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 This is the last week of our Spiritual Disciplines series as it's Palm Sunday and we're looking forward to this Easter week.

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 And it's been a long season, especially for those of us who have been fasting.

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 And I have experienced so much love from God this whole Lenten period after choosing to go on a fast

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 and then having God love me so much to close McDonald's downstairs to renovate for a good few months.

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 And I think it opens next week.

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 So it's as if he is in control of everything and that the world is all about me.

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 I cannot wait.

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 It is that day.

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 It's going to be a good day.

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 Oh, Jesus.

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 So we did fasting.

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 We did lamenting.

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 We did reading the word.

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 We did worship.

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 Actually, you know what's fine?

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 Every time I present the discipline that we're going to talk about, I found myself saying, hey, fasting is a lost art in the church.

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 Lamenting is a lost art in the church.

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 And I realized, you know what?

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 Everything seems to be a lost art.

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 Discipline seems to be a lost art in the church, full stop.

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 What are we actually doing?

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 What do we spend our times doing when we are doing church?

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 What does that even mean?

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 And so this week's one is different again.

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 And actually, this week's one, we're going to have Bibles handed out to us later.

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 Not yet, but because we're just going to go through the word of God here.

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 And it's something that is definitely a lost art in the church.

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 But I'll start with this.

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 Just to make us feel really good.

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 The thing that unites us all here is that we are sinners.

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 We are sinners.

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 Trevor, you're a sinner.

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 Like a serious one.

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 Just as serious as Josh.

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 You're a sinner.

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 That's why you're both side here.

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 You're a sinner.

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 We have all sinned.

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 We've all made mistakes.

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 Some of us to big degrees, we feel, and some of us to smaller degrees.

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 Yet we're all sinners.

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 Now, when we sin, the next thing that really happens is that we just feel guilty.

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 Right?

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 Not your head if you felt guilty before about something.

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 The question then becomes, well, when you feel guilty, what do you do?

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 What do you do with that guilt?

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 Do you basically throw yourself into an addiction?

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 Because that helps you numb those feelings of guilt so you don't feel bad anymore?

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 Or you just feel worse at the end afterwards?

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 But you just, is that what you do?

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 Or do you run away?

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 Do you run away and you just veg out on Netflix?

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 Is that how you kind of numb that guilt?

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 For some of us, it actually is the trigger that causes us to fall into depression.

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 For us, it falls into anger.

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 Isolation.

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 I don't know if we, as the church, have really, truly figured out what we do with that guilt.

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 Hence why there's a lost art, at least in the Protestant church, there is the lost art of confession.

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 The lost art of saying, sorry.

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 Martin Luther says this, when I urge you to confession, I'm urging you to be a Christian.

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 That's really what it is.

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 The whole Christian faith, the whole premise is on basically that you are a sinner, that you have guilt.

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 And it's Jesus who freezes from that.

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 And yet, somehow, we know it's that important, yet we don't do it anymore.

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 We don't say sorry anymore.

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 Maybe we're not even very good at saying sorry.

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 I've been trying to teach my kids how to say sorry and to be more specific when it comes to saying sorry,

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 because when they do something wrong, which we all inevitably do, it's like, you're sorry.

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 And then I find myself being that really annoying dad that says, well, who's sorry?

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 Oh, I'm sorry.

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 Oh, you're sorry.

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 What are you sorry for?

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 And then I'm that patronizing parent that kind of walks them through.

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 When we confess, when we apologize, we have to be specific with what we're doing.

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 Otherwise, are we truly sorry?

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 So we're talking about the art or the discipline of confession here.

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 Last week, I shared a quote with you, which is we generally, John Ortberg says this,

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 we generally sin alone, but we heal together.

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 Right?

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 We generally sin alone, but we heal together.

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 This week, there's another quote that maybe just adds on top of that,

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 which I think is really nice by Bonhoeffer.

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 And he says this, he who is alone with his sin is utterly alone.

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 Confession is the breakthrough to community.

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 If we generally sin together and we heal together, sorry, sin alone and then we heal together,

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 how we heal through community is through confession.

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 The book of James chapter five says, hey, confess your sins to one another and therefore you will be healed.

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 Who wants to be healed?

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 We all want to be healed of our sin and shame and guilt.

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 But the question is, do we, are we willing to put in the hard work to confess?

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 And it's hard.

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 Anyone who's been married will know saying sorry is hard.

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 But yet it is a must.

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 Confess is the only way your marriage will continue to grow and be healed.

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 And Jay, Emily just shot a really strong look to Jay.

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 Just that was a really strong, piercing look.

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 Jay, you can come and sit here at the front during ministry time.

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 So we're going to talk about confession.

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 But I realized, okay, so one of the promises I made to you at the beginning of this series was,

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 hey, when we preach on this topic, it's preaching from a place of authority.

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 Why? Because we've gone through it.

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 We are going through it and we are doing it as much as we can.

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 And we have experience in this.

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 You know, that's why I had Gabe, who knows scripture so well, be the one who comes up to share scripture with us.

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 Honestly, with this one, I'm not sure.

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 Because growing up in the Protestant church, it's not something that you really, really think about.

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 We don't really, really do.

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 And so really, actually, as I look more into it, there is a different wing of the Christian faith that is much more well-versed,

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 much more experienced than this, and that is the Catholic Church.

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 And so actually, what we're going to do is actually invite Ellen to come up and have a conversation with me,

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 where I'm just going to kind of prod and probe her mind to see her experience when it comes to confession.

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 Can we give a round of applause?

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 Thank you, Ellen.

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 Which you guys know is probably a very traditional church.

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 Your idea, a stigma around the Catholic Church is that it's just a dying church, that there's not a lot of young people.

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 So a big part of my role is to connect the students who are going to Catholic schools to the church, essentially,

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 to build up their relationship with Jesus and invite them there.

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 And so, yeah, a lot of my formation is through the Catholic Church.

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 I've been picking our mind a little bit.

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 we worked together at Young Life, and I went to work one day.

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 I watched The Two Popes for the first time.

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 That was really cool.

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 I was like, there are so many things I don't understand about the Catholic Church.

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 And then last week, we watched the Conclave.

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 You did see it.

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 So I've just been going on this journey, just going, what is going on?

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 And if I find all that really weird, Ellen must find us really weird as well.

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 Is that right?

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 It's taken me a while to get used to it, yeah.

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 What's one thing that's jumped out at you coming from the Catholic Church

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 and coming to a church like this?

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 Admittedly, maybe we are a little bit more chaotic than we should be.

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 But what were some of the things that come out?

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 Wow, that's different.

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 I guess the concept of planting a church was really new for me,

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 especially because I joined the gathering at such an initial stage.

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 It was really small when we were meeting at the Young Life base,

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 and there was all this conversation about what kind of church we wanted to be.

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 And that was a new conversation, right?

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 Because I come from a church that there's doctrine, there's tradition, there's liturgy.

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 That has stemmed all the way back from the first disciples.

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 So, yeah, I was struck by that, like watching people wrestle with which traditions they wanted to keep,

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 how they wanted to do things like communion and baptism.

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 Yeah.

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 I was at a dinner actually recently, City to City.

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 It was a fundraising dinner that Aidan's uncle invited me to,

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 and it was church planting, it was by Tim Keller's kind of church organization,

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 just church planting around the world.

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 And then I was sat next to a lady who'd been a Catholic for the whole of her life,

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 and she was like, at the end of the dinner, she was like,

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 James, I have no clue what just happened.

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 What do they mean by planting a church?

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 And then she looked over to her husband and said,

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 can you imagine if we told Father Thomas that we were planting a church?

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 Like, for me, I realized it's something that I'd taken for granted,

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 that actually I hadn't even thought about,

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 that actually the Catholic Church, this isn't a thing.

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 Because there's so much history, rich history,

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 when it comes to liturgy and tradition.

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 And maybe the one I wanted to really bring you up to talk about was confession.

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 Yeah.

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 Tell us a little bit about what confession means to the Catholic Church

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 and what your experience about it.

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 Yeah, so the Catholic Church has seven sacraments.

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 Maybe if you went to Catholic schools you would have learned about this,

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 but one of those sacraments is the sacrament of reconciliation,

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 and that is the act of coming to a priest and confessing your sins.

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 And so when I was nine, I think, nine or ten,

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 we did it as I went to Catholic schools.

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 And although my family is not a practicing Catholic or anything like that,

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 we still did our sacraments because it was just kind of like the thing you did

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 if you went to a Catholic school.

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 And so I didn't really have an understanding of it,

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 but essentially you go to a priest,

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 and I remember it was Father Paul Ghouley,

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 who's still a really good friend of mine.

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 He sat me down and I was there,

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 and you kind of are sitting with the priest,

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 and I just said to him I was going to make up a lie or like a sin

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 because I didn't know what to say.

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 And instead I was like confronted with the fact I was about to lie in confession,

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 and I was like, Father Paul, I don't know what to say.

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 I can't think of anything.

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 He's like, that's all right.

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 We'll just forgive your sins anyway.

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 And he was just so kind and gentle,

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 and he prayed the prayer and gave me a blessing,

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 and then I went off, and I always remember that moment.

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 I still remind Father Paul of that kindness he showed me.

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 But then the next time I went to reconciliation was probably ten years after that.

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 And this was after my conversion.

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 I had really come to understand what relationship with Jesus looks like.

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 I wanted to live my faith.

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 It wasn't just a school subject anymore, but it was very much a lifestyle.

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 And confession was just one of those attributes of the lifestyle that I wanted to live.

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 So I remember going to the priest and saying,

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 because part of the confession,

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 you start by saying the last time that I went to confession.

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 So, Father, forgive me for my sins.

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 It's been ten years since my last confession.

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 And I remember in that moment I didn't want to waste it.

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 And I had been told, like, in the talk before,

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 we had just heard a preaching, to be honest.

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 It's almost as if, like, you're going to a doctor,

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 and you don't want to hide your wounds.

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 Because if you hide your wounds, then the doctor can't heal them.

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 So I was told that.

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 So I went into confession, and I just kind of was very honest

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 and kind of listed out a bunch of things that were weighing on me.

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 It's not just my sin, but some of the brokenness that I was feeling

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 from sins that others had done unto me.

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 Yeah, it was a lot of that.

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 So talk, and now I'm getting really interested.

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 Talk me through what it looks like.

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 Because, okay, my ignorance here is going to show,

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 because when I think about confession,

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 I think about a dark church,

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 and it's raining outside, and it's night,

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 and then someone walks in and dripping,

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 and they walk in, and they go to that booth.

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 They just killed somebody.

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 They killed somebody.

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 They walk into that little kind of thing that they sit in,

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 and magically there's someone sat next to them

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 in the other side who they can't see,

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 but they kind of can.

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 It's like a grill, and they're, like, shadowy.

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 Because you kind of can see them, because, I mean, I guess you,

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 I don't know.

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 But anyway, or maybe for movie purposes,

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 it's important that you can see both people.

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 And then there's just this deep, dark confession that happens.

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 Is that how it is,

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 or is it a much more day-to-day thing?

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 Or what is it now?

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 Is there a WhatsApp line?

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 Or what does it look like?

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 It could be that.

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 Honestly, most of the churches you'll see,

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 if you go into a church,

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 you'll see the confessionals,

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 and it's built into the church.

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 So you definitely can go in and still experience that,

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 where it's a lot more anonymous.

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 You know that the priest is there,

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 but they can't see your face.

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 But then more traditionally,

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 probably for the past 60 years,

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 there's a bit of a shift in the way confession's done,

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 and you can also choose to sit like you would a conversation with a peer,

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 and just face-to-face.

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 And you're either sitting on a chair,

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 or you might decide to kneel.

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 Depends on, I guess, how repentant you are.

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 Yeah.

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 Sometimes I have heard a story of a friend of mine.

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 He was struck with his sin one day,

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 and he was like,

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 I really need to go to confession.

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 And he looked up,

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 and a priest walked past him.

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 And in that moment,

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 he's just like,

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 oh, Father, Father,

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 would you hear my confession?

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 And this was on a university campus,

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 and he just sat down on a park bench

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 and heard his confession.

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 Wow.

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 So I'm guessing this is foreign to a lot of us

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 who haven't grown up in the Catholic kind of church scene,

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 but I also know there's probably a lot of people here

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 who have grown up in Catholic churches.

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 So you actually know this somewhat as well.

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 Tell us one thing that we're missing out on.

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 If, you know,

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 as the Evangelical Protestant Church

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 that doesn't do this discipline,

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 what are we missing out on?

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 I think,

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 I think if you've never confessed your sin to a person,

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 you're missing out.

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 Like,

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 on a number of different levels.

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 Like,

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 it's like,

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 I was saying to me this morning,

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 it's like the perfect combination of accountability and freedom.

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 It's like you have the discipline.

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 I know that seems like a contradiction,

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 but the accountability is that the discipline is organized for you,

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 and there's like a real liberation in that,

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 just knowing that you can come,

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 confess,

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 and it's,

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 you know when you're in worship

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 and you feel the Holy Spirit

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 and sometimes you feel lighter?

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 I know that that's kind of articulated a lot.

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 I've heard it this week,

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 a young person say that,

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 right?

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 So it's like that feeling

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 when you leave the confessional.

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 It's like you are lighter for it.

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 You can trust that God has heard your confession,

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 that you are forgiven,

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 and it's just a very tangible experience of that.

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 but in saying that,

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 I remember an encounter I had with Chagall actually early on in the gathering,

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 and sorry,

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 Chagall,

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 I should ask you permission for this,

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 but she turned to me,

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 and she's like,

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 would you hear my confession?

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 And in that moment,

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 I was really struck,

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 this is the first time right outside of the Catholic Church,

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 someone wants to like confess their sins to me,

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 and I was like,

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 I don't know if I agree with this,

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 I also know that this is a very,

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 very sacred moment,

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 and I just said to Chagall,

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 I'm like,

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 can we pray before we do this?

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 And she shared,

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 and then I prayed,

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 and the whole day,

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 I was thinking about how sacred that was.

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 So,

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 I think maybe the sacredness,

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 maybe,

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 yeah?

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 If that's an answer to your question.

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 What did she confess?

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 No way!

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 That's a good point.

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 Another one is,

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 you can be sure the priest is going to be super confidential,

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 right?

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 They take a vow.

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 So this person is totally anonymous,

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 there's no like feelings,

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 there's no residual like guilt,

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 or anything like that.

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 Although sometimes,

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 I have definitely avoided priests that are my friends,

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 and I would go to maybe a different parish,

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 just to like kind of stop that awkwardness,

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 but I know that theologically,

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 maybe that's not good.

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 Anyway,

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 yeah.

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 Well,

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 hey,

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 thank you very much.

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 I think my goal was just to,

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 hey,

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 this is a whole different world out there,

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 that actually has spent thousands of years even,

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 just committing to the discipline of confession,

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 that I think it was helpful for us to even hear about.

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 So thank you very much.

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 Can I just say one more thing?

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 Sorry.

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 The frequency that I did it definitely helped me to become more sensitive to when sin has entered my life.

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 So I appreciate that.

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 So whatever format you do confession,

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 like I pray that it would form your conscience quickly.

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 And I think confession did that for me.

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 In the early years of formation,

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 it was confession that helped me to create a pure heart so that I could love people better.

00:16:04.960 --> 00:16:05.080
 Yeah.

00:16:05.519 --> 00:16:05.920
 Thank you.

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 Round of applause for Ellen.

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 Thank you.

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 So we're all sinners.

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 You're a sinner.

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 I'm a sinner.

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 And hopefully on the process of sanctification,

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 we've become,

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 we've become more and more like Jesus.

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 But the eye of confession is so important.

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 But do we do it?

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 And it's not just that we're not alone as the only sinners in the history of mankind here.

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 This book is filled with sinners.

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 In fact,

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 if you were to have a look at this book and go,

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 what's,

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 look at the people in this book.

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 Why did God choose to share these stories with us?

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 What's he actually trying to show us?

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 I think if anything,

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 he's trying to say is the way to get to me,

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 the only way to get to me is through repentance.

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 Because if you look at all the people that go to him and get to him,

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 it's,

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 it's just,

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 I mean,

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 these heroes have committed all the different kinds of sins.

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 And so God's showing us,

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 I'm going,

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 wait,

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 this is actually the only way.

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 So I wonder whether actually through this,

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 through this book here,

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 through our community here,

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 we should try and normalize confession.

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 We should try and normalize to the point where we can actually go to one another and go,

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 actually,

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 hey,

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 I've had a really bad week.

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 This,

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 this happened and it wasn't,

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 it wasn't good.

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 And I actually experienced the freedom that Ellen was just telling us about here.

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 And we're going to go through a Psalm,

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 probably one of,

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 again,

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 one of the most famous Psalms.

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 A couple of years ago,

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 Kimon and I took a Sabbath memorizing it together,

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 Psalm 51.

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 And it's super powerful.

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 One of the old songs that I grew up in the church listening to,

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 that actually Uncle Anthony would have led,

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 would create in me a clean heart.

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 Oh God.

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 Psalm 51.

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 But just maybe give you a little bit of context here.

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 If we go back to the story of David.

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 Oh,

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 you know what?

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 We've got some very strong ladies who are passing out the Bible.

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 So I'm going to actually ask,

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 I haven't done this.

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 And last week I kind of flew around everywhere.

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 This week I want to just to focus on this chapter here.

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 So I've asked our ladies to pass them around.

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 I know some of you have these cute apps that you use.

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 That aren't truly Bibles.

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 But can we just,

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 can we just pass them around?

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 And if you really have your own Bible,

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 if you really have an app that you take notes with,

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 feel free just to pass it along.

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 But I just wanted the act of just,

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 let's get the Bibles out.

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 And if you're passing it to your,

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 your friend next to you,

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 say,

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 Hey,

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 this is the word of God.

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 This is the word of God.

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 And this is a big,

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 this is a big deal.

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 What I want to do,

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 part of the reasons why we gather is,

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 is we're trying to learn how to read the Bible together.

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 We're trying to understand God's word together.

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 And so actually having a Bible and going,

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 wow,

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 this is what it looks like.

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 I don't even have to scroll.

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 I think the pages is,

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 you can see it all in one go.

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 How cool is that?

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 Right.

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 And so we're going to go through Psalm 51,

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 but whilst I buy some people some time and some are now going to the

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 contents page to look for where Psalms is.

00:18:52.879 --> 00:18:53.240
 Yeah,

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 there are,

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 there are different versions.

00:18:55.099 --> 00:18:55.200
 Okay.

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 So ESV is the one that traditionally,

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 uh,

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 well,

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 the one that I use right here.

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 It's probably the one.

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 Uh,

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 and then there's another one,

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 which is NIV,

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 which is if you grew up in the late 1900s like me,

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 that was the most popular one back then.

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 Uh,

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 but it has evolved a little bit.

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 Uh,

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 and there is,

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 and if you,

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 and there's an NLT that is,

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 um,

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 let's say just a little bit more accessible.

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 Okay.

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 Personally,

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 I don't use it as my first go-to.

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 I use the ESV first.

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 And then when inevitably I do not understand what I'm reading,

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 I will then go to the NLT to help me understand a little bit.

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 Okay.

00:19:25.400 --> 00:19:25.620
 Uh,

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 I probably,

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 that's the way around.

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 I do it.

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 Some people start with the NLT.

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 Some people start with the message,

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 which is like 90s slang.

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 I mean,

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 it's,

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 it's,

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 it's,

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 it's aged,

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 I feel as though,

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 but it's 90s slang,

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 right?

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 Uh,

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 but hey,

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 this is the word of God.

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 But before I,

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 we,

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 we,

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 I invite you to stand to read it.

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 Uh,

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 let me,

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 let me pay you the picture.

