:12.679
 maybe understand

00:36:12.679 --> 00:36:14.420
 more but

00:36:14.420 --> 00:36:14.700
 you won't

00:36:14.700 --> 00:36:15.079
 solve the

00:36:15.079 --> 00:36:15.360
 problems

00:36:15.360 --> 00:36:15.760
 that way

00:36:15.760 --> 00:36:18.440
 it's just

00:36:18.440 --> 00:36:18.820
 the wrong

00:36:18.820 --> 00:36:19.220
 method

00:36:19.220 --> 00:36:21.860
 what needs

00:36:21.860 --> 00:36:22.340
 to happen

00:36:22.340 --> 00:36:22.880
 actually is

00:36:22.880 --> 00:36:23.420
 going after

00:36:23.420 --> 00:36:23.900
 each other's

00:36:23.900 --> 00:36:24.140
 heart

00:36:24.140 --> 00:36:26.260
 it begins

00:36:26.260 --> 00:36:27.160
 by rather

00:36:27.160 --> 00:36:27.860
 than an

00:36:27.860 --> 00:36:28.460
 attack or

00:36:28.460 --> 00:36:28.900
 a withdraw

00:36:28.900 --> 00:36:29.600
 or a

00:36:29.600 --> 00:36:30.120
 trying to

00:36:30.120 --> 00:36:30.680
 convince the

00:36:30.680 --> 00:36:30.960
 other

00:36:30.960 --> 00:36:32.220
 attack sounds

00:36:32.220 --> 00:36:33.180
 more harsh

00:36:33.180 --> 00:36:33.800
 than it always

00:36:33.800 --> 00:36:34.140
 is

00:36:34.140 --> 00:36:35.780
 it really

00:36:35.780 --> 00:36:36.280
 begins by

00:36:36.280 --> 00:36:36.780
 confiding

00:36:36.780 --> 00:36:39.820
 by slowing

00:36:39.820 --> 00:36:40.480
 down enough

00:36:40.480 --> 00:36:40.980
 to take a

00:36:40.980 --> 00:36:41.420
 look at

00:36:41.420 --> 00:36:42.320
 what's really

00:36:42.320 --> 00:36:43.100
 happening here

00:36:43.100 --> 00:36:44.180
 maybe the

00:36:44.180 --> 00:36:44.740
 problem actually

00:36:44.740 --> 00:36:45.080
 is I'm

00:36:45.080 --> 00:36:45.540
 afraid of

00:36:45.539 --> 00:36:45.980
 intimacy

00:36:45.980 --> 00:36:47.380
 but in that

00:36:47.380 --> 00:36:47.900
 moment right

00:36:47.900 --> 00:36:48.259
 there you

00:36:48.259 --> 00:36:48.639
 were actually

00:36:48.639 --> 00:36:49.500
 asking something

00:36:49.500 --> 00:36:49.860
 of me

00:36:49.860 --> 00:36:50.179
 you were

00:36:50.179 --> 00:36:50.699
 asking me

00:36:50.699 --> 00:36:51.019
 to move

00:36:51.019 --> 00:36:51.539
 toward you

00:36:51.539 --> 00:36:54.099
 I didn't

00:36:54.099 --> 00:36:54.619
 think about

00:36:54.619 --> 00:36:55.059
 it I just

00:36:55.059 --> 00:36:55.800
 reacted against

00:36:55.800 --> 00:36:56.480
 that because

00:36:56.480 --> 00:36:57.860
 that scares

00:36:57.860 --> 00:36:58.179
 me

00:36:58.179 --> 00:37:01.259
 I don't

00:37:01.259 --> 00:37:01.500
 even

00:37:01.500 --> 00:37:02.599
 maybe I

00:37:02.599 --> 00:37:03.019
 can't even

00:37:03.019 --> 00:37:03.519
 say it out

00:37:03.519 --> 00:37:03.779
 loud

00:37:03.779 --> 00:37:05.239
 because it

00:37:05.239 --> 00:37:06.239
 scares me

00:37:06.239 --> 00:37:14.500
 so being

00:37:14.500 --> 00:37:14.519
 so being

00:37:14.519 --> 00:37:14.959
 known is

00:37:14.959 --> 00:37:15.419
 your biggest

00:37:15.419 --> 00:37:16.059
 fear

00:37:16.059 --> 00:37:17.239
 your biggest

00:37:17.239 --> 00:37:17.679
 need

00:37:17.679 --> 00:37:18.259
 and your

00:37:18.259 --> 00:37:18.759
 biggest fear

00:37:18.759 --> 00:37:21.219
 there are

00:37:21.219 --> 00:37:21.639
 very few

00:37:21.639 --> 00:37:22.279
 either ors

00:37:22.279 --> 00:37:22.579
 in this

00:37:22.579 --> 00:37:22.879
 either

00:37:22.879 --> 00:37:23.939
 not much

00:37:23.939 --> 00:37:24.539
 because and

00:37:24.539 --> 00:37:24.839
 there aren't

00:37:24.839 --> 00:37:25.459
 either ors

00:37:25.459 --> 00:37:25.759
 it's either

00:37:25.759 --> 00:37:26.299
 this or it's

00:37:26.299 --> 00:37:26.779
 that no

00:37:26.779 --> 00:37:27.339
 it's all

00:37:27.339 --> 00:37:27.639
 of it

00:37:27.639 --> 00:37:29.440
 we need to

00:37:29.440 --> 00:37:29.879
 be known

00:37:29.879 --> 00:37:31.699
 when God

00:37:31.699 --> 00:37:32.199
 said it's not

00:37:32.199 --> 00:37:32.699
 good for man

00:37:32.699 --> 00:37:33.199
 to be alone

00:37:33.199 --> 00:37:33.799
 that applies to

00:37:33.799 --> 00:37:34.259
 women too

00:37:34.259 --> 00:37:38.079
 he's saying

00:37:38.079 --> 00:37:39.119
 it's not good

00:37:39.119 --> 00:37:39.539
 to be alone

00:37:39.539 --> 00:37:40.319
 we need

00:37:40.319 --> 00:37:41.079
 each other

00:37:41.079 --> 00:37:41.699
 we need to

00:37:41.699 --> 00:37:42.099
 be known

00:37:42.099 --> 00:37:42.980
 when he

00:37:42.980 --> 00:37:43.920
 expresses the

00:37:43.920 --> 00:37:44.819
 state of Adam

00:37:44.819 --> 00:37:45.099
 and Eve

00:37:45.099 --> 00:37:45.859
 before the fall

00:37:45.859 --> 00:37:46.159
 they were

00:37:46.159 --> 00:37:46.759
 naked

00:37:46.759 --> 00:37:47.960
 without shame

00:37:47.960 --> 00:37:48.559
 I'm saying

00:37:48.559 --> 00:37:49.159
 that's both

00:37:49.159 --> 00:37:49.879
 literally true

00:37:49.879 --> 00:37:50.460
 and figuratively

00:37:50.460 --> 00:37:50.799
 true

00:37:50.800 --> 00:37:51.720
 they were

00:37:51.720 --> 00:37:52.340
 known

00:37:52.340 --> 00:37:54.840
 without shame

00:37:54.840 --> 00:37:56.120
 accepted

00:37:56.120 --> 00:37:57.180
 we need

00:37:57.180 --> 00:37:57.440
 that

00:37:57.440 --> 00:37:58.019
 it's built

00:37:58.019 --> 00:37:58.800
 into who

00:37:58.800 --> 00:37:59.280
 we are

00:37:59.280 --> 00:38:02.019
 the Trinity

00:38:02.019 --> 00:38:02.820
 as the

00:38:02.820 --> 00:38:03.760
 Father and

00:38:03.760 --> 00:38:04.200
 the Son

00:38:04.200 --> 00:38:04.940
 and the Spirit

00:38:04.940 --> 00:38:05.600
 and the Spirit

00:38:05.600 --> 00:38:06.280
 to the Father

00:38:06.280 --> 00:38:06.780
 and the Spirit

00:38:06.780 --> 00:38:07.360
 to the Son

00:38:07.360 --> 00:38:08.380
 all of those

00:38:08.380 --> 00:38:09.120
 three persons

00:38:09.120 --> 00:38:09.960
 in that Godhead

00:38:09.960 --> 00:38:11.000
 that one God

00:38:11.000 --> 00:38:12.800
 they know

00:38:12.800 --> 00:38:13.160
 each other

00:38:13.160 --> 00:38:13.700
 completely

00:38:13.700 --> 00:38:16.200
 that's the

00:38:16.200 --> 00:38:17.039
 model of how

00:38:17.039 --> 00:38:17.640
 it's supposed

00:38:17.640 --> 00:38:18.600
 to be for us

00:38:18.600 --> 00:38:20.500
 and it was

00:38:20.500 --> 00:38:21.079
 that way

00:38:21.079 --> 00:38:22.260
 until Adam

00:38:22.260 --> 00:38:23.340
 sinned

00:38:23.340 --> 00:38:25.280
 Adam sinned

00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:25.679
 brought in

00:38:25.679 --> 00:38:26.699
 this alienation

00:38:26.699 --> 00:38:27.659
 and the distortion

00:38:27.659 --> 00:38:29.179
 and the breaking

00:38:29.179 --> 00:38:29.960
 of the circuits

00:38:29.960 --> 00:38:32.380
 so that

00:38:32.380 --> 00:38:33.480
 it's not that way

00:38:33.480 --> 00:38:34.519
 we get