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 David here,

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 a young David here is out in the wilderness.

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 He's running.

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 He's escaping from Saul.

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 He's trying to kill him.

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 Okay.

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 During that time,

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 he has a few friends.

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 He has a few friends who are actually wanting to protect him and look after him.

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 And one of those friends,

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 actually there were 37 of them.

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 One of those friends is a guy called Uriah.

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 Uh,

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 and actually,

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 so he would risk his life to go out into the wilderness to the cage,

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 to go and protect David,

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 to give him food,

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 to protect him and look after him.

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 So Uriah was David's good friend.

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 Fast forward,

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 David becomes the king.

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 Uriah is still a very strong gifted fighter and leads the armies.

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 And then there's one time where David decides to apply for some annual leave and does not go out to battle and stays at home.

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 Uh,

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 and he lets his friend go out to do the work for him.

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 Uh,

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 David was maybe procrastinating and being a bit lazy.

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 And unfortunately,

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 whilst they're out in battle,

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 his friends are in battle.

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 David one day comes out onto his rooftop and looks over and sees in another building,

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 a beautiful woman.

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 He sees a beautiful woman and he goes,

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 okay,

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 well,

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 I would like to meet that woman.

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 So he ends up meeting this woman whose name was Bathsheba and ends up having an affair with her.

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 Much later,

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 uh,

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 Bathsheba sends a message to David saying,

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 hey,

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 I'm pregnant.

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 And so David's like,

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 oh,

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 that's bad.

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 That's bad.

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 Because Uriah is a big guy and he's strong and he's out there fighting.

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 So then David's like,

00:21:06.059 --> 00:21:09.019
 David does what you and I do when we make a mistake.

00:21:09.500 --> 00:21:10.659
 How do I cover this up?

00:21:11.139 --> 00:21:12.059
 How do I,

00:21:12.059 --> 00:21:15.019
 fix this without anyone knowing about it?

00:21:15.579 --> 00:21:16.539
 How do I cover it up?

00:21:16.839 --> 00:21:19.480
 So he thinks of an idea and it's not a bad idea.

00:21:19.539 --> 00:21:19.839
 He's like,

00:21:20.319 --> 00:21:22.720
 maybe I'll get Uriah to come back.

00:21:23.519 --> 00:21:27.519
 I'll have a meeting with him because I want an update about how the battle is going.

00:21:27.900 --> 00:21:29.339
 And then maybe I'll send him home.

00:21:29.500 --> 00:21:30.779
 And then when he's at home,

00:21:30.839 --> 00:21:31.960
 he'll spend the night with his wife.

00:21:32.279 --> 00:21:34.460
 And then he'll find out later that she's pregnant.

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 And he'll think it's,

00:21:35.559 --> 00:21:37.539
 he'll think that it's just their baby.

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 And so he invites Uriah back and he sits down.

00:21:41.019 --> 00:21:41.119
 He goes,

00:21:41.119 --> 00:21:41.740
 how's it going?

00:21:41.819 --> 00:21:42.839
 Update me about the war.

00:21:42.879 --> 00:21:43.639
 And they have a good meeting.

00:21:43.759 --> 00:21:44.019
 And it's like,

00:21:44.079 --> 00:21:44.339
 good,

00:21:44.379 --> 00:21:44.480
 good,

00:21:44.480 --> 00:21:44.619
 good.

00:21:44.680 --> 00:21:44.819
 Right.

00:21:44.879 --> 00:21:45.039
 Anyway,

00:21:45.159 --> 00:21:45.359
 done.

00:21:45.460 --> 00:21:46.099
 Thank you for the update.

00:21:46.180 --> 00:21:46.279
 Hey,

00:21:46.319 --> 00:21:46.720
 go home,

00:21:46.779 --> 00:21:47.799
 go home and be with your wife.

00:21:48.420 --> 00:21:48.740
 Of course,

00:21:48.740 --> 00:21:49.460
 this is all his plan.

00:21:50.420 --> 00:21:51.299
 And then Uriah,

00:21:52.299 --> 00:21:56.460
 the guy who had the courage to go out to go protect David when he was still in the wilderness.

00:21:56.779 --> 00:21:57.100
 Uriah's like,

00:21:57.140 --> 00:21:57.299
 no,

00:21:57.480 --> 00:21:57.680
 never.

00:21:58.660 --> 00:22:03.299
 Who am I that I would go back to be with my wife when my troops are still out on the front line?

00:22:03.360 --> 00:22:04.340
 I am not doing that.

00:22:04.380 --> 00:22:05.519
 And he ends up sleeping outside.

00:22:05.920 --> 00:22:06.480
 And David's like,

00:22:06.620 --> 00:22:09.799
 that's not what you're supposed to do.

00:22:11.600 --> 00:22:13.000
 And then Uriah goes back out to fight.

00:22:13.579 --> 00:22:15.880
 You can kind of see the difference between the two men right now.

00:22:17.220 --> 00:22:17.920
 And David's like,

00:22:17.960 --> 00:22:18.100
 well,

00:22:18.099 --> 00:22:19.579
 this is still going to be a problem.

00:22:20.379 --> 00:22:21.699
 So then he tells Joab,

00:22:21.740 --> 00:22:21.959
 he says,

00:22:22.019 --> 00:22:22.179
 hey,

00:22:22.419 --> 00:22:23.980
 who's on the battlefield as well.

00:22:24.000 --> 00:22:24.159
 Hey,

00:22:24.819 --> 00:22:28.839
 send Uriah out on just like a little special mission right at the front,

00:22:29.139 --> 00:22:30.119
 where it's the most dangerous.

00:22:30.539 --> 00:22:32.779
 And at the moment where he needs your help,

00:22:33.179 --> 00:22:33.579
 pull back,

00:22:34.019 --> 00:22:35.759
 pull back and then let him go.

00:22:36.079 --> 00:22:36.579
 Because if we,

00:22:36.819 --> 00:22:37.980
 if I can get rid of Uriah,

00:22:38.599 --> 00:22:40.199
 then maybe this problem won't be a problem anymore.

00:22:41.119 --> 00:22:41.799
 And it happens.

00:22:41.959 --> 00:22:43.240
 And it happens exactly as he plans.

00:22:43.240 --> 00:22:44.019
 And Uriah dies.

00:22:45.659 --> 00:22:48.000
 Bathsheba goes into mourning because her husband has died.

00:22:49.079 --> 00:22:50.119
 Soon after the morning,

00:22:50.439 --> 00:22:51.500
 David marries Bathsheba.

00:22:52.019 --> 00:22:52.459
 And hey,

00:22:52.639 --> 00:22:54.159
 we're expecting a child.

00:22:55.259 --> 00:23:00.099
 David does the next thing that you and I do when we try and cover up our sin and we clear our history.

00:23:00.459 --> 00:23:01.119
 We realize,

00:23:01.259 --> 00:23:01.399
 oh,

00:23:01.819 --> 00:23:02.779
 I'm done.

00:23:02.919 --> 00:23:03.339
 I'm clear.

00:23:03.720 --> 00:23:04.720
 No one's going to find out.

00:23:06.339 --> 00:23:08.019
 And that's when Nathan comes up.

00:23:09.359 --> 00:23:09.679
 Nathan,

00:23:09.859 --> 00:23:10.199
 the prophet,

00:23:10.359 --> 00:23:11.819
 goes to David.

00:23:12.399 --> 00:23:14.199
 Nathan knows about this because God told him.

00:23:15.199 --> 00:23:15.399
 Of course,

00:23:15.459 --> 00:23:16.279
 God knows the whole thing.

00:23:16.859 --> 00:23:18.539
 God knows all the things that we're doing as well,

00:23:18.619 --> 00:23:18.919
 by the way,

00:23:18.959 --> 00:23:20.319
 just in case you didn't know that.

00:23:22.619 --> 00:23:23.139
 Nathan goes,

00:23:23.179 --> 00:23:23.319
 hey,

00:23:23.439 --> 00:23:23.679
 David,

00:23:23.720 --> 00:23:24.359
 let me tell you a story.

00:23:25.000 --> 00:23:26.059
 There's a rich man and a poor man.

00:23:26.119 --> 00:23:28.359
 The rich man has just so many,

00:23:28.359 --> 00:23:29.279
 so many flocks of sheep.

00:23:30.079 --> 00:23:31.259
 The poor man only has one.

00:23:31.940 --> 00:23:32.220
 And actually,

00:23:32.440 --> 00:23:38.799
 the poor man looked after his sheep so well and cared for his sheep and actually treated his sheep as though it was his daughter.

00:23:39.480 --> 00:23:42.019
 The rich man comes into town and takes that poor man's sheep.

00:23:42.759 --> 00:23:43.379
 What should he do?

00:23:44.460 --> 00:23:45.440
 David's just furious.

00:23:45.539 --> 00:23:45.759
 He's like,

00:23:45.799 --> 00:23:47.539
 what kind of man would do that?

00:23:48.440 --> 00:23:48.700
 Oh,

00:23:49.660 --> 00:23:50.039
 oh.

00:23:51.279 --> 00:23:51.899
 Nathan says,

00:23:52.000 --> 00:23:52.139
 well,

00:23:53.259 --> 00:23:54.700
 he's standing right in front of me.

00:23:54.700 --> 00:23:59.120
 And at that moment,

00:23:59.779 --> 00:24:06.519
 David realized that there is no sin that I can commit that won't come to light.

00:24:06.960 --> 00:24:10.920
 Nothing that's done in darkness won't at one point be exposed into the light.

00:24:11.259 --> 00:24:16.259
 And that is the context in which he pens Psalm 51.

00:24:17.620 --> 00:24:19.400
 I'm going to be talking about confession today,

00:24:19.500 --> 00:24:21.700
 but really I'm actually just going to be going through Psalm 51

00:24:21.700 --> 00:24:25.299
 because you and I both know when we've screwed up and we've made mistakes

00:24:25.299 --> 00:24:27.279
 and we get to the point where we've been found out,

00:24:27.539 --> 00:24:28.740
 that is our true self.

00:24:28.860 --> 00:24:31.140
 That moment there is when we're like,

00:24:31.200 --> 00:24:32.740
 it all spews out.

00:24:33.480 --> 00:24:35.640
 And actually what we see here is David's very,

00:24:35.759 --> 00:24:36.720
 very honest confession,

00:24:36.920 --> 00:24:37.819
 not a voluntary one,

00:24:38.000 --> 00:24:38.500
 might I add.

00:24:39.039 --> 00:24:42.600
 I'm not convinced that he would have confessed if he was,

00:24:42.799 --> 00:24:44.660
 if he's been told that he'd managed to get away with it.

00:24:45.580 --> 00:24:48.980
 And yet here we are with David actually sharing his heart.

00:24:48.980 --> 00:24:50.819
 So that's how we're going to read Psalm 51.

00:24:50.940 --> 00:24:52.640
 So can I invite you to stand for the word of the Lord?

00:25:00.500 --> 00:25:01.579
 And as we read this,

00:25:02.740 --> 00:25:03.860
 I pray the Lord will give us the,

00:25:03.940 --> 00:25:07.200
 just the gift of being able to just see how David found,

00:25:07.460 --> 00:25:10.360
 see what he wants to show us today as well.

00:25:11.779 --> 00:25:12.519
 Psalm 51.

00:25:12.519 --> 00:25:14.500
 A Psalm of David,

00:25:14.619 --> 00:25:17.779
 when Nathan the prophet went to him after he had gone into Bathsheba.

00:25:19.200 --> 00:25:20.259
 Have mercy on me,

00:25:20.339 --> 00:25:20.660
 O God,

00:25:21.139 --> 00:25:22.599
 according to your steadfast love,

00:25:22.740 --> 00:25:24.180
 according to your abundant mercy,

00:25:24.480 --> 00:25:25.759
 blot out my transgressions,

00:25:26.240 --> 00:25:27.799
 wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,

00:25:28.059 --> 00:25:29.359
 and cleanse me from my sin.

00:25:30.240 --> 00:25:31.579
 For I know my transgressions,

00:25:31.639 --> 00:25:33.259
 and my sin is ever before me.

00:25:33.819 --> 00:25:34.339
 Against you,

00:25:34.420 --> 00:25:35.599
 you only have I sinned,

00:25:35.619 --> 00:25:37.240
 and done what is evil in your sight,

00:25:37.619 --> 00:25:39.740
 so that you may be justified in your words,

00:25:39.980 --> 00:25:41.200
 and blameless in your judgment.

00:25:41.799 --> 00:25:42.120
 Behold,

00:25:42.180 --> 00:25:43.880
 I was brought forth in iniquity,

00:25:44.220 --> 00:25:46.019
 and in sin did my mother conceive me.

00:25:46.539 --> 00:25:46.819
 Behold,

00:25:46.940 --> 00:25:47.819
 you delight in truth,

00:25:47.880 --> 00:25:48.660
 in the inward being,

00:25:48.700 --> 00:25:50.559
 and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.

00:25:51.600 --> 00:25:52.539
 Purge me with hyssop,

00:25:52.580 --> 00:25:53.279
 and I shall be clean.

00:25:53.400 --> 00:25:53.779
 Wash me,

00:25:53.819 --> 00:25:55.460
 and I shall be whiter than snow.

00:25:55.539 --> 00:25:57.259
 Let me hear joy and gladness.

00:25:57.900 --> 00:25:59.660
 Let the bones that you have broken rejoice.

00:26:00.539 --> 00:26:01.680
 Hide your face from my sins,

00:26:01.720 --> 00:26:03.160
 and blot out all my iniquities.

00:26:03.840 --> 00:26:05.220
 Create in me a clean heart,

00:26:05.220 --> 00:26:05.640
 O God,

00:26:05.759 --> 00:26:07.799
 and renew a right spirit within me.

00:26:08.299 --> 00:26:09.720
 Cast me not away from your presence,

00:26:09.720 --> 00:26:11.640
 and take not your Holy Spirit from me.

00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:13.900
 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,

00:26:14.140 --> 00:26:16.180
 and uphold me with a willing spirit.

00:26:17.440 --> 00:26:19.460
 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

00:26:19.660 --> 00:26:21.039
 and sinners will return to you.

00:26:21.140 --> 00:26:22.740
 Deliver me from blood guiltiness,

00:26:22.740 --> 00:26:23.120
 O God,

00:26:23.440 --> 00:26:24.620
 O God of my salvation,

00:26:24.920 --> 00:26:26.880
 and my tongue will sing aloud of your righteousness.

00:26:27.319 --> 00:26:27.640
 O Lord,

00:26:27.700 --> 00:26:28.480
 open my lips,

00:26:28.559 --> 00:26:30.039
 and my mouth will declare your praise,

00:26:30.259 --> 00:26:32.200
 for you will not delight in that sacrifice,

00:26:32.279 --> 00:26:33.339
 or I would not give it.

00:26:33.660 --> 00:26:35.460
 You will not be pleased with the burnt offering.

00:26:35.920 --> 00:26:37.940
 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,

00:26:38.299 --> 00:26:39.559
 a broken and contrite heart,

00:26:39.620 --> 00:26:39.940
 O God,

00:26:40.000 --> 00:26:41.120
 you will not despise.

00:26:41.779 --> 00:26:43.339
 Do good to Zion in your good pleasure.

00:26:43.500 --> 00:26:44.819
 Build up the walls of Jerusalem.

00:26:45.160 --> 00:26:47.000
 Then you will delight in right sacrifices,

00:26:47.000 --> 00:26:47.900
 in burnt offerings,

00:26:48.019 --> 00:26:48.920
 and whole burnt offerings.

00:26:49.240 --> 00:26:51.200
 Then bulls will be offered on your altar.

00:26:51.200 --> 00:26:53.319
 This is the word of the Lord.

00:26:54.559 --> 00:26:55.360
 Please take a seat.

00:26:58.700 --> 00:27:00.080
 So we see laziness,

00:27:00.220 --> 00:27:00.880
 we see lies,

00:27:01.019 --> 00:27:01.620
 we see lust,

00:27:01.900 --> 00:27:03.080
 we see all of it happen,

00:27:03.279 --> 00:27:03.940
 and finally,

00:27:04.299 --> 00:27:04.600
 David,

00:27:04.759 --> 00:27:06.279
 who thought he'd gotten away with it,

00:27:06.539 --> 00:27:07.080
 has not.

00:27:07.340 --> 00:27:08.360
 We have our sins

00:27:08.360 --> 00:27:09.779
 that we think we've gotten away with.

00:27:09.880 --> 00:27:10.720
 We have our sins

00:27:10.720 --> 00:27:12.960
 that are filling us with guilt,

00:27:13.100 --> 00:27:15.860
 driving us into all these different addictions

00:27:15.860 --> 00:27:17.059
 and pains that we have

00:27:17.059 --> 00:27:17.880
 that we can't get out of,

00:27:17.900 --> 00:27:19.120
 that we're trying to numb ourselves from.

00:27:19.380 --> 00:27:21.160
 What does this passage teach us

00:27:21.160 --> 00:27:22.380
 about what we can do

00:27:22.380 --> 00:27:23.720
 when it comes to dealing with our sin?

00:27:23.900 --> 00:27:25.180
 What does this passage teach us

00:27:25.180 --> 00:27:26.340
 about confession?

00:27:26.600 --> 00:27:27.019
 And actually,

00:27:27.320 --> 00:27:28.600
 that's why I love the fact

00:27:28.600 --> 00:27:30.180
 that you've got Bibles in front of you now.

00:27:30.240 --> 00:27:30.980
 We're just going to go through.

00:27:31.480 --> 00:27:32.860
 And some bits I'll fly through

00:27:32.860 --> 00:27:33.660
 a little bit quicker than others,

00:27:33.900 --> 00:27:35.440
 but I think this actually gives us

00:27:35.440 --> 00:27:36.420
 the template that we need.

00:27:36.460 --> 00:27:37.680
 So feel free to follow along with me.

00:27:37.980 --> 00:27:39.340
 Have mercy on me,

00:27:39.600 --> 00:27:39.980
 O God.

00:27:40.080 --> 00:27:41.759
 So Nathan exposes him,

00:27:41.820 --> 00:27:42.460
 and straight away,

00:27:42.680 --> 00:27:43.100
 he says,

00:27:43.460 --> 00:27:44.680
 have mercy on me.

00:27:44.759 --> 00:27:45.880
 What's our definition of mercy?

00:27:46.779 --> 00:27:47.100
 Grace,

00:27:47.100 --> 00:27:48.480
 your name is often mixed with

00:27:48.480 --> 00:27:49.400
 the word mercy.

00:27:50.759 --> 00:27:51.480
 In your eyes,

00:27:51.500 --> 00:27:52.440
 what's the difference between the two?

00:27:54.360 --> 00:27:55.799
 Grace is giving us something

00:27:55.799 --> 00:27:56.640
 we don't deserve,

00:27:56.779 --> 00:27:59.700
 and then mercy is giving us...

00:27:59.700 --> 00:28:01.519
 Yep, you're right.

00:28:02.460 --> 00:28:04.079
 Mercy is forgiving us

00:28:04.079 --> 00:28:05.019
 what we do deserve.

00:28:05.339 --> 00:28:05.980
 Yep, so grace

00:28:05.980 --> 00:28:07.380
 is giving us,

00:28:07.660 --> 00:28:08.420
 us getting something

00:28:08.420 --> 00:28:09.059
 that we don't deserve.

00:28:09.380 --> 00:28:10.539
 Mercy is sparing us

00:28:10.539 --> 00:28:11.700
 from something that we do deserve.

00:28:11.880 --> 00:28:13.519
 So sparing us from the punishment

00:28:13.519 --> 00:28:15.160
 that we do deserve it.

00:28:15.279 --> 00:28:15.800
 So David's like,

00:28:15.860 --> 00:28:15.980
 hey,

00:28:16.300 --> 00:28:16.540
 and actually,

00:28:16.620 --> 00:28:17.800
 just a quick note on that.

00:28:18.019 --> 00:28:18.960
 Nathan confronts David.

00:28:19.100 --> 00:28:20.100
 David is apologetic.

00:28:20.180 --> 00:28:20.800
 Of course you would be.

00:28:20.840 --> 00:28:21.600
 You've just been exposed,

00:28:21.759 --> 00:28:23.040
 and someone told Nathan about this.

00:28:23.380 --> 00:28:23.700
 And actually,

00:28:23.740 --> 00:28:24.600
 he does get forgiven.

00:28:24.860 --> 00:28:26.140
 But even though we get forgiven,

00:28:26.320 --> 00:28:27.440
 there are still consequences.

00:28:28.120 --> 00:28:28.279
 Okay,

00:28:28.279 --> 00:28:29.540
 so that baby actually still dies.

00:28:29.980 --> 00:28:30.380
 And actually,

00:28:30.480 --> 00:28:31.040
 from then on,

00:28:31.200 --> 00:28:32.140
 David's family is just

00:28:32.140 --> 00:28:33.140
 an absolute mess.

00:28:33.860 --> 00:28:34.060
 Okay,

00:28:34.100 --> 00:28:35.340
 so just because we're forgiven

00:28:35.340 --> 00:28:36.400
 doesn't mean the consequences

00:28:36.400 --> 00:28:37.000
 that we've done

00:28:37.000 --> 00:28:39.279
 are not there.

00:28:39.779 --> 00:28:40.000
 Okay,

00:28:40.160 --> 00:28:40.880
 so that's...

00:28:40.880 --> 00:28:41.220
 But he says,

00:28:41.320 --> 00:28:42.580
 have mercy on me,

00:28:42.660 --> 00:28:42.900
 O God,

00:28:43.019 --> 00:28:44.519
 so please spare me.

00:28:45.160 --> 00:28:46.560
 Spare me of the punishment.

00:28:47.140 --> 00:28:47.540
 Why?

00:28:47.779 --> 00:28:48.840
 Because I'm repentant,

00:28:48.880 --> 00:28:49.519
 because I'm sorry,

00:28:49.720 --> 00:28:50.660
 because I feel bad

00:28:50.660 --> 00:28:51.279
 that I've been found out.

00:28:51.320 --> 00:28:51.480
 No.

00:28:51.980 --> 00:28:52.420
 Why?

00:28:52.660 --> 00:28:54.300
 According to your steadfast love,

00:28:54.380 --> 00:28:55.840
 according to your abundant mercy,

00:28:56.300 --> 00:28:57.300
 blot out my transgressions.

00:28:57.759 --> 00:28:58.000
 God,

00:28:59.000 --> 00:28:59.900
 have mercy on me.

00:28:59.960 --> 00:29:00.320
 Forgive me.

00:29:00.380 --> 00:29:01.019
 Not because of me,

00:29:01.080 --> 00:29:02.100
 not because I'm worth forgiving,

00:29:02.420 --> 00:29:03.180
 but because you

00:29:03.180 --> 00:29:04.440
 have an unfailing love.

00:29:04.880 --> 00:29:06.100
 Because you have unlimited

00:29:06.100 --> 00:29:07.759
 grace and love for me.

00:29:08.080 --> 00:29:08.680
 You...

00:29:08.680 --> 00:29:08.980
 Actually,

00:29:09.040 --> 00:29:10.700
 it doesn't run dry at all.

00:29:12.240 --> 00:29:13.000
 Here's something else.

00:29:13.680 --> 00:29:14.599
 When we sin,

00:29:15.539 --> 00:29:16.960
 the first thing that we do

00:29:16.960 --> 00:29:17.519
 is hide,

00:29:17.940 --> 00:29:19.099
 and then we think,

00:29:19.160 --> 00:29:19.339
 God,

00:29:19.460 --> 00:29:21.420
 I don't want to be near you,

00:29:21.500 --> 00:29:21.640
 God,

00:29:21.700 --> 00:29:22.980
 because of how it makes me feel,

00:29:23.019 --> 00:29:23.900
 because if you find out,

00:29:23.940 --> 00:29:24.779
 you're going to punish me.

00:29:26.759 --> 00:29:28.140
 But that's not what Scripture says.

00:29:28.140 --> 00:29:29.140
 According to your steadfast,

00:29:29.940 --> 00:29:30.539
 unfailing love,

00:29:30.599 --> 00:29:32.140
 according to your abundant mercy,

00:29:33.779 --> 00:29:35.720
 I think sometimes we've got our picture

00:29:35.720 --> 00:29:36.960
 of Father God completely wrong.

00:29:36.960 --> 00:29:38.860
 just like the prodigal son

00:29:38.860 --> 00:29:39.539
 who messes up

00:29:39.539 --> 00:29:40.980
 and spends all his dad's fortune,

00:29:41.380 --> 00:29:42.900
 comes sheepishly home,

00:29:43.240 --> 00:29:44.240
 sees his dad from afar,

00:29:44.360 --> 00:29:44.700
 and he thinks,

00:29:44.779 --> 00:29:45.360
 oh my goodness,

00:29:45.420 --> 00:29:49.700
 I'm going to get such a big rebuking.

00:29:52.420 --> 00:29:53.700
 And yet his dad runs,

00:29:54.240 --> 00:29:54.759
 runs,

00:29:55.100 --> 00:29:56.059
 not with a stick,

00:29:56.519 --> 00:29:57.720
 but with arms open wide,

00:29:58.200 --> 00:29:59.180
 going to hold him,

00:29:59.700 --> 00:30:00.019
 hug him,

00:30:00.100 --> 00:30:00.579
 embrace him.

00:30:00.980 --> 00:30:02.500
 I think we lose sight of that

00:30:02.500 --> 00:30:03.039
 when we sin.

00:30:04.119 --> 00:30:04.639
 That we think,

00:30:04.699 --> 00:30:05.379
 every time we sin,

00:30:05.419 --> 00:30:06.500
 we're going to get beaten with a stick,

00:30:06.819 --> 00:30:07.899
 and yet what we see here,

00:30:08.119 --> 00:30:09.139
 what we see in Scripture here,

00:30:09.199 --> 00:30:10.179
 is that actually God's arms

00:30:10.179 --> 00:30:11.299
 are open wide,

00:30:11.539 --> 00:30:12.779
 always for us,

00:30:12.839 --> 00:30:14.759
 according to your steadfast love

00:30:14.759 --> 00:30:16.279
 and abundant mercy.

00:30:18.480 --> 00:30:19.439
 And then he says this,

00:30:19.639 --> 00:30:21.259
 wash me thoroughly from my iniquity

00:30:21.259 --> 00:30:22.439
 and cleanse me from my sin.

00:30:22.639 --> 00:30:23.759
 This isn't just an act,

00:30:23.839 --> 00:30:24.720
 this isn't just one thing

00:30:24.720 --> 00:30:25.299
 I need you to clean,

00:30:25.359 --> 00:30:26.720
 this is right deep down,

00:30:26.899 --> 00:30:28.980
 this is the deep clean that I need.

00:30:28.980 --> 00:30:31.440
 This isn't just on the surface.

00:30:32.180 --> 00:30:32.660
 Christine and I,

00:30:32.740 --> 00:30:33.640
 we have a very big difference

00:30:33.640 --> 00:30:34.220
 in our marriage,

00:30:34.539 --> 00:30:35.539
 is that we value,

00:30:35.900 --> 00:30:37.200
 or we perceive cleanliness

00:30:37.200 --> 00:30:38.500
 in very different ways.

00:30:39.079 --> 00:30:40.019
 And so when I think

00:30:40.019 --> 00:30:40.599
 I've cleaned something,

00:30:40.680 --> 00:30:41.539
 I have not cleaned something.

00:30:42.160 --> 00:30:43.000
 It is not clean.

00:30:44.019 --> 00:30:45.240
 Because Dettol isn't involved.

00:30:45.360 --> 00:30:46.279
 Dettol must be involved

00:30:46.279 --> 00:30:46.900
 in everything.

00:30:47.819 --> 00:30:48.700
 If it's not Dettol,

00:30:48.740 --> 00:30:49.380
 it doesn't make sense.

00:30:50.099 --> 00:30:53.620
 So she values the deep cleaning.

00:30:54.259 --> 00:30:55.019
 And so David says here,

00:30:55.099 --> 00:30:56.480
 wash me thoroughly.

00:30:57.799 --> 00:30:58.420
 Verse three,

00:30:58.420 --> 00:30:59.920
 for I know my transgressions

00:30:59.920 --> 00:31:01.380
 and my sin is ever before me.

00:31:01.480 --> 00:31:02.920
 Something about when we deal with sin

00:31:02.920 --> 00:31:03.680
 is that we actually

00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:04.500
 just have to acknowledge it.

00:31:05.060 --> 00:31:05.880
 The therapist will say,

00:31:05.980 --> 00:31:06.620
 hey, you can't heal

00:31:06.620 --> 00:31:07.900
 what you cannot actually

00:31:07.900 --> 00:31:08.759
 articulate and name.

00:31:09.080 --> 00:31:09.560
 God says,

00:31:09.759 --> 00:31:10.860
 actually I know what it is

00:31:10.860 --> 00:31:12.580
 that you need to admit to,

00:31:12.800 --> 00:31:13.680
 but actually the very fact

00:31:13.680 --> 00:31:15.279
 that you just need to share it out.

00:31:16.100 --> 00:31:16.920
 And you need to acknowledge

00:31:16.920 --> 00:31:17.259
 that hey,

00:31:17.800 --> 00:31:18.740
 that was on me.

00:31:19.660 --> 00:31:20.700
 Brene Brown is of course

00:31:20.700 --> 00:31:22.019
 a favorite author for some of us,

00:31:22.240 --> 00:31:22.900
 would say the same.

00:31:24.100 --> 00:31:25.200
 But the pathway to vulnerability

00:31:25.200 --> 00:31:25.980
 is just to kind of go,

00:31:26.000 --> 00:31:26.120
 hey,

00:31:26.240 --> 00:31:26.920
 that's on me.

00:31:26.920 --> 00:31:29.240
 How often do we do that?

00:31:29.900 --> 00:31:31.600
 Or when you make a mistake

00:31:31.600 --> 00:31:32.700
 or when I make a mistake,

00:31:32.800 --> 00:31:33.720
 the first thing we do is

00:31:33.720 --> 00:31:35.000
 someone else.

00:31:35.920 --> 00:31:36.420
 This goes,

00:31:36.560 --> 00:31:37.560
 this isn't just you either.

00:31:37.759 --> 00:31:38.779
 We've inherited all the way

00:31:38.779 --> 00:31:39.580
 this down from Adam.

00:31:40.480 --> 00:31:41.500
 When he eats the apple

00:31:41.500 --> 00:31:42.420
 and then he blames God

00:31:42.420 --> 00:31:42.740
 and he says,

00:31:42.860 --> 00:31:43.019
 well,

00:31:43.640 --> 00:31:45.080
 I only ate the apple

00:31:45.080 --> 00:31:46.220
 because of the woman

00:31:46.220 --> 00:31:46.920
 that you gave me.

00:31:48.279 --> 00:31:49.240
 The first man

00:31:49.240 --> 00:31:51.080
 did not take responsibility.

00:31:52.539 --> 00:31:53.680
 Part of confession is going,

00:31:53.759 --> 00:31:53.840
 hey,

00:31:53.839 --> 00:31:54.559
 I'm owning this.

00:31:55.419 --> 00:31:55.959
 This is me.

00:31:56.599 --> 00:31:57.279
 This is on me.

00:31:57.359 --> 00:31:58.000
 This is on you,

00:31:58.079 --> 00:31:58.139
 Jay.

00:31:58.779 --> 00:31:59.699
 Like whatever sin

00:31:59.699 --> 00:32:00.259
 that you had,

00:32:00.359 --> 00:32:00.899
 whatever mistake

00:32:00.899 --> 00:32:01.480
 that you made,

00:32:01.679 --> 00:32:02.819
 you've got to say,

00:32:02.980 --> 00:32:03.220
 Emily,

00:32:03.319 --> 00:32:03.720
 I'm sorry.

00:32:03.859 --> 00:32:04.359
 It's on me.

00:32:04.799 --> 00:32:05.439
 That's the way

00:32:05.439 --> 00:32:06.459
 to a happy,

00:32:06.619 --> 00:32:07.159
 healthy marriage.

00:32:08.119 --> 00:32:08.399
 For Jay,

00:32:08.459 --> 00:32:08.799
 just say,

00:32:08.839 --> 00:32:08.959
 hey,

00:32:09.019 --> 00:32:09.519
 it's on me.

00:32:11.159 --> 00:32:12.139
 And he doesn't say this

00:32:12.139 --> 00:32:12.559
 and he says,

00:32:12.720 --> 00:32:13.279
 my sin

00:32:13.279 --> 00:32:15.240
 is ever before me.

00:32:16.159 --> 00:32:16.759
 My sin.

00:32:17.460 --> 00:32:18.559
 I know this is me.

00:32:20.119 --> 00:32:21.000
 I know I did this

00:32:21.000 --> 00:32:21.779
 because of what's going on

00:32:21.779 --> 00:32:22.200
 in my heart.

00:32:22.279 --> 00:32:23.220
 That's why I need to be

00:32:23.220 --> 00:32:24.240
 washed thoroughly.

00:32:25.319 --> 00:32:26.119
 And then he says this,

00:32:26.339 --> 00:32:27.039
 against you,

00:32:27.160 --> 00:32:28.440
 you only have I sinned

00:32:28.440 --> 00:32:29.220
 and done what is evil

00:32:29.220 --> 00:32:29.680
 in your sight.

00:32:29.740 --> 00:32:30.099
 And then I'm like,

00:32:30.140 --> 00:32:30.259
 wait,

00:32:31.099 --> 00:32:32.180
 did you really just sin

00:32:32.180 --> 00:32:33.019
 against God,

00:32:33.160 --> 00:32:33.640
 just God?

00:32:34.480 --> 00:32:35.660
 I think Uriah would probably

00:32:35.660 --> 00:32:36.339
 have something to say

00:32:36.339 --> 00:32:36.759
 about that.

00:32:37.660 --> 00:32:38.299
 I think Bathsheba

00:32:38.299 --> 00:32:38.960
 would probably have something

00:32:38.960 --> 00:32:39.720
 to say about that.

00:32:40.640 --> 00:32:42.140
 And yet what he's saying here

00:32:42.140 --> 00:32:42.299
 is,

00:32:42.379 --> 00:32:43.460
 here's the thing,

00:32:43.779 --> 00:32:45.379
 we do sin against other people

00:32:45.380 --> 00:32:46.740
 but if we keep peeling back,

00:32:46.800 --> 00:32:47.900
 if we keep peeling back

00:32:47.900 --> 00:32:49.200
 about why are we doing this,

00:32:50.280 --> 00:32:51.660
 ultimately the biggest violation

00:32:51.660 --> 00:32:52.240
 is with God.

00:32:53.140 --> 00:32:54.660
 He hasn't just broken rules,

00:32:54.760 --> 00:32:56.020
 he's broken a relationship

00:32:56.020 --> 00:32:57.820
 with God.

00:32:58.840 --> 00:32:59.460
 Did you notice

00:32:59.460 --> 00:33:00.180
 when Ellen was talking

00:33:00.180 --> 00:33:00.700
 about confession,

00:33:00.820 --> 00:33:01.560
 what was the ministry called?

00:33:01.620 --> 00:33:02.660
 It was called reconciliation.

00:33:04.980 --> 00:33:06.200
 The whole point of confession

00:33:06.200 --> 00:33:06.920
 is that we would be

00:33:06.920 --> 00:33:07.840
 reconciled with God.

00:33:07.960 --> 00:33:09.580
 The whole cause of sin

00:33:09.580 --> 00:33:10.020
 at the beginning

00:33:10.020 --> 00:33:10.680
 is that we've been

00:33:10.680 --> 00:33:12.400
 disconnected with him.

00:33:13.260 --> 00:33:14.380
 So that's why he's saying,

00:33:14.460 --> 00:33:14.560
 hey,

00:33:14.620 --> 00:33:15.220
 against you,

00:33:15.380 --> 00:33:17.040
 and only you.

00:33:17.200 --> 00:33:18.900
 Because on the surface

00:33:18.900 --> 00:33:19.720
 we have sinned

00:33:19.720 --> 00:33:20.560
 and done different things

00:33:20.560 --> 00:33:21.800
 but there is a deeper sin

00:33:21.800 --> 00:33:22.200
 underneath.

00:33:24.520 --> 00:33:25.680
 So when we confess,

00:33:25.940 --> 00:33:27.300
 when we apologize to God,

00:33:27.360 --> 00:33:27.800
 it isn't just,

00:33:28.000 --> 00:33:28.000


00:33:28.240 --> 00:33:28.440
 God,

00:33:28.580 --> 00:33:28.800
 sorry,

00:33:28.800 --> 00:33:28.800


00:33:28.900 --> 00:33:30.900
 I lost control again

00:33:30.900 --> 00:33:32.560
 and I went to the website

00:33:32.560 --> 00:33:33.460
 that I shouldn't have gone to.

00:33:35.220 --> 00:33:36.120
 That's one thing.

00:33:37.020 --> 00:33:38.000
 But what we should do

00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:38.220
 is say,

00:33:38.240 --> 00:33:38.440
 God,

00:33:38.960 --> 00:33:40.300
 I'm so sorry.

00:33:40.460 --> 00:33:41.240
 Out of my lack

00:33:41.240 --> 00:33:42.240
 of mistrust for you.

00:33:43.220 --> 00:33:43.940
 Out of my lack

00:33:43.940 --> 00:33:44.940
 of loving and honoring

00:33:44.940 --> 00:33:45.759
 my fellow sister

00:33:45.759 --> 00:33:46.360
 or fellow brother,

00:33:47.080 --> 00:33:47.860
 out of my worry

00:33:47.860 --> 00:33:48.759
 that you won't provide

00:33:48.759 --> 00:33:49.900
 for me someone

00:33:49.900 --> 00:33:50.500
 that I need,

00:33:51.120 --> 00:33:52.259
 I ended up conceding

00:33:52.259 --> 00:33:53.519
 and going to that website.

00:33:55.759 --> 00:33:56.120
 God,

00:33:56.160 --> 00:33:56.880
 I'm sorry that I

00:33:56.880 --> 00:33:58.380
 cut that corner

00:33:58.380 --> 00:33:58.779
 at work

00:33:58.779 --> 00:34:00.759
 because actually

00:34:00.759 --> 00:34:01.180
 that's not,

00:34:01.279 --> 00:34:01.600
 the act

00:34:01.600 --> 00:34:02.880
 isn't just the problem.

00:34:03.279 --> 00:34:04.120
 The act is that actually

00:34:04.120 --> 00:34:05.100
 I don't trust you.

00:34:05.779 --> 00:34:06.860
 That I think that I have

00:34:06.860 --> 00:34:07.559
 to cut this corner

00:34:07.559 --> 00:34:08.380
 otherwise my boss

00:34:08.380 --> 00:34:10.559
 won't show me favor.

00:34:10.559 --> 00:34:11.559
 and because of that

00:34:11.559 --> 00:34:13.659
 I'll get fired

00:34:13.659 --> 00:34:15.019
 and then I will

00:34:15.019 --> 00:34:16.299
 die alone

00:34:16.299 --> 00:34:16.759
 and hungry.