00:38:34.519 --> 00:38:35.420
 tastes of it

00:38:35.420 --> 00:38:36.880
 because of

00:38:36.880 --> 00:38:37.599
 God's grace

00:38:37.599 --> 00:38:38.679
 common grace

00:38:38.679 --> 00:38:39.699
 and his special grace

00:38:39.699 --> 00:38:40.480
 all of it

00:38:40.480 --> 00:38:41.239
 we get

00:38:41.239 --> 00:38:42.079
 tastes of it

00:38:42.079 --> 00:38:43.760
 but it's not

00:38:43.760 --> 00:38:44.400
 like it was

00:38:44.400 --> 00:38:45.659
 someday it will be

00:38:45.659 --> 00:38:50.300
 in the meantime

00:38:50.300 --> 00:38:52.640
 we still need

00:38:52.640 --> 00:38:55.539
 and it's hard

00:38:55.539 --> 00:38:57.580
 and we're afraid

00:38:57.580 --> 00:38:58.920
 at least a little bit

00:38:58.920 --> 00:39:00.740
 and probably more

00:39:00.740 --> 00:39:02.100
 than we know

00:39:02.099 --> 00:39:13.519
 I'm thinking

00:39:13.519 --> 00:39:13.880
 that

00:39:13.880 --> 00:39:15.159
 Joshua 1

00:39:15.159 --> 00:39:15.819
 suggests

00:39:15.819 --> 00:39:17.179
 gives us some ideas

00:39:17.179 --> 00:39:17.839
 on how to deal

00:39:17.839 --> 00:39:18.199
 with this

00:39:18.199 --> 00:39:18.679
 how to work

00:39:18.679 --> 00:39:19.259
 with this

00:39:19.259 --> 00:39:21.000
 and that

00:39:21.000 --> 00:39:22.920
 how do we

00:39:22.920 --> 00:39:23.519
 bring home

00:39:23.519 --> 00:39:25.519
 it's

00:39:25.519 --> 00:39:25.860
 again

00:39:25.860 --> 00:39:26.460
 it's an indirect

00:39:26.460 --> 00:39:26.860
 way

00:39:26.860 --> 00:39:29.160
 but it's

00:39:29.160 --> 00:39:30.000
 to seek

00:39:30.000 --> 00:39:31.480
 pursue

00:39:31.480 --> 00:39:34.000
 try to

00:39:34.000 --> 00:39:35.260
 not figure out

00:39:35.260 --> 00:39:37.140
 but experience

00:39:37.140 --> 00:39:39.460
 what God

00:39:39.460 --> 00:39:40.099
 says

00:39:40.099 --> 00:39:41.140
 here

00:39:41.140 --> 00:39:42.200
 and many other

00:39:42.200 --> 00:39:42.680
 places

00:39:42.680 --> 00:39:45.099
 I am with you

00:39:45.099 --> 00:39:49.440
 I am with you

00:39:49.440 --> 00:39:57.139
 right now

00:39:57.139 --> 00:40:00.579
 Jesus said

00:40:00.579 --> 00:40:02.699
 in that upper room

00:40:02.699 --> 00:40:06.199
 I'm going

00:40:06.199 --> 00:40:08.360
 but

00:40:08.360 --> 00:40:12.159
 I send another

00:40:12.159 --> 00:40:13.960
 the spirit

00:40:13.960 --> 00:40:16.879
 will be with you

00:40:16.879 --> 00:40:18.399
 who will teach you

00:40:18.399 --> 00:40:25.679
 it's hard

00:40:25.679 --> 00:40:26.579
 to be

00:40:26.579 --> 00:40:27.259
 have a lot

00:40:27.259 --> 00:40:28.059
 of knowledge

00:40:28.059 --> 00:40:29.239
 about that

00:40:29.239 --> 00:40:30.940
 there's not a lot

00:40:30.940 --> 00:40:31.659
 written in the book

00:40:31.659 --> 00:40:33.159
 on the spirit

00:40:33.159 --> 00:40:35.659
 shows up pretty late

00:40:35.659 --> 00:40:36.279
 in the story

00:40:36.279 --> 00:40:37.920
 there are hints

00:40:37.920 --> 00:40:40.059
 but you know

00:40:40.059 --> 00:40:40.759
 people don't start

00:40:40.759 --> 00:40:41.699
 wrestling with the trinity

00:40:41.699 --> 00:40:42.779
 until after Jesus

00:40:42.779 --> 00:40:44.179
 it's like

00:40:44.179 --> 00:40:46.319
 you know

00:40:46.319 --> 00:40:47.099
 post

00:40:47.099 --> 00:40:48.639
 0 AD

00:40:48.639 --> 00:40:49.659
 post 32

00:40:49.659 --> 00:40:50.519
 post 200

00:40:50.519 --> 00:40:51.480
 post 100

00:40:51.480 --> 00:40:51.939
 at least

00:40:51.939 --> 00:40:53.819
 because

00:40:53.819 --> 00:40:54.719
 he doesn't show up

00:40:54.719 --> 00:40:55.219
 in the story

00:40:55.219 --> 00:40:55.899
 much

00:40:55.899 --> 00:40:57.299
 he's there

00:40:57.299 --> 00:40:58.199
 he has a role

00:40:58.199 --> 00:40:59.359
 and you can see it

00:40:59.359 --> 00:40:59.799
 but it's

00:40:59.799 --> 00:41:00.539
 it's more hints

00:41:00.539 --> 00:41:01.939
 and there's not

00:41:01.939 --> 00:41:02.679
 that much written

00:41:02.679 --> 00:41:05.679
 that doesn't mean

00:41:05.679 --> 00:41:07.299
 he's less

00:41:07.299 --> 00:41:10.799
 it means

00:41:10.800 --> 00:41:11.600
 he's the one

00:41:11.600 --> 00:41:12.320
 currently

00:41:12.320 --> 00:41:14.240
 that God

00:41:14.240 --> 00:41:14.940
 expresses

00:41:14.940 --> 00:41:15.800
 his presence

00:41:15.800 --> 00:41:16.680
 with us

00:41:16.680 --> 00:41:18.140
 and maybe

00:41:18.140 --> 00:41:18.840
 there's a

00:41:18.840 --> 00:41:20.600
 intention

00:41:20.600 --> 00:41:22.000
 in God's

00:41:22.000 --> 00:41:23.760
 very limited

00:41:23.760 --> 00:41:24.600
 explanation

00:41:24.599 --> 00:41:30.599
 I suspect

00:41:30.599 --> 00:41:31.159
 that God

00:41:31.159 --> 00:41:31.559
 knew

00:41:31.559 --> 00:41:32.179
 that we were

00:41:32.179 --> 00:41:32.440
 going to

00:41:32.440 --> 00:41:33.019
 get to a

00:41:33.019 --> 00:41:33.480
 place

00:41:33.480 --> 00:41:34.059
 through the

00:41:34.059 --> 00:41:34.799
 course of

00:41:34.799 --> 00:41:35.199
 time

00:41:35.199 --> 00:41:35.519
 in our

00:41:35.519 --> 00:41:36.099
 philosophy

00:41:36.099 --> 00:41:36.500
 and our

00:41:36.500 --> 00:41:37.000
 theology

00:41:37.000 --> 00:41:37.440
 and they were

00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:38.000
 almost the

00:41:38.000 --> 00:41:38.539
 same thing

00:41:38.539 --> 00:41:39.239
 a few

00:41:39.239 --> 00:41:40.019
 centuries ago

00:41:40.019 --> 00:41:41.239
 to where we

00:41:41.239 --> 00:41:41.860
 do life

00:41:41.860 --> 00:41:42.839
 mostly out of

00:41:42.839 --> 00:41:43.239
 our head

00:41:43.239 --> 00:41:44.239
 and mostly

00:41:44.239 --> 00:41:44.759
 by what we

00:41:44.759 --> 00:41:44.980
 know

00:41:44.980 --> 00:41:49.300
 you could

00:41:49.300 --> 00:41:49.659
 say

00:41:49.659 --> 00:41:50.719
 it's the

00:41:50.719 --> 00:41:51.380
 brilliance

00:41:51.380 --> 00:41:51.960
 of God

00:41:51.960 --> 00:41:54.860
 knowing that

00:41:54.860 --> 00:41:55.460
 that he could

00:41:55.460 --> 00:41:55.840
 say

00:41:55.840 --> 00:41:56.599
 hey I'm not

00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:56.760
 going to

00:41:56.760 --> 00:41:57.240
 explain this

00:41:57.240 --> 00:41:57.679
 too much

00:41:57.679 --> 00:41:58.000
 I'm just

00:41:58.000 --> 00:41:58.159
 going to

00:41:58.159 --> 00:41:58.380
 say

00:41:58.380 --> 00:41:58.980
 there he

00:41:58.980 --> 00:41:59.380
 is

00:41:59.380 --> 00:42:01.820
 and all

00:42:01.820 --> 00:42:02.199
 through the

00:42:02.199 --> 00:42:02.599
 story

00:42:02.599 --> 00:42:03.139
 I'm going

00:42:03.139 --> 00:42:03.340
 to be

00:42:03.340 --> 00:42:03.679
 saying

00:42:03.679 --> 00:42:04.480
 the point

00:42:04.480 --> 00:42:04.760
 is

00:42:04.760 --> 00:42:05.320
 I

00:42:05.320 --> 00:42:06.480