00:34:17.980 --> 00:34:18.539
 Really God,

00:34:18.779 --> 00:34:19.380
 actually my sin

00:34:19.380 --> 00:34:20.219
 is that I don't trust you.

00:34:21.179 --> 00:34:22.480
 Can we get to that point?

00:34:23.119 --> 00:34:24.179
 I remember a conversation

00:34:24.179 --> 00:34:24.699
 with you Pauline

00:34:24.699 --> 00:34:25.400
 I think a few years ago

00:34:25.400 --> 00:34:26.039
 when you were talking about

00:34:26.039 --> 00:34:27.380
 actually how to even praise kids.

00:34:27.840 --> 00:34:28.519
 It's not just to say

00:34:28.519 --> 00:34:28.880
 how to praise kids

00:34:28.880 --> 00:34:30.699
 but to actually be specific

00:34:30.699 --> 00:34:31.099
 about,

00:34:32.000 --> 00:34:33.320
 be specific

00:34:33.320 --> 00:34:34.079
 and constructive

00:34:34.079 --> 00:34:34.940
 with your feedback.

00:34:34.940 --> 00:34:36.619
 both in a positive way

00:34:36.619 --> 00:34:37.380
 and a negative way.

00:34:37.960 --> 00:34:38.400
 It's not just

00:34:38.400 --> 00:34:38.720
 how to怪,

00:34:38.800 --> 00:34:39.039
 how to yay

00:34:39.039 --> 00:34:40.000
 but actually

00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:41.460
 what is the act

00:34:41.460 --> 00:34:42.280
 that you actually did

00:34:42.280 --> 00:34:44.019
 and why did you do it?

00:34:45.639 --> 00:34:46.440
 We need to get

00:34:46.440 --> 00:34:47.300
 to the heart of the problem

00:34:47.300 --> 00:34:48.079
 when we come down

00:34:48.079 --> 00:34:48.559
 to sin.

00:34:48.820 --> 00:34:49.340
 When we come down

00:34:49.340 --> 00:34:49.840
 to confession

00:34:49.840 --> 00:34:50.480
 it's not just saying

00:34:50.480 --> 00:34:51.539
 oh God I messed up again.

00:34:52.579 --> 00:34:53.460
 I know I shouldn't be doing it.

00:34:53.920 --> 00:34:54.880
 Ask yourself why

00:34:54.880 --> 00:34:57.139
 and then go to God

00:34:57.139 --> 00:34:57.420
 and go hey

00:34:57.420 --> 00:34:58.679
 I think I did this

00:34:58.679 --> 00:34:59.920
 because ultimately

00:34:59.920 --> 00:35:00.240
 I don't,

00:35:00.420 --> 00:35:00.619
 you know,

00:35:00.800 --> 00:35:01.760
 if we go all the way back

00:35:01.760 --> 00:35:02.559
 it's really just because

00:35:02.559 --> 00:35:03.320
 we don't trust God

00:35:03.320 --> 00:35:04.400
 that he is who he says he is.

00:35:05.420 --> 00:35:06.559
 And that he doesn't love us

00:35:06.559 --> 00:35:07.260
 in the way that he says

00:35:07.260 --> 00:35:07.740
 he loves us.

00:35:08.579 --> 00:35:09.559
 Let's get to that

00:35:09.559 --> 00:35:10.780
 in our confession

00:35:10.780 --> 00:35:11.980
 against you

00:35:11.980 --> 00:35:13.440
 and you only have I sinned.

00:35:13.740 --> 00:35:14.300
 And then he says this

00:35:14.300 --> 00:35:14.700
 behold,

00:35:14.980 --> 00:35:15.840
 okay so this language

00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:16.659
 if I'm you

00:35:16.659 --> 00:35:18.220
 especially if I'm a younger person

00:35:18.220 --> 00:35:19.260
 I read this Psalm 51

00:35:19.260 --> 00:35:19.920
 I'm like man

00:35:19.920 --> 00:35:20.500
 this language

00:35:20.500 --> 00:35:22.559
 that's why the NLT is helpful

00:35:22.559 --> 00:35:23.659
 that's why the message is helpful

00:35:23.659 --> 00:35:24.280
 and you kind of go okay

00:35:24.280 --> 00:35:25.700
 what does he even mean there?

00:35:25.860 --> 00:35:26.220
 Behold

00:35:26.220 --> 00:35:28.420
 I was brought forth in iniquity

00:35:28.420 --> 00:35:30.400
 and in sin did my mother conceive me.

00:35:30.539 --> 00:35:31.519
 What he's saying here is this

00:35:31.519 --> 00:35:32.380
 I messed up

00:35:32.380 --> 00:35:33.480
 but it's not just because

00:35:33.480 --> 00:35:34.280
 I did that one act

00:35:34.280 --> 00:35:34.860
 that I messed up

00:35:34.860 --> 00:35:35.940
 I am just messed up

00:35:35.940 --> 00:35:36.880
 as a whole.

00:35:37.360 --> 00:35:38.440
 It's not just the sin

00:35:38.440 --> 00:35:39.000
 I'm committing

00:35:39.000 --> 00:35:40.380
 I am a sinner.

00:35:40.920 --> 00:35:41.400
 There is different

00:35:41.400 --> 00:35:42.340
 the sin is the act

00:35:42.340 --> 00:35:44.320
 but sinner is what's just going on

00:35:44.320 --> 00:35:45.460
 deep inside us.

00:35:46.460 --> 00:35:47.120
 And he said hey

00:35:47.120 --> 00:35:48.320
 I know I messed up

00:35:48.320 --> 00:35:49.120
 here

00:35:49.120 --> 00:35:50.340
 but it's because

00:35:50.340 --> 00:35:51.120
 actually deep down

00:35:51.120 --> 00:35:51.579
 right now

00:35:51.579 --> 00:35:52.440
 there is so much sin

00:35:52.440 --> 00:35:52.840
 in me

00:35:52.840 --> 00:35:53.760
 I was brought forth

00:35:53.760 --> 00:35:54.940
 since the moment

00:35:54.940 --> 00:35:55.840
 I was born

00:35:55.840 --> 00:35:57.380
 I was a sinner.

00:35:57.740 --> 00:35:59.059
 You were born into sin.

00:35:59.120 --> 00:35:59.860
 I was born into sin

00:35:59.860 --> 00:36:00.599
 before I even came

00:36:00.599 --> 00:36:01.099
 into this world

00:36:01.099 --> 00:36:01.920
 I was a sinner

00:36:01.920 --> 00:36:02.480
 that's what David

00:36:02.480 --> 00:36:02.900
 was saying.

00:36:04.440 --> 00:36:05.300
 And I've said this before

00:36:05.300 --> 00:36:05.760
 I mean

00:36:05.760 --> 00:36:07.820
 we have a really cute baby

00:36:07.820 --> 00:36:08.740
 in our house right now

00:36:08.740 --> 00:36:08.980
 and there's

00:36:08.980 --> 00:36:09.860
 oh he's perfect

00:36:09.860 --> 00:36:10.700
 and I assure you

00:36:10.700 --> 00:36:11.599
 he is not perfect.

00:36:12.940 --> 00:36:15.159
 MJ is an incredibly

00:36:15.159 --> 00:36:16.519
 selfish sinner.

00:36:18.000 --> 00:36:18.940
 Babies are filled

00:36:18.940 --> 00:36:19.420
 with sin.

00:36:20.039 --> 00:36:20.360
 The moment

00:36:20.360 --> 00:36:20.880
 the kids

00:36:20.880 --> 00:36:22.400
 the moment they don't get

00:36:22.400 --> 00:36:23.360
 something that they don't want

00:36:23.360 --> 00:36:24.480
 they cry

00:36:24.480 --> 00:36:25.260
 they scream.

00:36:26.860 --> 00:36:27.340
 Selfishness

00:36:27.340 --> 00:36:27.920
 I tell you.

00:36:28.420 --> 00:36:28.900
 Sin.

00:36:28.900 --> 00:36:31.360
 Babies are not perfect.

00:36:33.079 --> 00:36:33.740
 Babies are not.

00:36:34.280 --> 00:36:35.400
 David recognizes that.

00:36:36.099 --> 00:36:36.320
 He's like

00:36:36.320 --> 00:36:37.559
 sin isn't something

00:36:37.559 --> 00:36:38.240
 that we do later

00:36:38.240 --> 00:36:39.099
 sin is something

00:36:39.099 --> 00:36:39.860
 that we're born with.

00:36:42.160 --> 00:36:43.160
 But then he kind of

00:36:43.160 --> 00:36:43.880
 turns a little bit.

00:36:44.440 --> 00:36:44.880
 Verse 6

00:36:44.880 --> 00:36:46.260
 Behold you delight in truth

00:36:46.260 --> 00:36:47.340
 in the inward being

00:36:47.340 --> 00:36:48.920
 and you teach me wisdom

00:36:48.920 --> 00:36:50.340
 in the secret heart.

00:36:52.139 --> 00:36:53.039
 What he's saying here

00:36:53.039 --> 00:36:53.660
 is this actually

00:36:53.660 --> 00:36:55.200
 even though there is sin

00:36:55.200 --> 00:36:56.559
 deep down inside us

00:36:56.559 --> 00:36:58.340
 God has a desire

00:36:58.340 --> 00:36:59.460
 to teach us truth

00:36:59.460 --> 00:37:01.059
 to teach us goodness.

00:37:03.220 --> 00:37:04.180
 But in order to

00:37:04.180 --> 00:37:05.260
 access that truth

00:37:05.260 --> 00:37:05.900
 and that goodness

00:37:05.900 --> 00:37:06.940
 we first have to acknowledge

00:37:06.940 --> 00:37:07.700
 that there is bad

00:37:07.700 --> 00:37:08.440
 inside us.

00:37:09.960 --> 00:37:11.059
 I told you about the book

00:37:11.059 --> 00:37:11.460
 I was reading

00:37:11.460 --> 00:37:12.320
 The Anxious Generation

00:37:12.320 --> 00:37:14.660
 just been on this journey

00:37:14.660 --> 00:37:14.960
 of just

00:37:14.960 --> 00:37:15.720
 and of course

00:37:15.720 --> 00:37:16.140
 I

00:37:16.140 --> 00:37:17.860
 because

00:37:17.860 --> 00:37:18.860
 that famous guy

00:37:18.860 --> 00:37:19.720
 that came through town

00:37:19.720 --> 00:37:20.720
 who has a lot of speed

00:37:20.720 --> 00:37:22.440
 comes through

00:37:22.440 --> 00:37:23.780
 I started watching

00:37:23.780 --> 00:37:26.480
 as an uncle

00:37:26.480 --> 00:37:27.140
 in this society

00:37:27.139 --> 00:37:27.920
 now I was googling

00:37:27.920 --> 00:37:28.719
 what's the big deal

00:37:28.719 --> 00:37:29.559
 about eye show speed

00:37:29.559 --> 00:37:31.299
 and I watch it

00:37:31.299 --> 00:37:31.699
 and I'm like

00:37:31.699 --> 00:37:33.139
 I am so confused.

00:37:34.779 --> 00:37:35.619
 I am just

00:37:35.619 --> 00:37:36.159
 gaps

00:37:36.159 --> 00:37:36.759
 no

00:37:36.759 --> 00:37:37.099
 nothing

00:37:37.099 --> 00:37:37.920
 you're just shaking your head

00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:39.079
 like you're confused too

00:37:39.079 --> 00:37:39.379
 okay

00:37:39.379 --> 00:37:40.199
 I'm just

00:37:40.199 --> 00:37:40.679
 I don't know

00:37:40.679 --> 00:37:41.719
 and then I look

00:37:41.719 --> 00:37:42.079
 and I'm like

00:37:42.079 --> 00:37:42.759
 oh man

00:37:42.759 --> 00:37:44.359
 the depravity

00:37:44.359 --> 00:37:46.259
 in our world

00:37:46.259 --> 00:37:46.899
 that we're chasing

00:37:46.899 --> 00:37:48.099
 after these kinds of things

00:37:48.099 --> 00:37:49.579
 well what is it

00:37:49.579 --> 00:37:50.299
 that we're even chasing

00:37:50.299 --> 00:37:50.879
 I don't know

00:37:50.879 --> 00:37:53.500
 and then I realize

00:37:53.500 --> 00:37:54.679
 and then I start saying

00:37:54.679 --> 00:37:55.859
 oh what has the world become

00:37:55.859 --> 00:37:57.539
 and then I watch

00:37:57.539 --> 00:37:58.239
 Gladiator 2

00:37:58.239 --> 00:37:59.279
 and then I'm like

00:37:59.279 --> 00:38:00.239
 oh the world's been pretty bad

00:38:00.239 --> 00:38:01.000
 for a long long time

00:38:01.000 --> 00:38:03.239
 it's not just now

00:38:03.239 --> 00:38:07.039
 we have to acknowledge

00:38:07.039 --> 00:38:08.059
 deep down in our hearts

00:38:08.059 --> 00:38:08.759
 there is something

00:38:08.759 --> 00:38:10.199
 that causes us

00:38:10.199 --> 00:38:10.899
 to mistrust God

00:38:10.899 --> 00:38:11.859
 to turn away from God

00:38:11.859 --> 00:38:12.579
 when we're called

00:38:12.579 --> 00:38:13.219
 to love others

00:38:13.219 --> 00:38:13.959
 we actually end up

00:38:13.959 --> 00:38:14.839
 just cheating on others

00:38:14.839 --> 00:38:16.119
 there's something

00:38:16.119 --> 00:38:16.679
 deep down

00:38:16.679 --> 00:38:17.399
 inside us

00:38:17.399 --> 00:38:18.159
 we were born

00:38:18.159 --> 00:38:19.319
 in sin

00:38:19.319 --> 00:38:20.379
 yet God desires

00:38:20.379 --> 00:38:21.259
 to teach us truth

00:38:21.259 --> 00:38:22.619
 not just on the surface

00:38:22.619 --> 00:38:23.599
 not just to modify

00:38:23.599 --> 00:38:24.219
 our behavior

00:38:24.219 --> 00:38:26.559
 but in our most

00:38:26.559 --> 00:38:27.319
 inward being

00:38:27.319 --> 00:38:28.159
 so we would know

00:38:28.159 --> 00:38:29.119
 we would have access

00:38:29.119 --> 00:38:29.979
 to the goodness

00:38:29.979 --> 00:38:30.819
 that will bring us

00:38:30.819 --> 00:38:31.319
 life

00:38:31.320 --> 00:38:32.400
 and not death

00:38:32.400 --> 00:38:35.100
 you delight in truth

00:38:35.100 --> 00:38:35.940
 in the inward being

00:38:35.940 --> 00:38:36.820
 and you teach me wisdom

00:38:36.820 --> 00:38:37.539
 in the secret heart

00:38:37.539 --> 00:38:37.940
 and then he says

00:38:37.940 --> 00:38:38.900
 purge me with hyssop

00:38:38.900 --> 00:38:40.019
 and I shall be clean

00:38:40.019 --> 00:38:40.820
 wash me

00:38:40.820 --> 00:38:42.140
 and I shall be whiter

00:38:42.140 --> 00:38:43.680
 than snow

00:38:43.680 --> 00:38:45.000
 I think that's fairly

00:38:45.000 --> 00:38:46.559
 understandable there

00:38:46.559 --> 00:38:46.860
 just

00:38:46.860 --> 00:38:48.960
 the more we sin

00:38:48.960 --> 00:38:49.920
 our garments

00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:50.940
 just get dirtier

00:38:50.940 --> 00:38:51.519
 and dirtier

00:38:51.519 --> 00:38:53.760
 and to the point where

00:38:53.760 --> 00:38:54.600
 you actually

00:38:54.600 --> 00:38:55.740
 it's very hard to clean

00:38:55.740 --> 00:38:58.000
 today

00:38:58.000 --> 00:38:59.320
 the t-shirt I'm wearing

00:38:59.320 --> 00:39:00.200
 is actually on the colorful

00:39:00.200 --> 00:39:00.900
 side for me

00:39:00.900 --> 00:39:01.880
 because you've probably

00:39:01.880 --> 00:39:02.619
 noticed that I wear

00:39:02.619 --> 00:39:03.539
 two colors when it comes

00:39:03.539 --> 00:39:03.920
 to t-shirts

00:39:03.920 --> 00:39:04.660
 black and white

00:39:04.660 --> 00:39:05.680
 that the black ones

00:39:05.680 --> 00:39:06.480
 are safe

00:39:06.480 --> 00:39:07.139
 but the white ones

00:39:07.139 --> 00:39:08.079
 my wife always laughs

00:39:08.079 --> 00:39:08.380
 at me

00:39:08.380 --> 00:39:09.519
 because every time

00:39:09.519 --> 00:39:09.980
 I go to eat

00:39:09.980 --> 00:39:11.539
 or anything

00:39:11.539 --> 00:39:12.800
 it's just another one

00:39:12.800 --> 00:39:13.420
 bites the dust

00:39:13.420 --> 00:39:14.400
 it's just

00:39:14.400 --> 00:39:14.920
 thank God

00:39:14.920 --> 00:39:15.460
 they're $99

00:39:15.460 --> 00:39:16.160
 from Uniqlo

00:39:16.160 --> 00:39:17.480
 but of course

00:39:17.480 --> 00:39:18.720
 then we invented

00:39:18.720 --> 00:39:19.420
 the pen

00:39:19.420 --> 00:39:20.820
 the Tide pen

00:39:20.820 --> 00:39:23.220
 we all need

00:39:23.220 --> 00:39:23.860
 a Tide pen

00:39:23.860 --> 00:39:24.579
 in our pockets

00:39:24.579 --> 00:39:27.760
 we can't clean

00:39:27.760 --> 00:39:28.619
 these things ourselves

00:39:28.619 --> 00:39:29.639
 we need an external

00:39:29.639 --> 00:39:30.400
 source to help us

00:39:30.400 --> 00:39:30.720
 clean

00:39:30.719 --> 00:39:33.059
 these stains

00:39:33.059 --> 00:39:33.539
 that we have

00:39:33.539 --> 00:39:35.019
 and then we will

00:39:35.019 --> 00:39:35.539
 be whiter

00:39:35.539 --> 00:39:36.439
 and then

00:39:36.439 --> 00:39:37.219
 verse 8

00:39:37.219 --> 00:39:38.539
 and then he's

00:39:38.539 --> 00:39:39.219
 starting to turn

00:39:39.219 --> 00:39:40.000
 and he's like

00:39:40.000 --> 00:39:40.839
 let me hear joy

00:39:40.839 --> 00:39:41.319
 and gladness

00:39:41.319 --> 00:39:42.199
 that the bones

00:39:42.199 --> 00:39:42.639
 that you have

00:39:42.639 --> 00:39:43.179
 broken

00:39:43.179 --> 00:39:44.259
 rejoice

00:39:44.259 --> 00:39:46.439
 he's like

00:39:46.439 --> 00:39:46.699
 whoa

00:39:46.699 --> 00:39:48.299
 God I am

00:39:48.299 --> 00:39:49.019
 just in despair

00:39:49.019 --> 00:39:49.819
 because of my sin

00:39:49.819 --> 00:39:51.259
 but let me hear joy

00:39:51.259 --> 00:39:51.919
 and gladness again

00:39:51.919 --> 00:39:52.659
 let the bones

00:39:52.659 --> 00:39:53.459
 you have broken

00:39:53.459 --> 00:39:53.779
 rejoice

00:39:53.779 --> 00:39:54.539
 this reminds me

00:39:54.539 --> 00:39:54.839
 that God

00:39:54.839 --> 00:39:55.519
 disciplines those

00:39:55.519 --> 00:39:55.879
 he loves

00:39:55.880 --> 00:39:57.599
 he's not

00:39:57.599 --> 00:39:58.039
 trying

00:39:58.039 --> 00:39:59.200
 when he

00:39:59.200 --> 00:39:59.980
 confronts us

00:39:59.980 --> 00:40:00.440
 with our sin

00:40:00.440 --> 00:40:01.019
 the whole point

00:40:01.019 --> 00:40:01.800
 isn't just to make

00:40:01.800 --> 00:40:02.640
 us feel terrible

00:40:02.640 --> 00:40:03.340
 it's actually

00:40:03.340 --> 00:40:04.140
 it's for reconciliation

00:40:04.140 --> 00:40:05.220
 it's to bring

00:40:05.220 --> 00:40:06.440
 just come back

00:40:06.440 --> 00:40:06.860
 to me

00:40:06.860 --> 00:40:07.980
 you've strayed

00:40:07.980 --> 00:40:08.780
 what you're doing

00:40:08.780 --> 00:40:09.640
 what you're relying on

00:40:09.640 --> 00:40:10.559
 that's not going to help you

00:40:10.559 --> 00:40:11.539
 you know it's not going to help you

00:40:11.539 --> 00:40:12.640
 because every time you go there

00:40:12.640 --> 00:40:13.240
 it doesn't help you

00:40:13.240 --> 00:40:14.220
 and it just makes things worse

00:40:14.220 --> 00:40:15.599
 come back to me

00:40:15.599 --> 00:40:17.679
 and so David's saying

00:40:17.679 --> 00:40:18.159
 yes

00:40:18.159 --> 00:40:19.420
 I want to hear joy

00:40:19.420 --> 00:40:20.440
 and gladness again

00:40:20.440 --> 00:40:22.259
 that season of me

00:40:22.259 --> 00:40:22.860
 covering up

00:40:22.860 --> 00:40:23.860
 was just so

00:40:23.860 --> 00:40:25.299
 just devastating

00:40:25.299 --> 00:40:26.099
 for my soul

00:40:26.099 --> 00:40:26.940
 I just want to

00:40:26.940 --> 00:40:27.980
 be experiencing

00:40:27.980 --> 00:40:28.900
 the joy and gladness again

00:40:28.900 --> 00:40:29.500
 let the bones

00:40:29.500 --> 00:40:30.460
 that you have broken

00:40:30.460 --> 00:40:31.299
 rejoice

00:40:31.299 --> 00:40:32.219
 again

00:40:32.219 --> 00:40:33.719
 you realize

00:40:33.719 --> 00:40:34.779
 when we confess

00:40:34.779 --> 00:40:35.739
 it's the freedom

00:40:35.739 --> 00:40:36.460
 that comes from it

00:40:36.460 --> 00:40:37.539
 that it's just the true joy

00:40:37.539 --> 00:40:38.839
 that he doesn't make us

00:40:38.839 --> 00:40:39.599
 feel any worse

00:40:39.599 --> 00:40:41.119
 but then he lifts us up

00:40:41.119 --> 00:40:42.900
 so why don't we do it

00:40:42.900 --> 00:40:43.940
 because we

00:40:43.940 --> 00:40:44.719
 we still have

00:40:44.719 --> 00:40:45.519
 the wrong perception

00:40:45.519 --> 00:40:46.360
 of who the father is

00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:46.980
 we think he's here

00:40:46.980 --> 00:40:47.679
 to punish us

00:40:47.679 --> 00:40:48.739
 when actually he's here

00:40:48.739 --> 00:40:49.340
 to forgive us

00:40:49.340 --> 00:40:50.059
 and to love us

00:40:50.059 --> 00:40:52.239
 and then he says this

00:40:52.239 --> 00:40:53.019
 and this is the famous one

00:40:53.019 --> 00:40:53.920
 well hide your face

00:40:53.920 --> 00:40:54.920
 from my sins

00:40:54.920 --> 00:40:55.599
 and blot out

00:40:55.599 --> 00:40:56.159
 all my iniquities

00:40:56.159 --> 00:40:56.679
 I'm going to come back

00:40:56.679 --> 00:40:57.179
 to that at the end

00:40:57.179 --> 00:40:58.280
 verse 10

00:40:58.280 --> 00:40:58.960
 create in me

00:40:58.960 --> 00:40:59.579
 a clean heart

00:40:59.579 --> 00:40:59.920
 oh God

00:40:59.920 --> 00:41:01.119
 and renew a right spirit

00:41:01.119 --> 00:41:02.259
 within me

00:41:02.259 --> 00:41:03.719
 create in me

00:41:03.719 --> 00:41:04.579
 a clean heart

00:41:04.579 --> 00:41:04.820
 oh God

00:41:04.820 --> 00:41:05.860
 and renew a right spirit

00:41:05.860 --> 00:41:06.400
 within me

00:41:06.400 --> 00:41:07.380
 this is

00:41:07.380 --> 00:41:07.739
 he's saying

00:41:07.739 --> 00:41:07.900
 hey

00:41:07.900 --> 00:41:09.280
 I need a factory reset

00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:09.739
 I need it

00:41:09.739 --> 00:41:10.759
 completely changed

00:41:10.759 --> 00:41:11.860
 this isn't just

00:41:11.860 --> 00:41:13.119
 edit your home screen

00:41:13.119 --> 00:41:14.440
 and try and tidy things up again

00:41:14.440 --> 00:41:14.940
 this is

00:41:14.940 --> 00:41:15.920
 I need to start the phone

00:41:15.920 --> 00:41:16.900
 all over again

00:41:16.900 --> 00:41:18.920
 and again

00:41:18.920 --> 00:41:19.460
 if you grew up

00:41:19.460 --> 00:41:20.000
 in the same area

00:41:20.000 --> 00:41:20.619
 as me

00:41:20.619 --> 00:41:21.280
 and you used something

00:41:21.280 --> 00:41:22.159
 like Windows 98

00:41:22.159 --> 00:41:22.659
 there was something

00:41:22.659 --> 00:41:24.220
 called disk defragmentation

00:41:24.220 --> 00:41:25.159
 yeah

00:41:25.159 --> 00:41:25.500
 yes

00:41:25.500 --> 00:41:26.179
 the older people

00:41:26.179 --> 00:41:26.639
 are just nodding

00:41:26.639 --> 00:41:26.840
 he's like

00:41:26.840 --> 00:41:27.260
 that's cool

00:41:27.260 --> 00:41:27.720
 and you just saw

00:41:27.720 --> 00:41:28.420
 the little jigsaw puzzle

00:41:28.420 --> 00:41:29.559
 for some reason

00:41:29.559 --> 00:41:30.179
 you know

00:41:30.179 --> 00:41:30.860
 that your computer

00:41:30.860 --> 00:41:31.400
 is messed up

00:41:31.400 --> 00:41:31.880
 and everything's

00:41:31.880 --> 00:41:32.440
 in the wrong place

00:41:32.440 --> 00:41:33.740
 and you press the defrag

00:41:33.740 --> 00:41:34.500
 and you just see

00:41:34.500 --> 00:41:35.079
 it just kind of like

00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:35.960
 tidying itself up

00:41:35.960 --> 00:41:36.500
 and you just feel

00:41:36.500 --> 00:41:37.179
 better for it

00:41:37.179 --> 00:41:38.860
 that's not what

00:41:38.860 --> 00:41:39.720
 David is asking for

00:41:39.720 --> 00:41:41.659
 David is saying

00:41:41.659 --> 00:41:42.379
 I need a new Mac

00:41:42.379 --> 00:41:46.179
 I need a completely new thing

00:41:46.179 --> 00:41:47.940
 because however much

00:41:47.940 --> 00:41:48.399
 I tidy

00:41:48.399 --> 00:41:49.659
 even if I use that

00:41:49.659 --> 00:41:50.339
 disk defrag

00:41:50.339 --> 00:41:51.099
 every day

00:41:51.099 --> 00:41:52.639
 the processor

00:41:52.639 --> 00:41:53.579
 is still slowing down

00:41:53.579 --> 00:41:54.819
 there is still sin

00:41:54.819 --> 00:41:56.319
 he's saying

00:41:56.319 --> 00:41:57.859
 I need a new one

00:41:57.859 --> 00:41:59.639
 renew a right spirit

00:41:59.639 --> 00:42:00.279
 within me

00:42:00.279 --> 00:42:00.940
 so he's not saying

00:42:00.940 --> 00:42:01.159
 hey

00:42:01.159 --> 00:42:02.259
 stop me from doing

00:42:02.259 --> 00:42:02.819
 that thing again

00:42:02.819 --> 00:42:03.839
 stop me from taking

00:42:03.839 --> 00:42:04.960
 someone else's wife again

00:42:04.960 --> 00:42:06.019
 stop me from lusting

00:42:06.019 --> 00:42:06.599
 after another woman

00:42:06.599 --> 00:42:07.219
 he's not saying that

00:42:07.219 --> 00:42:07.440
 he's saying

00:42:07.440 --> 00:42:08.359
 renew a right spirit

00:42:08.360 --> 00:42:08.800
 within me

00:42:08.800 --> 00:42:09.940
 change me from the

00:42:09.940 --> 00:42:11.140
 inside out

00:42:11.140 --> 00:42:12.840
 is what he's saying

00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:14.760
 this isn't behavior

00:42:14.760 --> 00:42:15.240
 modification

00:42:15.240 --> 00:42:16.680
 this is heart transformation

00:42:16.680 --> 00:42:18.500
 and now he starts

00:42:18.500 --> 00:42:19.620
 talking about the Holy Spirit

00:42:19.620 --> 00:42:20.860
 and he brings in

00:42:20.860 --> 00:42:21.380
 the Holy Spirit

00:42:21.380 --> 00:42:21.960
 because this is the

00:42:21.960 --> 00:42:22.680
 same Holy Spirit

00:42:22.680 --> 00:42:23.380
 in Genesis 1

00:42:23.380 --> 00:42:24.200
 that breathes life

00:42:24.200 --> 00:42:25.260
 into the world

00:42:25.260 --> 00:42:26.420
 this is the same

00:42:26.420 --> 00:42:26.880
 Holy Spirit

00:42:26.880 --> 00:42:27.579
 who looks at the

00:42:27.579 --> 00:42:28.920
 pile of dry bones

00:42:28.920 --> 00:42:29.960
 Ezekiel 37

00:42:29.960 --> 00:42:31.320
 and breathes it to life

00:42:31.320 --> 00:42:32.099
 it's the same one

00:42:32.099 --> 00:42:32.920
 as chapter 36

00:42:32.920 --> 00:42:33.440
 in Ezekiel

00:42:33.440 --> 00:42:34.200
 where actually

00:42:34.200 --> 00:42:35.340
 he removes your heart

00:42:35.340 --> 00:42:36.180
 of stone

00:42:36.180 --> 00:42:37.000
 and gives you

00:42:37.000 --> 00:42:37.720
 a heart of flesh

00:42:37.720 --> 00:42:38.039
 he's saying

00:42:38.039 --> 00:42:38.840
 that's all I want

00:42:38.840 --> 00:42:40.360
 I need that

00:42:40.360 --> 00:42:43.380
 I need a complete reset

00:42:43.380 --> 00:42:44.420
 I need everything

00:42:44.420 --> 00:42:45.099
 to be new

00:42:45.099 --> 00:42:45.659
 again

00:42:45.659 --> 00:42:46.779
 cast me not away

00:42:46.779 --> 00:42:47.420
 from your presence

00:42:47.420 --> 00:42:48.219
 and take not your

00:42:48.219 --> 00:42:48.820
 Holy Spirit

00:42:48.820 --> 00:42:49.699
 from me

00:42:49.699 --> 00:42:50.360
 I just want to be

00:42:50.360 --> 00:42:50.860
 close to you

00:42:50.860 --> 00:42:51.900
 I realize that my sin

00:42:51.900 --> 00:42:52.519
 what it did

00:42:52.519 --> 00:42:53.659
 as well

00:42:53.659 --> 00:42:54.420
 as well

00:42:54.420 --> 00:42:55.579
 as hurt other people

00:42:55.579 --> 00:42:56.840
 and caused destruction

00:42:56.840 --> 00:42:57.759
 and has consequences

00:42:57.759 --> 00:42:59.000
 it took me away

00:42:59.000 --> 00:42:59.420
 from you

00:42:59.420 --> 00:43:00.820
 he's probably got

00:43:00.820 --> 00:43:01.960
 Saul's experience

00:43:01.960 --> 00:43:03.019
 ringing in his ears

00:43:03.019 --> 00:43:03.719
 here

00:43:03.719 --> 00:43:05.159
 before he was king

00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:06.460
 how he even met Saul

00:43:06.460 --> 00:43:07.500
 was because the Holy Spirit

00:43:07.500 --> 00:43:08.519
 departed from Saul

00:43:08.519 --> 00:43:09.539
 do you remember that

00:43:09.539 --> 00:43:11.460
 and Saul was just a mess

00:43:11.460 --> 00:43:12.900
 and then they brought

00:43:12.900 --> 00:43:13.380
 this young man

00:43:13.380 --> 00:43:13.960
 to come and play him

00:43:13.960 --> 00:43:14.300
 the harp

00:43:14.300 --> 00:43:15.260
 to kind of calm him down

00:43:15.260 --> 00:43:16.500
 and he's saying

00:43:16.500 --> 00:43:16.980
 oh man

00:43:16.980 --> 00:43:18.340
 I've seen what it's like

00:43:18.340 --> 00:43:19.079
 when the Holy Spirit

00:43:19.079 --> 00:43:19.920
 leaves the king

00:43:19.920 --> 00:43:21.519
 I do not want that

00:43:21.519 --> 00:43:22.920
 God I want you

00:43:22.920 --> 00:43:23.900
 can you bring me

00:43:23.900 --> 00:43:25.340
 close to you again

00:43:25.340 --> 00:43:26.400
 something you can have to

00:43:26.400 --> 00:43:27.280
 notice about all of this

00:43:27.280 --> 00:43:28.760
 when David's asking for action

00:43:28.760 --> 00:43:30.039
 he's not asking for action

00:43:30.039 --> 00:43:30.539
 for himself

00:43:30.539 --> 00:43:31.179
 he's not saying

00:43:31.179 --> 00:43:32.079
 God tell me what to do

00:43:32.079 --> 00:43:33.239
 tell me how to make this right

00:43:33.239 --> 00:43:35.779
 one key thing about confession

00:43:35.779 --> 00:43:37.079
 is that it's not what we can do

00:43:37.079 --> 00:43:37.939
 to make things right

00:43:37.939 --> 00:43:39.019
 it's what God can do

00:43:39.019 --> 00:43:40.779
 that actually he's the one

00:43:40.779 --> 00:43:41.459
 who's going to give us

00:43:41.459 --> 00:43:42.339
 the new heart

00:43:42.339 --> 00:43:45.539
 it's him that's going to renew

00:43:45.539 --> 00:43:47.099
 the right spirit within us

00:43:47.099 --> 00:43:48.559
 so as a sinner

00:43:48.559 --> 00:43:49.659
 all we actually have to do

00:43:49.659 --> 00:43:50.599
 the only requirement

00:43:50.599 --> 00:43:51.419
 that the Bible tells us

00:43:51.419 --> 00:43:52.159
 is open up your hands

00:43:52.159 --> 00:43:52.959
 and open up your heart

00:43:52.959 --> 00:43:53.759
 and say create in me

00:43:53.759 --> 00:43:54.599
 a clean heart oh God

00:43:54.599 --> 00:43:56.219
 and renew a right spirit within me

00:43:56.219 --> 00:43:57.179
 cast me not away

00:43:57.179 --> 00:43:57.819
 from your presence

00:43:57.819 --> 00:43:59.119
 take not your Holy Spirit

00:43:59.119 --> 00:43:59.459
 from me

00:43:59.459 --> 00:44:00.219
 I just want you

00:44:00.219 --> 00:44:02.559
 only you can make this right

00:44:02.559 --> 00:44:04.139
 no one else

00:44:04.139 --> 00:44:04.820
 not even me

00:44:04.820 --> 00:44:08.279
 restore to me

00:44:08.279 --> 00:44:09.480
 the joy of your salvation

00:44:09.480 --> 00:44:10.360
 and uphold me

00:44:10.360 --> 00:44:11.219
 with a willing spirit

00:44:11.219 --> 00:44:12.019
 Lord I want this

00:44:12.019 --> 00:44:12.900
 have you been there

00:44:12.900 --> 00:44:14.039
 where you're just about to sin

00:44:14.039 --> 00:44:14.420
 you're like

00:44:14.420 --> 00:44:14.840
 God I

00:44:14.840 --> 00:44:18.659
 I really don't want to do this

00:44:18.659 --> 00:44:20.139
 I can't help it

00:44:20.139 --> 00:44:20.940
 I want to do it

00:44:20.940 --> 00:44:22.079
 or I know what I should do

00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:24.279
 but I can't do it

00:44:24.279 --> 00:44:25.599
 I just want that willing spirit

00:44:25.599 --> 00:44:27.019
 well you're in good company there

00:44:27.019 --> 00:44:28.340
 Romans 7

00:44:28.340 --> 00:44:28.900
 Paul says hey

00:44:28.900 --> 00:44:29.840
 that's me

00:44:29.840 --> 00:44:31.579
 what I know I should do

00:44:31.579 --> 00:44:31.960
 I don't do

00:44:31.960 --> 00:44:32.559
 and what I don't do

00:44:32.559 --> 00:44:32.960
 I should do

00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:34.199
 like Paul says that

00:44:34.199 --> 00:44:35.420
 what a wretched man I am

00:44:35.420 --> 00:44:36.760
 Jesus himself said

00:44:36.760 --> 00:44:37.699
 my spirit is willing

00:44:37.699 --> 00:44:39.320
 but my flesh is weak

00:44:39.320 --> 00:44:42.619
 uphold me with a willing spirit

00:44:42.619 --> 00:44:43.280
 restore to me

00:44:43.280 --> 00:44:44.480
 the joy of your salvation

00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:45.420
 do you know when you sin

00:44:45.420 --> 00:44:47.300
 do you know when I sin

00:44:47.300 --> 00:44:49.139
 it's because I've lost

00:44:49.139 --> 00:44:50.639
 the joy of my salvation

00:44:50.639 --> 00:44:53.280
 it's because I've lost sight of God

00:44:53.280 --> 00:44:54.260
 because I've lost sight

00:44:54.260 --> 00:44:55.199
 of how good he is

00:44:55.199 --> 00:44:57.179
 I've lost sight of how good he is to me

00:44:57.179 --> 00:44:58.260
 and when I lose sight

00:44:58.260 --> 00:44:59.099
 of how good he is to me

00:44:59.099 --> 00:45:00.159
 that's when I sin

00:45:00.159 --> 00:45:03.679
 David's saying

00:45:03.679 --> 00:45:04.379
 hey I sinned

00:45:04.379 --> 00:45:05.119
 because I completely

00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:06.059
 took my eyes off you