 am with

00:42:06.480 --> 00:42:06.699
 you

00:42:06.699 --> 00:42:07.219
 that's

00:42:07.219 --> 00:42:07.559
 not just

00:42:07.559 --> 00:42:08.039
 the father

00:42:08.039 --> 00:42:08.460
 speaking

00:42:08.460 --> 00:42:10.300
 it's God

00:42:10.300 --> 00:42:10.840
 speaking

00:42:10.840 --> 00:42:11.500
 I

00:42:11.500 --> 00:42:12.599
 am with

00:42:12.599 --> 00:42:12.860
 you

00:42:12.860 --> 00:42:18.579
 so what

00:42:18.579 --> 00:42:18.900
 if we

00:42:18.900 --> 00:42:19.380
 set out

00:42:19.380 --> 00:42:20.000
 to seek

00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:20.559
 and pursue

00:42:20.559 --> 00:42:21.320
 what that

00:42:21.320 --> 00:42:21.840
 actually

00:42:21.840 --> 00:42:23.500
 is like

00:42:23.500 --> 00:42:24.900
 not to

00:42:24.900 --> 00:42:25.500
 learn more

00:42:25.500 --> 00:42:25.920
 it's going

00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:26.059
 to be

00:42:26.059 --> 00:42:26.500
 hard to

00:42:26.500 --> 00:42:27.059
 you can

00:42:27.059 --> 00:42:27.559
 read books

00:42:27.559 --> 00:42:27.940
 where people

00:42:27.940 --> 00:42:29.400
 have tried

00:42:29.400 --> 00:42:29.960
 to expand

00:42:29.960 --> 00:42:33.500
 I'm not

00:42:33.500 --> 00:42:34.800
 saying that

00:42:34.800 --> 00:42:35.160
 you need to

00:42:35.160 --> 00:42:35.960
 become charismatic

00:42:35.960 --> 00:42:36.780
 Presbyterians

00:42:36.780 --> 00:42:37.440
 if you're

00:42:37.440 --> 00:42:37.700
 starting to

00:42:37.700 --> 00:42:38.059
 get nervous

00:42:38.059 --> 00:42:38.599
 about that

00:42:38.599 --> 00:42:44.279
 I'm saying

00:42:44.279 --> 00:42:44.719
 we need to

00:42:44.719 --> 00:42:45.099
 do some

00:42:45.099 --> 00:42:45.579
 work to

00:42:45.579 --> 00:42:46.099
 actually

00:42:46.099 --> 00:42:47.460
 know what

00:42:47.460 --> 00:42:48.159
 a relationship

00:42:48.159 --> 00:42:48.719
 with God

00:42:48.719 --> 00:42:49.420
 is

00:42:49.420 --> 00:42:51.239
 by seeking

00:42:51.239 --> 00:42:52.440
 the experience

00:42:52.440 --> 00:42:53.480
 of it

00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:54.480
 not facts

00:42:54.480 --> 00:42:55.279
 about it

00:42:55.279 --> 00:42:58.739
 and I'm

00:42:58.739 --> 00:42:59.319
 suggesting

00:42:59.319 --> 00:43:00.099
 that that

00:43:00.099 --> 00:43:00.699
 growing

00:43:00.699 --> 00:43:01.380
 intimacy

00:43:01.380 --> 00:43:02.039
 with God

00:43:02.039 --> 00:43:02.719
 himself

00:43:02.719 --> 00:43:03.139
 will be

00:43:03.139 --> 00:43:03.599
 the thing

00:43:03.599 --> 00:43:04.000
 that gets

00:43:04.000 --> 00:43:04.619
 you grounded

00:43:04.619 --> 00:43:05.339
 in a place

00:43:05.339 --> 00:43:05.659
 where you

00:43:05.659 --> 00:43:06.380
 feel safe

00:43:06.380 --> 00:43:06.739
 enough

00:43:06.739 --> 00:43:07.959
 to move

00:43:07.959 --> 00:43:08.479
 forward

00:43:08.479 --> 00:43:09.119
 with less

00:43:09.119 --> 00:43:09.539
 fear

00:43:09.539 --> 00:43:09.959
 in your

00:43:09.959 --> 00:43:10.479
 intimacy

00:43:10.479 --> 00:43:11.919
 with other

00:43:11.919 --> 00:43:12.359
 people

00:43:12.359 --> 00:43:13.239
 especially

00:43:13.239 --> 00:43:13.759
 those that

00:43:13.759 --> 00:43:14.059
 are most

00:43:14.059 --> 00:43:14.559
 important to

00:43:14.559 --> 00:43:15.359
 you

00:43:15.359 --> 00:43:23.000
 I'm trying

00:43:23.000 --> 00:43:23.519
 to decide

00:43:23.519 --> 00:43:23.899
 whether to

00:43:23.899 --> 00:43:24.299
 abandon the

00:43:24.299 --> 00:43:24.559
 outline

00:43:24.559 --> 00:43:24.899
 which I

00:43:24.899 --> 00:43:25.179
 think I

00:43:25.179 --> 00:43:25.739
 already have

00:43:25.739 --> 00:43:27.179
 somewhat

00:43:27.179 --> 00:43:28.339
 and I

00:43:28.339 --> 00:43:28.619
 think I

00:43:28.619 --> 00:43:28.839
 will

00:43:28.839 --> 00:43:33.039
 I mentioned

00:43:33.039 --> 00:43:33.559
 last night

00:43:33.559 --> 00:43:33.879
 that I

00:43:33.879 --> 00:43:34.199
 started

00:43:34.199 --> 00:43:34.459
 meeting

00:43:34.459 --> 00:43:35.119
 with an

00:43:35.119 --> 00:43:35.659
 old friend

00:43:35.659 --> 00:43:36.679
 who's in

00:43:36.679 --> 00:43:37.059
 training

00:43:37.059 --> 00:43:37.940
 to be

00:43:37.940 --> 00:43:39.000
 certified

00:43:39.000 --> 00:43:39.779
 as a

00:43:39.779 --> 00:43:40.179
 spiritual

00:43:40.179 --> 00:43:40.659
 director

00:43:40.659 --> 00:43:41.699
 this is a

00:43:41.699 --> 00:43:42.199
 protestant

00:43:42.199 --> 00:43:42.460
 group

00:43:42.460 --> 00:43:43.079
 connected

00:43:43.079 --> 00:43:43.379
 with

00:43:43.379 --> 00:43:43.699
 Gordon

00:43:43.699 --> 00:43:44.299
 Conwell

00:43:44.299 --> 00:43:45.000
 that he's

00:43:45.000 --> 00:43:45.379
 doing this

00:43:45.379 --> 00:43:45.899
 seminary

00:43:45.899 --> 00:43:46.239
 that is

00:43:46.239 --> 00:43:47.239
 doing this

00:43:47.239 --> 00:43:47.679
 training

00:43:47.679 --> 00:43:47.940
 through

00:43:47.940 --> 00:43:51.139
 and I

00:43:51.139 --> 00:43:51.379
 think I

00:43:51.379 --> 00:43:51.819
 said last

00:43:51.819 --> 00:43:52.139
 night that

00:43:52.139 --> 00:43:52.480
 the very

00:43:52.480 --> 00:43:53.139
 first time

00:43:53.139 --> 00:43:53.379
 that I

00:43:53.379 --> 00:43:53.779
 met with

00:43:53.779 --> 00:43:54.179
 this man

00:43:54.179 --> 00:43:54.480
 I was

00:43:54.480 --> 00:43:54.699
 really

00:43:54.699 --> 00:43:55.139
 confronted

00:43:55.139 --> 00:43:56.219
 with my

00:43:56.219 --> 00:43:56.599
 friend

00:43:56.599 --> 00:43:58.539
 confronted

00:43:58.539 --> 00:43:59.019
 with how

00:43:59.019 --> 00:43:59.519
 much

00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:01.539
 I hold

00:44:01.539 --> 00:44:02.000
 people

00:44:02.000 --> 00:44:02.399
 off

00:44:02.399 --> 00:44:03.139
 and hold

00:44:03.139 --> 00:44:03.379
 God

00:44:03.379 --> 00:44:03.739
 off

00:44:03.739 --> 00:44:04.299
 that I

00:44:04.299 --> 00:44:04.619
 try to

00:44:04.619 --> 00:44:04.879
 keep

00:44:04.879 --> 00:44:05.819
 people

00:44:05.819 --> 00:44:06.219
 and God

00:44:06.219 --> 00:44:06.519
 at a

00:44:06.519 --> 00:44:06.699
 safe

00:44:06.699 --> 00:44:07.219
 distance

00:44:07.219 --> 00:44:17.539
 so in

00:44:17.539 --> 00:44:17.939
 the course

00:44:17.939 --> 00:44:18.219
 of that

00:44:18.219 --> 00:44:18.879
 conversation

00:44:18.879 --> 00:44:19.459
 my friend

00:44:19.459 --> 00:44:19.819
 had

00:44:19.819 --> 00:44:22.719
 asked me

00:44:22.719 --> 00:44:23.699
 could I

00:44:23.699 --> 00:44:24.219
 see God

00:44:24.219 --> 00:44:25.639
 as

00:44:25.639 --> 00:44:26.799
 the father

00:44:26.799 --> 00:44:27.039
 of the

00:44:27.039 --> 00:44:27.419
 prodigal

00:44:27.419 --> 00:44:27.699
 son

00:44:27.699 --> 00:44:28.699