00:45:06.059 --> 00:45:08.000
 I took some time off work

00:45:08.000 --> 00:45:09.799
 and ended up leading me

00:45:09.799 --> 00:45:11.259
 to take my eyes off you

00:45:11.259 --> 00:45:12.460
 and that's what led me

00:45:12.460 --> 00:45:13.119
 down this road

00:45:13.119 --> 00:45:14.619
 and I forgot what it means

00:45:14.619 --> 00:45:15.319
 to be joy

00:45:15.319 --> 00:45:16.440
 filled with joy

00:45:16.440 --> 00:45:17.480
 because of what you did God

00:45:17.480 --> 00:45:18.519
 because of who you are

00:45:18.519 --> 00:45:20.259
 so he goes to him

00:45:20.259 --> 00:45:20.559
 and he goes

00:45:20.559 --> 00:45:20.920
 God

00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:22.960
 please let me

00:45:22.960 --> 00:45:24.579
 have that joy

00:45:24.579 --> 00:45:25.319
 back again

00:45:25.319 --> 00:45:26.639
 and then there's

00:45:26.639 --> 00:45:27.159
 a final part

00:45:27.159 --> 00:45:27.839
 see I'm two thirds

00:45:27.839 --> 00:45:28.239
 of the way through

00:45:28.239 --> 00:45:29.039
 just going through the Bible

00:45:29.039 --> 00:45:29.779
 how fun is that

00:45:29.779 --> 00:45:32.360
 he turns and he says

00:45:32.360 --> 00:45:33.500
 then I will teach transgressors

00:45:33.500 --> 00:45:33.900
 your ways

00:45:33.900 --> 00:45:35.460
 and sinners will return to you

00:45:35.460 --> 00:45:36.699
 so first he acknowledges

00:45:36.699 --> 00:45:37.759
 what he did

00:45:37.759 --> 00:45:39.940
 and after that

00:45:39.940 --> 00:45:41.619
 he then asks for action

00:45:41.619 --> 00:45:41.920
 and says

00:45:41.920 --> 00:45:42.900
 God can you do this

00:45:42.900 --> 00:45:45.579
 and then he goes

00:45:45.579 --> 00:45:45.840
 hey

00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:47.259
 do this for me

00:45:47.259 --> 00:45:48.920
 and I won't shut up

00:45:48.920 --> 00:45:50.199
 about what you've done for me

00:45:50.199 --> 00:45:53.599
 see when you confess your sins

00:45:53.599 --> 00:45:54.219
 when you

00:45:54.219 --> 00:45:55.940
 when you acknowledge what they are

00:45:55.940 --> 00:45:56.599
 when you articulate

00:45:56.599 --> 00:45:57.500
 what they are

00:45:57.500 --> 00:45:58.559
 when you share what they are

00:45:58.559 --> 00:45:59.340
 when you ask for action

00:45:59.340 --> 00:45:59.760
 from God

00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:00.760
 the next thing that you can do

00:46:00.760 --> 00:46:01.760
 is you can't help but announce

00:46:01.760 --> 00:46:02.539
 what he's done for you

00:46:02.539 --> 00:46:03.659
 that freedom

00:46:03.659 --> 00:46:05.039
 that's what comes in

00:46:05.039 --> 00:46:06.760
 he say hey

00:46:06.760 --> 00:46:08.539
 I am now qualified

00:46:08.539 --> 00:46:09.719
 to give a master class

00:46:09.719 --> 00:46:10.440
 in failure

00:46:10.440 --> 00:46:12.039
 I've done everything

00:46:12.039 --> 00:46:13.619
 murder

00:46:13.619 --> 00:46:14.099
 lust

00:46:14.099 --> 00:46:14.619
 deceit

00:46:14.619 --> 00:46:15.039
 everything

00:46:15.039 --> 00:46:16.260
 I've done it all

00:46:16.260 --> 00:46:17.059
 and here I am

00:46:17.059 --> 00:46:18.280
 and what I want to do now

00:46:18.280 --> 00:46:19.159
 is I want to tell people

00:46:19.159 --> 00:46:19.619
 about it

00:46:19.619 --> 00:46:21.500
 I hope that's what

00:46:21.500 --> 00:46:22.320
 separates us

00:46:22.320 --> 00:46:24.440
 as people in this world

00:46:24.440 --> 00:46:25.179
 that we are people

00:46:25.179 --> 00:46:26.219
 who are willing to acknowledge

00:46:26.219 --> 00:46:27.139
 that we mess up

00:46:27.139 --> 00:46:27.599
 we screw up

00:46:27.599 --> 00:46:28.319
 we make mistakes

00:46:28.319 --> 00:46:30.599
 that we share with the one

00:46:30.599 --> 00:46:31.259
 who actually helped

00:46:31.259 --> 00:46:32.419
 covered all those things

00:46:32.419 --> 00:46:32.759
 for us

00:46:32.759 --> 00:46:33.480
 and what he did

00:46:33.480 --> 00:46:34.859
 and then we just don't

00:46:34.859 --> 00:46:35.779
 stop talking about it

00:46:35.779 --> 00:46:37.359
 he says look

00:46:37.359 --> 00:46:38.159
 then I will teach

00:46:38.159 --> 00:46:39.059
 transgressors your ways

00:46:39.059 --> 00:46:40.379
 and sinners will return to you

00:46:40.379 --> 00:46:41.419
 deliver me from

00:46:41.419 --> 00:46:42.000
 but guiltiness

00:46:42.000 --> 00:46:42.339
 of God

00:46:42.339 --> 00:46:42.799
 of God

00:46:42.799 --> 00:46:43.399
 of my salvation

00:46:43.399 --> 00:46:44.039
 and my tongue

00:46:44.039 --> 00:46:44.819
 will sing aloud

00:46:44.819 --> 00:46:46.119
 of your righteousness

00:46:46.119 --> 00:46:47.399
 Lord open my lips

00:46:47.399 --> 00:46:48.739
 he's just saying

00:46:48.739 --> 00:46:49.659
 I will just keep

00:46:49.659 --> 00:46:51.079
 sharing about it

00:46:51.079 --> 00:46:51.940
 what is that

00:46:51.940 --> 00:46:53.059
 that is just the good news

00:46:53.059 --> 00:46:54.559
 that we

00:46:54.559 --> 00:46:55.719
 the bad news is

00:46:55.719 --> 00:46:56.440
 that we are dead

00:46:56.440 --> 00:46:57.460
 in our trespasses

00:46:57.460 --> 00:46:57.920
 and sins

00:46:57.920 --> 00:46:58.699
 that we were following

00:46:58.699 --> 00:46:59.599
 the course of this world

00:46:59.599 --> 00:47:01.239
 following the prince

00:47:01.239 --> 00:47:02.059
 of the power of the air

00:47:02.059 --> 00:47:04.480
 carrying out the desires

00:47:04.480 --> 00:47:05.099
 of our flesh

00:47:05.099 --> 00:47:07.139
 and by nature

00:47:07.139 --> 00:47:07.920
 children of wrath

00:47:07.920 --> 00:47:08.779
 but God

00:47:08.779 --> 00:47:09.659
 but God

00:47:09.659 --> 00:47:10.420
 but God

00:47:10.420 --> 00:47:11.380
 rich in mercy

00:47:11.380 --> 00:47:12.519
 because of the great love

00:47:12.519 --> 00:47:13.420
 which he had for us

00:47:13.420 --> 00:47:15.639
 made us alive together

00:47:15.639 --> 00:47:17.420
 if we truly believe

00:47:17.420 --> 00:47:19.000
 that passage

00:47:19.000 --> 00:47:20.779
 in Ephesians 2

00:47:20.779 --> 00:47:21.900
 we would not shut up

00:47:21.900 --> 00:47:22.340
 about it

00:47:22.340 --> 00:47:23.340
 every time

00:47:23.340 --> 00:47:24.640
 our friend

00:47:24.640 --> 00:47:25.280
 our family

00:47:25.280 --> 00:47:26.100
 our colleague

00:47:26.100 --> 00:47:26.940
 makes a mistake

00:47:26.940 --> 00:47:28.400
 I'd be right there

00:47:28.400 --> 00:47:28.760
 next to him

00:47:28.760 --> 00:47:28.940
 going

00:47:28.940 --> 00:47:29.880
 hey don't worry

00:47:29.880 --> 00:47:30.880
 you're a screw up

00:47:30.880 --> 00:47:32.019
 but so am I

00:47:32.019 --> 00:47:33.240
 but let me tell you

00:47:33.240 --> 00:47:33.800
 about Jesus

00:47:33.800 --> 00:47:36.100
 that's what David

00:47:36.100 --> 00:47:36.720
 is saying here

00:47:36.720 --> 00:47:38.760
 that's what we all

00:47:38.760 --> 00:47:39.559
 should be doing here

00:47:39.559 --> 00:47:41.079
 whenever we have

00:47:41.079 --> 00:47:41.740
 people around us

00:47:41.740 --> 00:47:41.960
 we're going

00:47:41.960 --> 00:47:42.360
 hey

00:47:42.360 --> 00:47:44.160
 you're bad

00:47:44.160 --> 00:47:44.680
 I'm bad

00:47:44.680 --> 00:47:45.420
 but tell you what

00:47:45.420 --> 00:47:46.519
 there's one who isn't bad

00:47:46.519 --> 00:47:49.120
 do we have that

00:47:49.120 --> 00:47:49.600
 kind of spirit

00:47:49.600 --> 00:47:50.240
 and I think you can

00:47:50.240 --> 00:47:50.960
 only have that kind

00:47:50.960 --> 00:47:51.280
 of spirit

00:47:51.280 --> 00:47:52.080
 when you go through

00:47:52.080 --> 00:47:52.540
 confession

00:47:52.540 --> 00:47:54.500
 Luke 7

00:47:54.500 --> 00:47:55.760
 talks about

00:47:55.760 --> 00:47:56.660
 those who are

00:47:56.660 --> 00:47:57.440
 forgiven much

00:47:57.440 --> 00:47:58.400
 love much

00:47:58.400 --> 00:48:00.380
 if you sit here

00:48:00.380 --> 00:48:00.820
 right now

00:48:00.820 --> 00:48:01.100
 and go

00:48:01.100 --> 00:48:01.580
 well James

00:48:01.580 --> 00:48:02.080
 I can't

00:48:02.080 --> 00:48:02.440
 I mean

00:48:02.440 --> 00:48:04.120
 I can't even think of

00:48:04.120 --> 00:48:05.060
 what I'm

00:48:05.060 --> 00:48:06.700
 what I've done wrong

00:48:06.700 --> 00:48:08.720
 I don't know

00:48:08.720 --> 00:48:09.600
 if I have anything

00:48:09.600 --> 00:48:10.220
 to confess

00:48:10.220 --> 00:48:13.140
 that just tells me

00:48:13.140 --> 00:48:13.540
 that actually

00:48:13.540 --> 00:48:14.620
 we've become so numb

00:48:14.620 --> 00:48:15.140
 to our own

00:48:15.140 --> 00:48:15.840
 self-centeredness

00:48:15.840 --> 00:48:17.140
 our own selfish desires

00:48:17.140 --> 00:48:17.860
 that we don't even

00:48:17.860 --> 00:48:19.660
 the only entry

00:48:19.660 --> 00:48:20.160
 requirement

00:48:20.160 --> 00:48:20.920
 to the kingdom

00:48:20.920 --> 00:48:21.300
 of God

00:48:21.300 --> 00:48:22.180
 seems to be

00:48:22.180 --> 00:48:22.700
 humility

00:48:22.700 --> 00:48:24.240
 seems to be

00:48:24.240 --> 00:48:25.180
 just this repentant

00:48:25.180 --> 00:48:25.640
 heart going

00:48:25.640 --> 00:48:25.960
 God

00:48:25.960 --> 00:48:26.500
 I am

00:48:26.500 --> 00:48:27.700
 messed up

00:48:27.700 --> 00:48:29.700
 and how do you

00:48:29.700 --> 00:48:30.539
 how do you get

00:48:30.539 --> 00:48:30.860
 through that

00:48:30.860 --> 00:48:31.740
 without confession

00:48:31.740 --> 00:48:34.280
 it's us going to God

00:48:34.280 --> 00:48:34.599
 and saying

00:48:34.599 --> 00:48:35.400
 God I am so

00:48:35.400 --> 00:48:36.079
 so

00:48:36.079 --> 00:48:36.860
 sorry

00:48:36.860 --> 00:48:37.559
 Henry Nouwen

00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:38.019
 says this

00:48:38.019 --> 00:48:38.760
 confession is the

00:48:38.760 --> 00:48:39.380
 way to freedom

00:48:39.380 --> 00:48:40.460
 it breaks the chains

00:48:40.460 --> 00:48:41.180
 of self-deception

00:48:41.180 --> 00:48:42.599
 and invites God's light

00:48:42.599 --> 00:48:43.460
 into our darkness

00:48:43.460 --> 00:48:45.280
 and you see

00:48:45.280 --> 00:48:45.800
 the moment

00:48:45.800 --> 00:48:46.460
 that confession

00:48:46.460 --> 00:48:46.840
 happens

00:48:46.840 --> 00:48:47.460
 that change

00:48:47.460 --> 00:48:47.900
 happens

00:48:47.900 --> 00:48:48.740
 man there is

00:48:48.740 --> 00:48:49.300
 transformation

00:48:49.300 --> 00:48:50.519
 Peter denied

00:48:50.519 --> 00:48:52.079
 Jesus three times

00:48:52.079 --> 00:48:52.860
 ends up being the one

00:48:52.860 --> 00:48:53.559
 that leads the church

00:48:53.559 --> 00:48:54.240
 Paul

00:48:54.240 --> 00:48:55.079
 goes around

00:48:55.079 --> 00:48:56.039
 killing Christians

00:48:56.039 --> 00:48:57.539
 and then ends up

00:48:57.539 --> 00:48:58.340
 making Christians

00:48:58.340 --> 00:48:59.940
 because of the

00:48:59.940 --> 00:49:00.500
 transformation

00:49:00.500 --> 00:49:02.639
 and they become

00:49:02.639 --> 00:49:03.019
 people who

00:49:03.019 --> 00:49:03.559
 announce

00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:04.639
 this good news

00:49:04.639 --> 00:49:05.659
 as well

00:49:05.659 --> 00:49:07.760
 and that carries

00:49:07.760 --> 00:49:08.300
 on here

00:49:08.300 --> 00:49:09.960
 verse 16

00:49:09.960 --> 00:49:10.500
 for you will not

00:49:10.500 --> 00:49:11.400
 delight in sacrifice

00:49:11.400 --> 00:49:12.099
 or I would give it

00:49:12.099 --> 00:49:12.699
 you will not be

00:49:12.699 --> 00:49:13.139
 pleased with the

00:49:13.139 --> 00:49:13.659
 burnt offering

00:49:13.659 --> 00:49:15.839
 have you done that

00:49:15.839 --> 00:49:17.599
 when you've messed up

00:49:17.599 --> 00:49:19.199
 and you've sinned

00:49:19.199 --> 00:49:20.719
 the next thing

00:49:20.719 --> 00:49:21.639
 you try and make up

00:49:21.639 --> 00:49:21.859
 for it

00:49:21.859 --> 00:49:22.420
 by doing lots

00:49:22.420 --> 00:49:23.139
 of different good things

00:49:23.139 --> 00:49:24.980
 oh man I'm such a sinner

00:49:24.980 --> 00:49:25.559
 you know what

00:49:25.559 --> 00:49:26.079
 I'm just going to

00:49:26.079 --> 00:49:27.139
 open up my Bible now

00:49:27.139 --> 00:49:28.699
 and then you

00:49:28.699 --> 00:49:29.339
 and then you read

00:49:29.339 --> 00:49:29.739
 Leviticus

00:49:29.739 --> 00:49:30.139
 and you're like

00:49:30.139 --> 00:49:31.000
 okay that didn't help

00:49:31.000 --> 00:49:33.539
 I think okay okay

00:49:33.539 --> 00:49:34.359
 I'm saying I need

00:49:34.359 --> 00:49:34.639
 to just

00:49:34.639 --> 00:49:35.480
 I need to

00:49:35.480 --> 00:49:36.259
 I just do it

00:49:36.259 --> 00:49:36.699
 go to church

00:49:36.699 --> 00:49:37.239
 I'll sit there

00:49:37.239 --> 00:49:37.879
 and I'll just

00:49:37.879 --> 00:49:39.400
 that'll help me feel better

00:49:39.400 --> 00:49:41.239
 or maybe I'll go

00:49:41.239 --> 00:49:42.159
 and do this good work

00:49:42.159 --> 00:49:42.639
 or maybe I'll give

00:49:42.639 --> 00:49:43.319
 this amount of money

00:49:43.319 --> 00:49:44.299
 and you realize

00:49:44.299 --> 00:49:44.920
 oh man

00:49:44.920 --> 00:49:47.079
 but if you do

00:49:47.079 --> 00:49:47.639
 all those things

00:49:47.639 --> 00:49:48.199
 but you

00:49:48.199 --> 00:49:51.279
 you don't confess

00:49:51.279 --> 00:49:53.960
 then it doesn't mean much

00:49:53.960 --> 00:49:54.879
 God's saying

00:49:54.879 --> 00:49:55.719
 hey you can come to me

00:49:55.719 --> 00:49:56.759
 with all your sacrifices

00:49:56.759 --> 00:49:57.519
 I don't delight

00:49:57.519 --> 00:49:58.339
 in the sacrifices

00:49:58.339 --> 00:49:59.839
 I'm not pleased

00:49:59.839 --> 00:50:00.719
 with your burnt offerings

00:50:00.719 --> 00:50:02.119
 verse 17 here

00:50:02.119 --> 00:50:02.719
 if there's a verse

00:50:02.719 --> 00:50:03.779
 you want to memorize

00:50:03.779 --> 00:50:05.079
 for this week

00:50:05.079 --> 00:50:06.279
 scripture club

00:50:06.280 --> 00:50:07.780
 the sacrifices

00:50:07.780 --> 00:50:08.180
 of God

00:50:08.180 --> 00:50:09.120
 are a broken spirit

00:50:09.120 --> 00:50:10.780
 a broken and contrite heart

00:50:10.780 --> 00:50:11.720
 oh God

00:50:11.720 --> 00:50:12.980
 you will not despise

00:50:12.980 --> 00:50:15.340
 that's all he asks

00:50:15.340 --> 00:50:17.120
 would you come to me

00:50:17.120 --> 00:50:18.600
 not with a broken

00:50:18.600 --> 00:50:19.400
 discouraged

00:50:19.400 --> 00:50:20.380
 defeated spirit

00:50:20.380 --> 00:50:21.720
 but with one

00:50:21.720 --> 00:50:22.320
 where the pride

00:50:22.320 --> 00:50:23.220
 is finally broken

00:50:23.220 --> 00:50:24.360
 where you

00:50:24.360 --> 00:50:25.260
 can finally admit

00:50:25.260 --> 00:50:26.240
 that you can't do this

00:50:26.240 --> 00:50:26.840
 on your own

00:50:26.840 --> 00:50:27.680
 is what it's saying

00:50:27.680 --> 00:50:29.680
 if you get to that point

00:50:29.680 --> 00:50:32.280
 God is just pleased

00:50:32.280 --> 00:50:34.800
 if you can get to that point

00:50:34.800 --> 00:50:35.060
 where you go

00:50:35.060 --> 00:50:36.220
 God I just need you

00:50:36.220 --> 00:50:37.080
 nothing else

00:50:37.080 --> 00:50:37.820
 I just need you

00:50:37.820 --> 00:50:38.920
 then he is pleased

00:50:38.920 --> 00:50:41.100
 and then he finishes

00:50:41.100 --> 00:50:41.519
 with this

00:50:41.519 --> 00:50:42.360
 do good to Zion

00:50:42.360 --> 00:50:43.080
 in your good pleasure

00:50:43.080 --> 00:50:43.900
 build up the walls

00:50:43.900 --> 00:50:44.420
 of Jerusalem

00:50:44.420 --> 00:50:45.700
 then you will delight

00:50:45.700 --> 00:50:46.700
 in right sacrifices

00:50:46.700 --> 00:50:47.460
 in burnt offerings

00:50:47.460 --> 00:50:48.240
 and whole burnt offerings

00:50:48.240 --> 00:50:48.980
 then bulls will be

00:50:48.980 --> 00:50:49.800
 offered on your altar

00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:52.540
 what David is saying here

00:50:52.540 --> 00:50:52.940
 is that just

00:50:52.940 --> 00:50:53.980
 just completely

00:50:53.980 --> 00:50:55.019
 tear away everything

00:50:55.019 --> 00:50:55.420
 Lord

00:50:55.420 --> 00:50:57.040
 you clearly are

00:50:57.040 --> 00:50:57.560
 confronting me

00:50:57.560 --> 00:50:58.360
 through Nathan already

00:50:58.360 --> 00:50:59.380
 you're breaking down

00:50:59.380 --> 00:50:59.880
 all my walls

00:50:59.880 --> 00:51:00.900
 just build it up again

00:51:00.900 --> 00:51:01.519
 start again

00:51:01.519 --> 00:51:03.559
 and what he's actually saying

00:51:03.559 --> 00:51:04.659
 is actually build it up

00:51:04.659 --> 00:51:05.900
 that when you confess

00:51:05.900 --> 00:51:06.659
 what it does lead to

00:51:06.659 --> 00:51:07.239
 is transformation

00:51:07.239 --> 00:51:07.699
 and ultimately

00:51:07.699 --> 00:51:08.440
 it leads to renewal

00:51:08.440 --> 00:51:10.000
 that your life

00:51:10.000 --> 00:51:10.619
 will be built up

00:51:10.619 --> 00:51:11.280
 in a different way

00:51:11.280 --> 00:51:12.360
 that there will be

00:51:12.360 --> 00:51:13.539
 goodness that is on display

00:51:13.539 --> 00:51:14.880
 for all to see

00:51:14.880 --> 00:51:16.519
 Augustine says this

00:51:16.519 --> 00:51:17.059
 too narrow

00:51:17.059 --> 00:51:18.480
 is the house of my soul

00:51:18.480 --> 00:51:19.280
 for you to enter

00:51:19.280 --> 00:51:20.880
 let it be enlarged by you

00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:21.800
 it lies in ruins

00:51:21.800 --> 00:51:23.280
 build it up again

00:51:23.280 --> 00:51:23.900
 and of course

00:51:23.900 --> 00:51:25.039
 Augustine is most famous

00:51:25.039 --> 00:51:25.500
 for his book

00:51:25.500 --> 00:51:26.000
 Confessions

00:51:26.000 --> 00:51:27.179
 what he's saying is

00:51:27.179 --> 00:51:28.019
 when we confess

00:51:28.019 --> 00:51:29.280
 we basically acknowledge

00:51:29.280 --> 00:51:30.199
 that actually our hearts

00:51:30.199 --> 00:51:31.119
 are simply too small

00:51:31.119 --> 00:51:31.739
 and too sinful

00:51:31.739 --> 00:51:33.159
 to even contain God

00:51:33.159 --> 00:51:34.679
 and so when we confess

00:51:34.679 --> 00:51:34.960
 we're saying

00:51:34.960 --> 00:51:35.259
 God

00:51:35.259 --> 00:51:36.980
 I want you here

00:51:36.980 --> 00:51:38.619
 but I need you

00:51:38.619 --> 00:51:39.579
 to enlarge this heart

00:51:39.579 --> 00:51:40.719
 so you can actually be here

00:51:40.719 --> 00:51:42.099
 I'm trying to make room

00:51:42.099 --> 00:51:42.779
 for you

00:51:42.779 --> 00:51:43.219
 so would you

00:51:43.219 --> 00:51:44.739
 it lies in ruins already

00:51:44.739 --> 00:51:45.339
 so would you just

00:51:45.339 --> 00:51:46.059
 clear it all out

00:51:46.059 --> 00:51:46.759
 and start again

00:51:46.759 --> 00:51:48.119
 and build up a new Jerusalem

00:51:48.119 --> 00:51:48.679
 within me

00:51:48.679 --> 00:51:49.659
 so that I can be

00:51:49.659 --> 00:51:50.440
 your dwelling place

00:51:50.440 --> 00:51:52.079
 that's what he's saying

00:51:52.079 --> 00:51:54.980
 are we willing

00:51:54.980 --> 00:51:55.719
 to take that journey

00:51:55.719 --> 00:51:56.480
 that Psalm 51

00:51:56.480 --> 00:51:57.519
 has just taken us on

00:51:57.519 --> 00:51:58.880
 from acknowledging

00:51:58.880 --> 00:52:00.119
 calling out our own sin

00:52:00.119 --> 00:52:01.460
 to recognizing

00:52:01.460 --> 00:52:02.159
 that it's not just

00:52:02.159 --> 00:52:02.559
 the action

00:52:02.559 --> 00:52:03.279
 but it's deeper

00:52:03.279 --> 00:52:04.199
 it's deep within

00:52:04.199 --> 00:52:05.500
 to rejoicing

00:52:05.500 --> 00:52:06.880
 when he disciplines us

00:52:06.880 --> 00:52:07.279
 because we know

00:52:07.279 --> 00:52:08.259
 that he's doing it

00:52:08.259 --> 00:52:08.880
 for our good

00:52:08.880 --> 00:52:10.259
 because we know

00:52:10.259 --> 00:52:11.219
 the sins that we've chosen

00:52:11.219 --> 00:52:12.980
 aren't leading to life

00:52:12.980 --> 00:52:13.579
 and peace

00:52:13.579 --> 00:52:14.480
 they're leading to death

00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:17.259
 and then

00:52:17.259 --> 00:52:18.400
 after that

00:52:18.400 --> 00:52:19.400
 when we receive

00:52:19.400 --> 00:52:20.900
 that love and mercy

00:52:20.900 --> 00:52:22.420
 when we're transformed

00:52:22.420 --> 00:52:22.819
 by it

00:52:22.819 --> 00:52:23.480
 then we can't help

00:52:23.480 --> 00:52:24.119
 but announce it

00:52:24.119 --> 00:52:25.179
 and God will then

00:52:25.179 --> 00:52:26.039
 use all of that

00:52:26.039 --> 00:52:26.900
 to build

00:52:26.900 --> 00:52:28.559
 something new

00:52:28.559 --> 00:52:29.840
 inside us

00:52:29.840 --> 00:52:32.119
 hide your face

00:52:32.119 --> 00:52:32.880
 from my sins

00:52:32.880 --> 00:52:33.539
 and blot out

00:52:33.539 --> 00:52:34.780
 all my

00:52:34.780 --> 00:52:35.860
 iniquities

00:52:35.860 --> 00:52:37.639
 why do we not

00:52:37.639 --> 00:52:38.280
 need sacrifice

00:52:38.280 --> 00:52:38.820
 anymore

00:52:38.820 --> 00:52:40.200
 why does he say

00:52:40.200 --> 00:52:40.860
 I don't delight

00:52:40.860 --> 00:52:41.720
 in these sacrifices

00:52:41.720 --> 00:52:43.320
 it's because

00:52:43.320 --> 00:52:44.200
 he's like

00:52:44.200 --> 00:52:44.860
 that's not enough

00:52:44.860 --> 00:52:46.840
 you won't be able

00:52:46.840 --> 00:52:47.460
 to do it

00:52:47.460 --> 00:52:49.200
 your attempts

00:52:49.200 --> 00:52:49.599
 are flawed

00:52:49.599 --> 00:52:50.519
 because you are flawed

00:52:50.519 --> 00:52:53.180
 but ultimately

00:52:53.180 --> 00:52:54.160
 there was one sacrifice

00:52:54.159 --> 00:52:54.940
 and I told you

00:52:54.940 --> 00:52:55.279
 I've been going

00:52:55.279 --> 00:52:55.759
 through Hebrews

00:52:55.759 --> 00:52:57.599
 during my Lenten period

00:52:57.599 --> 00:52:59.480
 just talks about

00:52:59.480 --> 00:52:59.980
 the high priest

00:52:59.980 --> 00:53:00.539
 and then it talks

00:53:00.539 --> 00:53:01.219
 about the great

00:53:01.219 --> 00:53:01.779
 high priest

00:53:01.779 --> 00:53:03.440
 the one who was

00:53:03.440 --> 00:53:04.000
 without sin

00:53:04.000 --> 00:53:04.579
 who was tempted

00:53:04.579 --> 00:53:05.319
 in every way

00:53:05.319 --> 00:53:06.480
 who sympathized

00:53:06.480 --> 00:53:07.059
 with our weaknesses

00:53:07.059 --> 00:53:09.480
 and once and for all

00:53:09.480 --> 00:53:11.139
 paid the price

00:53:11.139 --> 00:53:11.739
 for us

00:53:11.739 --> 00:53:12.519
 that's why we don't

00:53:12.519 --> 00:53:12.960
 need to do

00:53:12.960 --> 00:53:13.739
 any more sacrifices

00:53:13.739 --> 00:53:14.719
 that's why you doing

00:53:14.719 --> 00:53:15.440
 all the things

00:53:15.440 --> 00:53:15.879
 that you think

00:53:15.879 --> 00:53:16.559
 you're trying to do

00:53:16.559 --> 00:53:17.679
 to redeem for your sin

00:53:17.679 --> 00:53:18.599
 won't work

00:53:18.599 --> 00:53:19.359
 doesn't need it

00:53:19.359 --> 00:53:20.099
 we don't need it

00:53:20.099 --> 00:53:20.420
 to work

00:53:20.420 --> 00:53:21.739
 because the thing

00:53:21.739 --> 00:53:22.379
 that needs to be done

00:53:22.379 --> 00:53:23.219
 has already been done

00:53:23.219 --> 00:53:24.559
 Jesus came

00:53:24.559 --> 00:53:26.319
 Jesus died

00:53:26.319 --> 00:53:28.219
 Jesus paid the price

00:53:28.219 --> 00:53:30.079
 he says

00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:30.899
 hide your face

00:53:30.899 --> 00:53:31.179
 from me

00:53:31.179 --> 00:53:31.359
 I mean

00:53:31.359 --> 00:53:32.699
 isn't that imagery

00:53:32.699 --> 00:53:33.439
 just quite interesting

00:53:33.439 --> 00:53:34.419
 hide your face

00:53:34.419 --> 00:53:35.079
 from my sins

00:53:35.079 --> 00:53:35.719
 well he already

00:53:35.719 --> 00:53:36.179
 did that

00:53:36.179 --> 00:53:38.139
 he already did that

00:53:38.139 --> 00:53:39.019
 when he hid his face

00:53:39.019 --> 00:53:39.799
 from Jesus

00:53:39.799 --> 00:53:42.399
 why did Jesus

00:53:42.399 --> 00:53:43.179
 on the cross

00:53:43.179 --> 00:53:43.459
 say

00:53:43.459 --> 00:53:44.079
 my God

00:53:44.079 --> 00:53:45.139
 my God

00:53:45.139 --> 00:53:46.419
 why have you

00:53:46.419 --> 00:53:47.199
 forsaken me

00:53:47.199 --> 00:53:48.959
 it's because

00:53:48.959 --> 00:53:49.539
 he took on

00:53:49.539 --> 00:53:50.139
 the sins

00:53:50.139 --> 00:53:50.959
 of the world

00:53:50.959 --> 00:53:51.819
 my sin

00:53:51.819 --> 00:53:52.419
 your sin

00:53:52.420 --> 00:53:53.400
 he took it on

00:53:53.400 --> 00:53:54.180
 and God

00:53:54.180 --> 00:53:54.760
 couldn't look

00:53:54.760 --> 00:53:55.119
 at Jesus

00:53:55.119 --> 00:53:55.460
 anymore

00:53:55.460 --> 00:53:56.039
 because he was

00:53:56.039 --> 00:53:57.139
 following what

00:53:57.139 --> 00:53:58.159
 David was saying

00:53:58.159 --> 00:53:58.420
 here

00:53:58.420 --> 00:53:59.500
 hide your face

00:53:59.500 --> 00:53:59.700
 from me

00:53:59.700 --> 00:54:00.200
 don't look

00:54:00.200 --> 00:54:01.000
 at my sin

00:54:01.000 --> 00:54:03.420
 and the cost

00:54:03.420 --> 00:54:03.700
 of that

00:54:03.700 --> 00:54:04.039
 was that

00:54:04.039 --> 00:54:04.300
 God

00:54:04.300 --> 00:54:04.720
 couldn't look

00:54:04.720 --> 00:54:05.079
 at his own

00:54:05.079 --> 00:54:05.300
 son

00:54:05.300 --> 00:54:08.599
 Jesus

00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:09.480
 taking on

00:54:09.480 --> 00:54:09.760
 that

00:54:09.760 --> 00:54:13.200
 right into

00:54:13.200 --> 00:54:13.579
 the grave

00:54:13.579 --> 00:54:15.460
 and now

00:54:15.460 --> 00:54:16.300
 because of

00:54:16.300 --> 00:54:16.559
 that

00:54:16.559 --> 00:54:18.340
 if anyone

00:54:18.340 --> 00:54:18.680
 is in

00:54:18.680 --> 00:54:19.000
 Christ

00:54:19.000 --> 00:54:20.700
 he is a

00:54:20.700 --> 00:54:21.220
 new creation

00:54:21.219 --> 00:54:22.959
 you have

00:54:22.959 --> 00:54:23.159
 a new

00:54:23.159 --> 00:54:23.459
 heart

00:54:23.459 --> 00:54:24.519
 you have

00:54:24.519 --> 00:54:24.699
 a new

00:54:24.699 --> 00:54:25.000
 spirit

00:54:25.000 --> 00:54:27.359
 the same

00:54:27.359 --> 00:54:27.679
 Christ

00:54:27.679 --> 00:54:28.059
 that died

00:54:28.059 --> 00:54:28.379
 and rose

00:54:28.379 --> 00:54:28.619
 again

00:54:28.619 --> 00:54:28.959
 is now

00:54:28.959 --> 00:54:29.319
 the same

00:54:29.319 --> 00:54:29.559
 Christ

00:54:29.559 --> 00:54:29.980
 that lives

00:54:29.980 --> 00:54:30.519
 inside

00:54:30.519 --> 00:54:31.319
 you

00:54:31.319 --> 00:54:32.839
 and I'll

00:54:32.839 --> 00:54:33.219
 finish with

00:54:33.219 --> 00:54:33.539
 this one

00:54:33.539 --> 00:54:33.799
 John

00:54:33.799 --> 00:54:34.299
 says this

00:54:34.299 --> 00:54:34.599
 if we

00:54:34.599 --> 00:54:35.039
 confess

00:54:35.039 --> 00:54:35.699
 our sins

00:54:35.699 --> 00:54:36.719
 he is

00:54:36.719 --> 00:54:37.079
 faithful

00:54:37.079 --> 00:54:37.799
 and just

00:54:37.799 --> 00:54:38.199
 to forgive

00:54:38.199 --> 00:54:38.599
 our sins

00:54:38.599 --> 00:54:38.939
 and to

00:54:38.939 --> 00:54:39.199
 cleanse

00:54:39.199 --> 00:54:39.559
 us from

00:54:39.559 --> 00:54:39.899
 all

00:54:39.899 --> 00:54:40.879
 unrighteousness

00:54:40.879 --> 00:54:42.399
 do you get

00:54:42.399 --> 00:54:42.539
 it

00:54:42.539 --> 00:54:43.059
 Psalm 51

00:54:43.059 --> 00:54:43.399
 is not

00:54:43.399 --> 00:54:43.619
 about

00:54:43.619 --> 00:54:44.000
 how we

00:54:44.000 --> 00:54:44.219
 mess

00:54:44.219 --> 00:54:44.399
 up

00:54:44.400 --> 00:54:47.180
 it's

00:54:47.180 --> 00:54:47.440
 there

00:54:47.440 --> 00:54:47.720
 because

00:54:47.720 --> 00:54:47.920
 it's

00:54:47.920 --> 00:54:48.200
 showing

00:54:48.200 --> 00:54:48.380
 us

00:54:48.380 --> 00:54:48.519
 that

00:54:48.519 --> 00:54:48.820
 even

00:54:48.820 --> 00:54:49.059
 when

00:54:49.059 --> 00:54:49.200
 we

00:54:49.200 --> 00:54:49.420
 mess

00:54:49.420 --> 00:54:49.559
 up

00:54:49.559 --> 00:54:51.220
 there

00:54:51.220 --> 00:54:51.360
 is

00:54:51.360 --> 00:54:51.480
 a

00:54:51.480 --> 00:54:51.660
 God

00:54:51.660 --> 00:54:51.800
 who

00:54:51.800 --> 00:54:51.940
 is

00:54:51.940 --> 00:54:52.280
 gracious

00:54:52.280 --> 00:54:52.559
 and

00:54:52.559 --> 00:54:53.059
 compassionate

00:54:53.059 --> 00:54:54.220
 abounding

00:54:54.220 --> 00:54:54.800
 in steadfast

00:54:54.800 --> 00:54:55.139
 love

00:54:55.139 --> 00:54:56.059
 slow

00:54:56.059 --> 00:54:56.400
 to

00:54:56.400 --> 00:54:56.820
 anger

00:54:56.820 --> 00:54:58.820
 and we

00:54:58.820 --> 00:54:59.099
 can go

00:54:59.099 --> 00:54:59.480
 to him

00:54:59.480 --> 00:55:01.940
 and we

00:55:01.940 --> 00:55:02.579
 can confess

00:55:02.579 --> 00:55:03.000
 to him

00:55:03.000 --> 00:55:03.519
 and it's

00:55:03.519 --> 00:55:03.940
 through that

00:55:03.940 --> 00:55:04.360
 confession

00:55:04.360 --> 00:55:04.840
 we will

00:55:04.840 --> 00:55:05.099
 have

00:55:05.099 --> 00:55:05.440
 freedom

00:55:05.440 --> 00:55:08.000
 now there

00:55:08.000 --> 00:55:08.300
 were a few

00:55:08.300 --> 00:55:08.680
 ways that

00:55:08.680 --> 00:55:08.880
 I was

00:55:08.880 --> 00:55:09.079
 wondering

00:55:09.079 --> 00:55:10.000
 where we

00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:10.320
 could go

00:55:10.320 --> 00:55:10.559
 with this

00:55:10.559 --> 00:55:10.800
 we could

00:55:10.800 --> 00:55:11.220
 turn around

00:55:11.220 --> 00:55:11.619
 now and

00:55:11.619 --> 00:55:12.180
 just confess

00:55:12.180 --> 00:55:12.619
 all of our

00:55:12.619 --> 00:55:12.860
 sins

00:55:12.860 --> 00:55:13.460
 to one

00:55:13.460 --> 00:55:13.720
 another

00:55:13.720 --> 00:55:14.539
 but

00:55:14.539 --> 00:55:15.740
 ideally

00:55:15.740 --> 00:55:16.079
 we do

00:55:16.079 --> 00:55:16.340
 that with

00:55:16.340 --> 00:55:16.820
 people who

00:55:16.820 --> 00:55:17.500
 we know

00:55:17.500 --> 00:55:17.880
 and who

00:55:17.880 --> 00:55:18.140
 we love

00:55:18.140 --> 00:55:18.280
 us

00:55:18.280 --> 00:55:18.700
 and maybe

00:55:18.700 --> 00:55:19.120
 within our

00:55:19.120 --> 00:55:19.579
 life groups

00:55:19.579 --> 00:55:20.860
 and right

00:55:20.860 --> 00:55:21.180
 now you're

00:55:21.180 --> 00:55:21.480
 probably sat

00:55:21.480 --> 00:55:21.800
 to someone

00:55:21.800 --> 00:55:22.059
 who you

00:55:22.059 --> 00:55:22.340
 don't even

00:55:22.340 --> 00:55:22.620
 know their

00:55:22.620 --> 00:55:22.800
 name

00:55:22.800 --> 00:55:24.160
 which is a

00:55:24.160 --> 00:55:25.260
 different devastating

00:55:25.260 --> 00:55:25.840
 value by the way

00:55:25.840 --> 00:55:26.220
 can you make

00:55:26.220 --> 00:55:26.620
 sure you know

00:55:26.620 --> 00:55:27.059
 the person's

00:55:27.059 --> 00:55:27.740
 name that

00:55:27.740 --> 00:55:28.000
 you're sat

00:55:28.000 --> 00:55:28.360
 next to