 with his

00:44:28.699 --> 00:44:29.279
 arms open

00:44:29.279 --> 00:44:30.759
 running

00:44:30.759 --> 00:44:31.919
 toward me

00:44:31.920 --> 00:44:35.619
 he was

00:44:35.619 --> 00:44:36.240
 expecting a

00:44:36.240 --> 00:44:36.800
 response at

00:44:36.800 --> 00:44:37.200
 some point

00:44:37.200 --> 00:44:37.420
 and I

00:44:37.420 --> 00:44:37.700
 did not

00:44:37.700 --> 00:44:38.099
 respond

00:44:38.099 --> 00:44:38.700
 I stayed

00:44:38.700 --> 00:44:39.019
 silent

00:44:39.019 --> 00:44:40.099
 because in

00:44:40.099 --> 00:44:40.599
 my mind

00:44:40.599 --> 00:44:41.380
 I was

00:44:41.380 --> 00:44:42.380
 saying no

00:44:42.380 --> 00:44:43.320
 and no

00:44:43.320 --> 00:44:43.639
 way

00:44:43.639 --> 00:44:44.240
 and I'm

00:44:44.240 --> 00:44:44.559
 not going

00:44:44.559 --> 00:44:45.119
 there

00:44:45.119 --> 00:44:48.619
 which opened

00:44:48.619 --> 00:44:49.220
 a door

00:44:49.220 --> 00:44:51.720
 eventually I

00:44:51.720 --> 00:44:52.519
 said that

00:44:52.519 --> 00:44:53.320
 something like

00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:53.900
 that and

00:44:53.900 --> 00:44:54.579
 my friend

00:44:54.579 --> 00:44:55.980
 said something

00:44:55.980 --> 00:44:56.800
 like in

00:44:56.800 --> 00:44:58.440
 his amazing

00:44:58.440 --> 00:44:59.260
 and wonderful

00:44:59.260 --> 00:45:00.420
 persistence that

00:45:00.420 --> 00:45:00.880
 God is

00:45:00.880 --> 00:45:01.519
 present in

00:45:01.519 --> 00:45:02.079
 speaking through

00:45:02.079 --> 00:45:02.539
 everything

00:45:02.539 --> 00:45:05.519
 he asked

00:45:05.519 --> 00:45:06.039
 me what

00:45:06.039 --> 00:45:07.880
 I think

00:45:07.880 --> 00:45:08.420
 God was

00:45:08.420 --> 00:45:08.780
 trying to

00:45:08.780 --> 00:45:09.159
 tell me

00:45:09.159 --> 00:45:09.699
 through that

00:45:09.699 --> 00:45:10.960
 thought

00:45:10.960 --> 00:45:13.440
 and we

00:45:13.440 --> 00:45:13.940
 talked about

00:45:13.940 --> 00:45:14.460
 that and we

00:45:14.460 --> 00:45:14.840
 were getting

00:45:14.840 --> 00:45:15.380
 somewhere and

00:45:15.380 --> 00:45:15.639
 in that

00:45:15.639 --> 00:45:16.820
 process I

00:45:16.820 --> 00:45:17.259
 was becoming

00:45:17.259 --> 00:45:17.920
 aware that

00:45:17.920 --> 00:45:18.400
 in my

00:45:18.400 --> 00:45:19.980
 history my

00:45:19.980 --> 00:45:20.639
 story the

00:45:20.639 --> 00:45:21.039
 death of

00:45:21.039 --> 00:45:21.559
 my father

00:45:21.559 --> 00:45:21.960
 that felt

00:45:21.960 --> 00:45:22.780
 like abandonment

00:45:22.780 --> 00:45:23.480
 and my

00:45:23.480 --> 00:45:24.380
 mom's getting

00:45:24.380 --> 00:45:25.019
 to work so

00:45:25.019 --> 00:45:25.500
 hard she

00:45:25.500 --> 00:45:26.019
 did such a

00:45:26.019 --> 00:45:26.659
 wonderful job

00:45:26.659 --> 00:45:27.199
 to raise her

00:45:27.199 --> 00:45:27.860
 three boys

00:45:27.860 --> 00:45:29.400
 alone back

00:45:29.400 --> 00:45:29.900
 there in the

00:45:29.900 --> 00:45:30.820
 1950s and

00:45:30.820 --> 00:45:31.660
 early 60s

00:45:31.660 --> 00:45:32.700
 and beyond

00:45:32.700 --> 00:45:34.140
 in my case

00:45:34.140 --> 00:45:34.440
 as the

00:45:34.440 --> 00:45:34.800
 youngest

00:45:34.800 --> 00:45:37.440
 but she

00:45:37.440 --> 00:45:37.920
 wasn't

00:45:37.920 --> 00:45:39.180
 emotionally

00:45:39.180 --> 00:45:39.900
 equipped

00:45:39.900 --> 00:45:41.620
 to step

00:45:41.620 --> 00:45:41.960
 in

00:45:41.960 --> 00:45:43.000
 our father

00:45:43.000 --> 00:45:43.360
 was the

00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:43.680
 nurturing

00:45:43.680 --> 00:45:44.019
 one

00:45:44.019 --> 00:45:45.240
 and she

00:45:45.240 --> 00:45:46.039
 wasn't

00:45:46.039 --> 00:45:46.380
 emotionally

00:45:46.380 --> 00:45:46.800
 equipped to

00:45:46.800 --> 00:45:47.200
 do that

00:45:47.200 --> 00:45:47.620
 and I

00:45:47.620 --> 00:45:48.140
 experienced

00:45:48.140 --> 00:45:48.480
 that

00:45:48.480 --> 00:45:49.360
 shorthand

00:45:49.360 --> 00:45:50.100
 as another

00:45:50.100 --> 00:45:50.840
 abandonment

00:45:50.840 --> 00:45:52.380
 and that

00:45:52.380 --> 00:45:53.460
 sort of set

00:45:53.460 --> 00:45:53.920
 me up

00:45:53.920 --> 00:45:54.380
 and I

00:45:54.380 --> 00:45:54.760
 really

00:45:54.760 --> 00:45:56.620
 from there

00:45:56.619 --> 00:45:57.259
 on was

00:45:57.259 --> 00:45:57.859
 smart

00:45:57.859 --> 00:45:58.239
 enough

00:45:58.239 --> 00:45:58.659
 that's a

00:45:58.659 --> 00:45:59.299
 liability

00:45:59.299 --> 00:46:01.679
 to go

00:46:01.679 --> 00:46:02.259
 through life

00:46:02.259 --> 00:46:02.900
 living out

00:46:02.900 --> 00:46:03.159
 of my

00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:03.679
 head

00:46:03.679 --> 00:46:04.239
 and all

00:46:04.239 --> 00:46:04.599
 this other

00:46:04.599 --> 00:46:05.059
 stuff just

00:46:05.059 --> 00:46:05.480
 putting it

00:46:05.480 --> 00:46:05.699
 away

00:46:05.699 --> 00:46:06.159
 somewhere

00:46:06.159 --> 00:46:08.039
 a very

00:46:08.039 --> 00:46:08.819
 fragmented

00:46:08.819 --> 00:46:09.460
 person

00:46:09.460 --> 00:46:12.819
 sidebar

00:46:12.819 --> 00:46:13.819
 that's the

00:46:13.819 --> 00:46:14.199
 way we do

00:46:14.199 --> 00:46:14.880
 theology in

00:46:14.880 --> 00:46:15.460
 this tradition

00:46:15.460 --> 00:46:18.239
 mostly out

00:46:18.239 --> 00:46:18.460
 of our

00:46:18.460 --> 00:46:18.819
 head

00:46:18.819 --> 00:46:19.759
 and it's

00:46:19.759 --> 00:46:20.019
 really

00:46:20.019 --> 00:46:20.619
 fragmented

00:46:20.619 --> 00:46:24.659
 most of

00:46:24.659 --> 00:46:24.980
 what I've

00:46:24.980 --> 00:46:25.259
 been trying

00:46:25.259 --> 00:46:25.500
 to do

00:46:25.500 --> 00:46:26.039
 this weekend

00:46:26.039 --> 00:46:26.779
 is help

00:46:26.779 --> 00:46:27.400
 us put

00:46:27.400 --> 00:46:27.759
 the human

00:46:27.759 --> 00:46:28.359
 person back

00:46:28.359 --> 00:46:28.759
 together

00:46:28.759 --> 00:46:30.000
 and to

00:46:30.000 --> 00:46:30.559
 see that

00:46:30.559 --> 00:46:31.799
 God's

00:46:31.799 --> 00:46:32.119
 trying to

00:46:32.119 --> 00:46:32.699
 grow full

00:46:32.699 --> 00:46:33.500
 human beings

00:46:33.500 --> 00:46:34.759
 that's like

00:46:34.759 --> 00:46:35.319
 his main

00:46:35.319 --> 00:46:35.799
 goal

00:46:35.799 --> 00:46:37.420
 full

00:46:37.420 --> 00:46:38.739
 human beings

00:46:38.739 --> 00:46:40.739
 end of

00:46:40.739 --> 00:46:41.139
 sidebar

00:46:41.139 --> 00:46:43.759
 so as I'm

00:46:43.759 --> 00:46:44.059
 meeting with

00:46:44.059 --> 00:46:44.500
 my friend

00:46:44.500 --> 00:46:44.880
 I'm having

00:46:44.880 --> 00:46:45.639