00:55:28.360 --> 00:55:30.820
 yes

00:55:30.820 --> 00:55:31.240
 Mark

00:55:31.240 --> 00:55:31.559
 Veronica

00:55:31.559 --> 00:55:31.900
 Veronica

00:55:31.900 --> 00:55:32.300
 Mark

00:55:32.300 --> 00:55:38.000
 but it'll be

00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:38.519
 wrong for us

00:55:38.519 --> 00:55:39.019
 to not spend

00:55:39.019 --> 00:55:39.559
 some time

00:55:39.559 --> 00:55:41.700
 maybe short

00:55:41.700 --> 00:55:42.599
 of confession

00:55:42.599 --> 00:55:44.259
 can we

00:55:44.259 --> 00:55:44.659
 at least

00:55:44.659 --> 00:55:45.679
 follow the

00:55:45.679 --> 00:55:45.980
 Catholics

00:55:45.980 --> 00:55:46.420
 in another

00:55:46.420 --> 00:55:46.860
 thing that

00:55:46.860 --> 00:55:47.159
 they do

00:55:47.159 --> 00:55:47.819
 so so well

00:55:47.819 --> 00:55:48.860
 which is

00:55:48.860 --> 00:55:49.199
 examine

00:55:49.199 --> 00:55:52.219
 Psalm 139

00:55:52.219 --> 00:55:52.639
 says this

00:55:52.639 --> 00:55:53.619
 search my

00:55:53.619 --> 00:55:53.980
 heart oh

00:55:53.980 --> 00:55:54.159
 God

00:55:54.159 --> 00:55:54.819
 test my

00:55:54.819 --> 00:55:55.119
 thoughts

00:55:55.119 --> 00:55:55.460
 see if

00:55:55.460 --> 00:55:55.719
 there is

00:55:55.719 --> 00:55:56.199
 anything

00:55:56.199 --> 00:55:58.719
 anxious

00:55:58.719 --> 00:55:59.059
 anything

00:55:59.059 --> 00:55:59.480
 offensive

00:55:59.480 --> 00:55:59.960
 in me

00:55:59.960 --> 00:56:01.360
 do you

00:56:01.360 --> 00:56:01.779
 realize that

00:56:01.779 --> 00:56:02.259
 you don't

00:56:02.259 --> 00:56:03.039
 know your

00:56:03.039 --> 00:56:03.480
 own sin

00:56:03.480 --> 00:56:05.500
 I had a

00:56:05.500 --> 00:56:05.779
 friend who

00:56:05.779 --> 00:56:06.079
 recently

00:56:06.079 --> 00:56:06.440
 sadly

00:56:06.440 --> 00:56:07.659
 realized that

00:56:07.659 --> 00:56:08.699
 they have

00:56:08.699 --> 00:56:09.019
 a tumor

00:56:09.019 --> 00:56:09.619
 growing inside

00:56:09.619 --> 00:56:09.880
 them

00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:12.079
 the only

00:56:12.079 --> 00:56:12.420
 way we

00:56:12.420 --> 00:56:12.920
 find out

00:56:12.920 --> 00:56:13.220
 those things

00:56:13.220 --> 00:56:13.579
 is if we

00:56:13.579 --> 00:56:15.260
 go to a

00:56:15.260 --> 00:56:15.760
 doctor and

00:56:15.760 --> 00:56:16.160
 get the

00:56:16.160 --> 00:56:17.599
 scan to

00:56:17.599 --> 00:56:18.360
 see inside

00:56:18.360 --> 00:56:18.900
 what's going

00:56:18.900 --> 00:56:20.220
 on you

00:56:20.220 --> 00:56:20.760
 can't do it

00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:21.220
 yourself you

00:56:21.220 --> 00:56:21.760
 can't find

00:56:21.760 --> 00:56:22.340
 your tumor by

00:56:22.340 --> 00:56:22.760
 just looking

00:56:22.760 --> 00:56:23.160
 and staring

00:56:23.160 --> 00:56:23.619
 in the mirror

00:56:23.619 --> 00:56:26.220
 you need to

00:56:26.220 --> 00:56:26.800
 go to the

00:56:26.800 --> 00:56:27.940
 doctor to

00:56:27.940 --> 00:56:28.260
 get that

00:56:28.260 --> 00:56:28.820
 scan and

00:56:28.820 --> 00:56:29.240
 so Psalm

00:56:29.240 --> 00:56:30.539
 139 is

00:56:30.539 --> 00:56:31.079
 that God

00:56:31.079 --> 00:56:31.599
 you are the

00:56:31.599 --> 00:56:32.200
 great physician

00:56:32.200 --> 00:56:32.599
 would you

00:56:32.599 --> 00:56:33.099
 search and

00:56:33.099 --> 00:56:33.340
 would you

00:56:33.340 --> 00:56:34.019
 scan me

00:56:34.019 --> 00:56:35.599
 what is in

00:56:35.599 --> 00:56:36.400
 me in my

00:56:36.400 --> 00:56:36.940
 heart in the

00:56:36.940 --> 00:56:37.619
 very depths of

00:56:37.619 --> 00:56:38.220
 my heart since

00:56:38.220 --> 00:56:38.820
 the moment I

00:56:38.820 --> 00:56:39.340
 was born

00:56:39.340 --> 00:56:40.900
 that mistrust

00:56:40.900 --> 00:56:41.400
 of you that

00:56:41.400 --> 00:56:41.960
 mistrust of

00:56:41.960 --> 00:56:42.480
 other people

00:56:42.480 --> 00:56:44.360
 that I need

00:56:44.360 --> 00:56:44.760
 to bring to

00:56:44.760 --> 00:56:45.260
 the surface

00:56:45.260 --> 00:56:46.220
 and recognizing

00:56:46.220 --> 00:56:46.700
 that I can't

00:56:46.700 --> 00:56:46.960
 really do

00:56:46.960 --> 00:56:47.400
 anything about

00:56:47.400 --> 00:56:47.660
 it God

00:56:47.660 --> 00:56:49.180
 but you

00:56:49.180 --> 00:56:49.400
 can

00:56:49.400 --> 00:56:50.200
 would you

00:56:50.200 --> 00:56:50.680
 create in

00:56:50.680 --> 00:56:51.380
 me a

00:56:51.380 --> 00:56:51.559
 clean

00:56:51.559 --> 00:56:51.760
 heart

00:56:51.760 --> 00:56:51.940
 God

00:56:51.940 --> 00:56:52.340
 would you

00:56:52.340 --> 00:56:52.800
 renew the

00:56:52.800 --> 00:56:53.340
 right spirit

00:56:53.340 --> 00:56:54.280
 within me

00:56:54.280 --> 00:56:54.740
 and most of

00:56:54.740 --> 00:56:55.100
 all don't

00:56:55.100 --> 00:56:55.500
 cast your

00:56:55.500 --> 00:56:56.539
 don't leave

00:56:56.539 --> 00:56:56.920
 me

00:56:56.920 --> 00:56:59.780
 stay with

00:56:59.780 --> 00:57:00.600
 me and

00:57:00.600 --> 00:57:01.000
 God says

00:57:01.000 --> 00:57:01.420
 that's all

00:57:01.420 --> 00:57:01.660
 I've been

00:57:01.660 --> 00:57:02.039
 wanting to

00:57:02.039 --> 00:57:02.440
 do all

00:57:02.440 --> 00:57:02.700
 along

00:57:02.700 --> 00:57:03.579
 I've

00:57:03.579 --> 00:57:04.019
 known your

00:57:04.019 --> 00:57:04.240
 sin

00:57:04.240 --> 00:57:05.860
 and I've

00:57:05.860 --> 00:57:06.240
 loved you

00:57:06.240 --> 00:57:06.940
 despite it

00:57:06.940 --> 00:57:09.260
 the whole

00:57:09.260 --> 00:57:10.159
 message here

00:57:10.159 --> 00:57:11.240
 is that he

00:57:11.240 --> 00:57:12.920
 knows and

00:57:12.920 --> 00:57:13.420
 yet he runs

00:57:13.420 --> 00:57:13.960
 towards you

00:57:13.960 --> 00:57:14.960
 he runs

00:57:14.960 --> 00:57:15.480
 towards me

00:57:15.480 --> 00:57:18.139
 we still

00:57:18.139 --> 00:57:19.460
 have to bring

00:57:19.460 --> 00:57:19.880
 it to him

00:57:19.880 --> 00:57:20.059
 though

00:57:20.059 --> 00:57:21.079
 we still

00:57:21.079 --> 00:57:21.400
 have to

00:57:21.400 --> 00:57:21.800
 confess

00:57:21.800 --> 00:57:23.659
 so I'll ask

00:57:23.659 --> 00:57:23.920
 you now

00:57:23.920 --> 00:57:24.559
 and Alex is

00:57:24.559 --> 00:57:24.860
 going to come

00:57:24.860 --> 00:57:25.380
 back up and

00:57:25.380 --> 00:57:26.420
 the team are

00:57:26.420 --> 00:57:26.740
 going to lead

00:57:26.740 --> 00:57:27.639
 us in some

00:57:27.639 --> 00:57:28.380
 type of musical

00:57:28.380 --> 00:57:29.000
 reflection

00:57:29.000 --> 00:57:29.659
 let's call it

00:57:29.659 --> 00:57:29.920
 today

00:57:29.920 --> 00:57:31.659
 but you

00:57:31.659 --> 00:57:32.940
 can I invite

00:57:32.940 --> 00:57:33.399
 you to spend

00:57:33.399 --> 00:57:33.980
 a few moments

00:57:33.980 --> 00:57:34.659
 just to examine

00:57:34.659 --> 00:57:36.559
 it's funny

00:57:36.559 --> 00:57:36.940
 it's the Holy

00:57:36.940 --> 00:57:37.440
 Spirit that will

00:57:37.440 --> 00:57:38.399
 identify to you

00:57:38.399 --> 00:57:39.339
 what's really

00:57:39.339 --> 00:57:39.960
 going on

00:57:39.960 --> 00:57:41.539
 that's sin

00:57:41.539 --> 00:57:42.119
 that you don't

00:57:42.119 --> 00:57:42.639
 want people to

00:57:42.639 --> 00:57:43.019
 know about

00:57:43.019 --> 00:57:43.460
 there's actually

00:57:43.460 --> 00:57:43.799
 a deeper

00:57:43.799 --> 00:57:44.079
 one

00:57:44.079 --> 00:57:47.000
 and you

00:57:47.000 --> 00:57:47.339
 don't know

00:57:47.339 --> 00:57:47.460
 it

00:57:47.460 --> 00:57:47.699
 and I

00:57:47.699 --> 00:57:47.980
 don't know

00:57:47.980 --> 00:57:48.299
 it

00:57:48.299 --> 00:57:50.759
 but the Holy

00:57:50.759 --> 00:57:51.239
 Spirit can

00:57:51.239 --> 00:57:51.679
 reveal it to

00:57:51.679 --> 00:57:52.139
 you

00:57:52.139 --> 00:57:53.119
 so would

00:57:53.119 --> 00:57:53.539
 you ask

00:57:53.539 --> 00:57:54.699
 and don't

00:57:54.699 --> 00:57:55.239
 be afraid

00:57:55.239 --> 00:57:58.099
 I'll start

00:57:58.099 --> 00:57:58.519
 just as I

00:57:58.519 --> 00:57:58.839
 finished

00:57:58.839 --> 00:58:00.779
 we are all

00:58:00.779 --> 00:58:01.039
 sinners

00:58:01.039 --> 00:58:02.179
 you

00:58:02.179 --> 00:58:03.039
 me

00:58:03.039 --> 00:58:04.559
 the worst

00:58:04.559 --> 00:58:04.900
 kind

00:58:04.900 --> 00:58:06.360
 to the very

00:58:06.360 --> 00:58:06.739
 depths of

00:58:06.739 --> 00:58:07.119
 our soul

00:58:07.119 --> 00:58:09.679
 but praise

00:58:09.679 --> 00:58:10.199
 be to God

00:58:10.199 --> 00:58:11.480
 there is

00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:12.019
 Jesus our

00:58:12.019 --> 00:58:12.340
 Saviour

00:58:12.340 --> 00:58:14.579
 who paid

00:58:14.579 --> 00:58:15.099
 for the

00:58:15.099 --> 00:58:15.880
 sins

00:58:15.880 --> 00:58:16.639
 any sin

00:58:16.639 --> 00:58:17.159
 every sin

00:58:17.159 --> 00:58:18.079
 once and

00:58:18.079 --> 00:58:18.860
 for all

00:58:18.860 --> 00:58:20.539
 and he just

00:58:20.539 --> 00:58:20.960
 wants us to

00:58:20.960 --> 00:58:21.360
 bring it to

00:58:21.360 --> 00:58:21.579
 him

00:58:21.579 --> 00:58:23.099
 it's what

00:58:23.099 --> 00:58:23.699
 every parent

00:58:23.699 --> 00:58:24.159
 just wants

00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:24.500
 their kid

00:58:24.500 --> 00:58:24.880
 to do

00:58:24.880 --> 00:58:26.320
 to just

00:58:26.320 --> 00:58:26.659
 admit that

00:58:26.659 --> 00:58:27.099
 they can't

00:58:27.099 --> 00:58:27.539
 figure it

00:58:27.539 --> 00:58:27.759
 out on

00:58:27.759 --> 00:58:28.079
 their own

00:58:28.079 --> 00:58:30.480
 and come

00:58:30.480 --> 00:58:30.740
 back to

00:58:30.740 --> 00:58:30.880
 his

00:58:30.880 --> 00:58:31.059
 loving

00:58:31.059 --> 00:58:31.360
 arms

00:58:31.360 --> 00:58:32.900
 would you

00:58:32.900 --> 00:58:33.240
 spend that

00:58:33.240 --> 00:58:33.440
 moment

00:58:33.440 --> 00:58:33.960
 now

00:58:33.960 --> 00:58:43.760
 sometimes it

00:58:43.760 --> 00:58:44.119
 is bigger

00:58:44.119 --> 00:58:44.559
 and we

00:58:44.559 --> 00:58:44.780
 don't want

00:58:44.780 --> 00:58:45.240
 to underestimate

00:58:45.240 --> 00:58:45.900
 that either

00:58:45.900 --> 00:58:47.360
 but I want to

00:58:47.360 --> 00:58:47.659
 show you

00:58:47.659 --> 00:58:48.760
 the freedom

00:58:48.760 --> 00:58:49.300
 that comes

00:58:49.300 --> 00:58:49.619
 from just

00:58:49.619 --> 00:58:50.079
 getting it

00:58:50.079 --> 00:58:50.380
 off your

00:58:50.380 --> 00:58:50.699
 chest

00:58:50.699 --> 00:58:53.000
 and having

00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:53.780
 the guts

00:58:53.780 --> 00:58:54.159
 and courage

00:58:54.159 --> 00:58:54.360
 to go

00:58:54.360 --> 00:58:54.579
 hey

00:58:54.579 --> 00:58:55.579
 that was

00:58:55.579 --> 00:58:55.800
 me

00:58:55.800 --> 00:58:57.580
 thankfully

00:58:57.580 --> 00:58:57.840
 I have

00:58:57.840 --> 00:58:58.260
 a whole

00:58:58.260 --> 00:58:58.680
 book

00:58:58.680 --> 00:58:59.580
 of people

00:58:59.580 --> 00:59:00.320
 who seem

00:59:00.320 --> 00:59:00.539
 to be

00:59:00.539 --> 00:59:00.960
 just like

00:59:00.960 --> 00:59:01.200
 me

00:59:01.200 --> 00:59:02.960
 but it

00:59:02.960 --> 00:59:03.340
 all points

00:59:03.340 --> 00:59:03.539
 to the

00:59:03.539 --> 00:59:03.980
 one person

00:59:03.980 --> 00:59:04.380
 who isn't

00:59:04.380 --> 00:59:05.180
 the only

00:59:05.180 --> 00:59:05.440
 one who

00:59:05.440 --> 00:59:05.760
 is good

00:59:05.760 --> 00:59:06.539
 so I

00:59:06.539 --> 00:59:06.860
 encourage

00:59:06.860 --> 00:59:07.080
 you

00:59:07.080 --> 00:59:08.480
 I encourage

00:59:08.480 --> 00:59:08.660
 you

00:59:08.660 --> 00:59:09.000
 as you

00:59:09.000 --> 00:59:09.380
 go from

00:59:09.380 --> 00:59:09.500
 here

00:59:09.500 --> 00:59:09.980
 don't keep

00:59:09.980 --> 00:59:10.200
 it to

00:59:10.200 --> 00:59:10.560
 yourself

00:59:10.560 --> 00:59:12.140
 find

00:59:12.140 --> 00:59:12.860
 that person

00:59:12.860 --> 00:59:14.480
 that's a

00:59:14.480 --> 00:59:14.920
 really cool

00:59:14.920 --> 00:59:15.180
 tune

00:59:15.180 --> 00:59:15.720
 I've got to

00:59:15.720 --> 00:59:15.960
 say

00:59:15.960 --> 00:59:18.539
 find that

00:59:18.539 --> 00:59:18.940
 person

00:59:18.940 --> 00:59:19.960
 who you

00:59:19.960 --> 00:59:20.320
 know

00:59:20.320 --> 00:59:21.080
 cares for

00:59:21.080 --> 00:59:21.280
 you

00:59:21.280 --> 00:59:22.280
 and won't

00:59:22.280 --> 00:59:22.700
 judge you

00:59:22.700 --> 00:59:23.580
 and just

00:59:23.580 --> 00:59:24.000
 share it

00:59:24.000 --> 00:59:24.320
 with them

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 and honestly

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 the freedom

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 you feel

00:59:27.219 --> 00:59:28.300
 anyway

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 this is the

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 end of our

00:59:29.199 --> 00:59:29.659
 discipline

00:59:29.659 --> 00:59:30.159
 series

00:59:30.159 --> 00:59:30.699
 spiritual

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 disciplines

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 we're done

00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:32.619
 next week

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 is Easter

00:59:32.920 --> 00:59:33.300
 Sunday

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 so of course

00:59:34.980 --> 00:59:35.239
 remember

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 this week

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 let's keep

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 going on this

00:59:37.480 --> 00:59:37.760
 journey

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 is there

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 anything here

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 that you

00:59:39.659 --> 00:59:39.980
 dealt with

00:59:39.980 --> 00:59:40.500
 on the cross

00:59:40.500 --> 00:59:40.920
 that I

00:59:40.920 --> 00:59:41.519
 should bring

00:59:41.519 --> 00:59:41.800
 to you

00:59:41.800 --> 00:59:42.199
 this week

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 and we'll

00:59:43.360 --> 00:59:43.559
 see you

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 on Good

00:59:43.800 --> 00:59:44.059
 Friday

00:59:44.059 --> 00:59:45.179
 and then

00:59:45.179 --> 00:59:45.539
 we'll see

00:59:45.539 --> 00:59:45.880
 you on

00:59:45.880 --> 00:59:46.119
 Sunday

00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:46.400
 as well

00:59:46.400 --> 00:59:46.860
 and have

00:59:46.860 --> 00:59:47.179
 a wonderful

00:59:47.179 --> 00:59:47.460
 week

00:59:47.460 --> 00:59:47.860
 bye

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 bye

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 bye