 that conversation

00:46:45.639 --> 00:46:45.980
 and I'm

00:46:45.980 --> 00:46:46.539
 thinking about

00:46:46.539 --> 00:46:46.900
 this

00:46:46.900 --> 00:46:49.759
 he prayed

00:46:49.759 --> 00:46:50.380
 we prayed

00:46:50.380 --> 00:46:54.840
 and we're

00:46:54.840 --> 00:46:55.700
 sitting outside

00:46:55.700 --> 00:46:57.200
 we have

00:46:57.200 --> 00:46:57.880
 a little

00:46:57.880 --> 00:46:58.280
 tiny

00:46:58.280 --> 00:46:59.619
 five acres

00:46:59.619 --> 00:47:00.880
 for a farm

00:47:00.880 --> 00:47:01.360
 we have an

00:47:01.360 --> 00:47:01.960
 old farm

00:47:01.960 --> 00:47:02.280
 that used

00:47:02.280 --> 00:47:02.760
 to be 80

00:47:02.760 --> 00:47:03.180
 or 100

00:47:03.180 --> 00:47:04.079
 120 acres

00:47:04.079 --> 00:47:04.579
 and all that

00:47:04.579 --> 00:47:04.960
 land got

00:47:04.960 --> 00:47:05.460
 sold off

00:47:05.460 --> 00:47:06.240
 and we

00:47:06.240 --> 00:47:06.539
 have the

00:47:06.539 --> 00:47:06.880
 remaining

00:47:06.880 --> 00:47:07.579
 five acres

00:47:07.579 --> 00:47:08.900
 just big

00:47:08.900 --> 00:47:09.320
 enough for

00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:09.720
 a pasture

00:47:09.720 --> 00:47:10.140
 for two

00:47:10.140 --> 00:47:10.460
 horses

00:47:10.460 --> 00:47:11.220
 if we had

00:47:11.220 --> 00:47:11.559
 three

00:47:11.559 --> 00:47:12.019
 they would

00:47:12.019 --> 00:47:12.500
 be hungry

00:47:12.500 --> 00:47:16.820
 and we're

00:47:16.820 --> 00:47:17.480
 sitting about

00:47:17.480 --> 00:47:19.059
 four rows

00:47:19.059 --> 00:47:19.500
 from the

00:47:19.500 --> 00:47:19.880
 fence

00:47:19.880 --> 00:47:20.800
 a pasture

00:47:20.800 --> 00:47:21.900
 under a

00:47:21.900 --> 00:47:22.360
 big walnut

00:47:22.360 --> 00:47:22.760
 tree

00:47:22.760 --> 00:47:27.700
 and after

00:47:27.700 --> 00:47:28.220
 we pray

00:47:28.220 --> 00:47:29.039
 I look up

00:47:29.039 --> 00:47:29.320
 and my

00:47:29.320 --> 00:47:29.760
 friend is

00:47:29.760 --> 00:47:30.000
 saying

00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:30.480
 something

00:47:30.480 --> 00:47:31.880
 I'm kind

00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:32.400
 of listening

00:47:32.400 --> 00:47:33.079
 and I'm

00:47:33.079 --> 00:47:33.500
 looking at

00:47:33.500 --> 00:47:34.280
 this dove

00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:35.039
 this morning

00:47:35.039 --> 00:47:35.340
 dove

00:47:35.340 --> 00:47:35.800
 that's sitting

00:47:35.800 --> 00:47:36.119
 on that

00:47:36.119 --> 00:47:36.420
 fence

00:47:36.420 --> 00:47:38.860
 I think

00:47:38.860 --> 00:47:39.480
 I remember

00:47:39.480 --> 00:47:40.099
 that it was

00:47:40.099 --> 00:47:40.660
 there before

00:47:40.660 --> 00:47:41.559
 we started

00:47:41.559 --> 00:47:41.980
 to pray

00:47:41.980 --> 00:47:42.460
 I'm not

00:47:42.460 --> 00:47:42.820
 sure

00:47:42.820 --> 00:47:44.579
 and after a

00:47:44.579 --> 00:47:45.099
 while I

00:47:45.099 --> 00:47:45.599
 asked my

00:47:45.599 --> 00:47:46.000
 friend

00:47:46.000 --> 00:47:46.820
 how long

00:47:46.820 --> 00:47:47.059
 has that

00:47:47.059 --> 00:47:47.480
 bird been

00:47:47.480 --> 00:47:47.659
 sitting

00:47:47.659 --> 00:47:47.900
 there

00:47:47.900 --> 00:47:49.860
 he's kind

00:47:49.860 --> 00:47:50.099
 of like

00:47:50.099 --> 00:47:50.340
 I don't

00:47:50.340 --> 00:47:50.619
 know

00:47:50.619 --> 00:47:51.199
 and we

00:47:51.199 --> 00:47:51.599
 kept on

00:47:51.599 --> 00:47:51.960
 talking

00:47:51.960 --> 00:47:57.840
 we talked

00:47:57.840 --> 00:47:58.639
 for about

00:47:58.639 --> 00:47:59.539
 an hour

00:47:59.539 --> 00:48:00.199
 that day

00:48:00.199 --> 00:48:01.300
 at that

00:48:01.300 --> 00:48:01.719
 moment

00:48:01.719 --> 00:48:02.400
 you know

00:48:02.400 --> 00:48:02.880
 it was like

00:48:02.880 --> 00:48:04.300
 45 minutes

00:48:04.300 --> 00:48:04.739
 more

00:48:04.739 --> 00:48:05.579
 and that

00:48:05.579 --> 00:48:05.980
 bird

00:48:05.980 --> 00:48:06.860
 didn't go

00:48:06.860 --> 00:48:07.159
 anywhere

00:48:07.159 --> 00:48:08.920
 it's just

00:48:08.920 --> 00:48:09.159
 kind of

00:48:09.159 --> 00:48:09.480
 strange

00:48:09.480 --> 00:48:12.400
 as I'm

00:48:12.400 --> 00:48:12.900
 thinking

00:48:12.900 --> 00:48:13.320
 about

00:48:13.320 --> 00:48:14.000
 I hold

00:48:14.000 --> 00:48:14.320
 God

00:48:14.320 --> 00:48:14.800
 off

00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:16.579
 and I

00:48:16.579 --> 00:48:16.920
 really

00:48:16.920 --> 00:48:17.699
 assume

00:48:17.699 --> 00:48:18.340
 that he's

00:48:18.340 --> 00:48:18.780
 like my

00:48:18.780 --> 00:48:19.240
 father

00:48:19.240 --> 00:48:19.800
 long

00:48:19.800 --> 00:48:20.240
 distance

00:48:20.240 --> 00:48:20.820
 far away

00:48:20.820 --> 00:48:21.519
 untouchable

00:48:21.519 --> 00:48:22.219
 hero

00:48:22.219 --> 00:48:23.019
 because everybody

00:48:23.019 --> 00:48:23.599
 says he's a

00:48:23.599 --> 00:48:24.059
 great guy

00:48:24.059 --> 00:48:25.159
 I think he

00:48:25.159 --> 00:48:25.840
 probably was

00:48:25.840 --> 00:48:26.260
 but I don't

00:48:26.260 --> 00:48:26.980
 know what

00:48:26.980 --> 00:48:27.380
 he was like

00:48:27.380 --> 00:48:27.920
 as a person

00:48:27.920 --> 00:48:28.260
 really

00:48:28.260 --> 00:48:30.119
 and I look

00:48:30.119 --> 00:48:30.440
 at God

00:48:30.440 --> 00:48:30.860
 that way

00:48:30.860 --> 00:48:31.280
 distant

00:48:31.280 --> 00:48:31.940
 far off

00:48:31.940 --> 00:48:32.599
 untouchable

00:48:32.599 --> 00:48:35.719
 and I'm

00:48:35.719 --> 00:48:36.199
 wrestling with

00:48:36.199 --> 00:48:36.460
 that

00:48:36.460 --> 00:48:37.500
 and that

00:48:37.500 --> 00:48:37.880
 bird

00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:38.280
 it's a

00:48:38.280 --> 00:48:38.679
 dove

00:48:38.679 --> 00:48:40.239
 sitting

00:48:40.239 --> 00:48:40.539
 on that

00:48:40.539 --> 00:48:40.859
 fence

00:48:40.859 --> 00:48:46.539
 so we

00:48:46.539 --> 00:48:47.059
 got up

00:48:47.059 --> 00:48:48.359
 left

00:48:48.359 --> 00:48:49.000
 we had

00:48:49.000 --> 00:48:49.139
 our

00:48:49.139 --> 00:48:50.039
 it's

00:48:50.039 --> 00:48:50.379
 morning

00:48:50.379 --> 00:48:51.679
 we have

00:48:51.679 --> 00:48:52.039
 our day

00:48:52.039 --> 00:48:52.679
 to get

00:48:52.679 --> 00:48:52.980
 to

00:48:52.980 --> 00:48:53.480
 bird

00:48:53.480 --> 00:48:53.739
 didn't

00:48:53.739 --> 00:48:54.039
 move

00:48:54.039 --> 00:48:56.159
 I went

00:48:56.159 --> 00:48:56.399
 in the

00:48:56.399 --> 00:48:56.659
 house

00:48:56.659 --> 00:48:57.079
 to get

00:48:57.079 --> 00:48:57.299
 ready

00:48:57.299 --> 00:48:58.000
 to go

00:48:58.000 --> 00:48:58.460
 to work

00:48:58.460 --> 00:49:00.000
 got in

00:49:00.000 --> 00:49:00.419
 the car

00:49:00.419 --> 00:49:01.039
 bird

00:49:01.039 --> 00:49:01.739
 still there

00:49:01.739 --> 00:49:03.480
 drove out

00:49:03.480 --> 00:49:04.079
 the driveway

00:49:04.079 --> 00:49:04.699
 and we have

00:49:04.699 --> 00:49:05.179
 this gravel

00:49:05.179 --> 00:49:05.659
 road that

00:49:05.659 --> 00:49:06.099
 we go down

00:49:06.099 --> 00:49:06.599
 half mile

00:49:06.599 --> 00:49:06.859
 to the

00:49:06.859 --> 00:49:07.139
 highway

00:49:07.139 --> 00:49:08.239
 and

00:49:08.239 --> 00:49:09.259
 as I

00:49:09.259 --> 00:49:09.439
 hit

00:49:09.439 --> 00:49:09.759
 our

00:49:09.759 --> 00:49:10.159
 gate

00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:10.739
 look over

00:49:10.739 --> 00:49:11.159
 the bird

00:49:11.159 --> 00:49:11.399
 still

00:49:11.399 --> 00:49:11.719
 there

00:49:11.719 --> 00:49:14.079
 I kind

00:49:14.079 --> 00:49:14.299
 of knew

00:49:14.299 --> 00:49:14.479
 what was

00:49:14.479 --> 00:49:14.679
 going to

00:49:14.679 --> 00:49:14.979
 happen

00:49:14.979 --> 00:49:17.159
 I came

00:49:17.159 --> 00:49:17.339
 home

00:49:17.339 --> 00:49:17.819
 about five

00:49:17.819 --> 00:49:18.139
 o'clock

00:49:18.139 --> 00:49:18.459
 the bird

00:49:18.459 --> 00:49:18.779
 was still

00:49:18.779 --> 00:49:19.019
 there

00:49:19.019 --> 00:49:21.979
 he'd

00:49:21.979 --> 00:49:22.299
 moved

00:49:22.299 --> 00:49:24.279
 so maybe

00:49:24.279 --> 00:49:24.559
 he'd gone

00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:24.899
 away

00:49:24.899 --> 00:49:26.119
 and come

00:49:26.119 --> 00:49:26.519
 back

00:49:26.519 --> 00:49:27.279
 or maybe

00:49:27.279 --> 00:49:27.699
 he'd just

00:49:27.699 --> 00:49:28.339
 gone down

00:49:28.339 --> 00:49:28.679
 to the other

00:49:28.679 --> 00:49:29.019
 end of the

00:49:29.019 --> 00:49:29.219
 rail

00:49:29.219 --> 00:49:29.799
 I don't

00:49:29.799 --> 00:49:30.259
 know

00:49:30.259 --> 00:49:31.019
 the bird

00:49:31.019 --> 00:49:31.379
 was still

00:49:31.379 --> 00:49:31.619
 there

00:49:31.619 --> 00:49:34.259
 before

00:49:34.259 --> 00:49:34.679
 that

00:49:34.679 --> 00:49:35.079
 happened

00:49:35.079 --> 00:49:35.699
 my friend

00:49:35.699 --> 00:49:36.539
 was just

00:49:36.539 --> 00:49:36.880
 like

00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:38.299
 you know

00:49:38.299 --> 00:49:38.639
 all the

00:49:38.639 --> 00:49:38.980
 images

00:49:38.980 --> 00:49:40.239
 in scripture

00:49:40.239 --> 00:49:40.799
 about the

00:49:40.799 --> 00:49:41.119
 spirit

00:49:41.119 --> 00:49:41.539
 and I'm

00:49:41.539 --> 00:49:41.920
 like yeah

00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:42.059
 yeah

00:49:42.059 --> 00:49:42.400
 I know

00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:42.619
 that

00:49:42.619 --> 00:49:43.960
 but I

00:49:43.960 --> 00:49:44.139
 already

00:49:44.139 --> 00:49:44.440
 had the

00:49:44.440 --> 00:49:44.719
 point

00:49:44.719 --> 00:49:47.880
 for me

00:49:47.880 --> 00:49:49.400
 for me

00:49:49.400 --> 00:49:50.839
 and that's

00:49:50.839 --> 00:49:51.079
 the way

00:49:51.079 --> 00:49:51.839
 God works

00:49:51.839 --> 00:49:52.960
 is he

00:49:52.960 --> 00:49:53.659
 knows ways

00:49:53.659 --> 00:49:54.179
 that we

00:49:54.179 --> 00:49:54.759
 need to

00:49:54.759 --> 00:49:55.539
 hear him

00:49:55.539 --> 00:49:57.420
 and he

00:49:57.420 --> 00:49:58.039
 whispers in

00:49:58.039 --> 00:49:58.500
 a language

00:49:58.500 --> 00:49:58.920
 that

00:49:58.920 --> 00:50:02.059
 maybe only

00:50:02.059 --> 00:50:02.420
 we can

00:50:02.420 --> 00:50:02.900
 understand

00:50:02.900 --> 00:50:03.880
 in that

00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:04.199
 moment

00:50:04.199 --> 00:50:05.820
 it's part

00:50:05.820 --> 00:50:05.980
 of the

00:50:05.980 --> 00:50:06.239
 reason I

00:50:06.239 --> 00:50:06.739
 was hesitant

00:50:06.739 --> 00:50:07.360
 should I

00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:07.900
 do this

00:50:07.900 --> 00:50:09.320
 because I

00:50:09.320 --> 00:50:09.559
 know

00:50:09.559 --> 00:50:10.639
 many of

00:50:10.639 --> 00:50:11.039
 you will

00:50:11.039 --> 00:50:11.440
 be like

00:50:11.440 --> 00:50:12.739
 nah

00:50:12.739 --> 00:50:13.779
 I don't

00:50:13.779 --> 00:50:14.300
 get that

00:50:14.300 --> 00:50:15.300
 I don't

00:50:15.300 --> 00:50:15.619
 see how

00:50:15.619 --> 00:50:15.940
 he made

00:50:15.940 --> 00:50:16.500
 that out

00:50:16.500 --> 00:50:16.860
 of that

00:50:16.860 --> 00:50:17.880
 and I

00:50:17.880 --> 00:50:18.199
 understand

00:50:18.199 --> 00:50:18.519
 that

00:50:18.519 --> 00:50:20.400
 because that

00:50:20.400 --> 00:50:20.699
 was for

00:50:20.699 --> 00:50:21.079
 me

00:50:21.079 --> 00:50:22.199
 that was

00:50:22.199 --> 00:50:22.579
 God

00:50:22.579 --> 00:50:23.340
 for me

00:50:23.340 --> 00:50:25.279
 and

00:50:25.280 --> 00:50:26.560
 my friend

00:50:26.560 --> 00:50:27.180
 said it

00:50:27.180 --> 00:50:27.980
 but I

00:50:27.980 --> 00:50:29.019
 knew it

00:50:29.019 --> 00:50:29.320
 but he

00:50:29.320 --> 00:50:29.760
 put better

00:50:29.760 --> 00:50:30.480
 words to

00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:31.060
 it

00:50:31.060 --> 00:50:34.019
 God wants

00:50:34.019 --> 00:50:34.280
 you to

00:50:34.280 --> 00:50:34.560
 know

00:50:34.560 --> 00:50:35.900
 he's not

00:50:35.900 --> 00:50:36.140
 going

00:50:36.140 --> 00:50:36.519
 anywhere

00:50:36.519 --> 00:50:38.900
 he's always

00:50:38.900 --> 00:50:39.240
 there

00:50:39.240 --> 00:50:43.120
 and I

00:50:43.120 --> 00:50:43.480
 knew the

00:50:43.480 --> 00:50:43.820
 truth of

00:50:43.820 --> 00:50:44.060
 that

00:50:44.060 --> 00:50:45.560
 I experienced

00:50:45.560 --> 00:50:45.980
 the truth

00:50:45.980 --> 00:50:46.360
 of that

00:50:46.360 --> 00:50:47.920
 and I

00:50:47.920 --> 00:50:48.180
 knew it

00:50:48.180 --> 00:50:48.580
 was true

00:50:48.580 --> 00:50:51.220
 that didn't

00:50:51.220 --> 00:50:51.860
 stop me

00:50:51.860 --> 00:50:53.940
 from my

00:50:53.940 --> 00:50:54.320
 default

00:50:54.320 --> 00:50:56.519
 but it

00:50:56.519 --> 00:50:56.820
 gave me

00:50:56.820 --> 00:50:57.340
 a lever

00:50:57.340 --> 00:50:58.640
 it gave

00:50:58.640 --> 00:50:59.019
 me some

00:50:59.019 --> 00:50:59.740
 leverage

00:50:59.740 --> 00:51:00.460
 against that

00:51:00.460 --> 00:51:00.820
 default

00:51:00.820 --> 00:51:03.300
 and when I

00:51:03.300 --> 00:51:03.740
 came home

00:51:03.740 --> 00:51:04.140
 that night

00:51:04.140 --> 00:51:04.720
 wondering

00:51:04.720 --> 00:51:05.160
 is that

00:51:05.160 --> 00:51:05.539
 birds

00:51:05.539 --> 00:51:05.920
 going to

00:51:05.920 --> 00:51:06.300
 be there

00:51:06.300 --> 00:51:06.700
 after the

00:51:06.700 --> 00:51:07.180
 whole day

00:51:07.180 --> 00:51:08.220
 and he

00:51:08.220 --> 00:51:08.539
 was

00:51:08.539 --> 00:51:09.460
 or she

00:51:09.460 --> 00:51:13.480
 okay

00:51:13.480 --> 00:51:15.800
 and I

00:51:15.800 --> 00:51:16.240
 drove up

00:51:16.240 --> 00:51:17.000
 between the

00:51:17.000 --> 00:51:17.640
 two barns

00:51:17.640 --> 00:51:18.100
 parked

00:51:18.100 --> 00:51:19.500
 looked at

00:51:19.500 --> 00:51:19.940
 the bird

00:51:19.940 --> 00:51:20.880
 kind of

00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:21.280
 laughed

00:51:21.280 --> 00:51:22.280
 okay

00:51:22.280 --> 00:51:23.240
 I think

00:51:23.240 --> 00:51:23.580
 I get

00:51:23.580 --> 00:51:23.980
 it now

00:51:23.980 --> 00:51:25.540
 went in

00:51:25.540 --> 00:51:25.900
 the house

00:51:25.900 --> 00:51:26.780
 told my

00:51:26.780 --> 00:51:27.200
 wife the

00:51:27.200 --> 00:51:27.519
 story

00:51:27.519 --> 00:51:29.080
 looked out

00:51:29.080 --> 00:51:29.360
 the bird

00:51:29.360 --> 00:51:29.720
 was gone

00:51:29.720 --> 00:51:33.500
 but for

00:51:33.500 --> 00:51:34.220
 many many

00:51:34.220 --> 00:51:35.000
 days from

00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:36.019
 that experience

00:51:36.019 --> 00:51:36.780
 I had

00:51:36.780 --> 00:51:37.660
 a piece of

00:51:37.660 --> 00:51:38.320
 knowledge that

00:51:38.320 --> 00:51:38.760
 was more

00:51:38.760 --> 00:51:39.400
 than knowledge

00:51:39.400 --> 00:51:39.840
 it was

00:51:39.840 --> 00:51:40.720
 knowledge and

00:51:40.720 --> 00:51:41.440
 an understanding

00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:42.180
 even pushing

00:51:42.180 --> 00:51:43.160
 to something

00:51:43.160 --> 00:51:43.860
 like wisdom

00:51:43.860 --> 00:51:44.860
 something I

00:51:44.860 --> 00:51:45.320
 could hang

00:51:45.320 --> 00:51:45.740
 on to

00:51:45.740 --> 00:51:46.160
 and something

00:51:46.160 --> 00:51:46.760
 I could be

00:51:46.760 --> 00:51:48.440
 regularly evaluating

00:51:48.440 --> 00:51:49.019
 each moment

00:51:49.019 --> 00:51:49.440
 with

00:51:49.440 --> 00:51:55.440
 for those

00:51:55.440 --> 00:51:56.179
 few days

00:51:56.179 --> 00:51:56.500
 in an

00:51:56.500 --> 00:51:57.159
 intense way

00:51:57.159 --> 00:51:57.539
 it became

00:51:57.539 --> 00:51:57.980
 more like

00:51:57.980 --> 00:51:58.700
 Joshua 1

00:51:58.700 --> 00:51:59.900
 don't be

00:51:59.900 --> 00:52:00.320
 afraid

00:52:00.320 --> 00:52:01.579
 be strong

00:52:01.579 --> 00:52:02.159
 and courageous

00:52:02.159 --> 00:52:03.240
 I'm with

00:52:03.240 --> 00:52:03.700
 you

00:52:03.700 --> 00:52:05.420
 I'm with

00:52:05.420 --> 00:52:05.800
 you

00:52:05.800 --> 00:52:06.519
 I'm just

00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:07.059
 here on the

00:52:07.059 --> 00:52:07.340
 fence

00:52:07.340 --> 00:52:07.659
 I'm just

00:52:07.659 --> 00:52:08.039
 waiting

00:52:08.039 --> 00:52:10.059
 notice me

00:52:10.059 --> 00:52:13.220
 and to

00:52:13.220 --> 00:52:13.679
 notice

00:52:13.679 --> 00:52:14.780
 I just

00:52:14.780 --> 00:52:15.000
 have to

00:52:15.000 --> 00:52:15.420
 slow my

00:52:15.420 --> 00:52:15.980
 heart down

00:52:15.980 --> 00:52:18.760
 I'm still

00:52:18.760 --> 00:52:19.500
 working on

00:52:19.500 --> 00:52:19.880
 that

00:52:19.880 --> 00:52:20.800
 my most

00:52:20.800 --> 00:52:21.860
 recent meeting

00:52:21.860 --> 00:52:22.219
 with my

00:52:22.219 --> 00:52:22.820
 friend was

00:52:22.820 --> 00:52:23.539
 all about

00:52:23.539 --> 00:52:29.000
 realizing that

00:52:29.000 --> 00:52:29.380
 I work

00:52:29.380 --> 00:52:30.380
 first and

00:52:30.380 --> 00:52:31.139
 rest second

00:52:31.139 --> 00:52:32.840
 and when I

00:52:32.840 --> 00:52:33.300
 say rest

00:52:33.300 --> 00:52:33.659
 I'm not

00:52:33.659 --> 00:52:34.039
 talking about

00:52:34.039 --> 00:52:34.639
 sabbatical

00:52:34.639 --> 00:52:35.059
 I'm talking

00:52:35.059 --> 00:52:35.480
 about

00:52:35.480 --> 00:52:36.900
 being

00:52:36.900 --> 00:52:38.199
 resting in

00:52:38.199 --> 00:52:38.679
 God's

00:52:38.679 --> 00:52:39.260
 goodness and

00:52:39.260 --> 00:52:39.900
 his presence

00:52:39.900 --> 00:52:40.320
 and his

00:52:40.320 --> 00:52:41.000
 work and

00:52:41.000 --> 00:52:41.820
 his spirit

00:52:41.820 --> 00:52:42.940
 and getting

00:52:42.940 --> 00:52:44.199
 recalibrated

00:52:44.199 --> 00:52:46.659
 that it's

00:52:46.659 --> 00:52:47.379
 really not

00:52:47.379 --> 00:52:48.519
 the outcome

00:52:48.519 --> 00:52:49.359
 of this

00:52:49.359 --> 00:52:49.859
 moment

00:52:49.859 --> 00:52:51.059
 of standing

00:52:51.059 --> 00:52:51.579
 in front

00:52:51.579 --> 00:52:51.899
 of you

00:52:51.899 --> 00:52:52.159
 all

00:52:52.159 --> 00:52:52.699
 which is

00:52:52.699 --> 00:52:53.139
 like the

00:52:53.139 --> 00:52:53.639
 last thing

00:52:53.639 --> 00:52:54.000
 I'd like

00:52:54.000 --> 00:52:54.339
 to do

00:52:54.339 --> 00:52:55.019
 I'm actually

00:52:55.019 --> 00:52:55.960
 very shy

00:52:55.960 --> 00:52:56.799
 in my

00:52:56.799 --> 00:52:57.159
 heart

00:52:57.159 --> 00:52:59.899
 my beginning

00:52:59.899 --> 00:53:00.399
 years of

00:53:00.399 --> 00:53:00.819
 teaching I

00:53:00.819 --> 00:53:01.119
 hit the

00:53:01.119 --> 00:53:01.579
 back of the

00:53:01.579 --> 00:53:02.119
 classroom which

00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:02.399
 was the

00:53:02.399 --> 00:53:03.379
 entrance and

00:53:03.379 --> 00:53:03.639
 I would

00:53:03.639 --> 00:53:04.399
 ask myself

00:53:04.399 --> 00:53:05.019
 what am

00:53:05.019 --> 00:53:05.839
 I doing

00:53:05.839 --> 00:53:06.239
 here

00:53:06.239 --> 00:53:10.399
 but that

00:53:10.399 --> 00:53:11.799
 bird on

00:53:11.799 --> 00:53:12.500
 the fence

00:53:12.500 --> 00:53:13.179
 gave me a

00:53:13.179 --> 00:53:13.639
 way to

00:53:13.639 --> 00:53:14.899
 wrestle with

00:53:14.899 --> 00:53:16.039
 am I

00:53:16.039 --> 00:53:17.139
 trusting him

00:53:17.139 --> 00:53:19.839
 to be

00:53:19.839 --> 00:53:20.339
 with me

00:53:20.339 --> 00:53:21.099
 really

00:53:21.099 --> 00:53:22.819
 trusting him

00:53:22.819 --> 00:53:24.879
 not trusting

00:53:24.879 --> 00:53:25.460
 my knowledge

00:53:25.460 --> 00:53:25.919
 of him

00:53:25.919 --> 00:53:29.239
 not trusting

00:53:29.239 --> 00:53:29.839
 my ability

00:53:29.839 --> 00:53:30.440
 to play it

00:53:30.440 --> 00:53:31.139
 safe so I

00:53:31.139 --> 00:53:31.599
 can make it

00:53:31.599 --> 00:53:31.859
 through

00:53:31.859 --> 00:53:32.440
 not trusting

00:53:32.440 --> 00:53:32.879
 my ability

00:53:32.879 --> 00:53:33.319
 to live out

00:53:33.319 --> 00:53:33.799
 of my head

00:53:33.799 --> 00:53:34.460
 and push

00:53:34.460 --> 00:53:34.779
 all that

00:53:34.779 --> 00:53:35.399
 stuff away

00:53:35.399 --> 00:53:36.379
 not trusting

00:53:36.379 --> 00:53:36.980
 my ability

00:53:36.980 --> 00:53:37.659
 to be less

00:53:37.659 --> 00:53:38.139
 of a full

00:53:38.139 --> 00:53:38.579
 person

00:53:38.579 --> 00:53:41.699
 rather than

00:53:41.699 --> 00:53:42.339
 being willing

00:53:42.340 --> 00:53:42.800
 to trust

00:53:42.800 --> 00:53:43.600
 him so I

00:53:43.600 --> 00:53:44.100
 can enter

00:53:44.100 --> 00:53:44.780
 in and be

00:53:44.780 --> 00:53:45.120
 a full

00:53:45.120 --> 00:53:45.579
 person

00:53:45.579 --> 00:53:46.640
 and even

00:53:46.640 --> 00:53:47.140
 do something

00:53:47.140 --> 00:53:48.100
 like tell

00:53:48.100 --> 00:53:48.579
 kind of a

00:53:48.579 --> 00:53:49.180
 strange story

00:53:49.180 --> 00:53:49.539
 to a bunch

00:53:49.539 --> 00:53:49.900
 of people

00:53:49.900 --> 00:53:50.220
 I don't

00:53:50.220 --> 00:53:50.539
 know

00:53:50.539 --> 00:53:52.019
 that I'm

00:53:52.019 --> 00:53:52.300
 kind of

00:53:52.300 --> 00:53:52.800
 afraid of

00:53:52.800 --> 00:53:53.920
 if I'm

00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:54.260
 honest

00:53:54.260 --> 00:54:00.900
 there's a

00:54:00.900 --> 00:54:01.180
 bunch of

00:54:01.180 --> 00:54:01.660
 stuff in the

00:54:01.660 --> 00:54:02.160
 outline that

00:54:02.160 --> 00:54:02.680
 you can read

00:54:02.680 --> 00:54:03.079
 and I think

00:54:03.079 --> 00:54:03.640
 I hope it

00:54:03.640 --> 00:54:04.240
 makes sense

00:54:04.240 --> 00:54:06.900
 in the booklet

00:54:06.900 --> 00:54:07.900
 there but

00:54:07.900 --> 00:54:08.360
 it's time

00:54:08.360 --> 00:54:09.579
 for us

00:54:09.579 --> 00:54:10.599
 to close

00:54:10.599 --> 00:54:11.980
 let me

00:54:11.980 --> 00:54:12.300
 pray for

00:54:12.300 --> 00:54:12.480
 us

00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:18.000
 thank you

00:54:18.000 --> 00:54:18.559
 father that

00:54:18.559 --> 00:54:18.820
 you are

00:54:18.820 --> 00:54:19.300
 present

00:54:19.300 --> 00:54:20.420
 thank you

00:54:20.420 --> 00:54:20.980
 father that

00:54:20.980 --> 00:54:21.960
 Jesus tells

00:54:21.960 --> 00:54:23.059
 his disciples

00:54:23.059 --> 00:54:24.500
 and through

00:54:24.500 --> 00:54:25.720
 him telling

00:54:25.720 --> 00:54:26.500
 his disciples

00:54:26.500 --> 00:54:27.180
 he tells

00:54:27.180 --> 00:54:27.780
 us

00:54:27.780 --> 00:54:29.140
 that even

00:54:29.140 --> 00:54:29.539
 though he's

00:54:29.539 --> 00:54:30.099
 going away

00:54:30.099 --> 00:54:31.840
 he's going

00:54:31.840 --> 00:54:32.480
 for a purpose

00:54:32.480 --> 00:54:33.180
 to prepare a

00:54:33.180 --> 00:54:33.599
 place

00:54:33.599 --> 00:54:34.760
 but that's

00:54:34.760 --> 00:54:35.200
 not the

00:54:35.200 --> 00:54:36.579
 whole thing

00:54:36.579 --> 00:54:36.819
 of the

00:54:36.819 --> 00:54:37.219
 story

00:54:37.219 --> 00:54:38.559
 there's

00:54:38.559 --> 00:54:38.960
 one that

00:54:38.960 --> 00:54:39.319
 comes

00:54:39.319 --> 00:54:40.019
 the spirit

00:54:40.019 --> 00:54:41.219
 to be

00:54:41.219 --> 00:54:41.739
 with us

00:54:41.739 --> 00:54:43.199
 thank you

00:54:43.199 --> 00:54:43.699
 father it's

00:54:43.699 --> 00:54:44.519
 always been

00:54:44.519 --> 00:54:45.079
 like that

00:54:45.079 --> 00:54:46.119
 from the

00:54:46.119 --> 00:54:46.980
 early pages

00:54:46.980 --> 00:54:48.500
 God walking

00:54:48.500 --> 00:54:49.039
 in the garden

00:54:49.039 --> 00:54:49.480
 with Adam

00:54:49.480 --> 00:54:49.920
 and Eve

00:54:49.920 --> 00:54:51.400
 God

00:54:51.400 --> 00:54:52.539
 present with

00:54:52.539 --> 00:54:52.920
 Moses

00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:53.779
 God present

00:54:53.779 --> 00:54:54.639
 with Joshua

00:54:54.639 --> 00:54:55.699
 present with

00:54:55.699 --> 00:54:56.059
 David

00:54:56.059 --> 00:54:57.440
 all the way

00:54:57.440 --> 00:54:57.739
 through

00:54:57.739 --> 00:55:01.539
 father help

00:55:01.539 --> 00:55:01.960
 us

00:55:01.960 --> 00:55:04.960
 to slow

00:55:04.960 --> 00:55:05.299
 down

00:55:05.300 --> 00:55:06.900
 and to

00:55:06.900 --> 00:55:07.280
 rest in

00:55:07.280 --> 00:55:07.940
 that truth

00:55:07.940 --> 00:55:09.880
 that you're

00:55:09.880 --> 00:55:10.200
 waiting

00:55:10.200 --> 00:55:13.740
 you're

00:55:13.740 --> 00:55:14.080
 whispering

00:55:14.080 --> 00:55:16.680
 you're

00:55:16.680 --> 00:55:17.200
 desiring

00:55:17.200 --> 00:55:18.600
 relationship

00:55:18.600 --> 00:55:21.780
 you're

00:55:21.780 --> 00:55:23.420
 repeating

00:55:23.420 --> 00:55:24.420
 I'm with

00:55:24.420 --> 00:55:24.620
 you

00:55:24.620 --> 00:55:26.180
 I'm with

00:55:26.180 --> 00:55:26.380
 you

00:55:26.380 --> 00:55:27.600
 you can be

00:55:27.600 --> 00:55:27.960
 strong

00:55:27.960 --> 00:55:29.260
 you can be

00:55:29.260 --> 00:55:29.740
 courageous

00:55:29.740 --> 00:55:30.820
 because I'm

00:55:30.820 --> 00:55:31.220
 with you

00:55:31.220 --> 00:55:32.660
 grow our

00:55:32.660 --> 00:55:33.039
 hearts

00:55:33.039 --> 00:55:33.900
 stretch our

00:55:33.900 --> 00:55:34.280
 hearts

00:55:34.280 --> 00:55:36.080
 we know

00:55:36.080 --> 00:55:36.920
 you need

00:55:36.920 --> 00:55:37.140
 to do

00:55:37.140 --> 00:55:37.660
 that work

00:55:37.660 --> 00:55:39.000
 so we

00:55:39.000 --> 00:55:39.780
 can work

00:55:39.780 --> 00:55:40.260
 along with

00:55:40.260 --> 00:55:40.460
 you

00:55:40.460 --> 00:55:41.720
 as you

00:55:41.720 --> 00:55:42.160
 make us

00:55:42.160 --> 00:55:42.820
 into more

00:55:42.820 --> 00:55:45.220
 as you

00:55:45.220 --> 00:55:45.580
 make us

00:55:45.580 --> 00:55:46.100
 into people

00:55:46.100 --> 00:55:46.480
 you made

00:55:46.480 --> 00:55:46.940
 us to be

00:55:46.940 --> 00:55:48.000
 we pray

00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:48.220
 in your

00:55:48.220 --> 00:55:48.480
 name

00:55:48.480 --> 00:55:49.220
 amen

00:55:49.219 --> 00:55:54.139
 for more

00:55:54.139 --> 00:55:54.659
 information

00:55:54.659 --> 00:55:55.459
 visit us

00:55:55.459 --> 00:55:55.959
 online

00:55:55.959 --> 00:55:56.359
 at

00:55:56.359 --> 00:55:57.259
 southwood.org

00:55:57.260 --> 00:56:08.900
 amen

00:56:12.100 --> 00:56:12.640
 to

00:56:13.640 --> 00:56:15.040
 the

00:56:15.040 --> 00:56:15.600
 more

00:56:15.600 --> 00:56:19.500
 escape